Through Darkness into Light: Traveling Through Life’s Difficulties with Poems to Share the Journey
By Ann Yates
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Ann Yates
Ann lives in Anchorage, Alaska, where she works as a psychiatric nurse practitioner, providing medication and psychotherapy, participating and facilitating groups in mindfulness practices in the community, and teaching nursing students at the University of Alaska as her time allows. She "walks her talk" by using various methods of meditation, mindfulness skills, and spiritual beliefs in her daily living, including soaking up the natural beauty around her. She never intended to write poems but the poems came to her, born out of the challenge of cancer, which triggered a number of old but very powerful past traumas she had worked for years to resolve. In reading over her poetry, she realized it carries the theme of mindfulness and, more specifically, her own approach to mindfulness that she developed as a simple and easily accessible tool to use in times of emotional pain. With this in mind, she wrote about her experiences and her mindfulness approach to share with readers both her understanding of life's difficulties and ways to better be with and manage them. Ann feels her poetry motivates her to continue to grow and expand into its truth, knowing it is a lifelong process with many challenges along the way.
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Through Darkness into Light - Ann Yates
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About the Author
Ann lives in Anchorage, Alaska, where she works as a psychiatric nurse practitioner, providing medication and psychotherapy, participating and facilitating groups in mindfulness practices in the community, and teaching nursing students at the University of Alaska as her time allows. She walks her talk
by using various methods of meditation, mindfulness skills, and spiritual beliefs in her daily living, including soaking up the natural beauty around her. She never intended to write poems but the poems came to her, born out of the challenge of cancer, which triggered a number of old but very powerful past traumas she had worked for years to resolve. In reading over her poetry, she realized it carries the theme of mindfulness and, more specifically, her own approach to mindfulness that she developed as a simple and easily accessible tool to use in times of emotional pain. With this in mind, she wrote about her experiences and her mindfulness approach to share with readers both her understanding of life’s difficulties and ways to better be with and manage them. Ann feels her poetry motivates her to continue to grow and expand into its truth, knowing it is a lifelong process with many challenges along the way.
Dedication
I dedicate this book to the amazing beauty, strength, and support our natural world gives us, with its mountains, oceans, forests, flowers, and wildlife, much of which continues to be eroded and endangered by our human physical needs for ever more buildings, fuel, and things.
In contrast, I lean into nature for my emotional needs, for my sanity, and it has given me so much love, hope, and inspiration throughout my life. I need this planet to survive physically but I need it just as much to survive emotionally and spiritually. And that means using nature’s gifts carefully and respectfully while maintaining a balance of give and take. So I dedicate this book to nature, as a way to remind us, myself included, that we need our planet not only to survive, but to thrive.
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Yates, Ann
Through Darkness into Light
ISBN 9781643788562 (Paperback)
ISBN 9781643788579 (Hardback)
ISBN 9781645365402 (ePub e-book)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2019953167
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Acknowledgment
I would like to acknowledge two people who supported me, with so much love and grace, through my times of powerful challenges and growth: Chris and Rick.
A Different Way
The pain I feel is so profound
It twists in my chest, all around
It drops in my stomach
Pulling me to the ground
My mind is spinning in regret and anger
I reach out blindly for some kind of anchor
Then somewhere within me I remember a way
A way so different from what most people say
I slow down, I pause, I don’t run or fight
And I see through the darkness a pinpoint of light
The light of accepting, allowing the pain to be here
I even move toward it and let it be near
Despite the heaviness of my fear
Using my breath and my faith from within
I choose to be with what is now and what has been
If there’s one thing I know (and I take this part gentle and slow)
It’s that my pain can take me where I need to go
Into the light of recovery
Introduction
My Poetry as a Reflection and
Reminder of PACT
In reading my poems, you’ll find that each one is accompanied by writing that presents and explores PACT, a way of dealing with life’s darkness and difficulties. PACT is based on a mindful approach to life, and it is simple, very user-friendly and accessible, and helps one to find an emotional balance. The acronym stands for Pause, Accept and Acknowledge, Choose, and Therapy, each of which is further discussed and explored below in this introduction as well as accompanying each poem.
Before further presenting PACT, let me say I had no intention of writing poetry to reflect PACT and, in fact, I never intended to write poetry at all, the words just seemed to emerge from my experiences of emotional pain without any planning or intention from me. Only after creating my poems and rereading them did I begin to see the beauty in how they reflect the PACT process. The poems explore the darkness of life’s difficulties, all of which I have deeply experienced, and the lightness of finding a renewed balance through the PACT process, which I have also deeply experienced. Having gone through childhood trauma, including sexual, emotional, and physical abuse, I actively worked with years of therapy, sat daily in meditation practices, took an antidepressant, performed consistent exercise and relaxation routines, and was always working on fine-tuning my communication skills to best relate with people. I often felt I was breaking down a brick wall and building a new one at the same time, and it could be exhausting, even punishing work. It did yield success and rewards that I treasure, such as my professional work and home and lifestyle, but at the deeper emotional and spiritual level, it was limited.
I think much of that limitation, which I know many others experience, is linked to feeling alone and disconnected even when we are securely partnered
and have an active social life, not just when we don’t have a lot of