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    Gian Luigi
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    In 18— my oldest friend died. We had been at school and college together, and our intimacy had never been broken. I was trustee for his wife and executor at his death. He died of a lingering illness, during which his hopes of living were alternately raised, and depressed. Two years before he died, he gave me a huge parcel carefully tied up and sealed. Take care of, but don't open this he said: if I get better, return it to me, if I die, let no mortal eye but yours see it, and burn it. His widow died a year after him. I had well nigh forgoten this packet which I had had full three years, when looking for some title deeds I came cross it, and opened it, as it was my duty to do. Its contents astonished me. The more I read it, the more marvellous it seemed. I pondered long on the meaning of his instructions when he gave it to me, and kept the manuscript some years, hesitating what to do with it. At length I came to the conclusion knowing his idiosyncracy well, that his fear was only lest any one should know who the writer was; and feeling that it would be sinful to destroy such a history, I copied the manuscript and destroyed the original. He died relationless. No one now can trace the author, no names are mentioned in the book, though they were given freely in the margin of his manuscript, and I alone know to whom the initials refer. If I have done harm in printing it, I have done none to him, have indeed only carried out his evident intention, and given to a few a secret history, which bears the impress of truth on every page, a contribution to psychology.

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    In 18— my oldest friend died. We had been at school and college together, and our intimacy had never been broken. I was trustee for his wife and executor at his death. He died of a lingering illness, during which his hopes of living were alternately raised, and depressed. Two years before he died, he gave me a huge parcel carefully tied up and sealed. Take care of, but don't open this he said: if I get better, return it to me, if I die, let no mortal eye but yours see it, and burn it. His widow died a year after him. I had well nigh forgoten this packet which I had had full three years, when looking for some title deeds I came cross it, and opened it, as it was my duty to do. Its contents astonished me. The more I read it, the more marvellous it seemed. I pondered long on the meaning of his instructions when he gave it to me, and kept the manuscript some years, hesitating what to do with it. At length I came to the conclusion knowing his idiosyncracy well, that his fear was only lest any one should know who the writer was; and feeling that it would be sinful to destroy such a history, I copied the manuscript and destroyed the original. He died relationless. No one now can trace the author, no names are mentioned in the book, though they were given freely in the margin of his manuscript, and I alone know to whom the initials refer. If I have done harm in printing it, I have done none to him, have indeed only carried out his evident intention, and given to a few a secret history, which bears the impress of truth on every page, a contribution to psychology.

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    My Secret Life Vol 08

    Diunggah oleh

    Gian Luigi
    In 18— my oldest friend died. We had been at school and college together, and our intimacy had never been broken. I was trustee for his wife and executor at his death. He died of a lingering illness, during which his hopes of living were alternately raised, and depressed. Two years before he died, he gave me a huge parcel carefully tied up and sealed. Take care of, but don't open this he said: if I get better, return it to me, if I die, let no mortal eye but yours see it, and burn it. His widow died a year after him. I had well nigh forgoten this packet which I had had full three years, when looking for some title deeds I came cross it, and opened it, as it was my duty to do. Its contents astonished me. The more I read it, the more marvellous it seemed. I pondered long on the meaning of his instructions when he gave it to me, and kept the manuscript some years, hesitating what to do with it. At length I came to the conclusion knowing his idiosyncracy well, that his fear was only lest any one should know who the writer was; and feeling that it would be sinful to destroy such a history, I copied the manuscript and destroyed the original. He died relationless. No one now can trace the author, no names are mentioned in the book, though they were given freely in the margin of his manuscript, and I alone know to whom the initials refer. If I have done harm in printing it, I have done none to him, have indeed only carried out his evident intention, and given to a few a secret history, which bears the impress of truth on every page, a contribution to psychology.

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    MY SECRET LIFE

    VOLUME 8

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    VOLUME 8

    Chapter I Sarah's jealousy. Her allet postur!"#s. My postures. $" es%ape o& '!"(. )heel arro' &ash!o". $ you"# lass su##este(. Harr!et* s'eet s!+tee". F!"a"%!al arra"#e,e"ts. -o%tor H..,..( a#a!". Tooth rush a"( tooth po'(er. V!r#!"!ty (ou t&ul. Harr!et* s%re'e(* u"s%re'e(* a"( ope"e(. $ t!#ht /a#!"a. Sarah's stra"#e eha/!our. Three !" a e(. Harr!et jealous. Ru"s a'ay. The au(y0house '!th spyhole %lose(. O" the s!1e o& ,y pr!%2 a"( others. O" the %apa%!ty* elast!%!ty* a"( re%ept!/!ty o& %u"ts. )he" I 'e"t a%2 to Sarah* she 'as surpr!1e( at the le"#th o& ,y a se"%e* a"( thou#ht she ha( lost ,e. I tol( her* '!thout ,e"t!o"!"# 'ho the la(y 'as* o& ,y #oo( &ortu"e. She 'as sp!te&ul* as #ay la(!es are 'he" they ha/e ,!sse( the!r ,a" a"( the!r ,o"ey. I e+pe%t she ha( e#u" to re#ar( ,e as a re#ular sour%e o& !"0%o,e. She (ou te( !& the la(y 'as really ,arr!e(* "or altere( her op!"!o" 'he" I tol( her I ha( ha( the &!rst o& the la(y. She hope( the la(y ha( "ot %lappe( ,e. )e 'e"t to the peep hole a"( &or o"e or t'o e/e"!"#s ha( /ar!ous a,atory &rol!%s* a"( the" I ,a(e a (!s%o/ery a out Sarah. She ha( surpr!se( ,e y the ease '!th 'h!%h she pose( !" (!&&!%ult* le'e(* a"( o(( att!tu(es that I put her !". 3 Th!s e/e"!"# 'e ha( ee" s!tt!"# (r!"2!"#* a"( she 'as lar2!sh. I re,ar2e( the ease '!th 'h!%h she att!tu(!"!1e(. 3 She lau#he( a"( #ot up. 4Loo2 here the".4 3 She thre' o&& her %he,!se* put up o"e le# "early to the le/el o& her shoul(er* a"( pla%!"# the t!p o& the toe a#a!"st the 'all so as to rest !t* !"%l!"e( her o(y (o'"'ar(s to'ar(s the &loor '!th her ha"( tou%h!"# !t. 3 It 'as a s!#ht. Her %u"t 'as #ap!"#* sho'!"# the roa(est re( &a%e 'h!%h a %u"t %a" sho' '!thout e!"# pulle( ope" y &!"#ers* the (ar2 th!%2 ha!r she'!"# all arou"( !t* u"t!l lost at her u,hole. The th!%2et !" o"e ar,p!t 'as 5u!te /!s! le* a"( all th!s 'as see" at a #la"%e. 3 I 'e"t o" ,y 2"ees to loo2 at her spl!t* a"( put ,y &!"#er o" !t !" au(y e%stasy. She stoo( upr!#ht a"( I e##e( her to (o !t a#a!". 3 4Loo2* I (o"'t th!"2 I %a" (o !t "o' ut '!ll try.4 Thro'!"# up her le#* she %au#ht hol( o& the toe '!th her ha"(* the" pull!"# !t h!#her a"( h!#her* she tur"e( rou"( a"( rou"( o" her le&t &oot. It 'as a 5u!te &resh /!e' o& the %u"tal terr!tory. The (ar2 &r!"#e( l!ps 'ere "o' "ot ope"* ut 'ere sl!#htly s5uee1e( to0#ether* yet ,a(e pro,!"e"t. The re( str!pe 'as s%ar%ely per%ept! le ut the l!ps she'e( the %r!,so" e#!""!"#* a"( a peep o& the arse /alley 'as #ot. The s!#ht 'as e"tra"%!"#* a"( !" a ,!"ute hurry!"# her to the e(* I plu##e( her %u"t. She 'as !" rare le'e( ,oo( a"( soo" spe"t. I ha( that "!#ht p!sse( a#a!"st her %u"t* a"( 'e "o' oth spe"t to#ether lus%!ously. 4I a, as ra"(y as e (a,"e(*4 sa!( she. 4I al'ays a, just e&ore ,y ,o"th 3 &u%2 ,e a#a!".4
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    )e sat (o'" a&ter our e+er%!se. Sa!( I* 4You ,ust ha/e ee" a (a"%er.4 She lau#he(. 3 4-!( you "e/er see ,e e&ore you ,et ,e !" the street74 48e/er.4 4$re you sure74 4I th!"2 so.4 4-!( you e/er see the play o& .. at Co"/e"t 9ar(e":4 4Yes.4 4$h. The" you sa' ,e. 3 I use( to (a"%e !" !t.4 The" I (re' &ro, her that she ha( ee" a &!#ura"te 3 ut "e/er lear"t 'hy she le&t the theatre. She (!( "ot ,ea" to #o o" a#a!" 3 altho she %oul( !& she '!she(. 3 4There are reaso"s* I', "ot #o!"# to tell !& you as2 ,e all "!#ht.4 I" the att!tu(es the" she pla%e( hersel& a#a!"* the" (a"%e( "a2e(* a"( posture( as the allet (a"%ers (o. 3 4Co,e a"( hol( ,e so* a"( so 3 ta2e o&& your sh!rt.4 3 I (!(. 3 The" she pla%e( ,e so as to hol( her !" /ar!ous att!tu(es* as ,e" hol( &e,ale (a"%ers !" allets. 3 There 'ere 'e "a2e( e&ore a lar#e #lass. 3 She !" att!tu(es e+pos!"# her a%2s!(e a"( %u"t* 3 I "o' '!th st!&& pr!%2 hol(!"# her. 3 So,e0t!,es she hel( y ,y pr!%2. 3 Soo" a&ter pos!"# !" a &e' att!tu(es she a#a!" #ot ,y pe#o !"to her %u"t* a"( a#a!" a&ter'ar(s t!ll I 'as &u%2e( out. 3 She 'as hot that "!#ht. Th!s 'as at the au(y house '!th the #lasses. I 'e"t a'ay (el!#hte(. 3 Thou#ht I* so,e &ello's 'oul( #!/e "o e"( o& ,o"ey to see her. Ho' o&te" s!"%e I ha/e '!she( as I sa' the allet (a"%ers %o%2!"# up th!s le#* or thro'!"# out that* that the!r (ra'ers 'ere a'ay a"( I %oul( see the!r 5u!,s. 3 8o' !t ,ust e '!(e stret%he(* "o' 'hat a s!#ht !t 'oul( e. 3 I &u%2e( a allet #!rl so,e years a#o as I th!"2 I ha/e tol(* ut perhaps that !s o"e o& the "arrat!/es o,!tte( !" or(er to shorte" th!s h!story* ut that 'as &or the pleasure o& &u%2!"# thro a %ut I ,a(e !" her t!#hts. I th!"2 I ha/e tol( th!s ut a, "ot sure. She &or a ,!"ute or t'o ha( p!rouette(* ut I o"ly ha( '!th her a ,o,e"tary a,use,e"t. 3 ;ut "o' I ha/e a &!"e l!, e( 'o,a" 'ho %a" (o !t all* a"( '!ll (o !t 'he" I l!2e 3 so I thou#ht o". $ "!#ht a&ter 'he" I 'a"te( her to posture "a2e( she re&use(. 3 )e ha( 'or(s* I pa!( her* a"( to her asto"!sh,e"t 'e"t a'ay '!thout &u%2!"# her. $#a!" I ,et her a"( as2e( her. $#a!" she 'oul( "ot* a"( a#a!" a'ay I 'e"t. 3 The th!r( t!,e she sa!( she 'oul( posture a l!ttle* a"( so to the $..a 'e 'e"t. )he" !"(oors she re&use(* 'as sorry she ha( e/er 4sho'" o&& so*4 'o"(ere( ho' she %a,e to e su%h a &ool as to let out a out hersel&. 4Cha,pa#"e a"( le'e("ess (!( !t* Sarah.4 3 $s she st!ll re&use(* I put (o'" the ,o"ey a"( 'as #o!"# a'ay* 'he"* 4-o"'t #o '!thout po2!"# ,e* I'll (o !t.4 3 T'e"ty ,!"utes a&ter0'ar(s* altho sul2!ly* there she 'as* o"e toe a#a!"st a ,etal shel&* I "a2e( '!th a %o%2 upr!#ht 3 "o' loo2!"# at her #ap!"# 5u!,* "o' peep!"# u"(er her utto%2s* "o' loo2!"# at the re&le%t!o" o& our "a2e( o(!es !" the #lasses. I ,a(e her thro' up her le# a"( %at%h the toe* a"( as '!th a" e&&ort she (!( so* out sl!ppe( a l!ttle &art. 3 4There*4 sa!( she* 4I s'ear I '!ll "e/er (o !t a#a!"*4 a"( she 'oul("'t that "!#ht. 3 I &u%2e( her a"( le&t her !" the sul2s.
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    I 'oul( "ot #o '!th her a#a!" u"t!l she pro,!se(* a"( soo" her postur!"# 'as part o& ,y e/e"!"#'s a,use,e"t. )e use( to att!tu(!"!1e e&ore the loo2!"# #lass* lau#h at our postures* a"( say 'hat ,o"ey ,e" 'oul( #!/e to see us t'o "a2e( to#ether. 3 I (are say r!%h ,e" ha/e !"(u%e( allet #!rls to (o as ,u%h* ut ,ore they %oul( "ot< a"( I 'as &ortu"ate to ha/e ha( su%h /oluptuous e"terta!",e"ts so %heaply. The" I &u%2e( her 'heel arro' &ash!o". I ha/e tr!e( that* I th!"2* '!th other 'o,e" ut a, "ot sure. It see,e( "o' a "o/elty. )!th Sarah's lo"# l!, s I %oul( a%%o,pl!sh !t 'ell. She put p!llo's o" the &loor &or her hea( a"( ar,s to rest o". I sat ,ysel& at the s!(e o& the e( "a2e(. She 'as "a2e( also* put her le#s #ra(ually up o" to the e(* o"e o" ea%h s!(e o& ,y hau"%hes* the" I hel( her le#s at the proper le/el. It 'as a eaut!&ul s!#ht to see her u, #ra(ually %o,!"# up. The utto%2s' &urro' o"ly she'!"# a l!ttle at &!rst* a"( the" the (ar2 ha!r* th!%2 a"( %urly o" the s!(es o& her %u"t* %o,!"# !"to s!#ht* a"( et'ee" !t the re( #ap. The" I lea"e( a%2 &or a &e' se%o"(s !" a(,!rat!o"* pull!"# ope" the u, %hee2s* a"( ury!"# ,y &!"#er !" the re( la"e. 3 The" press!"# (o'" ,y pr!%2* 'h!%h res!ste( elast!%ally* e!"# ,o/e( out o& !ts perpe"(!%ular* I !"serte( !t !" her %u"t a"( (ro/e !t ho,e* pass!"# ,y ha"(s u"(er her th!#hs* sho/!"# a"( e+%!t!"# her to the %r!s!s. My se"ses re%o/ere(* I sat (o'" o" the e( a#a!"* 2eep!"# ,y (oo(le as %lose !"to her %u"t as I %oul(* a"( pass!"# o"e ha"( rou"( to her elly &elt her %l!tor!s* t!ll ,y pr!%2 %a,e out o& !ts pool* a"( the las%!/!ous ju"%t!o" 'as o/er. Th!s 'as /ery e+%!t!"#* ut as a &u%2 the pos!t!o" !s !"&er!or !" pleasure to ,a"y att!tu(es. The ,a"'s pr!%2 !s e"t (o'"* the %l!tor!s e"( o& the %u"t loses !ts &r!%t!o". The 'o,a"'s posture '!th oth her ha"(s a"( hea( (o'" lo' !s &at!#u!"#. I& they oth spe"( there !s "o repose a&ter the e,!ss!o"* a"( the tra"5u!l* la"#u!( pleasure 'h!%h &ollo's the a%t!/e ra,,!"#* allo%2s 'a##!"#* u, 'r!##l!"#* t'!st!"#* a"( a&ter s5uee1!"#* !s lost. I ha( "ot thou#ht a"yth!"# ,ore a out l!ttle u"&le(#e( %u"ts* 'as sat!s&!e( &or the t!,e* I suppose* '!th ,y past a,use,e"t '!th (ea& l!ttle E,,a. I 'e"t the" o"%e or t'!%e to Sarah's lo(#!"#s. She let ,e !" hersel& &or she (!("'t al'ays 2eep a l!ttle ser/a"t* ut ha( o&te" o"ly a %har'o,a". 3 There I ,a(e her (o a l!ttle &a"tast!% &u%2!"#* as 'ell as postur!"#* 'he" the &ollo'!"# o%%urre(. I suppose that ha/!"# #ot ,o"ey y supply!"# ,e '!th a youth&ul /!r#!"* she 'a"te( a"other o"us* a"( e%a,e the te,ptress. She sa!( o"e "!#ht 'he" I ,et her out a"( stoppe( o"ly to ha/e a %hat that she'( just #ot su%h a "!%e you"# ,a!(* 'oul( I ha/e her7 3 My let%h &or youth&ul 5u!,s 'as* I suppose* s,oul(er!"#* a"( !t at o"%e le' up !"to &la,e. I as2e( the pr!%e a"( a#ree( to pay as e&ore* !& the #!rl 'as /!r#!". ;ut there 'as (!&&!%ulty a out the /!r#!"!ty* &or the #!rl 'as 5u!te s!+tee"* ha( ha( her %ourses &or so,e t!,e* a"( ha( ee" !" ser/!%e. Sarah thou#ht she 'as /!r#!"* ut 2"e' she %oul("'t (e%e!/e ,e 3 'oul( I #o a"( see her7 She #a/e a" !"%!t!"# a%%ou"t o& her "!%e
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    loo2s* a"( as she 'as at a %har,!"# a#e* a" a#e at 'h!%h I ha( ha( o& late years &e'* ,y 'o,e" ha/!"# ee" e!ther you"#er or ,u%h ol(er* I arra"#e( to #o a"( ha/e a loo2 at the #!rl. I 'as to e -o%tor H..,.( a#a!"* Sarah !"(ee( al'ays "o' %alle( ,e -o%tor 3 I 'e"t a"( sa' a tall* th!"* r!#ht loo2!"#* (ar2 eye(* (ar2 ha!re( #!rl* 'ho loo2e( 5u!te s!+tee". Her eyes &lashe( as she spo2e* a"( I sa!( that I &a"%!e( she 2"e' a pr!%2 &ro, a roll!"# p!". 3 Sa!( Sarah* 4I "e/er 2"e' a #!rl 'ho 'as s!+tee" 'ho (!("'t* #!rls 'ho ha/e "urse( the!r rothers ha/e see" a pr!%2 st!&&* e/e" !& they ha/e"'t st!&&e"e( the, 3 ut she !s 'orth a po2e 'hether she's ha( o"e e&ore or "ot* tho I el!e/e !& she ha( ee" po2e(* that she 'oul("'t %o,e to ,e.4 She ha( (o"e her est. 3 4She ,ay "e/er ha/e ee" po2e(* e/e" altho she ,ay "ot #!/e you trou le to #et up her.4 3 I ,a(e up ,y ,!"( at o"%e that the #!rl 'as "ot /!r#!". Sarah 'as &or ,y #ett!"# !t o/er soo" !& !t 'as to e (o"e. She 'as "ot #o!"# to h!(e her e!"# #ay &ro, the #!rl* as she ha( &ro, the (ea& #!rl at &!rst* ha( al0 rea(y tol( her ho' she #ot her l!/!"#* a"( that a #oo( easy l!/!"# !t 'as. Th!s #!rl's "a,e 'as Harr!et. I& I 'a"te( to e sure that she 'as !"ta%t* ,a2!"# her (ru"2 a"( loo2!"# 'as the 'ay. Sarah 'oul( help ,e* ut the soo"er the etter. It 'as o& "o use 2eep!"# her !& I (!( "ot 'a"t her. 3 She (!( "ot 'a"t a #oo( loo2!"# #!rl there. 4$&ra!( o& Mr. F.1.r74 >erhaps she 'as* ut that (!( "ot ,atter to ,e* Sarah sa!( s"app!shly. The #!rl 'as tol( I 'as the (o%tor to Sarah a"( I o"%e use( to 4-o her o/er4 ?her usual ter,@ 3 ut "o' tho I %a,e to see her as (o%tor* I "e/er &u%2e( her* ut I tal2e( &reely* au(!ly* a"( "e/er %har#e( &or ,y ,e(!%al ser/!%es* I 'as a" o(( ut #oo( ,a". The #!rl I &ou"( a"s'ere( per&e%tly to Sarah's (es%r!pt!o" o& her. Her &lash!"# (ar2 eyes ha( a" u"usually so&t e+press!o" !" the,. $ s'eet e+press!o" o& le'e("ess a"( /oluptuous"ess* 'h!%h so,e #!rls ha/e just a&ter the!r &!rst ,e"struat!o"s ha/e settle( (o'" to the e+a%t ,o"thly per!o(* lea/!"# the, &resh t!"te(* so&t s2!""e(* a"( rea(y to re%e!/e the lo/e o& ,a". 3 Th!s stru%2 ,e to e the %ase '!th Harr!et* 'ho I th!"2 %a,e &ro, o"e o& the outer su ur s o& Lo"(o"* ut so,eho' I 'as "e/er as %ur!ous to /er!&y th!s !,press!o"* or to lear" a"yth!"# a out her* as I ha/e ee" a out so,e 'o,e". I" a (ay or t'o I 'as a#a!" at Sarah's lo(#!"#s. 0 4'-o you ,!"( Harr!et s!tt!"# !" th!s roo,7 There !s "o &!re !" the e(roo,.4 48o.4 I (!( "ot. The #!rl the" sat (o'" at "ee(le'or2* I se"t her &or ra"(y a"( '!"e* #!/!"# her the %ha"#e. )e all (ra"2* a"( the #!rl 5u!%2ly e"ou#h. Sarah 'e"t !"to the e(roo,. )h!lst a se"t* a&ter jo2!"# the #!rl I p!"%he( her u,. She %r!e( out. Sarah %a,e !". 3 4)hat's the ,at0ter.4 4The #e"tle,a"'s pull!"# ,e a out.4 4Lor(* I thou#ht he 'as 2!%2!"# your arse you ,a2e su%h a "o!se.4 The #!rl ope"e( her ,outh '!(e* stare(* a"( sat (o'" %o"&use(. 3 )e lau#he(. I
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    sa!( I shoul( l!2e to 2!ss Harr!et's a"( "ot 2!%2 !t* I 'as sure !t 'as as pretty as her &a%e. >rese"tly I 'e"t eh!"( her* putt!"# ,y ha"( u"(er her %h!"* 2!sse( her a"( "ot!%e( the" that she ha( #oo( teeth* ut "ot too %lea". 4You ha/e a "!%e set o& teeth* ut you (o"'t %lea" the,.4 4My rush !s 'or" out* S!r.4 4Let ,e see your teeth etter.4 She res!ste(. 4-o"'t e a &ool*4 sa!( Sarah* 4let the -o%tor see your teeth.4 )he" I ha( (o"e so* 4Here*4 sa!( I. 49o to the %he,!st* uy a tooth rush a"( a o+ o& tooth po'(er as 5u!%2ly as you %a".4 O&& she 'e"t 3 I "e/er %oul( ear a"y 'o,a" '!th (!rty teeth. I ha( #!/e" her &!/e sh!ll!"#s. She 'as a%2 !" &!/e ,!"utes* a"( please( e"ou#h 3 espe%!ally 'he" I tol( her to 2eep the %ha"#e. 3 She ope"e( the o+ to loo2 !"s!(e at !ts %o"te"ts sta"(!"# %lose y the la,p. I 'as sta"(!"# '!th ,y ru,p to the &!re s,o2!"#. 4)he" that !s #o"e I '!ll #!/e you ,ore 3 %lea" your teeth e/ery ,or"!"# a"( "!#ht* a"( !" a 'ee2 your ,outh '!ll e as s'eet as your %u"t* just a&ter you ha/e 'ashe( !t.4 The #!rl (roppe( the o+* sp!ll!"# the %o"te"ts o/er the ta le 3 stare( at ,e &or a se%o"( 3 tur"e( her a%2* urst out lau#h!"#* %he%2e( !t* a"( rushe( !"to the e(roo,. Sarah %r!e( out* 4-a," you* you %areless l!ttle east* you'/e spo!lt ,y ta le %loth*4 a"( &et%he( her a%2. 4It's "o use ,!"(!"# the -o%tor.4 The #!rl #ot up the tooth po'(er* I thre' hal& a %ro'" to Sarah* say!"#* 4It 'as ,y &ault* la%20 %u"t* a"( that '!ll help to %lea" the %loth.4 It's too lo"# to tell all* ut I 2ept up that style o& tal2* a"( #ot the #!rl to s!t y the &!re '!th us* her ,!stress say!"#* 4Co,e !& he '!shes !t* he al'ays has h!s 'ay here.4 $"( I tal2e( au(y e"ou#h to ha/e tur"e( a %ler#y,a"'s ha!r #rey. The #!rl's eyes &ro, shu""!"# at le"#th loo2e( at ,e* Sarah 2ept tell!"# her "ot to ,!"( ,e 3 "ot to e a &ool 3 that she ,ust hear ,e" tal2 so so,e (ay. >erhaps she ha( alrea(y* I thou#ht. I as2e( her 5uest!o"s 'h!%h a ,e(!%al ,a" ,!#ht. )he" she (!( "ot reply* Sarah re u2e( her. 4)hat %a" !t ,atter to h!, 3 you ,!#ht e !ll so,e (ay* a"( 'a"t h!,.4 $s I #ot heate( y '!"e a"( the loo2 o& the #!rl* I pro,!se( her ,o"ey &or oots a"( sto%2!"#s pro/!(e( she 'oul( let ,e put the, o". 4Ta2e the ,o"ey 3 (o"'t e su%h a &ool 3 ta2e !t*4 sa!( Sarah. I too2 ,y lea/e* say!"#* 4-ar2 ha!r* a"( (ar2 eyes just l!2e Sarah 3 I 'a#er your %u"t ha!r !s (ar2 l!2e Sarah's.4 The #!rl lushe( a"( (!( "ot reply. 4It !s la%2*4 sa!( Sarah lau#h!"#. 4I ha/e see" !t.4 The #!rl e%a,e so 5u!et that I e#a" to th!"2 she ha( hear( su%h tal2 e&ore 3 ut her ,a""er a&ter0'ar(s %o"/!"%e( ,e she 'as "ot a%%usto,e( to !t. I sa' Sarah "e+t "!#ht !" the street. 4)e'll ,a2e her (ru"2 a"( loo2 at her %u"t to,orro' "!#ht*4 sa!( she. 00 ;ut 'e 'ere aul2e(* &or the #!rl's ,e"struat!o" %a,e o"* a"( 'e (e&erre( the jo . ;ut I as2e( the #!rl all a out
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    her %ourses* as a (o%tor ,!#ht. She #a/e ,e pla!" ut ,o(est a"s'ers. ;y the t!,e her ,o"th0l!es 'ere o/er* she ha( %ease( to e/a(e ,y 5uest!o"s e/e" 'he" au(y. )he" Sarah lau#he(* the #!rl (!( so altho u"eas!ly 3 &our or &!/e "!#hts' s,utty tal2 'ere rea2!"# (o'" her ,o(esty. The" Sarah tol( ,e she ha( sho'" her ,y au(y oo2 a"( a(/!se( ,e to r!"# a"other* a"( 'e arra"#e( that 'he" she 'as t!#ht* Sarah shoul( #o out a"( I shoul( e+a,!"e her %u"t a"( (o 'hat I please(. I ha( ta2e" 5u!te a (!&&ere"t l!2!"# to th!s #!rl &ro, that 'h!%h I ha( &or the (ea& o"e* 'ho 'as l!2e a %h!l(* a"( 'ho, I (es!re( e%ause she 'as so. ;ut Harr!et* ,ore tha" a year ol(er* ha( ,a(e ,e &eel Le'e( !" a (!&&ere"t se"se. 3 It 'as the %har, o& #ett!"# !"to a /ery you"# 'o,a"* 'hose pass!o"s 'ere #ett!"# rouse( y "ature a"( 5u!%2e"e( y ,e. 3 She 'as "ot so you"# as I ha( '!she(* ut you"# e"ou#h to e a pleasurea le "o/elty. Tho I (o"'t 2"o' really 'hat %a" e %alle( /ery "o/el to ,e !" the 'ay o& 'o,e" a"( the ,a""er o& play!"# '!th the,. O"e e/e"!"# ehol( ,e at the house. )!"e a"( ra"(y a"( 'ater 'as ha(. It 'as a %ol( "!#ht a"( 'e sat &a%!"# the &!re. 3 ;au(!"ess 'as o"* altho 'e ha( "ot pla""e( 'hat to say* ut !t 'as to e e"ou#h to st!,ulate the #!rl's lust to the h!#hest* a"( a&ter ha/!"# ,a(e her e!ther s%re'e( e"ou#h to per,!t ,e to (o a"yth!"# '!th her* I 'as to loo2 at her /!r#!"!ty* or &or !t* a"( &u%2 !t out o& her !& she #ot !t as est I ,!#ht. I (!( "ot l!2e th!s us!"ess* tho I %o"se"te( to !t* as I ha/e e&ore !" ,y %areer. 4Co,e a"( s!t here*4 sa!( I to the #!rl. 4It's %ol( there.4 3 She (!(* a"( 'e 'ere all three !" &ro"t o& the &!re* I !" the ,!((le. I #a/e her t'o #lasses o& '!"e '!thout ,u%h e&&e%t. Sarah '!"2e( at ,e* hal& &!lle( a tu, ler '!th o!l!"# 'ater a"( lots o& su#ar a"( ra"(y. It 'as as stro"# as the (e/!l ut the s'eet"ess (!s#u!se( !t. 3 4Here Harr!et* ta2e a #oo( (rop.4 She #ulpe( !t* Sarah a"( I too2 a l!ttle* the" a#a!" the #!rl too2 lar#e #ulps. Soo" her eyes r!#hte"e(* a"( she #!##le( !" the 'ay #!rls are o&te" a&&e%te(* at the e#!""!"# o& a lush* a"( e&ore the stup!( sta#e %o,es o". The" Sarah ra!se( her o'" pett!%oats to her 2"ees* to let the 'ar,th o& the &!re rea%h her u,* as the ,ost ,o(est 'o,a" '!ll (o !& y hersel&* or '!th her &e,ale &r!e"(s* or hus a"(* prese"t. 4Let ,e see your "e' sto%2!"#s a"( oots*4 sa!( I* &or I ha( #!/e" the ,o"ey &or the,. She hes!tate(. 4She' the, to the -o%tor.4 The #!rl let ,e ra!se her pett!%oats to her 2"ees* sho'!"# a th!""!sh ut "eat pa!r o& le#s. I pra!se( a"( stro2e( the,. 4Beep the pett!%oats up l!2e your ,!stress* you see she l!2es the &!re to #et to her %u"t.4 4Oho*4 sa!( the #!rl* (ropp!"# the %lothes. Sarah lau#he( 3 4I l!2e to 'ar, ,y %u"t. )hat (o you (rop your %lothes &or* you l!ttle &ool.4 I pulle( up her %lothes a#a!"* she let ,e* a"( 'e ha( ,ore ra"(y a"( 'ater. The" I &elt Sarah's th!#hs* the" #ra(ually &elt the #!rl's th!#hs. 3 4I (o"'t %are 3 there*4 sa!( Sarah !" a"s'er to ,e* a"( she
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    pulle( up her %lothes 5u!te to her "a/el* put o"e le# up a#a!"st the %h!,"ey0 p!e%e a"(* hal& tur"!"# rou"( !" her %ha!r* she'e( her %u"t. 4I l!2e ,y %u"t loo2e( at 3 l!2e !t &u%2e( 3 you'/e see" a"( &u%2e( !t ,a"y a t!,e* ha/e"'t you* -o%tor74 Harr!et stare(* sa!( 4Oho:4 a"( #!##le(* ut res!ste( ,e* 'ho 'as "o' try!"# har( to &eel her. She 'as #ra(ually #ett!"# s%re'e(* a"( her res!sta"%e #re' less as I !"s!ste(. The" Sarah pulle( out ,y pr!%2* I &elt Sarah's %u"t* #ot Harr!et o" to ,y 2"ees* a"( &elt all a out her l!, s* a"( the" 'as a %o"&us!o" o& au(y (ee(s a"( au(y tal2. Sarah rose* '!"2e( at ,e* sa!( she ,ust #o out* a"( !" a ,!"ute ha( #o"e 3 I lo%2e( the (oor. Harr!et seate( hersel& !" Sarah's ar, %ha!r* I (roppe( o" ,y 2"ees* thro'!"# up her pett!%oats* a"( sa' that she ha( sl!#ht la%2!sh ha!r at the otto, o& her elly. I pushe( et'ee" her le#s a"( pulle( the, rou"( ,e* a"( that rou#ht her u, to the e(#e o& the %ha!r* a"( ,y pr!%2 'h!%h I ha( pulle( out just tou%he( her %u"t. )!th a %ry she #ot a%2* ut she e!"# !" a s!tt!"# pos!t!o"* eas!ly I pulle( her to ,e a#a!"* ,y st!&& pr!%2 "o' tou%h!"# her th!#hs. She 'as "o' lau#h!"# a (ru"2e" lau#h. 4Feel ,y pr!%2*4 sa!( I* putt!"# (o'" her ha"(. 3 4Oh: oh:4 sa!( she try!"# to (o so as !& (el!#hte(. 4It's ,y pr!%2*4 sa!( I. 4Yes*4 she a"s'ere(. 4Let ,e &u%2 you 3 %o,e to the e(.4 4Oh* "o: I %a"'t.4 3 4Ha/e you e/er ee" &u%2e( 3 'oul("'t you l!2e !t.4 She #!##le(* a"( ha( just se"se e"ou#h le&t "ot to a"s'er. I ha( "o' ,y ha"( et'ee" her th!#hs* 'as &u, l!"# at her %u"t* a"( she (!( "ot res!st. The" I #ot up* sat o" a %ha!r* pulle( her o" to ,y lap* hel( her a%2* a"( putt!"# ,y pr!%2 !" her ha"( &elt her %u"t* a"( 2!ss!"# her sa!(* 4Let ,e &u%2 you.4 I #ot "o a"s'er* ut she 2!sse( ,e* #rasp!"# ,y %o%2. 3 Her eyes %lose(. 3 Say!"# 4oh 3 (o"'t s!r* 3oh (o"'t4 3 !" a th!%2 sta,,er!"# ,a""er. 4-!( "ot you hear 'hat Mrs. F..1.r sa!(.4 4Oh* yes*4 a"( she hel( ,y %o%2 so t!#ht that she hurt ,e. Sarah ha( "ot le&t te" ,!"utes. I le( her to the e(roo, a"( '!thout res!sta"%e #ot her o" to the e(. There 'as a %a"(le le&t al!#ht. 3 >artly y #e"tle &or%e a"( partly y e"treaty* I #ot up her %lothes a"( separat!"# her le#s tr!e( to loo2 at her %u"t. She tr!e( to r!se a"( I pushe( her a%2. Her hea( &ell o" the p!llo'. I lu##e( her to the s!(e 3 4-o"'t 3 (o"'t4 3 &or%e( apart her le#s a"( pulle( ope" her %u"t l!ps. 3 -ru"2 as she 'as* she res!ste( e"ou#h to ,a2e ,y loo2 u"%erta!"* ut I sa' that !t 'as a" ope"e( spl!t. >ass!o" the" /a"5u!she( ,e* I &or#ot ,y o je%t !" loo2!"#* her &lesh loo2e( so "!%e* the sl!#ht ha!r o" the pretty l!ttle pouters ,a(e ,e e0s!(e ,ysel& 3 putt!"# her stra!#ht o" the e( a#a!"* I %o/ere( her '!thout res!sta"%e* u"%o"s%!ously she 'a"te( &u%2!"#. The "e+t !"sta"t ,y pr!%2 'as lo(#e( at the e"tra"%e.
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    4Oh you hurt 3 oh you ,ust"'t 3 oh pray*4 'as all she sa!(. I &elt I ha( ro2e" thro "oth!"#* "o o sta%le ha( ,et ,e* yet I see,e( to ,a2e ut /ery l!ttle 'ay. Thrust a&ter thrust* &urther I e"tere( yet ut slo'ly. $t le"#th I 'as up !t to !ts top a"( spe"(!"#. $ t!#ht &!t a"( "o ,!sta2e !& !t 'as "ot a /!r#!"!ty. 3 ;eyo"( 4Oh: oh: (o"'t4 3 "ot /ery lou(* she ha( #!/e" "o uttera"%e o& pa!"* a"( y the t!,e ,y pr!%2 %oul( #o "o &urther* a"( ,y alls 'ere a"#!"# a#a!"st her utto%2s* she 'as 5u!et. I ha( spe"t too e+%!te(ly* 'as she or 'as she "ot /!r#!"7 The thou#ht 'as 'or2!"#. )!th pr!%2 up her st!ll* I rose o" ,y el o' to loo2 at her a"( put ,y ha"( (o'" to &eel her %u"t. ;y the l!#ht o& the sol!tary %a"(le* I %oul( see "o loo( o" ,y &!"#ers. Dust the" she ope"e( her eyes. 4Oh I a, so !ll 3 I shall e s!%2* #et a'ay* s!r* let ,e #et up*4 sa!( she !" !"%ohere"t to"es* a"( e#a" to ret%h. I pulle( out ,y pr!%2* a"( '!th ,y sh!rt ta!l '!pe( the 'hole &a%e o& her %u"t. The" I ra!se( her up a"( #ot her a as!"* !"to 'h!%h she /o,!te(. 3 4Oh ,y hea(* I a, so !ll.4 She 2ept ,oa"!"#* I #ot her 'ar, 'ater a"( ,a(e her (r!"2 !t* 'h!%h rou#ht up the re,a!"(er o& the l!5uor. The" she &ell asleep. I loo2e( at ,y sh!rt ta!l o" 'h!%h 'ere spots o& sper,* ut "o loo( 3 I (ou te( !& she 'ere a /!r#!" a"( resol/e( "ot to pay Sarah. Loo2!"# at her ,a(e ,e le'e( a#a!" 3 I l!&te( her %lothes a"( loo2e( at her %u"t* pull!"# '!(e apart her th!#hs* the" put ,y &!"#er up !t 3 "e/er ha( I &elt a"yth!"# so t!#ht* e/e" as the sper, rolle( out rou"( ,y &!"#er. The l!ttle (ea& o"e's %u"t 'as loose y %o,par!so". 3 Soo" I ,ou"te( her* the" she a'a2e"e( ut let ,e (o 'hat I l!2e(. $#a!" ,y pr!%2 'e"t up !"%h y !"%h throu#h her sl!,y tu e* so t!#ht 'as !t* a"( e"joy!"# !t I %o"su,,ate( slo'ly. Stup!( as she 'as* ,y pr!%2 rouse( her pass!o"s a"( she spe"t. She a'a2e"e( to !t* a"( #aspe( l!2e a &!sh out o& 'ater. I"(ee( I "e/er sa' a #!rl ,ore a#!tate( ut !" a pe%ul!ar 'ay 'he" spe"(!"#. The ,ajor!ty o& you"# o"es are so 5u!et a out !t. ;ut th!s #!rl's ,outh ope"e(* her eyes tur"e( up t!ll "oth!"# ut the 'h!te 'as /!s! le* her l!ps 5u!/ere(* a"( the "e+t !"sta"t she see,e( asleep. She ha( spe"t* ut s%ar%ely see,e( to 2"o' !t. Sarah just the" %a,e !" a"( I tol( that she 'as "ot a /!r#!" a"( shoul( "ot e pa!( /!r#!"!ty pr!%e. 4I el!e/e she !s /!r#!"* &or all that 3 (!( you e/er ha/e a #!rl o& that a#e '!th su%h a l!ttle 5u!,74 Ho' (o you 2"o' that*4 sa!( I. 4I ha/e see" !t.4 4)he"74 The" %a,e a" a%%ou"t o& (o!"#s 'h!%h I ha/e hear( s!,!larly e&ore* a"( I el!e/e !t !s ,u%h the 'ay !" 'h!%h the el(er &e,ale usually pro%ee(s* 'he" she '!shes to se(u%e the you"#er. Tal2!"# the "!#ht e&ore '!th the #!rl a out &u%2!"#* she ha( e+%!te( her y all the ,ea"s !" her po'er. 3 The #!rl* %ur!ous a"( &!"(!"# her ,!stress so %o,,u"!%at!/e* as2e( !& !t hurt at &!rst* a"( 'as tol( so,e0t!,es* ut so l!ttle as to e a ,ere !,a#!"at!o". That ,a"y 'o,e" !t (!("'t hurt !" sl!#htest (e#ree* a"( that she %oul( tell y loo2!"# at her %u"t !& !t 'oul( hurt her or
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    "ot. 3 That a"( the o&&er to sho' Harr!et her o'" %u"t settle( the ,atter. She ha( sho'" the #!rl hers* a"( ha( loo2e( at the #!rl's. Sarah a(,!tte( that she ha( "ot see" 'hat !s usually a /!r#!"!ty* ut 'as "e/ertheless sure !& the #!rl ha( ee" &u%2e( '!th a pr!%2 o& the or(!"ary s!1e her %u"tal ope"!"# %oul( "ot e as s,all as !t 'as. 4I& you &u%2 her ,u%h* I'll et her %u"t #ets ,u%h eas!er.4 4You ,ust l!2e loo2!"# at %u"ts.4 Sarah sa!( she (!(* at the %u"ts o& #!rls 'ho ha( "e/er ha( !t* ut 3 4I (!( at Harr!et's &or your sa2e as 'ell as ,y o'"* &or I 'a"t the ,o"ey.4 ;ut I 'oul("'t pay ut hal&* '!th 'h!%h she 'as "ot at all %o"te"te(. I 'as !" &a%t a"#ry a"( u"(er the !,press!o" that she ha( tr!e( to sell ,e. I l!2e( ,y #!rl 3 there 'as a #e"u!"e &resh"ess a out her* yet at t!,es I thou#ht the #!rl 'as sha,,!"#. )hy (!( Sarah h!(e her e!"# #ay &ro, the &!rst you"# lass* a"( oste"tat!ously pro%la!, !t to th!s o"e7 I a&ter0'ar(s thou#ht. The #a,e &or th!s o"e 'as %learly "ot the sa,e as &or the other. ;ut 'hy 'he" she 2"e' that the hy,e" 'as "ot there* (!( she "ot tell ,e7 ;e%ause she thou#ht I shoul("'t &!"( !t out. 3 4You are a (o'"y %ar(*4 sa!( Sarah. 4For all that I el!e/e that the #!rl "e/er has ha( a ,a" put !"to her* (o"'t let's 5uarrel* I'll se"( her a'ay.4 I (!( "ot 'a"t that a"( sa!( I shoul( ha/e her a#a!". Th!s %o"/ersat!o" too2 pla%e 'h!lst Harr!et 'as s"or!"# o" the e( '!th t'o sper,at!% l! at!o"s up her. Sarah sp!te&ul a out the hal& &ee sa!( she'( 'a2e the #!rl 3 'as I "ot #o!"#7 8o* I 'oul( hear. Sarah (!( "ot see, to '!sh that. 3 To the e(roo, 'e 'e"t. 4To th!"2 o& that l!ttle (e/!l ha/!"# ee" &u%2e(*4 sa!( Sarah* as she loo2e( at her. Sha2!"# Harr!et* the #!rl sat up e'!l(ere( 3 the &u,e o& the l!5uor st!ll stro"# !" her. 4)hat are you (o!"# o" ,y e(74 sa!( Sarah. Ru !"# her eyes 3 4I (o"'t 2"o' 3 Oh ,y hea( 3 Oh* I', so !ll.4 4)hy* you ha/e ,a(e a ,ess o" ,y e(.4 4Oh I %oul("'t help !t* I a, so !ll.4 4You ha/e ee" o" the e( '!th the -o%tor 3 he has &u%2e( you* you l!ttle !t%h.4 8o reply. 4Has"'t he &u%2e( you74 8o reply. $"other sha2!"#* a"( the #!rl e#a" to so . 4Has"'t he &u%2e( you74 4I (o"'t 2"o'.4 4You (o* your %lothes 'ere up. 3 Has"'t he74 4I th!"2 so* ut I (o"'t 2"o'.4 4He has* a"( I '!ll tur" you out.4 4Oh 3 Oh 3 Oh (o"'t 3 you tol( ,e to let h!, (o 'hat he l!2e( 3 Oh ,y hea(.4 4Yes* ut I (!( "ot th!"2 you'( let h!, &u%2 you* at your a#e you l!ttle east 3ho' o&te" (!( he (o !t74 4I (o"'t 2"o'*4 sa!( she lu er!"#. The" su((e"ly* 4Oh (o"'t h!t ,e* I a, #o!"# to e s!%2 a#a!"4 3 a"( she 'e"t to the as!" a"( ret%he(. It see,e( %ruel 'or2 3 the tears a"( pa!" the poor #!rl 'as !". 4It's ,y &ault*4 sa!( I. 4Oh here he !s*4 sa!( the #!rl. 4Tell ,!stress !t ar"'t ,y &ault.4 Sarah lau#he(. 3 4Ho' o&te" has he (o"e !t to you74 4I (o"'t 2"o'. I 'as asleep. Oh (o"'t let her tur" ,e a'ay s!r* I a, so %o,&orta le here.4 3 4I shoul( th!"2 you are*4 sa!( Sarah* 4a"( to let h!, &u%2 you.4 4You tol( ,e to let h!, (o
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    a"yth!"#.4 4I ,ea"t !& he 'a"te( to 2!ss you* a"( put h!s ha"( up your pett!%oats* a"( &eel you 3 ut 'ho'( ha/e thou#ht o& your lett!"# h!, &u%2 you* at your a#e* you l!ttle east.4 4I %oul( "ot help !t 3 Oh:4 3 a"( she tu, le( a%2 o" to the e(. )e 'e"t !"to the s!tt!"# roo,* a"( say!"# that I ,ea"t to ha/e the #!rl a#a!" I (eparte(. The "e+t "!#ht I 'as at Sarah's a"(* ,a2!"# "o o"es a out the ,atter* sa!( I 'a"te( Harr!et !" the e(roo,. Sa!( Sarah* 4It's &u""y* you %o,e to see ,e* a"( yet 'a"t ,y ser/a"t* -o%tor. 3 )ell !& you '!ll* I suppose you ,ust.4 The #!rl 'oul("'t %o,e* so I pulle( her #e"tly !"to the e(roo,. I 'as thorou#hly le'e(* she sulle"* ha( ta2e" ,e(!%!"e* a"( 'hat '!th that* the "!#ht e&ore* a"( o"ly ha/!"# slept a (ru"2e" sleep* she #a/e so ,u%h trou le 'he" I '!she( to loo2 at her %u"t* that I %alle( !" Sarah. 3 4You l!ttle &ool*4 sa!( she 3 4'he" a ,a" has &u%2e( you* you ,ay let h!, (o a"yth!"# 3 let h!, see your %u"t or a"yth!"# else*4 a"( a'ay she 'e"t. The #!rl y!el(e(. $t the s!(e o& the e(* th!#hs (!ste"(e(* I ope"e( her %u"t 'h!lst I hel( a %a"(le to !t. Her lo/e seat 'as that o& a #!rl o& &ull s!+tee"* a" a#e at 'h!%h I ha/e see" ut &e'. It loo2e( lo"# a"( (el!0 %ate ut '!th u"usually pout!"# l!ps &or her a#e. $ stro"#!sh %l!tor!s she'e( a"( "y,phae &ull a"( th!%2er tha" usual. 3 Cl!tor!s a"( "y,phae !" &a%t* 'ere ,u%h ,ore (e/elope( tha" !s usual !" #!rls. ?I 'o"(er !& that e a s!#" o& a 'ar, te,pera,e"t.@ The %ha""el o& %o!t!o" 'as u"usually s,all at the ,outh* a"( I &a"%!e( loo2e( as !& !t ha( ee" just tor" or stret%he( at !ts upper part. 3 )as !t that her hy,e" ha( o"ly ee" part!ally (estroye(* or stret%he( a"( ope"e(* a"( ha(* I %o,plete( the stret%h!"#7 3 $ltho the ,e, ra"e '!th a s,all hole 'as "ot /!s! le 'he" I &!rst sa' !t* 'as there a ,e, ra"e '!th a lar#e hole7 I" the e+%!te,e"t o& ,y &!rst loo2 a"( hurr!e( &u%2* I "o' %oul( "ot e sure. She ha( a /ery &ull ,o"s or ,ou"t '!th short th!%2 ha!r ut s,all !" 5ua"t!ty o" !t* %lose to the top o& the "!%2* a"( ut a l!ttle 'ay (o'" the l!ps. $l0to#ether tho u"usual !" appeara"%e* !t 'as a pretty a"( l! !(!"ous loo2!"#* e+%!t!"# %u"t. There !s a phys!o#"o,y !" %u"ts* so,e are prett!er tha" others* so,e ,ore e+%!t!"# to loo2 at tha" others* tho !t !s (!&&!%ult to say 'hat !t !s !" the appeara"%e 'h!%h e+%!tes !" o"e ,ore tha" !" the other. Tho I %oul("'t (!s%er" s!#"s o& hy,e"al rupture* o" ,y putt!"# t'o &!"#ers up !t she %alle( out. The" lust s!trre( ,e to a%t!o"* a"( push!"# her o" to the e( I e"tere( her. Its &eel 'as the sa,e as o" the pre/!ous "!#ht* a"( she sa!( I hurt her. For a out three hours I pulle( her %u"t a out* &or !" her 'ay she 'as a "o/elty. The (ea& #!rl 'as a &ull #ro'" %h!l( 'ho 'oul( tal2 a"( &u%2 ut "ot al'ays spe"(. Th!s #!rl 'as urst!"# '!th ra"(!"ess* her you"# lusts 'ere o" '!th all the!r &or%e. She soo" too2 (el!#ht !" e/eryth!"# I sa!( or (!(* all 'as "e' to her* her lust&ul se"sat!o"s 'ere e/e" "e' to her.
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    The loo2 o& a pr!%2* the &eel o& !ts s,ooth s2!""e( r!#!(!ty* !ts &r!%t!o" a"( lu r!%at!"# o/er&lo' 'ere all "e' to her. I el!e/e a solutely "e'* sp!te o& the a se"%e o& a hy,e". So she too2 to all the prel!,!"ar!es a"( e+er%!ses o& lo/e '!th (el!#ht a"( '!th the ea#er"ess a"( ar(our o& a hot %u"te( o"e. I ha( "ot ee" (e%e!/e( !" ,y &!rst !,press!o" a out her. She 'as (y!"# &or the ju!%e o& the ,ale* restless '!th le'e( se"sat!o"s* !" the spr!"#t!(e o& her lust* a"( u"(er the ur#!"# o& se+ual %ur!os!ty 3 I ha( just %au#ht her !" t!,e* a"( she '!th ,e re/elle( &or 'ee2s !" u"restra!"e( las%!/!ous"ess. I& I ha( "ot ha( her* so,e o"e 'oul(. The &!rst ,a" 'ho ha( 2!sse( a"( &o"(le( her ,!#ht ha/e &elt her %u"t* she %oul("'t ha/e helpe( lett!"# h!,< a"( o"%e &elt she 'oul( ha/e let h!, (o a"yth!"#. Her 'ar, "ature 'as %o,,a"(!"# her to surre"(er her perso" to the ,ale. She 'as (y!"# &or a pr!%2. I too2 a &a"%y '!th her ?I al'ays ha/e so,e spe%!al &a"%y '!th ea%h 'o,a"@ to lay !" e( oth o& us start "a2e(. Th!" as she 'as I so,eho' l!2e( th!s 3 tho 'hy I a, u"a le to say. Ho' #!/e reaso"s &or a"y let%h7 There !" %lea" sheets 'h!%h I ,a(e Sarah pro0/!(e ?a"( !"(ee( ou#ht o"e "e' pa!r@ 'e use( to !"(ul#e !" le'e("ess. Her sl!, you"# &or, please( ,e ,u%h* a"( "a2e( I use( to %o/er her* or put her o" the top o& ,ysel& 3 &u%2 her elly to elly* or to u,* t!ll I 'as sat!ate(. These /ar!e( postures test 'hether the &e,ale !s a ha%2 or a #ree"hor". I& a%%usto,e( to sala%!ty they &all !"to the, rea(!ly* a"( !" a 'ay 'h!%h %a""ot h!(e the!r 2"o'le(#e 'hate/er !""o%e"%e they ,ay alle#e* 'h!lst the "eophytes sho' a" asto"!sh,e"t a"( 5u!et (el!#ht "ot easy to !,!tate a"( (e%e!/e. 3 4You %a"'t (o !t so* -o%tor.4 4Yes* 'e %a" try 3 see 3 there4 3 'as sa!( ,ore tha" o"%e (ur!"# ,y /ar!e( per&or,a"%es '!th Harr!et. I ha( her &re5ue"tly &or ,ore tha" t'o ,o"ths* a"( !t !s %erta!" that the ,outh o& the /a#!"a* the s!te o& the hy,e"* #ot !##er. )hether !t stret%he( or spl!t I %a"'t say 3 ut eas!er &or ,y pr!%2 to e"ter* !t %erta!"ly #ot. I"s!(e !t re,a!"e( a t!#ht sheath to ,y pe"!s* tho 5u!te elast!%* a"( perhaps lar#e e"ou#h &or the #reatest ,ale %u"t stret%her. I !"%l!"e to th!"2 she "e/er ha( a true hy,e"* or ha( ro2e" !t early !" l!&e* lea/!"# a lar#er or!&!%e tha" !s usually &ou"( e&ore ,ale pe"etrat!o". 3 I use( to &a"%y that the ,outh o& the pr!%2 hole ha( ope"e( #ra(ually ,ore at the top tha" else'here* ut %a""ot prete"( to assert that !t 'as so. She tol( ,e that 'he" a out "!"e years ol(* she a"( a"other #!rl* a s%hool&ello'* use( to push the!r &!"#ers up ea%h other's %u"t. $t all e/e"ts I %a,e to the %o"%lus!o" that a pr!%2 ha( "e/er ee" up her t!ll she ha( ,!"e. Sarah* a&ter I ha( o"%e or so ha( Harr!et* use( to #o out lea/!"# us to#ether* &!rst as2!"# ,e !& I '!she( her to stay. She &elt sure o& her (ou le pay a"( '!she( to ,a2e a l!ttle ,ore out o& (oors 3 I o&te" let her #o. I& she retur"e( e&ore I ha( le&t* she 'oul( tell ,e e&ore Harr!et !& she ha( ha( a ,a" 3 or t'o 3 or "o"e* as the %ase ,!#ht e< ut she (!("'t a"y lo"#er use au(y la"#ua#e e&ore the #!rl* altho she ha( (o"e so &reely u"t!l I ha( &u%2e( her. 3
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    The" she #re' !,pat!e"t a out 2eep!"# her. Ha("'t I (o"e '!th her. 3 4Ta2e her a'ay a"( 2eep her* I %a"'t ha/e her here ,u%h lo"#er. She 'o"'t 'or2* a"( !t 'o"'t (o to ha/e a %har'o,a" !" 'h!lst she !s here.4 It !s o"e o& the %har,s o& l!&e that the pleasures o& 'o,e" "e/er t!re. )he" 'eary o& o"e* I %ha"#e a"( all ol( pleasures %o,e &resh a#a!". 3 O"e 'o,a" you ,ay est l!2e to &u%2 o" her elly 3 a"other '!th her u, to your elly* a"other to #rope* the" o"e to &r!#* the" o"e to #a,ahu%he. It !s rarely that the e"t!re rou"( !s e5ually pleasura le '!th o"e. 3 )he" I %ha"#e* al,ost &or#otte" pleasures re/!/e. So !t %erta!"ly !s '!th ,e. 3 )!th &resh %u"t "ot o"ly %o,es &resh %oura#e* ut &resh a,use,e"ts. The /ar!ety (epe"(s o" the (!&&ere"%e !" the se+ual ,a2e a"( tastes o& the 'o,a"* &or all 'o,e" %a""ot &u%2 so 'ell !" the sa,e &ash!o"s. They also l!2e ,e"* ha/e 'he" the!r pass!o"s are &ully e/o2e( the!r o'" las%!/!t!es a"( let%hes. 3 The ,a" 'ho !s 'ell /erse( !" a,orous #a,es* !s sure to h!t o" that &ash!o" o& &u%2!"# 'h!%h !s est su!te( to oth. Th!s !s ,ost true o& ,o(est 'o,e"* ut !" lar#er (e#ree o& #ay 'o,e". 3 4Me" are &o"( o& /ar!ety* I l!2e to see 'hat a "e' ,a" 'a"ts to (o '!th ,e*4 sa!( Sarah o"e "!#ht 'he" 'e 'ere tal2!"#. O"e "!#ht Sarah 'as !" the s!tt!"# roo,* I !" e( '!th Harr!et '!th ,y &!"#er up the t!#ht l!ttle %u"t* 'he" I thou#ht I shoul( l!2e to &eel Sarah's %u"t. 3 I ju,pe( out o& e( a"( to the asto"!sh,e"t o& Harr!et rou#ht !" Sarah a"( ,a(e her #et "a2e( !"to e(. I la!( et'ee" the, a"( 5u!%2ly ha( a ,!((le &!"#er up ea%h %u"t. The" I put ,y pr!%2 !"to o"e a&ter the other a"( pro e( alter"ately* %o,par!"# s!1e a"( &eel* a"( (!s%ours!"# o" the e&&e%ts o& a#e* #ro'th* a"( &u%2!"# %o, !"e(* !" e"lar#!"# a"( stret%h!"# a pu0 (e"(a. Ho'e/er lar#e a %u"t !t ,ay e* !t ,ostly su&&!%!e"tly %o,presses the pr!%2 to ,a2e !t spe"(. 3 Fe' e+%ept!o"ally lar#e %u"te( o"es I ha/e ho'e/er 2"o'" !" th!s part!%ular. Harr!et* 'ho use( to "estle up to ,e a"( &eel ,y alls !"%essa"tly* as2!"# ,a"y 5uest!o"s a out &u%2!"#* a"( so o"* 'as "o' 5u!et altho I (!( "ot the" "ot!%e !t. 3 Soo" I thou#ht I 'oul( &u%2 Sarah* a"( #ot o" to her* she "oth!"# loath. 4I th!"2 !t's t!,e I ha( a tur"*4 she sa!(* a&ter I ha( put ,y pr!%2 !" her. I 'a"te( to %o,pare* so out I pulle( !t a"( #ot o" to the l!ttle o"e* 'ho ha( tur"e( her u, to'ar(s us. )he" I ha( a &e' thrusts up her* the" a#a!" I put !"to Sarah* 'ho 'as !" a ,oo( &or pleasure* a"( 'e ha( a /ery /oluptuous &u%2. The #!rl ha( a#a!" tur"e( her ru,p to0'ar(s ,e. I tr!e( to pull her rou"( 3 ut she res!ste(* #ot out o& e(* a"( ra" !"to the other roo, start "a2e( as she 'as. 3 4)hat's the l!ttle (e/!l up to74 3 sa!( Sarah* 'ho* also 5u!te "a2e(* &ollo'e( her. 3 I 'e"t a&ter the, a"( there 'ere 'e all start "a2e( !" the parlour. The #!rl 'oul("'t %o,e a%2 a"( ,a(e "o reply. Sarah o+e( her ears. 3 I s'ore. 4You'/e (o"e !t to her*4 sa!( Harr!et. 4You l!ttle !t%h 'hat o& that*4 sa!( Sarah. 4He has a r!#ht* he 'oul( (o !t to ,e o&te" !& he ha( "ot see" you* last you. You'll #o out o& ,y house*
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    you sha"'t 2eep here.4 The you"# o"e 'as jealous* 'h!%h 'as &u""y* a"( !t oth a""oye( a"( a,use( ,e. Sarah 'as sl!#htly s%re'e(* let out &!"ely* a"( !t too2 a" hour to #et th!"#s to r!#hts a#a!". The" !" e( I e#a" !" Sarah a"( &!"!she( up Harr!et* 'h!%h ter,!"ate( the "!#ht's a,use,e"t. I ha/e ha( e&ore a you"# #!rl* 'ho #re' r!(!%ulously jealous o& her ,!stress 'he" I &u%2e( her. 3 It 'as "o' late spr!"# a"( l!#ht at "!#hts* 'h!%h !"ter&ere( '!th ,y #o!"# to Sarah's lo(#!"#s. The" I 'e"t out o& to'" a"( 'he" I retur"e( the #!rl 'as #o"e 3 Sarah sa!( she ha( ru" a'ay* that she 'oul( "ot 'or2* 'as al'ays &r!##!"# hersel&* a"( thou#ht hersel& as #oo( as her ,!stress. They ha( ha( 'or(s a"( the #!rl ha( olte( o"e "!#ht* ta2!"# her th!"#s '!th her. 3 I o&&ere( Sarah ,o"ey to #et her a%2. She sa!( she tr!e(* tho I (o"'t el!e/e she (!(. I "e/er sa' the #!rl a#a!". 3 4I', #la( she's #o"e* &or she !s !" the &a,!ly 'ay*4 sa!( Sarah. 4I (o"'t el!e/e !t.4 4She !s* she'( her %ourses o" just e&ore you ha( her* a"( has"'t s!"%e.4 4It's so,e other ,a".4 48o"e other has ha( her I'll s'ear.4 Ha( I (o"e the tr!%2 a#a!"7 So,e 'here a out th!s t!,e I 'e"t to the peep hole o"e (ay a"( &ou"( !t %lose(. >erhaps as the au( o"%e sa!( to ,e !t ha( ee" 4 lo'" upo".4 She ,ay ha/e %ause( that hersel&* ,ay ha/e sla!" the #oose '!th the #ol(e" e##. It pa!( 'ell* 'e e#a" to &!"( (!&&!%ulty !" #ett!"# the roo,* !t 'as so o&te" e"#a#e(. Too ,a"y 2"e' o& !t e/!(e"tly* a"( !t "o (ou t 'as 4 lo'" upo".4 Its roo,s 'ere arra"#e( %le/erly !" e/ery 'ay* &or the purpose o& spy!"# the te,porary o%%upa"ts o& the a%2 roo,< 'ho 'hate/er they (!(* a"( "early 'here/er they pla%e( the,sel/es* %oul( "ot es%ape o ser/at!o"* "or the #lare o& the #as 'h!%h see,e( to %o"%e"trate upo" the,. The part!t!o" at the peephole %oul( "ot ha/e ee" three 5uarters o& a" !"%h th!%2* so '!(e 'as the ra"#e o& /!s!o" throu#h !t o/er the roo,. It 'as* I th!"2* th!%2er !" other parts* ut 'e %oul( hear 'ell usually thro !t. The 'ay the hole 'as ore( thro a (ar2 spot !" the patter" o& the 'all paper* the %or2 'h!%h &!lle( the hole 'as %olore( to ,at%h* the 'ay the p!%tures o" ea%h s!(e %oul( e ra!se( a"( lo'ere(* 'ere all ,ost %le/erly ,a"a#e(. The house !" a ye street 'h!%h ha( ut l!ttle tra&&!% o& a"y sort ha( o"ly "o!se outs!(e a out e/ery &!/e ,!"utes* a"( e+%ept!"# the"* 'e hear( &a!rly the tal2 !" the a%2 roo,. It 'as "ot a s'ell a#"!o* tho* a"( ha( ut &!/e a/a!la le roo,s. ?I ha/e s!"%e see" a" e5ually 'ell arra"#e( house at >ar!s* 'here e/ery 'or( sa!( y the per0 &or,ers %oul( e hear(* a"( e/eryth!"# see".@ )hat I sa' throu#h the peephole ha( o"e spe%!al %o"se5ue"%e. It sat!s&!e( ,e that ,y pr!%2 'as a &ull s!1e( o"e* a"( 'ell eyo"( the a/era#e rather tha" less. 3 Out o& a hu"(re( 'h!%h I sa'* there 'ere "ot as &ar as I %oul( ju(#e t'e"ty lar#er tha" ,!"e* a"( Sarah sa!( there 'ere "ot te". I sa' o"e or t'o ;ro (!"#"a#!a"s* per&e%t atter!"# ra,s* ut the lar#est o& all 'as the t!ta"!% sha&t o& the ,a" 'ho 'ha%2e( Sarah's utto%2s '!th !t a"( 2"o%2e( !t har( o" the ta le as 'ell* tho !ts !# plu, shape(* s'olle" hea( 'as are o& &ores2!"*
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    a"( 'as %ar,!"e '!th lust. Sarah sa!( h!s 'as the lar#est she ha( e/er see"* a"( that tal2!"# '!th others o& her %lass 'ho ha( also see" !t* they 'ere all o& the sa,e op!"!o". ;ut tho &or so,e reaso" Sarah 'oul( "ot ta2e that t!ta"!%* pote"t!al ,a%h!"e !"to her o(y* a"( tho I sa' so,e >aph!a"s' ha"(le other ;ro (!"#"a#!a" tools hes!tat!"#ly a"( a&&e%t to th!"2 the, too !#* say they 'oul( hurt* a"( so o"< they o"e a"( all (!( !"sert the, !" the!r %u"ts* a"( as !t see,e( to ,e '!th pleasure. I el!e/e there "e/er 'as a pr!%2 so !# !" a"y 'ay that a %u"t %oul( "ot ta2e !t '!thout pa!"* a"( e/e" pleasura ly. Its t!p ,!#ht perhaps 2"o%2 at the portals o& the 'o, too har( &or so,e* ut that !s all. I ha/e hear( 'o,e" say that the har(er those 2"o%2s 'ere the ,ore pleasure !t #a/e the,. $ll the tal2 I ha/e hear( o& pr!%2s e!"# so lar#e that 'o,e" %oul( "ot* or 'oul( "ot* ta2e the, up the, !s sheer "o"se"se. Se/eral 'o,e" ha/e tol( ,e so. So,e sa!( that they lo/e( to see a"( ha"(le !# o"es. 8o"e sa!( that su%h stret%hers #a/e the, ,ore phys!%al pleasure tha" those o& ,o(erate s!1e. The elast!%!ty a"( re%ept!/!ty o& a %u"t !s !" &a%t as 'o"(er&ul as !ts %o"str!%t!/e po'er. The s,all pr!%2 o& a oy o& th!rtee" !t '!ll t!#hte" rou"( a"( e+haust* as 'ell as o"e as !# as the spo2e o& a %art'heel* a"( !t '!ll #!/e pleasure to oth e5ually.

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    Chapter II Re%her%hF erot!%!s,s. $" out%o,e o& the rothel spy0hole. $" a "or,al let%h. $ ,a" &or a ,o"th. $lo"e '!th h!,. Mutual "er/ous"ess. The !%e ro2e". >r!%2s pro(u%e(. $" e+!#uous tool. 0 0 U"a/a!l!"# ,astur at!o". Sarah's part!%!pat!o". Cu"tal !"%!tat!o". >ro,pt r!#!(!ty. O"a"!st!% operat!o". Sper,at!% eja%ulat!o". I"sta"ta"eous %opulat!o". O"e o" a"( o"e o&&. $ #or#e( %u"t. Mas%ul!"e ,!"ett!"#. $ #r!stly ,outh&ul. Su%2!"# %u, &u%2!"#. $&ter supper. Sarah's orat!o". The e"( o& the or#y. The" too2 pla%e the %ro'"!"# a%t o& ,y erot!%!s,* the ,ost (ar!"# &a%t o& ,y se%ret l!&e. $" a "or,al lust o& 'h!%h I ha/e ee" asha,e( a"( sorry* a"( the "arrat!/e o& 'h!%h I ha/e "early (estroye(* tho a%%or(!"# to ,y ph!losophy* there 'as a"( !s "o har, !" ,y a%ts* &or !" lust all th!"#s are "atural a"( proper to those 'ho l!2e the,. There %a" e "o ,ore har, !" a ,a" &eel!"# a"other's pr!%2* "or !" a 'o,a" &eel!"# a"other's %u"t* tha" there !s !" the!r sha2!"# ha"(s. 3 $t o"e t!,e or other all ha/e ha( these se+ual ha"(l!"#s o& others* yet a (!sl!2e to ,ysel& a out th!s se+ual 'h!, st!ll l!"#ers. Su%h !s the result o& early tea%h!"# a"( preju(!%es. T'e"ty0&our years ha( elapse( s!"%e ,y &rol!%s '!th the &!rst Ca,!lle. 3 The" I ha( &r!##e( a Fre"%h,a". te" I (!( the sa,e '!th the ,a" that !# eye( ;etsy ,e. The" I'( &elt the Capta!" !" the (ar2 at L!11!e M...(."'s. S!"%e that I ha( "ot tou%he( a ,ale. )hat I '!t"esse( throu#h the au(y house part!t!o" put "e' !"%l!"at!o"s !"to ,y hea(. The ha"(so,e pr!%2s 'h!%h I ha( see" 'o,e" play '!th* the ease '!th 'h!%h the!r (oo(les 'ere ha"(le(* the rea(y 'ay a #!rl rou#ht a re ell!ous pr!%2 to sta"( a"( spe"( y %oa+!"# !t up !" her ,outh* et%.* ra!se( a#a!" (es!re to &eel a"( play '!th a pr!%2 ,ysel&. Other ,e"'s see,e( (!&&ere"t to ,e* a"( at t!,es I sa!( th!s to Sarah !" so,e su%h ter,s as these. 3 4I shoul( l!2e &or o"%e to &eel a ,a"'s pr!%2* to see %losely h!s pr!%2 sta"(!"#* see h!s spu"2 %o,e out ,u%h or l!ttle.4 $"( so o". The au(y house s!#hts al'ays ter,!"ate( !" &u%2!"# Sarah* a"( the" &or a t!,e the (es!res 'h!%h arose (ur!"# ,y peep!"# e"(e( a ruptly. I tal2e( a out the, at t!,es 'he" le'e( "e/ertheless '!th Sarah* 'ho sa!(* 4O"e ,a"'s pr!%2 sta"(s a"( spe"(s ,u%h l!2e a"other* play '!th your o'"* ut !& you 'a"t* I %a" #et o"e eas!ly e"ou#h* a"( I'll let h!, %o,e here &or you* !& Mr. F..1.r !s out o& to'".4 ;ut I thou#ht she ,ea"t a &ello' 'ho let out h!s ru,p a"( pr!%2* a"( o& that %lass I ha( a" !"su&&era le (!sl!2e a"( &ear. They 'ere I ha( hear( th!e/es* the!r pr!%2s use( up* a"( I 'a"te( "oth!"# to (o '!th a" a"us ?at that t!,e* "ot ha/!"# &ou"( out the pleasure you oth ta2e a"( #!/e y press!"# the u,hole o& a 'o,a" 'he" &u%2!"# her@ so &or so,e ,o"ths* al0tho she (es%r! e( so,e ,e" as el!#! le* I 'oul( "ot see the,.
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    $t le"#th !" the '!"ter she sa!(* 4My ol( 'o,a" ?a %ro"e 'ho (!( her %harr!"#* a"( 'as !" &a%t her ser/0 a"t altho she (!( "ot sleep !" her roo,s@ %a" #et a you"# ,a" a out t'e"ty 'ho's "ot a so( 3 he !s a 'or2!"# ,a" 'ho has ee" '!thout e,ploy,e"t &or t'o ,o"ths a"( '!ll e #la( o& a so/ere!#".4 I thou#ht I 'as #o!"# to e sol(* ut as I ha( o"ly pro,!se( her a so/ere!#" &or #ett!"# ,e a ,a"* I %a,e to the %o"/!%t!o" that I ha( really a %ha"%e* so arra"#e( that he 'as to #o to her roo,s. ;ut u"pleasa"t "ot!o"s %a,e. $ poor ,a": he '!ll e (!rty a"( s,ell!"# o& s'eat 3 e rou#h 3 h!s l!"e" ra##e(. 3 To #et o/er that Sarah sa!(* 49!/e ,e a so/ere!#"* he shall ha/e a "e' sh!rt* a"( so%2s* a"( (ra'ers* I '!ll uy the,4 3 so I #a/e that ,o"ey. The e/e"!"# %a,e. I &elt so "er/ous a"( e/e" sho%2e( at ,ysel& that I '!she( I ha( "e/er u"(er0ta2e" the a&&a!r. 3 It 'as !" /a!" that I ar#ue( '!th ,ysel&* a"( sp!te o& ,y %o"/!%t!o" that there 'as "o har, !" ,y (o!"# !t* 'he" I %a,e to her (oor I "early tur"e( a%2. I ha( ee" try!"# to stre"#the" ,y !"te"t!o" y th!"2!"# o/er ,y &or,er '!shes a"( %ur!os!t!es* o& the /ar!ous a,use,e"ts I shoul( ha/e '!th h!,* a"( ho' ,u%h I shoul( lear" o& the 'ays o& a ,a"* to a(( to the lot I 2"e' a out 'o,e". $ll 'as useless* I al,ost tre, le( at ,y !"te"t!o". I e"tere(* sa' Sarah. 4He !s !" the e( roo, 3 su%h a "!%e you"# ,a"* a"( 5u!te #oo( loo2!"#* I "e/er sa' h!, t!ll I 'e"t to uy the th!"#s.4 I sa!( I &elt "er/ous. 4That !s stup!(* ut you are "ot ,ore "er/ous tha" he !s* he's just sa!( you 'ere e/!(e"tly "ot %o,!"# a"( he 'as #la( o& !t* a"( 'oul( #o.4 $#a!" she assure( ,e that he 'as all the %har'o,a" ha( tol(* a you"# ,a" out o& 'or2* 'a"t!"# rea(* a"( "ot a so(o,!te. I &ollo'e( her !"to the e(roo,. Say!"#* 4Th!s !s the #e"tle,a"*4 she shut the (oor a"( le&t ,e '!th h!,. He stoo( up respe%t&ully a"( loo2e( at ,e t!,!(ly. He 'as a &!"e you"# ,a" a out &!/e &eet se/e" !"%hes h!#h* rather th!" loo2!"# as !& &or 'a"t o& "our!sh,e"t* '!th a "!%e hea( o& %urly ro'" ha!r* sl!#ht short 'h!s2ers* "o ,ousta%he* r!#ht eyes* a"( #oo( teeth. He 'as "ot ,u%h l!2e a 'or2!"# ,a" a"( loo2e( e+%ee(!"#ly %lea". 4You are the you"# ,a"74 4Yes s!r.4 4S!t (o'".4 -o'" he sat a"( I (!( the sa,e. The" I %oul( "ot utter a 'or( ,ore* ut &elt !"%l!"e( to say* 4There !s a so/ere!#"* #oo( "!#ht*4 a"( to lea/e h!,. $ll the (es!res* all the !"te"t!o"s* all e+pe%tat!o"s o& a,use,e"t '!th h!s pr!%2* all the %ur!os!ty I ha( hope( to sat!s&y &or ,o"ths le&t ,e. My o"ly '!sh 'as to es%ape '!thout see,!"# a &ool. )!th the e+%ept!o" o& the so(o,!te 'ho, ;etsy Doh"so" ha( #ot ,e* !t 'as the &!rst t!,e I ha( ee" y ,ysel& !" the roo, '!th a ,ale &or the %lear !"te"t!o" o& (o!"# e/eryth!"# '!th h!s tool that I ha( a ,!"( to. My ra!" "o' ha( ee" lo"# e+%!te( y a"t!%!pat!o"* a"( 'rou#ht up to the h!#hest 'he" th!s opportu"!ty %a,e* a"( e/ery o%%urre"%e o& that e/e"!"# !s as %lear !" !t "o' as !& !t 'ere pr!"te( there. $ltho the e+a%t or(er o& the /ar!ous tr!%2s I playe( ,ay "ot e 2ept* yet e/eryth!"# I (!( o" th!s &!rst "!#ht* all that too2
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    pla%e* I "arrate !" su%%ess!o"* '!thout &!ll!"# !" a"yth!"# &ro, &a"%y or !,a#!"at!o". I %oul( e/e" re0%all the 'hole o& our %o"/ersat!o"* ut !t 'oul( &!ll 5u!res ?a"( I (!( &!ll t'o or three@. 3 I o"ly "o' #!/e hal& o& !t* a"( that a re/!ate(. I sat loo2!"# at h!, &or so,e ,!"utes 3 I %a" &r!# h!,* thou#ht I 3 ut I (o"'t 'a"t to "o'. 3 )hat a" ass he '!ll th!"2 ,e. 3 )hy (oes he "ot u" utto"7 0 I 'o"(er !& he !s a u##er 3 or a th!e&. 3 )hat's he th!"2!"# a out. Is he %lea"7 3 Ho' shall I e#!" 3 I '!sh I ha( "ot %o,e 3 I hope he 'o"'t 2"o' ,e !& he ,eets ,e !" the street. 3 Is h!s pr!%2 lar#e7 3 These thou#hts o"e a&ter a"other %hase( rap!(ly thro ,y ra!"* 'h!lst I sat s!le"t* yet at the sa,e t!,e '!sh!"# to es%ape* a"( he sat loo2!"# at the &loor. The" a" !(ea %a,e. 4)oul( you l!2e so,eth!"# to (r!"274 4I& you l!2e* s!r.4 4)hat74 4)hate/er you l!2e* s!r.4 3 It 'as a" !,,e"se rel!e& to ,e 'he" I %alle( !" Sarah* a"( tol( her to #et 'h!s2ey* hot 'ater* a"( su#ar. 3 )h!lst !t 'as e!"# &et%he( I 'e"t !"to the s!tt!"# roo,* #la( o& #ett!"# a'ay. Sarah* !" the s!tt!"# roo,* as2e(* 4Ho' (o you &!"( h!,74 3 I tol( her I (!( "ot 2"o' a"( 'as &r!#hte"e( to #o o". 3 4Oh: I 'oul( "o'* as you ha/e ha( h!, #ot &or you* the" you'll e sat!s&!e(.4 3 $#a!" she assure( ,e he 'as "ot o" the to'"* a"( I "ee( "ot e a&ra!(. The 'h!s2ey 'as #ot* a"( ehol( ,e a#a!" alo"e '!th h!,. I ,a(e 'h!s2ey a"( 'ater &or ,ysel& a"( h!, a"( too2 so,e !"to Sarah. I e#a" to as2 h!, a out h!,sel&. He 'as a house (e%orator !" &!"e 'or2* su%h 'or2 'as at !ts 'orst just the"* e!"# a you"# ha"( he ha( "ot &ull e,ploye,"t* ha( ee" out o& 'or2 "early t'o ,o"ths* he ha( pa'"e( e/eryth!"# e+%ept!"# 'hat he ha( o". Th!s all see,e( %o"s!ste"t. He tol( ,e 'here he lo(#e(* 'here he 'as appre"t!%e(* the ,aster he 'or2e( &or last* the houses he 'or2e( at. 4I& you are a (e%orator your ha"(s '!ll e har(* a"( !& you 2"eel your 2"ees '!ll.4 4Yes ut I ha/e ha( s%ar%ely a"yth!"# to (o &or t'o ,o"ths* a"( ut o"e (ay's 'or2 last 'ee2. Loo2 at ,y "a!ls.4 3 They 'ere sta!"e( '!th so,eth!"# he ha( use(. The" he ha( ha( o"e (ay's %hopp!"# 'oo( 'h!%h ha( l!stere( oth h!s ha"(s* &or !t 'as "ot 'or2 he 'as a%%usto,e( to. ;l!sters I sa'. There 'as e/!(e"t truth !" 'hat he sa!(. Th!s rel!e/e( ,e* to#ether '!th the !"&lue"%e o& 'h!s2ey a"( 'ater. I #ot ,ore %oura#e a"( he see,e( ,ore %o,&orta le* ut "ot a 'or( ha( tra"sp!re( a out our us!"ess* a"( a" hour ha( #o"e. The" ,y ,!"( re/erte( to ,y o je%t* a"( I sa!(* 4You 2"o' 'hat you %a,e &or.4 4Yes s!r.4 He %ha"#e( 'h!te* the" re(* a"( e#a" to !te h!s "a!ls. My /o!%e 5u!/ere( as I sa!(* 4U" utto" your tro'sers the".4 He hes!tate(. 4Let ,e see your %o%2.4 O"e o& h!s ha"(s 'e"t (o'" slo'ly* he u" utto"e( h!s tro'sers* 'h!%h #ap!"#* she'e( a 'h!te sh!rt. The" "e/er loo2!"# at ,e* he e#a" !t!"# h!s "a!ls a#a!". The %lea" sh!rt* %ouple( '!th h!s t!,!(!ty* #a/e ,e %oura#e. 4Ta2e o&& your %oat a"( 'a!st%oat.4 He slo'ly (!( so. 3 I (!( the sa,e* #ulpe( (o'" a #lass
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    o& 'h!s2ey a"( 'ater* sat h!, (o'" y ,e* a"( l!&t!"# h!s sh!rt la!( hol( o& h!s pr!%2. $ thr!ll o& pleasure passe( thro ,e* I sl!ppe( ,y ha"(s u"(er h!s alls* a%2 a#a!" to h!s pr!%2* pulle( the &ores2!" a%2'ar(s a"( &or'ar(s* ,y reath shorte"!"# '!th e+%!te,e"t. He sat st!ll. Su((e"ly I '!th(re' ,y ha"( '!th a se"se o& &ear a"( sha,e a#a!" o" ,e. 4May I ,a2e 'ater* s!r* I 'a"t so a(ly*4 sa!( he !" a hu, le 'ay* just l!2e a s%hool oy. 4Certa!"ly* ta2e o&& your tro'sers &!rst.4 He loo2e( har( at ,e* slo'ly too2 the, a"( h!s (ra'ers o&&* a"( stoo( '!th h!s sh!rt o". I too2 up the pot a"( put !t o" the %ha!r ?,y au(y ra!" e#a" "o' to 'or2@. 4-o !t here* a"( I'll loo2 at your %o%2.4 He %a,e slo'ly there a"( stoo(. 4I %a"'t 'ater "o' 3 I th!"2 !t !s your sta"(!"# y ,e.4 4You '!ll (!re%tly* (o"'t ,!"( ,e.4 The 'h!s2ey a"( e+%!te,e"t ha/!"# ,a(e ,e lea2y* I pulle( out ,y tool a"( p!sse( !" the pot e&ore h!,. He lau#he( u"eas!ly* !t 'as the &!rst s!#" o& a,use,e"t he ha( #!/e". -!re%tly I ha( &!"!she(* I la!( hol( o& h!s pr!%2 a"( e#a" play!"# '!th !t* I pulle( a%2 the s2!" a"( le' o" the t!p* a su((e" 'h!, that ,a(e h!, lau#h* a"( h!s shy"ess #o!"# o&&* I hol(!"# h!s pr!%2* he p!sse( the pot hal& &ull 3 I 'as (el!#hte( a"( '!she( he %oul( ha/e 2ept o" p!ss!"# &or a 5uarter o& a" hour. The !%e 'as "o' ro2e"* I too2 o&& ,y tro'sers* a"( the" oth '!th ut sh!rts a"( so%2s o"* I sat h!, at the s!(e o& the e( a"( e#a" ,y !"/est!#at!o" o& h!s %opulat!"# apparatus. 4I 'a"t to &r!# you*4 sa!( I. 4Yes s!r.4 4Has a"y ,a" e/er &r!##e( you.4 3 8o l!/!"# ,a" tou%he( h!s pr!%2 s!"%e he 'as a oy* he (e%lare(. 3 The" I e#a" to ha"(le h!s %o%2 '!th the or(!"ary &!rst &u%2!"# ,ot!o". I ha( s%ar%ely &r!##e( a ,!"ute e&ore I 'a"te( to &eel h!s alls. The" I tur"e( h!, '!th h!s ru,p to ,e* to see ho' h!s alls a"( pr!%2 loo2e( ha"#!"# (o'" &ro, the a%2. 3 The" o" to h!s s!(e* to see ho' the pr!%2 (a"#le( alo"# h!s th!#h. The" I too2 h!, to the 'ash sta"( a"( 'ashe( h!s pr!%2* 'h!%h e&ore that 'as as %lea" as a "e' sh!ll!"#* ut the !(ea o& 'ash!"# !t please( ,e. The" lay!"# h!, (o'" o" h!s a%2* I re%o,,e"%e( the &as%!"at!"# a,use,e"t o& pull!"# the &ores2!" a%2'ar(s a"( &or'ar(s* loo2!"# !" h!s &a%e to see ho' he l!2e( !t. 3 He 'as as 5u!et as a la, * ut loo2e( sheep!sh a"( u"%o,&orta le. H!s pr!%2 at &!rst 'as s,all* ut u"(er ,y ,a"!pulat!o" #re' lar#er* tho "e/er st!&&. Se/eral t!,es !t #ot rather so &or a" !"sta"t* a"( the" '!th the (es!re to see the spu"2 %o,e* I e#a" &r!##!"# har(er< 'he" !"stea( o& #ett!"# st!&&er !t #ot s,aller. I tr!e( th!s '!th h!, lay!"# (o'"* s!tt!"# up* a"( sta"(!"#* ut al'ays '!th the sa,e result 3 I spo2e a out !t. 3 He sa!( he %oul( "ot ,a2e !t out. H!s pr!%2 'as sl!#htly lo"#er tha" ,!"e* 'as eaut!&ully 'h!te* a"( '!th a po!"te( t!p. I ,a(e !t the st!&&est y #e"tly s5uee1!"# !t 3 I ha( ha( "o (es!re !" ,y o'" (oo(le* ut as I ,a(e h!s st!&& o"%e 'he" he 'as ly!"# (o'"* ,y
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    o'" pr!%2 %a,e to a sta"(* a"( &ollo'!"# a su((e" !"sp!rat!o" I la!( ,ysel& o" to h!s elly* as !& he ha( ee" a 'o,a"* a"( our t'o pr!%2s 'ere et'ee" our sto,a%hs %lose to#ether. I po2e( ,!"e u"(er h!s alls* a"( &or%e( h!s u"(er ,y sto"es* the" %ha"#!"#* I tur"e( h!s u, to'ar(s ,e* a"( thrust!"# ,y %o%2 et'ee" h!s th!#hs a"( u"(er h!s alls to the &ro"t* e"t h!s pr!%2 (o'" to tou%h the t!p o& ,!"e* 'h!%h 'as just sho'!"# thro h!s th!#hs. ;ut h!s pr!%2 #ot l!,per a"( l!,per* a"( as I re,ar2e( that* !t shr!/elle( up. )e ha( ee" a" hour at th!s #a,e* a"( there see,e( "o %ha"%e o& h!s spe"(!"#. 8o s!#" o& per,a"e"t st!&&"ess or ra"(!"ess or pleasure. He see,e( !" &a%t ,!sera ly u"%o,&orta le. The" he 'a"te( to p!ss a#a!" &ro, "er/ous"ess 3 I hel( h!s pr!%2* s5uee1!"# !t* so,et!,es stopp!"# the strea,* the" lett!"# !t #o o"* a"( sat!s&y!"# ,y %ur!os!ty. That (o"e* I ,a(e a &!"al e&&ort to #et a spe"( out o& h!,* y s5uee1!"#* &r!##!"# slo'* &r!##!"# &ast. The" I ru e( ,y ha"( '!th soap* a"( ,a2!"# '!th sp!ttle a" !,!tat!o" o& %u"t ,u%ous o" !t* t!t!llate( the t!p. 4I th!"2 I %a" (o !t "o'*4 sa!( he 3 ut all 'as useless. 4It's "o #oo(* I', /ery sorry* s!r* ut I %a"'t* that !s a &a%t. 3 I (o"'t 2"o' ho' !t !s.4 The last hour ha( ee" o"e o& ,u%h "o/elty a"( (e0l!#ht to ,e* tho he %oul("'t spe"(< ut the a""ou"%e,e"t (!sappo!"te( ,e. It %a,e a%2 to ,y ,!"( that he ,!#ht e* a&ter all that Sarah ha( sa!(* ut a" o/er0&r!##e( u##er* 'ho %oul( "o lo"#er %o,e. For I ha( hear( that ,e" 'ho let the,sel/es out &or that 'or2 at last #ot so use( up that !t 'as (!&&!%ult &or the, to (o a"yth!"# '!th the!r o'" pr!%2s* a"( that all they %oul( (o 'as to per,!t ,e" to &eel the!r %o%2s* 'h!lst they plu##e( the!r arse0holes. So I repeate( ,y 5uest!o"s* a"( he a#a!" s'ore y all that 'as holy that "o ,a" ha( e/er &elt h!, ut ,e< a"( he a((e( that he 'as sorry he ha( %o,e* ut the ,o"ey 'as a te,ptat!o". I la!( h!, the" a#a!" o" the e( a"( &elt h!s pr!%2. )e &!"!she( the 'h!s2ey* a"( I se"t &or ,ore< a"( !" a 'h!sper tol( Sarah that there 'as "o spu"2 !" h!,. She rou#ht !" the 'h!s2ey hersel&* a"( lau#he( at see!"# us t'o "early "a2e( o" the e( to#ether. The" I as2e( h!, 'he" he ha( a 'o,a" last* !& he l!2e( the,* ho' he #ot the,* a"( so &orth. He tol( ,e that he l!2e( 'o,e" /ery ,u%h 3 so,et!,es he #ot the, &or "oth!"#* a"( they 'ere ser/a"t #!rls ,ostly. )he" at houses !& ser/a"ts 'ere le&t !" the,* or e/e" !& the &a,!ly 'ere o"ly &or a short t!,e out 3 you"# &ello's l!2e h!, o&te" #ot a put !"< or else ,a(e lo/e to the,* a"( #ot the, to %o,e out at "!#hts. He 'ar,e( up as he tol( ,e th!s* a"( h!s pr!%2 e#a" to r!se* ut o" ,y re%o,,e"%!"# to ,astur ate h!,* !t &ell (o'" a#a!". He (e%lare( that the 'o,a" he last ha( 'as te" (ays pre/!ously* 'he" he #a/e her a sh!ll0 !"# out o& the tr!&le he ha( #a!"e(* a"( that he ha( "e/er spe"t s!"%e. The" he e#a" !t!"# h!s "a!ls* a((!"# that he hope( I shoul( #!/e h!, the ,o"ey* &or he %oul( "ot help "ot spe"(!"#* a"( 'as (esperately a(ly
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    o&& 3 4I ha/e ha( so,e rea( a"( %heese* a"( eer* ut I ha/e "ot taste( ,eat &or s!+ (ays.4 Three hours '!th h!, passe(* the &r!##!"# see,e( useless* ut tal2!"# a out 'o,e" ha( rou#ht ,y stea, 'ell up* so I e#a" to th!"2 o& lett!"# h!, #o* a"( plu##!"# Sarah to &!"!sh. 4Sarah !s a &!"e 'o,a" !s"'t she7 -!( you e/er ha/e her* or see her "a2e(*4 I sa!( su((e"ly* th!"2!"# to %at%h h!,. 3 She 'as &!"e* ut he ha( "e/er see" her !" h!s l!&e* u"t!l the (ay ut o"e pre/!ously. 3 4)oul( you l!2e to see her "a2e(.4 Oh: 'oul( he "ot. I 2"e' Sarah 'oul( (o a"yth!"# al,ost* so %alle( her !"* tol( her h!s %o%2 'oul( "ot sta"(* a"( that 'e 'a"te( to see her "a2e(. 4$ll r!#ht*4 sa!( she* a"( e#a" to u"(ress. He 2ept h!s eyes ar(e"tly &!+e( o" her as she too2 o&& her th!"#s 3 I re,ar2e( to h!, o" her %har,s as she (!s%lose( the,. He sa!( 4Yes 3 yes4 3 !" a" e+%!te( 'ay. The" he %ease( a"s'er!"#* ut stare( at her !"te"tly. )he" her l!, s a"( reasts she'e( &ro, her %he,!se* a /oluptuous s!#h es%ape( h!,* a"( he put h!s ha"( to h!s pr!%2 outs!(e h!s sh!rt. Feel!"# h!,* I &ou"( h!s pr!%2 s'ell!"#. 4-o"'t pull o&& yet Sarah.4 She %ease( ta2!"# o&& her %he,!se. 4>ull o&& your sh!rt.4 Help!"# h!, he stoo( "a2e( '!th h!s pr!%2 r!s!"#. 3 48o' sho' us your %u"t.4 -o'" Sarah lay ?a&ter str!pp!"# o&& her %he,!se@ o" her a%2* o"e ar, ra!se( a"( she'!"# her (ar2 ha!re( ar, p!t* her le#s apart* a"( o"e ra!se( '!th the heel just u"(er her u,* the la%2 ha!r o& her %u"t %url!"# (o'" t!ll shut !"* y her arse %hee2s* the re( l!"e( %u"t l!ps sl!#htly #ap!"#. 3 It 'as a s!#ht 'h!%h 'oul( ha/e ,a(e a (ea( ,a"'s pr!%2 st!&&e"* a"( ,!"e 'as st!&& at the s!#ht altho I ha( see" !t s%ores o& t!,es. I &or#ot h!, the"* t!ll tur"!"# ,y hea( I sa' h!s sple"(!( %o%2sta"(. 00 H!s eyes 'ere &!+e( &ull o& (es!re o" her* a"( he 'as a ,o(el o& ,a"ly* ra"(y eauty. 3 4Is "ot she &!"e74 sa!( I. 4Oh: lo/ely* eaut!&ul* let ,e (o !t*4 a((ress!"# her. 48o*4 sa!( I* 4a"other t!,e perhaps*4 a"( I se!1e( h!s tool '!th le'e( joy. For a" !"sta"t he res!ste(. Sarah sa!(* 4Let ,y &r!e"( (o !t* you %a,e &or that.4 I &r!##e( a'ay* he &elt !ts e&&e%ts a"( s!#he( 3 I &r!##e( o" a"( &elt the !#* &!r,* 'r!"2le( all a#. $ /oluptuous sh!/er ra" thro h!, soo". 4Oh: let ,e &eel her 3 (o.4 4Feel her the".4 O/er he stoope(. 4B"eel o" the e(.4 Hu!%2ly he #ot there a"( plu"#e( h!s &!"#er !"to her %ar,!"e spl!t. $#a!" I #raspe( h!s tool a"( &r!##e(. He %r!e( out* 4Oh: I', %o,!"#. 3 I', spe"( 3 !"#4 3 a"( a sho'er o& sper, shot out* %o/er!"# her elly &ro, %u"t to "a/el. I &r!##e( o" u"t!l e/ery (rop ha( &alle". The" lett!"# #o h!s pr!%2* he sat (o'" o" h!s heels* h!s eyes shut* h!s o(y st!ll palp!tat!"# '!th pleasure a"( "o' &!"#er!"# h!s st!ll s'olle" (oo(le. The e&&e%t o" ,e 'as /!ole"t. Sarah's att!tu(e o" her a%2 at all t!,es #a/e ,e a %o%2sta"( 3 !t ha( stoo( 'h!lst &r!##!"# h!,. 3 There she lay "o'* a lar#e (rop o& h!s spu"2 o" her ,otte see,e( rea(y to (rop (o'" o" to her %l!tor!s* h!#her up o" her elly l!ttle pools lay. Tear!"# o&& ,y sh!rt* s%ar%ely 2"o'!"# 'hat I (!(* %ry!"# out* 4Mo/e up h!#her o" the e(4 3 'h!%h he (!(* I &lu"#
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    ,ysel& o" her a"( put ,y pr!%2 up her %u"t. 3 My pr!%2 ru (rop o" her

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    3 =6 that%h* ,y elly s5uee1e( the opal pools et'ee" us* the !(ea (el!#hte( ,e 3 I &u%2e( a'ay* stret%he( out ,y ha"(* #raspe( h!s 'et pr!%2* &or he 'as "o' %o"/e"!e"tly "ear ,e* a"( &u%2e( 5u!%2ly to a" e%stat!% ter,!"at!o". The #reater the prel!,!"ary e+%!te,e"t* the ,ore (el!%!ous see,s the repose a&ter a &u%2 3 the ,ore !t !s "ee(e(* a"( I ha( ha( e+%!te,e"t e"ou#h that "!#ht. $t le"#th I rouse( ,ysel&. My %o%2 (!( "ot see, !"%l!"e( to %o,e out o& !ts lo(#!"#. I &elt that I %oul( utter her a#a!" '!thout u"%u"t!"#. So 2eep!"# !t !"* I ra!se( ,ysel& a"( loo2e( at h!, s!tt!"# at the hea( o& the e(* "a2e( a"( st!ll &eel!"# h!s pr!%2* 'h!%h 'as a#a!" as st!&& as a ra,ro(. 4He %a" spe"( a&ter all*4 sa!( I* ,y pr!%2 st!ll up Sarah. 3 4I tol( you he 'as a "!%e ,a".4 4Shoul( you l!2e to &u%2 her74 4Dust #!/e ,e the %ha"%e.4 The tale o& the sol(!ers putt!"# !"to ea%h other's lea/!"#s %a,e !"to ,y hea(. 4-o !t at o"%e.4 4Lor(*4 sa!( Sarah* 4you (o"'t ,ea" that.4 ;ut I (!(. 4-o !t "o'.4 3 I rose o" ,y 2"ees. 3 $s I too2 ,y elly o&& o& Sarah's* they 'ere st!%2!"# to#ether '!th h!s spu"2. It ,a(e a lou( s,a%2!"# "o!se as out ell!es separate(. 3 My pr!%2 (re' out sper, 'h!%h (roppe( et'ee" her th!#hs. 3 $s I #ot o&&* he #ot o"* a"( as 5u!%2ly put up her. The "e+t ,!"ute the!r a%2s!(es 'ere !" rap!( ,ot!o". The se%o"( &u%2 !s lo"#er tha" the &!rst* a"( I ha( t!,e to 'at%h the!r ,o/e,e"ts. 3 $ ,a" a"( 'o,a" oth "a2e( a"( %lose to ,e* 'ere %opulat!"# 3 I %oul( see a"( &eel e/ery ,o/e,e"t o& the!r o(!es 3 hear the!r ,ur,urs a"( s!#hs 3 see the!r &a%es. 3 There stoo( I '!th ,y pr!%2 "o' st!&& a#a!" 'at%h!"# the,. 3 My ha"(s ro/e( all o/er the, 3 I sl!ppe( ,y ha"( et'ee" the!r ell!es 3 I &elt h!s alls. 3 The" sl!pp!"# !t u"(er her ru,p !t &elt the 'et spu"2 I ha( le&t !" her %u"t* "o' 'or2!"# out o" to the ste, o& h!s pr!%2 as !t 'e"t !" a"( out 3 I #ot o" the e( a"( ru e( ,y pr!%2 a#a!"st h!s utto%2s. I shoute( out 3 4Fu%2 her* 3 spe"( !" her 3 spe"( !" ,y spu"2*4 3 a"( other o s%e"!t!es I 2"o' "ot 'hat. 3 I e"%oura#e( h!s pleasure y au(y su##est!o"s. $ s!#h* a ,ur,ur!"#* tol( ,e he 'as %o,!"#. My &!"#ers 'ere o" h!s alls* a"( I let the, #o to see h!s &a%e. He thrust h!s to"#ue !"to Sarah's ,outh. 3 4You are spe"(!"#* Sarah.4 3 8o reply. 3 Her ,outh 'as ope" to h!s to"#ue* her eyes 'ere %lose(* her utto%2s ,o/!"# '!th e"er#y* a"( the "e+t se%o"( ut &or a &e' t'!t%h!"#s o& h!s arse* a"( the!r hea/y reath!"#s* they 'ere l!2e lu,ps o& l!&eless &lesh. ;oth ha( spe"t. The &a"%y to (o her a&ter h!, %a,e o/er ,e 3 ,y spu"2 3 h!s spu"2 3 her spu"2 3 all !" her %u"t to#ether. I '!ll spe"( !" her a#a!". 3 The !(ea o& ,y pr!%2 e!"# (ro'"e( !" these ,!+e( e+u(at!o"s o/er'hel,e( ,e l! !(!"ously. 3 4I'll (o !t to you a#a!". 3 9et o&& o& her.4 3 4Let ,e 'ash*4 sa!( Sarah. 3 48o.4 3 4I '!ll.4 3 4You sha"'t. 3 He 'as #ett!"# o&&* she atte,pt!"# to r!se* 'he" I pushe( her (o'". 3 4It's '!ser4 3 I (!("'t 2"o' 'hat she sa!( s%ar%ely. 3 48o 3 "o 3 "o 3 I 'a"t to put !"to h!s spu"2.4 3 Her th!#hs 'ere apart* her %u"t hole 'as
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    l!"(e(* h!((e" y spu"2 'h!%h lay all o/er !t a"( &!lle( !ts or!&!%e. I thre' ,ysel& o" her* ,y pr!%2 sl!ppe( up '!th a s5uash!"# "o!se 3 I 2"o' "o other 'ay o& (es%r! !"# !t. I th!"2 I hear !t "o'. I &elt a se"se o& hea/e"ly sat!s&a%t!o". Her %u"t 'as 3 == so &!lle( that !t see,e( 5u!te loose* the sper, s5uee1e( out o& her a"( up* u"t!l the ha!r o& oth our #e"!tals 'ere saturate( 3 I pushe( ,y ha"( (o'"* a"( ,a2!"# her l!&t up o"e le#* &ou"( the sper, lay th!%2 (o'" to her arse hole 3 I %alle( out* 4Your spu"2's all o/er ,y allo%2s*4 a"( tol( all the au(y !,a#es 'h!%h %a,e a%ross ,y ,!"(. I tol( h!, to lay (o'" y the s!(e o& us* a"( ,a(e Sarah &eel h!s pr!%2 at the sa,e t!,e I (!( 3 I &elt ,y pleasure 'oul( e/e" "o' e too short a"( stoppe( ,ysel&. Sarah '!th a s!#h %r!e(* 4Oh 3 ,y 9o( 3 #o o"*4 her %u"t t!#hte"e(* she #ot h!s pr!%2 a"( %laspe( ,y utto%2s to her 3 I hel( h!s pr!%2* a"( tr!e( to le"#the" ,y pleasure ut %oul( "ot* her %u"t so %l!ppe( ,e. $ a"(o"!"# ,ysel& to her the "e+t !"sta"t al,ost '!th a s%rea, o& pleasure* I 'as 5u!et !" her ar,s a"( &ell asleep 3 a"( so (!( she* a"( so (!( he 3 all three o" the e( %lose to0#ether. $'a2e"!"#* I ha( rolle( o&& %lose to Sarah o" to ,y s!(e* ,y pr!%2 lay!"# a#a!"st her th!#h. 3 She lay o" her a%2 asleep* he "early o" h!s a%2. $ll three 'ere "early "a2e(* ,ysel& e+%epte( 'ho ha( o" a" u"(er sh!rt "e+t ,y s2!". 3 She ha( s!l2 sto%2!"#s a"( la%2 ,er!"o oots o". My &ores2!" ha( r!se" up a"( %o/ere( the t!p o& ,y pr!%2. I" the sau%er at the top 'as spu"2 'h!%h ha( !ssue( &ro, ,e a&ter I u"%u"te(. 3 The la,p 'as al!#ht. T'o %a"(les ?they ha( ee" short p!e%es@ ha( ur"t out* a"( the &!re ha( all ut e+p!re(. The roo, ha( ee" hot all the e/e"!"#* &or there 'ere three o& us !" !t* three l!#hts ur"!"#* a"( the &!re. 8o' !t ha( #ot %ol(* a"( a se"sat!o" o& %h!ll!"ess 'as o/er ,e. I #ot up a"( loo2e( at the pa!r. 3 She a sple"(!( 'o,a"* &!r, a"( s,ooth s2!""e(* a"( o& a %rea,y p!"2 t!"t 3 '!th the (ar2 ha!r o& her %u"t !" sple"(!( %o"trast. He a &!"e you"# ,a" '!th 'h!te &lesh* a"( '!th ,u%h (ar2 ro'" ha!r %luster!"# a"( %url!"# rou"( h!s 'h!te pr!%2* a"( thro'!"# h!s alls !"to sha(o'. H!s pr!%2 st!ll lar#e 'as ha"#!"# o/er h!s th!#h* the sl!#htly re( t!p hal& %o/ere( y the &ores2!" po!"t!"# to'ar(s Sarah* a"( as !& loo2!"# at !t. The" se+ual !"st!"%t ,a(e ,e pay atte"t!o" to her. 3 She lay there '!th t'o l! at!o"s &ro, ,e* a"( o"e &ro, h!, !" her %u"t. I (es!re( to see ho' !t loo2e( a"( &elt !t* ut 'as so (!stra%te( y ,y /ar!ous erot!% !,pulses that I %a""ot re%olle%t e/eryth!"# a%%urately. 3 $ll I 2"o' !s that I la!( hol( o& her le# "earest to ,e* a"( 'at%h!"#* pulle( !t slo'ly so as to lea/e her le#s sl!#htly ope". I put ,y &!"#er (o'" &ro, the e#!""!"# o& the %le&t. It &elt th!%2 a"( st!%2y* yet ut l!ttle spu"2 'as to e see" 3 loo2!"# (o'" to'ar(s the u, %hee2s* I sa' the e( pat%he( !" hal& a (o1e" pla%es '!th 'hat ha( ru" out &ro, her 3 I thrust ,y &!"#er up her %u"t a"( she a'a2e"e(. She sat up* loo2e( rou"(* ru e( her eyes* sa!(* 4!t's %ol(.4 The" she loo2e( at h!,. 4)hy 3 he's asleep too* ha/e you ee" asleep74 3 The" she put her &!"0
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    #ers to her %u"t too* #ot o&& the e(* a"( o" to the pot 3 loo2!"# at ,e s,!l!"#. 3 4You are a au(y (e/!l a"( "o ,!sta2e 3 I (o"'t re%olle%t su%h a spree s!"%e I ha/e ee" out.4 4Your %u"t's !" a jolly state o& at0ter.4 4It '!ll e all r!#ht 'he" !t's 'ashe(4 3 a"( she pro%ee(e( to 'ash* ut I stoppe( her. He 'as s"or!"# a"( ha( tur"e( o" to h!s a%2 3 h!s pr!%2 'h!%h see,e( lar#e lolle( o/er h!s th!#h. 4He's a &!"e you"# ,a" a"( h!s pr!%2's !##er tha" yours* a"( 'hat a a#*4 sa!( she #e"tly l!&t!"# up h!s pr!%2 a"( she'!"# h!s alls. I sa' !t 'as /ery lar#e* as !t ha( see,e( to ,e 'he" I s5uee1e( a"( &elt !t e&ore* ut the" I ha( ee" &ar too e+%!te( to "ot!%e a"yth!"# %are&ully. 8o' I e#a" to &r!# h!, as he lay. 4I thou#ht you ha( (o"e ,e* &or t'o hours I %oul( "ot ,a2e h!s %o%2 sta"(.4 4$h: !t 'as "er/ous"ess. 3 He has "e/er ee" &elt y a ,a" e&ore* so,e 'oul( #!/e te" pou"(s &or su%h a %ha"%e a"( you are to #!/e h!, a so/ere!#".4 4-o you th!"2 he %a" spe"( a#a!"74 4Yes* see 'hat a lot he spe"t o/er ,e< !& he 'as 'ell &e(* that you"# %hap 'oul( e #oo( &or hal& a (o1e" po2es* he's ee" hal& star/e( &or t'o ,o"ths.4 I #e"tly la!( hol( o& h!s pr!%2* a"( pulle( the s2!" (o'". O"e &eel ,ore a"( !t rose to &ull!sh s!1e* a"( lay hal& 'ay up h!s elly. 4I thou#ht !t 'oul( (!re%tly you tou%he( !t &ro, !ts loo2*4 sa!( she. Sa!( I* 4I '!ll &r!# h!,*4 a"( %o,,e"%e( !" the slo'est a"( #e"tlest ,a""er* s%ar%ely tou%h!"# !t. The st!&&e"!"# e#a" a"( the &ores2!" ret!re(* the t!p #ot ru !%u"( a"( tu,!(* a" u"easy ,o/e,e"t o& h!s th!#h a"( elly e#a"* a"( ,utter!"# !" h!s sleep h!s ha"( 'e"t to h!s pr!%2. 3 I re,o/e( ,!"e. Soo" h!s ha"( (roppe( y h!s s!(e a#a!"* a"( he s"ore( a"( ,uttere( so,eth!"#. Sarah* 'ho ha( put o" her %he,!se* the" la!( hol( o& h!s pr!%2 a"( &r!##e( !t. 3 4He %a"'t spe"(* he's (o"e too ,u%h alrea(y*4 sa!( I. 4I th!"2 he '!ll tho.4 The" I* jealous o& her ha"(l!"#* a"( le'e(ly &as%!"ate(* resu,e( the 'or2. 3 Ha( he "ot (ru"2 a"( eate" heart!ly* a"( ee" /ery &at!#ue(* he ,ust ha/e a'a2e"e(* ut he (!("'t. 8ot spe"(!"#* I spat o" ,y &!"#er a"( thu, * a"( ,a2!"# a ,o!st r!"# '!th the,* ru e( h!s pr!%2 t!p throu#h the,. That (!( !t. He ,uttere(* h!s elly hea/e(* a"( out rolle( h!s sper,* as he a'a2e"e(* say!"#* 4I'/e ha( a eastly spe"(!"# (rea,* a"( thou#ht I 'as &u%2!"# you.4 See!"# us lau#h!"# he see,e( asto"!she(* a"( 'as a"#ry 'he" tol( o& our #a,e. )e all 'ashe(* 'e ,e" put o" sh!rts* a"( he #ot #oo( hu,oure( a#a!". I ha( s%ar%ely eate" that (ay* &elt e,pty a"( sa!( so Sarah sa!( she 'as hu"#ry* he that he %oul( eat a (o"2ey* &or he'( "ot ha( &oo( s!"%e the ,or"!"# 3 I ha( "e/er eate" !" Sarah's lo(#!"#s* &or the style (!("'t su!t ,e* ut &elt that I ,ust eat "o'. 4Shall I &et%h so,eth!"# at o"%e7 It's "ear ,!("!#ht* a"( all the shops '!ll e %lose(.4 3 )e ha( ee" &!/e hours at our /oluptuous #a, ols* ut !t (!( "ot see, hal& that t!,e. I #a/e Sarah ,o"ey. She &et%he( %ut ee& a"( ha,* rea(* %heese* a"( ottle( stout* a"( also 'h!s2ey. 3 )h!lst she 'as a'ay* he re%o/ere( h!s te,per a"( &elt h!s %o%2. He sa!( he hate( 4 eastly %heat!"# (rea,s.4 4$re you &o"( o&
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    &eel!"# ,e"74 4It's ,u%h "!%er to &u%2 a 'o,a"*4 I repl!e( a"( tol( h!, that &or ,a"y years I ha( "e/er put &!"#er o" a pr!%2 ut ,y o'". Sp!te o& (!rty 2"!/es a"( a (!"#y ta le %loth* 'e all &ell to at the &oo(. 3 He ate ra/e"ously a"( tol( ,e that the last t!,e he ha( ,eat* a ,ate #a/e h!, so,e o& h!s (!""er. I #a/e h!, a %!#ar* 'e ha( ,ore 'h!s2ey a"( 'ater* the roo, 'as hot a#a!"* 'e sat rou"( the &!re '!th our sh!rts o"ly o" 3 Sarah 'as (resse(. 00 He tol( ,e a#a!" a out h!,sel&* a"( soo" the %o"/ersat!o" (r!&te( !"to the &u%2!"# l!"e. He ha( lost h!s ,o(esty a"( '!th !t ,u%h o& h!s respe%t &or ,e. I"0stea( o& o"ly a"s'er!"# a"( say!"# 4s!r4 he e#a" to as2 ,e 5uest!o"s. Dust as a 'o,a"'s ,a""er alters to'ar(s a ,a"* (!re%tly he has o"%e &u%2e( her* so (!( h!s alter "o' that I ha( &r!##e( h!,. I as2e( !& he l!2e( e!"# &r!##e(. 3 8o he (!( "ot l!2e 3 4spe"(!"# !" the a!r4 3 (!( I7 48o4 3 ut I (!( su%h th!"#s at t!,es. The" Sarah allu(e( to h!s !# alls* 'e oth &elt the,* a"( su%h a lar#e a# I ha/e "e/er see" e&ore. He sa!( the oys at s%hool jo2e( h!, a out !t. ;oys 2"o' the s!1es o& ea%h other's pr!%2s. I 'a"te( to #o o". The "o/elty 'as so #reat that I %oul( "ot see a"( &eel h!, e"ou#h< %!r%u,sta"%es 'h!%h I (!( "ot e+pe%t ha( rou#ht Sarah !"to the &u"* 'h!%h !"%rease( the a,use,e"t. I a, !" the pr!,e o& l!&e* a"( altho "e/er atte,pt!"# su%h 'o"(ers as so,e ,e" ra# o&* %a" eas!ly (o ,y &our &u%2s !" a" e/e"!"# '!th a &resh 'o,a"* a"( so,et!,es ,ore* altho the" use( up a l!ttle "e+t (ay. I ha( "o' o"ly spe"t t'!%e a"( ,y pr!%2 see,e( o" &!re. )!"e* eer* a"( a &ull sto,a%h soo" heat a you"# ,a" 'ho has "ot spe"t &or te" (ays. I pulle( h!s pr!%2 a out as 'e sat rou"( the &!re* a"( !t rea(!ly s'elle(. He praye( ,e to (es!st* he'( ha( e"ou#h that "!#ht* ut I ha( "ot. So I ,a(e Sarah ta2e o&& her %lothes to her %he,!se* a"( s!t oppos!te. I sat "e+t h!, s,o2!"# a"( loo2!"# at h!s pr!%2* a"( &eel!"# !t at !"ter/als. O&te" !" ,y youth* ,y pr!%2 has stoo( e&ore ,y (!""er 'as &!"!she(. $ (o1e" t!,es ha/e I #ot up a"( &u%2e( !" the ,!((le a"( &!"!she( (!""er a&ter'ar(s. 3 Th!s ,eal e#a" to tell o" all. Sarah ra!se( her %he,!se to let the 'ar,th o& the &!re rea%h her le#s* a"( sho'e( her s!l2 sto%2!"#s a"( re( #arters. 3 4)hat a &!"e pa!r you ha/e*4 sa!( he 3 a"( (o'" 'e"t h!s ha"( to h!s sh!rt. I sa' a proje%t!o"* a"( pull!"# up h!s sh!rt* there 'as h!s pr!%2 as st!&& as e/er. 4I'll &r!# you* a"( you loo2 at Sarah's le#s.4 He o je%te(* ha( ha( e"ou#h o& that* he 'oul( soo"er &u%2 Sarah. 3 I ha( "ot rou#ht h!, to &u%2 ,y 'o,a" 3 ,y let%h 'as &or &r!##!"# h!,. 3 )h!lst th!s tal2 'as #o!"# o" I hel( h!s pr!%2. Sarah sho'e( us o"e o& her th!#hs a"( tol( h!, to let ,e (o 'hat I l!2e( 3 I ha( a st!&& o"e a"( 'as (y!"# to let out ,y sper,. I 'oul( &r!# h!,* a"( he shoul( &u%2 her a&ter'ar(s. $ you"# ,a" '!th a sta"(!"# pr!%2 al'ays th!"2s that there !s e"ou#h sper, !" !t &or a"y a,ou"t o& &u%2!"#. 3 Ho' o&te" I ha/e thou#ht 'h!lst ,y %o%2 'as sta"(!"# a"( ur"!"# to e !" a %u"t 'hat 'o"(ers I 'oul( (o* a"( (!re%tly a&ter o"e %o!t!o" (!( "oth!"# ,ore.
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    I put Sarah o" the e(* ,ysel& y her* h!, y the s!(e o& us o" h!s a%2* a"( ups!(e (o'"< h!s elly so pla%e( that h!s pr!%2 'as "ear ,y shoul(ers* a"( I %oul( %o"/e"!e"tly &eel !t. H!s pr!%2 'as thro !"# '!th lust 3 I la!( o" Sarah '!th pr!%2 outs!(e her a"( e#a" &r!##!"# h!,. He s!#he( a"( %r!e( out* 4Oh: let ,e (o !t to her 3 (o 3 oho 3 (o.4 I ,ea"t to play '!th h!, lo"#* ut Sarah 'as le'e(* pla%e( her ha"( et'ee" our ell!es a"( put ,y pr!%2 up her. 3 The" all 'e"t !ts o'" 'ay. 3 I& a 'o,a" ,ea"s you to #o o" &u%2!"# 'he" up her you %a"'t help yoursel&. )!thout ,o/!"# the!r u,s* they %a" #r!p '!th the!r %u"t ,us%les a"( #r!"( a ,a"'s tool so that he ,ust ra, a"( ru . I 'as soo" stro2!"# as har( as I %oul(* ut hol(!"# ,y hea( o" ,y r!#ht ha"( rest!"# &ro, the el0 o'* so as to see h!s pr!%2 'h!%h I 'e"t o" &r!##!"#. It 'as a lo"#er jo tha" e&ore* '!th all our le'e("ess a"( #oo( '!ll* &or oth o& us. $t le"#th out %a,e h!s sper,. $t the s!#ht o& !t out shot ,!"e !"to Sarah* 'ho respo"(e( '!th her ,o!sture* a"( all 'as 5u!et. )e repose( lo"#* the" I #ot o&&. 48o' you ,ay ha/e her.4 3 Sarah 'ashe(. He la!( o" the e(* a"( a&ter '!p!"# up h!s "o' th!" spu"2 &ro, h!s elly* e#a" &r!##!"# h!,sel& up. Sarah la!( (o'" y h!s s!(e a"? let h!, &eel her %lea" %u"t* ut !t 'as useless< a"? a&ter so,e /!ole"t &!st!"# o& h!s tool* he rose say!"# 4I', (o"e up4 3 a"( a#a!" 'e all sat (o'" e&ore the &!re* s,o2!"# a"( (r!"2!"#* a"( tal2!"# a out &u%2!"# the %auses a"( the %o"se5ue"%es thereo&. Th!s tal2 'e"t o" &or a" hour or so. Sarah sa!( jeer!"#ly to h!,* 4)hy (o"'t you ha/e ,e.4 3 E/ery ter ,!"utes he &r!##e( h!s %o%2 uselessly. The" he ate ,ore &oo(. 3 Sarah 'e"t to the 'ater%loset* 'h!%h 'as !" a yar(* a"( (resse( partly to #o there* &or !t 'as %ol(. 3 H!s pr!%2 loo2e( eaut!&ul ut l!&eless. 3 My au(!"ess 'as #ett!"# o/er a"( I 'as t!re(* ut thou#ht the" %a,e !"to ,y hea( 3 a re,!"!s%e"%e o& ,y &rol!%s '!th Fre"%h 'o,e". ;ut tho I ha( (o"e e/eryth!"# ut o"e '!th Sarah* I (!( "ot su##est 'hat 'as !" ,y ,!"( e&ore her 3 I ha( a stup!( l!"#er!"# ,o(esty !" ,e. 3 )e 'ere oth &u((le( a"( re%2less* a"( Sarah "o' (o'" sta!rs. I lo%2e( the (oor* say!"#* 4I& you'll pro,!se "ot to tell her* I '!ll ,a2e you st!&& e"ou#h to ha/e her.4 He pro,!se(. 3 I la!( h!, o" the e( a"( putt!"# h!s pr!%2 !" ,y ,outh e#a" to su%2 !t* &!rst '!th the s2!" o"* a"( the" #e"tly '!th the s2!" o&&. The s,ooth"ess (el!#hte( ,e. I "o lo"#er 'o"(ere( at a Fre"%h 'o,a"* 'ho tol( ,e a pr!%2 'as the "!%est th!"# she e/er ha( !" her ,outh. I (!( e+a%tly as !t ha( ee" (o"e to ,e as "early as I re%olle%te(< sp!t out a&ter the &!rst taste* a"( the" 'e"t o" ,outh!"#* l!%2!"#* a"( su%2!"#. It too2 e&&e%t (!re%tly. 3 4Oh: !t's as #oo( as a %u"t*4 sa!( he. It 'as st!&&e"e( y the t!,e Sarah %a,e a%2. I 'e"t to the (oor a"( u"lo%2e( !t* he ha( resu,e( h!s seat* the" Sarah 'ashe( her a%2s!(e a"( 'e"t a%2 to her seat y the &!re. He'( "e/er ha( h!s %o%2 su%2e( e&ore. )e &!"!she( the 'h!s2ey 3 !t 'as #ett!"# to'ar(s o"e o'%lo%2 3 Sarah sa!(* 4It's t!,e 'e #ot to e( 3 'hy (o"'t you oth stop all "!#ht7 3 !t '!ll e
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    %ol(* :or I ha/e "o ,ore %oals.4 The la,p 'as #o!"# out* a"( she 'e"t to the "e+t roo, to &et%h %a"(les. )he" she %a,e a%2* 4I& he !s #o!"# to &u%2 you* he shoul( e#!"*4 sa!( I. 4Yes* a"( I a, #o!"# to e( 'hether he (oes or "ot.4 She str!ppe( to her %he,!se a"( #ot !"to e(. 4I& you (o"'t ha/e her "o'* she !s "ot to let you 'he" I a, #o"e* #et outs!(e the e(.4 3 Sarah (!(. 3 )!th %o%2 st!&& he #ot o" to her !" a ,!"ute. I sa' y a %ross t'!st o& h!s utto%2s a"( a s!#h that he 'as up her 3 Sarah #a/e that s,ooth* easy* 'r!##l!"# jer2 a"( up'ar(s ,ot!o" '!th her utto%2s a"( th!#hs* 'h!%h a 'o,a" (oes to %o,plete the e"#ul&,e"t o& a (oo(le 3 I put ,y ha"( u"(er h!s alls. H!s pr!%2 up to the roots 'as up her %u"t. The" "ot a 'or( 'as spo2e". $ lo"# stro2e e"sue(* a"( #ra(ually a&ter har( 5u!%2 ra,,!"#* the!r last pleasure she'e( !tsel&. My ra"(!"ess !"%rease( y 'at%h!"# h!,* I ,a(e h!, lea/e her %u"t e&ore he ha( 'ell &!"!she( spe"(!"# a"( a#a!" plu"#e( ,y pr!%2 !"to her ree2!"#* sl!ppery* sl!,y /a#!"a. I #lor!e( !" &eel!"# the!r sper, upo" ,e. I 'as "ot !" the ha !t o& #!/!"# Sarah 'et 2!sses* ut as I thou#ht* I lo"#e( to ,eet her ,outh '!th ,!"e* a"( '!th our to"#ues jo!"e(* a"( har( thrusts* a pa!" !" ,y pe#o* a"( sl!#ht pa!" !" ,y arse hole* I spe"t* a"( Sarah spe"t. 4My 9o( I', &u%2e( out*4 sa!( she. It 'as three o'%lo%2 a.,. 3 e!#ht or "!"e hours ha( I ee" !" o"e rou"( o& e+%!te,e"t 3 I ha( &r!##e( h!, three t!,es a"( he'( &u%2e( thr!%e 3 I ha( &u%2e( s!+ t!,es 3I ha( &u%2e( !" h!s spu"2* a"( ha( su%2e( h!s pr!%2 3 Sarah ha( ee" &u%2e( 5u!te e!#ht t!,es. Ho' ,a"y t!,es I ha( spe"t I (!( "ot the" 2"o'* e!"# e'!l(ere( '!th e+%!te,e"t a"( (r!"2. 3 $s Sarah #ot up she see,e( (a1e(* sat !" a %ha!r* a"( sa!(* 4-a,"e( !& e/er I ha( su%h a "!#ht* I', %lea" &u%2e( out.4 The" pay!"# the, I le&t. It 'as at our "e+t ,eet!"# that Sarah sa!( I ha( &u%2e( her s!+ t!,es. I" ,y a re/!at!o" o& the ,a"us%r!pt* I ha/e o,!tte( so,e o& our las%!/!ous e+er%!ses* 'h!%h 'ere !" &a%t ut a rep!t!t!o" o& 'hat I ha( (o"e e&ore. I 'as thorou#hly (o"e up the "e+t (ay* "ot o"ly '!th spe"(!"# ut '!th e+%!te,e"t. My (el!#ht !" ha"(l!"# h!s 'h!te pr!%2 !" repose* hal& st!&& a"( !" %o,plete r!#!(!ty* 'as al,ost ,a((e"!"#. The (el!#ht o& 'at%h!"# h!s pr!%2 #l!(e !" a"( out o& her %u"t 'as !"te"se. The (es!re a"( %ur!os!ty o& t'e"ty years 'as e!"# sat!s&!e(. My 2"o'le(#e o& %opulat!o" a"( o& the pe"!s #ett!"# per&e%te(. 3 Yet I 'e"t ho,e !" a" u"%o,&orta le &ra,e o& ,!"( a out 'hat I ha( (o"e '!th h!,. There 'as "o o"e !" ,y ho,e just the" to 'o"(er at ,y e!"# so late* to "ot!%e ,y e+%!te,e"t* or to 5uest!o" ,e* 'h!%h 'as &ortu"ate.

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    Chapter III U"a/a!l!"# repe"ta"%e. 9e,!"! &rol!%s. >r!%2s et'ee" ell!es. I o" h!,. He o" ,e t!p to t!p. ;oots a"( sto%2!"#s. $ las%!/!ous tr!a(. 9a,ahu%h!"# all rou"(. $ loo2!"#0#lass #ot. 9e"!tal ,a"!pulat!o"s. S!,ulta"eous &u%2!"#s a"( &r!##!"#s. I &u%2* she su%2s. Var!at!o"s o" the sa,e tu"e. She o" ,y pr!%2 s!ts. He her %l!tor!s l!%2s. Three o" our s!(es to#ether. $,atory e+er%!ses '!th ropes. Sarah's pu(e"(al %apa%!ty. $" assault o& t'o pe#os. F!"#er a"( pe"!s %o0 operat!"#. M!s%ella"eous las%!/!t!es. $ s%are !" the street. $ s%are at Sarah's. $ su##est!/e 5uest!o". -es!res e+%!te(. Hea/y pay &or a" a"us. So(o,y %u, o"a"!s,. Fear* (!s#ust* a"( hasty retreat. I 'e"t ho,e use( up* ut e+%!te( eyo"( ,easure. I %oul( "ot sleep &or th!"2!"# o& ha/!"# &r!##e( a ,a". The s,ooth"ess o& s2!"* the loose easy ,o/e,e"t o& the outer s2!" o/er the !""er ro(* a"( !ts 'h!te"ess 3 the #ra(ual %ha"#e !" %olor o& !ts plu, shape( t!p &ro, p!"2 to a (eep %ar,!"e* the shoot!"# out o& h!s sper,* the /oluptuous shu((er!"# 'h!lst he &u%2e( Sarah* the sau%ers 'h!%h %a,e a"( 'e"t !" h!s arse %hee2s 'he" he &u%2e(* all (a"%e( e&ore ,y eyes as I lay !" e(* a"( I sa' the, as pla!"ly as !& the &u%2!"# 'as a%tually the" #o!"# o". 3 $#a!" her (!ste"(e( %u"t l!ps* '!th the th!%2 spu"2 oo1!"#* ,y pr!%2 push!"# et'ee" the, '!th a s5uash* s5uee1!"# the sper,at!% ,!+ture out o" to ,y alls* a"( up to her ,otte* a"( #u,,!"# our ha!r to#ether* ,y #r!p o& h!s st!&&e"e( %o%2 as I &u%2e( her the se%o"( t!,e< all &!lle( ,e '!th a" !"%re(! ly &ur!ous* au(y e+%!te,e"t* ,a2!"# ,y pr!%2 st!&&e" a"( thro * sp!te o& ,y &at!#ue a"( pre/e"t!"# ,y rest. The" %a,e re&le%t!o". 3 Ha( I really &r!##e( a ,a" 3 st!ll 'orse 3 #ot ,y o'" pr!%2 'ette( '!th the sper, o& a"other ,a". $ o/e all su%2e( h!s pr!%2: 3 $" a%t I ha( %erta!"ly hear( o& e!"# (o"e y ,e" to ea%h other* yet all ut (!s el!e/e(* a"( loo2e( o" as a /ery &oul a%t!o" 3 yet I ha( (o"e !t* ha( e"joye( !t all. Mu%h as I ha( (o"e a"( see" e&ore* I 'as "ot 5u!te easy !" ,y ,!"(* sp!te o& ,y ph!losophy that a"y se+ual e"joy,e"t !s per,!ss! le 3 that our or#a"s o& #e"erat!o" are &or our o'" use a"( pleasure* a"( that 'hat ,e" a"( 'o,e" %hoose to (o to#ether they ha/e a r!#ht to (o* !t %o"%er"!"# "o o"e else. Su%h are the results o& preju(!%es a"( &alse e(u%at!o". It e"(e( !" re&le%t!"# that I "e/er ha( !"te"(e( to (o those th!"#s* that opportu"!ty ha( let ,e u"'!tt!"#ly to (o the,* a"( resol/!"# that I 'oul( "e/er (o !t a#a!"* I &ell asleep. 8e+t ,or"!"# at rea2&ast I thou#ht* 4That (e au%h '!ll "e/er e re"e'e(.4 $&ter lu"%heo"* 4)hat 'as the har, a&ter all.4 The" I e#a" to th!"2 I shoul( l!2e to &eel h!, o"%e ,ore* to 'at%h the phe"o,e"o" o& the spe"( ,ore %oolly a"( ph!losoph!%ally. 3 O"%e ,ore to ,a2e h!, spe"(* a"( to 'at%h h!s pr!%2 &ro, !ts st!&&e"!"# to !ts shr!"2!"#. To 'at%h h!s &a%e a"( see ho' pleasure a&&e%te( !t. )hy shoul( I "ot r!"# h!, a"( Sarah "a2e( to#ether as I ha( (o"e a"( see h!s pr!%2 r!se* let h!, &u%2 her* a"( 'at%h as I (!( last
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    "!#ht 3 surely there !s "o har, 3 or "ot ,ore tha" !" loo2!"# at su%h (o!"#s throu#h a spyhole. 3 The ,a" !s %learly "ot a so(o,!te* or he 'oul( "ot e so rea(y to &u%2 her. He !s out o& 'or2* a"( pro a ly !s 'hat he says he !s. It !s a %ha"%e 'h!%h "e/er ,ay %o,e a#a!" to ,e. I thou#ht o& the (ou le &u%2 '!thout the 'ash!"#* o& the pr!%2 !" ,y ,outh* a"( the" &elt asha,e(. 3 4I ,ust ha/e ee" s%re'e( a"( so e+%!te( that I (!( "ot 2"o' 'hat I 'as a out* I shall "e/er (o that a#a!"* a"( hope he 'o"'t tell Sarah.4 I the" too2 a #allop* (eter,!"!"# a#a!" to #et h!,. I ha( slept so a(ly o" the pre/!ous "!#ht that o" ,y retur" I la!( (o'". My ,!"( 'a"(ere( to h!s pr!%2 a"( 'hat Sarah %alle( h!s purse. I 'o"(ere( !& h!s pr!%2 'as really !##er tha" ,!"e a"( '!she( I ha( ,easure( !t 3 I 'o"(ere( !& he spe"t ,ore or less tha" ,e* a"( ,a"y other th!"#s< a"( at last %a,e to the %o"%lus!o" that I ou#ht to e asha,e( o& ,ysel&* a"( e!"# e,pty !" sto,a%h a"( &at!#ue(* sa!(* 4I ha/e (o"e '!th that us!"ess.4 3 The" I 'e"t to ,y %lu * ha( (!""er* (es!re to see h!, a#a!" the" %a,e a%2* a"( soo" I 'as '!th Sarah arra"#!"# &or a"other ,eet!"#. Sa!( she* 4You'( a pretty #oo( "!#ht* I (e%lare that !& I 'ere to tell so,e 'o,e" 'hat 'e (!(* they'( o"ly el!e/e part o& !t. 3 He 'a"te( to sleep '!th ,e.4 She (are say he 'oul( %o,e a#a!" '!ll!"#ly* she 'oul( #o a"( see 3 I #a/e her ,o"ey to uy h!, tro'sers* %ra/at* a"( %ollars* sa!( that he 'as to ta2e a ath* a"( also #a/e her ,o"ey to &ee( h!, 'ell 3 Sarah ,et ,e out a" hour a&ter'ar(s. He 'oul( e there the &ollo'!"# "!#ht. She ha( (o"e all I '!she(* a"( the &ello' loo2e( as spru%e as poss! le 3 I 'as a#a!" "er/ous* a"( so 'as he* ut a &e' ,!"utes' %o"/ersat!o" put us at ease. 3 )e str!ppe(* a"( ehol( us %lose to#ether* I hol(!"# that ha"(so,e tool o& h!s. He as2e( !& Sarah 'as %o,!"#* ut I (!( "ot 'a"t her the"* a"( sat '!th h!s alls !" ,y ha"(* &or a t!,e th!"2!"# o& the s!1e a"( &ull"ess o& the s%rotu,. O& the so/ere!#" 3 he tol( ,e that he &!rst pa!( &!&tee" sh!ll!"#s &or re"t* a"( the rest 'here he o'e( ,o"ey 3 that Sarah ha( #ot h!, #oo( &oo(* 3 that he ha( "ot spe"t s!"%e that last "!#ht. 4)he" I thou#ht o& !t all* I #ot to 'a"t !t*4 sa!( he. The" I 'ashe( h!s #e"!tals a"( ,a(e a %o,plete a"( %ur!ous e+a,!"at!o" o& h!s pe"!s a"( s%rotu,* a"( ha( ,ore %o,plete 5u!et pleasure %ro'(!"# !" that tha" o" the pre/!ous o%%as!o". ;e&ore 'he" &eel!"# h!s pr!%2 !t (!( "ot ,a2e ,e ra"(y 3 to"!#ht !t (!(. My e+a,!"at!o" e#a" to tell o" h!,* a"( 'he" I ha( pulle( the &ores2!" o"%e or t'!%e up a"( (o'"* h!s ro( 'as st!&&. The" up st!&&e"e( ,!"e. 3 I e#a" &r!##!"# h!,. 3 48o' I '!ll loo2 at your sper, as !t %o,es.4 Su((e"ly he la!( hol( o& ,y pr!%2. 3 4Hullo* (o"'t (o that.4 He rel!"5u!she( !t e##!"# par(o"* say!"# he (!( "ot 2"o' 'hat ,a(e h!, (o !t. 3 My pull!"# h!s a out see,e( 5u!te a proper th!"# &or ,e* &or I pa!( h!,
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    &or !t< ut (!re%tly he tou%he( ,y pr!%2* I &elt (!s#uste(. 3 The ,!"( !s a" o(( th!"# 3 !& a #e"tle,a" ha( &elt ,e* shoul( I ha/e ee" e5ually sho%2e(7 Th!s prel!,!"ary 'as soo" o/er* he 'as o" the po!"t o& (!s%har#e 'he" I stoppe(* a"( ,a2!"# h!, s!t (o'"* 'at%he( h!s st!&& pr!%2 #ra(ually (roop* a"( the" I 'e"t at h!, a#a!" a"( so o". I& a %op!ous (!s%har#e !s to e #ot out o& a ,a"* that !s the 'ay to (o !t. 3 $t le"#th a&ter play!"# so &or lo"#* he sa!( he ,ust a"( 'oul( %o,e 3 so I &r!##e( as &!"e a sper,at!% eja%ulat!o" as I ha( ha( o" the &!rst "!#ht. It spurte( out a yar(* 5u!te. I ha( !"te"(e( "ot to let Sarah appear that "!#ht* ut &eel!"# h!s %o%2 ha( ,a(e ,y %o%2 sta"(. 4I'll &r!# ,ysel&*4 I sa!(. ;ut I hate( spe"(!"# !" that &ash!o". 3 $&ter try!"# to restra!" ,ysel& t!ll I %oul( (o so "o lo"#er* I %alle( Sarah. She 'as (resse(. Thro'!"# her o" the s!(e o& the e(* up 'e"t her %lothes* a"( I put up her* he loo2!"# o". Up %a,e h!s pr!%2 a#a!" at the s!#ht. 3 He as2e( to ha/e her* ut I 'oul("'t let h!,* a"( ha"(le( h!s tool 'h!lst I &u%2e( her. I %arr!e( out ,y !"te"t!o"s* &r!##e( h!, &our t!,es* a"( ha( "o e"( o& a,use,e"t '!th h!,. 3 I ha( a taste that "!#ht &or roll!"# o/er h!, as !& he 'ere a 'o,a"* 'he" h!s %o%2 'as st!&&* a"( ,a2!"# ,!"e st!&&* a"( lay!"# the t'o pr!%2s to#ether. I tr!e( all sorts o& 'ays o& ,a2!"# h!s sta"(. So,et!,es y pull!"# the s2!" up a"( (o'"* so,et!,es y sha2!"# the top 3 "o' y #!/!"# !t a ru(e p!"%h 3 "o' y s5uee1!"# h!s alls. I tr!e( e/ery 'ay 'h!%h I %oul( re%olle%t 'o,e" ha( use( o" ,e* or I ha( hear( or thou#ht o&. There 'as "o' "o (!&&!%ulty a out !t* &or h!s %o%2 2ept sta"(!"# a&ter s,all ha"(l!"#< a"( he ha( st!ll sper,* tho #ett!"# at ea%h (!s%har#e less !" 5ua"t!ty a"( th!""er. $t h!s &ourth (!s%har#e all 'as o/er* ut there 'ere st!ll th!"#s 'h!%h I '!she( to (o '!th h!,. O"e 'as to put h!s pr!%2 !" ,y ,outh. $#a!" I ru e( ,y l!ps o" !ts s,ooth 'h!te ste,* a"( 2!sse( !t* a"( all ut put !t !". 3 ;ut I "e/er '!ll (o that a#a!"* thou#ht I to ,ysel&. The a,use,e"t ho'e/er see,e( !"%o,plete '!thout Sarah. $#a!" I &u%2e( her* a"( the" let h!, (o !t to her. That 'as a /ery lo"# jo a"( &!"!she( the e/e"!"#* a"( h!,. $&ter'ar(s. Ea%h ,eet!"# I thou#ht 'oul( e the last* yet I ha( h!, a#a!". Sarah part!%!pate( !" the a,use,e"ts re#ularly. The e/e"!"# (!( "ot see, %o,plete '!thout the t'o. I 'as !"&atuate(. 3 O& %ourse &our (!s%har#es a "!#ht %oul( "ot e 2ept up* ut I (!( "ot see h!, e/ery "!#ht. 3 ;ut as ,u%h spu"2 as %oul( e #ot out o& h!, I #ot* pu,p!"# h!, pretty (ry '!th ,y &!st* a"( ,ysel& as 'ell* ut !"to Sarah's %u"t. I "o' tell you so,e o& ,y a,use,e"ts* a"( as "ear as ,ay e !" the su%%ess!o" !" 'h!%h they too2 pla%e. They %oul( "ot all e (o"e o" o"e e/e"!"#. My au(y !,a#!"at!o" e!"# set to 'or2* all sorts o& poss! !l!t!es %a,e !"to ,y hea(. )e soape( 'ell our pr!%2s* a"( u"(er our alls a"( arse &urro's. The" ly!"# o" the top o& h!,* 'e thrust our pr!%2s u"(er ea%h other's alls* a"( 'or2!"# !" the soapy &urro's* oth spe"t o" ea%h other's a%2s!(e. 3 It 'as "ot %o"/e"!e"t* our pr!%2s re elle( at e!"# so e"t a"( thrust* ut the
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    "o/elty ,a(e up &or the !"%o"/e"!e"%e. 3 8o/elty st!,ulates (es!re. 3 I #ot ,u%h a,use,e"t &ro, ly!"# o" the top o& h!,* 'he" our pr!%2s 'ere "ot st!&&* a"( &eel!"# the test!%les a"( t'o %o%2s !" a u"%h to0#ether. Sarah* the" 5u!te (el!#hte(* &elt our !"ter,!"#le( #e"!tals. The" I put h!, o" the top a"( ,ysel& e"eath* Sarah hel( a loo2!"# #lass a"( %a"(le* so that I %oul( see 'he" o" ,y a%2 t'o allo%2s !" a heap to0#ether. Sarah 'as (el!#hte( '!th all ,y las%!/!ous"ess a"( sa!( she "e/er 2"e' su%h a au(y ,a" as I 'as. O"e (ay sta"(!"# up I soape( oth our pr!%2 t!ps a"( 'e &r!##e( oursel/es. )e put the t'o t!ps so %lose that that they ru e( to#ether* a"( 'e spe"t a#a!"st ea%h other's #la"(s. These las%!/!ous /a#ar!es a"( (el!%a%!es (!( "ot su##est the,sel/es all at o"%e. F!rstly ,y (el!#ht 'as to 'at%h h!s &a%e as he spe"t* the" to see the pr!%2 st!&&* the sper, shoot* the tre,ulous sha2!"# o& h!s a%2s!(e* a"( to hear h!s 5u!et ,ur,urs o& pleasure. $&ter I ha( ha( e"ou#h o& that* I etoo2 ,ysel& to ,ore &a"%!&ul a,use,e"ts. Sp!te o& ,ysel&* ,y ,!"( re%urre( to the &eel o& h!s pr!%2 'he" !" ,y ,outh* a"( altho I /o'e( to ,ysel& "e/er to let !t #o !"to !t a#a!". 3 Yet 'hy7 thou#ht I at le"#th. Ha/e you "ot l!%2e( a %u"t7 Ha/e you "ot ha( the &resh 'ar, p!((le s5u!rt a#a!"st your &a%e &ro, Sarah's %u"t7 3 Ha/e you "ot sa/oure( the salt l!5uor 'h!%h (!st!ls &ro, a"( 2eeps ,o!st a 'o,a"'s %u"t7 8ay. Ha/e you "ot 'he" ,o!ste"e( t!ll al,ost ru""!"# out* y !ts s'eat!"# ?so to spea2@ u"(er the a%t!o" o& your to"#ue o" her %l!tor!s* sho/e( your to"#ue up her %u"t* a"( rou#ht !t a%2 !"to your ,outh '!th (el!#ht a"( e%stasy at #!/!"# her pleasure7 Is the putt!"# !"to your ,outh a pr!%2* (ry* %lea"* a"( s,ooth as !/ory* 'orse7 3 ;ut !t's a ,a"'s. I" her ,outh a pr!%2 !s 5u!te proper. He ,ay l!%2* t!%2le* a"( su%2 her hole* that's 5u!te "atural. ;ut a ,a"'s: 3 8o I 'o"'t. For all that* o"e "!#ht 'h!lst &eel!"# !t* 'he" he ha( 'ashe( a&ter I'( &!rst &r!##e( h!,* I a#a!" 'ashe( !t %are&ully* a"( la!( h!, o" the e(. There hu"# h!s pr!%2 a"( h!s test!%les* the t!p just %o/ere( y the pre0pu%e. $s I pulle( a%2 the &ores2!"* I put out ,y to"#ue a"( t!%2le( the top. 4Your to"#ue !s o" !t*4 sa!( he lau#h!"#. 3 The" I too2 !t !" ,y l!ps. It 'as l!2e !/ory. I lo"#e( to ,!"ette '!th !t* a"( passe( the l!,p* so&t* &le+! le tool e"t!rely !"to ,y ,outhI "ot a !t 'as outs!(e. 3 It 'e"t a%2 to'ar(s ,y #ullet a"( there I hel( !t* t!ll !t e#a" to s'ell. I passe( !t up a"( (o'" !" ,y ,outh* l!%2e( a"( su%2e( !t* put !t out a"( let !t stay t!ll !t (roope(* the" re,outhe( !t* a"( %o"t!"ue( th!s &or a lo"# t!,e. $t le"#th h!s sper, ha( ee" so a%%u,ulate( y the (all!a"%e that he sa!( he %oul( ear !t "o lo"#er a"( 'oul( &r!# h!,sel& !& I (!( "ot. I the" rou#ht !t up to the spe"(!"# thro * pulle( !t &ro, ,y ,outh* a"( &!"!sh!"# '!th ,y ha"(* h!s spu"2 shot up. There !s "oth!"# l!2e %oa+!"# a pr!%2 a lo"# t!,e* &or a%%u,ulat!"# the spu"2 !" the reser/o!rs o& %o"%up!s%e"%e. I', sure ,ore %o,es the"* tha" &ro, a hasty &r!#.
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    The" I &u%2e( her e&ore h!,* the" se"t her out* a"( a#a!" su%2e( h!s pr!%2 'h!%h 'as !" po'er&ul or(er 3 I la!( h!, o" the e(s!(e !" the att!tu(e ,ost %o"/e"!e"t to l!%2 a %u"t* a"( so that I ,!#ht see h!s &a%e 'h!lst I operate(. It !s easy !" a ,a"'s &a%e to see 'he" h!s allo%2s are a out to se"( &orth the!r ju!%es. 3 $ re( I"(!a"* they say* %a" preser/e h!s &eatures 'he" e!"# torture(. I (ou t !& he %oul( 'he" spe"(!"#. 3 $ ,a"'s &a%e the" !s rather stup!(* "or !s that o& a 'o,a"'s* as she !s hol(!"# t!#htly to her &u%2er's a%20 s!(e &or the &ull e"#ul&,e"t o& h!s thro !"# %o%2 !" her %u"t* h!#hly !"telle%tual< ut !t's ,u%h ,ore lo/ely tha" that o& a ,a"'s &a%e. I o&&ere( h!, ,o"ey to su%2 ,y pr!%2. He 'oul( "ot* a"( that "!#ht's a,use,e"t e"(e(. The" ,u%h to h!s (el!#ht I e#a" to let h!, &u%2 Sarah. )h!lst they 'ere (o!"# that tr!%2* I ha"(le( h!s alls* put ,y ha"( et'ee" the!r ell!es* ,a(e the, tur" o/er o" to the!r s!(es a"( l!&t the!r le#s !" all sorts o& 'ays* so that I ,!#ht see the ,o/e,e"t o& the pr!%2 a"( the s'ell o& the l!ps o& her or!&!%e. 3 I ,a(e h!, &u%2 her sta"(!"# up* the" o" the s!(e o& the e(* 'h!lst '!th a %a"(le I ,o/e( rou"( the,* sat!s&y!"# ,y %ur!os!ty. The" I &u%2e( her a"( ,a(e h!, s!,!larly sat!s&y h!,sel&. He 'as (el!#hte( to #rasp ,y alls 'h!lst ,y pr!%2 'as p!sto"!"# her. 3 Mo(esty a"( t!,!(!ty ha( "o' le&t all o& us. 3 U"restra!"e( l! !(!"ous e"joy,e"t 'as e/ery0th!"# to us* ea%h (o!"# the est to st!,ulate ea%h other's lust. Sarah ha( e%o,e ,ore a%t!/e* su##est!/e* a"( l! !(!"ous tha" 'e t'o. She (el!#hte( !" !t. My l! !(!"os!ty !"%rease( y !"(ul#!"# !t. I lo"#e( to see oursel/es !" the /ar!ous att!tu(es. 3 Sarah's ta le #lass 'as s,all* a"( ha/!"# pla%e( !t so as to #et a #l!,pse o& oursel/es* a"( &!"(!"# !t u"sat!s&a%tory* I ou#ht at a ro2er's shop* a lo"#* lar#e ol( &ash!o"e( loo2!"# #lass !" a ,aho#a"y &ra,e. )e to#ether "a!le( !t up a#a!"st the 'all at the le/el o& the top o& the ,attress* a"( so that 'e %oul( see oursel/es &ro, hea( to &oot as 'e lay. The" our se"sual (el!#ht 'as (ou le(* &or as 'e &u%2e(* or &r!##e(* or su%2e(* 'e %oul( loo2 !" the #lass* a"( tal2 a out our att!tu(es. O"e "!#ht all three h!#hly stru"# 3 I 'as "ear her* y her s!(e o" the e(. 4Oh loo2 at h!s pr!%2.4 4$h: !t's "ot st!&& 3 he'll spe"(.4 4Fr!# !t* &r!# h!, Sarah.4 She (!(. 4$re you %o,!"#* Da%2.4 4$ha.4 4Yes 3 ,y spu"2's %o,!"#.4 4Oh &u%2 ,e* &u%2 ,e*4 %r!e( Sarah* or 4I'll &r!# ,ysel&.4 4Stop* Sarah* I'll &u%2 you*4 a"( I put ,y pr!%2 up her. 3 She #raspe( ,y ru,p '!th o"e ha"(* '!th the other #raspe( h!s pr!%2* a"( so (!( I ;oth Sarah's a"( ,y ha"( 'ere o" !t. So,et!,es she ha( the ste,* I the s%rotu,. Dust e&ore 'e spe"t out spurte( h!s spu"2. The" as 'e &elt !t* 'e poure( out our se+ual tr! utes* a spas, o& l! !(!"ous sy,pathy &et%he( us oth to#ether. I e#a" the" to pay &or h!s aths* h!s &oo(* a"( &!"e l!"e" so that he %a,e per&e%t &ro, hea( to toe. He ha( "o ha!r o" h!s o(y* e+%ept!"# o" h!s pr!%2 a"( ar,p!ts* a"( ut l!ttle o" h!s &a%e. 3 )hat '!th !(le"ess* #oo( l!/!"#* a"( aths* he e%a,e as s,ooth as !/ory a"( as "!%e as the "!%est 'o,a". He #ot !" a &ort"!#ht plu,per* altho I too2 so ,u%h se,e" out o& h!,< ut he 'as
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    you"# a"( stro"#. 3 )hat pleasure &or h!,: 3 The o"ly a""oya"%e to ,e 'as that h!s pr!%2* 'he" he #ot ra"(y a"( !t stoo(* ha( a stro"# s,ell. 3 The s,ell o& ,ost %u"ts I l!2e. $&ter I ha( su%2e( h!, that "!#ht* I "e/er repeate( !t ut o"%e. 3 $ltho 'e ha( lost all ,o(esty* I (!( "ot l!2e Sarah to see all* u"t!l late !" the e/e"!"# 'he" 'h!s2ey a"( au(!"ess tol( o" ,e. )hate/er 'e (!( to#ether* I "e/er lost s!#ht o& ,y pr!"%!pal o je%t* 'h!%h 'as to &r!# h!,* a"( see e!ther h!s tool or h!s &a%e 'he" he 'as spe"(!"#. 3 )he" Sarah %a,e !"* at &!rst 'e use( to s!t arou"( the &!re (r!"2!"# a"( s,o2!"#* all as "a2e( as the 'eather per,!tte(. So,et!,es he tol( h!s a(/e"tures '!th ser/a"ts !" the houses 'here he ha( 'or2e(* she a out 'hat ,e" ha( (o"e. The %o"/ersat!o" al'ays 'as erot!%. 3 U"t!l the sp!r!t ,o/e( ,e to a%t!o"* I usually sat y h!, !" a" easy %ha!r* '!th h!s tool !" ,y ha"(. So,et!,es he la!( hol( o& ,!"e. 4Loo2 at you t'o &eel!"# ea%h other's pr!%2s*4 Sarah 'oul( say* '!th a toss o& her hea(. 3 4She' ,e your spl!t* a"( see !& !t '!ll #!/e h!s %o%2 a r!se.4 3 She 'oul( sho' !t #ap!"#* a"( h!s %o%2 'oul( r!se. >erhaps he'( 2"eel !" &ro"t o& her* &!"#er!"# her %u"t* or l!%2!"# !t* 'h!lst she %o%2e( her le# up to &a%!l!tate h!s 'or2. $t t!,es oth h!s a"( ,y &!"#ers 'ere up her %u"t at the sa,e t!,e* a"( &!&ty other au(y tr!%2s 'e (!(. I ha( "o' ,a(e Sarah su%2 ,y pr!%2* ut I (!sl!2e( st!ll to tell here that I ha( ha( h!s pr!%2 !" ,y ,outh< yet o"e e/e"!"# (!( so. ;ehol( us soo" all three o" the e(* she '!th h!s pr!%2 !" her ,outh* a"( he '!th ,y pr!%2 !" h!s ,outh. I &eel!"# a out her %u"t a"( h!s alls* as 'ell as the (!&&!%ult att!tu(e per,!tte(. $"other "!#ht 'e &ollo'e( !t up* y h!s lay!"# o" the e( a"( she 2"eel!"# o/er h!, '!th h!s pr!%2 !" her ,outh* her a%2s!(e o/er h!s &eet* a"( I at her a%20s!(e &u%2!"# her 3 I alo"e %oul( pla!"ly see th!s !" the loo2!"# #lass* a"( a ,ost (el!%!ous s!#ht !t 'as. My ,ost sat!s&a%tory a,use,e"t* I th!"2* 'as &r!##!"# h!, 'h!lst I &u%2e( her. I use( to lay h!, (o'" so that h!s pr!%2 'as 'ell '!th!" rea%h o& ,y ha"( a"( !" /!e' 'h!lst I (!( so. $t t!,es Sarah la!( her hea( o" h!s %hest or h!s elly* as a p!llo'* he lay!"# a%ross the e(* a"( the" h!s pr!%2 'as just y ,y shoul(er. The" putt!"# ,y ha"( up I &r!##e( h!,. $t other t!,es* lay!"# part!ally o" h!s s!(e '!th h!s le#s up a#a!"st the 'all at the e( hea( or "ear her hea(* h!s pr!%2 'as e5ually %lose to ,e. O"%e h!s tool loo2e( so eaut!&ul that !t se(u%e( ,e e"t!rely 3 I ha( a#a!" /o'e( to ,ysel& that ha/!"# ha( h!s pr!%2 !" ,y ,outh a"( &elt !t s'ell '!th!" !t &ro, &la !"ess to a po2er* u"(er ,y l!"#ual pressures* I 'oul( "e/er (o !t a#a!". 3 ;ut "o' ly!"# '!th ,y pr!%2 up Sarah* ,y le&t ha"( u"(er her s,ooth a%20 ,y r!#ht rou"( h!s pr!%2< ,y pleasure %o,!"# o" %oul( "ot res!st !t* a"( e"#ul&e( h!s st!&& %u"t0ra,,er !" ,y ,outh. My a%2s!(e 'as the" os%!llat!"#* h!s h. ( %oul( just rea%h ,y arse a"( he 'as &eel!"# ,y alls. I &elt he 'as "ear h!s %r!s!s* '!th(re' h!s pr!%2* a"( at that !"sta"t out shot h!s sper,* just et'ee" Sarah's "a2e( reast a"( ,!"e.
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    I"sta"tly* &or su%h 'as the las%!/!ous e&&e%t* Sarah a"( I ,!"#le( our ,u%!la#es !" her %u"t. I "e/er ha( h!s pr!%2 !" ,y ,outh a&ter'ar(s. He #ot &o"( o& Sarah a"( %o"sta"tly esou#ht ,e to let h!, ha/e her. The" a&ter I ha( &r!##e( h!,* 'e 'oul( all three s!t rou"( the &!re. 4She' us your %u"t* Sarah74 3 She'( ope" her le#s so that the art!%le 'as /!s! le. I 'at%he( h!s pr!%2* 'h!%h perhaps ha"#!"# (o'" la1!ly et'ee" h!s th!#hs !,,e(!ately at the s!#ht o& her #ap!"# %u"t 'oul( #ra(ually th!%2e" u"t!l !t loo2e( l!2e a short roll o& !/ory. The" !t rolle( o" o"e s!(e as !& to #et a'ay &ro, the !# alls. The" '!th a thro stra!#hte"e( so,e'hat* !ts top st!ll po!"t!"# (o'"'ar(s* a"( the l!ttle re( t!ppe( or!&!%e e#!""!"# to sho' ,ore out o& the &ores2!". The" !t #a/e a thro !"# 2"o%2 or ju,p a#a!"st h!s th!#h a"( prou(ly l!&te( h!s hea(* a"( '!th other thro s !" su%%ess!o" stoo( #ra"(ly st!&& a#a!"st h!s elly* a"( the prepu%e #e"tly sl!( o&&* lea/!"# u"%o/ere( t'o th!r(s o& a (eep %r!,so" 2"o . The" I 'oul( #e"tly pull up a"( (o'" the s2!" '!th a slo' ,ot!o"* please( at the !"/olu"tary a%t!o" o& h!s pr!%2* %ause( y the ,ere loo2 o& a (ar2 ha!re( %u"t. 4Let ,e &u%2 her 3 (o"'t &r!# ,e th!s t!,e* you ha/e &r!##e( ,e e"ou#h. 3 Oh: (o let ,e put !"to her.4 The" I let h!, &eel her %u"t* a"( h!s lust #oa(e( to the ut,ost* he 'oul( s!#h a"( #roa" al0 ,ost a"( l!%2 her %u"t. The" I let h!, ha/e her* or ha( her ,ysel& a"( &r!##e( h!, 'h!lst up her. 4$"( so 'e passe( the pleasa"t t!,e* as 'ell 'e %oul(* you 2"o'* !" the (ays 'he" 'e 'ere ra"(y arse( a lo"# t!,e a#o.4 O"e "!#ht* I sat her o" ,y pr!%2 'h!lst I sat o" a %ha!r* her u, a#a!"st ,y elly* her %u"t out'ar(s. 3 I" a loo2!"# #lass* ,y allo%2s the" al,ost see,e( to ha"# &ro, the arsehole e"( o& the %u"t. He 2"elt (o'" a"( l!%2e( her %l!tor!s 'h!lst I &u%2e( her. Sarah e"joye( the (ou le a%t!o"* a"( spe"t ,ur,ur!"# her le'e( se"sat!o"s< %lut%h!"# h!s hea(* 'h!lst I hel( her rou"( her hau"%hes t!#htly* ,y &!"#ers o" the ha!ry ,otte. I" that pos!t!o" I %oul( o"ly ra, #e"tly up her. )he" she'( spe"t* he &ell a%2 o" the &loor a"( &r!##e( h!,sel& loo2!"# up at her %u"t* ,y pr!%2 st!ll up her* a"( the sper, ru""!"# out o" to ,y alls* as ,y %u"t plu##er slo'ly le&t her. I 'as sl!, a"( supple as a" eel. I 'oul( o" the e( put !"to Sarah* a"( the" 'e 'oul( oth tur" o" to our s!(es elly to elly* 2eep!"# our pr!/ates %ouple(. Sarah 'oul( thro' o/er ,e her upper,ost le#* so as to ope" her u, &urro'* a"( he la!( o" h!s s!(e '!th h!s elly %lose to her ru,p* thrust!"# h!s pr!%2 &or0'ar(s. 3 The t!p 'oul( just tou%h the e"( o& her sl!t* 'h!%h 'as "earest to her u, hole< ru !" the &urro'* a"( tou%h the otto, o& ,y pr!%2 as !t lay e"#ul&e( !" her. The" 'e all e#a" &u%2!"# to#ether. I ra,,!"# up her* he ru !"# h!s pr!%2 up a#a!"st our %ouple( #e"!tals* 'h!%h he ha( e(e'e( '!th sal!/a. )e "e/er h!( our pleasures 3 I 'oul( %ry out 'he" %o,!"# 3 Sarah 'oul( ,ur,ur her pleasure* a"( he the sa,e. The three /o!%es le"(e( 'hate/er au(y* st!,ulat!"# 'or(s &ell &ro, us. 4Oh: &u%2 3 %u"t 3 spu"2 3 oh I a, %o,!"# 3 I', spe"(!"# 3 spu"2 3 allo%2s 3 aha 3 ahre4 3 I spe"t up her* he a#a!"st her &urro' a"( the ste, o& ,y pr!%2* or
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    o/er ,y alls* or a#a!"st her arsehole or th!#h. I& the ru !"# a#a!"st our &lesh (!("'t &et%h h!s sper,* he rou#ht h!,sel& to a %r!s!s '!th h!s ha"(* a"( at the last ,o,e"t put h!s pr!%2 a#a!"st her &lesh a"( spe"t so,e'here. O"e "!#ht as he 'as ta!l!"# Sarah* I &elt h!s har(* 'r!"2le(* &ull* lar#e s%rotu,* a"( sl!pp!"# ,y &!"#ers &urther up* let h!s st!&& lu r!%ate( sha&t sl!p throu#h ,y &!"#ers as !t 'or2e( up a"( (o'" her %u"t. The" re/ers!"# ,y ha"( so that h!s pr!%2 ru e( a#a!"st the a%2 o& !t* I slo'ly #l!(e( the ,!((le &!"#er up her %u"t. 4)hat are you (o!"#*4 sa!( she. 3 4Feel!"# up.4 3 She sa!( "o ,ore* the las%!/!ous"ess o& the a%t please( her a"( h!,* the 'hole le"#th o& ,y &!"#er 'as up her s!(e y s!(e '!th h!s pr!%2* 'h!lst he 'as &u%2!"#. H!s pr!%2 #l!(e( o/er ,y 'et &!"#er as they spe"t to#ether. I ha( alrea(y &u%2e( her* 'as %ool a"( %olle%te(* a"( "ot!%e( the t!#hte"!"# o& her %u"t as she spe"t* !" a 'ay I "e/er ha( !" a"y 'o,a"< &or %lear o ser/at!o" o& the ,us%ular a%t!o" o& a 'o,a"'s %u"t* at the supre,e ,o,e"t o& spe"(!"#* !s !,poss! le< tho ,y pr!%2 !s %o"s%!ous o& !ts %o"str!%t!o". I (!( that ,ore tha" o"%e. Sarah's altho o"e o& the ,ost (el!#ht&ully %o,press!/e %u"ts* 'as u"(ou te(ly lar#!sh. 3 O"%e she allo'e( us to try to #et oth pr!%2s up her to#ether* ut 'e %oul( "ot ,a"a#e !t. ?It !s (!&&!%ult* e/e" '!th t'o /ery r!#!( tools to (o that* &or I a"( a"other ,a" ha/e tr!e( !t s!"%e '!th a 'o,a". ;ut su%h !s the (!ste"s! !l!ty o& a %u"t that I', sure !t '!ll ta2e t'o pr!%2s at o"%e.@ The" 'e re/erse( our pos!t!o"* a"( I pushe( &ro, e0h!"( a"( spe"t a#a!"st h!s alls* 'h!lst he &u%2e( her. I l!2e( to /ary ,y pleasures* a"( 'he" a'ay thou#ht o& 'hat I ha( (o"e* a"( arra"#e( /ar!at!o"s o& the &u" &or our "e+t ,eet!"#. J)hat 'h!,s a"( %apr!%es lust #e"erates: I ha/e o&te" thou#ht ho' a sur( the &ollo'!"# part o& ,y "arrat!/e see,s* ut the (ee( (!("'t see, at all a sur( to ,e the".K ;r!"#!"# oth pr!%2s !"to use at the sa,e t!,e please( ,e ,u%h* the (!&&!%ulty 'as that our le#s #ot !" the 'ay. $&ter th!"2!"# ho' to o /!ate th!s* I put a !# hoo2 !" the %e!l!"#* a"( a rope ha"#!"# &ro, !t '!th loops at the otto,. I"to a loop Sarah put her upper &oot* a"( that slu"# her le# out o& the 'ay. So,et!,es he put h!s &oot so. Su%h !"#e"!ous (e/!%es /oluptuous pleasures le( ,e to. They ha/e see,e( r!(!%ulous s!"%e* ut (el!#hte( us all !,,e"sely at the t!,e. $&ter'ar(s I put up a se%o"( hoo2 a"( rope* at su%h (!sta"%e apart that Sarah %oul( eas!ly put throu#h the, her le#s up to her 2"ees* a"( she la!( &or te" ,!"utes at a t!,e '!th her le#s !" the a!r so (!ste"(e( that her %u"t #ape( '!(e. )e sa' her %u"t a"( a"us peep!"# out &ro, u"(er !t. 3 )he" !" that pos!t!o" I &u%2e( her. ;e&ore that 'e ,e" stoo( a"( a(,!re( her e+posure* &eel!"# ea%h other's pr!%2s* a"( !" the loo2!"# #lass a(,!r!"# oursel/es !" the au(y postures.
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    I ,a(e h!, a"other t!,e &u%2 her 'h!lst her le#s 'ere slu"# up* a"( as soo" as h!s pr!%2 'as out I !"/est!#ate( her %u"t a"( sa' h!s sper, !" !t. I &!"( "o' "oth!"# o je%t!o"a le !" se,e" 3 that esse"%e o& lo/e. )h!lst I &u%2e( her !" that pos!t!o"* I o"%e ,a(e h!, 2"eel o/er her '!th h!s a%2s!(e to'ar(s ,e a"( h!s pr!%2 !" her ,outh. The" I re%olle%t &or the &!rst t!,e that I "ot!%e( h!s a"us. Soo" a&ter I ha( h!,* I too2 a &a"%y to see h!, !" s!l2 sto%2!"#s. He put o" a pa!r o& Sarah's* 'h!%h so please( ,e that I ou#ht h!, a pa!r* a"( a pa!r o& 2!( oots. I "e/er ha( h!, a&ter'ar(s '!thout the,. )he" o" the top o& Sarah* '!th le#s to#ether !" s!l2s a"( oots al!2e* altho the ,ale le# !s (!&&ere"t &ro, the &e,ale* I %oul( s%ar%ely tell 'h!%h 'as 'h!%h* &ro, heels to ru,ps. ;ut the spl!t a"( the sp!"(le she'e( the (!&&ere"%e !" the se+es. O"%e I ,a(e Sarah lay o" the top o& ,e a"( (o the &u%2!"#* 'h!lst he s5uatte( o" her a%2. So pla%e( I &r!##e( h!,. So,e o& h!s sper, %a,e o" to Sarah's ha!r a"( ,a(e her a"#ry. Sarah (!("'t ,!"( e!"# spe"t o/er a"y'here e+%ept!"# her hea(. So,e o& h!s spu"2 &ell o" ,y &a%e* a"( I (!( "ot l!2e !t. -ur!"# o"e per!o( o& th!s erot!% &re"1y* e!"# as !t happe"e( y ,ysel& !" to'" alo"e* I 'as there "early e/ery "!#ht. My %ur!os!ty 'as !"sat!a le. I 'oul( s!t o" a &ootstool '!th ,y hea( et'ee" h!s le#s* a"( ear rest!"# a#a!"st h!s allo%2s 3 I ,a(e the t'o sta"( up elly to elly tou%h!"#* 'h!lst I la!( (o'" et'ee" the!r le#s a"( loo2e( up at the!r #e"!tals* sat '!th ,y &a%e a#a!"st h!s alls* a"( h!s pr!%2 up a#a!"st ,y "ose* 'h!lst Sarah (el!%ately t!%2le( ,y pr!%2 '!th her ,outh. I p!sse( a#a!"st the t!p o& h!s pr!%2* a"( !" r!e& (!( e/ery &a"tast!%* erot!%* &r!##!"#* &eel!"#* t!%20l!"#* s2!""!"#* %oa+!"#* su%2!"# tr!%2s to h!s ro( a"( alls that I thou#ht o&* a"( al'ays '!th (el!#ht. $t last al'ays see!"# the t!p #et re((er* the ro( st!&&e"* a"( the #ruelly sper, jet out o& !t. Sarah sa!(* 3 4You'/e ru!"e( that %hap. He %a" "o' #et 'or2 a"( 'o"'t.4 3 I ha( the" see" all I 'a"te(* a"( also &elt o&&e"(e( '!th h!s &a,!l!ar!ty< tol( her I 'oul( "ot see h!, a#a!"* a"( the" he 'oul( #o to 'or2. 4He 'o"'t* I a, sure.4 3 ;ut I 2ept a'ay* a"( 'h!lst (o!"# so re%uperate(* &or I'( 2"o%2e( ,ysel& up a l!ttle '!th th!s las%!/!ous e+%!te,e"t. I sa' o"e (ay so,e o(y l!2e h!, !" the streets* 'h!%h &r!#hte"e( ,e* althou#h I ha( "e/er allo'e( h!, to see ,e '!th ,y hat o". )he" I 'rote to Sarah a"( she ,et ,e at a house* she sa!( he 'as sa( at "ot see!"# ,e* a"( she ha( tol( h!, I 'as out o& to'". 3 4Ha/e you e/er u##ere( h!,74 she as2e( su((e"ly. The 5ust!o" re/olte( ,e* su%h !"te"t!o" ha( "e/er o"%e e"tere( ,y hea(* ha( "e/er e/e" o%%urre( to ,e. T'o or three (ays a&ter I 'as a#a!" alo"e !" to'"* a"( a'a2e"e( '!th su%h le'e("ess that ha( ,y #ra"(0,other ee" !" e( '!th ,e* I el!e/e I shoul( ha/e #ruelle( the ol( la(y's 5u!,. Toss!"# a out* a"( res!st!"# &r!##!"# ,ysel&* the au(y a,use,e"ts ha( '!th h!, a"( Sarah 2ept ru""!"# throu#h
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    ,y ,!"(< a"( al0tho I ha( /o'e( to ,ysel& "e/er to see h!, a#a!"* the (es!re to (o so e%a,e o/er'hel,!"#* a"( I 'rote to Sarah to #et h!,. The e/e"!"# %a,e* a"( ho' stra"#e: I &elt part o& ,y ol( "er/ous"ess. 3 He put o" h!s s!l2s a"( oots* 'h!%h Sarah 2ept. 3 $t the s!#ht o& h!s 'h!te &lesh* a"( roly poly pe"(a"t* ,!"e stoo( upr!#ht. )e str!ppe(. I presse( h!s elly a#a!"st ,!"e* #rasp!"# h!, rou"( h!s utto%2s ?he 'as s,ooth as a 'o,a"@* a"( h!s pr!%2 rose prou(ly at o"%e. I ha"(le( h!s pr!%2* please( '!th the so&t &eel o& the loose s2!". 3 4Fet%h ,e* or I'll &r!# ,ysel&* I shall spe"( a pa!l &ull4 3 I 'ette( oth our pr!%2s a"( ell!es '!th soap a"( 'ater* the" putt!"# h!, o" h!s a%2 o" the e(* ,ou"te( h!,. Our pe#os 'ere presse( et'ee" our ell!es* a"( #rasp!"# ea%h other's ru,ps* a"( sho/!"# our pr!%2s a out as 'ell as 'e %oul(* the heat a"( &r!%t!o" (re' oth our spu"2s* a"( 'e lay 5u!et t!ll our tools shru"2 (o'" o/er our alls* &or,!"# a heap o& test!%les a"( pr!%2s. The" %a,e a (!sl!2e to h!, a"( (!s#ust '!th ,ysel& that I o&te" ha( &elt re%e"tly. ;ut !t /a"!she( (!re%tly* I &elt le'e( a#a!" a"( 'he" I &elt h!s %o%2. It 'as st!&& soo". $s he &!"!she( 'ash!"# !t he tur"e( rou"(* a"( I sa' !t th!%2 a"( s'olle". Dust the" Sarah rushe( !" a"( praye( ,e to #o. 4-o* oh (o pray* or there '!ll e a #reat ro' 3 &or 9o('s sa2e #o.4 She 'as ,u%h a#!tate(* I ha( "e/er see" her so e&ore. 4You ,ust 3 you shall #o* 3 or I shall e hal& ru!"e(.4 Y!el(!"# I 'e"t as 5u!%2ly as I %oul(* a"( he (!( a&ter ,e* I hear(. 8e+t "!#ht I sa' her out* a"( %oul( #et "o e+pla"at!o" a out her a#!tat!o"< ut she tol( ,e I %oul( "ot #o to the house &or a 'ee2 or te" (ays. )hat #a/e ,e a out that t!,e su%h hot &!ts o& lust !t !s "ot easy to say* ut I 'as !" &ull rut. $t t!,es a &ello''s pr!%2 sta"(s ,u%h ,ore tha" at others* so,e0t!,es !t !s !(le"ess* so,et!,es st!,ulat!"# &oo(* so,e0t!,es stre"#th. For so,e (ays e&ore I sa' h!, a#a!" ,y pr!%2 stoo( %o"sta"tly* I 'as a#a!" alo"e !" to'"* a"( 'hy I (!( "ot ease !t y &u%2!"# (o"'t re%olle%t 3 Sarah I %oul( "ot see a"y 'here* a"( I (!( "oth!"# ut th!"2 ho' I 'oul( &r!# h!,* a"( ta!l her* 'he" 'e ,et. )he" at le"#th 'e ,et* he tol( ,e he ha( "ot spe"t s!"%e I'( ,a(e h!,. Lau#h!"#* Sarah sa!(* 4The e#0#ar 'a"te( to ha/e ,e* ut I 'oul("'t let h!,.4 >erhaps a l!e 3 I tou%he( h!s %o%2 'h!%h spra"# up st!&&ly at o"%e. He str!ppe(* a"( h!s re( t!ppe(* 'h!te ste,,e( sper, spouter 'oul( ha/e &as%!"ate( a"y 'o,a" 3 I u"(resse(* ,y %o%2 st!&& as h!s* a"( l! !(!"ous &rol!%s e#a". 4Ha/e you u##ere( h!,4 3 Sarah's 5uest!o" %a,e su((e"ly !"to ,y ,!"( as I ha"(le( h!s thro !"# pr!%2* h!s r!#!( p!er%er. 4Fet%h ,e* &r!# ,e* the" you &u%2 Sarah a"( let ,e &u%2 her a&ter 3 #o o" 3 I'll &r!# ,ysel& 3 I ,ust spe"(4 3 sa!( he* a"( e#a" &r!##!"#. I stoppe( h!,. I put h!, !" /ar!ous att!tu(es a"( loo2e( at h!s 3 &eel!"# !t* 2!ss!"# !t* #lory!"# !" ,y po'er 3 '!th ,y o'" ;oth 'ere 'a"t!"# the pleasure sorely* yet I (all!e( a"( ,y '!th stra"#e (es!re* &ear* (!sl!2e* yet '!th !"te"t!o". The"
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    e"(!"# o/er the e( 3 h!s u, to'ar(s ,e* h!s hea( to'ar(s the loo2!"# #lass 3 I stoo( a%2 to loo2. There 'ere h!s 'h!te utto%2s a"( lar#e 'o,a"ly 'h!te th!#hs* h!s le#s !" s!l2* h!s &eet !" &e,!"!"e oots. 3 8ot o"e %oul( ha/e !,a#!"e( h!, a ,a"* so rou"(* s,ooth* 'h!te* a"( 'o,a"ly 'as h!s e"t!re a%2s!(e a"( &or,. It 'as o"ly loo2!"# &urther o&& that I ,!sse( the pout!"# ha!ry l!ps* a"( sa' a !# rou"( sto"e a# 'h!%h she'e( the ,ale. H!s pr!%2 'as !"/!s! le* st!&& a#a!"st h!s elly. I %lose( o" h!,* put ,y ha"( rou"( a"( #a/e h!s pr!%2 a &r!# 3 h!s u, 'as a#a!"st ,y elly. 3 4Fet%h ,e 3 oho 3 ,a2e haste* I', urst!"#4 3 loo2!"# (o'" I sa' h!s u,hole a"( the (es!re 'h!rle( thro ,y ra!" l!2e l!#ht"!"#. )!thout paus!"# or th!"2!"#* I &elt h!s pr!%2 &ro, u"(er h!s alls* a"( 'h!lst he al0,ost sh!/ere( '!th (es!re 3 4Oh: ,a2e haste* &et%h ,e4 3 I put oth ha"(s rou"( h!,* &eel!"# h!s alls '!th o"e* h!s pr!%2 '!th the other< a"( ,y o'" st!&& pr!%2 I presse( u"(er h!s allo%2s* say!"#* 4Let ,e put ,y pr!%2 up your u,.4 4That I 'o"'t*4 sa!( he (!se"#a#!"# h!,sel& a"( tur"!"# rou"(* 4that I 'o"'t.4 Fur!ously I sa!(* 4Let ,e 3 I'll #!/e you te" pou"(s.4 4Oh "o.4 4I '!ll #!/e you all I ha/e4 3 a"( #o!"# to ,y tro'sers I too2 out ,y purse* a"( tur"e( !"to ,y ha"(s all the #ol( I ha( 3 !t 'as* I th!"2* ,ore tha" te" pou"(s. 4Oh "o* I %a"'t* !t '!ll hurt*4 sa!( he* ey!"# the ,o"ey. 4It 'o"'t.4 4It '!ll. )he" I 'as appre"t!%e(* a oy tol( ,e a ,a" (!( !t to h!,* a"( !t hurt h!, a'&ul.4 I (o"'t 2"o' 'hat I repl!e( 3 ut el!e/e I repeate( that !t 'oul( "ot hurt* that !t 'as 'ell 2"o'" that people (!( !t* a"( as I tal2e( I ha"(le( h!s pr!%2 '!th o"e ha"(* '!th the other hol(!"# the #ol(. 4It '!ll hurt 3 I', &r!#hte"e(* ut '!ll you #!/e ,e te" pou"(s really74 I s'ore !t* tal2e( a out that o& 'h!%h I 2"e' "oth!"# 3 that I ha( hear( !t 'as pleasure to the ,a" 'hose arsehole 'as plu##e( 3 that o"%e (o"e they l!2e( "oth!"# so ,u%h a&ter'ar(s. H!s pr!%2* 'h!%h ha( ('!"(le( u"(er &ear* a#a!" st!&&e"e( as I &r!##e(* he %ease( tal2!"# a"( reathe( har(* say!"#* 4I', %o,!"#.4 3 I stoppe( at o"%e. 4Let ,e.4 4I (o"'t th!"2 you %a"* !t see,s !,pos0 s! le 3 !& you hurt ,e '!ll you pull !t out74 4Yes yes* I '!ll.4 He tur"e( to the e( a#a!" a"( 2"eele(* ut he 'as too h!#h 3 I pulle( h!, o&& 3 the" !t 'as too lo'. $#a!" o" the e( a"( I pulle( h!s u, to the le/el o& ,y pr!%2* I lo%2e( the (oor* I tre, le(* 'e 'h!spere(. I sla ere( ,y pr!%2 a"( h!s hole '!th sp!ttle. H!s pr!%2 'as st!ll st!&&. There 'as the s,all rou"( hole 3 the alls e"eath 3 the 'h!te th!#hs. 3 I %lose( o" h!, hal& ,a(* hol(!"# h!, rou"( o"e th!#h. I po!"te( ,y pr!%2 3 ,y ra!" 'h!rle( 3 I '!she( "ot to (o 'hat I 'as (o!"#* ut so,e u"#o/er"a le !,pulse (ro/e ,e o". Sarah's 'or(s ra"# !" ,y ears. I hear( the, as !& the" spo2e". My ro(
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    '!th o"e or t'o lu"#es ur!e( !t0sel& up h!,* a"( pass!"# oth ha"(s rou"( h!s elly I hel( h!, to ,e* #rasp!"# oth h!s pr!%2 a"( alls t!#htly. He #a/e a lou( ,oa". 4Ohoo I shall &a!"t*4 he %r!e(. 4Ho* pull !t out.4 It's !" 3 (o"'t ,o/e or I 'o"'t pay you* or so,e0th!"# o& that sort 3 I sa!(* hol(!"# ,ysel& t!#ht up to h!,. 4Ohooo* lea/e #o* you're hurt!"# ,y alls so4 3 I suppose I 'as ha"(l!"# the, rou#hly 3 ut h!s u, 2ept %lose to ,y elly. I re%olle%t "oth!"# ,ore (!st!"%tly. $ &!er%e* loo(y ,!"(e( au(!"ess possesse( ,e* a (eter,!"at!o" to (o !t 3 to as%erta!" !& !t 'as a pleasure 3 I 'oul( ha/e 'ru"# h!s pr!%2 o&& soo"er tha" ha/e '!th(ra'" &or h!,* a"( yet a (!s#ust at ,ysel&. -ra'!"# o"%e sl!#htly a%2* I sa' ,y pr!%2 hal& out o& h!s tu e* the" &or%!"# !t a%2* !t spe"t up h!,. I shoute( out lou(ly a"( au(!ly ?Sarah tol( ,e@* ut I 'as u"%o"s%!ous o& that. She 'as !" her s!tt!"# roo,. I %a,e to ,ysel& 3 ho' lo"# a&ter'ar(s I %a""ot say. 3 $ll see,e( a (rea,* ut I 'as e"(!"# o/er h!, 3 pull!"# h!s a%2s!(e st!ll to'ar(s ,e. 3 My pr!%2 st!ll st!&& a"( up h!,. 4-oes !t hurt "o'.4 48ot so ,u%h.4 H!s pr!%2 'as 5u!te lar#e ut "ot st!&&. $ stro"# #r!p '!th ,y ha"( st!&&e"e( !t* I &r!##e( har(* the spu"2 'as rea(y a"( o!l!"#* &or he ha( ee" up to spe"(!"# po!"t hal& a (o1e" t!,es. My pr!%2* st!ll e"%ase(* 'as e#!""!"# to st!&&e" ,ore. 3 He %r!e( 3 4I a, %o,!"#* I a, %o,!"#4 3 h!s u, jo##e( a"( tre, le( 3 h!s arsehole t!#hte"e( 3 ,y pr!%2 sl!ppe( out 3 a"( he sa"2 o" the e( spe"(!"# o/er the %ou"terpa"e 3 I stoo( &r!##!"# h!, st!ll. He spe"t a per&e%t pool o& sper, o" the e(. The ,a((e"!"# thou#ht o& 'hat I ha( (o"e ,a(e ,e '!sh to (o !t a#a!". I &or#ot all ,y se"sat!o"s 3 I ha/e "o !(ea o& the, "o' 3 I 2"e' I ha( spe"t* that's all. 4Let ,e (o !t a#a!".4 4That I 'o"'t &or a"y ,o"ey*4 sa!( he tur"!"# rou"(. The" I &r!##e( ,ysel& a"( &r!##e( h!, at the sa,e t!,e &ur!ously. Fast as ha"(s %oul( ,o/e (!( ,!"e #l!(e up a"( (o'" the pr!%2s. >ush!"# h!, (o'" '!th h!s arse o" the sper, o" the %ou"terpa"e* I &!"!she( h!, as he lay* a"( I spe"t o/er h!s pr!%2* alls* a"( ally. I" te" ,!"utes our (ou le spe"( 'as o/er. I,,e(!ately I ha( a" !"a&&a le (!s#ust at h!, a"( ,ysel& 3 a terr! le &ear 3 a loath!"# 3 I %oul( s%ar%ely e !" the roo, '!th h!, 3 %oul( ha/e 2!%2e( h!,. He sa!(* 4You'/e ,a(e ,e lee(.4 $t that I "early /o,!te( 3 4I ,ust ,a2e haste*4 sa!( I loo2!"# at ,y 'at%h* 4I &or#ot !t 'as so late. 3 I ,ust #o.4 $ll ,y (es!re 'as to #et a'ay as 5u!%2ly as poss! le. I le&t a&ter pay!"# h!,* a"( ,a2!"# h!, s'ear* a"( s'ear!"# ,ysel&* that "o l!/!"# perso" shoul( 2"o' o& the a%t. Yet a &e' (ays a&ter I 'rote the "arrat!/e o& th!s l!"(* ,a(* erot!% a%t< a" a%t utterly u"pre,e(!tate(* a"( the perpetrat!o" o& 'h!%h as I "o' th!"2 o& !t see,s ,ost e+traor(!"ary. O"e !" 'h!%h I ha( "o pleasure 3 ha/e "o
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    re%olle%t!o" o& phys!%al pleasure 3 a"( 'h!%h o"ly ('ells !" ,y ,!"( '!th (!s#ust* tho !t !s a#a!"st ,y ph!losophy e/e" to th!"2 I ha( (o"e 'ro"#.

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    Chapter IV So(o,!t!%ally %o,pla!sa"t >aph!a"s. Co"/ersat!o"s o" so(o,y '!th Sarah. I su##est. She re&uses. Mutual !"%!te,e"ts. Mutual %o"se"ts. Tr!als a"( &a!lures. Su%%ess&ul at last. Her se"sat!o"s. E&&e%ts o" her u, hole. $"other tr!al su##este(. I (e%l!"e. $ le'e( e/e"!"#. Fu%2!"#* ,!"ett!"#* a"( ,astur at!"#. Ca"(le a"( &u"(a,e"t. $ ra!l'ay %arr!a#e o" a &rosty (ay. $" ol( lo/e a%5ua!"ta"%e. Fa""y 9...(.". $,atory a(/a"%es. I threate" o"a"!s,. Cush!o"s o" the &loor. )e o" the %ush!o"s. I ,ust ha/e ee"* !"(ee( 'as* !" a" al,ost '!l( state o& ,!"( that "!#ht. )he" I #ot %lear o& the street* I sa' so,e #ay 'o,e"* %ha&&e(* a"( as2e( the, ho' the!r arseholes 'ere. My ,!"( ra" o" a ,u((y "!#ht 3 l!&te( her pett!%oats a"( sho'e( "!%e le#s 3 I 'e"t ho,e '!th her* a"( tur"!"# her u, to'ar(s ,e* loo2e( at her arsehole a"( as2e( !& she'( ee" u##ere(. She 'as a"#ry. The" I &ou"( I ha( "ot ,o"ey e"ou#h to pay her* a"( 'e ha( a ro'. 3 I 'e"t to o"e o& ,y %lu s* orro'e(* 'e"t ho,e '!th a"other 'o,a"* pulle( her a out* loo2e( at her sph!"%ter* a"( as2e( !& she'( ee" u##ere(. 3 48o.4 I o&&ere( three pou"(s to her to let ,e. I ,!#ht try* ut she thou#ht !t !,poss! le. Her u, 'as to'ar(s ,e* her hole /ery ro'" 3 a"( the ,ere &a%t o& her per,!tt!"# !t so (!s#uste( ,e that I pa!( the pr!%e o& a &u%2 a"( le&t her (!re%tly 3 I 'e"t ho,e yet '!th a"other 'o,a"* 'ho, I &u%2e( (o# &ash!o"* pull!"# ope" her utto%2s a"( loo2!"# at her u,hole as 'ell as I %oul(* 'h!lst sho/!"# up her. The" I 'e"t to ,y o'" ho,e* th!"2!"# o& u##ery* a"( 'o"(er!"# 'hat the se"sat!o" 'as l!2e 3 &or I ha( "o (e&!"e( "ot!o" o& !t le&t* su%h 'as the state o& ,a( e+%!te,e"t !" 'h!%h I ha( per&or,e( the a%t. The" I &ell asleep. The "e+t "!#ht I sa' Sarah !" the streets a"( a/o!(e( her* a"( &or a 'ee2 or so. The" I ,et her a"( too2 her to . . . . St. &or a,use,e"t 3 I "e/er ,e"t!o"e( h!,* a"( tol( her "ot to (o so. $t a se%o"( ,eet!"# the sa,e. ;ut she* 3 4$re"'t you #o!"# to see . . .7 He's e/ery (ay '!th ,e other!"#* as2!"# 'hat he !s to (o* 'hat he's (o"e to o&&e"( you. He %r!es a out you al0 ,ost.4 I sa!( that I "e/er ,ea"t to see h!, a#a!"* a"( 'as s!%2* sorry* a"( sa( a out the a&&a!r. 3 So she tol( h!,* I el!e/e* that I ha( #o"e a roa(. Fro, that (ay to th!s I ha/e "e/er set eyes o" h!,* a"( a/o!(e( e"5u!r!"# a out h!, t!ll o"%e lo"# a&ter. The" Sarah tol( ,e that a&ter ha/!"# spe"t all h!s ,o"ey a"( pa'"e( h!s %lothes* he ha( #o"e to 'or2 at pa!"t!"# a#a!". I %a""ot (es%r! e the e&&e%t these &rol!%s ha( o" ,e. Sp!te o& ,ysel& I %oul( th!"2 o& "oth!"# else. 3 Th!s !s the ,ore re,ar2a le e%ause u"t!l the &e' last years I %oul( "ot ear the loo2 o& a" a"us* a"( 'he" I &u%2e( (o# &ash!o"* I rarely loo2e( at the la(y's u, hole. 3 8o' all 'as a"us 3 a"us 3 "oth!"# ut a"us. The !"%!(e"ts &lashe( a%ross ,y ,!"( repeate(ly* a"( altho the
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    re%olle%t!o" o& the th!"# s!%2e"e( a"( e/e" re/olte( ,e 3 altho I &elt (!s#uste( '!th ,ysel& 3 st!ll I (es!re( to try a#a!"* to 2"o' 'hat the pleasure 'as 3 &or o& that I see,e( to 2"o' "oth!"# 3 ha( "ot the sl!#htest !(ea 3 all 'as la"2. O"e "!#ht I too2 'o,a" a&ter 'o,a" to a house 3 a"( a&ter loo2!"# at the!r %u"ts* su##este( that the other e"tra"%e 'oul( su!t ,e etter. I 'as u"su%%ess&ul at &!rst* a"( &elt a ashe(* yet pers!ste(. 3 $t le"#th I ha( a tall (ar2 Fre"%h 'o,a"* a"( e#a" y &u%2!"# her (o# &ash!o" 3 the" pulle( apart her u, %hee2s* a"( sa!( I shoul( l!2e to put !"to her u, hole. 3 4You ,ust #!/e ,e a"other so/ere!#" the"*4 sa!( she 5u!%2ly. 3 Out %a,e ,y pr!%2. 4)a!t a ,!"ute*4 sa!( she. 9o!"# to a %loset a"( retur"!"# '!th %ol( %rea,* she e#a" to a"o!"t ,y pr!%2 '!th !t* a"( the" a"o!"te( her o'" u, hole 3 tur"e( rou"( 3 a"( the "e+t ,!"ute #u!(e( ,y pr!%2 there hersel&. I re&use(* le&t (!re%tly* a"( too2 a (!s#ust at her< ut thou#ht I ha( ha( a" !"stru%t!/e t'o so/ere!#"s' 'orth. 8e+t "!#ht a" E"#l!sh 'o,a" %o"se"te( &reely* a"( !"sta"tly I pa!( her a"( le&t* ,y %ur!os!ty sat!s&!e(. My &a"%y the" tur"e( to Sarah. I thou#ht o& our %o"/ersat!o"s* o& the atte,pt '!th our &!"#ers* a"( soo" too2 to &u%2!"# her '!th her a%2s!(e to'ar(s ,e* a"( loo2!"# at the rou"( or!&!%e 'he" (o!"# so. $t le"#th I ,a(e the proposal to her* a"( she sa!( she'( see ,e !" hell &!rst. The %o"/ersat!o" the" ha( a u,hole ra,,!"# te"(e"%y 3 I tol( her 'hat I ha( tr!e( '!th the -e/o"0sh!re 'o,a" !" ,y e+tre,e youth* ut "e/er a out the ,a". )e sat a"( tal2e(* the" lay (o'" a"( tal2e( a out !t* t!ll she 3 4I ha/e a #oo( ,!"( to try.4 4-o* a"( !& !t hurts I'll "e/er (o !t a#a!".4 4-!( !t see, to hurt the 'o,a" you (!( !t to74 I tol( her I %oul( "ot tell* that !t see,e( l!2e a (rea, years* years e&ore. 4Try !t 3 I 'a"t to try '!th you 'ho, I 2"o'* a"( !& 'e (o"'t l!2e !t* 'e 'o"'t repeat !t* I hal& '!sh to 2"o' 'hat !t !s l!2e*4 sa!( she. She %a,e a"( lea"t o/er the s!(e o& the e(. I th!"2 I see her "o' 3 '!th her u, proje%t!"#* the (ar2 ha!re(* &ull l!ppe( %u"t push!"# out et'ee" her th!#hs. She 'as tall* her u, e+a%tly at a le/el &or the 'or2* e/eryth!"# 'as %o"/e"!e"t. 48o' !& !t hurts* pro,!se "ot to #o o".4 She stra((le( her le#s apart %o"/e"!e"tly. )!th o"e ha"( hol(!"# ope" the u, %hee2s to see* a"( '!th ,y heart eat!"#* I #u!(e( ,y pr!%2. It e#a" to (roop a"( as &ast as I 'r!te th!s* !t shr!/elle( up. I &r!##e( !t st!&&* a#a!" a"( a#a!" 3 ut the !"sta"t the t!p tou%he( the ro'" hole* !t shra"2. I thrust !t up her %u"t t!ll al,ost rea(y to spe"(* the" pulle( !t out* a"( a#a!" tr!e(. -o'" !t (roope(. The" she su%2e( !t st!&&* a"( a#a!" prese"t!"# her ,ar2* I a#a!" essaye(. It 'as e5ually useless. $ll ut &!"!sh!"# a &u%2 !" her %u"t* to st!&&e" !t &or a last tr!al* I pulle( !t out a"( pushe( to'ar(s the ro'" %!r%le* 'he" ,y (!s%re(!t0a le pr!%2 spe"t o/er her ru,p*
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    a"( I 'as u"a le a#a!" to st!&&e" !t* altho I tr!e( ,y &!"#ers* her &!"#ers* her %u"t* a"( her l!ps. I ha( pro,!se( her &!/e pou"(s !& I e&&e%te( the (el!%ate e"try* a"( she thou#ht I ou#ht to pay !t. I (!( "ot* a"( pa!( &u%2!"# pr!%e &or I ha( "o' ,a(e up ,y ,!"( to (o !t* a"( 'he" I ,a2e up ,y ,!"( to a th!"#* l!2e !t to %o,e o&&. 3 4I ha/e ha( a st!&& pr!%2 &ro, ,erely th!"2!"# a out your u, hole* a"( "o' I &a!l. )he" %a" I try a#a!"7 3 I (o"'t th!"2 ,y pr!%2 l!2es the %olor.4 8e+t "!#ht I 'e"t to the spot she usually 'as to e &ou"( at . . . . a"( o&& to the $. .a 'e 'e"t. My pe#o al,ost l!&te( ,e o&& the #rou"( 3 I ha( a pot o& %ol( %rea,. Hast!ly 'e u"(resse(* a"( tur"!"# her utto%2s to'ar(s ,e I #rease( her hole. The" she &u"2e( !t* a"( tur"e( rou"(. She ha( ee" th!"2!"# !t o/er a"( 'oul( rather "ot* altho '!sh!"# to try the se"sat!o"* she sa!(. Re&us!"# her !"/!tat!o" to &u%2* or e su%2e(* I ut0to"e( up !" a te,per to #o a'ay. 3 4The other "!#ht I see,e( to '!sh !t* ut "o' I &ear !t* ut %o,e a"( try 3 #!/e ,e your 'or( that !& I %ry out* you '!ll pull !t out.4 I #ot a st!&& sta"(er o& the &!rst or(er* a l!ttle ,ore %rea, o" her hole* a l!ttle o" ,y p!er%er. I #a/e a push a"( e"tere(. 3 4Oho 3 I %a"'t ear !t 3 ta2e !t out 3 ta2e !t out.4 I (ro/e !t up to !ts l!,!ts* push!"# her %lose to the e( 3 #rasp!"# her l!2e a /!%e 3 a"( &u%2!"# /!ole"tly* spe"t 3 I ha( arely (o"e so* 'he" her sph!"%ter t!#hte"e( rou"( ,y 2"o * hurt!"# a"( eje%t!"# !t. She sta##ere( to a so&a a"( la!( (o'". I thre' ,ysel& o" the e( e+hauste( '!th e+%!te,e"t* &or a#a!" I &elt al,ost ,a(. Sa!( Sarah* 4)ell 3 I ha/e "ot a hole le&t "o' that a pr!%2 %a" #et up that has "ot ee" spe"t !". I 'oul( "ot ha/e el!e/e( !t ut I'/e (o"e !t at last.4 She 'ashe( her a"us* I ,y tool* the" 'e sat a"( tal2e(. She sa!( the &!rst se"sat!o" 'as pa!"&ul* a"( a&ter that !t 'as a stra"#e se"sat!o"* hal& pa!" hal& pleasure. $s e&ore 3 I 2"e' I ha( ee" up !t a"( spe"t* ut as to %o,par!"# the se"sat!o"s o& the t'o or!&!%es I %oul( "ot. 3 I %oul("'t real!1e ho' I ha( (o"e !t 3 a"( (!("'t re%olle%t a"y se"sat!o" at all. I &elt a#a!" surpr!se( a"( sho%2e( '!th ,ysel&* a"( that's all. Th!s o& %ourse 'as &ool!sh* ut ,y "arrat!/e !s true. I too2 a (!sl!2e to Sarah &or per,!tt!"# !t a"( &or a t!,e a/o!(e( her. )he" 'e "e+t ,et* she tol( ,e she 'as all r!#ht. 4There !s "oth!"# !" !t a&ter all 3 I'/e hear( se/eral 'o,e" say so* you ,ay (o !t a#a!" !& you '!sh* I'( l!2e to try a#a!" "o' '!thout &ear.4 ;ut I (!("'t '!sh* I ha( ha( e"ou#h o& the &a"tasy. I"(ee( I l!2e( to th!"2 o& 'hat I'( (o"e less a"( less 3 &elt a"#ry '!th ,ysel&. 3 Sp!te o& ,y ph!losophy ,y a%t re/olte( ,e. ;ut Sarah o&te" re&erre( to !t* at &!rst h!"te( that she'( l!2e to try a#a!"* the" ope"ly as2e( ,e to (o !t* a"( 'as surpr!se( that I re&use(. 4$s2 Mr. F..1.r*4

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    sa!( I 3 ,ea"!"# her hus a"(. 48o* I'll "e/er e a 'hore to h!,*4 she repl!e( ?s!"#ular l!&e* a"( "ot!o"s.@ Sarah "o' '!th ,e "e/er (!s#u!se( her 'a"ts* her lusts* or se"sat!o"s. 3 >erhaps the &eel!"# that she "ee( "ot sha, a"( l!e to ,e 'as a lu+ury to her. 4You ha( etter "ot ha/e ,e to"!#ht.4 Or 3 4I (o"'t 'a"t !t to0"!#ht.4 Or 4I', just rea(y to spe"(* &or I'/e "ot ha( a !t o& %o%2 I l!2e( &or three (ays* a"( Mr. F's a'ay4 3 'ere phrases* or l!2e those 'h!%h I o&te" hear(. She (!("'t hes!tate to say she shoul( l!2e to e u,0&u%2e( a#a!". 4Dust to try !& there !s a"y real pleasure !" !t. 3 I 'o"(er you (o"'t* as you say you (o"'t e/e" re%olle%t a"y pleasure !" spe"(!"#.4 ;ut I 'oul("'t* a"( "e/er (!( try. $ out three 'ee2s a&ter'ar(s I 'e"t to her lo(#!"#s. 3 She ha( ee" out that e/e"!"# e&ore I %alle(. She sa!(* 4I 'a"te( oth a ,a" a"( ,o"ey* I', ra"(y e (a,"e( to "!#ht* a"( ha/e "ot &u%2e( &or three (ays 3 #!/e !t ,e* ol( ,a"4 3 a"( she pulle( ,y pr!%2 out o& ,y tro'sers. 3 She ha( ee" (r!"2!"#. I ha( ta2e" '!"e '!th ,e to her* a"( 'he" she ha( (ru"2 t'o or three #lasses* she e#a" tal2!"# a out her u, hole. 4Co,e* (o"'t e stup!(* put !t !" there* !t's ,y !rth0(ay 3 Mary . . . . tol( ,e that her ,a" o&te" (oes to her* a"( oth l!2e !t. -o !t* u##er ,e a"( I'll &r!# ,y0sel& 'he" you're !".4 3 So she tal2e( a"( !"%!te( ,e a#a!" to ope" her re%tu,. I re&use( resolutely* a"( (!("'t l!2e her pers!ste"%e. I &u%2e( her soo" a&ter'ar(s. 3 She su%2e( ,y pr!%2 as I la!( o" the e(. She put her &!"#er up ,y re%tu, 'h!lst su%2!"#. I,,e(!ately a&ter* she thre' hersel& o" the e( y the s!(e o& ,e a"( &r!##e( her0sel&. 4I', (a,"e( ra"(y to "!#ht*4 sa!( she. I ra!se( ,ysel& a"( loo2e( at her 'h!lst she 'as ,astur at!"#* a"( thrust ,y &!"#er up her %u"t to please her ,ore. I" the ,!((le o& these operat!o"s* she stoppe(* 'e"t to a %loset* a"( #ot out a 'a+ %a"(le. 4I& you 'o"'t u##er ,e* push th!s up*4 sa!( she 3 thre' hersel& o" the e(* a"( a#a!" e#a" ,astur at!"#. 3 S,!tte" '!th the "o/elty* I (!( as she as2e(< pushe( !t a out &!/e !"%hes up* a"( 'at%he( her 'h!lst '!th (!ste"(e(* 5u!/er!"# l!, s a"( s!#hs she &!"!she( her pleasure* the %a"(le up her arsehole. 4I& there's a 'o,a" 'ho 2"o's ,ore* or has (o"e ,ore tha" I ha/e* I a, (a,"e(*4 sa!( she* 4a"( you 3 you 3 o& all the au(y e##ars !" Lo"(o"* I th!"2 you are the au(!est.4 3 She (!( "ot ,!"( 'hat she "o' sa!( or (!( '!th ,e. Th!"2!"# o& her e+presse( '!shes* a"( the t!,es 'he" the you"# ,a" a"( I use( to e lay!"# "a2e( y the s!(e o& her* I re#rette( that 'e %oul( "ot #!/e her the (ou le po2!"# s!,ulta"eously !" her arsehole a"( %u"t* 'h!%h perhaps 'e ,!#ht ha/e a%%o,pl!she(. I "e/er ha( that (el!#ht. 3 She sa!( she 'oul( try to &!"( so,e o"e 'e %oul( all trust* to try !t to#ether* ut she (!( "ot.
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    Soo" a&ter I sa' ut l!ttle o& her* yet &or a t!,e o"ly &u%2e( her. She e#a" a#a!" to !"%!te ,e !" the other (!re%t!o". 4>ut your thu, up a !t* -o%tor* I 'a"t to spe"(* a"( that &et%hes ,e*4 I (!( !t perhaps o"%e or t'!%e or so* 'h!lst she &r!##e( hersel&* ut (!sl!2e( !t* tho I (!( !t to please her. )h!lst I a se"te( ,y sel& &ro, Sarah* a"( tr!e( to &or#et ,y &rol!%s '!th the ,a"* I 'as at a out te" o'%lo%2 o"e %lear* /ery %ol(* &rosty ,or"!"# at the ter,!"us o& the 9.). Ra!l'ay a"( #o!"# to /!s!t a &r!e"( at S...(.". 3 The tra!" 'as just rea(y to start* 'he" a la(y !" a sple"(!( seals2!" a"( other &urs* 'ho, I ha( ut sl!#htly "ot!%e( as I 'al2e( up a"( (o'" the plat&or,* ,et ,e &ull &a%e* #a/e a sl!#ht s,!le* a"( stoppe(. 3 4-o"'t you 2"o' ,e74 4)hy !t's Fa""y 9...(.". 3 a"( I re%o#"!1e( a" ol( >aph!a" a%5ua!"ta"%e* 'hose lo/ely o(y I ha( la!" !" se/eral t!,es* a"( 'ho, I last sa' at the all #!/e" at 9...t >...l..( St* o" the "!#ht 'he" I 'e"t ho,e '!th L!11!e M...(." to ;..t." S...e* a"( 'he" %apta!" ;la"2 ta!le( her !" the (ar2 o" the e(* '!th ,e a"( 8ell!e..... !" the roo,. 49o!"# to . . . . .74 4Yes.4 4So a, I.4 3 She ha( a seat !" a %arr!a#e 'here there 'as "o o"e else. 3 4Let's r!(e to#ether.4 4Very 'ell* ut "o "o"se"se ,!"(.4 I %alle( the #uar(* 'ho 'as hustl!"# the people !"to the %arr!a#es* a"( #ot ,y ru# out o& ,y %o,part,e"t !"to hers. 4Beep th!s %o,part,e"t &or ,e a"( I'll #!/e you &!/e sh!ll!"#s.4 4)!ll !& I %a"* S!r.4 3 The "e+t ,!"ute* Fa""y a"( I 'ere alo"e !" the %arr!a#e o& a" e+press tra!" 2"o'" ?the"@ &or !ts rap!(!ty* a"( 'h!%h 'oul( "ot stop &or "early a" hour. The !"sta"t the tra!" ha( 'ell starte(* Fa""y a"( I 'ere 2!ss!"#. 3 4)hy* !t's years "early s!"%e 'e slept to#ether.4 3 >leasa"t tal2 o& a out that per!o( 'e e#a". )here 'as >olly . . . . a"( Mary . . . .7 Da"e so a"( so 'as (ea(* a"( so o". Fa""y hersel& 'as "o' Mrs. . . . . .* ha( le&t o&& #ay l!&e three years 3 they thou#ht she 'as ,arr!e( to . . . . . 3 he ha( ta2e" her as h!s '!&e to h!s ,other a"( s!ster* a"( she el!e/e( 'oul( really ,arry her. She 'as true to h!,. He a #oo( &ello'* a"( '!th ple"ty o& ,o"ey s!"%e h!s rother's (eath. 3 48o' lea/e o&&.4 4You %a"'t loo2 ,e !" the &a%e a"( s'ear that "o other ,a" tha" he has ha( you &or three years74 4That I %a"4 3 loo2!"# at ,e as she sa!( !t. 4You &! *4 sa!( I 2!ss!"# her. She retur"e( the 2!ss 3 4I al'ays l!2e( you* ho' stra"#e 'e shoul( ,eet here*4 sa!( she. Fa""y 'as su,ptuously (resse( a"( loo2e( thorou#hly respe%ta le a"( r!%h. She ha( #ot stouter. 4Yes* "early a sto"e hea/!er.4 4Let ,e &eel.4 48o 3 "o' 3 "o "o"se"se 3 tal2 as ,u%h as you l!2e.4 4)ell: let ,e &eel outs!(e4 3 a"( I e#a" y p!"%h!"# a"( pro((!"# her !" all (!re%t!o"s. The" I put o"e ha"( thro the seal0s2!" ja%2et. 4Your reasts are t'!%e as lar#e* a"( I e+pe%t ha"# a 'ee !t.4 48o* that they (o"'t4 3 'as the a"#ry reply. 3 The" I 2!sse( Fa""y a#a!"* a"( all th!s ha("'t* I', sure* o%%up!e( &!/e ,!"utes* &or the re,!"!s%e"%e ha( 'ar,e( oth ,e a"( her. The &!rst 2!ss ,a(e ,y #la"( t!"#le* a"( "o' I ha( a" ere%t!o" o& the &!rst or(er. The" as I 2!sse(* I thrust ,y to"#ue a#a!"st her l!ps. 3 4My 9o(* ho' I 'a"t you. I '!sh I ha("'t #ot
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    !"to the %arr!a#e '!th you* &or I shall ha/e to &r!# ,ysel&.4 4Oh you east*4 sa!( Fa""y lau#h!"#. 4You al'ays 'ere su%h a tal2er.4 )e tal2e( o" '!th our &a%es %lose to#ether. 3 Ho' (el!#hte( she #ot* at 'hat I re%alle( o& our &ree lo/es a"( &ree lo/ers. $s I 2!sse( her "o'* she thre' o"e ar, rou"( ,y "e%2. 4$h: 'hat lar2s those 'ere*4 sa!( she. $ /ery &e' ,!"utes ,ore tal2* a"( I su##este( po2!"#. 3 48o.4 She 'as !"(!#"a"t at the proposal* she ha( /o'e( to e true a"( ,ea"t !t. E/ery &ello' she ,et 'ho ha( o"%e 2"o'" her see,e( "o' to 'a"t her ,ore tha" e/er. )e 'e"t o" tal2!"# a"( 2!ss!"#* our le#s 'ere %lose to#ether u"(er ,y ru#* 'ar, th!#hs 'ere a#a!"st 'ar, th!#hs. 3 4Oh: you "au#hty 'o,a"* you u"2!"( %reature* I ,ust ta2e ,y th!#hs a'ay &ro, yours* !t ,a2es ,e th!"2 o& the t!,e 'he" I lay "a2e( et'ee" the,.4 3 She lau#he(. My le'e("ess 'as a&&e%t!"# her /oluptuously. Frost "o' %o/ere( the %arr!a#e '!"(o's* so that 'e %oul("'t see out o& the,. I pushe( ,y ha"( up her %lothes a"( #ot !t o" to her 2"ee* sp!te o& her. She ha( (ra'ers o"* a"( I %oul("'t &eel her &lesh. 4)hy ha/e you (ra'ers o"* I "e/er 2"e' you to 'ear the, e&ore74 3 4To 2eep ,y le#s 'ar,* o& %ourse.4 4To 2eep ha"(s &ro, your %u"t* Fa""y.4 3 She lau#he(* I st!ll tr!e( o" &eel!"#. 3 48o' (o"'t 3 I 'o"'t let you.4 3 ;ut so,eth!"# !" her ,a""er tol( ,e I ha( ,a(e her le'e(* she 'as so so&t !" her /o!%e 3 I 'ell "!#h urst!"#* a"( '!l(ly erot!%* pushe( a'ay the ru#* pulle( ope" ,y tra/ell!"# %loa2* a"( rap!(ly out %a,e ,y pr!%2 !" ,a#"!&!%!e"t ere%t!o"* re( t!ppe( a"( thro !"#. 3 4I& you 'o"'t let ,e* Fa""y* I'll &r!# ,ysel&* I %a" ear !t "o lo"#er 3 I ,ust spe"( 3 let ,e put o"e ha"( o" your %u"t 'h!lst I (o !t* a"( &a"%y I', a#a!" up the lo/ely 'ar, sl!t.4 I e#a" the &r!%t!o" '!th ,y ha"(* tho I really (!("'t ,ea" (o!"# !t< ut %a"'t say ho' I ,!#ht ha/e &!"!she( ha( she ee" o (urate. More tha" o"%e* the threat o& &r!##!"# ,ysel&* %ouple( '!th the e+h! !t!o" o& ,y ,a%h!"e !" e"t!%!"# or(er* has ,a(e a 'o,a" y!el( to ,e. 3 )o,e" 2"o' 'ell the (el!#ht 'h!%h the #r!stly* hor"y ra,,er #!/es the,* o& the sooth!"# pleasure 'he" !t she(s !ts al,y ,u%!la#e !" the!r %u"ts. They %a""ot ear to see the so&t* pearly* /!s%ous &lu!( spl!t o" the #rou"(* 'he" "ature !s say!"# to the, 'ar,ly. 4The proper pla%e &or that !s et'ee" your th!#hs.4 It 'as so '!th Fa""y. 3 The s!#ht o& !t thr!lle( her* the ,o/e,e"t o& ,y ha"( up a"( (o'" the ste, a""oye( her. Hurr!e(ly a"( a"#r!ly e/e"* she pulle( ,y ha"( a'ay &ro, !t. 3 4-o"'t e a east* )alter ?she'( "ot &or#otte" ,y "a,e@* ho' %a" I7 3 I (o"'t l!2e r!s2!"# !t 3 I', /ery happy '!th . . . .* 3 suppose he &ou"( !t out. 3 8o' lea/e o&& 3 you'll #et a 'o,a" eas!ly at . . . . 3 lea/e o&&.4 4Let ,e o"ly &eel you.4 48o.4 ;ut '!th a sl!#ht stru##le !" a ,!"ute ,y &!"#ers 'ere 'ell et'ee" the l!ps o& a so&t* sat!"y* &at0&eel!"#* /ery ,o!st (!/!s!o" et'ee" her th!#hs< the pal, ru e( !" a stro"# %r!sp ush. My &!"#er settle( o" her %l!tor!s a"( ru e( !t #e"tly* our ,ouths ,et* 2!ss!"# a"( ,o!ste"!"# ea%h other. She la!( hol( o& ,y pr!%2 '!th her #lo/e( ha"(* a"( !t thro e(
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    /!ole"tly at the so&t tou%h* a"( a (el!%!ous s!le"%e e"sue(* 'h!lst our to"#ues playe( '!th ea%h other. The" rap!(ly I thre' ,ysel& o" ,y 2"ees. Lust ha( o/er%o,e her a"( she y!el(e( 3 I thre' up her pett!%oats* sa' her ha"(so,e le#s a"( lar#e th!#hs* %o/ere( tho '!th the (ra'ers all ut a l!ttle !t h!#h up* 'here they 'ere "a2e(* a"( the %rea,y &lesh o" e!ther s!(e she'e( 3 ,ere %rea,y l!"es* et'ee" 'h!%h peepe( the (ar2 ro'" th!%2et. The s,ell o& the &e,ale %a,e o/erpo'er!"#ly up ,y "ostr!ls* 'h!lst I 2!sse(* a"( 2!sse(* a"( t!%2le( the re( utto" at the top o& the (el!%!ous aperture* 'h!%h ,y to"#ue %oul( s%ar%ely rea%h &ro, that posture. Yet !t 'as e"ou#h. 3 4Oho 3 aha 3 I shall spe"( !& you (o that.4 My 9o(: The !"e&&a le (el!#ht o& that ,!"ute or t'o* 'h!lst ,y ha"( sou#ht '!th (!&&!%ulty e/ery part o& her "u(!ty* 'h!lst ,y to"#ue taste( the se+ual sal!"!ty* a"( ,y "ostr!ls re/elle( !" %u"tal aro,a: 4$r0ha: ar0ha: lea/e o&& "o' 3 (o !t properly the".4 She so e( out. 3 Up I arose. 4Ta2e o&& your o""et* lo/e.4 3 It 'as 5u!%2ly (o"e. 3 48o' your %ush!o".4 I" a ,!"ute all s!+ seat %ush!o"s 'ere o" the &loor* t'o 'ere soo" %o/ere( y ,y tra/ell!"# %loa2 a"( her seals2!"* !" a se%o"( her hea( 'as o" that* her lo/ely &or, o" the other %ush!o"s. 3 O" her a%2* her th!#hs ope"e( '!(e !"/!t!"#ly* &or her re( %e"ter %le&t 'as "o' year"!"#* her &eet (!sappeare( u"(er the seats. )hat a lo/ely &or, !t 'as* tho so ,u%h %o/ere(: Ho' eaut!&ully shape( her le#s loo2e( !" th!%2* (ou le 'o/e"* re( s!l2 sto%2!"#s* a"( 'h!te (ra'ers a o/e. ;ut they alas h!( her %o,plete eaut!es 3 I 5u!%2ly pulle( the, as!(e* a"( the" the lar#e !/ory utto%2s partly she'e(. The ha!ry #ates o& her elys!u, ope"e(* I sa' the roa(. Ho' %lose !t loo2e( lo' (o'" y the &urro'* 'h!%h the lo/ely utto%2s &or,e( eh!"( !t. 4Co,e o"* &u%2 ,e*4 sa!( Fa""y 3 "o' '!th re%2less lust* a"( just as the tra!" e"tere( a tu""el '!th a %rash* her elly a"( ,!"e ,et* our o(!es 'ere o"e* our to"#ues jo!"e(* a"( as the tra!" e,er#e( !"to l!#ht* a" e%stat!% #ush o& sper, &!lle( her %u"t to o/er&lo'!"#* a"( 'e lay re/ell!"# !" our %o"ju"%t!o" 3 t!ll she 3 4Le"( ,e your ha"(2er%h!e& !& you %a" #et at !t* !t '!ll ,a2e ,e so u"%o,&orta le !& !t #ets o" ,y (ra'ers.4 3 I rose up* &or a ,o,e"t loo2e( at the lu r!%!ous r!/ulet 'h!%h e#a" to &lo'* the" '!pe( the %ha""el ,ysel&. She sat up s,!l!"#. Thro'!"# our 'rappers o/er us a"( repla%!"# t'o o& the %ush!o"s* 'e e#a" to %o"/erse. 3 4It 'as lo/ely* I ha/e"'t po2e( &or a 'ee2.4 48or I &or te" (ays* &or Harry's ee" a'ay hu"t!"#.4 48o 'o"(er your %u"t 'as &ull.4 4$h:4 sa!( Fa""y* 4I'/e ro2e" ,y /o'* you'/e ,a(e ,e (o 'hat a (o1e" ha/e tr!e( a"( %oul("'t. You're a (a"#erous (e/!l. 3 The au(!est (e/!l 3 I "e/er hear( su%h a le'e( to"#ue.4 The" she #ot up* a"( &or a &e' ,!"utes 'e tal2e(* putt!"# our &urs a"( our %oats o/er us* &or !t 'as %ol(. 3 4Lea/e the %ush!o"s there* 'e'll (o !t a#a!" prese"tly.4 Fa""y o"ly lau#he(. )e a#a!" tal2e( o" o& past t!,es a"( 2!sse(. Soo" 3 her #lo/e o&& "o' 3 she ha"(le( ,y pr!%2. I &elt her a(hes!/e (!/!s!o". 48o'* !s "ot a %ha"#e "!%e* Fa""y.4 4Yes* ut I (!("'t ,ea" to let you* I s'ear
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    I (!("'t.4 I" a 5uarter o& a" hour 'e e"joye( ea%h other a#a!" o" those %ush!o"s* a"( a#a!" ,y po%2et ha"(2er%h!e& 'as put !"to re5u!s!t!o". 3 For all that* a e( !s pleasa"ter tha" a sha2!"#* jostl!"#* os%!llat!"# ra!l'ay %arr!a#e* #o!"# &orty0&!/e ,!les a" hour. The tra!" stoppe( at ,y (est!"at!o". Lo'er!"# the %arr!a#e '!"(o'* I sa' ,y lu##a#e e!"# put out. 4You #et out here*4 sa!( she. Tur"!"# rou"( at her* she loo2e( so lo/ely that I %lose( the '!"(o'. 3 48o. I'll #o o" '!th you.4 4-o"'t e &ool!sh.4 3 ;ut I ha( a hotter &!t o& lust o" ,e tha" I'( ha( &or a lo"# t!,e. 3 I'( ee" '!thout a po2e &or a &e' (ays* a"( all the lust o& ,y youth* a"( all !ts re%2less"ess* see,e( o" ,e* as I loo2e( at the lo/ely &a%e o& th!s 'o,a"* 'ho, I ha( t'!%e &u%2e( '!th!" the hour 3 I &elt (es!re to ha/e her a#a!"* ha( so,e /a#ue "ot!o" that !& I %oul( al!#ht '!th her* I %oul( #et her to so,e house a"( see all the "a2e( eaut!es o& her o(y* &or she ha( &!lle( out to the /oluptuous %o,plete &or,* 'h!%h a 'ell &e(* 'ell &u%2e( 'o,a" o& e!#ht a"( t'e"ty or th!rty (oesI yet I ha( o"ly &elt all th!s 3 %oul( see ut l!ttle o& !t* so ,u&&le( up 'as she !" '!"ter %loth!"#. 4I'll &u%2 you a#a!" e&ore 'e part.4 $"( 'he" say!"# that* the tra!" rolle( o". 8o' the tra!" stoppe( ,ore &re5ue"tly a"( 'e "ee(e( %aut!o"* &or so,e o"e ,!#ht #et !"* sp!te o& the #uar( 'ho ha( sho'" h!,sel& at the stat!o" 'he" I (roppe( the '!"(o'. 4It's "o #oo( your #ett!"# out '!th ,e a"( I hope you 'o"'t. Mother '!ll e there* a"( I (o"'t 'a"t her to see ,e '!th you< pro,!se you 'o"'t spea2 to ,e o" the plat&or,* or I 'o"'t let you a#a!".4 3 She 'as #o!"# to see her pare"ts. Her lo/er ha( #o"e to the %ou"try !" hopes o& ope" 'eather &or hu"t!"#. See!"# that I %oul( "ot #et her !" the 'ay I 'a"te(* "or at all u"less I pro,!se( 3 &or t'o &u%2s ha( %oole( her 5u!, a !t 3 I pro,!se(. I %oul( "ot ,a"a#e to &u%2 her "o'* tho 'e sat 2!ss!"#* &eel!"#* a"( st!,ulat!"# ea%h other t!ll 'e 'ere '!th!" a out a" hour o& the stat!o" at 'h!%h she 'oul( al!#ht. 3 4-a,"e( !& I %a". 3 Tur" rou"( a"( sho' ,e your lo/ely u,.4 4I sha"'t.4 The" I &elt a#a!" all a out her u, a"( th!#hs* the" '!th ,u%h trou le #ot a !t o& her (ress u"(o"e* so that I %oul( hal& &eel her oso,. ;ut th!s 'as %ol( 'or2 a"( all !" /a!". 3 My pr!%2 'as th!%2 a"( &ull* ut "ot st!&&. 3 The" I tol( her o& ,y #a, ols '!th the la(y %o,!"# ho,e &ro, $l(ershot* a"( at le"#th she 2"elt (o'" o" the %ush!o"s* ,y %loa2 a"( hers to#ether ,a2!"# a p!llo' &or her hea( 3 I pulle( as!(e the (ra'ers* sa' a super u,* a"( the (ar2 ha!re( pouters (!/!(!"# !t* 2!sse( !t all o/er* presse( ,y pr!%2 et'ee" the l!ps !" a hal& l!,p state* a"( !t st!&&e"e( (!re%tly the re( t!p &elt the prese"%e o& the re( ,outh* a"( '!th thro s s'elle( to &ull s!1e. I a"#e( !t up a#a!"st her 'o, a"( e#a" &u%2!"#. Her /a#!"a 'as (el!%!ously lu r!%!ous* s,ooth* so&t* yet %l!"#!"# to ,y #la"s as a ra"(y %u"t (oes 'he" the ,ale sper, lays !" !t. $"( a&ter a (el!%!ous lo"# e+er%!se* rest!"# a"( re%o,,e"%!"# at !"ter/als* t!ll at last '!th 5u!%2 thrusts a"( 'r!##les I spe"t* 'h!lst her %u"t t!#hte"e( a"( spe"t '!th ,e.
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    )e rea%he( . . . . a"( oth #ot out 3 I sa' her lea/e '!th a %o,,o" loo2!"# ol( 'o,a"* pa!( ,y e+tra &are* too2 a retur" t!%2et to S...(."* a"( !" a" hour 'as o" ,y roa( there. 3 It 'as a ,ost (el!%!ous three hours I ha( spe"t '!th her* three hours o& pure lo/e* &or !t 'as !" "o 'ay ,er%e"ary. 3 )hat a treat &or us oth. She sa!( so as she #a/e ,e a part!"# 2!ss* a"( outs!(e ,y tro'sers s5uee1e( ,y allo%2s !" a #e"tle le'e( 'ay* a"( a((e(* 4You're the lo/el!est &u%2er* (o"'t tell a"y0o"e.4 Fa""y 9...(." 'as a lo/ely* ha1el eye(* (ar2 ha!re(* a"( (ar2!sh s2!""e( %reature. She ha( o"e o& those lo/ely hea(s o& ha!r* thro 'h!%h you %a" see %lear to the roots* a"( the &lesh. Ea%h ha!r #re' to &ull le"#th* '!thout a"y o& those short stra##l!"# &!"er ha!rs* 'h!%h !" so,e 'o,e" see, to h!"(er the #ro'th o& the stro"#er a"( ,a2e the ha!r loo2 ra##e(. She 'as a /oluptuous %reature 'he" I &!rst ha( her* a"( o& &!"e &or,. Her &or, "o' see,e( per&e%t* tho I %oul( see ut l!ttle o& !t 3 I ha/e "e/er ,et her s!"%e* "or sou#ht to (o so. 3 Su%h ,eet!"#s are (el!%!ous* a"( ,!#ht "ot e so !& repeate( o&te" '!th the sa,e 'o,a".

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    Chapter V T'o years a%2. Harr!et's lust. $t a ;...s..s lapu"ar. Cu"t !"spe%t!o"s. The 'ay la(!es #o up sta!rs. $ lar#e %l!tor!s. Flat &u%2ers. 9ay la(!es' let%hes. $ ster%ora%eous let%h. $ &at De'ess. $ lar#e pr!%2 "ee(e(. L! !(!"ous att!tu(es tr!e(. $ ro'" u, /alley. $#e #uesse( y !t. $ p!((le !" a as!". $ #a,e at s!+ty0"!"e. Cho2e( y %u"t. Cu"t soap!"# a"( 'ash!"#. $ &la+e" ha!re(* plu,p -ut%h 'e"%h. The t'o %u"ts ,eet!"#. )hy (!( I sele%t a !# &at 'o,a"7 $"0other lapu"ar a"( other 'hores. My ha !t o& 5uest!o"!"# 'o,e". My las%!/!ous 5uest!o"s. $ year later o". $t ; . . . s. . s. $t a lapu"ar. $ 'o,a" sele%te(. My !"(!&&ere"%e. Her (!sl!2e. The %he,!se o" &!re. 9rat!tu(e* lust* a"( /ora%!ous &u%2!"#. The o%ea" %rosse(. 8e#ro a"( 8e#ress %opulat!"#. Her %u"t a"( h!s pr!%2 I &r!# h!,. $ 'h!te 'o,a"'s op!"!o" o& a 8e#ro. $ out 8e#roes' pr!%2s. I &!"( that* y a lu"(er* ,a"us%r!pt 'h!%h ou#ht to ha/e ee" (ealt '!th e&ore has ee" o,!tte(* a"( I ,ust #o a%2 to that year !" the spr!"# o& 'h!%h I ha( the l!the* a,orous* a"( las%!/!ous Harr!et. It ,a2es ,y pr!%2 st!&& a"( ,y &ra,e thr!ll "o'* as I th!"2 o& her lu r!%!ous* yet t!#ht sheath a"( the /oluptuous e%stasy '!th 'h!%h she spe"t. My o'" pleasure !s al0 'ays lar#ely !"%rease( 'he" I #!/e pleasure to the s'eet %reature I a, e"joy!"#. 3 I 2"o' the (!&&ere"%e et'ee" the sha, a"( o/er(o"e s!#"s o& pleasure 'h!%h 'hores &e!#" a"( that o& the 'o,a" 'hose %u"t !s year"!"# &or a pr!%2 a"( se,e"* a"( 'ho s!#hs #e"tly '!th a s'eet /oluptuous tre,or* as ,y pr!%2 e"ters her. 3 Harr!et 'as o"e o& those 3 I #uess that her se+ual pass!o" !"%rease( as she #re' ol(er* a"( !t '!ll ta2e a #oo( ,a" to sat!s&y her %u""y. 8o 'o"0(er she &r!##e( hersel& 'he" I 'as a'ay* a"( perhaps ra" o&& so that she ,!#ht #et 'ell &u%2e( a#a!". I 'as so,e t!,es that year a roa(* a"( "ot e!"# ,u%h y ,ysel& 'as &a!rly %haste. 3 Yet I a,use( ,ysel& o%%as!o"ally '!th >aph!a"s* 'ho lo(#e( !" &lo%2s !" the l!%e"se( te,ples o& Ve"us 3 I ha( at t!,es &or !"spe%t!o" s!+ or e!#ht o& these /e"al &u%20stresses o" the sa,e "!#ht. I ha/e (o"e th!s e&ore !" earl!er years 'he" o" the %o"t!"e"t* as I th!"2 I ha/e tol(* tho poss! ly that part o& ,y ,a"us%r!pt ,ay ha/e ur"t '!th others relat!"# s!,!lar &u#!t!/e a(/e"tures. There 'ere o"e or t'o a,us!"# ep!so(es that su,,er. O"e '!th a /ery !#* sple"(!(* &at %reature o& De'!sh type o& &a%e* a"( a"other '!th o"e 'ho ut &or ,e ,!#ht ha/e ee" 2!lle(. I 'as !" the ,o"th o& ... at ;...s..s* a 'ell 2"o'" to'" to ,e* a"( 'here as tol( I ha/e ha( ,a"y a,orous &rol!%s. 3 $t (us2 I 'e"t to the lapu"ar* 8o. . !" . . . . . Street. 3 It 'as the hour 'he" the 'o,e" are just #ot up a"( (resse( &or the e/e"!"#* a"( e&ore ,u%h &u%2!"# ha( e#u". 3 I 'e"t at that hour purposely. 3 4The pr!%e o& the house !s . . . . . &ra"%s*4 sa!( I. 48o*4 sa!( the a ess o& the u"%haste "u""ery. 4It !s . . . .4 a"( she "a,e( e+a%tly (ou le the tar!&& o& the %har,ers* &or she sa' I 'as a &ore!#"er. I rose to #o*
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    (e"y!"# !t. 4You'/e ee" here e&ore74 as2e( she* see!"# that she ,!#ht lose %usto,. 4Yes* ,a"y t!,es.4 4Tres !e" (o"%* reste1.4 The" I tol( her I ,ea"t to !"spe%t the %har,s o& ,a"y* ha/e t'o at a t!,e to see the!r h!((e" eaut!es ut "ot to &u%2< that the la(!es 'oul( ha/e o"ly the tar!&&* e+%ept!"# she 'ho re%e!/e( ,y &!"al a(orat!o"* a"( 'ho 'oul( ha/e her (ou%eur< that "o"e "ee( %o,e u"less they l!2e( that arra"#e,e"t. The a ess 'e"t out* ra"# a ell* a"( soo" I hear( the rustle o& s!l2s a"( the so&t shu&&le o& &eet. Ope"!"# the (oor* I hear( the a ess say!"# so,eth!"# a out ,y e!"# 4(rMle4 a"( the 'o,e" lau#h!"#. 3 The" !" troope( a (o1e". 4Ha/e you tol( the la(!es74 4Yes* S!r.4 4Co,e '!th ,e the"*4 a"( I sele%te( t'o 'ho please( ,e. )e le&t the roo, to#ether. 4Mo"te1* ,es %heres.4 O" they 'e"t. 4>ull your %lothes up a o/e your ru,ps as you ,ou"t* a"( #o "ot too &ast.4 3 $ pa!r o& "a2e(* roa( a%2s!(es 'e"t up !" &ro"t o& ,e* 'h!lst I &ollo'!"#* loo2e( at the!r ha"(so,e l!, s* peep!"# &or the sha(o' o& the ha!ry /alley et'ee" the!r th!#hs. The #!rls lau#h!"#. Soo" !" the e( roo, I ha( the la(!es "a2e( o" the e(* th!#hs apart* %le&ts ope"!"#. I &elt a"( 2!sse( the!r &lesh all o/er. 3 Th!s o"e ha( ,u%h ha!r* that o"e less. 3 O"e 'as ha!ry to her utto%2s* the other s,ooth a"( al,ost ha!rless to her a"us. O"e %u"t '!th s,all %l!tor!s* the other '!th a protu era"t. 3 4$h: ,a %here* /ous a!,e1 les &e,,es.4 4He 3 Hee 3 He 3 ,a!s ou!* pour5uo! pas.4 F!"!sh!"# '!th the,. 4$u re/o!r 3 se"( ,e up that tall lo"(e* a"( the #!rl '!th the !##est %l!tor!s !" the house.4 $'ay they 'e"t* say!"# I 'as 4u" (rMle4 a"( (!re%tly a&ter the t'o 'o,e" 'ho, I ha( %o,,a"(e( appeare(. 3 48o"* "o"* ,o"s!eur* "ot !" that roo,* that !s M!ss . . . . roo,* you ,ust %o,e !"to ours. 3 She ,ay #et e"#a#e( a"( 'a"t her roo,.4 I"to the roo, o& the tall lo"(e I 'e"t* sa' a &a!r ha!re( %u"t* a"( y !ts s!(e a (ar2 ha!re( %u"t* out o& 'h!%h jutte( a %l!tor!s as !# as a 'ell su%2e( "!pple* o"e o& the lar#est I e/er sa'* '!th &la#s &all!"# (o'" &ro, !t t!ll h!((e" y the outer l!ps. 3 4You &u%2 'o,e" '!th that* ,a elle.4 4Da,a!s* ja,a!s (o"% 3 I lo/e ,e" "ot 'o,e".4 4)hy "ot7 3 !& you l!2e 'o,e"* all !s &a!r a"( proper !" lo/e. 3 That !s ,y ,otto.4 3 ;ut she pers!ste( !" her lo/e &or ,e" alo"e. The" I ha( the troupe o& >aph!a"s se"t up to ,e &or &urther sele%t!o"* a"( ha( a"other %ouple* a"( the" a"other. 3 Sa!( I* 4Dea"ette* she '!th the lar#e %l!tor!s* ru s %u"ts '!th you (oes"'t she7 3 Tell* a"( I'll ha/e a ottle o& %ha,pa#"e. You stop a"( I'll &u%2 you.4 I se"t the other a'ay. I 'as 'rou#ht up '!th the s!#ht a"( the s,ell o& so ,u%h %u"t a"( &e,ale lo/el!"ess* a"( ha( sele%te( ,y Ve"us. 4Stop the "!#ht '!th ,e.4 4Ho' ,u%h74 She tol( ,e the tar!&&* a"( say!"# I 'oul( stop* %ha,pa#"e 'as rou#ht a"( a %a2e. My Ve"us e#a" at o"%e to e"joy hersel&* I (ra"2 ut l!ttle* she ,u%h. I sat see!"# her eat a"( (r!"2< a"( st!&&!"# ,y lust* a,use( ,ysel& y 'at%h!"# a"( stu(y!"# so to spea2 the 'o,a". 3 More a"( ,ore I %a" (o that "o'. I l!2e to
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    s!t loo2!"# at the,* hear!"# the,* e"%oura#!"# the, to tal2 o"* s%ar%ely spea2!"# ,ysel&* ut th!"2!"# a"( %o"trast!"# the, ,e"tally '!th other 'o,e" I ha/e ha(. T'o th!r(s o& the ottle ha( #o"e* 'he" ,y Ve"us* u"as2e(* su((e"ly rose* a"( pull!"# her %he,!se hal& ' '/ up her th!#hs e#a" to (a"%e a Spa"!sh (a"%e. 3 4 I3 La 3 La 3 Lala 3 La0lala 3 Lala4 3 sa"# she. 4I %a" (a"%e 3 loo2.4 4>ull your %he,!se h!#her up a"( sho' your ,otte.4 48o" 3 "o" 3 that '!ll spo!l !t.4 -ropp!"# her %he,!se she sat hersel& o" ,y 2"ee* put o"e ar, rou"( ,y "e%2 a"( 2!sse( ,e* '!th the other too2 ,y pe#o out o& ,y tro'sers. 4$ha 3 !t's st!&& 3 let's &u%2.4 4You'/e ee" &u%2e( e&ore74 48ot s!"%e yester(ay 3 &u%2 ,e 3 ut I shall p!ss.4 48o* 'a!t4 3 I hel( the as!" &or the operat!o"* 'at%h!"# the l!ps ope"* the strea, !ssue* a"( the" o" to the e( '!th her. I ha( 'ell "!#h &or#otte" the !# %l!tor!s t!ll &eel!"# hers. 3 4Dea"ette has a lar#e %l!tor!s* she ru s %u"ts '!th the 'o,e"* (oes"'t she.4 $ lau#h. 4Yes.4 4So,et!,es '!th you74 4)!th us all* 'e ha/e all ha( her &or a %apr!%e.4 4She l!2es the" 'o,e"74 4She l!2es all 3 ,e" a"( 'o,e". 3 She's ee" u##ere( a"( &u%2e( at the sa,e ,o,e"t y t'o ,e" 3 she !s prou( o& !t.4 4U"e /ra!e %o%ho""e.4 4There are three 'o,e" 'ho l!2e her 3 I', "ot o"e* ut 'e all ha/e (o"e !t '!th her.4 3 My lass 'as s%re'e(. The '!"e a"( tal2* a"( perhaps a &a"%y &or the ,a" 'ho ha( see" e!#ht other 'o,e"'s %u"ts a"( ha( sele%te( hers &or &u%2!"# or perhaps a su((e" st!"# o& lust* a re%urre"%e o& her (a!ly (es!res ?&or #ay 'o,e" ha/e le'e( ,o,e"ts* e"joy &u%2!"# as ,u%h as other 'o,e". )!th the, a spe"( (a!ly !s a "e%ess!ty* a"( I el!e/e they al'ays spe"( o"%e (a!ly !& "ot t'!%e@* "o' ,a(e her #rasp* a"( s5uee1e* a"( &r!# ,y pr!%2* 2!ss!"# ,e lust&ully all the t!,e. 3 The "e+t ,!"ute I 'as et'ee" her th!#hs* the ha!r o& our ,ottes e"t'!"0 !"#* ,y pr!%2 ,o/!"# !" a"( out a"( pro !"# her %u"t to !ts ut,ost (epths. 3 The" 'e (!e( a'ay !" ea%h other's ar,s* a"( lay tra"5u!lly %ouple( !" sper,y slo er* t!ll the pr!%2 le&t her. She 'ashe( out the sper,* a"( a#a!" 'e sat a"( tal2e(* a"( oth s,o2e(. I tal2e( a out the other 'o,e"'s %u"ts. My %apr!%e !" see!"# so ,a"y a,use( her. I ,ust e r!%h* she thou#ht. Me" ha( stra"#e 'h!,s. 8oth!"# surpr!se( her. 3 There 'as a #e"tle,a" %a,e there* 'ho la!( (o'" o" the &loor* a"( o"e o& the #!rls 'ho, he lo/e(* a"( 'ho, he al'ays 'rote to the (ay e&ore* to tell her to hol( hersel& !" rea(!"ess* the" sat o/er h!,* a"( o##e( !" h!s ,outh. She s'ore !t 'as true. He al'ays #a/e her a hu"(re( &ra"%s &or th!s ster%ora%eous a,use,e"t. 3 JI (!("'t el!e/e !t* ut "o' a&ter ,ore 2"o'le(#e o& ,ale 'h!,s* th!"2 !t l!2ely e"ou#h to e true. 3 There !s "o o((!ty* "o est!al!ty* "o sa"#u!"ary (ee(s that are "ot pleasura le to the lust o& ,e" 3 ea%h has h!s let%h !& he l!2es 'o,e" at all 3 so ha/e 'o,e".K $&ter a"other po2e 'e parte(* &or I (!( "ot stop the "!#ht* tho I pa!( her the pr!%e o& o"e. 3 8o (ou t she 'as just as 'ell !& "ot etter please( '!th ,y a se"%e tha" '!th ,y %o,pa"y. It le&t her &ree to #et others* a"( ,ore ,o"ey.
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    $ &e' "!#hts a&ter I 'as there a#a!" a"( repeate( ,y a,use,e"t. I th!"2 I ,ust ha/e see" all the %u"ts !" that esta l!sh,e"t* a"( o"e or t'o o& the, t'!%e* !"%lu(!"# her '!th the !# %l!tor!s. 3 JTho I (!("'t th!"2 ,u%h a out tr! a(!s, the". 3 I 'as e#!""!"# to th!"2 ,ore a out !t* a"( !ts real!ty %a,e ,ore stro"#ly to ,e a &e' years later o"* as I #re' ol(er* a"( I #re' st!ll ,ore %ur!ous a out the 'ays o& 'o,e" '!th 'or"0 e"* a"( the /oluptuous pleasures they %oul( #et '!thout the a!( o& a ,a".K $ ,o"th later 'e 'ere a#a!" !" the sa,e %!ty* a"( th!s t!,e I sou#ht a "e!#h our!"#* lar#e* ha"(so,e lapu"ar. 3 It 'as "ot ,u%h ,ore e+pe"s!/e tha" the other ?they are all state re#ulate(* a"( the pr!%e "ot h!#h@. I sele%te( a /ery tall* !#* stout 'o,a"* 'ho ha( o"e o& the lo/el!est &a%es I e/er sa'* ut o& a De'!sh type. She 'as t'e"ty0&our* ut I el!e/e her to ha/e ee" th!rty0 &our* a"( %erta!"ly she 'e!#he( se/e"0tee" sto"e. 3 For all that she s2!ppe( up sta!rs 5u!te r!s2ly* a"( ju,pe( o" to the e( !" her "u(!ty 5u!te l!#htly. She ha( a &ully (e/elope(* &at %u"t* a"( ,asses o& th!%2* %r!sp* (ar2 ha!r* hal& 'ay to her "a/el. She (!("'t loo2 u#ly '!th !t tho. I (o"'t "o' l!2e a 'o,a" '!th so ,u%h ha!r a out her %u"t ?I o"%e (!(@ so %hoose the, th!""er a"( you"#er< yet th!s 'o,a"'s e"se, le please( ,e ,u%h &or a 5uarter o& a" hour. Her s!1e ,a(e ,e (es!re to pla%e her so as to see su%h a &resh ha"(so,e ul2 !" /ar!ous att!tu(es. 3 I ha/e al'ays stu(!e( "a2e( 'o,e" art!st!%ally. It has a((e( to ,y pleasure !" e/ery (ay l!&e* &or as I see a 'o,a" stoop!"#* 2"eel!"#* #o!"# up a"( (o'" sta!rs* or %lea"!"# (oor steps 3 or !" a"y other att!tu(e ?(resse( I ,ea"@ 3 I 2"o' ho' her %u"t 'oul( loo2 !" su%h att!tu(e %oul( I see her "a2e( 3 I th!"2 o& her %u"t a"( that a((s to ,y pleasure 'here/er I a,. I 2"o' ho' !" the allets* the %u"ts o& the aller!"as 'oul( loo2 !& the!r (ra'ers 'ere a'ay* &or ha/e I "ot see" Sarah F..1.r's %u"t "a2e( !" all su%h att!tu(es. 3 Thus (oes ,y art!st!%* a"ato,!%al* a"( se+ual 2"o'le(#e a(( to the pleasure o& ,y l!&e. 3 -!( I "ot !" ,y youth see ,y a(ore( Sarah Ma/!s !" a &e' /oluptuous poses. I rou#ht th!s 'o,a" the" !"to /ar!ous att!tu(es. )he" 2"eel!"# '!th her hu#e 'h!te u, to'ar(s ,e* 4You're th!rty I'll s'ear*4 sa!( I. 4I', "ot* 'hat ,a2es you th!"2 so74 4Ha!r !s all rou"( your %u"t* a"( "early rou"( your %ul* a"( the u, /alley !s ro'". I" all 'o,e" 'he" approa%h!"# th!rty* that &urro' &ro, u, o"e to u, hole #ets a ro'" hue.4 She lau#he( ut (e"!e( the th!rty. The" I tr!e( &u%2!"#* &!rst '!th her !# utto%2s to0'ar(s ,e* ut they #ot !" ,y 'ay. I al,ost "ee(e( t'o !"%hes ,ore pr!%2. $ltho I #ot a" !"sert!o"* I %oul("'t pro e her "!%ely. 3 The" I tr!e( her at the e( s!(e* lay!"# her o" her a%2* 'h!lst I hel( her th!#hs. ;ut her %u"t see,e( lar#e a"( (!( "ot sat!s&y ,y pe#o. 3 The" I #ot o" to her elly* ut %oul( s%ar%ely '!th ,y ha"(s rea%h &ar rou"( her h!ps* a"( #re' (!splease( '!th ,ysel& a"( '!th her* a"( ,y pr!%2 e#a" to shr!"2. $&ter'ar(s I tr!e( her a#a!" a"( a#a!" !" all postures* ut !t 'as useless* a"( I le&t o&& '!thout spe"(!"# !" her* a&ter 5u!te a" hour's
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    tr!al. 3 )as !t her &at 3 or the loose"ess o& her %u"t 3 or 'as I "er/ous 3 or (!( I "ot l!2e her 3 I %a""ot say 'h!%h 3 I %oul("'t &u%2 her tho she 'as a sple"(!( %reature. I &elt ,u%h a""oye( '!th ,ysel&. The la(y e#a" to e t!re( o& ,e* say!"# I ha( o%%up!e( her a lo"# t!,e 3 I a(,!tte( !t. Tell!"# her I shoul( #!/e her a (ou le &ee* that %o"te"te( her< a"( to st!,ulate her I ha( %ha,pa#"e. 3 $&ter a t!,e she 'a"te( to p!ss* so I put her o" the e( '!th a as!" u"(er her utto%2s* a"( (!ste"(!"# &urther '!th ,y &!"0#ers the alrea(y ope" l!ps o& her 5u!,* '!t"esse( the #ol(e" strea,. It 'as the lar#est pa!r o& utto%2s I th!"2 I ha/e e/er see" s5uatt!"# o/er a as!"* a"( as I hel( !t* her %u"t loo2e( /ast* yet please( ,e ,u%h. I "o lo"#er ha( (es!re* a"( (!( "ot st!&&e" sp!te o& the allo%2 st!rr!"# spe%ta%le. Sa!( she* 4Shall I #a,ahu%he you74 That she (!( 3 &!rst sta"(!"# at the e( s!(e* a"( the" lea"!"# o/er ,e* '!th her !# a%2s!(e* re&le%te( !" the #lass o& her 'ar(ro e* a"( the #ap!"# (ar2 ha!re( %u"t !" rea%h o& ,y &!"#ers. 3 It &elt outs!(e !# e"ou#h to ha/e put ,y hea( up. 3 The l!"#ual e+er%!se too2 e&&e%t* I rose to &ull ,a"hoo(* a"( the" tur"!"# her !"to a proper att!tu(e o" her a%2 ,ou"te( her. ;ut I %oul("'t &u%2 her. The" a#a!" %a,e ,y su((e" !,pulse o& lust* a (es!re to /!e' the eaut!es o& ,y Ve"us !" all parts* !" e/ery pos!t!o" 3 "o' the elly* the" the utto%2s 3 (es!re to %ha"#e her pose !"%essa"tly. 4Sho' ,e your arse* let ,e see your lo/ely utto%2s a"( %u"t. 3 Lay o/er ,e* ,a2e s!+ty0"!"e.4 3 4Yes* ut I a, hea/y*4 sa!( she* ,ou"t!"# the e(. The "e+t ,!"ute she 'as %o/er!"# ,e* hal& 2"eel!"#* hal& ly!"# o/er ,e* ,y hea( et'ee" her lar#e 'h!te th!#hs* her %u"t a &e' !"%hes a o/e ,y hea(* the t!p o& ,y pe#o !" her ,outh. I a#a!" &elt the (el!%ate t!t!llat!o" o& her to"#ue* a"( the s,ooth ru o& l!ps a"( palate* as !t 'e"t &urther !"to her ha"(so,e ,outh. My ha"(s ro/e( restlessly o/er her !/ory a%2s!(e* ,y eyes "o' re/elle( !" the ro'" &urro'< at o"e e"( the 'r!"2le( u, hole< lo'er* the re( #ap '!th !ts ha!ry &r!"#e* loo2!"# lar#e e"ou#h to ha/e ta2e" ,y ha"( up !t ? ut the e+ter"als o& a %u"t are o&te" (e%e!/!"# as to s!1e o& the /a#!"a. The &a%e o& the %u"t loo2s /ery lar#e !" a !# stout 'o,a"* ut I ha/e &elt a %o,&orta le t!#ht"ess 'he" up the,@. The s!#ht* the &eel* the #e"tle su%t!o"* perhaps '!th the aro,a* &or she 'as s'eet* too2 e&&e%t. My pr!%2 slo'ly st!&&e"e(* /oluptuous thr!lls ra" throu#h ,e* &resh (es!res arose. 3 4>ut your u, lo'er* let ,e #a,ahu%he you.4 3 $(just!"# hersel& hast!ly as !& she l!2e( !t* '!th th!#hs st!ll '!(er apart* %u"t #ap!"# ,ore* !t %a,e slo'ly (o'" to ,y &a%e the !""er l!ps tou%h!"# ,e* the pr!%2 hole o" ,e. 3 Te" ,!"utes e&ore I 'oul( "ot ha/e tou%he( that lar#e ha!ry /ul/a '!th ,y l!ps. It 'as !" s!1e a"( loo2 the /ery last that I shoul( ha/e ta2e" &or a #a,ahu%he. 3 8o' !t please( ,e* !ts /ery s!1e please( "o'* as I thou#ht o& #!/!"# her pleasure* "ot ,ysel&. My 9o(: 'hat a ,outh&ul. $s I thou#ht o& #!/!"# th!s !# %reature se+ual (el!#ht* ,y pr!%2 st!&&e"e( a"( thro e(* ,y to"#ue tou%he( her %l!tor!s* a"( rap!(ly sl!( to a"( &ro o" !t. Lo'er sa"2 her %u"t* a"( the" ,y ,outh 'as &ull o& !t !"stea( o& ,y to"#ue tou%h!"# her
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    %l!tor!s o"ly* "o' !t sl!( o/er a lar#e s,ooth sur&a%e. 3 The %ha"#e st!,ulate( ,y lust. )hat ,ore rap!( tha" the a#!l!ty o& a to"#ue a#!tate( y lust. She su%2e( ,y pr!%2* !ts 'hole le"#th 'as !" her ,outh. I 'as %o,!"# 3 ,y sper, rea(y to r!se 3 I %laspe( her !# utto%2s t!#htly* ,y to"#ue 'e"t l!2e l!#ht"!"# o/er her %u"t* I &elt a" a#!tat!o" !" her a%2s!(e* hear( a ,ur,ur. )!th her th!#hs rou"( ,y ears I %oul( hear "o ,ore. Her %u"t sl!( rap!(ly a%2'ar(s a"( &or'ar(s o/er ,y ,outh a"( &a%e* her %l!tor!s "estle( !" ,y l!ps* ,y "ose 'e"t %o,pletely up her %u"t* ,y &a%e 'as al,ost ur!e( !" her %u"t* 'he" she shu((ere( a"( sa"2 hea/!ly a"( tra"5u!lly o" to ,e* her %u"t %o/er!"# ,e &ro, the %hee2 to %hee2* &ro, %h!" to "ose. I %oul( "ot reathe &or !t. 3 She ha( spe"t* 'as s!le"t* a"( ,ot!o"less. $t that !"sta"t I e%a,e %o"s%!ous that ,y o'" pleasure ha( %ease(. I hea/e( ,y arse up* ut ,y pr!%2 'as !" the %ol( tho I &elt her ha"( rou"( !t* ut she ha( %ease( ,!"ett!"# ,e. 49o o"* #o o"*4 I %r!e( 3 (!se"#a#!"# ,y ,outh &or her %u"t. 4)hy (o"'t you su%2 ,e74 I" her o'" pleasure she ha( &or#otte" ,!"e. $t ,y %ry she resu,e( her 'or2. For a" !"sta"t the %urre"t o& ,y se,e" ha( stoppe(* ut 5u!%2ly pleasure %a,e o"* a"( I (ro'"e( her ,outh '!th ,y l! at!o". She sa"2 o" the e(* hal& o" her s!(e ut st!ll partly lay!"# o" ,e* '!th a "ap2!" to her ,outh 3 a"( I '!th eyes %lose(* thrust ,y &!"#ers up her ,o!st %u"t* 'h!lst she #e"tly presse( ,y e,pty pe"!s. 4You'/e spe"t*4 sa!( I #ett!"# up. 4Yes 3 'hy* you'/e ee" pull!"# !t a out &or a" hour.4 4You l!2e ,!"ette74 4I'( soo"er ha/e a ,a"* a"( e 'hat you %all &oo2e( 3 "'est0%e pas7 ;ut !& a ,a" plays ,!"ette "!%ely I %a"'t help ha/!"# pleasure.4 )!th that she 'ashe( her %u"t. See!"# the #reat 'h!te utto%2s o/er the as!" #a/e ,e a"other let%h. Ma2!"# her re,a!" !" her ,!%turat!"# att!tu(e* I soape( her %u"t 'ell a"( 'ashe( !t ,ysel&. 3 $ soapy %u"t &eels /ery "!%e to the ha"( as !t !s passe( roa(ly o/er !t to a" &ro #e"tly* a"( hers 'as a (el!%!ously so&t ha"(&ul* &ro, u,hole to %l!tor!s* u"(er !ts sapo"a%eous sur&a%e< a"( I (el!#hte( !" soap!"# ,y o'" pr!%2 a"( test!%les '!th the ha"( a"( the soap 'h!%h ha( %o,e o&& her 5u!,. Lust !" !ts !,pulses !s '!th ,e "o'* ,ore su((e" a"( %ur!ous tha" e/er 3 I ha( ha( al,ost a (!sl!2e to th!s !# De'ess ?&or De'ess I a, sure she 'as tho she (e"!e( !t@ 'he" I &a!le( to #et !"to her (o# &ash!o" ?e" le/rette she %alle( !t@ ,y pr!%2 re&use( to sta"( 'ell a&ter'ar(s* a"( o"ly her #a,ahu%h!"# rou#ht ,e up. Yet "o' I 'a"te( to &u%2 a#a!"* a"( ,y pr!%2 '!thout sol!%!tat!o" 'as r!#!(. I put !t !"to her %u"t the" '!th0(re' !t. 49et ,e the s,allest #!rl !" the house* a"( '!th &a!r ha!r.4 She 'e"t out* a"( retur"e( '!th a plu,p l!ttle -ut%h #!rl '!th ha!r l!2e &la+. I la!( the De'ess o" top o& her. She 5u!te h!( her. The" I la!( the -ut%h #!rl et'ee" the De'ess' th!#hs. The" she #a,ahu%he( the !# (ar2 'o,a" !"to e%stasy* a"( 'h!lst she 'as st!ll l!%2!"# her %u"t* 2"eel!"# o" the e( to (o !t. 3 I 2"eel!"# at her a%2s!(e* pe"etrate( the &la+e" ha!re( %u"t* a"( spe"t rapturously !" !t. The" I !( the, a(!eu. JI (!( "ot !"%!te the, to &lat &u%2!"#* tho I sa' et'ee" the!r ope" th!#hs the
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    (!&&ere"t %olore( %u"t '!#s to#ether. It surpr!ses ,e "o' that I (!( "ot. I see,e( to ha/e ee" arouse( &ully to su%h spe%ta%les at a so,e'hat later per!o( o& ,y l!&e.K )he" I %a,e to 'r!te a out th!s a,orous &u"* I 'o"(ere( 'hy I ha( ta2e" a !# 'o,a" l!2e the De'ess. I ha/e ha( e"ou#h !#* &ully ,ature( o"es* !"te"(e( to ha/e "o ,ore* a"( ,y taste "o' ru"s !" a"other (!re%t!o". Yet I sele%te( her 3 I %a""ot a%%ou"t &or these su((e" let%hes 'h!%h upset all ,y !"te"t!o"s. It 'as ,y let%h &or the t!,e* I 'as !" the /e!" &or %u"t !"spe%t!o" a"( the "!#ht &ollo'!"# 'e"t to a"other lapu"ar* "ot o& the h!#hest %lass. I ha( "ot ,u%h 'a"t &or &e,ale a!( or %o"ju"%t!o"* ut a" o/er'hel,!"#* !"sat!a le (es!re to see all that the 'o,e" ha( h!((e" o& the!r o(!es* to %o,pare a"( "ote (!&&ere"%es* a"( as2 e/ery o"e o& the, 5uest!o"s a out the!r se+ual tastes* se"sat!o"s* a"( ha !ts. I ha/e (o"e that &or ,a"y ,a"y years* ha/e as2e( s%ores o& t!,es o" &!rst a%5ua!"ta"%e* e+pe%t!"# ,ore &re5ue"tly l!es tha" the truth* yet st!ll I as2e(. 3 It !s (el!#ht&ul !" !tsel& to put the las%!/!ous 5uest!o"s* sear%h!"# &or the ,ost h!((e" thou#hts* &eel!"#s* a"( (ee(s o& these lo/ely %reatures. 3 )he" I ha/e 2"o'" a 'o,a" or #!rl a short t!,e* I ha/e "early al'ays #ot the!r %o"&!(e"%e* a"( the" o/er a ottle o& '!"e* 'he" !ts #e"erous !"&lue"%e has ee" &elt* I ha/e ut l!ttle (ou t that I #ot !" the ,a!" truth&ul repl!es. Lo"# e&ore th!s per!o( I prepare( a set o& 5uest!o"s* o& 'h!%h I 2"e' the or(er pretty 'ell y heart* throu#h repet!t!o". 3 $t a out th!s t!,e I ethou#ht ,e o& a((!t!o"al 5uest!o"s a out tr! a(!s,* o& %u"t to %u"t ru !"#* or as !t !s %alle( &lat &u%2!"#< ut to 'h!%h a,use,e"t !t !s o"ly o& re%e"t years that I #a/e atte"t!o"* or that these &e,!"!"e #a,es #a/e ,e ,u%h se"sual pleasure to th!"2 a out* or ha( rouse( ,y %ur!o0s!ty. 3 Fro, hu"(re(s o& a"s'ers to these 5uest!o"s* %ouple( '!th ,y o'" e+per!e"%e !" &a%ts* I th!"2 I ha/e as #oo( a 2"o'le(#e o& the se+ual tastes a"( ha !ts o& ,e" a"( 'o,e" as ,ost< e+%ept!"# ol( au(y pr!ests* 'ho 2"o' all throu#h %o"&ess!o". 3 The repl!es o& ,a"y o& the &e,ales* part!%ularly o& the you"# o"es* I 2"o' alrea(y ha/e ee" #!/e" !" /ar!ous parts o& th!s h!story. I ha/e ha( ,a"y ser/a"ts. $ll ha( ee" poor* a"( !" the!r youth ha( "urse( the!r rothers !& they ha( a"y. Ma"y ha( ee" "urse,a!(s 'he" they le&t the!r ho,es. 3 So,e 'ere "urse,a!(s 'he" I &u%2e( the,. They e"joye( ,y tal2 o" se+ual!t!es. It !s o"e o& the a((!t!o"al pleasures 'h!%h ser/a"t #!rls* a"( 'o,e" 'ho are "ot #ay* #!/e ,e. 3 It a((s to the phys!%al pleasure 'h!%h they al'ays #!/e a"( al'ays ha/e '!th ,e* &or a ser/a"t !& she '!ll ta2e ,o"ey* a"( #!&ts ?a"( all 'o,e" '!ll* &or that !s ,y e+per!e"%e@ ha/e ,et ,e* a"( surre"(ere( to ,e* &or the pleasure o& &u%2!"#* a"( "ot &or ,o"ey. $s e&ore sa!( ?o&te" perhaps 3 I &or#et@ I al'ays #ot the %o"&!(e"%e a"( l!2!"# o& #ay 'o,e" 'he" I /!s!te( the, re#ularly. They at t!,es l!2e re,!"!s%e"%es o& lust a"( o& the!r pre%o%!ous e+per!e"%e* a"( '!ll o&te" tal2
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    &reely 'he" there are o"e or t'o to0#ether* a"( are a l!ttle 2"o'" to ea%h other. ?T'o #ay la(!es o& late ha/e o&te" ,et ,e to#ether !" au(y %o,pa"!o"sh!p.@ The" o/er a ottle o& %ha,pa#"e or t'o* they #e"erally '!ll e+%ha"#e %o"&!(e"%es* a"s'er ,y 5uest!o"s* a"( tell the truth to ea%h other a"( to ,e* tho I ha/e &ou"( so,e ,a"!&est l!ars e/e" 'he" the!r to"#ues 'ere loose"e( y l!5uor. These 'ere pr!"%!pally the lea(!"# 5uest!o"s* 'h!%h I ha/e put to hu"(re(s* the &!rst ,a!"ly to the 5u!te you"# a"( you"#!sh* the ,ore sear%h!"# to &e,ales o& all a#es. 3 The &!rst t'e"ty or therea outs I ha/e al'ays as2e( ser/a"ts a"( you"# #!rls a"( "urse,a!(s. $t 'hat a#e (oes a l!ttle oy's %o%2 #et st!&&7 )he" (o you th!"2 a oy &!rst &eels pleasure !" !ts st!&&"ess7 $t 'hat early a#e (o you th!"2 a oy %a" spe"(7 -!( you e/er ,a2e a oy's %o%2 st!&&7 -!( you e/er &r!# a oy t!ll he spe"t a"( 'hat 'as the you"#est you ,a(e spe"(7 -!( he spe"( 5u!%2ly7 (!( !t spurt out7 'as h!s spu"2 th!%2 or th!"7 'as there ,u%h o& !t7 Ho' ol( 'as the you"#est oy* 'ho 'a"te( to put h!s ha"(s up your %lothes* or 'as %ur!ous a out your se+ or your %u"t7 $t 'hat a#e (!( you 2"o' 'hat &u%2!"# 'as7 $t 'hat a#e (!( you &!rst 2"o' that you ha( a 'o, * a"( that %h!l(re" %a,e out thro %u"ts7 Ho' ol( 'ere you 'he" you &!rst &elt ra"(y7 Ho' ol( 'he" you &!rst &r!##e( yoursel&7 Ho' ol( 'he" you 'ere &!rst &u%2e(7 -!( you spe"( at the &!rst &u%2* or !& "ot (!( you &eel a"y pleasure at all7 -!( your &!rst &u%2 hurt you ,u%h* a"( (!( you lee( ,u%h7 Ho' lo"# 'as your %u"t sore a&ter'ar(s7 )he" (ur!"# a ,o"th (o you &eel ,ost le'e(* e&ore or a&ter your ,o"thl!es* or 'h!lst they are o"7 -oes your %l!tor!s #et st!&&er 'he" you &r!# yoursel&* or you &eel le'e(7 -!( you e/er &r!# a #!rl7 )hat a#e 'as the you"#est #!rl you ha/e &r!##e(7 -o ,a"y #!rls &r!# ea%h other7 $re there a"y #!rls a&ter t'el/e years o& a#e 'ho (o"'t &r!# the,sel/es7 I& #!rls 'a"t the pleasure* (o a"y restra!" the,sel/es &ro, &r!##!"#7 $t 'hat t!,e o& (ay or "!#ht (o they #e"erally &r!# the,sel/es7 Ho' o&te" ha/e you e/er &r!##e( yoursel& !" t'e"ty0&our hours7 -!( you e/er l!%2 a"other #!rl's %u"t7
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    -!( a"other #!rl l!%2 your %u"t7 )h!%h (o you l!2e est* &u%2!"#* or &r!##!"# yoursel&* or ha/!"# your %u"t l!%2e( t!ll you spe"(7 -o you l!2e l!%2!"# a #!rl's %u"t7 -o you l!2e e!"# l!%2e( y a ,a" or a 'o,a"7 The &urther 5uest!o"s to the &ully e+per!e"%e( 'o,e" !" the $rs $,or!s* 'ereI -o you l!2e su%2!"# a ,a"'s pr!%2* a"( ha/e you su%2e( o"e7 -o you l!2e the &eel o& a pr!%2 !" your ,outh est 'he" !t's st!&&* or 'he" !t's l!,p7 -o you ,!"( or l!2e h!s spe"(!"# !" your ,outh7 )h!%h (o you l!2e est 3 &u%2!"# or e!"# #a,ahu%he(7 )h!%h (o you l!2e est* a ,a" or 'o,a" to #a,ahu%he you7 -o you l!2e #a,ahu%h!"# a "!%e 'o,a"7 -o you l!2e a &!"#er up your %u"t 'he" you are #a,ahu%he(* or up your u, hole7 -o you #e"erally spe"( '!th ,e"* or '!th a ,a" 'ho !s "e' to you a"( &u%2s you &or the &!rst t!,e7 -o you l!2e &u%2!"# as ,u%h as you (!( 'he" you 'erese/e"tee"7 -o you l!2e e!"# (!l(oe(7 )h!%h #!/es you ,ost pleasure* e!"# #a,a%hu%he(* &r!##e(* or (!l(oe(* or &u%2e(7 -!( you e/er su%2 a ,a"'s %o%2 'h!le you 'ere e!"# #a,ahu%he(7 -oes &lat &u%2!"# #!/e you ,u%h* a"( prolo"#e( pleasure7 $re you lo"#er e&ore you spe"( that 'ay tha" 'he" e!"# &u%2e(7 -o the t'o 'o,e" &lat &u%2!"# usually spe"( at the sa,e t!,e7 -oes your %u"t &eel as sat!s&!e( &lat &u%2!"# as !t (oes a&ter a ,a" has &u%2e( a"( spe"t h!s sper, !" you7 -!( you e/er see a ,a" u##er!"# a"other* or o"e su%2!"# a"other's pr!%27 -!( you e/er s'allo' a ,a"'s sper,7 Ho' (oes sper, taste7 -oes sper, see, a "asty &lu!( to you7 )ere you e/er u##ere( a"( (o you l!2e !t7 These are lea(!"# 5uest!o"s. The repl!es su##est others. 3 The a"s'ers #!/e" to the, y ,a"y 'o,e" '!ll* %ouple( '!th a ,a"'s o'" '!(e e+per!e"%e a"(
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    o ser/at!o" o& 'o,e"* lea/e h!, ut /ery l!ttle to lear" a out the,< a"( e"a le h!, to &or, sou"( op!"!o"s a out the!r se+ual tastes a"( ha !ts* a"( the phe"o,e"a a%%o,pa"y!"# the!r lust a"( spe"(!"#* as 'ell as a out the ha !ts a"( tastes o& ,e". 8o' I #o a%2 to the re#ular or(er o& ,y h!story* as !t &ollo'e( a&ter ,y erot!% #a, ols '!th a ,a" at Sarah's lo(#!"#s. $#a!" I 'as at ;...s.ls a"( 'e"t to a 'ell 2"o'" lapu"ar* tho "ot the o"e 'here a year pre/!ously I ha( e!#ht 'o,e" o& a "!#ht to !"spe%t< "or that 'here I ha( the !# De'ess* a"( the &la+e" ha!r %u"te( -ut%h #!rl. 3 I 'as '!th a tall!sh* rather sl!, 'o,a"* '!th le#s a"( th!#hs a"( a%2s!(e (!sproport!o"ately lar#e to her ar,s a"( reasts. I 'as "ot ,u%h e"a,oure( o& her 'he" I ha( her !" the roo,* a"( (!( "ot at &!rst atte,pt to !"spe%t her %har,s "or (!( I th!"2 she 'as ,u%h please( '!th ,e. 9ay 'o,e" ha/e the!r l!2es a"( (!sl!2es l!2e other people* a"( so,e o& the, sho' the!r !"(!&&ere"%e ?o"%e !" Italy at 8.p..s* I re%olle%t a lo/ely l!ttle #!rl a out s!+tee" years ol( re&us!"# to let ,e ha/e her* say!"#* 4I (o"'t l!2e you a"( you sha"'t*4 3 a"( she le&t the roo,@. Th!s #!rl (!("'t l!2e ,e* I', sure. 4Mo" -!eu: ha/e"'t you see" e"ou#h*4 sa!( she* 'he" tar(!ly a"( '!thout spea2!"# I e#a" ,y !"spe%t!o". Her ,a""er 5u!te %h!lle( ,e* ,y pe#o (!( "ot sta"(* ut a"t!%!pat!"# !ts r!se !" t!,e* I e#a" as2!"# her o"e or t'o o& the 5uest!o"s I usually (o o& #ay 'o,e"* 'ho, I ha/e see" &or the &!rst t!,e. 3 I 'as "ot !"%l!"e( to tal2 ,u%h* ut to s!t loo2!"# at her a"( th!"2!"# a out her 3 I ha/e ee" ,u%h l!2e that (ur!"# the last &e' years '!th #ay 'o,e". It 'as a "!#ht o& su,,er. The 'o,a" stoo( '!th a /ery &!"e %he,!se o"* ,a(e o& su%h e+%ee(!"#ly sl!#ht* th!"* #au1y ,ater!al that I %oul( pla!"ly see throu#h !t her e"t!re &or,* a"( the (ar2 ha!r o& her ,otte. 3 She 'as %lose to the '!"(o' 'h!%h ha( 'h!te ,usl!" %urta!"s tou%h!"# the &loor. 4May I s,o2e*4 sa!( she. 4Certa!"ly.4 She stru%2 a ,at%h o& so,e sort a"( l!#hte( a %!#arette 3 I 'as s!tt!"# a %ouple o& yar(s &ro, her* tal2!"#. Su((e"ly I sa' &la,e at the otto, o& the %urta!" a"( her %he,!se o" &!re. 3 )!th a rap!(!ty a"( prese"%e o& ,!"( 'h!%h I s%ar%ely #a/e ,ysel& %re(!t &or* I ju,pe( up* %ry!"# 4You're o" &!re 3 pull your %he,!se o&&.4 3 )!th o"e ha"( '!th a /!ole"t tu# I tore (o'" the %urta!"* '!th the other %lut%he( her %he,!se a"( tore !t o&&. She ha( starte( '!th terror at ,y %ry* a"( ,y %los!"# o" her< the" a'are o& her (a"#er* shr!e2e( a"( (roppe( her %he,!se. )!th!" hal& a ,!"ute or less I ha( sta,pe( out the &la,e. $ out t'o &eet o& the otto, o& the ,usl!" '!"(o' %urta!" ha( ee" ur"t* a"( "!"e !"%hes o& o"e e(#e o& her %he,!se. The th!" t!"(ery stu&& !" a"other se%o"( 'oul( ha/e ee" !" &la,es up to her 'a!st. I ha( sa/e( her %erta!"ly pa!" a"( perhaps ser!ous !"jury* &or her a%2 'as to the %urta!"s* a"( she 'oul( ha/e ee" e"/elope( !" &la,e e&ore she ha( &ou"( !t out. Sta"(!"# st!ll start "a2e(* terror stru%2 &or a &e' se%o"(s loo2!"# at the (!rty hal& la%2e"e( stu&&s. She the" tur"e( rou"(* put her ar,s rou"( ,e* hu##e(
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    ,e a"( 2!sse( ,e pass!o"ately &or a ,!"ute or t'o* say!"#* 4My 9o( 3 you'/e sa/e( ,y l!&e. 3 My 9o(* I shoul( ha/e ee" ur"t. 3 $h: ho' #oo(. Ha/e you ur"t your ha"(7 3 $h* ,y 9o(* you'/e sa/e( ,y l!&e.4 3 B!ss!"# ,e at ea%h 'or( al,ost. 4Ho' (!( !t happe"7 3 My 9o(* 'hat #oo( &ortu"e a"( the (oor 'as lo%2e(. 3 )e ,!#ht oth ha/e ee" ur"t.4 )!th (!&&!%ulty I #ot a'ay &ro, her e, ra%es* so #reat 'as her #rat!tu(e. $ ,o,e"t a&ter. 4$h: %o,e 3 ,o" %her! 3 a!se10,o! 3 &u%2 ,e 3 (o 3 I 'a"t you so. 3 I', (y!"# &or !t 3 you'/e sa/e( ,y l!&e. 3 $h: &u%2 ,e* &u%2 ,e.4 She 2!sse( ,e* %los!"# o" ,e a#a!"* thrust her to"#ue !"to ,y ,outh* pulle( out ,y pr!%2 &or ,e* 2"elt* 2!sse( !t too2 !t !" her ,outh l!2e a lu+ury< a#a!" #ot up a"( hol(!"# ,y pr!%2 '!th o"e ha"(* '!th the other rou"( ,y "e%2 pulle( ,e to'ar(s the e(. 3 4$h ,y lo/e* 3 ,y (arl!"# 3 &u%2 ,e 3 you'/e sa/e( ,y l!&e.4 I (!("'t "ee( &urther !"%!te,e"t* ut str!pp!"# ,ysel& ,ou"te( her. She "e/er %ease( her 2!sses 'he" ,y o(y 'as jo!"e( to hers. 4My lo/e* ,y (arl!"# 3 &u%2 3 I', spe"(!"# 3 ah your pr!%2 3 your spu"2's !" ,e. 3 $h 3 ,y 3 9o( 3 sper, 3 &outre.4 To"#ue %aress!"# to"#ue !" that s'eet l!5u!(!ty* re,!"(!"# us o& the l!5u!&y!"# o& our #e"!tals* stoppe( &urther uttera"%e< a"( !& e/er a 'o,a" e"joye( a ,a" she (!(* a"( so (!( I her. The" &or three or &our hours* 'e 'orsh!pe( Ve"us 3 the re/uls!o" a&ter the terror see,e( to ha/e &!lle( oth her a"( ,e '!th lust* hers st!,ulate( ,!"e. 3 $s &ast as she %oul( st!&&e" ,e y 2!ss a"( &!"#ers a"( to"#ue* she (!(* a"( 'e &u%2e(. She 'oul("'t let ,e #o. 4$h: (o"'t lea/e 3 ,a2e lo/e a#a!". 3 )a!t &or ,e 3 (o"'t spe"(.4 3 $'ay she ra" a&ter o"e %opulat!o" '!th u"'ashe( %u"t* a"( I thou#ht so,e "e%ess!ty o& "ature ha( %alle( her a'ay. 8o. She ha( ru" to tell the other 'o,e" !" the house. So,e %a,e up !" the!r /oluptuous hal& "u(!ty. 3 4Loo2* I 'as sta"(!"# here* et%.* et%.* et%. a"( Mo"s!eur (!( th!s* et%.* et%.* et%.4 She "arrate( the o%%urre"%e o/er a"( o/er a#a!" to the 'o,e"* a"( to the a ess* 'ho %a,e also up to see. The #!rls loo2e( a(,!r!"#ly at ,e 3 I 'as a hero 3 a"( th!"2 so,e 'oul( ha/e l!2e( to ha/e ha( ,e* &or 'o,e" lo/e a ol( ,a". 3 The !(ea o& &or%e e"%ha"ts the,. It !s that 'h!%h ,a2es the sol(!ers the &e,ale %o"5uerors. Fu%2e( out* '!th tool ('!"(le( to a !t o& s2!"* I le&t. 3 Three (ays a&ter I ha( her a#a!". She 'as st!ll as #rate&ul a"( &ull o& (es!re &or ,e 3 a"( s!"#ularly e"ou#h I &or her. 4Spe"(. $h 9o(: I %oul( spe"( '!th you &or e/er. $"( 'he" I &!rst sa' you I (!("'t 2"o' 'hat to th!"2 o& you* thou#ht you'( the %lap or so,e a!l,e"t* so o(( 'ere you. 3 I '!she( you ha("'t %hose" ,e.4 She tol( ,e all a out the house* a"( the 'o,e"* her real "a,e* pla%e o& !rth* a"( pare"ts. 4Oh (o"'t spe"( !" ,y ,outh* tho I'll (o a"yth!"# you l!2e 3 ut &u%2 ,e 3 I l!2e you to spe"( !" ,e.4 3 The "e+t (ay I le&t the %!ty a"( "e/er sa' her a&ter'ar(s. Th!s !"%!(e"t 'as alto#ether (ue to thro'!"# o" the &loor a lu%!&er* a&ter she ha( l!#hte( her %!#arette.
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    $ &e' 'ee2s a&ter I %rosse( the o%ea"* "o ,atter 'here to. 3 I& a"y o"e ha( e&ore I le&t Europe tol( ,e I 'oul( tou%h a"other ,a"'s tool* I 'oul( ha/e s'or" that I 'oul( "ot. 3 ;ut I (!( 3 %uros!ty alo"e 'as the %ause o& !t. -ur!"# the t!,e I 'as the other s!(e o& the o%ea" ?I ,ust &or reaso"s #!/e "ot ,u%h a%%ou"t o& ,y (o!"#s there* they 'ere 'r!tte" ut I ha/e (estroye( ,ost o& the "arrat!/e@ 'as 'here there 'ere ,a"y %oloure( people* a"( the" th!s !"%!(e"t o%%urre(. I 'e"t to a #ay house o"e (ay* a"( 'as '!th a 'h!te 'o,a"* 'he" throu#h tal2!"# I too2 a &a"%y &or a la%2 o"e. 3 $ 8e#ress 'as &et%he( &or ,e* a"( a /ery &!"ely &or,e( %reature she 'as. The ha!r o& her %u"t 'as th!%2* short* a"( %losely %urle(* l!2e the ha!r o" a ,ale 8e#ro's hea(* ut 'as shorter* a"( "ot 5u!te so &u11y perhaps. It 'as s%ru y to the &eel* there 'as ple"ty o& !t* a"( a %ouple o& %ra s 'oul( ha/e ,a(e a "est there* 'here they %oul( ha/e reare( a &a,!ly* a"( (e&!e( a"yth!"# ut %he,!%al solut!o"s. Her %l!tor!s a"( !""er l!ps 'ere s,all!sh a"( o& a /ery (ar2 ,ul erry re(* a"( the e&&e%t 'as u#ly< ut her pr!%2 hole 'as a l!#ht!sh p!"2 !"s!(e the l!ps* a"( l!2e 'h!te 'o,e"'s !" ,ost respe%ts. She spo2e ro2e" E"#l!sh. The 'h!te 'o,a" 'as $,er!%a". )e &ell to tal2!"# a out la%2 ,e"* 'hose pr!%2s I ha( hear( 'ere /ery !# a"( lo"#< a"( #ett!"# %ur!ous* I e+presse( a (es!re to see o"e a"( to see a 8e#ro po2e a 8e#ress. The t'o 'o,e" %o"sulte( &or a ,!"ute* the 8e#ress 'e"t a'ay* a"( !" hal& a" hour rou#ht a%2 a 8e#ro 3 a &!"e you"# ,a" a"( 'ell (resse(. I ha( rather &eare( so,e ully* or a tr!%2 'oul( e playe( o" ,e* ut the 'h!te 'o,a" assure( ,e 'h!lst the 8e#ress 'as a'ay that !t 'as all r!#ht. That !& he 'oul( %o,e* 'h!%h she 'as"'t sure o&* he 'as 5u!te a respe%ta le ,a"* a"( /ery &o"( o& the la%2 'o,a"* 'ho 'oul( &et%h h!,. He 'oul( (o a"yth!"# to stro2e her* ut she (!("'t l!2e h!,. $t the re5uest o& the 'h!te I ha( or(ere( l!5uor o& so,e sort* 'h!%h they all (ra"2 'he" 'e 'ere to0#ether. I (!( "ot. He %a,e !" e/!(e"tly a ashe(* #r!""e( a"( %hu%2le(* a"( sho'e( teeth l!2e s"o'* ut 'as a l!ttle hes!tat!"# a out sho'!"# h!s (oo(le. I (!("'t e/e" l!2e to as2 h!,* &or I &elt /ery "er/ous as usual. 3 The 'h!te 'o,a" pulle( !t out &or h!,. It 'as l!,p* ut !#* a"( I th!"2 !t ,ust ha/e hu"# (o'" &!/e !"%hes or ,ore !" !ts 5u!es%e"t state. $&ter a t!,e I la!( hol( o& !t* &or I see "o har, !" that "o'. )hy shoul( "ot a ,a" &eel a"other pr!%2* !& the t'o a#ree7 3 The" !t #ot a tr!&le s,aller. The 'h!te 'o,a" helpe( to pull o&& h!s tro'sers* a"( tu%2e( up a sh!rt ,a(e o& a l!"e" '!th !# str!pes all o/er !t* a"( I &ou"( he ha( a lar#e all a#. He stoo( ja er!"# a"( %hu%2l!"# 'h!lst the 'o,a" sho'e( h!, o&&. The" the 'h!te 'o,a" &elt !t. The 'o,a" sa!(* 4I "o &u%2ar Sar*4 a"( shoo2 h!s hea(. The la%2 'o,a" 'ho 'as (resse( the" str!ppe( a"( sho'e( her %u"t 'ell* a"( the 8e#ro's %o%2 #a/e t'o or three sharp jer2s a"( s'elle( up !" a ,o,e"t to (ou le the le"#th a"( s!1e. ;ut !t stoo( our "early stra!#ht &ro, h!s elly !"stea( o& "early up a#a!"st !t. The" he ,o/e( 5u!%2ly to'ar(s the 8e#ress a"( la!( hol( o& her.
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    He e#a" play!"# '!th the 8e#ress' %u"t. 4Fu%2 th!s 'h!te la(y*4 sa!( I. He #r!""e(. 3 She 'oul( "ot let h!,* she (e%lare(. 4Fu%2 your &r!e"( the"* a"( #et o" the e(.4 48o* "o*4 sa!( she. 4Yars* yars*4 sa!( he* pull!"# her. 3 I pro,!se( her ,ore ,o"ey to let h!,* 'h!%h ha( the (es!re( e&&e%t. ;e&ore %o,,e"%!"#* she la!( hol( o& h!s tool* shoo2 !t* a"( pulle( the &ores2!" up a"( (o'"* 3 sa!( she* 4Loo2* Sar* 3 loo2. 3 8!##er ,a" ha (a, !# %o%2* Sar* 3 ,ore !# %o%2 tha" 'h!te ,a" %o%2* Sar.4 The" she let h!, &u%2 her* a"( I 'as a,use( at see!"# h!s !# tool* ,o/!"# !" a"( out o& her (ar2 %u"t l!2e a p!sto"* a"( I ha"(le( h!s (ar2 alls 'h!lst he &u%2e(. The 'h!te 'o,a" 'at%he( the, '!th ,e t!ll they'( &!"!she(* a"( sa!(* 4$re"'t you #o!"# to &u%2 ,e.4 3 Lea/!"# h!, spe"t a"( s!le"t o" the top o& the 8e#ress* oth repos!"# a&ter the!r e+er%!se she ha/!"# spe"t see,!"#ly* I 'e"t !"to a" a(ja%e"t roo, '!th her a"( ta!le( her. She 'as e!ther hot arse( that (ay* or I ha( please( her* or the spe%ta%le o& the t'o 8e#roes %opu0 lat!"# ha( e+%!te( her* &or she 'a"te( ,e to ta!l her a#a!" al,ost (!re%tly* 'h!%h I %oul( "ot (o. I se"t out &or so,e l!5uor* 'h!%h I %oul( (r!"2 as 'ell as she. She 'as a ha"(so,e 'o,a"* a"( !t #a/e ,e pleasure to s!t a"( tal2 to her* e/ery "o' a"( the" &eel!"# her %u"t* a"( loo2!"# at her as she sat !" /ar!ous "u(e att!tu(es. 3 She ha( "e/er see" t'o la%2s &u%2!"# e&ore* she tol( ,e* say!"#* 4-o"'t they loo2 l!2e easts.4 She ha( ee" &u%2e( y a la%2 ,a" o"%e ut o"ly out o& %ur!os!ty. She ha( see" ,a"y "!##ers' pr!%2s. They all ha( /ery lar#e pr!%2s* a"( 'ere &o"( o& e+pos!"# the, o" the sly to 'h!te 'o,e"* 'hether they 'a"te( to see the, or "ot. The!r o(!es s,elt so that she %oul("'t ear the,* part!%ularly that /ery 8e#ro* 'ho !& he ,et her !" the street &ollo'e( her a out* e##!"# her to let h!, ha/e her* a"( a%tually '!th tears at t!,es roll!"# (o'" h!s %hee2s. 3 He 'as a 'a!ter* a"( &o"( o& the la%2 'o,a" ut "ot she o& h!,. It 'as !" the hopes o& &u%2!"# o"e or oth o& the,* 'h!%h ha( #ot h!, there. So 'e tal2e( o". 3 $#a!" she sa!(* 4-o"'t they loo2 l!2e easts 'he" (o!"# !t.4 4I& they (o they'/e ,a(e you le'e(.4 See!"# others &u%2!"# al'ays ,a(e her le'e(* she repl!e(. 3 The" ha/!"# hear( all she 2"e'* or %oul( tell a out the pro%reat!"# ,a%h!"es o& the 8e#ro ra%e* oth ,ale a"( &e,ale* 'e &u%2e( a#a!". 3 $" hour ha( ru" a'ay !" th!s pleas!"#* !"stru%t!/e %o"/ersat!o". The" 'e 'e"t a%2 to the la%2 %ouple. I "o' 5u!te o/er%a,e ,y &ool!sh "er/ous"ess* a"( a#a!" ha"(le( h!s #reat (ar2 tool a"( pe"(a"ts< %ur!ously a,use( at !ts (ar2 s2!""e( ste,* a"( !ts %o"trast '!th !ts t!p* re( l!2e that o& a 'h!te ,a"'s* ut perhaps o& a l!ttle (ar2er re(* !t 'as I', sure "!"e !"%hes lo"# 'he" !t stoo(. There ,ay e pr!%2s as lo"# as that !" 'h!te ,e"* ut I "e/er sa' o"e that loo2e( so* tho I'/e see" ,a"y. It 'as s%ar%ely th!%2 !" proport!o"* tho th!%2 e"ou#h. The" I 'o"(ere( !& h!s sper, 'as the sa,e as a 'h!te ,a"'s* a"( pro,!se( h!, ,o"ey !& he'( let ,e &r!# h!,* he'( o"ly &u%2e( o"%e he sa!(. $t &!rst he re&use(* ut persua(e( y the 8e#ress he let ,e* a"( I &r!##e( h!, t!ll he spe"t o/er the 8e#ress' elly a"( %u"t. She lay at the s!(e o& the e( she'!"#
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    her %u"t* 'h!lst the ,astur at!"# operat!o" 'e"t o". H!s sper, 'as l!2e a 'h!te ,a"'s. She '!pe( o&& h!s se,e"* 'ashe( her %u"t* a"( &or a l!ttle t!,e h!s tool hu"# (o'". 3 -!re%tly he ha( spe"t I ha( 5u!te a re/uls!o" o& &eel!"#* "e!ther %are( a out loo2!"# at h!,* "or h!s tool* pa!( h!, a"( the 'o,a"* a"( 'as #o!"# a'ay 'he" the 8e#ress as2 ,e !& I 'as "ot #o!"# to see h!, a#a!" ta!l her. 3 That a#a!" st!rre( ,y le'e("ess* so I 'a!te( a" hour or ,ore* 'he" she ha"(le( h!s tool* t!ll !t st!&&e"e( a#a!". 3 She 'e"t to the e(* the 8e#ro &ollo'!"# her. He pla%e( her at the s!(e o& the e(* a"( e#a" #a,ahu%h!"# her 5u!te spo"ta"eously* "e!ther ha/!"# ee" as2e( to (o so y ,e* "or y e!ther o& the 'o,e". 3 I %oul("'t res!st a#a!" &eel!"# h!s !# st!&& pr!%2 &or a ,!"ute 'h!lst he #a,ahu%he(* &or !t soo" #re' st!&& a#a!". The" he ,ou"te( her* a"( they &u%2e( l!2e a"y other ,ortals< a"( su%h are the l!2es a"( (!sl!2es 'h!%h se!1e ,e that I %oul("'t ear "o' to loo2 at her %u"t* 'he" h!s #reat la%2 tool ha( &loppe( out o& !t a&ter he ha( spe"t. $t a #la"%e there st!ll see,e( lots o& sper,* tho !t 'as h!s th!r( spe"(. She 'ashe( her %u"t* he h!s pr!%2* I se"t out &or ,ore stro"# l!5uor 'h!%h the three (ra"2. I (!( "ot tou%h !t. )e sat a lo"# t!,e. He '!th h!s lo"# (roop!"# tool /!s! le* a"( the 8e#ress 5u!te "a2e(. Our tal2 'as all a out 'h!te a"( la%2 pr!%2s* a"( %u"ts* a"( the "!##er the" as2e( ,e to sho' h!, ,y pr!%2 'h!%h I re&use( to (o* &or 'h!%h I thou#ht ,ysel& a &ool 'he" I e#a" to 'r!te th!s. I ha( ee" alto#ether so,eth!"# l!2e three hours at th!s %ur!ously /ar!e( a"( e+%!t!"# a,use,e"t a"( 'as #o!"# a'ay* 'he" I thou#ht I'( l!2e a part!"# loo2 at h!s !# ,a%h!"e. The 'h!te 'o,a" l!&te( up h!s sh!rt u"as2e( ?&or he ha( put !t o"@ a"( hel( !t &or ,e to see. 3 It see,e( to a,use her /ery ,u%h to sho' !t to ,e. The" she tu%2e( up h!s sh!rt rou"( h!s 'a!st* the 8e#ress ha"(le( h!s tool* a"( I as2e( her to ,a2e !t st!&& !& she %oul(. She su%%ee(e(. He stoo( up 5u!te prou( o& !t* ea%h 'o,a" the" put a ha"( rou"( !t* a"( at the sa,e t!,e* I also #raspe( !t. The t!p 'as the" just sho'!"# !"s!(e ,y &!st* so !t ,ust ha/e ee" "!"e !"%hes lo"#* to ha/e la!" '!th three ha"(s at the sa,e t!,e rou"( the ste,. It !s (!&&!%ult to #uess the le"#th o& a"yth!"#* a"( that's the 'ay ho' I %a,e to th!"2 !t &ull "!"e !"%hes lo"#. I pa!( the 8e#ress a"( le&t the roo, '!th ,y 'h!te o"e 'ho e+%!te( ,e to ,ore a,orous e+er%!ses. $s I 'as #o!"# a'ay a&ter pay!"# ,y 'h!te o"e. 3 4I'll just ha/e a loo2 at la%2!e's %u"t a#a!"*4 sa!( I* 4!& she's there.4 4I e+pe%t she's #o"e out*4 sa!( )h!tey. ;ut ope"!"# the (oor* there 'as the "!##er o" the top o& her* ra,,!"# a'ay so &ur!ously that the e( shoo2 /!ole"tly* a"( oth 'ere %hatter!"#* #asp!"#* a"( s"ort!"# !" su%h a 'ay as I "e/er hear( a ,a" a"( 'o,a" e&ore or s!"%e 'he" &u%2!"#. They 'ere &!/e ,!"utes at !t I shoul( th!"2 'h!lst 'e stoo( loo2!"#. $t last they spe"t* h!s pr!%2 %a,e out 'et a"( l!,p* a"( the" I le&t. I ha( "ot pa!( h!, a"yth!"# e+%ept!"# &or &r!##!"# h!,. I rather th!"2 as 'as tol( ,e that he %a,e &or the po2e. 3 ;ut I (o"'t 2"o' ho' they (!/!(e( ,y ,o"ey. I #a/e !t all to the 8e#ress.
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    $ &e' (ays a&ter I ha( that la%2 'o,a" to#ether '!th the 'h!te o"e* a"( put ,y pr!%2 &!rst !"to o"e* the" the other* to see !& ,y pr!%2 "ot!%e( a"y (!&&ere"%e. I spe"t !" the "!##er ut (!("'t l!2e her. 3 She tol( ,e !" ro2e" E"#l!sh all a out 4;!# 8e#ro ,a"4 3 a"( !t 'as 'hat the 'h!te 'o,a" ha( tol( ,e e&ore. She let h!, (o 'hat he l!2e( that (ay* e%ause &eel!"# ,y 'h!te pr!%2 ha( ,a(e her ra"(y* she sa!(. 4Me l!2es 'h!te ,a" 3 "ot la%2.4 It !s the o"ly t!,e I e/er &elt a la%2 ,a"'s tool* or sa' a 8e#ro a"( 8e#ress %opulate* ut I sa' so,e o& the!r lo"# pr!%2s a&ter'ar(s !" a pe"(a"t state* at a ath!"# pla%e* a"( also at pla%es 'here so,e 'or2!"# !" 'ater e+pose( the,sel/es. It #a/e ,e "o a,use,e"t to (o so that I %a" re%olle%t. $ll the!r pr!%2s 'ere I th!"2 'he" tra"5u!l a"( pe"(a"t ,u%h lo"#er tha" those o& E"#l!sh,e"* 'hose pr!%2s !" e/ery %o"(!t!o" I ha/e see" ,a"y. )hat stru%2 ,e as ,ost pe%ul!ar 'as that h!s pr!%2* 'he" st!&& a"( har(* (!( "ot sta"( so upr!#ht as a 'h!te ,a"'s (oes* ut see,e( to st!%2 out ,ore hor!1o"tally &ro, h!s elly. 3 ;oth 'o,e" sa!( that all la%2 ,e"'s tools (!(. I 'o"(er 'hy. >erhaps !t's the!r le"#th a"( 'e!#ht* 'h!%h ,a2es the, e"( &or0'ar(. 8e#resses' %u"ts shoul( e (eep to ta2e su%h lo"# pro%reators up the,. I 'o"(er !& they are so.

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    Chapter VI Sarah su##ests a ju/e"!le. My !"(!&&ere"%e. She !,pe%u"!ous. My &ears. She allays the,. I %o"se"t. Fa!r ha!re( L!11!e. 4-o"'t %all ,e au"t.4 S,!tte". Sarah a(/!ses L!11!e. $(0/!ses ,e. Sarah stro2e(. L!11!e peeps. Le'e( &rol!%s. Sto%2!"#s a"( oots a#a!". Sarah !" e( '!th L!11!e* sto%2!"#s put o" a"( le#s &elt. 9arters a"( %u"t. $ s!l2 (ress a!t. Hoo2e(. >u(e"(a e+h! !te(. S!,ulta"eous ,astur at!o"s a"( #a,ahu%h!"#. My su((e" let%h. L!11!e a '!t"ess. So,et!,e a&ter a"( !" the spr!"#* I 'e"t to Sarah's lo(#!"#s. Most o& ,y erot!% &rol!%s there ha( ta2e" pla%e !" the ,o"ths !" 'h!%h !t 'as (ar2 at hal& past &!/e or s!+. Sarah as2e( po!"t la"2* 4)oul( you l!2e a"other you"# o"e.4 My let%h &or you"# o"es 'as sat!s&!e(* a"( I sa!( I (!( "ot %are a out !t. 3 )he" "e+t I sa' her she re/erte( to the su je%t. I& she 'ere /!r#!" I 'oul( "ot ,!"(* I repl!e(. Sarah 'oul( try. 3 The" I thou#ht o& the %ost. I %oul( o"ly #!/e te" pou"(s* a"( ,ust see the you"# la(y's %u"t e&ore I &u%2e( her. Sarah re&use( a"#r!ly a"( the su je%t a#a!" (roppe(. 3 $&ter'ar(s ,eet!"# her o" her eat o"e "!#ht* 'e ha( a %hat. She spo2e o& the trou le o& &!"(!"# the proper sort o& lass* a"( so o". 3 )as !t "ot 'orth &!&tee" pou"(s7 4>erhaps*4 ut she 'as to re%olle%t that e/ery t!,e I sa' those l!ttle la(!es' %u"ts a&ter the!r &!rst &u%2!"#* I pa!( t'o so/ere!#"s* that they %ost ,o"ey es!(es* a"( 'ere /ery e+pe"s!/e. Sarah 'as har( up a"( as2e( ,e to #!/e her a so/ere!#"* 'h!%h I &reely (!(* a"( (o"'t re%olle%t her e/er as2!"# ,e &or ,o"ey e&ore. She re,ar2e( that I (!( "ot see her so ,u%h as &or,erly ?'h!%h 'as true* &or I 2ept to ,y ho,e a"( also e%ause I ha( ee" a roa(@. She ,!sse( ,e ,u%h* she sa!(. $ "!#ht or t'o a&ter I ,et her* a"( she sa!( she 'oul( try to #et a #!rl &or te" pou"(s* hop!"# !& I 'as please( I 'oul( ,a2e !t ,ore. She as2e( ,e to #!/e her a"other pou"(. 4I th!"2 I 2"o' o& o"e 3 ut ,ust #o to &et%h her !& I #et her.4 She re&use( e+pla"at!o" a"( I #a/e the so/ere!#". $ 'ee2 or t'o passe( a'ay* a"( I ha( "o 'o,e" #ay or stra"#e* &or !t 'as the Lo"(o" seaso" a"( all o& us 'ere !" to'". The" I ,et Sarah !" the street* a"( 'e"t to a au(y house '!th her. 4I 'o"(er I ha/e "ot see" you. I ha/e #ot o"e* %o,e as soo" as you %a" a"( see !& you'll ha/e her. 3 She's a "!%e #!rl &!&tee" years ol( 3 5u!te &a!r* 5u!te l!#ht ha!re(* lue eyes* a"( oh: so plu,p.4 4I %a"'t ear &a!r ha!re( #!rls.4 )h!%h 'as true. 4)hat (oes the %olour ,atter* you %a"'t e+pe%t all you 'a"t &or te" pou"(s* a"( you "e/er sa!( a"yth!"# a out %olour. I a, sure she !s a /!r#!".4 4Ha/e you ee" &eel!"# a"( loo2!"#7 You l!2e a you"# #!rl to sleep '!th.4 Sarah lau#he(* sa!( a you"# #!rl a,use( her* ut* 4I& you (o"'t l!2e her* #!/e ,e a"other so/ere!#" a"( she shall #o a%2* ut you 'o"'t ha/e su%h a %ha"%e a#a!"* a"( she has "e!ther &ather or ,other.4 $t last I arra"#e( to #o* ut sa!( I hate( l!#ht ha!r* a"( %erta!"ly 'oul("'t ha/e her u"less I sa' a /!r#!"!ty.
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    Sarah 'as a""oye( 3 4I'/e ta2e" the trou le* ut #!/e ,e a"other pou"( to #et r!( o& her.4 She shoul( 2"o' etter a"other t!,e. The" "ot %ar!"# a out the #!rl &ro, her (es%r!pt!o"* I #a/e her the pou"(. She too2 !t say!"#* 4I ,ust try to ,a2e so,eth!"# out o& her.4 3 She 'as sul2y* a"( 'oul( "ot play a"y las%!/!ous pra"2s '!th ,e* 'as !" a hurry* ,ust ,a2e ,o"ey* she 'as har( up 3 she al'ays stoppe( three t!,es as lo"# '!th ,e as '!th a"y o"e else* she sa!(. 4)here are your s!l2 sto%2!"#s74 I as2e(. 4>a'"e(.4 She o'e( re"t a"( %oul("'t star/e. >erhaps I 'oul( #o a"( see her* I sa!(. 4The soo"er the etter*4 3 &or she 'as "ot #o!"# to e &oole(. I" su%h a sul2y "asty te,per* I ha( "e/er see" her e&ore. I (!("'t l!2e part!"# so* so too2 her !"to a pu l!%* a"( #a/e her #ro#. 3 There 'e tal2e( a out the /!r#!"* a"( the su je%t #re' ,ore !"terest!"# to ,e. I shoul( "ot ha/e su%h a %ha"%e a#a!"* ha( she "ot ee" har( up she 'oul( "ot ha/e ta2e" the trou le* ut she'( 2"o'" ,e a lo"# t!,e* a"( ha( "e/er as2e( ,e &or a prese"t. 3 She ,!#ht ha/e e+pe%te( I 'oul( ha/e #!/e" her a &l!,sy "o' that she 'as !" trou le* a"( "o' I o"ly o&&ere( her te" pou"(s* 'he" e&ore I'( #!/e" her &!&tee". 8o I shoul("'t see the #!rl* &or so,e0th!"# ha( just %o,e !"to her hea( 3 I'( ha( the o&&er* a"( "o' so,e o"e else shoul(. I la1e( up (!re%tly I thou#ht so,e other ,a" 'oul( ha/e her* I %oul("'t ear !t* a"( sa!( I'( ha/e her. The ,ore I sa!( I 'oul(* the ,ore she sa!( I shoul("'t. 3 ;ut !t e"(e( !" ,y pro,!s!"# to pay ha"(so,ely* !& the #!rl 'as /!r#!" a"( preposess!"#. 4Ho' a out she'!"# her %u"t74 Sarah 'oul( arra"#e. -r!"2 'oul( "ot (o* &or she %oul("'t ear the taste o& sp!r!ts. 4I& you l!2e her* you ,ust "ot ,!"( ,o"ey. 3 She has"'t a ra# to her a%2 3 #!/e her %lothes 3 I ha/e tol( her &r!e"(s I '!ll #et her a s!tuat!o"* a"( they th!"2 I', ,arr!e( 3 I'll soo" tell her I a, a #ay 'o,a"* a"( 'e '!ll ha/e as '!th Harr!et au(y lar2s e&ore her. I'll tal2 her !"to !t. 3 You say you're a (o%tor* you a%t that 'ell* a"( !t '!ll all %o,e r!#ht. 3 She %alls ,e her au"t* ut I a, "ot.4 3 4;ut !& she #ets r!otous.4 4She %a"'t rea( or 'r!te* a"( (oes"'t 2"o' the "a,e o& ,y street or a"y part o& Lo"(o"* 'hat %a" she (o7 3 She %oul( o"ly ru" a'ay.4 4Suppose she 'e"t to a pol!%e,a".4 4I shoul( say I'( tur"e( her out &or steal!"#.4 9oo(* 2!"( au"t. JI& she 'ere her au"t 'h!%h I so,et!,es thou#ht* altho I "e/er 2"e'.K I 'as to #o at the #!rl at o"%e* &or Sarah ,ust #et ,o"ey so,eho'. 3 I 'as e&ore the #!rl to e#!" '!th Sarah all !,a#!"a le las%!/!ous"ess. 3 I #ot so e+%!te( tal2!"# a out !t that I sa!(* 4I'll ha/e her.4 I'll ha/e her* yet I (!("'t see, to %are ,u%h a out the a&&a!r. She '!ll e "o &u%2 'orth spe"(!"# ,o"ey &or. $ l!ttle ha!rless %u"t* tho a "o/elty* !s "ot a #reat o"e to ,e. I hate (oor ,at %olour ha!re( #!rls* a"( &!&tee" pou"(s '!ll e th!rty0&!/e soo". ;ut as I'( "o' #!/e" ,y 'or( I 'oul( see the #!rl* a"( #!/e Sarah three pou"(s a"( %ut the a&&a!r !& I (!("'t l!2e her. 3 Thus I thou#ht. ;ut a l!ttle %o%2 st!&&e"!"# %a,e o" a"( I thou#ht 3 45u!te l!#ht* &la+e" ha!r< ut has she a"y o" her ,otte7 3
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    !t's lo"# s!"%e I sa' a /ery l!#ht ha!re( /!r#!" #ru,,!t4 3 a"( po"(er!"# o" the /ar!ous %ol0 oure( 5u!, he(#es I ha/e &u%2e(* &ou"( ,ysel& at Sarah's (oor the "e+t "!#ht. The street (oor 'as usually ajar* ut o" that "!#ht I ha( to r!"# 3 I hear( a %latter!"# o& &eet a"( the (oor ope"e(. 4Mrs. F..1.r '!th!"74 4Yes* s!r.4 There stoo( a #!rl* 'ho, I %oul( arely see !" the &a!"t l!#ht o& a s,all %a"(le* pla%e( so,e'here up the sta!rs. 3 Her &eet ,a(e a ro'. 3 $ %lu,sy %ou"try !t%h* thou#ht I* as I e"tere( the roo,. ;ut !" a se%o"(* ,y %o%2 stoo( at the s!#ht o& the ,a!(e" '!th the %lu,p!"# oots. She 'as /ery tall &or her a#e* '!th a eaut!&ul* l!#ht %oloure( ha!r* lar#e r!#ht lue eyes* a"( a p!"2 &resh %o,ple+!o" 3 plu,p as !& she ha( l!/e( o" the &at o& the la"(* a"( '!th the stro"# healthy loo2 'h!%h so,e peasa"t #!rls #et o" a%o" a"( potatoes* a"( 'h!%h a to'" #!rl o& her %lass* &e( o" stea2s a"( ,utto"* rarely #ets. I shoul( ha/e #uesse( her tur"e( s!+tee"* ut &or a you"# loo2 !" her eyes. 3 She 'ore (eep la%2* a"( short pett!%oats* a"( ha( a per&e%tly ,o(est loo2 al0thou#h she stare( at ,e< tur"!"# a'ay her eyes 'he" ,!"e ,et hers* a"( %olour!"# up stro"#ly. )ell she ,!#ht* &or Sarah ha( alrea(y #!/e" her au(y !"stru%t!o"* ha( tol( her that I 'as o"e o& the #e"tle,e" 'ho &u%2e( her* ut the o"ly o"e that (!( so at her ho,e 3 'as a (o%tor a"( 2"e' all a out #!rls at s!#ht. 3 $ "!#ht's sleep!"# '!th Sarah* 'ho ,oreo/er ha(* I e+pe%t* 'ell t!%2le( her l!ttle %u"t &or her* 'as e"ou#h to ,a2e the #!rl stare at ,e. I "e/er l!2e( &e,ales '!th 5u!te l!#ht ha!r o" e!ther the!r hea(s or ta!ls. 8o' ,y &!rst thou#ht 'as* 'hat !s the %olour o& her %u"t &r!"#e* !s !t short or lo"#* th!%2 or th!"* or !s there a"y7 3 I &elt !" a (esperate state o& le'e("ess. 4)ho !s th!s74 4$ %ou"try #!rl 'ho !s to e ,y ,a!(.4 4)hat !s her "a,e74 4L!11!e.4 4Co,e here a"( #!/e ,e a 2!ss4 3 her eyes ope"e( '!(e. 49!/e the (o%tor a 2!ss.4 4I sha"'t.4 49!/e ,e a 2!ss a"( here's hal& a %ro'".4 4I sha"'t.4 4-o"'t 3 a"( putt!"# the ,o"ey !" ,y po%2et I tur"e( to Sarah a"( tal2e(. 3 The" lay!"# hol( o& the #!rl su((e"ly* I s"at%he( 2!ss a&ter 2!ss 'h!lst she stru##le(. 3 4There* I ha/e ha( ,y 2!sses &or "oth!"#*4 sa!( I. The #!rl s,oothe( her ha!r* a"( her &a%e 'as s%arlet* ut she (!("'t see, so ,u%h o&&e"(e(. $ 2!ss &ro, a #e"tle,a" !s al'ays #rat!&y!"# to that %lass. 4Here !s the hal& %ro'".4 She "e/er loo2e( at ,e* ut a(/!se( y Sarah a"( hol(!"# out her ha"(* she too2 !t. I tur"e( to Sarah. )e 'ere the" oth &a%!"# the #!rl 'ho ha( sat (o'" a"( 'as 'or2!"# 3 ?the other l!ttle ser/a"ts ha( al'ays ee" 2ept 'or2!"#@. 4Ho' !s your %u"t* Sarah* la%2 as e/er74 a"( I put ,y ha"( up her %lothes. 4Let's &eel !t* Sally.4 L!11!e loo2e( up 3 the" '!th a start stoo( up. 4Oh ,y oh: 3 au"t:4 sa!( she* a"( sat (o'" a#a!". Sarah too2 "o "ot!%e o& her. 4$ll r!#ht* ,y %u"t's as t!#ht as e/er* -o%tor. Hoh* loo2 there* 3 loo2 3your pr!%2 '!ll %o,e throu#h your
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    tro'sers.4 I &elt Sarah's 5u!,* a"( 'h!lst ,y ha"( 'as ,o/!"# o/er her elly* she u" utto"e( ,y tro'sers a"( pulle( out ,y pr!%2. 4Oh !s"'t !t st!&&* 'hat's ,a(e you so le'e( all !" a ,!"ute74 4Th!"2!"# o& L!11!e's %u"t* I suppose. I'/e ee" lo"#!"# to put ,y pr!%2 up her &ro, the ,!"ute I sa' her.4 4Oh -o%tor you are a ,a".4 L!11!e* 'hose hea( ha( e"t ,ore a"( ,ore %losely o/er her 'or2* ut 'hose eyes I %oul( see ha( ee" #la"%!"# at ,y (oo(le a"( ,y (o!"#s* (roppe( her 'or2 a"( 'e"t out o& the roo,. 4)e ha/e s%are( her* 'e are #o!"# too &ast.4 She 'e"t a&ter her* tol( the #!rl "ot to ,!"(* !t 'as ,y 'ay* a"( the 'ay o& ,a"y ,e". 3 Soo" a%2 she %a,e to the roo, '!th Sarah. I se"t her out &or l!5uor* a"( #a/e her the %ha"#e. 3 I a, a" ol( sta#er 3 ,o"ey '!ll ope" e/ery &e,ale's le#s. 3 She 'oul("'t (r!"2. The" I se"t her out &or '!"e 'h!%h she sa!( she ha( "e/er hear( o&. Tast!"# !t* she spat !t out. $s she #ot the %ha"#e a se%o"( t!,e* she loo2e( at Sarah a"( hes!tate(. 4It's &or you* the -o%tor !s al'ays 2!"(.4 The #!rl s,!le( s'eetly as she too2 !t a"( tha"2e( ,e. I 'o"(ere( at the le"#th o& t!,e the #!rl ha( ee" #o"e. 3 Sarah sa!( she ha( %ha"#e( her pu l!% house. Other #!rls ha( #o"e to o"e %lose y* 'h!%h 'as also 2"o'" to her &or,er %har'o,a"* so she thou#ht !t sa&er to se"( L!11!e to the a(jo!"!"# street* a"( ha( that ,or"!"# she'" her the 'ay. I 'as "o' (y!"# &or the #!rl. 3 4U"less I &!rst see her %u"t I 'o"'t pay /!r#!" pr!%e.4 4Ha/e pat!e"%e &or a (ay or t'o* a"( #!/e her %lothes. 3 She !s l!2e the rest o& the #!rls ,a( &or &!"e (ress. 3 I& she sees 'hat 'e (o* !t '!ll rea2 her !"* ut 'e ,ust"'t #o too &ast* tho I 'a"t the ,o"ey a( e"ou#h 9o( 2"o's.4 3 For so,e t!,e past I ha( thou#ht Mr. F... ?her ,a"@ a"( Sarah 'ere "ot o"e* so put the 5uest!o". 3 Sarah a"#r!ly tol( ,e to ,!"( ,y o'" us!"ess. 4He's ,ore l!2ely to ta2e tha" to #!/e ,e ,o"ey "o'* ut that's ,y a&&a!r.4 There 'as "o %ha"%e o& the lass yet* so thou#ht I'( ha/e Sarah* as2e( her to the !# so&a* la!( her (o'" there* a"( %ha&&!"# au(!ly pulle( her %lothes up a o/e her 2"ees. 3 There sat the #!rl 'or2!"#* a"( #la"%!"# e/ery ,o,e"t at us. 3 Sarah tol( her to pour out a #lass o& '!"e a"( r!"# !t to ,e. )h!lst (o!"# so* I pulle( Sarah's pett!%oats up to her "a/el* she ha( (!spose( her l!, s so as to sho' her %u"t o&& to a(/a"ta#e* ut !" a sha, ,o(est ,a""er. 3 4Oh: "o -o%0tor* I %a"'t e&ore L!11!e*4 a"( she ,a(e a ,o/e,e"t o& putt!"# her %lothes (o'". 4Oh ,y* Surr* (oa"'t*4 sa!( the #!rl spr!"#!"# &or0'ar(s a"( try!"# to pull the %lothes (o'". She spo2e !" a %ou"try (!ale%t. 4O! 3 ,o! 3 Surr* (oa"'t 3 !t's a sha,e* !t e.4 I pulle( the, up a#a!". Sarah "e/er su%%ee(e( "or !"te"(e( to su%%ee( !" h!(!"# her %u"t. I pulle( out ,y pr!%2 say!"# I'( &u%2 her. The #!rl (es!ste(* say!"#* 4Oh ,o!* 3 'ell Surr 3 Surely 3 Oh: 'ell4 3loo2!"# alter"ately at
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    Sarah's elly a"( at ,y pr!%2. 4I %a"'t e&ore L!1* &or she '!ll e 'a"t!"# !t (o"e to her 3 %o,e to the e(.4 I 'al2e( to her e(roo, lea/!"# Sarah !" the s!tt!"# roo,. She (!( "ot %o,e (!re%tly so I %alle( to her. She %a,e* the" e#a" to str!p* a"( 'h!spere(* 4I ha/e tol( her !& she "e/er sa' a ,a" po2e a 'o,a" to %o,e to the (oor a"( peep at us.4 The (oor 'as le&t ajar 3 t'o %a"(les she put o" a 'ash sta"( so as to sho' a stro"# l!#ht. )he" str!ppe(* Sarah pla%e( her0sel& so as to e+pose her %u"t. 3 I &elt !t* t!t!llate( !t* ope"e( !t* a"( hel( the l!#ht to !t. She &elt ,y pr!%2* 2!sse( !t* &o"(le( !t* a"( put !t !"to her ,outh. I put her o" the top o& ,e* a"( she put ,y pr!%2 up her %u"t. There 'as her a%2s!(e a"( ,y alls e"eath !t* '!th0!" &!/e &eet o& a pa!r o& %a"(les* a"( a pa!r o& you"# eyes 'ere a &e' &eet o&&. 3 )e put oursel/es !"to other au(y att!tu(es a"( at le"#th &u%2e( ?I o" the top@* '!th "o!sy (e,o"strat!o"s o& pleasure. It a((e( to ,y pleasure to 2"o' the lass 'as loo2!"#* a"( el!e/e !t (!( to Sarah's. JI ha/e s!"%e ,ore &ully e+per!e"%e( '!th a la(y the !"%rease( /oluptuous"ess o& 2"o'!"# 'e 'ere loo2e( at (ur!"# our e, ra%es.K 4She's see" 3 I sa' the (oor ,o/e*4 sa!( Sarah. 4I& she (oes"'t &r!# hersel& to"!#ht* she has "ot #ot a %l!tor!s or a spe"( !" her.4 4I et you'll &r!# her* Sally.4 4I ,ea".4 4You l!2e (o!"# !t I 2"o'.4 4I l!2e tea%h!"# a you"# o"e* so,e o"e ,ust.4 )e 'e"t a%2 to the parlour. There the #!rl sat (e,urely ut "er/ously at 'or2. ;e&ore* she ha( loo2e( ,e &ull !" the eyes* ut "o' 'he" I spo2e she %oloure( up* loo2e( (o'"* a"( see,e( !" a state o& %o"&us!o". 3 There 'as a #u!lty %o"s%!ous"ess a out her* a %o"%up!s%e"t ,o(esty 'h!%h %har,e( 3 her %o"&us!o" (e0l!#hte( ,e 3 I a(,!re( her &a%e ,ore tha" e/er as she lushe(* a"( as I thou#ht that her l!ttle eyes ha( ee" '!th!" a &e' &eet o& ,y pr!%2* 'he" &u%2!"# Sarah* I %oul( ha/e pulle( her o" to the so&a a"( ra/!she( her there a"( the"< so ,u%h (!( I (es!re her. I re%olle%te( that "early all the you"# #!rls I ha/e ha( l!2e( shru < so she &et%he( so,e* taste( !t* a"( sp!t that out 3 I as2e( 'hat she l!2e(* "a,e( &!&ty l!5uors a"( a,o"# the, %!(er. Yes* she l!2e( %!(er. That p!ss ,a2!"# l!5uor I 2"e' 'oul("'t a"s'er. )hat 'as !t she (ra"2 &or (!""er. 4;eer so,et!,es s!r* ut ,ostly I (r!"2s 'ater.4 4-!( she l!2e eer.4 48o.4 4You (o"'t l!2e a"yth!"#.4 4Yes I (o s!r* I l!2es #oo( ale.4 3 $le 3 I thou#ht l!ttle or "o %ha"%e o& ,a2!"# her ,ussy o" that. 4-o you l!2e !t !tter.4 48o Surr* l!2es !t s'eet* 'hat they sells !" ottles* I ha( so,e o" ,y !rth(ay.4 Sarah a"( I tal2e( a#a!"* a"( the" the #!rl e"t o/er her 'or2 ,ore %losely* 3 4Let's loo2 at your le#s a#a!"* Sally.4 She 'as "o' s!tt!"# !" the easy %ha!r. )!thout a 'or(* she pulle( up her %lothes to her 2"ees. 4You 'a"t a"other pa!r o& s!l2s*4 a"( I sl!ppe( ,y ha"( h!#her up. 3 The #!rl &ro, t!,e to t!,e 'as #la"%!"# at us* ut !" a "er/ous* a#!tate( ,a""er. I sa' that she %oul("'t s!t st!ll* 'hereas she ha( ee" so %al, at &!rst. 3 )as her l!ttle %u"t heate(7
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    I 'e"t to her* 4You ha/e #ot &our sh!ll!"#s 3 #!/e ,e a 2!ss a"( I'll #!/e you a"other.4 48o.4 4Let h!,*4 sa!( Sarah. 49et ,o"ey 'he" you %a"* that's ,y ,otto.4 Tho she sl!#htly res!ste( ,e I too2 hal& a (o1e". 3 4That's r!#ht*4 sa!( Sarah. 4Ho' ,u%h ha/e you #ot "o'.4 The #!rl too2 the ,o"ey out o& her po%2et* %ou"te( !t* a"( s,!l!"# sa!(* 4F!/e sh!ll!"#s.4 3 She ha( a lo/ely s,!le as she tol( ,e a"( the" loo2e( !"to her ope" ha"( a(,!r!"#ly at the ,o"ey. 4-!( you e/er ha/e so ,u%h at o"%e e&ore74 48e/er.4 4)hat shall you (o '!th !t74 She loo2e( at Sarah* the" at ,e* the" at the ,o"ey. 3 4I th!"2 I shall uy a pa!r o& #lo/es.4 )e oth lau#he( at that* a"( she loo2e( a""oye(. 4)hy #lo/es74 4Cause I a!"'t "e/er ha( a pa!r.4 I 2"e' a #!rl 'ho ha( e+a%tly the sa,e (es!re* ut (o"'t re%olle%t !& I ha/e tol( a out her or "ot. I tol( her to pour ,e out a #lass o& '!"e* a"( 'he" she 'as %lose y Sarah* I as2e(* 4Has she #ot "!%e &at le#s74 3 4Oh so "!%e* she !s "!%ely ,a(e.4 4Let's see* a"( I'll #!/e her a "!%e pa!r o& "e' oots.4 4There's a !t o& lu%2*4 sa!( Sarah 3 I la!( hol( o& the #!rl a"( e#a" #e"tly to ra!se her %lothes. 4-o"'t e a &ool* let h!,* a"( he '!ll #!/e you a pa!r o& oots.4 The #!rl res!ste(* ut I %oul( see hal& 'ay up her le#s. 4Yes I '!ll* a"( a "!%e pa!r* !& she lets ,e see her le#s "o'* a"( put the oots o" 'he" she has the,.4 The #!rl's res!sta"%e #re' less* tho she 2ept stru##l!"# a"( say!"#* 48o* 3 oh ,y 3 I %a"'t*4 a"( so o". 3 ;ut Sarah pulle( her o" to her lap* a"( '!th o"e ar, rou"( her sle"(er 'a!st l!&te( the %lothes '!th the other. 3 There 'ere the "!%e l!ttle le#s e+pose(* et'ee" the le#s o& Sarah e5ually e+pose(. 3 Ho' %oul( the #!rl res!st* 'he" her ,!stress' %lothes 'ere "early up to her elly7 The #!rl's le#s 'ere proport!o"ally &atter tha" her o(y 3 ,a"y %ou"try #!rls are so thro 'al2!"#. 3 I a(,!re( the, a"( s,oothe( her l!, s (o'"* pra!s!"# the,* a"( say!"# that I shoul( l!2e to see the, !" et0ter sto%2!"#s. She &lattere(* "o' stoo( 5u!te st!ll. She #artere( elo' 2"ee. )!"2!"# at Sarah* su((e"ly I put o"e ha"( h!#her up* a"( ,y &!"#ers just o" to her %u"t. 3 She #ot %lear o&& a"( urst !"to tears. 3 Ho' (el!%!ous 'as that &eel o& her %u"t* altho o" the outs!(e o"ly* a"( ut &or a se%o"(. The &!rst &eel o& a &resh #!rl !s e+5u!s!te !" !ts "o/elty* a"( 'hat lus%!ous thou#hts she has a&ter'ar(s a out !t. Sarah a"#r!ly. 3 4It's too a(* (o%tor* 'hy you ha/e o"ly see" her to"!#ht 3 I a, 5u!te jealous.4 She %aresse( the #!rl. 4I %a"'t help !t* loo2 here4 3 a"( out ,a2es ,e so* I'( #!/e her a s!l2 (ress to loo2 at her %u"t as I loo2 at yours* a"( other th!"#s as 'ell !& she'( let ,e &u%2 her.4 4H!sh: H!sh:4 sa!( Sarah !" a '!(e* loo2!"# at ,y pr!%2 a"( at ,e. Her ears see,e( to ,o/e as I repeate( ,y o&&er. The" she 'e"t u"tol( out o& the roo,. 4-o"'t #o &urther to"!#ht*4 sa!( Sarah. I suppose( she 'as r!#ht a"( (!( "ot* ut the l!ttle (e/!l ha( &et%he( ,y lust up a'&ully 3 so I la!( Sarah the" a"(
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    there (o'" o" the so&a* a"( 'h!lst I 'as &u%2!"#* L!11!e ope"e( the (oor* ut 5u!%2ly ret!re( a"( hel( the (oor ajar a"( peepe(* so Sarah tol( ,e. I #a/e Sarah ,o"ey to uy the oots. It 'as u"(er0stoo( that I 'as to put the, o" 3 L!11!e sho'e( ,e (o'" sta!rs. Sarah #a/e us !"ju"%t!o"s to e 5u!et* &or there 'ere stra"#e lo(#ers elo'. She hel( a %a"(le o/er the a"!sters 'he" the (oor 'as ope"e(. 3 49!/e ,e your ha"(*4 sa!( I !" a 'h!sper* 4a"( here's a"0other sh!ll!"#.4 48o' your ha"( a#a!".4 She #a/e !t* a"( I put !t o" to ,y pr!%2 'h!%h 'as "ot st!&&. 4Oh s!r*4 she %r!e( a"( pulle( !t a'ay. The" !"to the street I 'e"t lau#h!"#. 3 The #!rl 2"e' !t 'as ,y pr!%2* she ha( tou%he( !t altho she %oul( "ot see !t. I ha( ,a(e rap!( pro#ress. 8e+t (ay* Sarah tol( ,e she ha( 5uest!o"e( her a out the ,o"ey a"( the #!rl %ou"te( !t. 3 She 'oul( uy t'o pa!rs o& #lo/es. The" the oots a"( sto%2!"#s. She '!she( !t 'as the (ay to #o to uy the,. 4M!"( he !s to put the, o".4 4-oes he ,ea" that7 The" he'll see ,y le#s.4 4He sa' e/ery th!"# last "!#ht. -!("'t he74 4Oh: ,y* yes.4 4$"( he put h!s &!"#ers o" your %u"t* (!("'t he74 4Oh* ,y* yes.4 Sa!( L!11!e a&ter a 'h!le* 4;ut I 'o"'t let h!, put o" the #arters.4 4The" he 'o"'t #!/e the, you.4 4;ut they '!ll e o& "o use to h!,.4 4He '!ll ur" the, soo"er tha" let you ha/e the,.4 4The" I ,ust* I suppose.4 4O& %ourse* a!"'t you lu%2y to #et the,7 I "e/er 2"e' su%h lu%2 3 he see,s to ta2e 5u!te a &a"%y to you* he'll #!/e you other th!"#s !& you (o"'t ,a2e a &uss< let h!, (o 'hat he l!2es !& you #et ,o"ey.4 Th!"2!"# o& Sarah's (o!"#s* sa!( L!1* 3 4-o you o&te" (o l!2e that4 ?&u%2!"#@. 48early e/ery "!#ht.4 4You (o"'t see, to ,!"( !t.4 4I lo/e !t* a"( "o #!rl 2"o's 'hat pleasure !s t!ll a pr!%2 has ee" up her %u"t 3 (!( you see h!s pr!%2* L!1.4 4Oh* yes 3 (o"'t !t hurt74 48e/er* you %a"'t tell 'hat pleasure !s t!ll you try. Soo" you'll &u%2* L!11!e.4 3 $ll th!s Sarah ,arrate( to ,e '!th /ery ,u%h #rat!&!%at!o"* e/!(e"tly she l!2e( tea%h!"# the you"# o"es. The" I #ot out o& Sarah '!th a l!ttle hes!tat!o" that she'( &elt L!11!e's %u"t* ut I "e/er 2"e' u"t!l later that she ha( (o"e ,ore< that she ha( %u((le( her* just to sho' her ho' ,e" #ot o" to 'o,e" 3 ha( put her o" the top* a"( ha( ha( a #a,e o& &lat &u%2!"#* to Sarah's (el!#ht "o (ou t* ut o& the pleasure that L!11!e ha( helpe( her to* the #!rl 'as pro&ou"(ly !#"ora"t* e/e" 'he" she tol( ,e a out !t at a later (ay. $&ter ha/!"# tal2e( o/er all the #!rl ha( see" a"( hear(* L!11!e sa!(* 4-!( you hear 'hat he sa!( a out a (ress.4 48o*4 sa!( Sarah altho she ha(. 4)hat74 4He sa!( he'( #!/e ,e a (ress.4 4Oh* so he (!(.4 4-!( he ,ea" !t74 4He al'ays (oes 'hat he says.4 3 Sarah 'as soo" #o!"# to sleep 'he" the #!rl re0,ar2e(* 4He sa!( a s!l2 (ress* that %osts a lot o& ,o"ey. -o you th!"2 he ,ea"t that74 4Oh* %erta!"ly* ut (!( he "ot say you ,ust let h!, (o so,eth!"#74 4Yes.4 4)hat74 The #!rl 'as s!le"t. 4)hat74 4Let h!, loo2 at ,y th!"# 3 $h: he's (!rty.4 4$ll ,e" l!2e to loo2 at #!rls' th!"#s 3 you let h!,.4 3 4That I 'o"'t.4 4Dust as you l!2e* (!( you see h!, loo2 at ,!"e74 4Oh ,y* yes.4 4-o you l!2e s!l274 4Oh ,y* yes* !t's so sh!"y. I use( to sta"( outs!(e the %hur%h a"( loo2 at the la(!es* a"(
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    2"e' I 'oul( "e/er ha/e s!l2.4 4You %a" !& you (o"'t ,a2e a &uss a out she'!"# your %u"t.4 $t (ay l!#ht the #!rl a'a2e"e( Sarah* a"( her &!rst 'or(s 'ere* 4$re the shops ope" early* 'he" '!ll you ta2e ,e to uy the oots74 48ot &or hours* es!(es u"less you pro,!se ,e to let h!, put the, o"* !t's o& "o use uy!"# the,* I %a"'t o&&e"( h!,4 3 a"( Sarah 'e"t to sleep a#a!". Later o" 3 4Shall you uy the oots e&ore rea20&ast74 4O& %ourse "ot. Shall you let h!,74 4You (o"'t see, to th!"2 !t a"y har,74 4Har,: you ,ust e a &ool.4 4)ell* I '!ll !& you'll e !" the roo,.4 4He ,ay"'t l!2e !t.4 The oots a"( sto%2!"#s 'ere ou#ht. The #!rl's &resh"ess ha( st!rre( ,y lust to !ts (epths. 3The #!&t o& oots a"( sto%2!"#s 'as I 2"e' a sure e#!""!"#. I ha/e (o"e the sa,e a (o1e" t!,es '!th 'o,e" su%%ess&ully. $ poor #!rl %a"'t re&use the, e/e" '!th ,y %o"(!t!o"s. 3 The" the!r le#s o"%e sho'" a"( ha"(le(* the se%o"( &eel!"# a"( ha"(l!"# see,s "oth!"# 3 I 2"e' 'ell also the use o& ha"(so,e #arters 3 I e#a" ,y au(y a%5ua!"ta"%e '!th se/eral #!rls y the a!( o& #arters. I "o' ou#ht a la1!"# re( s!l2 pa!r '!th lar#e #!lt u%2les. 3 4She'll let you* ut !& she %r!es lea/e o&&* she !s a'&ully t!,!(* a"( a"+!ous to #et the (ress* ut her &ears u"settle her. 3 The s!l2 (ress !s the &et%h* she'( l!2e !t '!thout sho'!"# you her %u"t* ut !t '!ll settle her* she'll she' !t.4 The #!rl %a,e !". Sarah a#a!" pulle( up her o'" %lothes to her #arters* a"( the" to her %u"t* pulle( up her sto%2!"#s a"( t!e( her #arters as a" e+a,ple. The" tur"!"# to L!11!e* I sa!(* 4)here are your sto%2!"#s a"( oots7 I'll put the, o".4 The #!rl %oloure( up a"( hes!tate(. 4Fet%h the,*4 sa!( Sarah. The #!rl rou#ht the,* they 'ere !" a u"(le. $ 2!ss she res!ste( ut l!ttle* a"other a"( a"other 2!ss &ollo'e(. Sarah re,ar2e(* 4You ,a2e ,e 5u!te jealous* -o%0 tor.4 3 4Let ,e put the, o".4 L!11!e loo2e( at ,e* the" at Sarah* the" sat (o'" o" the so&a a"( tu%2!"# her %lothes et'ee" her le#s* e#a" to pull o&& her %lu,p!"# oots. I rou#ht the la,p "ear* a"( helpe( to pull o&& her oots a"( ol( (ar"e( lue sto%2!"#s. Her &eet 'ere 'ashe( a"( 'h!te* a"( I 2!sse( a"( pra!se( the,. 3 Her #arters 'ere t!e( lo' (o'". I pushe( o" the "e' sto%2!"#* t!ll at her 2"ee* there she res!ste(. 3 48o* s!r* oh "o 3 I t!es ,y #arters there* al'ays elo' ,y 2"ees4 3 ?,a"y poor #!rls (o.@ 4Ho' %a" a pretty le# loo2 'ell* '!th #arters there.4 4I 'o"'t let you h!#her.4 4)ell you (o"'t ,a2e a &ool o& ,e a#a!"*4 a"( '!th a su((e" pull* I (re' the sto%2!"# %lea" o&& her le#* a"( put !t o" the ta le. 4I& you (o"'t. let ,e I'll ur" the,.4 Tears rose to her eyes. She loo2e( at Sarah* ut Sarah sa!( "ot a 'or(. 3 4Let ,e #arter the" h!#her.4 $#a!" I e#a" putt!"# o" the sto%2!"#* a"( th!s t!,e hal& 'ay up her th!#hs. The"* I put o" the ol( #arter a"( #a/e a 2!ss o" her "a2e( th!#h. The" the sa,e '!th the other le#.
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    I put o" the oot* a"( hu##e( the "eat l!ttle le#* 2"elt !" &ro"t o& her* push!"# the oot o" so to spea2* a"( '!th su%h &or%e that she &ell a%2 o" the so&a* a"( I ha( a #l!,pse up her th!#hs 3 o"e le# 'as %o,plete. 4Let ,e see that le# "o'. 3 8o h!#her* I ,ust see 'ell a o/e the #arter.4 Ho' ha"(so,e the l!ttle le# "o' loo2e( %o,pare( '!th !t !" %lo( hoppers a"( 'oolle" sto%2!"#s. $t ea%h su%%ee(!"# a%t* the #!rl !" her (e0l!#ht let ,e (o ,ore. She #!##le( '!th /a"!ty. 3 There 'as the other oot. 4Oh ,a2e haste*4 sa!( she ?!t 'as the Lou!se o& ,y youth o/er a#a!"* e+%ept!"# that Lou!se 'as hal& #ro##y a"( t'e"ty years ol(* th!s o"e so er a"( &!&tee" 3 ut ho' al!2e !" /a"!ty@. I ha( st!&&e"e(. 4Loo2 'hat your (ear l!ttle le#s ha/e (o"e4 3 a"( out I pulle( ,y %o%2. 4Oh s!r* oh (o put the other oot o"* let ,e put !t o" ,ysel&.4 3 They are all al!2e. She too2 "o hee( o& ,y pr!%2* her sole (es!re 'as to #et the oots 5u!%2ly o" 3 I #a/e !t her* s!tt!"# a%2 o" ,y heels o" the &loor* a"( %o"te,plat!"# as she tu##e( a"( tu##e( !t o" a"( the" utto"e( !t she'!"# to her 2"ees hee(lessly "o' !" her /a"!ty. She as2e( her ,!stress 'he" oth 'ere o" to see the,. Sarah sa!( they loo2e( %har,!"#. 3 The #!rl ha/!"# "o' #ot the, o"* 'oul( o"ly l!&t her %lothes to her 2"ees 3 sa!( Sarah 3 4-o 'hat you pro,!se( 3 he ,ust see a o/e the sto%2!"#s.4 3 >ull!"# out the #arters* I sa!(* 4I'll #!/e you these.4 3 Ho' the #!rl's eyes #l!ste"e(. 4$"( let ,e see h!#her* I shall &eel your l!ttle th!#hs 'h!lst I %lasp these pretty #arters rou"( the,* or I 'o"'t #!/e the, you.4 She sat (o'"* "e/er see,e( to "ot!%e ,y pr!%2* 'h!%h I st!ll 2ept out to a&&e%t her !,a#!"at!o" a"( sat!s&y ,y o'" lust*. It 'as so (el!#ht&ul to 2eep ,y pr!%2 u"(er the eyes o& the pretty you"# %reature. 3 She eye( o"ly the #arters. 3 4Let h!,*4 sa!( Sarah 3 I (roppe( o" ,y 2"ees* pushe( up the pett!%oats* u"(!( a" ol( #arter a"( %laspe( the "e' o"e rou"( her th!#h< the" su((e"ly se!1!"# oth le#s* I pulle( her &or'ar(* ho!ste( h!#h up her le#s as she &ell a%2* a"( push!"# ,y hea( u"(er her %lothes* ,y "ose %a,e o" to her ,otte* a"( the ,o!sture o& her %u"t 'as o" ,y l!ps. 3 I 2!sse( a"( 2!sse( !t a"( sl!ppe( ,y ha"(s up u"(er her u,* she %r!e( out lou(ly* Sarah lau#h!"#. 4Oh* -o%tor* you shoul("'t u"less she lets you.4 It 'as a %o,e(y. 4I ha/e 2!sse( her %u"t* a"( '!ll #!/e her a s!l2 (ress to let ,e loo2 at !t as I (o at yours.4 3 49!/e ,e a s!l2 (ress a"( you ,ay &u%2 ,!"e &or a ,o"th*4 sa!( Sarah. She ha( st!ll o"ly o"e #arter o". 4Let ,e put o" the other.4 She loo2e( at !t sul2!ly. 4I sha"'t 3 there.4 I (a"#le( !t e&ore her eyes %ha&&!"# her. 4It's a (ear l!ttle %u"t* !s the ha!r the %olour o& your hea(* tell ,e7 There's ha!r o" !t* !s"'t there. Tell ,e.4 3 She s!le"t* 2ept loo2!"# at the #arter. The play a"( %ha&& 'as e+5u!s!tely /oluptuous to ,e.
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    $#a!" approa%h!"# her she ra" %lose to Sarah. 4Oh (o"'t 3 (o"'t let h!,* au"t.4 3 4I', "ot your au"t* (o"'t %all ,e so a#a!"* !& you (o a#a!" I'll4 3 a"( there she stoppe(* a"( !,,e(!ately %ha"#e( to a %oa+!"# to"e. 4Let h!,* 'hat's the use o& o"e #arter.4 ;ut she 'oul( "ot* so I #a/e the other #arter to Sarah. 4Sho' us your %u"t* Sarah* a"( let's &u%2 !t.4 Up 'e"t Sarah's %lothes* a"( a&ter a l!ttle (all!a"%e 'e 'e"t !"to the e( roo, a"( I &u%2e( her. 3 The (oor a#a!" 'as le&t ajar to let the #!rl peep* a"( she (!(. The" I #a/e L!1 the other #arter. 4You shall 'al2 out !" the oots*4 sa!( I 'he" I 'as a%2 !" the s!tt!"# roo,* ,y lust appease(. 3 I se"t her out &or ale* ut %oul( "ot #et her to (r!"2 a"y. 3 he ha( &or#!/e" 'hat I ha( (o"e. It 'as a,us!"# to see her e/ery "o' a"( the" loo2!"# (o'" at her &eet. She "o lo"#er res!ste( 2!sses* ut sho' her le#s a"( sto%2!"#s a#a!" she 'oul( "ot. Sarah at t!,es l!&te( the #!rl's %lothes a"( she'e( the, to ,e. 3 4You are #ett!"# o" &ast*4 sa!( Sarah* 'he" I ha( se"t the #!rl out a#a!" &or so(a 'ater. 4I %a" see she l!2es your 2!ss!"#. I '!sh you'( ha( her* &or those #!rls !" the roo,s elo' are al'ays a out the sta!rs* a"( I th!"2 l!ste"!"#4 3?allu(!"# to a &a,!ly 'h!%h ha( ta2e" roo,s elo' hers@. 4I shall %o,pla!" to the la"(lor(* he al'ays o je%te( to lo(#ers '!th ,ore tha" o"e %h!l(.4 8e+t "!#ht I %oul( "ot #o there. Sarah ,et ,e !" the street. The s!l2 (ress the #!rl ha( spo2e" a out* ut "e/er a out the %o"(!t!o"s. 3 Sarah re,!"(e( her. 4He really (!( ,ea" he 'oul( #!/e !t ,e* (!("'t he74 4Yes* ut he 'as to loo2 at your %u"t.4 4I %a"'t 3 %a" I74 3!t %a,e to at last. 4You %a"* "o o(y '!ll 2"o'* I (o"'t see har,.4 4;ut 'oul( he #!/e ,e a (ress &or that74 $" hour a&ter'ar(s* 3 4;la%2 s!l2 !s"'t pretty !s !t* I a, !" la%2*4 3 4I 'ear la%2*4 sa!( Sarah* 4you "ee("'t* "o o"e here 2"o's you.4 The #!rl 'as alrea(y (e,oral!1e( 3 the %o"/ersat!o" hear(* the s!#hts see" 'oul( ha/e upset a"y /!r#!". The" "!#ht a"( (ay 'as a 'o,a" '!th all her harlot's %u""!"#* 'hett!"# the #!rl's appet!te &or se+ual pleasure* st!,ulat!"# her lust a"( /a"!ty* a"( sho'!"# her ho' she %oul( #et /oluptuous e"joy,e"ts a"( &!"e (ress to0#ether* '!thout 'or2 3 ,a"y 'o,e" l!2e (o!"# th!s to you"# o"es* I 2"o'. I sa' so,e pretty %heap s!l2s* a"( ou#ht a (ress* la%2 '!th l!ttle yello' (ots o" !t 3 I sa' S%ot%h ale stores 'r!tte" up* so ou#ht t'o !# ottles o& stro"# s'eet S%ot%h ale. >utt!"# all !"to a ha"( a#* at "!#ht I 'e"t there* tol( Sarah* 'ho a(/!se( try!"# the e&&e%t that "!#ht* that the (ress 'oul( (o !t. L!11!e ha( ee" so tal2e( to a out the &olly o& re&us!"# su%h a s!,ple th!"# as she'!"# her %u"t that the #!rl ha( lau#he( hersel& at last at her 'ea2"ess. Yet she ha( "ot sa!( she 'oul( %o"se"t. Sarah's eha/!our* I "ot!%e(* 'as so (!&&ere"t &ro, that to the t'o other #!rls she ha( #ot ,e. She hal& ull!e( those 3 th!s o"e she le( o"* so that she as2e( Sarah 'hat she shoul( (o< a"( Sarah* al'ays at &!rst tell!"# her to (o as she l!2e(* e"(e( y a(/!s!"# her to su ,!t.
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    I"stea( o& #!/!"# the #!rl the %ha"#e th!s "!#ht I put !t !"to ,y po%2et* a"( she loo2e( (!sappo!"te(. 3 Sarah le&t the roo, a"( I too2 L!11!e !" ,y ar,s as I sat o" a %ha!r. 3 4-o"'t* S!r* (oa"'t*4 sa!( she* ut "o' 5u!etly* a"( she too2 2!sses 2!"(ly. 3 4Ho' (o you l!2e your oots.4 4Oh /ery ,u%h.4 4Let ,e see the,* s!t o" ,y 2"ee.4 3 She (!(* I l!&te( at &!rst the %lothes a l!ttle* the" h!#her* the" up 'e"t ,y ha"( to her #arter. 348o (oa"'t* s!r.4 3 ;ut I pulle( her %loser to ,e* a"( push!"# the ha"( up o" to her "a2e( u,* hel( her 5u!te %lose to ,e y !t. 4Oh (oa"'t 3 oh M!ssus.4 4-o"'t ,a2e a "o!se* lo/e* let ,e &eel your (ear l!ttle u,* "o'. There* !t 'o"'t hurt a"( I'll #!/e hal& a %ro'". I 'o"'t ,o/e ,y ha"(* I 'o"'t try to &eel your %u"t.4 She 'r!##le(* ut I 2ept ,y ha"( o" her u, 3a s,ooth* &!r,* plu,p o"e. 4Here's the ,o"ey 3 ut you sha"'t ha/e !t !& you (o"'t sta"( st!ll.4 3 She 5u!ete(. 4You're /ery ru(e* S!r.4 My ha"( 2ept ro/!"# o/er the (el!%!ously s,ooth &lesh 3 I %oul( s%ar%ely pre/e"t ,ysel& &ro, sl!pp!"# !t rou"( to her ,otte* ut ha( #!/e" ,y 'or( so (!( "ot. 3 4Here's M!ssus %o,!"#* let ,e #o.4 4Let ,e see your s'eet l!ttle %u"t* there !s a (arl!"# 3 a"( I '!ll #!/e you a s!l2 (ress.4 4Oh "o* oh let ,e #o.4 Sarah 2ept out o& the roo,* 2"o'!"# that just the" I shoul( #et o" etter y ,ysel&. I tol( L!1 to %all her. 4She says she 'o"'t e lo"#* ut she ,ust (o so,e0th!"# to a (ress to "!#ht*4 sa!( the #!rl retur"!"#. The" I re,!"(e( her I ha( see" her le#s* ha( 2!sse( her %u"t* that she ha( see" ,y %o%2 3 I pulle( !t out a"( 'e"t up to her try!"# to ,a2e her &eel !t. Say!"#* 4I %a"'t ear th!s*4 she olte( to her ,!stress' roo,* I a&ter her. 4L!11!e's ee" &eel!"# ,y pr!%2*4 sa!( I. 4Oh* S!r 3 I a!"'t.4 Sarah lau#he(. 4)hy (!("'t you74 a"( %o,!"# to ,e a"( %at%h!"# hol( o& ,y tool* Sarah #a/e !t a sha2e. 4I l!2e the &eel o& !t* ut (o"'t &eel !t* !& you (o"'t l!2e. 3 -o%tor* %a"'t you #et #!rls e"ou#h to &eel your pr!%2.4 4Oh ple"ty* ut I lo"# to ha/e L!11!e's l!ttle ha"( rou"( !t.4 4I ha/e so,e S%ot%h ale &or L!1*4 sa!( Sarah. 4Is"'t !t 2!"( o& h!, to th!"2 o& you.4 3 The #!rl s,!le(* the ale 'as (el!%!ous* she l!2e( !t a"( soo" ha( (ru"2 a tu, ler &ull. )e all ha( so,e. $"other ottle 'as ope"e( 3 a"other tu, ler* the #!rl #ulpe( (o'" a th!r( #lass. 48o tha"2ee* S!r 3 !t's oop !" ,y hea(* a"( '!th ,oore I'll e ,opsy*4 3 "oth!"# !"(u%e( her. 4Oh"o* I', #ett!"# 'usser.4 The ale ha( (o"e ,u%h* ha( ,a(e her lau#h a"( e+%!ta le* ut ho' &ar !t a%te( o" her %u"t a"( lust* I (o"'t 2"o'. $&ter 2!ss!"#* p!"%h!"# her u,* a"( loo2!"# at her #arters 'h!%h she "o' allo'e(* Sarah '!"2!"#* rou#ht !" the la,p* l!#hte( t'o %a"(les* a"( the"* 4I ha/e a s!l2 (ress &or you.4 Her ha"(s a"( ar,s &le' out as she sa!(* 48o* oh*4 a"( 'he" I pro(u%e( !t she %lappe( her ha"(s a"( (a"%e( '!th joy. 3 4For ,e 3 &or ,e7 Hoh.4

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    4Yes* !& you let ,e &eel a"( see your %u"t.4 Her &a%e &ell* loo2!"# at the s!l2 all the 'h!le. 4I tol( you the (o%tor al'ays (!( 'hat he sa!( 3 (o"'t %ry* you "ee("'t !& you (o"'t l!2e*4 sa!( Sarah. The #!rl '!th eyes &!+e( o" the s!l2* ru e( a (!rty r!, rou"( her eyes !"to 'h!%h tears %a,e. 4I '!sh you 'oul( #!/e ,e the s!l2* you ,!#ht loo2 at ,y %u"t* a"( &u%2 !t &or a ,o"th.4 4Let's loo2 at yours the".4 3 Sarah &lu"# hersel& a%2 o" the e(* pulle( up her %lothes* a"( ope"e( '!(e her th!#hs. 3 The #!rl lau#he( "o' at that e+h! !t!o"* she'( ee" sho%2e( three "!#hts e&ore. 4That's 'hat I 'a"t you to (o* ,y l!ttle (arl!"#* !& you 'o"'t* I'll #!/e the s!l2 to so,e o"e else.4 3 I e#a" to &ol( !t up* !t ha( ee" sprea( o/er the e(* a"( the" to put !t !"to ,y a#. 4-o"'t ta2e !t a'ay*4 sa!( Sarah. 4L!1 'oul( loo2 eaut!&ul !" !t 3 perhaps she'll let you. 3 -o"'t you lose !t.4 $"( she 'e"t %lose to the #!rl* 'ho ,a(e a" !,pat!e"t #esture ut "e/er spo2e. She 'h!spere( so,eth!"# to her 3 ut the #!rl st!ll stoo( ,ute* re&le%t!"#. 4-o%tor 3 #o a"( ha/e a s,o2e* ut lea/e !t here 3 !t !s so eaut!&ul 3 I a, sure she 'o"'t lose su%h a %ha"%e* !t ,ust e 'orth &!/e pou"(s.4 4It's 'orth ,ore* ut I ,ust #o soo"4 3 a"( I 'e"t !"to the s!tt!"# roo, a"( l!#hte( a %!#ar. ;ut soo" Sarah %alle( ,e* she ha( persua(e( her* ha( ,a(e her 'ash her %u"t* a"( put o" a %lea" %he,!se. 4She '!ll let you*4 sa!( she. The #!rl 'as sta"(!"# '!th her a%2 to the e( 3the %a"(les a"( la,p 'ere o" the 'ash0 ha"( sta"( &ro"t!"# her* her eyes 'ere (o'"%ast. I put ,y ha"( up her %lothes* a"( &elt the sl!#htest 5ua"t!ty o& ha!r o" her ,otte. 4L!e a%2* (arl!"#* ope" your le#s.4 I l!&te( her up a"( pushe( her a%2'ar(s o" the e(. 3 4Oh (o"'t 3 I 'o"'t !& you #o* au"t 3 stay '!th ,e*4 sa!( the #!rl to Sarah 'ho 'as lea/!"# the roo,. Sarah sat y the s!(e o& her o" the e(. 4Lay (o'" the" 3 there 3so 3 there.4 3 The #!rl &ell a%2 a#a!" u"res!st!"#. I thre' up her %he,!se* pulle( '!(e apart her th!#hs. Sarah ha( u"(resse(* pla%e( o"e ar, o/er her* lay!"# y her s!(e o" the e( !" her %he,!se* e+hort!"# her. 4Let h!,. 3 Ho' I '!sh I 'as #o!"# to ha/e that (ress.4 )!"%!"# ut y!el(!"# the #!rl lay 5u!et 3 I pushe( up o"e th!#h a"( hel( !t so. Cu"t* elly* a"( u, %a,e 'ell !"to /!e'. 3 My l!ps 2!sse( e/ery part. Rapturously ,y &!"#ers (!ste"(e( the l!ttle re( (!/!s!o" t!ll !t loo2e( al,ost as roa( as !t 'as lo"# 3 I 2"elt hol(!"# the %a"(le. $#a!" a"( a#a!" I ope"e( a"( let the l!ps %lose* !" su%h a state o& /oluptuous e+%!te,e"t that I %oul( s%ar%ely el!e/e ,y eyes. There 'as a" u",!sta2a le /!r#!"!ty* set !" as pretty a plu,p* s,ooth* &ra,e o& &leshy 'h!te a"( p!"2 a"( !"(!%at!o"s o& a %o,!"# &r!"#e as e/er ,a" set eyes o". I ,o/e( a'ay a &e' &eet putt!"# (o'" the %a"(le. 4Has he (o"e*4 sa!( she. 3 4;e 5u!et*4 sa!( Sarah* 'ho '!"2e( a"( "o((e( at ,e. 3 I 'e"t as I o&te" (o
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    at su%h s!#hts a%2'ar(s a"( &or'ar(s 3 "o' see!"# !t "ear* "o' &ro, a&ar* u"t!l I thou#ht I'( ra/!sh her. Sarah #uesse( ,y !"te"t!o"s* ,y eye ,ea"t ,!s%h!e&* a"( shoo2 her hea(. She 'as &r!#hte"e( o& a "o!se a"( the &a,!ly elo'. 4Those #!rls are there*4 sa!( she hurr!e(ly a"( a"+!ously. So I (roppe( o" ,y 2"ees* a#a!" stret%he( ope" the l!ttle l!ps* 2!ss!"# a"( !"hal!"# the aro,a o& the pretty %oral or!&!%e. The" %o/er!"# !t '!th ,y ,outh I e#a" #a,ahu%h!"#. She ha( la!( 5u!te 5u!et a"( perhaps le'e(ly #rat!&!e(* l!ste"!"# to ,y pra!ses a"( e+%la,at!o"s o& (e0l!#ht 'he" pull!"# her l!ttle %u"t a out* ut as ,y to"#ue t!t!llate( !t 34Oh: 'hat's he a(o!"' o&.4 3 She ,o/e(. 4L!e st!ll* he's "ot hurt!"# you*4 sa!( Sarah* putt!"# her ar, %loser o/er her* a"( 2eep!"# o"e le# apart &ro, the other. 4Oh* he's al!%2!"' !t 3 (oa"'t 3 !t's (!rty 3 OHO 3 ahar.4 4It '!ll soo" e "!%e* L!1 3 lay 5u!et (ear*4 sa!( Sarah. 3 L!11!e's last 4$ha4 ha( the s!#h o& pleasure ,!"#l!"# '!th !t. 8o' she la!( tra"5u!l 'h!lst !" l! !(!"ous (el!#ht ,y to"#ue ro/e( rap!(ly o/er the lo/ely l!ttle spl!t. 3 Ca" I ,a2e her spe"(7 O"e %u"t 'as "ot e"ou#h. )h!lst '!th ,y hea( et'ee" the you"# th!#hs* I %oul( just see Sarah's th!#hs a"( (ar2 ha!re( ,otte ?&or she ha( l!&te( her %he,!se@ a"( that her ,!((le &!"#er 'as et'ee" the,. I" a" !"sta"t* pass!"# ,y le&t ha"( o/er L!11!e's r!#ht le# 'h!%h Sarah hel(* I ur!e( ,y &!"#ers !" Sarah's %u"t* a"( 'e"t o" #a,ahu%h!"# L!11!e. Sarah 'as &r!##!"# hersel& #e"tly* the spe%ta%le ha( rouse( her lust. The pass!o" ra" !ts %ourse a"( ,a((e"!"# lust&ul '!shes %hase( ea%h other throu#h ,y ra!". 3 I stro/e to &ollo' ea%h erot!% !"sp!rat!o". To #a,ahu%he L!1. 3 Fr!# Sarah. 3 Fu%2 L!1 3Fr!# ,ysel&. 3 Fu%2 Sarah 3 Su%2 her %u"t. Ea%h (es!re %a,e !" !ts tur" 3 I 'a"te( to (o the, all at o"%e0 ut ea%h e&ore I %oul( #rat!&y !t 'as %hase( a'ay y a"other. 3 O" I 'e"t l!%2!"# L!1* hol(!"# her u, a"( le&t th!#h '!th ,y r!#ht ha"(* ,y le&t ha"( &!"#ers "o' ur!e( (eep up Sarah's %u"t. L!1 s!#he(* her a%2s!(e sl!#htly ,o/e(. She '!ll spe"(* the l!ttle (arl!"#. O" I su%2e( a"( l!%2e( a"( su%2e( 3 I #ot up to &r!# ,ysel&* &ell o" ,y 2"ees a#a!"* &as%!"ate( '!th the loo2 o& the t'o %u"ts a"( #a,ahu%he( o"* a"( &elt Sarah's %u"t. 3 $ll 'as s!le"t. The sou"( o& ,y to"#ue slopp!"# a"( sl!pp!"# o/er L!1's %u"t alo"e 'as au(! le. The l!ttle (arl!"#'s u, ,o/e( restlessly* the" l!2e l!#ht"!"# ,y to"#ue ,o/e( o/er her %l!tor!s. $ t'!st o& her th!#hs* a sl!#ht sh!/er o& elly* a sl!#ht hea/e up o& a%2s!(e* so&t* al0,ost !"au(! le ,ur,urs o& pleasure tol( ,e her pleasure 'as %o,!"#. Sarah* sl!#htly r!s!"# a"( loo2!"# at ,e* sa!(* 4She's spe"(!"#.4 4$har 3 o* har 3 "o* arhar*4 ,ur,ure( L!1 al,ost !"au(! ly* her elly sh!/ere(* her le&t th!#h %lose( #e"tly o" ,e &or a" !"sta"t. 4$ha 3 ahar4 3 a &lush o& salt ,o!sture ,et ,y to"#ue. The s'eet l!ttle lass ha( spe"t. I rose up !"sta"tly. She lay '!th eyes %lose(* o"e le# "o' ha"#!"# (o'"* the other hel( y Sarah 3 the pretty %u"t 'as %o/ere( '!th ,o!sture a"( sl!#htly ope"* sho'!"# the %oral #ash. My pr!%2 'as urst!"#. 3 Ope"!"# the l!ps ,ore '!th ,y le&t ha"(* '!th ,y r!#ht I &r!##e( ,ysel&* the t!p al,ost
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    tou%h!"# her %u"t. There lay Sarah &r!##!"# hersel& a"( star!"# at ,e. 3 4Hol( ope" her %u"t.4 3 Sarah put her &!"#ers o" L!11!e's %u"t l!ps* &r!##!"# hersel& at the sa,e t!,e. 3 The" 5u!%2ly out #ushe( ,y sper, o" to L!11!e's /ul/a. The opa5ue ,asses* a"( the th!""!sh tra"spare"t #u, %o/ere( !t a"( Sarah's &!"#ers as 'ell< a"( I (roppe( o" a %ha!r %lose at ha"(* a"( loo2e( at the lus%!ous p!%0 ture e&ore ,e* st!ll t'!((l!"# ,y pr!%2 #e"tly a"( /oluptuously* r!"#!"# out the last (rops o& sper, &ro, !t. )h!lst so* Sarah's &!"#ers ha( %o/ere( L!11!e's %u"t* oth o& 'hose le#s "o' hu"# (o'". 3 She &r!##e( the #!rl '!th her le&t ha"( a"( her o'" %u"t '!th her r!#ht ha"(. 3 4$har 3 ,y 9o( 3 spu"2 3 spu"2*4 she %r!e( as her th!#hs &or a ,o,e"t 5u!/ere( a l!ttle* a"( the" (roppe( (o'" l!&elessly. 3 )e t'o ha( &r!##e( oursel/es. L!11!e ha( spe"t u"(er ,y #a,ahu%h!"#. 3 $ll 'ere /oluptuously sat!s&!e( a"( tra"5u!l* s!le"t as the #ra/e. L!1 ha( spe"t 3 ,y spu"2 ha( jette( o" to her l!ttle /ul/a 3 Sarah ha( &!"!she( her &r!# 3 all ha( spe"t "early s!,ulta"eously. 8o' all three 'ere !" /oluptuous repose. Mot!o"less* e+%ept!"# Sarah's &!"#ers 'h!%h st!ll playe( #e"tly o" L!11!e's %u"t* oth the 'o,e"'s eyes 'ere %lose(* oth the!r le#s ha"#!"# (o'"* s!(e y s!(e. $s I %o"te,plate( the, ly!"# there* th!#hs a"( ell!es "a2e(* %u"ts sho'!"#* a /!ole"t let%h &or Sarah su((e"ly spra"# up 3 I rose. 4I'll &u%2 you* Sarah.4 48o*4 sa!( she ope"!"# her eyes. ;ut I presse( ,y elly a#a!"st hers* ho!ste( up her th!#hs* a"( ru e( ,y hal& l!,p tool a#a!"st her %u"t. 48o* "o*4 sa!( she ha"#!"#. 3 ;ut ,y pr!%2 ha( r!se" so,e'hat* st!,ulate( y the las%!/!ous &rol!%s 3 I lu"#e( !t 3 !t s'elle( 3 !t st!&&e"e( 3 a"( e&ore !t ha( 5u!te r!se"* I h!t the ,ar2* s5uee1e( !t !"* a"( ur!e( !t to !ts roots !" her %u"t. 3 48o* "o* "ot e&ore the #!rl*4 sa!( she. I sup0pose !t 'as a sha,* ut I'( #ot her t!#ht* her th!#hs h!#h up* ,y pr!%2 st!&& !" her. 4Oh au"t*4 sa!( L!1 #ett!"# o&& the e( a"( sta"(!"#* her eyes &!+e( o" Sarah's elly. Sarah sa!( "o ,ore ut a a"(o"e( her0 sel& to ,e. 3 $h: lo"# lo"# har( stro2es I #a/e* ut 2eep!"# t!#ht hol( o& her* Sarah's %u"t soo" heate( y ,y thrusts helpe( ,e* a"( !" e%stat!% pleasure 'e &!"!she( our &u%2* L!11!e s!le"t a"( loo2!"# o". $" u"e+pe%te( (el!%!ously /oluptuous ter,!"at!o". )hat a" u"pre,e(!tate(* su((e" let%h* ho' ,a"y o& ,y le'e( (el!#hts ha/e spru"# su((e"ly upo" ,e 3 a"( 'hat %o,plete se"suous #rat!&!%at!o" su%h su((e" let%hes #!/es ,e.

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    Chapter VII 4The (ress !s ,!"e.4 Ho' to #et !t ,a(e up. Sarah's a(/!%e. Sarah's #ree(. Cha"#e '!thhel(. The #!rl's (!sappo!"t,e"t. Sh!ll!"# se(u%t!o"s. $ ,a2er pro,!se(. Co"(!t!o"s o& pay,e"t. $ stra"#e %u"t !" the (ar2. Fu"2!"# a"( olt!"#. $ ro2e" ottle. )ho 'as she7 Sarah's (e/!%e. Three !" a e(. $" assault res!ste(. ;et'ee" th!#hs. V!r#!"!ty rupture(. ;au(y lasphe,y. $ sore %u"t. Sa"#u!"ary proo&s. Se%o"( e"try a"( &!rst pleasure. Three hours' &el!%!ty. O" the (e/!"e "ature o& hu,a" #e"!tals. The sa"%t!ty o& %opulat!o". >hall!% statues. )!s(o,* 'orsh!p* a"( re/ere"%e. I lea/e ,y sh!rt. $s ,y (r!pp!"# (oo(le le&t her %u"t* Sarah rose. The s!l2 'as o" the p!llo'. L!11!e tur"e( her hea(. 3 4The s!l2 !s yours*4 sa!( I. She s%ra, le( up a"( too2 !t !" her ar,s. 4It's ,!"e !s"'t !t7 3 ho' eaut!&ul. Oh ho' so&t.4 She put !t (o'" su((e"ly. 4Ho : he's hurt ,e 3 he ha( (o"e so,eth!"# to ,e.4 Fear o" her &a%e a"( loo2!"# at Sarah. 3 4I', 'et* I', lee(!"#. 3 Ohoo.4 Tur"!"# her a%2 she put her ha"( up her %he,!se a"( &elt her %u"t. 3 Sarah lau#he(* pulle( up L!11!e's %he,!se a"( loo2e(. 4It's "oth!"# ut h!s l!%2!"# you* a"( h!s spu"2 3 I tol( you 'hat %a,e out &ro, ,e"'s pr!%2s 3 'ash !t 3 "e/er ,!"( the (o%tor* you 'o"'t ,!"( h!, "o'.4 -o'" the #!rl sat a"( 'ashe( her 5u!,. There are "ot ,a"y /!r#!"s ha/e ha( a ,a"'s sper, o" the!r %u"ts* '!thout ha/!"# ha( a pr!%2 !"s!(e !t* ut she ha(. 3 4It's ,a(e ,e 'a"t a"other po2e*4 sa!( Sarah. The #!rl stoo( loo2!"# at the s!l2* ope"e( !t* &ol(e( !t up* put her l!ps to !t* &or#ot her %u"t* a"( too2 "o "ot!%e o& a"y o"e. The" she pulle( a p!e%e !" &ro"t o& her* tur"e( rou"(* a"( loo2!"# at Sarah* sa!( as !& the !(ea ha( o"ly just stru%2 her* 4;ut ho' a, I to #et !t ,a(e up74 4I'll pay &or !t !& you let ,e &u%2 you*4 I repl!e(. She tur"e( her a%2 to ,e a"( sa!( to Sarah* 4Ca"'t you %ut !t out74 48o.4 S!le"tly the #!rl a#a!" a"( re&le%t!"#ly stoo( loo2!"# at the s!l2. 4It's ,!"e* a!"'t !t74 sa!( she at le"#th. 4O& %ourse.4 4I'll put !t !" ,y o+ ,ay I74 4O& %ourse.4 4It's eaut!&ul* I %a" ,a2e !t up !& you %ut !t out.4 4I %a"'t %ut out ,y o'".4 4)hat a, I to (o*4 sa!( L!11!e* loo2!"# 5u!te (!s,aye(. 49et ,ore ,o"ey* the" ha/e a (ress,a2er.4 4I ha/e o"ly #ot e!#ht sh!ll!"#s.4 3 The" the #!rl tur"e( a#a!" a"( loo2e( at the (ress 3 she ha( "e/er loo2e( at ,e* so a sor e( 'as she !" her a%5u!s!t!o". 9!/!"# a s!#h as she 'rappe( !t up !" paper* she pulle( a s,all o+ &ro, u"(er the e( 3 too2 a 2ey &ro, her po%2et 3 u"lo%2e( !t* put the s!l2 !"* lo%2e( !t a#a!"* tur"e( rou"(* loo2e( &!rst at ,e a"( the" at Sarah o/er a"( o/er a#a!". 4It a!"'t "o use t!ll !t's ,a(e4 3 a"( '!th a s!#h 'e"t !"to the s!tt!"# roo,. My pr!%2 'as st!ll ha"#!"# out as she passe( ,e. Sarah %lose( the (oor a"( lau#he(. 4She '!ll let you ha/e her* !& she %a"'t #et ,o"ey to ,a2e that (ress up 3 !t 'o"'t e lo"# &!rst.4
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    I 'as '!l( '!th (es!re* &or her %u"t al,ost l!pless* a"( o& l!#ht p!"2 t!"t* et'ee" her 'h!te th!#hs* a"( '!th ut a susp!%!o" o& ha!r o" the ,otte* ha( ,a(e ,e le'e( eyo"( all (es%r!pt!o" 3 I 'a"te( to #et !"to her at o"%e. Sarah sa!( I ,!#ht try. 4;ut !t '!ll e useless* a"( you'/e spe"t t'!%e 3 'a!t a (ay* she'll e '!l( to #et !t ,a(e up* a"( !& she %a"'t she '!ll let you &u%2 her 3 ut I a, &r!#hte"e( o& those (a,"e( #!rls o" the sat!rs.4 The" Sarah e##e( ,e to let her ha/e &!/e pou"(s* she 'as so har( up 3 I let her ha/e !t. I ha( ,a(e her prese"ts e/ery "!#ht &or ,y e"terta!",e"t* so she 'as ,a2!"# ,o"ey 3 I 'as sure there 'as so,eth!"# 'ro"# et'ee" her a"( her ,a" 3 or so,e o"e. I" the parlour the #!rl 'as s!tt!"# th!"2!"#. )e ha( ,ore ale 3 I se"t her out &or so(a 'ater. The" 'e tal2e( a out her. 3 4So,e ,e" !& they ha( su%h a %ha"%e 'oul( #!/e &!&ty pou"(s*4 sa!( Sarah. 4You (o"'t 2"o' a"y o"e 'ho 'oul( or you 'oul("'t ha/e #ot her &or ,e. 3 She'll %ost ,e a #oo( (eal yet e&ore I #et !"to her.4 4You '!ll ha/e her soo"* (o"'t #!/e her the %ha"#e "e+t t!,e.4 L!11!e rou#ht the so(a 'ater* a"( her &a%e #re' (ull as I put the %ha"#e !"to ,y po%2et. U"o ser/e( she le&t the roo, 3 Sarah "ot!%e( !t. 4I'll et she !s at the s!l2.4 She 'e"t thro the passa#e !"to the e(roo,* a"( %a,e a%2. 4Co,e so&tly.4 9o!"# to the (oor I sa' the #!rl loo2!"# at the s!l2* 'h!%h she ha( sprea( out o" the e(* !" s!le"t a(,!rat!o" o& !t* a"( soo" she %a,e a%2 to the s!tt!"# roo, loo2!"# 5u!te #lu,. I toye( '!th her* pro,!se( a sh!ll!"# to she' ,e her #arters. 3 She let ,e a"( too2 the sh!ll!"#. 3 I'( #!/e her a"other sh!ll!"# to &eel her u,. 48o* I 'o"'t.4 ;ut ,y ha"( 'as o" !t al,ost e&ore she'( re&use( 3 a"( lett!"# !t rest there* she #ra e( the se%o"( sh!ll0 !"#. 4$"other just to &eel that l!ttle %u"t I ha/e l!%2e( to "!#ht.4 4Oh "o.4 The le#s %lose* the u, #oes a%2* ut I &eel !t. 3 4Oh "o "o'* Surr.4 Her res!sta"%e %eases* ,y ha"( ro/es o/er the s,ooth elly* s%rat%hes !" the ,oss* ru s the top o& her spl!t* a"( a sh!ll!"# (oes !t 3 ,o"ey* o,"!pote"t ,o"ey: It 'as ut &!/e (ays s!"%e I sa' her &!rst. Ha( she a"y %lear !(ea that I ha( &r!##e( out ,y spu"2 o" to her %u"t7 ?I 2"e' later o" that she ha("'t.@ Mo(esty 'as #o!"# 3 le'e( "ot!o"s ha( %o,e 3 pr!(e o& (ress spru"# up 3 a"( 'he" I sa!(* 4I& you'll let ,e &u%2 you I'll ,a2e your (ress up* a"( #!/e you a o""et a"( parasol*4 I ha( sa!( e"ou#h to 2eep her a'a2e t!ll she sa' ,e a#a!". 3 Sarah tol( her a#a!" that "!#ht that the pleasure o& a pr!%2 up her %u"t 'as #reater tha" she'( ha( 'he" I l!%2e( !t. It's the ol( ol( story* the ol( ol( 'ay. 8e+t "!#ht ta2!"# ale '!th ,e I ra"# the se%o"( &loor ell as I thou#ht* &or the (oor 'as %lose(* ut !" error ra"# that o& the &!rst or th!r( &loor. The (oor ope"e(* a short &e,ale stoo( !" the (ar2. >utt!"# (o'" the a# as she shut the (oor* I put o"e ha"( up her %lothes a"( pu&&!"# her to ,e 2!sse( her. $s ,y
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    l!ps ,et hers* ,y ha"( tou%he( a 'ell ha!re( %u"t. It 'as all (o"e !" hal& a se%o"(. The #!rl or 'o,a"* 'h!%h e/er !t 'as* s%rea,e( lou(ly a"( ra" to the sta!rs< I s"at%he( up ,y a# a"( ope"!"# the (oor olte( 3 'h!lst she* as I a&ter'ar(s hear(* ra" up the sta!rs yell!"#. It 'as a p!t%h (ar2 "!#ht a"( she'( "o %a"(le lu%2!ly* ut that %lass "e/er #o to the (oor '!th a %a"(le. The !"sta"t I &elt the ha!r o& the %u"t* I 2"e' !t 'as a ,!sta2e a"( "ot L!11!e. I (!( "ot #o a%2 that "!#ht* a"( 'o"(ere( 'hat ha( ee" the result o& ,y assault. I (roppe( a l!"e to Sarah* 'ho ,et ,e out "e+t "!#ht /ery late* as I 'e"t ho,e &ro, a (!""er< a"( tol( her 'hat ha( happe"e(. She ha( hear( a 'o,a" hollo' ut that 'as all she 2"e'. She thou#ht !t 'as a lo(#er 5uarrell!"#* a"( a&ter'ar(s that !t 'as o"e o& the #!rls o& the &a,!ly she so ,u%h o je%te( to. 3 )e tal2e( o/er the!r a#es* a"( %a,e to the %o"%lus!o" that "o"e o& the, ha( %u"ts &le(#e( l!2e the o"e I ha( &elt. She %alle( out 4Mother*4 I ha( thou#ht. I 2"o%2e( ,y a# har( a#a!"st the (oor as I ra" o&&* a"( ro2e a ottle o& ale 3 Sarah ha( 'o"(ere( at ,y "ot arr!/!"#. Th!s a&&a!r ,a(e us u"%o,&orta le* a"( Sarah a"+!ous &or ,e to &!"!sh. The #!rl 'as '!l( a out the (ress. Sarah sa!( that the est th!"# 'as to #et !"to e( '!th her. They'( oth #o to e( early "e+t "!#ht. She 'as to #et up a"( let ,e !" !& the street (oor 'as shut* a"( #o to e( a#a!" 3 I 'as the" to #et !"to e( '!th the,. The street (oor 'as ope"* a"( a&ter 'a!t!"# a ,!"ute !" the passa#e* !" &ear lest the other &e,ale shoul( appear* I 'e"t up a"( 2"o%2e( at Sarah's (oor. 4)ho's that74 4It's I4 3 Sarah ope"e( !t. 4)ho'( ha/e thou#ht o& see!"# you* 'e are oth !" e(.4 She re0treate( to the e( roo, a"( #ot !"to e( a#a!"* L!11!e 'as !" e( y her s!(e. 4)ho'( ha/e e+pe%te( you to e !" e( at th!s t!,e. 3 I'll #et !"to e( '!th you.4 4There !s lots o& roo,*4 sa!( she* a"( !t really 'as a /ery lar#e e(. 4)hat ha/e you #ot !" the a#74 4$le* ut you %a"'t (r!"2 ale.4 4I %a".4 4I 'as #o!"# to se"( &or '!"e.4 4I %a" #o*4 sa!( the #!rl. She sa'* I &a"%y* the %ha"#e !" her po%2et. 3 4It's o& "o use ,a2!"# you #et up* so 'e '!ll (r!"2 ale* #o a"( #et the %or2s%re'.4 The #!rl hes!tate(. 49o 3 your "!#ht #o'" !s %lea"*4 sa!( Sarah. She &et%he( !t* lea/!"# us !" the (ar2 &or the ,o,e"t. 49et !"to e( a"( (o her 3 !& she 'o"'t let you* I'll hol( her 3 (o"'t #!/e her a ,!"ute to th!"2 a out !t. 3 )e'/e ee" tal2!"# a out &u%2!"# the last hour* a"( she '!ll (o a"yth!"# to #et the (ress ,a(e up*4 sa!( Sarah hurr!e(ly. The #!rl rou#ht the %or2s%re'* a"( really loo2e( lo/ely !" her "!#ht (ress. 3 4Co,e to e(*4 sa!( Sarah. 4>!((le e&ore you #et !"* L!1*4 sa!( I. 4She's just p!((le(.4 4-o you (ry your %u"t a&ter p!((l!"#.4 4Oho*4 sa!( L!1 as she #ot !"to e(. I too2 a %ha!r to the e(0s!(e* ope"e( the ottle* a"( they oth ha( ale 'h!lst 'e tal2e( au(!"ess. 4Ha/e you #ot your (ress ,a(e74 48o s!r* !t '!ll %ost su%h a lot.4 4I'll pay &or !t* a"( #!/e you a "e' o""et a"( parasol as 'ell* !& you let ,e.4 Her &a%e 'as a stu(y. She loo2e( partly e'!l(ere(* partly (el!#hte(. The" her &a%e #re' la"2* a"( she la!( (o'" s!le"tly.
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    4Let ,e see your %u"t a#a!" a"( I'll #!/e you hal& a %ro'".4 I ha( ,a(e up ,y ,!"( "o' to (o her* ut !t susp!%!ously o%%urre( to ,e that s!"%e I ha( see" her 5u!, she ,!#ht ha/e ee" &u%2e( y so,e o"e 3her /!r#!"!ty sol( to so,e o"e else y Sarah 3 4I 'o"'t.4 4You l!ttle &ool*4 sa!( Sarah* 4'he" he has see" !t a"( l!%2e( !t. 3 You (o"'t 'a"t your (ress I suppose.4 3 The #!rl 'ho 'as ly!"# o" her a%2 tur"e( to Sarah. 4I (o"'t l!2e lett!"# h!,.4 4Let h!,* he's alrea(y see" !t*4 a"( she pulle( (o'" the e( %lothes. There 'as her pretty rou"( 'h!te ru,p to'ar(s ,e 3 Sarah #a/e her a #e"tle push a"( she lay o" her a%2* a"( her "!#ht %lothes Sarah pulle( up. 4Loo2* -o%tor.4 The #!rl (!( "ot res!st or spea2. I se!1e( the %a"(le* Sarah pulle( ope" the #!rl's th!#hs* a"( I ope"e( the (el!%ate l!ttle spl!t* a"( sa' that !t loo2e( just as !t ha( e&ore* ut her pos!t!o" 'as "ot &a/oura le &or !"spe%t!o". I 2!sse( !t rapturously a"( tol( her ho' I lo/e( her. I l!%2e( her l!ttle %l!tor!s '!th (!&&!%ulty* she ro2e a'ay* a"( !" (o!"# so* 2"o%2e( the %a"(le out o& ,y ha"( a"( 'e 'ere !" (ar2"ess 3 Sarah s'ore* #ot out* l!#hte( the %a"(le* a"( #ot !"to e( a#a!". 4)hat are you #o!"# to (o* -o%tor74 49o!"# to e(.4 4)hat a lar2. It '!ll e a %lose &!t.4 4I ,ea" to sleep here.4 Rap!(ly u"(ress!"# a"( "a2e(* I #ot !" to e( "e+t to L!1* a"( !" the t'!"2l!"# o& a" eye 'as %u((l!"# her. Oh* the (el!#ht o& that (el!%ate l!ttle "a2e( &or, tou%h!"# ,y &lesh e/ery'here. 49o a'ay "o' 3 you sha"'t*4 she sa!( as I s5uee1e( up to her. ;ut her e&&orts 'ere useless. I ha( l!&te( her s,o%2* a"( her "a2e( o(y 'as a#a!"st ,!"e e/ery 'here. She #ot %loser to Sarah. 3 That o"ly ,a(e ,ore roo, &or ,e. Her u, 'as a#a!"st ,y elly* ,y pr!%2 a#a!"st her u, /alley. )hat a (el!%!ous pos!t!o". 3 My ha"( rea%h!"# o/er her hau"%h &elt her l!ttle "!%2. She restless a"( (e"y!"# ,e* Sarah a(/!s!"#* 4Let h!,* 3 (o"'t e a &ool.4 I %oul( "ot #et at her 'ell* so (re' a%2 a"( &or%e( ,y ha"( u"(er her u, a"( et'ee" her th!#hs. 3 4Oh: he's a hurt!"# ,e. Oh 3 (o 3 "ot* 3 (o"'t let h!,* M!ssus 3 (o"'t.4 3 My ha"( the" 'e"t to her &ro"t* the" a#a!" to her a%2* a"( the" ro/e( all o/er her &ro, "e%2 to 2"ees. Closer a"( %loser she #ot to Sarah 3 I la!( hol( o& her l!ttle ha"(* a"( pull!"# !t a%2 o" to ,y pr!%2* 2ept !t there. Sarah spo2e a out &u%2!"#. The #!rl "o' lay s!le"t 3 her ha"( 'as &!r,ly hel( y ,!"e arou"( ,y pr!%2* she "o' u"%o"s%!ous to all ut se+ual 'a"ts I e+pe%t. 8o 'o"(er. Her %l!tor!s ha( ee" 'ell pre/!ously ru e( y Sarah* S%ot%h ale a"( le'e( tal2 ha( 'ar,e( her. She 'as !" a ,oo( 'h!%h Sarah 2"e' etter tha" I* 'ho o"ly 2"e' ,y o'" 'a"t* ut &elt y !"st!"%t that she 'oul( res!st "o lo"#er. 3 The" Sarah sat up. 4You t'o are etter '!thout ,e 3 you '!ll e lo/e0,a2!"# !" a ,!"ute a"( &u%2!"#.4 So say!"# she steppe( o/er us a"( 5u!tte( the roo,. 4-o"'t #o*4 %r!e( the #!rl %lut%h!"# at Sarah's %he,!se. I thre' ,y ha"( rou"( her 3 ,y le# o/er her 3 ,y o(y &ollo'!"# presse( her a%2* a"( e&ore Sarah ha( 'ell le&t the roo,* she 'as o" her a%2 a"( I o" her elly.
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    I 'as so le'e( y a st!"e"%e* so &ull o& sper,* 'h!%h 'as al,ost o!l!"# !" ,y allo%2s that I &eare( I shoul( spe"( e&ore I ha( her 3 Sarah tol( ,e all a&ter'ar(s &or she l!ste"e(. 3 I 'as o" the #!rl's elly* her le#s 'ere %lose(* ,!"e outs!(e. 4Ope" your le#s (ear 3 let ,e put ,y pr!%2 !" 3 'he" you 2"o' 'hat pleasure &u%2!"# !s* you'll 'a"t !t "!#ht a"( (ay.4 3 I pro,!se( (resses* theatres* e/e" to 2eep her* a"( e/eryth!"# else* ut she 2ept her le#s %lose(. It !s (ou t&ul !& she re%olle%te( 'hat I sa!(* &or she "e/er tol( ,e o& ,a"y pro,!ses a&ter'ar(s. She 'as "o' u"(er the spell o& the pr!%2 3 le'e("ess a"( %ur!os!ty 'ell &!lle( her* she 'a"te( the pr!%2 ut &eare( !t* a"( 'he" she (!("'t th!"2 o& that* she thou#ht o"ly o& her "e' (ress ,a(e up. )hat ,!+e( se"sat!o"s. The stro"#est 'o,a" %a""ot 2eep her le#s %lose( a#a!"st the ,a"'s 2"ees 'he" he !s 'ell o" top o& her a"( h!s ar,s rou"( her. H!s le#s are sure to ope" hers. 3 )!th o"e 2"ee I &or%e( her le#s apart* the other 2"ee &ollo'e(* a"( I 'as et'ee" hers. 4Oh 3 (o"'t you4 3 ,y pr!%2 'e"t et'ee" her th!#hs as ,y elly %lose( o" hers a"( stru%2 l!"(ly a"y'here outs!(e her %u"t. It 'as a hea/e"ly ,o,e"t 'he" I thou#ht that ,y pr!%2 'oul( #o 'here "e/er pr!%2 ha( #o"e yet. >ress!"# hea/!ly o" her* I &elt &or the sl!t a"( lo(#e( the top o& ,y pr!%2 there 3 Ra, 3 Ra, 3 Ra,. 3 4Oho #et o&&.4 I 'as %o,!"#* a"( thou#ht I %oul( "ot e o" the r!#ht l!"e* so put (o'" ,y ha"( a"( push!"# !t rutally o" to her %u"t hurt her* a"( she %r!e( alou(. 3 Sarah outs!(e at the roo, (oor %alle( out* 4-o"'t ,a2e that ro'.4 My pr!%2 'as "o' 'ell lo(#e( !" the ,!((le* a"( '!th all the &or%e a"( 'e!#ht o& ,y th!#hs* arse* a"( elly* I thrust< a"( as I 'as tol( y Sarah &or I (o"'t re%olle%t !t* lasphe,!"# l!2e a trooper. 4Cu"t 3 allo%2s 3 spu"2 3&u%2 you 3 % 3 % 3 %u"t.4 I ha( (o"e !t a"( spe"t as soo" as ,y pr!%2 e"tere(. She ,oa"e( as ,y hot pr!%2 #ot r!#ht up her. Co,!"# to ,ysel&* there stoo( Sarah !" her %he,!se 'at%h!"# us. 3 She ha( %o,e !" 'he" the #!rl %r!e( out* a"( sa' a"( hear( the %o"su,,at!o". It !s a hea/e"ly se"sat!o" to re%o/er &ro, the pleasure* a"( assure yoursel& o& the jour"ey you ha/e ,a(e up a &resh #!rl 3 I see,e( to a'a2e !" Elys!u,. 3 4-o you l!2e !t74 3 I hear( a rattle. It 'as Sarah p!((l!"#. Beep!"# the #!rl t!#ht to ,e I &ell asleep 3 Sarah ha( #o"e a%2 !"to the parlour. I a'a2e"e( /ery soo". She ha( arely ,o/e(. I &elt her %u"t* ,y &!"#ers 'ere s,eare( '!th loo( a"( se,e". I pulle( (o'" the e( %lothes a"( sa' her %he,!se 'as loo(y 3 I re%olle%t s%ar%ely a"y #!rl o& her a#e 'ho le( so ,u%h. 3 She 'as e+hauste(* a"( too2 a"other #lass o& ale. Sarah* 'ho, I %alle(* %a,e !"* '!"2e( at ,e* a"( 'e s%ar%ely spo2e &or hal& a" hour. I &elt L!1 all o/er ut %oul("'t #et a 'or( out o& her* u"t!l as2!"# !& she (!( "ot 'a"t to p!((le* she sa!( she (!(. I ha/e "ot!%e( that a 'o,a" al'ays p!sses a lot soo" a&ter her (e&lorat!o".
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    4>!((le* ,y (arl!"#* "e/er ,!"( ,e.4 She #ot out* a"( o" to the pot* put her hea( a#a!"st the s!(e o& the e( a"( ,oa"e(. Lea"!"# o" ,y el o' loo2!"# at her !" /oluptuous %o"te,plat!o"* a"( t'!((l!"# ,y pr!%2 up to her rea(!"ess &or a"other tur". 4Co,e to e(*4 I sa!( 3 she (!("'t. 3 Ho' I #lor!e( at the s!#ht o& the re( o" her %he,!se. 4You '!ll ha/e ,y (ress ,a(e up* 'o"'t you.4 4Yes (arl!"#.4 4You sa!( you'( #!/e ,e a o""et.4 4So I '!ll.4 4You sa!( a parasol.4 4So I '!ll.4 4I a, so #la(.4 3 She stoope( (o'" a"( ope"e( her tru"2 u"(er the e(. 3 4Oh* !s"'t !t eaut!&ul*4 sa!( she ta2!"# out the s!l2. I '!ll #o a"( sho' !t to the M!ssus.4 3 O&& she 'e"t to Sarah '!th !t. They %a,e a%2 to#ether. )hat /a"!ty at su%h a ,o,e"t: She'( &or#otte" all a out &u%2!"#. 4Co,e to e(.4 48o.4 She 'as sore. Sarah tol( her to 'ash her %u"t* a"( she (!(* a&ter a sort o& %o,,a"( !" 'h!%h Sarah jo!"e(* I loo2e( at the or!&!%e ,y pr!%2 ha( ,a(e. The (!&&ere"%e o& hal& a" hour !" her se+ual or#a" (el!#hte( ,e. The lee(!"# spl!t* I 'oul( that I %oul( ha/e photo#raphe( !t* ut !t !s photo#raphe( o" ,y ra!". 3 Her %u"t loo2e( !"&la,e( a"( !t (el!#hte( ,e to hear her say !t &elt ur"!"# hot. Sa!( Sarah* 4You'll 'a"t to &u%2 a#a!" (!re%tly.4 3 The /ery !(ea o& hurt!"# her (el!#hte( ,e 3 the loo( o" her %he,!se ,a(e ,y %o%2 st!&&e". 4Loo2 at ,y pr!%2* th!s !s 'hat urst thro your %u"t.4 She loo2e( lo"# a"( &!+e(ly at !t. She #ot !"to e(* ut 'oul( "ot let ,e (o !t. Sarah* say!"# she 'as t!re(* #ot !"to e( tell!"# L!1 she'( ha/e pleasure the "e+t t!,e* ut the #!rl re&use( say!"#* 4It's too !#.4 3 She 2ept as2!"# 'hat sort o& parasol !t 'oul( e* a"( the %olour o& her o""et. $t last I %oul( "ot %o"ta!" ,ysel&. )ett!"# ,y &!"#er 'ell* I &elt up her l!ttle %u"t &or%! ly* &or persuas!o" 'as o& "o use. Sarah* o" &eel!"# ,y st!&& sta"(er* sa!(* 4Let the (o%tor.4 She 'oul("'t. 4The" I'll &u%2 Sarah.4 Sa!( Sarah* 4I', (y!"# &or !t.4 I #ot o/er L!1 ut (!( "ot ,ea" that* a"( 'he" pass!"# (roppe( o" to her* &or%!"# ope" her le#s '!th ,y 2"ees. 4O (oa"t'ee* S!r* you'll hurt ,e*4 she %r!e( so lou(ly* that Sarah* 4;e 5u!et &or 9o( sa2e* they'll hear you all o/er the house.4 3 The" she 'as s!le"t. I lay!"# !" tra"5u!l /oluptuous"ess o" her* ,y pe#o "o' "ot 5u!te rea(y* (a"#l!"# a#a!"st the lo/ely l!ttle #ap* a"( #ra(ually s'ell!"# up to !ts (uty. The" #e"tly &eel!"# the s,ooth a"( lee(!"# sur&a%e* a"( 'ett!"# !t '!th sp!ttle ?&or she'( 'ashe( a'ay ,y sper, &ro, !ts outs!(e@ I so&tly !"serte( ,y pr!%2* a"( '!th #e"tle pushes sou#ht the !""er,ost (epths o& her %u"t 3 4Ohoo 3Ohoo 3 Ohoo.4 3 She ,oa"e(* a"( that 'as all. )!th ,y st!&& pr!%2 thus sheathe( (eeply !" her (ear l!ttle ra/!she( lee(!"# %u""y* I lay tra"5u!lly '!thout ,o/!"#* lett!"# her &eel the stret%h* the heat* the t!"#le 'h!%h the %o"ta%t o& the ,ale tool #!/es the &e,ale re%epta%le< a"( a'a!t!"# !ts re%!pro%ally se"sual t!#hte"!"# a"( #r!p o" ,!"e. Soo" her %u"t %o"str!%te( 3 that !"/olu"tary t!#hte"!"# 3 $h: that I %oul( taste the /oluptuous"ess 'h!%h the 'o,a" &eels 'he" her %u"t %loses thus rou"( the pr!%2. 3 $ se%o"('s pause* a#a!" a %l!p* the" a"other ,o/e o& ,y pr!%2* a"other s5uee1e o& her %u"t. 4$h0ar 3ahar*4 she s!#he( 5u!etly* a"( I
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    2"e' that the (!/!"e pleasure 'as steal!"# throu#h her se"ses. 9e"tly I pro e( o"* pull!"# !t out slo'ly to !ts t!p* the" slo'ly push!"# !t up a#a!". 4$rhar4 3 4ahrr*4 s!#he( L!11!e. The" I pushe( har(. 3 4Oh (o"'t.4 9e"tly a#a!" I pro e(. 4Is"'t &u%2!"# lo/ely* L!174 4$hrr 3 $hrr 3 oho ahrr.4 4She l!2es !t*4 sa!( Sarah 'ho, I ha( &or0#otte". 3 8o' '!th au(y !"st!"%t* out 'e"t a ha"( to Sarah's ha!ry 5u!,. She 'as &r!##!"# hersel&. $#a!" L!11!e's utto%2s ha( ,y (ou le %lasp* her %u"t &elt 'etter 3 ,y pr!%2 #l!(e( ,ore eas!ly* I 2!sse( her 3 I lu"#e(* the" &aster* har(er* &aster. 4$ha*4 she s!#he( a"( her l!, s ,o/e( sy,pathet!%ally. Sarah &r!##e( hersel& /!#orously. S!#h!"# out 4Fu%2 her 3 sho/e your pr!%2 up her 3 ,a2e her spe"( 3 !s"'t !t "!%e* L!17 3 Oh 3 pr!%2 3 spu"2 3 allo%2s*4 s!#he( Sarah !" her e%stasy. 3 4$ha 3 ahaa a* 4 a"( L!11!e's s!#hs %a,e sharp a"( 5u!%2* a"( "ature ,a(e her 'r!the a"( 'r!##le her s'eet l!ttle elly a"( u,* as "o' 5u!%2er I ,o/e( ,y pr!%2 up a"( (o'" !" her* thro !"# to e,!t !ts sper,. The" "estl!"# !t %lose up to her 'o, * '!th #e"tle thrusts h!tt!"# !ts portals* out spurte( the !,pre#"at!"#* l!&e #!/!"#* %reat!/e &lu!( o& ,y test!%les. Out &ro, ,y s'olle"* tur#!( pe#o #ushe( ,y loo('s esse"%e 3 ,y sper, 3 ,y see(. Th!%2 a"( %op!ously !t #ushe( out* 'h!lst !" lo/!"# u"!so" '!th ,y pre%!ous &loo( %a,e L!11!e's /a#!"al ju!%es* !ssu!"# &ro, e/ery pore* &ro, e/ery (u%t o& her lo/ely sheath. Our se+ual esse"%es ,!"#le( !" her %u"t* 'h!lst st!ll ,y pr!%2 (ro/e #e"tly to a"( &ro !" !t* ,!(st ,utual spas,s o& e%stat!% pleasure* a"( ,ur,urs o& (el!#ht !" the throes o& &u%2!"# 3 !" joys 'h!%h those o& >ara(!se %a""ot e+%el. 3 Oh: -!/!"e &u"%t!o" o& "ature: You O ,a" to !"je%t the pre%!ous l!&e #!/!"# sper, !"to the %u"t. 3 You O 'o,a" to re%e!/e* a sor the lu r!%!ous l!5u!( o& the pr!%2* a"( &ru%t!&y !t !" your 'o, . Yet th!s (!/!"e &u"%t!o"* th!s %oupl!"# o& the ,a" a"( 'o,a" !" the supre,est e%stasy o& ,!"( a"( o(y. Th!s se+ual %o"ju"%t!o"* th!s &u%2!"#* 'h!%h !s the &ou"(at o" a"( the stay o& lo/e et'ee" the se+es. Th!s a%t 'h!%h ,ay &or, a"( #!/e l!&e to a se"t!e"t e!"#* to a e!"# '!th a soul* to o"e parta2!"# o& the ethereal l!&e 3 o& the -!/!"e esse"%e. Th!s a%t 'h!%h y the la' o& "ature ,ay %reate !" 9o('s o'" !,a#e a e!"# '!th a soul to e herea&ter y h!, e!ther lesse( or (a,"e( !" all eter"!ty. Th!s a%t o& ,!#hty po'er a"( eter"al e"(o',e"ts !s %alle( &oul* est!al* a o,!"a le: It ,ay "ot e ,e"t!o"e( or tal2e( a out. 3 Yea* e/e" 'he" the la' has sa"%t!o"e( !t* a"( the >r!est has lest !t* !t ,ay "ot e e/e" h!"te( at !" pu l!%: 8or ,ay the se+ual or#a"s* those lesse( !,ple,e"ts o& %o!t!o" '!th 'h!%h the pleasure !s #ot* a"( the a%t !s (o"e* e "a,e( or allu(e( to. 3 $#e a&ter a#e has 'aste( !ts thou#hts !" !"/e"t!"# 'or(s ro re&er to the a%t a"( !ts or#a"s 'h!%h shall pu11le a"( perple+ as to the!r ,ea"!"#* ut 'h!%h are %alle( &or the t!,e (e%e"t* u"(er the &alse "ot!o" that the pe"!s a"( pu(e"(a are !"(e%e"t* &!lthy th!"#s. Yet thou#hts a out the use o& these or#a"s or the se"sat!o"s they a&&or( are e/er prese"t to the se"ses* a"( a (el!#ht to oth se+es !" health. The hopes o& earthly happ!"ess are ,a!"ly (er!/e( &ro, the,* a"( '!thout the!r &u"%t!o" l!&e !s 'orthless. 3 Yet th!s #ra/e !"e/!ta le "e%ess!ty o& l!&e !s
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    thou#ht o s%e"e: Has the %reator ,a(e th!s "e%ess!ty o& our e+!ste"%e &oul a"( o s%e"e7 Is !t "ot to lasphe,e h!, to say that !t !s so7 )e 'ho 2"o' so l!ttle o& the e#!""!"# or the e"( o& all th!"#s !"stea( o& %all!"# the se+ual or#a"s a"( the!r %o"ju"%t!o" &oul a"( o s%e"e shoul( rather s!"# lou( paea"s !" pra!se o& the,* &or they are e, le,s o& the Creator* a"( &u%2!"# !s o e(!e"%e to h!s la's* a"( !s 'orsh!p o& h!,. The" !" that !# e(* !" that >aph!a"'s %ha, er all 'as 5u!et. 3 Sarah o" her a%2 '!th eyes %lose(* her lust sat!s&!e( y her o'" ha"(. 3 L!11!e !" sleepy /oluptuous lass!tu(e* '!th sper,at!1e(* lee(!"#* lu r!%ate( %u"t* a"( the sper,at!1er st!ll lay!"# '!th!" !ts ju!%y &ol(s. $ll her pa!" 'as o/er 3 o"ly the so&t pleasure &ro, her se,e"al!1e( a sor e"t or#a" 'as steal!"# throu#h her se"ses. The la"#uor o& the spas, o& pleasure 'as o" her. )as she th!"2!"# o& ,y pr!%2* as I 'as o& her %u"t* as I lay o/er a"( up her* ,y pr!%2 so&te"!"#* lulle( !" the se,!"al ath o& our jo!"t ,a2thou#hts* a"( '!shes steal throu#h ,y ra!" at su%h ,o,e"ts as th!s* a"( 'hy "ot throu#h the ra!" o& L!11!e. 3 Ma" a"( 'o,a" are jo!"t part!%!pa"ts !" the se+ual pleasure. a"( !" the /oluptuous thou#hts 'h!%h are the %ause a"( %o"se5ue"%e. Su%h ,!"utes are para(!se !" l!&e* are hea/e" e&ore l!&e has le&t us. $&ter a" hour's repose 3 "ot sleep ut repose !(ly ly!"# et'ee" the t'o 'o,e". 8o' &eel!"# o"e %u"t* "o' the other* oth %u"ts ,o!st '!th re%e"t pleasure. 8o' loo2!"# at* "o' &eel!"# the st!ll lee(!"# 5u!, o& L!1* "o' &eel!"# Sarah's h!rsute &ull s!1e( #ap* a"( a&ter Sarah ha( loo2e( at L!1's 3 a"( L!1 ha( loo2e( at Sarah's %u"t 3 a"( 'e ha( 2!sse( all rou"( /oluptu0 ously* a"( 'e ha( tal2e( o& &u%2!"# !"%essa"tly a"( L!1 ha( &elt ,y pr!%2* a"( I ha( #e"tly &r!##e( her to !"%!p!e"t pleasure* a"( Sarah ha( (o"e a l!ttle &r!##!"# to the #!rl* a"( ha( t!t!llate( her o'" %u"t as 'ell* I ,ou"te( a"( &u%2e( L!11!e a#a!". $#a!" the s'eet lass ,!"#le( her #e"!tal ju!%es '!th ,!"e* !" "o' a lo"# /oluptuous &u%2!"#* 'h!lst Sarah '!th lou(er eja%ulat!o"s o& lust tha" e&ore a#a!" spe"t '!th the a!( o& her &!"#ers< ru !"# ,y a%2s!(e* &eel!"# ,y alls* &!"#er!"# ,y u, hole '!th o"e ha"(* 'h!lst the other she rou#ht hersel& to se+ual e%stasy. The" a&ter a" hour's repose* '!th so,e e&&ort I &u%2e( a#a!"* a"( arose &ro, the 'ar,* stea,!"#* loo( a"( sper, splashe( %ou%h. It 'as late. F!"(!"# ,y sh!rt %o/ere( '!th sper, a"( loo(* I le&t !t to e 'ashe( there* a"( 'e"t ho,e '!thout o"e. 3 I 'as alo"e !" ,y house the"* a"( &or a 'ee2 %oul( (o 'hat I l!2e( '!thout !ts e!"# "ot!%e(* a"( I slept (el!#hte(* a"( rejo!%!"# !" ,y e/e"!"#* a"( the l!ttle %u"t I ha( (e&lorate(.

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    MY SECRET LIFE

    Chapter VIII L!11!e's &or, a"( %u"t. Our "e+t ,eet!"#. Sarah &r!#s L!11!e. The se%o"( #a,ahu%he. 4)hat0e/er !s !t.4 The (ress ,a(e up. $ (o# &ash!o" po2e. $ ster%ora%eous &urro'. My (!s#ust. L!11!e's relat!o"s a"( a"te%e(e"ts. $ out l!ttle oys' %o%2s. Sarah's !,pe%u"!os!ty. L!11!e's (!s%losures. Sarah's Les !a" tastes. 4I (o"'t l!2e her th!"#!"# ,e.4 $ lapu"ar re,!"!s%e"%e. $ &lat &u%2!"# au(. L!11!e o" Sarah. Sarah's a(,!ss!o"s. Sarah (r!"2s. $ &lat &u%2!"# au(. L!11!e o" Sarah. Sarah's a(,!ss!o"s. Sarah (r!"2s. $ &lat &u%2!"# e+h! !t!o". L!11!e's se+ual !#"ora"%e. $ ,astur at!"# essay. 4It sp!ts.4 L!11!e ha( the lo/el!est &or,* &ro, hea( to &oot she 'as pre&e%t as a #!rl. )o"(er&ully plu,p a"( &or,e( &or her a#e* her reasts tho "as%e"t 'ere &!r, a"( &ull!sh* a"( her s2!" 'as l!2e sat!". 3 Her utto%2s 'ere sol!( a"( as lar#e as ,a"y a #!rl's at se/e"tee". Her %u"t ha( plu,p roly0poly l!ttle l!ps a"( 'oul( e%o,e* I shoul( say* pouters !& she e%a,e th!"* ut they s'elle( out &ro, su%h a plu,p ,otte* su%h &lesh et'ee" the l!ps a"( the th!#hs* that there !s "o %ha"%e o& that I th!"2 3 I "e/er sa' a ,ore e+5u!s!te youth&ul %u"t. 3 It 'as l!2e that o& ,ost you"# #!rls o& a %oral t!"t. She ha( a &ully (e/elope( %l!tor!s. It (!("'t loo2 at all u#ly* ut sho'e( sl!#htly et'ee" the l!ps e/e" 'he" her th!#hs 'ere %lose(. Sl!#ht !""er la !a jo!"e( !t* 'h!%h (!e( a'ay soo" !"to the #e"eral sur&a%e o& the /ul/a. 3 There 'as just su&&!%!e"t ha!r o" her ,otte to ,a2e !t &eel ,ossy. 3 It 'as o& a r!#ht &la+e" t!"t* so,e'hat (ar2er tha" the ha!r o" her hea(* 'h!%h 'as l!#ht* ut o& a" !"(es%r! a ly eaut!&ul r!#ht to"e. It 'as a lo/ely %u"t to #a,ahu%he* a"( I (!( that o&te" e"ou#h to her. Cl!tor!s a"( la !a see,e( to ,eet ,y to"#ue so (el!%!ously* that I o&te" pause(* #!/!"# ,y to"#ue rest* 'h!lst I #e"tly "! le( the #r!stly "u ly proje%t!o". 3 I 'o"(er !& Sarah 'as attra%te( y the loo2 o& L!11!e's %u"t. The "!#ht ut o"e &ollo'!"#* Sarah 'as a"#ry at ha/!"# staye( at ho,e a'a!t!"# ,e the "!#ht e&ore '!thout see!"# ,e. 3 L!11!e ha( #ot her o""et a"( parasol. 3 The (ress ha( "ot %o,e ho,e* a"( she 'al2e( a out the roo, '!th pett!%oats o"ly o"* the parasol hel( up o/er her o""et. Her (el!#ht a"( /a"!ty 'as al,ost !(!ot!%. 4Co,e !"to the e( roo,.4 3 She hes!tate(. 3 49o to the (o%tor* he ,ay (o a"yth!"# 3 he'll o"ly (o !t a#a!".4 3 I"to the roo, the #!rl %a,e. $s I put ,y ha"(s up her %lothes* she (roppe( the parasol '!th ,o(est !"st!"%t. 3 I 2!sse( her. 4Oh* ,y o""et 3 (o"'t "o'* you'll hurt !t.4 3 ;o""et a"( parasol I soo" put out o& the 'ay. It 'as a %har,!"# e/e"!"#* the la%erate( ra##e( e(#e( hy,e" loo2e( hea/e"ly. I th!"2 I see !t "o'* a"( she 'as su%h a l!ttle lo/ely ,a(e lass 3 I loo2e( her o/er &ro, the ha!r o& her hea( to her toe "a!ls. Cu"t e/e" u, hole %a,e !" &or !ts share. Sarah ha( ,a(e her s%rupulously %lea". 3 She (!("'t
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    spe"( 'he" I po2e(* a"( lay as ,ost 5u!et you"# #!rls (o '!thout atte,pt to 'ash her %u"t a&ter the &u%2. It su!te( ,e* &or I l!2e "o' a #!rl es!(e ,e '!th her %u"t &ull o& ,y sper,. 8o you"# #!rls 'ash !t u"t!l they are tau#ht* "o ,arr!e( 'o,a" (oes a&ter &u%2!"#* "o 'o,a" a&ter %opulat!o" "aturally (oes. $ll 'he" !" e( tur" the!r u,s to you '!th spu"2 !" the!r %u"ts tr!%2l!"# out. They "e/er th!"2 o& soap a"( 'ater. 3 L!11!e lay so* I &u%2e( her t'!%e ut she (!( "ot spe"(< you"# #!rls are so (!&&ere"t !" th!s respe%t. Sarah* 'ho ha( #o"e out a&ter see!"# ,e '!th the #!rl* %a,e ho,e. 3 4He's (o"e you o/er t'!%e* a!"'t you lu%2y.4 3 48ot spe"t7 3 ha/e you 'ashe(74 3 48o.4 3 49et out a"( 'ash* al'ays 3 I (o*4 sa!( the 2"o'!"# ol( %ar(. 3 ?She (!("'t tho@ I sa!( I (!( "ot '!sh !t. 3 4She'll spe"( !& she (o the "e+t t!,e*4 sa!( Sarah. The #!rl 'ashe( a"( #ot !"to the e( a#a!"* Sarah s5uee1e( hersel& !"to the e(* a"( the l!ttle o"e lay !" the ,!((le. It 'as late. )e tal2e( o& &u%2!"# 3 L!11!e the" sa!( that she'( "e/er ha( e&ore su%h a se"sat!o" as the &!rst "!#ht 'he" I l!%2e( her. I& true* her &!rst pleasure ha( ee" u"(er ,y to"#ue or she l!e( a'&ully. That a,orous l!"#ual &r!%t!o" ha( &et%he( her. 3 $&ter a t!,e 'e ha( ra"(y a"( 'ater* a"( L!1 S%ot%h ale* &or I ha( rou#ht !t '!th ,e as e&ore. $ll !" e( a#a!". 3 My %o%2 see,e( to ha/e e,pt!e( !tsel& &or the "!#ht. Sarah put her ha"(s a%ross L!1 to &eel ,e. 4It '!ll e up soo"*4 sa!( she. The" her ha"( 'e"t o" to L!11!e's %u"t. 3 I re,o/e( her ha"( a"( too2 !ts pla%e a"( us!"ess o" ,ysel&. The" Sarah &r!##e( ,e a l!ttle* a"( the" put L!11!e to (o !t. My %o%2 soo" s'elle(. 3 $s ,u%h o& ,y &!"#er as I %oul( %ra, up L!11!e's l!ttle 5u!, ha( ee" pro !"# that or!&!%e !" all (!re%t!o"s &or so,e t!,e. 3 4Feel her 'ell up a"( a out*4 sa!( Sarah* e#!""!"# a#a!" to &r!# the #!rl* 4#a,ahu%he her* (o%tor.4 I ,o/e( o" to ,y 2"ees a"( e#a" l!%2!"# her l!ttle %u"t 3 hol(!"# her arse '!th o"e ha"(* a"( stret%h!"# out the other 'h!%h 'e"t !"to Sarah's la%2 th!%2et. 3 4She l!2es !t* (o%tor.4 3 The #!rl's u, e#a" to 'r!##le 3 a s!#" a"( e"ou#h 3 The "e+t !"sta"t I %o/ere( her* a"( ,y pr!%2 'as up her. $ &e' thrusts a"( 'r!##les. 3 4$haa*4 so e( she* (el!%ately. 3 4Oh: 'hat0e/er !s !t 3 oh 3h 3 ha 3 ha.4 3 The s'eet %h!l( ha( spe"t. >utt!"# out ,y ha"( as I &elt ,y pleasure %o,!"#* I &ou"( Sarah &r!##!"# hersel&* 'h!%h see,s "o' 5u!te her %usto,. She'( ee" &u%2e( that "!#ht* ut ha( "o pleasure she sa!( &ra"2ly. Tur"!"# to L!1 she #a/e the #!rl a 2!ss a"( urst !"to lau#hter. 3 4$ha* 'hat !s !t. $ha*4 sa!( she* !,!tat!"# the #!rl's ,a""er a"( e+%la,at!o" as pleasure ha( o/erta2e" her. $&ter'ar(s 'he" a &u""y ,oo( 'e 'oul( say* 3 4$ha 'hate/er !s !t 3 you 2"o' 'hat !t !s "o' L!1.4 The #!rl (e%lare( she "e/er uttere( the 'or(s* a"( "o (ou t she 'as u"%o"s%!ous that she (!(. 3 They 'ere the &u""!est I e/er hear( a &e,ale say just e&ore spe"(!"#.

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    She spe"t '!th ,e re#ularly the "e+t "!#ht. 3 The ,ore she &u%2e( the etter she &u%2e(* a"( the etter she (re' ,e. 3 She e%a,e /oluptuous !" the e+tre,e* a"( too2 as ,u%h pleasure !" the /ar!ous las%!/!ous e+%!te,e"ts as I (!(. It 'as as (el!#ht&ul to her to e tau#ht* as !t 'as to ,e to tea%h her. The (ress %a,e ho,e* a"( she loo2e( lo/ely !" !t. I too2 a &a"%y to &u%2 her !" !t* ut the %ha"%e o& ru,pl!"# !t #a/e her ,u%h #r!e&. She %oul("'t u"(ersta"( 'hy I 'a"te( to spo!l a "!%e (ress. 3 She 'as "!%e a"( %lea" !" her ha !ts* a"( put a'ay her %lothes '!th #reat %are. 3 Th!s ,a(e ,e l!2e ha/!"# her e+tre,ely. ;ut I ,ust a re/!ate* a"( o"ly tell o& "o/elt!es 'h!%h ,ar2e( ,y a%5ua!"ta"%e '!th her. I stro2e( her the "e+t t!,e (o# &ash!o". 3 4)hat: (o !t that 'ay* that's &u""y.4 4Yes (ear* just as you'/e see" (o#s (o !t.4 4That's l!2e easts the" a"( you sha"'t*4 3 ut I 'oul(. 3 The e( 'as too lo' a"( she 'as too short to let ,e #et %o"/e"!e"tly up that t!#ht l!ttle %u"t !" that &ash!o". 3 So I put the p!llo's !" a heap o" he e(* a"( stoo( her le#s o" a %ouple o& hasso%2s &et%he( &ro, the s!tt!"# roo,. 3 My pleasure 'as to ha/e her !" that posture* a"( at the e( s!(e !" her s!l2 (ress. 3 Up 'e"t the (ress o/er her u, a"( I (ro/e ,y pr!%2 et'ee" her %u"t's l!ps '!th su%h thrust* that she %alle( out 3 (ra'!"# a%2 to !"(ul#e ,y eyes '!th the lu+ury o& see!"# 3 I sa' 'hat7 3 Out !t %a,e. 4You (!rty l!ttle (e/!l your u,'s (!rty.4 3 Up shr!/elle( ,y (oo(le at o"%e. The #!rl tur"e( rou"( a"( e#a" to %ry. I e#a" to re&le%t 'hether I 'as u"2!"( or "ot. 3 There she sat* loo2!"# a per&e%t l!ttle la(y !" her s!l2 (ress 3 I thou#ht ho' I ha( e"joye( her the "!#ht e&ore 3 ha( e"joye( her e/e" that "!#ht 3 a l!ttle 'ater '!ll 'ash all a'ay. ;ut I &elt so a""oye( that I %oul( ha/e o+e( her ears 3 I ha( "o pat!e"%e to tal2 or e/e" loo2 at her* 'as (!s#uste(* a"( a"#r!ly (eter,!"!"# "e/er to see her a#a!"* 'e"t a'ay lea/!"# her so !"# a"( %all!"# out. 3 4Oh (o"'t #o 3 (o"'t* oh (o"'t* 3 I 'as !" su%h a hurry to %o,e up* I 'as at the pr!/y 'he" you %a,e 3 oho 3 oho 3 oho*4 she so e(. I %oul( "ot &or#et* a"( !t ,ust ha/e ee" a 'ee2 e&ore a #ra"( st!&& sta"(er a(,o"!she( ,e that a %u"t 'as a" use&ul art!%le* a"( that !" the s'eetest 'o,a" !t !s o"ly a" !"%h or so &ro, her arsehole. The" ,y ,!"( re%urre( to the &resh* /el/ety s2!""e(* plu,p l!ttle L!1. I &or#ot the (!rt!"ess a"( 'e"t a#a!". Sarah tol( ,e that the #!rl ha( &rette( so* that she ha( "e/er le&t her alo"e. 3 It 'as ,y o'" &ault* ha( the #!rl 'ashe( a&ter ,y &!rst &u%2 she'( ha/e 'ashe( her u,. 3 The #!rl %oul( s%ar%ely loo2 at ,e a"( %r!e(. 3 4I thou#ht you'( "e/er %o,e a#a!".4 4I 2"e' he 'oul(.4 4You l!2e po2!"# her too ,u%h to 2eep a'ay lo"#4 ?to ,e@.

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    My s'ell!"# %u"t stret%her ,a(e ,e &or#et all &or the ,!"ute 3 I 'at%he( her str!p. 3 Ho' "!%e she loo2e( as she (re' #ar,e"t o&& a&ter #ar,e"t* a"( ea%h #!rl!sh eauty %a,e !"to /!e'. I 'as soo" !" e( '!th her. -!re%tly I ha( %o"su,,ate(* the "asty re%olle%t!o" retur"e(* a"( !t (!( so at t!,es a&ter'ar(s. $t le"#th I &or#ot !t &or the l!ttle #!rl 'as s%rupulously a"( "aturally %lea" !" e/eryth!"#. The /!ole"%e o& (es!re &or her e!"# o/er* a"( ha/!"# &u%2e( ,ysel& out* a"( also &u%2e(* &r!##e(* a"( #a,ahu%he( her !"to s!,!lar %o"(!t!o"* I sa' her less &re5ue"tly. 3 Sarah (!( "ot #et ,o"ey y her a"( that 'as her re#ret* the #!rl ,!sse( ,y (oo(le a"( that 'as her re#ret. 3 I rarely "o' #a/e her ,o"ey< ut set her up !" all sorts o& %loth!"#. Sarah "e/er tal2e( all th!s t!,e o& #ett!"# r!( o& the #!rl as she ha( to the others. I tr!e( to #et out o& L!11!e 'ho she 'as* a"( 'here she %a,e &ro,* a"( as usual alto#ether &a!le(. It !s the l!&&!%ulty '!th ,ost o& the #!rls. E/ery th!"# else I lear"t 3 I tr!e( to pu,p her at %r!t!%al ,o,e"ts* 'he" '!th &!"#er o" her %l!tor!s* or 'he" her ha"( 'as rou"( ,y pr!%2* or 'he" le'e( '!th ea%h other* her heart 'oul( "aturally ope" to ,e* ut she sa!( she (are "ot* she 'as &r!#hte"e( o& Sarah. 3 ;ut l!ttle y l!ttle a !t o& her h!story lea2e( out* a"( I th!"2 that she 'as a" o"ly %h!l( o& a '!(o'e( ,other* a"( l!/!"# al,ost !" 'a"t. 3 L!1 see,e( "e/er to ha/e 'or2e( !" the &!el(s. She spo2e '!th a pro/!"%!al (!ale%t 'h!%h she soo" e#a" to lose. She "e/er see,e( to ha/e ,!+e( '!th a"y o& her o'" se+* e+%ept!"# o" Su"(ays* "or to ha/e playe( '!th oys< a"( she 'as surpr!1!"#ly !#"ora"t o& au(!"ess. She u"(erstoo( ,a"#l!"# a"( 'ash!"#* a"( 'as a eaut!&ul "ee(le 'o,a". She sa!( she %oul( ,!l2* a2e* ,a2e utter* a"( sausa#es. Her ,other (!( ,a"#l!"#* a"( she helpe( to ear" the!r l!/!"# at "ee(le 'or2. I th!"2 she 'as the !lle#!t!,ate %h!l( o& a #e"tle,a" 'ho allo'e( her ,other a s,all st!pe"(* a"( that she 'as a relat!o" o& Sarah's. 3 She tol( ,e her ,other ha( ro'" ha!r. 3 )as she l!2e Sarah I as2e(. 3 The #!rl 'as #o!"# to a"s'er* the" she loo2e( har( at ,e &or a ,!"ute a"( repl!e(. 3 48o4 3 I el!e/e Sarah 'as her au"t. She 2"e' that oys' %o%2s stoo(* 3 She a"( a"other #!rl ha( ,a(e a oy's a out &!/e years ol( sta"( 4she 'as a "uss #al.4 The oy 'as 5u!te 5u!et 'h!le the 4"uss #al4 ,a(e !t st!&&* 3 4Ca" you (o that ?&u%2@ as o&te" as you l!2e74 'as o"e o& her earl!est 5uest!o"s to ,e. 4$"( 'o"'t "othe" %oo, out t!ll !t e st!&&74 3 I 2"o' "o' &ro, the 5uest!o"s I ha/e put to ,a"y you"# lasses* that they all &eel l!ttle oys' %o%2s* a"( (el!#ht !" ,a2!"# the, st!&&. 3 I"st!"%t tea%hes the, to (o so. Sarah* 'ho I a, sure ha( the" lost her ,a"* a"( 'as ,ore a"( ,ore !,pe%u"!ous* use( to %o,e ho,e early* o&te" !ll te,pere( a"( lo' sp!r!te(. U"as2e( she the" 'oul( #et !"to e( '!th us. 3 She 'as 2!"( !" a" e+tra0 or(!"ary (e#ree to L!11!e* 'oul( 2!ss her 'he" lay!"# y the s!(e o& her* a"( al'ays as2 ho' o&te" I ha( &u%2e( ?#e"erally "o' ut t'!%e.@ 3 Sarah's &!"#ers 'ere al'ays o" the l!ttle o"e's %u"t. 3 She lau#he( 'he" I &ou"( the,
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    there* a"( the" use( to push her ha"( o/er L!11!e a"( %at%h hol( o& ,y pr!%2. 3 I" those att!tu(es 'e 'e"t o" tal2!"# t!ll I &u%2e( a#a!". So,et!,es Sarah use( to &eel L!11!e 'h!lst I 'as &u%2!"# her* a"( &r!# hersel& at the sa,e t!,e. She ,a(e "o se%ret a out !t "o'. 3 4I ,ust (o so,eth!"#* I (o"'t o&te" spe"( '!th a ,a"* a"( l!2e &r!##!"# 'h!le you are (o!"# L!1.4 >re/!ously I ha( so,eho' &or,e( the op!"!o" that Sarah l!2e( &eel!"# the %u"ts o& you"# o"es* ut thou#ht "oth!"# ,u%h a out !t. O"e (ay she 'as sl!#htly s%re'e(* a"( #ot !"to e(* just as I #ot out to p!((le* the" pull!"# e/ery th!"# up a"( sho'!"# all her parts she sa!(. 3 4I', #ett!"# stout (o%tor are"'t I74 3 I &elt her u, a"( elly a"( just ope"e( her %u"t l!ps. 3 4I 'a"t a &u%2 so* #!/e ,e o"e.4 3 4I'll try a&ter I ha/e ha( L!1 a#a!".4 3 Sarah tur"e( rou"( a"( %lut%h!"# L!1* l!&te( her o" to her elly* e#a" to 2!ss her pass!o"ately* t'!ste( her l!, s o/er her* a"( 'r!##l!"# her elly up to her so that the!r %u"ts 'ere %lose to#ether* ,o/e( as !& &u%2!"#. 3 L!1 tr!e( to #et a'ay. 4-o"'t "o'* (o"'t.4 $&ter a &e' hea/es Sarah let her #o* lau#h!"#* tur"e( her ru,p to'ar(s us a"( &r!##e( hersel&. I thou#ht o& th!s a #oo( (eal* a"( !t !"%rease( ,y (es!re &or 2"o'le(#e. Th!s &or, o& se+ual /oluptuous"ess a,o"#st 'o,e" "o' hau"te( ,e. I 5uest!o" L!1 a out Sarah's eha/!our !" e( '!th her* &or she al'ays "o' slept '!th her* a"( "o ,a" 'as e/er there. 3 It 'as "ot as &or,erly 'he" Sarah sa!(* 4You ,ust "ot %o,e &or three (ays*4 a"( so o". I &ou"( that Sarah ha( a let%h &or &r!##!"# hersel&* a"( that '!th the you"# o"e see,e( her sola%e !" the a se"t pleasure '!th the ,ale. Her taste &or the ,a" !t ,ay e 'as (!,!"!sh!"#. She ha( (o"e th!s al,ost &ro, the &!rst (ay L!1 %a,e to Lo"(o". The" I #uesse( that Sarah (!( so,eth!"# ,ore. 3 I as2e( 5uest!o"s* a"( threate"!"# "ot to see L!1 a"y ,ore !& she (!( "ot tell ,e the truth. She (!s%lose( that Sarah pulle( the #!rl o" the top o& her* a"( press!"# %l!tor!s to %l!tor!s ru e( the, to0#ether* t!ll Sarah at least ha( the &ull e"joy,e"t o& that /oluptuous &r!%t!o". 3 It 'as &lat &u%2!"#* tr! a(!s,* the a,use,e"t o& #!rls at oar(!"# s%hools a"( %o"0/e"ts* a"( perhaps hare,s ?a"( o&te" as I 2"o' s!"%e* o& so,e harlots@. 4-o"'t tell her*4 sa!( L!1. 3 4She has ,a(e ,e pro,!se "ot* a"( says you'( hate ,e !& you 2"e' o& !t 3 you 'o"'t hate ,e '!ll you7 I (o"'t l!2e her th!"#!"# ,e 3 I (o"'t l!2e her 'et th!"# !" ,!"e.4 4Is !t "ot "!%e74 4It e a l!ttle "!%e so,et!,es* ut I (o"'t l!2e th!"#!"# l!2e that.4 3 I pro,!se( to 2eep L!11!e's se%ret. 4You %all !t th!"#!"#* 'hy74 4Cos her th!"# e #!" ,y th!"#*4 sa!( the #!rl lau#h!"#* 3 4!t e l!2e t'o s"a!ls.4 I roare( '!th lau#hter at su%h a" !llustrat!/e re,ar2* a"( "e/er hear( &lat &u%2!"# %alle( th!"#!"# e&ore or s!"%e. ?I ha/e s!"%e hear( a &u""y ter, &or !t tho.@ The" I e#a" to th!"2 &lat &u%2!"#* a"( re%olle%te( 'hat !" ,y youth Fre( ha( sa!(* a"( 'hat I ha( ee" tol( y Ca,!lle o& 'o,e" ru !"# the!r %u"ts to#ether* that I ha( see" t'o Fre"%h 'o,e" (o!"# !t ?&or ,y a,use,e"t* as I
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    thou#ht* a"( s!,ply to sho' ,e ho' y pla%!"# the,sel/es l!2e a ,a" a"( 'o,a" !" %opulat!o"* they %oul( %lose the!r %u"ts o" ea%h other@. O"e 'o,a" I re%olle%te( ha( a stro"#ly (e/elope( %l!tor!s a"( I ha( "ot l!2e( !t. ;ut I (!( "ot el!e/e !" 'o,e" ha/!"# pleasure that 'ay* a"( the au(y s!#ht ha( passe( &ro, ,y ,!"(. 8or ha( a"y %lear !(ea o& the truth e/e" ar!se" !" ,y ,!"(* 'he" I sa' t'o ser/a"ts o" ea%h other !" the ath roo, at ,y %ous!"'s s%hool* or 9a r!elle o" V!olette. I ha( hear( s!"%e o& 'o,e" &lat &u%2!"#* a"( su((e"ly re%olle%te( a ro' at a rothel* !" 'h!%h the a,use,e"t ha( ee" re&erre( to. )he" I spe"t ,y &!rst &ortu"e* I too2 a&ter lo"#!sh %o"t!"e"%e* to /!s!t!"# harlots 'ho let ,e ha/e the, &or &!/e sh!ll!"#s* a"( 'oul( let a ,a" (o al,ost a"y th!"#. O"e "!#ht I 'e"t to see a 'o,a" a"( arr!/e( just as she 'as ha/!"# a ro' '!th a 'o,a" 'ho 'as a out &orty0&!/e years ol(. My #!rl %a,e !"to the roo, '!th ,e* ut u"a le to %o"ta!" hersel&* le&t ,e< a"( I ope"!"# the (oor* hear( her a"( a"other lo(#er ully!"# the 'o,a" &or #ett!"# 5u!te you"# a #!rl !"to her e(. 4You ol( %at* you (!rty sl!,y %u"te( ol( !t%h. 3 I'll tell the, all.4 She %a,e a%2 !"to the roo, '!th ,e a"( sla,,e( the (oor. She 'as sl!#htly s%re'e( a"( "o!sy. 4The ol( !t%h #ets Mary 'ho's "ot &our0tee" years ol( !"to e( '!th her. 3 It's the l!ttle ser/a"t here 3 a"( pulls her a out 3 >olly ... %au#ht her at !t* a"( the #!rl sa!( she (!(.4 4)hy (oes the #!rl let her74 4Oh she's a (!rty l!ttle !t%h too.4 4)ell* I pull you a out a"( you ,e.4 4Oh that !s 5u!te (!&&ere"t.4 >erhaps the 'o,a" 'as jealous* or 'as !t 'hores' ,oral!ty7 I tol( her I sa' "o har, !" t'o 'o,e" (o!"# 'hat they l!2e( to (o. I ha( "e/er #!/e" the su je%t thou#ht* ut "o' e#a" to th!"2 o& the 'ay 'o,e" %oul( r!"# the!r or#a"s to#ether &or ,utual pleasure* a"( o& /ar!ous tr!%2s that 'ay 'h!%h I ha( see" 'o,e" per&or,* ut the su je%t "e/er see,s to ha/e !"tereste( ,e &ully t!ll "o'. The" I #ot so,e ,e(!%al oo2s a"( so,e Fre"%h oo2s* a"( u"(er Les os* Tr! a(e O%. a"( so,e other 'or(s* #ot the 2ey to the &ull ,yster!es o& Sappho a"( the Les !a"s* 'h!%h a((e( a ,!te ,ore to ,y 2"o'le(#e a"( a(,!rat!o" o& the 'o"(ers o& the art!%le %alle( %u"t. My pro,!se o& se%re%y I 2ept* ut o&te" loo2e( at Sarah a"( lo"#e( to 5uest!o" her o" th!s su je%t. I e#a" to tal2 a out 5u!, to 5u!, &r!%t!o" 3 &lat &u%2!"# 3 a"( e+pla!"e( the 'or( tr! a(!s,* 'h!%h 'or( Sarah ha( "e/er hear( 3 I let her 2"o' that I thou#ht "o har, !" 'o,e" ru !"# the!r %u"ts to#ether* or #a,ahu%h!"# ea%h other< a"( Sarah at o"%e* I thou#ht* #ot ,ore &ree !" her ,a"!&estat!o"s to'ar(s the #!rl. Sarah 'as ,u%h ,ore o&te" s%re'e( "o' tha" pre/!ously* just as !& she 'ere !" trou le. O"e "!#ht she %a,e !" 'he" 'e 'ere !" e(* &or she (!( "ot "o' al'ays stop !" &or ,e* a"( la!( (o'" es!(es us. 49et o" top o& her L!1*4 sa!( I
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    just to see ho' &ar I %oul( #o !" that (!re%t!o". 4I l!2e to see you o" top o& her l!2e a ,a" &u%2!"# her.4 L!1 re&use( 3 Sarah #a/e her a 2!ss a"( lau#he(* put o"e le# out a"( her ar,s rou"( her* a"( roll!"# o" to her a%2* pulle( L!1 r!#ht o" to the top o& her* 2!ss!"# all the t!,e. 4She loo2s as !& she 'ere &u%2!"# you*4 sa!( I* 4put your %u"ts to#ether* pull o&& your %he,!ses* let's see you oth "a2e(.4 3 I ass!ste( !" pull!"# the, o&&. 3 L!1 sa!(* 48o* "o*4 a"( res!ste( sl!#htly. ;ut Sarah hea/e( up her th!#hs rou"( the #!rl a"( raspe( her l!ttle arse. 4;e 5u!et L!1*4 sa!( I* 4(o !t '!th her.4 Sarah su((e"ly see,e( 5u!te s%re'e(* her eyes loo2e( '!l( '!th lust* she hel( t!#ht o" to the #!rl 3 hea/e( up her le#s* a"( put her heels rou"( L!11!e's %al/es 3 I thre' ,ysel& o" the e(. 3)!(e"!"# ope" a l!ttle L!11!e's th!#hs* I %oul( see Sarah's la%2 ha!re( %u"t elo'* ,eet!"# the ,ossy %u"t o& the (a,sel 3 I put ,y &!"#ers there* e##e( L!11!e 'ho 'as rest!/e to e 5u!et* !"%!te( Sarah to #et her %u"t as %lose to the #!rl's as she %oul(* a"( they 'ere soo" so %lose that I #ot t'o &!"#ers up Sarah's %u"t* a"( the thu, o& the sa,e ha"( tou%he( L!11!e's* tho '!th (!&&!%ulty. The" au(!"ess re!#"e( supre,e. I 'as (el!#hte(. 4Ru your %u"ts to#ether*4 sa!( I a&ter a ,!"ute's &!"#er!"#. 4)e %a"'t.4 3 4Try* ru your %u"ts to0#ether a"( I '!ll #!/e you a so/ere!#".4 4)hat (o you ,ea"74 She 'as st!ll hol(!"# the #!rl !" her ar,s. 4Oh: ho' ,o(est* you 2"o' all 3 (!( you "e/er ha/e pleasure '!th a 'o,a" y &lat &u%2!"# her7 ru a'ay at L!1* hol( her 5u!te t!#ht 3 s5uee1e your 5u!, up to hers* tea%h her* she'( l!2e to 2"o' e/ery th!"#* a"( a ,a" %a"'t tea%h her that*4 sa!( I "o' '!l( '!th lust. Sarah 2!sse( L!11!e '!thout %eas!"#* !t 'as o"e lo"# u" ro2e" sou"( o& os%ulat!o"* a"( e#a" hea/!"# her utto%2s a"( 'r!##l!"#* ut I sa' she 'as sha,,!"#. 3 4I a, "ot #o!"# to #!/e you a so/ere!#" to e hu,0 u##e(*4 sa!( I a"( putt!"# ,y ha"( (o'" et'ee" oth the!r th!#hs* I pushe( t'o o& ,y &!"#ers !"to Sarah's %u"t a#a!". My &!"#ers see,e( to st!r Sarah's le'e("ess. )r!##l!"# a"( 2!ss!"# L!11!e pass!o"ately* she sa!(* 48e/er ,!"( h!,* let ,e (arl!"# 3 (o.4 3 The #!rl tol( y ,e to let Sarah (o 'hat she l!2e( lay 5u!et* the l!ttle o"e's le#s 'ere hel( y Sarah's !# le#s* a"( she 'r!##le( a"( &u%2e( 'h!lst I 2ept ,y &!"#ers at 'or2 !" her %u"t as 'ell as I %oul(. There lay the !# 'o,a" %l!"#!"# to L!1* t'!st!"# a"( 'r!th!"#* 'r!##l!"# a"( s!#h!"#* 2!ss!"# the #!rl '!th pass!o"* thrust!"# out her to"#ue* a"( al,ost ury!"# her &!"#ers et'ee" the #!rl's utto%2s. It 'as a /ery lo"# e, ra%e* a"( "e!ther o& the, too2 hee( o& ,e "o'. 3 L!1 'as o e(!e"t* Sarah's eyes 'ere %lose( e+%ept at !"ter/als. I"st!"%t!/ly at last* L!11!e #raspe( Sarah's hau"%hes. )!th a s!#h. 3 4Oh 3 (o !t 3 (arl!"# 3 ah 3 a! 3 aha.4 3 Sarah rela+e( her hol( a"( 'as 5u!et. I 2"e' 'ell &ro, the loo2 o& her &a%e* &ro, that %ha"#!"# o& %olour 'he" she spe"t that she ha( spe"t "o'< the '!t"ess ha( sprea( o/er !t 'h!%h 'as a" u"&a!l!"# e/!(e"%e.
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    The las%!/!ety o& the s%e"e* the !"te"se e"joy,e"t o& Sarah ur#e( ,e o" 3 I "o' luste( &or Sarah. 3 49et o&&* L!1 3 !s your %u"t 'et7 !s Sarah's 'et7 I'll &u%2 you* Sally.4 Sarah ope"e( her eyes a"( loo2e( at ,e re,ar2!"# 4That u##er 2"o's e/ery th!"#.4 The" l!&t!"# her th!#hs she a#a!" e#a" s5uee1!"# L!11!e a"( ru !"# a#a!"st her. 4I'll &u%2 you* Sally.4 She too2 "o "ot!%e ut 'r!the( as har( as she %oul( e, ra%!"# the #!rl. 4I'/e o"ly e#u"*4 sa!( she. 4She's a (arl!"#.4 3 Ra"(y to ,a("ess I pulle( L!11!e o&&* a"( the "e+t !"sta"t 'as up Sarah's %u"t. 3 L!11!e la!( y the s!(e 3 o" to her l!ttle %u"t 'e"t ,y &!"#ers* &eel!"#* #rop!"# the l!ttle ,ost sl!ppery art!%le* t!ll I e,!tte( 'hat sper, 'as le&t !" ,e up Sarah's /a#!"a. The" Sarah '!th ,y l! at!o" !" her* %lut%he( L!1 l!2e a &ury* a"( #ot her et'ee" her th!#hs. I" /a!" she stru##le(* the !# 'o,a" hel( her &ast* the!r %u"ts ,et* a"( Sarah ha( her Sapph!% (el!#ht* s%ree%h!"# out* so that the lo(#ers elo' 'oul( ha/e hear( e"ou#h ha( they ee" l!ste"!"#. ;ut Sarah !" her ,a((e"!"# pleasure &or#ot all a out the, the". She 'as #ro##y. $&ter that "!#ht I tal2e( '!th Sarah a out her l!2!"# &or the #!rl* a"( a out &lat &u%2!"#. Sarah "e!ther the" s%re'e( "or le'e(* a/o!(e( the su je%t* sa!( she ha( o"ly (o"e !t &or a lar2 a"( ha( "o let%h &or a"yth!"# o& the sort* ut pre&erre( a pr!%2 to a"y other 2!"( o& sola%e &or her %u"t. O" other o%%as!o"s I tol( Sarah all I ha( rea( a"( 2"e' 3 that I thou#ht "o 'orse o& a 'o,a" &or ha/!"# a 'o,a"* tha" I (!( o& a ,a" &or &r!##!"# a ,a". 4Your %u"t's your o'"* a"( !& t'o %u"ts a#ree to &r!%t!o"!1e ea%h other* !t !s a per&e%tly le#!t!,ate pleasure.4 L!ttle y l!ttle she a(,!tte( ,u%h 3 ut %o"s!(er!"# that I ha( spe"t !" a"( o" her !" e/ery 'ay poss! le &or "early &our years* I ha( (!&&!%ulty !" #ett!"# her to a(,!t her l!2!"# &or &lat &u%2!"# L!1. 3 She "e/er (!( 5u!te a(,!t !t. 3 She ha( (o"e !t o"%e or t'!%e she sa!(* 'he" s%re'e( ut ha( "o taste &or !t. She l!2e( a #oo(* th!%2* st!&& pr!%2 up her. Freely ra"(y a"( 'ater!"# Sarah o"e "!#ht a"( (os!"# L!1 '!th S%ot%h ale* I #ot a repet!t!o" o& the Les !a" #a,e* a"( %o,plete( the e/e"!"# y &u%2!"# oth the &e,ales. It 'as lo"# e&ore I %oul( ,a2e L!1 el!e/e that ,y pr!%2 'oul("'t sta"( as o&te" as I 'a"te(. 3 4Ho' (o !t %o,e out 'he" !t 2"o%2s !" ,e so.4 3 Her la"#ua#e !" (es%r! !"# a"yth!"# erot!% 'as ,ost pe%ul!ar a"( a,us!"# 3I let her &r!# ,e o"%e* a"( see the eja%ulat!o" o& ,y sper,. 3 She &r!##e( %lu,s!ly as all you"# #!rls a"( ,a"y 'o,e" (o* a"( I ha( to #u!(e her ha"(. 3 4Loo2 !t's %o,!"# 3 aha: loo2 5u!te %lose.4 I 'as &ull that "!#ht* a"( ,y sper, shot up o" to her &a%e. I ha( !"te"(e( that !t shoul(. The a"t!%!pat!o" o& !t jett!"# o" to her pretty &eatures ha( (el!#hte( ,e. 3 She let #o ,y pr!%2. 3 4It sp!ts*4 sa!( she* 4!t's h!t ,e 3 you ,a(e !t (o !t o" purpose 3 !t's (!rty.4 4My lo/e* sper, !s "e/er (!rty.4 3 She la!( hol( o& ,y ('!"(l!"# or#a" retra%t!"# the s2!"* a"( ,ore sper, &ell &ro, !t. She (roppe( ,y (oo(le a#a!". 3 4I thou#ht !t 'as #o!"# to sp!t a#a!".4 3 I tol( her !t "e/er sp!t u"less !t 'as st!&&. She 'oul( a&ter'ar(s loo2 at ,y %o%2 'he" st!&&* a"( #!/e !t o"e or t'o %lu,sy &r!#s* ut "e/er &!"!she( ,e* a"( &r!##!"# 'as "ot to ,y taste e+%ept u"(er u"usual erot!% e+%!te,e"t* yet I (!( !t o%%as!o"ally.
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    Chapter IP Cu"tal %o"trasts. Fe,!"!"e &r!##!"#s. Cu"tal tr!als. >leasure0#!/!"# %apa !l!t!es o& (!&&ere"t pu(e"(a. ;au(y lesso"s to L!1. -ou le #a,ahu%h!"#. L!1 #a,ahu%hes ,e. $ ,outh&ul. M!%turat!"# o((!t!es. The %u"t &u""el. ;u, slapp!"#s a"( &ust!#at!o"s. The or#a"s ,!"!ster!"# to se+ual pleasures. $u"ts a"( "!e%es. You"# /!r#!"!t!es sol(. For"!%at!o" ph!losophy o& the poor. $ se"%e. Four ,o"ths later. ;oth o" the pa/F. 4She 'oul( tur" out.4 Sarah's e&&orts a"( 2!"("ess. They (!sappear su((e"ly. Fru!tless e"5u!r!es. I ha( ,u%h pleasure '!th Sarah a"( L!1 to#ether* the %o"trast et'ee" the, 'as so #reat. Sarah eyo"( the usual he!#ht o& 'o,e"* '!th a (ar2 a"( 'ell ha!re( %u"t* lay!"# s!(e y s!(e "a2e( '!th the l!ttle o"e 'hose %u"t 'as all are* 'as a eaut!&ul s!#ht. Sarah o eye( ,e !,pl!%!tly a"( ,a(e the l!ttle o"e (o so. 3 4Ope" your th!#hs 3 ope" your %u"ts*4 a"( oth 'ere (!ste"(e(. 3 The" Sarah &r!##e( the #!rl* the" the #!rl &r!##e( Sarah* a"( oth operat!o"s I e#a" to "ot!%e please( Sarah as ,u%h as ,e. )he" I ha( rouse( ,y pass!o"s &ully* I put !"to o"e or the other o& these %har,ers &or a &!"!sh* ut the l!ttle o"e #e"erally ha( ,y >r!apea" o&&er!"#. I (!( '!th the, 'hat I &!"( I o&te" (o 'he" I ha/e t'o &e,ales to#ether 3 I 'o"(er !& all ,e" (o the sa,e* !& "ot* 'hat e"joy,e"t they ,!ss 3 I (el!#hte( to put &!rst !"to o"e* pull out ,y pr!%2* a"( the" put !"0to the other* retur" to the &!rst a"( so o". I (!( that '!th the other t'o #!rls 'ho, Sarah o"%e #ot ,e. 3 $&ter ,y &!rst sper,at!% eja%ulat!o" a"( ,y lust 'as su (ue(< at ,y se%o"( tr!al* %ooler tha" oth !" lust a"( ra!"* I %oul( ju(#e o& the (!&&ere"t 5ual!t!es or &!tt!"# o& the %u"ts* %oul( "ot!%e the (!&&ere"t &eel!"#s 'h!%h ,y pr!%2 e+per!e"%e( !" the,. Certa!"ly there !s a (!&&ere"%e !" the se"sat!o" o" the pr!%2 et'ee" the &ully &or,e( %u"t o& a 'o,a" o& t'e"ty0&!/e* a"( that o& a #!rl o& &!&tee" 3 tho to'ar(s the &!"!sh o& the (el!#ht&ul e+er%!se '!th!" the, I %oul( "ot per%e!/e ,u%h< the all per/a(!"# pleasure the" (ro'"!"# ju(#,e"t. Most %u"ts* !& (eep e"ou#h* &eel the sa,e 'he" the pr!%2 s'ells a"( thro s !" !ts !"te"s!ty* as the sper, r!ses up throu#h !t. 8e/ertheless there ha/e ee" ,a"y %u"ts !" 'h!%h ,y pr!%2 (!( "ot &eel !ts &ullest e"joy,e"t* e/e" !" the he!#ht o& the pleasure< a"( e/e" as the sper, thro e( out* I 'as %o"s%!ous o& a %erta!" u"&!t"ess* a"( o& !"%o,plete pleasure. There 'as the (el!#ht o& !"!t!at!"# th!s pretty lass !"to the art o& lo/e* as 'ell as !" #!/!"# !" her se+ual #rat!&!%at!o"* apart &ro, the e"joy,e"t I ha( !" (o!"# 'hat I l!2e( '!th her s'eet &resh o(y* 'h!%h !" !tsel& 'as a" !"0te"se sat!s&a%t!o" 'h!%h ,a(e ,e al,ost lo/e her. 3 Sarah at &!rst hes!tate( at e/ery su##est!o" to let the #!rl part!%!pate !" our re%her%he pleasures* ut y!el(e(. 3 I ,a(e L!1 sol!%!t her. It please( ,e to th!"2 that the you"# o"e 'as (es!rous o& help!"# !" the sat!s&a%t!o" o& ,y let%hes* !t 'as l!2e the pleasure o& ,a2!"# her say au(y 'or(s. O"e y o"e* th!"#s I ha( (o"e '!th Sarah* Sarah* L!1* a"( I the" (!( to#ether to our ,utual #rat!&!%at!o". The
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    (!ary o& ,y erot!% e"joy,e"t !s %o,plete a"( %op!ous !" part!%ulars a out these t'o. )r!t!"# !t* a"( a&ter'ar(s rea(!"# !t has #!/e" ,e the sol!tary pleasure so o&te" tol( o&. I &!"( e/e" a %hapter o" the su je%t o& that pleasure* ut !t '!ll e (estroye(. Th!s !s o"ly to e a "arrat!/e o& &a%ts. Sarah ha( #!/e" ,e the &ullest #rat!&!%at!o" '!th her ,outh. I ha/e #ra(ually e#u" to appre%!ate th!s /ar!ety o& pr!%2 &r!%t!o" a"( 'a"te( her to (o !t e&ore L!1* to !"stru%t the #!rl. It 'oul( please ,e to see the #!rl loo2!"# o". That Sarah hel( out a#a!"st lo"#. 3 O"e "!#ht I sa!( 3 4$s2 your au"t to ta2e ,y pr!%2 !" her ,outh.4 4-o* $u"t*4 sa!( the #!rl trappe( !"to say!"# 4au"t.4 3 4I', "ot your au"t*4 sa!( Sarah &!er%ely* a"( "oth!"# 'oul( persua(e her to (o !t. 3 The" I &u%2e( L!1 'h!lst Sarah 'e"t out ,a" hu"t!"#. 3 My let%h 'as the stro"#er thro Sarah's re&usal* a"( I tol( L!1 that she'( o&te" put !" !" her ,outh* a"( that I'( spe"t there. 4Oh you* a!"'t you story.4 3 I a&&!r,e( !t* sa!( that so,e 'o,e" lo/e( (o!"# !t* a"( tal2e( so "!%ely that L!1 lo"#e( to (o !t. 3 ;ut 48o* ut I '!ll !& Mrs. F..1.r '!ll.4 I le&t 'he" Sarah ha( "ot retur"e(* a"( 2"o'!"# her usual pro,e"a(e 'e"t there* ,et her* a"( as2e( her to #a,ahu%he ,e the "e+t "!#ht. $s she re&use(* I sa!( I shoul("'t #o &or a 'ee2. She 2"e' I 'oul( (o 'hat I sa!(* a"( repe"t!"# o& her o st!"a%y pro,!se(. 9ett!"# e+a%t!"# "o' I !"s!ste( o" &ull pleasure. 3 4I'll "e/er let L!1 see that.4 3 It (el!#hte( ,e to th!"2 a"( su##est ,y let%hes* sta"(!"# a"( %o, at!"# Sarah's o 0 je%t!o"s at the %or"er o& a street* ,e" a"( 'o,e" pass!"# a"( loo2!"# at us. )he" a let%h lays hol( o& ,e I %a" th!"2 o& "oth!"# t!ll I ha/e #rat!&!e( !t* ut %oul( "ot th!s o"e u"t!l t'o or three "!#hts a&ter'ar(s. 3 The" I too2 #oo( s'eet %ha,pa#"e there* &or I ha( "o' &ou"( that s'eet (r!"2 te,pte( L!1 the ,ost. 3 )e all "early str!ppe( 'h!lst (r!"2!"# !t. The" I la!( o" the e(* Sarah su%2e( ,y pr!%2* a"( a&ter'ar(s L!1 (!( the sa,e. L!1 'as 5u!te ser!ous a out !t* a"( e/!(e"tly l!2e( !t !" her ,outh. She lau#h!"#ly sa!( so 3 I (!( "ot spe"(* !t 'as ut a prel!,!"ary. 3 The" !t 'as &or the &!rst t!,e e&ore L!1 that I #rat!&!e( Sarah '!th a %o,plete #a,ahu%he. Sarah #a/e 'ay to her pass!o"s ope"ly s!#he(* tal2e( au(y* &elt L!1's 5u!, '!th o"e ha"(* a"( %lut%he( ,y hea( '!th the other (ur!"# the operat!o". The" I la!( o" the e(* L!1 2"eel!"# o/er ,e '!th ,y hea( et'ee" her th!#hs. 3 I too2 the 'hole o& her (ear* s'eet* %oral* &resh 'ashe( l!ttle spl!t !" ,y ,outh a"( #a,ahu%he( her. 3 She %oul( "ot see Sarah* 'ho at the sa,e ,o,e"t e#a" to #a,ahu%he ,e. 3 The" &or so,e ,!"utes all 'as lus%!ous tra"5u!ll!ty. $s L!1 a"( I &elt our !"%reas!"# pleasure* I %lut%he( L!11!e's l!ttle utto%2s har(er 'h!lst ,y to"#ue playe( o/er her %u"t* a"( Sarah's lo"# to"#ue playe( rou"( the t!p o& ,y pr!%2* "o' t!%2l!"# the &re"u,* "o' the l!ttle or!&!%e* "o' ta2!"# !t &ully !"to her ,outh 'here !t ru e( o/er palate a"( to"#ue. So 'e (el!%!ously playe( '!th ea%h other &or a t!,e* Sarah paus!"# 'he" ,y a%2s!(e 'oul( "ot 2eep 5u!et '!th %o,!"# pleasure* a"( I* 'he" I &elt the 'r!##l!"# o& L!1's a%2s!(e a"( elly* %eas!"# to l!%2* #!/!"#
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    to"#ues* %u"t* a"( pr!%2 a ,!"ute's repose* a"( lett!"# the e+%ess o& our pleasure su s!(e &or a t!,e. The" ,y sper,at!% reser/o!rs re&use( to reta!" the!r al,y l!5u!( lo"#er* the las%!/!ous play o& Sarah's ,outh o/er%a,e (es!re &or &urther (all!a"%e* a"( L!1's l!ttle %u"t t!t!llate( y ,y to"#ue to le'e( &re"1y* a#!tate( !tsel& o/er ,y ,outh* 'h!lst ,y to"#ue respo"(!"# &!+e( o" her %l!tor!s a"( l!%2e( '!l(ly. O" a su((e" her %u"t %lu"# to ,y ,outh '!th pressure 'h!lst !t ,o/e(* a"( a salt e&&us!o" sprea( o/er !t* her a%2s!(e 5u!/ere( !" ,y ha"(s a"( she s!#he( so&tly. I os%!llate( ,y ru,p* ,y pr!%2 see,e( o" &!re* a"(* al,ost urst!"# !"# !" a %u"t* a"( so,eth!"# ,ore tha" a %u"t* a"( shot out a torre"t o& so&t ,u%!la#!"ous sper, !"to Sarah's ,outh. She "e/er rel!"5u!she( ,y pr!%2 t!ll e/ery (rop 'as (ra!"e( out o& ,y test!%les* a"( ,y pleasure slo'ly su s!(e(* ,!+e( '!th a sl!#ht pa!" at the last su%t!o". Th!s t!,e %erta!"ly Sarah e"joye( her 'or2. She ha( #ot ,ore a"( ,ore le'e( (ur!"# ,y lo"# a%5ua!"ta"%e '!th her. She lo/e( her ,eretr!%!ous tra(e a"( I a, sure* altho she says she (oes"'t l!2e !t* that she really e"joys the &eel o& ,y pr!%2 !" her ,outh. -!re%tly she ha( (o"e* she e#a" &eel!"# her o'" %u"t* a"( shortly a&ter'ar(s I #a,ahu%he( her. Th!s (ou le #a,ahu%h!"# pleases ,e ,u%h. I %erta!"ly l!2e ,y pe"!s so &r!%t!o"!1e( !" a "!%e* s,ooth* %herry l!ppe( ,outh* ,ore tha" I use(* a"( the l!%2 o& a (el!%ate l!ttle ha!rless %u"t l!2e L!1's !s a (el!%!ously erot!% t!t0 !t. I ha( th!s a,use,e"t a#a!" a"( a#a!" o" other "!#hts. 3 L!1 ?u"less Sarah has tol( her@ 2"o's "ot that her ,!stress has ta2e" ,y l! at!o" !"to her ,outh* &or she has a "ap2!" at ha"( 'h!%h ult!,ately re%e!/es !t. 8o' I lo"#e( &or L!1 to #a,ahu%he ,e %o,pletely* &or the #!rl ha( h!therto o"ly ta2e" ,e !"to her ,outh &or a ,!"ute* or so. )!th a l!ttle e"%oura#e,e"t she sa!( she'( (o !t lo"#er* &or she l!ttle 2"e' ,y !"te"t!o". 3 Sarah the" 2"elt o" the e( a"( I &!"#ere( her %u"t* 'h!lst L!1 operate( o" ,y pe"!s. 3 Her pretty* %herry l!ppe( s'eet l!ttle ,outh see,e( s%ar%ely lar#e e"ou#h to ta2e ,y pe#o* yet !" !t 'e"t. 3 49o o" (arl!"# put !t &urther !".4 4Oh: a!"'t !t st!&&*4 sa!( she* ta2!"# !t &ro, her ,outh a"( loo2!"# a(,!r!"#ly at !t. 4Yes* l!%2 the re( t!p. 3 Yes* so 3"o' put !t !" 3 su%2 !t* lo/e.4 4Shall I ,a2e !t sp!t*4 a"( she e#a" %lu,s!ly to &r!# !t* a&ter she'( a#a!" ta2e" !t out. Fr!##!"# !s "ot lear"t !" a (ay* a"( L!11!e %a"'t (o !t "!%ely at all. I (!("'t '!sh that. 3 4You shall ,a2e !t spe"(* so prese"tly* #o o" su%2!"# !t "o' (ear.4 3 O" she 'e"t 3 the %r!s!s 'as &ast %o,!"#. 3 49o o" L!11!e (arl!"#* #o 5u!%2er. 3 Further !" your ,outh* (ear. 3 She o eye(* she 'as "o' &as%!"ate( '!th the a,use,e"t. 4$rha 3 #o o" 3 aha.4 3 My pleasure 'as %o,plete* a"( e&ore she 'as a'are o& !t I ha( &!lle( her ,outh '!th ,y lo/e esse"%e. 3 The" she rushe( to the %ha, er pot. 3 4Oh* you're a "asty (o%tor.4 Sarah lau#he(. 3 4You'/e (o"e ,ore tha" ,e* L!1.4 3 The #!rl 'as a l!ttle a"#ry* ut !" a ,!"ute or t'o* lau#he( a out !t. ;et'ee" ,a" a"( 'o,a" "o &or, o& lust* or #a,e o& se"sual sat!s&a%t!o" !s really (!spleas!"#.
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    The o"e se+ al'ays l!2es #!/!"# pleasure to the other. E/ery &or,* (e/!%e* or ,a""er o& a,atory a,use,e"t* playe( '!th e/ery part o& the perso"* !s proper. 3 >r!%2* %u"t* arsehole* ar,p!ts* reasts* ,outh* all %a" ,!"!ster to se+ual pleasure. 3 ;oth se+es !" t!,e &!"( that out* a"( e"joy the, all. Other &or,s o& erot!% pleasure too2 the!r tur". O"e "!#ht I &u%2e( Sarah to let L!1 see the %o,e0a"(0#o o& a pr!%2 !" a %u"t. I ha( &u%2e( L!1 a"( the" #a,ahu%he( her* a"( Sarah ha( &r!##e( hersel&. )e ha( all (ru"2 a lot* a"( !t 'as pleasure to see ea%h other p!ss. I 'as !"te"sely rutt!sh that "!#ht. 3 I a#a!" set Sarah to #a,ahu%he ,e* 'h!lst I #a,ahu%he( L!1 2"eel!"# o/er ,e. It 'as* as I ha( alrea(y spe"t t'!%e* a lo"# us!"ess to r!"# out ,y sper,* &or I a, "ot as you"# as I 'as< a"( the lass 'as "ot so rea(y '!th her pleasure* ut she spe"t lo"# e&ore I (!(. I &!"( that ha/!"# ,y pr!%2 su%2e( !s %erta!"ly a ,ost lu+ur!ous 'ay o& &!"!sh!"# a" e/e"!"# 'he" "early &u%2e( out< there !s "o la or e+%ept!"# &or the #a,ahu%her. It !s a sa yr!t!% 'ay o& &!"!sh!"# a" e/e"!"#. The" I ha( a retur" o& ,y ,!%turat!"# let%hes 'h!%h see,e( to please Sarah* the ,ore so a"( I th!"2 ,a!"ly so* as I ,a(e L!11!e part!%!pate. I strea,e( a#a!"st her l!ttle 5u!,* a"( she strea,e( o/er ,y pr!%2* ut the let%h (!( "ot last lo"# a"( ter,!"ate( y th!s erot!% 'h!,. I" a shop '!"(o' I sa' so,e %h!"a &u""els* su%h as are use( y %he,!sts. The !(ea stru%2 ,e at o"%e* e!"# the" le'e(* a"( 'al2!"# alo"# '!th las%!/!ous %o, !"at!o"s 'or2!"# !" ,y ra!". I ou#ht o"e o& 'h!%h the "e%2 'as perhaps as lar#e as a s,all s!1e( pr!%2. 4Sally I 'a"t to &!ll your %u"t '!th ,y p!((le throu#h th!s &u""el.4 Sarah re&use(* the" e+a,!"e( !t* she 'as "ot #o!"# to ha/e that put !"to her. The" she lau#he(* the" jo2e(* a"( y the t!,e she'( ha( a l!ttle #ro#* 'o"(ere( ho' !t 'oul( &eel* a"( at last sa!( !t 'oul( e a lar2 to try the &u""el. >utt!"# p!llo's u"(er her hea( a"( shoul(ers* she rest!"# really o"ly o" her "e%2* hea( a"( la(e o"es* she ho!ste( hersel& up* a"( her a%2 al,ost /ert!%ally a#a!"st the e(* a"( so that her %u"t 'as "early hor!1o"tal. 9e"tly I !"serte( the &u""el !" !t* stopp!"# 'he" she tol( ,e. Full &our !"%hes 'ere 'ell !, e((e( !" !ts &ol(s. The" I p!sse( &reely !"to the tru,pet e"( o& the &u""el* see!"# the 'ater r!se #ra(ually !" !t* 'h!lst* "ot a (rop es%ape( &ro, her /a#!"a. $t le"#th she lau#he(* that ,o/e( her %u"t* u"t!l a s,all 5ua"t!ty rose out y the s!(e o& the &u""el. It 'as o"e o& the ,ost s!"#ular 'h!,s I e/er #rat!&!e(* ut 'hat pleasure !t #a/e to all three o& us. There 'as ut o"e 'ay o& rel!e/!"# her &ro, her pos!t!o"* 'h!%h soo" e0%a,e pa!"&ul 3I '!th(re' the &u""el* a"( the sal!"e %o"te"ts ra" o/er her elly a"( utto%2s. She 'as start "a2e(* a"( the p!((le o"ly spo!le( the p!llo' %o/er* 'h!%h she str!ppe( o&& !"sta"tly 'he" she ha( #ot up0r!#ht. )hat !"&!"!te /ar!ety o& pleasures a %u"t %a" #!/e to ,e" a"( 'o,e" '!th erot!% &a"%!es. Sarah e"joye( th!s lar2 !,,e"sely. 3 She 2ept the &u""el. -!( she sho' !t to other ,e" a"( 'o,e"* a"( tell7 I'll et she (!(.
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    L!11!e* as sa!(* 'as prese"t '!th her 4Ohoo ,o!4 a"( 'as (el!#hte( '!th the e+h! !t!o". She 'as "o' prese"t at all our au(y rollo%2!"#s. Sarah 'as #ett!"# her !"0to h!#h tra!"!"# &or harlotry. She (e"!e( that* 'he" I re,ar2e( !t* a"( tal2e( o& #ett!"# L!1 a s!tuat!o" so soo" as I '!she( "o ,ore o& her. 3 The l!ttle &a!r ha!re( eauty ho'e/er ha( pretty 'ell lear"t 'hat the pro&ess!o" o& Ve"us 'as* &or she ha( '!t"esse( all ,y 'h!,s '!th Sarah* a"( ha( per&or,e( ,a"y o& the sa,e tr!%2s '!th ,e. I use( to s!t &eel!"# oth the!r %u"ts at the sa,e t!,e. Sarah 'oul( l!e (o'" a"( 'e 'oul( loo2 at her %u"t* a&ter'ar(s Sarah a"( I at L!11!e's. So 'he" I sa!( t'o or three "!#hts a&ter* that I'( l!2e to put the &u""el up L!11!e's %u"t* Sarah lau#he(* a"( the #!rl o"ly sa!(* 4It '!ll hurt ,e.4 4)hy !t's "ot "early so th!%2 a"( !# as the (o%tor's pr!%2*4 sa!( Sarah ta2!"# the &u""el out o& a %up oar(. The l!ttle lass prepare( to put hersel& !" the att!tu(e* ut th!s t!,e !"stea( o& a#a!"st the e(* a#a!"st Sarah* 'ho* "a2e(* hel( up the #!rl's le#s* a"( rou#ht the l!ttle %u"t !"to the hor!1o"tal pos!t!o". The" I !"serte( the &u""el "early as &ar as !t ha( #o"e up Sarah* a"( !"s that l!ttle %u"t !t see,e( to #o up just as eas!ly. The (!lata !l!ty o& a %u"t !s truly 'o"(er&ul. 3 The" I 5u!te &!lle( the &u""el '!th ,y #ol(e" strea,. 3 48o0 o(y 'oul( el!e/e !t !& I tell a"y o"e*4 sa!( L!11!e. Sarah loo2e( astou"(e(. 3 4Tell a"y o"e7 3You l!ttle &ool* you'( #et yoursel& a"( all o& us !,pr!so"e( !& a"y o"e 'as tol( o& the &u" 'e ha/e here* ha/e you tol( a"y o& the people !" the house74 3 The #!rl sa!( she ha("'t* ut loo2e( %o"&use( a"( ,u%h as !& she ha(* &or she "o' tal2e(* I &ou"(* to so,e other #!rls !" the house. 3 $ 'o,a"'s a or" #oss!p* she %a"'t 2eep her to"#ue st!ll. $ se%ret 'orr!es her* a"( !t 'oul( "ot at all surpr!se ,e !& L!1 has tol( a"other #!rl. 3 She ha( #ot to e 5u!te prou( o& her se+ual 2"o'le(#e* a"( o"e (ay !" our tQte0R0tQte sa!(* 4So,e #als (oes"'t 2"o' "oth!"# a out a (o!" !t as 'e (oes.4 3 Ho' (!( she 2"o' that u"less she'( as2e( #!rls7 8oth!"# please( ,e ,ore tha" putt!"# the t'o &e,ales s!(e y s!(e "a2e( o" the e(* 2"eel!"# '!th the!r utto%2s to'ar(s ,e. The" the !# ha"(so,e he,!spheres o& Sarah* 'h!%h al'ays loo2e( lar#er !" that pos!t!o" tha" !" a"y other* %o"traste( eaut!&ully '!th the s,all ut (a11l!"#ly 'h!te u, %hee2s o& L!11!e< 'h!lst the %o"trast et'ee" the (ar2 ha!re( pouters et'ee" Sarah's th!#hs* a"( the l!ttle se,!0ha!rless l!ps* yet &la+e" hue o& the spl!t* 'as %o%2 st!&&e"!"#. The" I use( to slap the, alter"ately* the" 2!ss the!r a%2s!(es* the" the!r %u"ts* the" slap a"( 2!ss a#a!" t!ll t!re(* or u"t!l I &u%2e( o"e o& the,. So,et!,es I l!%2e( L!1's %u"t !" that att!tu(e* 'h!lst I &elt or %o"te,plate( the (ar2 ha!re( pu(e"(al %har,s o& the !# "e#le%te( o"e* a"( so,et!,es &u%2e( her. $&ter a t!,e 'he" Sarah treate( L!1 just as she 'oul( a"other harlot* I too2 pleasure !" ,a2!"# the l!ttle o"e slap Sarah's utto%2s. So,et!,es 'e oth slappe( the, to#ether t!ll they 'ere re( a"( t!"#le(. The" L!1 slappe( the, 'h!lst I &u%2e( Sarah* she lay!"# o/er ,e* Sarah sa!( !t ,a(e her le'e(. 3
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    Certa!"ly she see,e( to e"%oura#e the #!rl to slap her* a"( ore the lo's '!th #reat tra"5u!ll!ty* ut I (!("'t el!e/e the" that she ha( phys!%al pleasure. 3 I s,a%2e( L!11!e's 'h!te l!ttle u,* ut she (!("'t l!2e !t. $t that t!,e '!th all ,y 2"o'le(#e* I 'as s!"#ularly !#"ora"t o& the e&&e%ts o& &la#ellat!o"* o& the heat* lust* a"( phys!%al e"joy,e"t* that ,ay e #e"erate( y ju(!%!ous u, 'ha%2!"#* &lo##!"#* a"( !r%h!"#. >erhaps th!s s,a%2!"# o& Sarah's utto%2s 'as a le'e( !"st!"%t o& ,!"e* lea(!"# ,e up to the h!#her 2"o'le(#e o& the se+ual ,yster!es* a"( o& the !,pulse #!/e" y the #e"erat!/e or#a"s to the ra!"* a"( the e"t!re hu,a" &ra,e. I "o' 2"o' they are al'ays at 'or2* a"( are the #reat sour%e a"( a%tuat!"# pr!"%!ple o& hu,a" e+!ste"%e* a"( perhaps o& all a"!,al l!&e. 3 The pr!%2 a"( %u"t are the pr!,e ,otors o& hu,a"!ty* the &oo( ut heats a"( st!rs the, to a%t!o". Tho L!11!e %ease( to %all Sarah 4$u"t4 3 she let sl!p that t!tle o%%as!o"ally* a"( I shoul( "ot e surpr!se( !& she 'ere really e"t!tle( to that appellat!o". I" ,y youth* the s,allest a"( you"#est #!rl ?a"( st!ll the you"#est I yet ha/e ha(@ %alle( the &e,ale she 'as '!th 4au"t.4 3 $"other #!rl* !& "ot t'o* 'hose "a,es I just "o' &or#et* ut o& 'ho, I ha/e tol( %alle( the!r ,!stress' 4au"t*4 a"( I &a"%y that* ,a"y au"ts a,o"# the hu, ler %lasses ,a2e a l!ttle ,o"ey out o& the!r "!e%es' /!r#!"!t!es. 3 They 2"o' 'ell that at a out &ourtee" years o& a#e* #!rls es%ape the!r %are* '!ll play '!th oys a"( youths* a"( are pretty sure to e roa%he( e&ore they are s!+tee". $u"ts o&te" th!"2 that a #e"tle,a" ,ay as 'ell ha/e the roa%h!"# o& a l!ttle %u"t a"( pay &or !t* as a %oster la( ha/e !t &or "oth!"#. 3 I"(ee( I el!e/e that to e a ph!losoph!%al 'ay o& loo2!"# at !t* %o,,o" to a lar#e "u, er o& the poor people !" all %ou"tr!es. 3 Ca,!lle ?the &!rst@* &et%he( a"( sol( to ,e her s!ster Lou!se. 3 Other #!rls ha/e #ot the!r you"# &e,ale relat!o"s &or ,e* a"( l!2e( (o!"# !t* l!2e( the p!,p!"#. 3 The poor* a"( '!sely* a"( r!#ht !" the!r s!,pl!%!ty o& "ature* see "o har, !" %opulat!o" as those etter o&& pro&ess to (o ut 'hether they really see har, !s a"other 5uest!o"@. 3 $ #!rl !s "ot a,o"# "!"e0te"ths o& the populat!o" ,orally (a,a#e( y a l!ttle !ll!%!t &u%2!"#* as she !s a,o"# those 'ho loo2 upo" a hy,e" as a pr!1e a"( #uara"tee* !" the 'o,a" they see2 as a '!&e. $ll sa!( 3 the &e,ale 'ho 2eeps her %u"t hy,e"!1e( a"( u"(er seal a,o"#st the 'ell0to0(o0%lasses* o"ly (oes so that she ,ay #et a h!#her pr!%e &or !t* e!ther !" ,o"ey or pos!t!o". She so,et!,es "e/er atta!"s e!ther* a"( ,ostly has to 'a!t lo"# &or !t* 'a!t &or years* a"( &r!#s hersel& (ur!"# her 'a!t!"#* la"#u!sh!"# &or 'a"t o& a pr!%2 a"( sper,at!% lu r!%at!os* 'h!%h !s health #!/!"# to a &e,ale. 3 $ poorer #!rl has earl!er the pr!%2 up her* a"( e/ery (ay* perhaps* has the !"te"se pleasures o& &u%2!"#* a"( all the /ar!e( a,atory e"joy,e"ts 'h!%h a ,a" !s pretty sure to #!/e her !" all sorts o& 'ays. 3 Thus the happ!"ess o& l!&e are pretty e/e"ly (!str! ute(. 3 >erhaps the 'o,a" 'ho &ollo's her se+ual !"st!"%ts* a"( 'ho !s thus the ,ost "atural* has the est o& !t. Fu%2!"# !s the #reatest pleasure o& l!&e* a"( the 'o,a" 'ho (elays #ett!"# !t &or years* loses ,u%h. The 'o,a" 'ho 'a!ts t!ll she !s t'e"ty0s!+ e&ore she
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    !s &u%2e(* loses te" years' pleasure* %o,pare( '!th o"e 'ho has a pr!%2 up her at s!+tee"* a"( re#ularly a&ter'ar(s. I e#a" at last to e 'eary o& the #!rl* a"( at the sa,e t!,e #ot a"+!ous a out her. She* l!2e all others* 'a"te( to #o out a"( sho' her &!"e %lothes. 3 It 'as o& "o use oppos!"# !t* a"( Sarah too2 her out. ;ut the %lothes 'ere sho'y a"( Sarah* e!"# a "!#ht !r( a"( o"ly 'ear!"# la%2 s!l2* the #!rl loo2e( /ery r!#ht* a"( ,e" %a,e a&ter the #!rl* so that they oth too2 to 'ear!"# /e!ls. 3 Sa!( I* 4She '!ll #o #ay.4 48ot !& I %a" help !t 3 I l!2e her too 'ell* I'll 'or2 &or her*4 Sarah repl!e(. The" I a(/!se( Sarah ta2!"# her a%2 to the %ou"try 3 Sarah sa!( that the #!rl 'oul( "ot #o* a"( ,oreo/er* that !t 'as !,poss! le. The #!rl soo" a&ter see,e( hurt &or I (!( "ot see her or po2e her as ,u%h. 3 C!r%u,sta"%es 'ere !" &a%t %ha"#!"# '!th ,e a"( I %oul( "ot #et to see her* tho I '!she( 3 Sarah sa!( she tol( the #!rl to &r!# hersel& !& she 'as ra"(y* a"( I 2"o' &r!##e( her hersel&. 4That '!ll 2eep her &ro, 'a"t!"# &u%2!"# &or a !t* ut she'll e lo"#!"# &or the r!#ht th!"# !" her %u"t.4 3 $&ter ha/!"# ha( L!1 a out &!/e ,o"ths* I 'as o l!#e( to #o a roa(. 3 Sarah 'as to try to #et her !"to so,e s!tuat!o"* ut 'here she %oul( 'at%h her 3 I le&t e"ou#h ,o"ey to 2eep the #!rl &our ,o"ths. I 'as a'ay &our ,o"ths. The &!rst "!#ht I 'as a%2 !" E"#la"( I 'e"t to >...l..( >. . .e a"( ,et Sarah 'ho, I 2"e' a ,!le o&&. I as2e( her to %o,e to the $..a. 3 Shall I r!"# her* sa!( she lau#h!"#. 3 ;y her s!(e stoo( a #!rl '!th a /e!l o". 3 I loo2e(. 34-o"'t you 2"o' her74 The #!rl ra!se( her /e!l a"( lau#he( 5u!te a peal. It 'as L!11!e. 4You ha/e ,a(e her a 'hore* !t's a (a,"e( sha,e*4 sa!( I a"#r!ly. 3 4I ha/e"'t* let's #o to the $..a*4 a"( there 'e all 'e"t. 4It's e+traor(!"ary to ,eet you* &or !t's the &!rst "!#ht I ha/e rou#ht her out. 3 Loo2* her th!"#s are &resh* the o""et a"( (ress you #a/e her are "ot su!t0 a le &or the seaso" &or !t 'as the e"( o& autu,"@ 3 see her oots* her sto%2!"#s* her #arters a"( all 3all 5u!te &resh.4 4)hat ha/e I (o"e that you (!( "ot %o,e to see ,e*4 L!11!e 'h!,pere(. Sa!( Sarah* 4)e ,ust l!/e* I put her to a us!"ess* ut she 'oul( "ot stop te" hours a (ay !" a 'or2shop !" a %lose roo,. The" I put her at . . . a"( she 'oul( "ot stop there. She 'oul( %o,e out* a"( she'll ,a2e te" t!,es as ,u%h y ,y help as she 'oul( y hersel&. 3 I (!( "ot 'a"t !t* a"( ha/e ee" 2!"( to her* ha/e"'t I L!17 3 I '!ll 2eep her '!th pleasure*4 Sarah 'e"t o"* 4 ut she 'o"'t stop at ho,e '!thout ,e.4 3 L!1* 'h!lst th!s 'as #o!"# o"* 'as s!tt!"# o" ,y 2"ee* ,y &!"#ers 'ere o" her l!ttle s'eet %u""y* ut &or a ,!"ute o"ly* &or 5u!%2ly 'e all #ot o" to the e(. 3 Sarah u"as2e(. 3 She ha( her ol( let%h o"* a"( &r!##e( her0sel& 'h!lst I &u%2e( the l!ttle o"e a#a!" a"( a#a!". The #!rl ha( #ro'" a" !"%h* 'as plu,per* ha( ,ore ha!r o" her l!ttle 5u!,* 'h!%h 'as ,ore e"t!%!"# tha" e/er* a"( 'as a lo/ely l!ttle %reature alto#ether.
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    I 'as sorry to th!"2 that she 'oul( tur" out #ay* a"( el!e/e( that that 'as really the &!rst "!#ht she 'as out &or the purpose. 3 $ ,a" ha( alrea(y a%%oste( her a"( the lass ha( re&use( h!,. 3* Sarah tol( her that #ay l!&e 'as #ay l!&e a"( ,o"ey ,o"ey. 3 I& she ,ea"t to #et a l!/!"# that 'ay* she ,ust"'t play the &ool* ut ta2e a"y o"e 'ho'( pay ha"(so,ely. 4I 'oul("'t*4 sa!( L!1* toss!"# her hea(. 3 4He 'as a" u#ly l!ttle ol( ,a" '!th a 'h!te ear( a"( I %oul( "ot a ear the s!#ht o& h!, 3 a l!ttle ol( ,a".4 Ho' the #!rl e"joye( her &u%2!"# 3 a"( 'hat a lo/ely %u"t she ha(. 3 Ho' I e"joye( her* ut %!r%u,sta"%es 'ere too stro"# &or ,e* !t 'as !,poss! le &or ,e to see her ,u%h 3 I ,a(e her pro,!se "ot to e #ay* a"( a#ree( to #!/e Sarah three pou"(s a 'ee2 &or her* 'h!lst I 'as !" E"#la"(. 3 8e+t "!#ht I sa' the, at the lo(#!"#s. 3 Sarah sa!( she (!("'t ,!"( 'or2!"# &or the #!rl* her let%h &or her she "o' a(,!tte(* ut the #!rl 'oul("'t e ,ope( up. 3 She 'oul( #o out* so 'hat 'as Sarah to (o. The e"( 'as %lear* that she 'as to e a #ay 'o,a". For a"other ,o"th or so I ha( her* the" a#a!" 'e"t a roa(* lea/!"# t'e"ty pou"(s &or the #!rl to l!/e o" 'h!le I 'as a'ay. 3 O" ,y retur" !t 'as 'ell o" !" '!"ter. 3 I 'e"t to the ol( hau"ts 3 Sarah 'as "ot /!s! le 3 to her lo(#!"#s a"( she ha( le&t* a"( "o o"e 2"e' 'here she ha( #o"e. 3 I 'e"t to au(y houses a"( there they ha( ,!sse( her. 3 O"e ol( 'o,a" loo2e( 5ueerly at ,e* a"( sa!( she (!( "ot 2"o' su%h a 'o,a"* altho a"y o"e 'ho ha( see" Sarah t'!%e ,ust ha/e re%olle%te( her. 3 4)hy I ha/e pa!( you &or roo,s '!th M!ss F..1.r (o1e"s o& t!,es.4 3 The" the 'o,a" a(,!tte( she 2"e' her a"( ,e* ut ha( ,!sse( her so,e t!,e. 3 4I thou#ht*4 sa!( the 'o,a"* 4you 'as a&ter her &or so,eth!"#.4 She too2 ,e to e a (ete%t!/e I th!"2 at &!rst. Sa!( I* 4She use( a l!ttle t!,e a#o to e '!th a you"# &a!r ha!re( #!rl* 'here !s she74 4Oh yes* ut I'/e "ot see" the #!rl "e!ther 3 there 'as so,e sort o& a ro' a out her 3 ut there*4 sa!( she* stopp!"# short* 4I (o"'t 2"o' a"yth!"# a out e!ther 3 there.4 3I #a/e her te" sh!ll!"#s to tell ,e all she 2"e'* she too2 !t* a"( sa!( she 2"e' "oth!"# ,ore. I as2e( t'o or three #ay 'o,e" 'ho, I ha( see" tal2!"# to Sarah. 3 They 2"e' "oth!"#. 3 O"e I too2 to a house* hop!"# to #et so,e !"&or,at!o". 3 She sa!( Sarah 'as a a( o"e she el!e/e(. 3 I "e/er sa' or hear( o& e!ther Sarah or L!11!e a#a!". My !,press!o" !s that so,e o"e 'as a&ter Sarah o" a%%ou"t o& L!1* a"( that they oth ha( &le( &ro, Lo"(o" 3 I &eel sure Sarah ha( "o '!sh &or her to e #ay* ut L!1 ha( lear"e( to l!2e the re( 2"o e( &lesh st!%2 &ar etter tha" a"other 'o,a"'s %u"t* a"( I (are say !s ,err!ly &u%2!"# a out so,e'here "o'* a"( I hope !s happy. So &!"!she( ,y a%5ua!"ta"%e '!th Sarah F..1.r 'ho* '!th her su st!tutes* ha( ,a!"ly a,use( ,e &or so,e0th!"# l!2e &our years. I (!( "ot ho'e/er see her
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    usually ,ore tha" t'!%e a 'ee2 to ha/e her* a"( so,et!,e t'o or three 'ee2s elapse( '!thout ,y (o!"# so. 3 $t t!,es I 'as a roa(* or a'ay &ro, to'" &or &ar lo"#er per0 !o(s* a"( at other t!,es I 'as /!rtuous a"( at ho,e. 3 ;ut there 'ere o&te" o%%as!o"s 'he" I 'as alo"e !" to'"* a"( &ree to (!spose o& ,ysel& a"( ,y sper,. 3 It 'as at those opportu"!t!es that I ha( ,y rutt!"# &!ts* a"( "ota ly so 'he" I ha( the ,a". JThe a(/e"ture 'h!%h &ollo's !s s!"#ular !" !ts 'ay 3 &or I ha(* as "arrate(* a" Ir!sh 'o,a" so,e t!,e s!"%e* '!th the sa,e /a"!ty 'h!%h ,ar2s th!s o"e. I ha/e ho'e/er ha( E"#l!sh 'o,e" 'ho /au"te( the!r o'" eaut!es.K

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    Chapter P $ l!#ht0ha!re( Ir!sh !t%h. Foul0to"#ue( a"( hotarse(. Re%o"(!te e+press!o"s. 4-'ye lo!2e ,e.4 Her olt &ro, -u l!". ;a##a#e (eta!"e(. $ susp!%!ous tale. My re#rets at los!"# Sarah. Ca,!lle re/!s!te(. Her rothel /e"ture. $ out so(o,!tes a"( %ata,!tes. ;u##ers' sph!"%ters. Her &r!e"('s %ata,!t!% tastes. So(o,y %u, #a,ahu%he. Lolotte the you"# ;el#a!". O" the 5ual!t!es o& (!&&ere"t %u"ts. Lolotte's #a,ahu%he. Re&le+!o"s o" the %ha"#e !" ,y erot!% tastes. $" art!st !" le'e("ess. Fre"%h* &at* 'h!te0s2!""e(* re(0ha!re( a"( th!rty0&!/e. Re&!"e( ,!"!strat!o"s. $"al &!"#er!"#. $ sph!"%ter (!late(. L!"#ual (el!%a%!es. B!( #lo/es a"( %ol( %rea,. The %ur!ous %ha!r. Erot!% su##est!o"s. -!l(o u##ery. $ se%o"( harlot t'o pleasures at o"%e. $"us a"( pu(e"(a !" s!,ulta"eous a%t!o". JFor %o"t!"u!ty o& the "arrat!/e a out Sarah F..1.r* the &ollo'!"# l!ttle !"%!(e"t 'as o,!tte( &ro, !ts proper pla%e. 3 It o%%urre( a out a year e&ore Sarah (!sappeare(. The (ate o" the ,a"us%r!pt pro/es that. I (o"'t th!"2 I e/er tol( Sarah o& !t.K I 'as #o!"# alo"# Co/e"try St. o" a ,u((y e/e"!"#* a"( sa' a lo/ely a!r o& &eet a"( a"2les support!"# a 'ell #ro'" o(y 3 !t 'as a l! eral (!splay o& le# !" s!l2 3 loo2!"# at the &e,ale as I passe(* she '!"2e( !" the lust&ul 'hor!sh 'ay 'h!%h a 'o,a" (oes 'he" thorou#hly le'e( at the ,o,e"t* a"( loo2s at a ,a" !r/0!t!"#ly. It !s ,y theory that she %o,,u"!%ates at o"%e so,e le'e("ess to h!,. 3 I (o"'t ,ea" the le'e( loo2 o& a 'o,a" 'ho !"%!tes you o"ly to #et ,o"ey* ut 'he" she's really ra"(y a"( 'a"ts a ,ale* 'a"ts to e &u%2e( a(ly. 3 Th!s 'o,a" (!( so* a"( at o"%e I re%!pro%ate( her lust. She &ollo'e( ,e up a s!(e street. 34You'/e a &!"e le#*4 sa!( I e#!""!"#. 3 )!th stro"# Ir!sh ro#ue 'h!%h I %a"'t !,!tate !" 'r!t!"#* "or !"(ee( a"y 'ay* she sa!(* 4Sure a"( there !s"'t a &o!"er !" all the to'"* 'o"'t your %o%2 sta"( &or shure !& you see a l!ttle h!#her*4 a"( she pulle( up her %lothes to her 2"ees !" the (ar2 street. 3 I %a"'t ear Ir!sh 'o,e"* ha/!"# &ou"( the, l!ars a"( th!e/es* a"( (!( "ot l!2e her ,a""er. 3 4Cor" lo"#.4 48o* I', poor a"( %a"'t to "!#ht* ut here !s a #lass o& '!"e &or you.4 4O%h: to the -!/!l '!th the %ash 3 shure a"( 'e 'o"'t 5uarrel a out that 3 %or" 3shure a" I lo!2e the loo2s o& you 3 I', %lose y 3 %o,e.4 I &ollo'e( her a"( she 'e"t at su%h a pa%e* as !& e!ther the pol!%e 'ere a&ter her* or that she 'as &r!#hte"e( o& sh!tt!"# hersel&. )e e"tere( a house a"( a %o,&orta le roo, '!th a #oo( &!re. 3 $ lar#e tru"2 'as o" the &loor. 3 Sa!( she* 4Shure a"( I'/e "ot ee" here a" hour a"( "ot u"pa%2e( 3 I'/e ee" a 'ee2 %o,!"# &ro, -u l!" 3 It's 9o('s truth* ,ay I #o to the !##est hell !& I'/e ee" &u%2e( &or a 'ee2.4 3 $ll th!s rap!(ly !" a"s'er to ,y 5uest!o"s* a"( so,e '!thout ,y 5uest!o"s. 3 The" she pulle( out ,y pr!%2. 3 4It's "ot st!&& 3 'a!t a se%o"( a"( !t'll e st!&& e"ou#h* (a,"e( !& I (o"'t &eel as !& I'( &or#otte" 'hat a ,a" !s*4 a"( !" a /!ole"t hurry* she tore o&&
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    her th!"#s t!ll she 'as start0"a2e(* oots a"( sto%2!"#s e+%epte(* apostroph!1!"# her parts &ro, t!,e to t!,e. 3 4There's a pa!r o& th!#hs 3 ha/e"'t I a &o!"e shape 3 "ot a &o!"er y Dasus* a"( there* &eel ,y u a"( '!th su%h a lar#e ru,p.4 s 3 loo2 at ,y s,all 'a!st 3

    3 ;y that t!,e she 'as "a2e( 'h!lst I ha( o"ly ta2e" ,y hat o&&. 3 The" she #ra e( at ,y pr!%2 a#a!" ?she ha( pulle( !t out@* the" thre' hersel& at the e(#e o& the e(* a"( ope"!"# her th!#hs* 4>ut !t up ,e (arl!"# hoy* &u%2 ,e %hu"t 3 loo2 at the ha!r o" !t* !t's &o!"e shure* ah: I e"/y the pleasure yer pr!%2 '!ll ha/e !" !t ,e hoy 3 &u%2 3%or" o" 3&u%2.4 3 The slut 'as hot %u"te(. 3 o!l!"# '!th lust 3 !" &ull rut u",!sta2a ly. I (!("'t l!2e her ,a""er* spee%h* or %olour* ut altho short!sh* a ,ore super &or,* ,ore lo/ely 'h!te &lesh* "e/er 'as o&&ere( to ,y e, ra%es 3 I put ,y pr!%2 at o"%e !"to her #lo'!"# %u"t* a"( (!re%tly !t 'as 'ell lo(#e( !" !ts &ol(s* she urst out !"to su%h a torre"t o& au(y 'or(s* su%h o s%e"!ty* su%h r! al( s%ree%h!"#* as I "e/er hear( e&ore or s!"%e &ro, a 'o,a" !" %opulat!o"< tho I ha/e 2"o'" so,e #ay la(!es* 'he" the!r pleasure 'as o"* pretty &ra"2 a out !t* a"( ha/e tau#ht a &e' 'ho 'ere "ot #ay to e 'ar, !" the!r e+%la,at!o"s o& pleasure. O& late years I !"terlar( ,y e"(ear,e"ts '!th le'e( 'or(s a"( '!shes* !t a((s ,u%h to ,y e"joy,e"t ,e"tally* &or &u%2!"# !s the su l!,est ,e"tal as 'ell as phys!%al pleasure. 4$ha*4 she e#a"* 4aha 3 oho 3 &u%2 !t 'ell 3 e#orra your pr!%2's re( hot 3 !t's !#. 3 $haa 3 sure ,e %hu"t's hot as hell 3 &u%2 3 &u%2 har( 3 p!ss out your o!l!"# spu"2 !"to ,y loo(y %hu"t 3 sure that '!ll %ool ,e %hu"t. 3 $ha 9o(: aha &u%2 har( yer u##er. 3 $ha* Holy V!r#!" ,y loo(y spe"(!"#s are %o,!"#. 3 $ha 3 a lo/ely pr!%2 3 st!&& 3 push !t har( up ,e %hu"t 3 &u%2 3 spl!t ,e hot %hu"t !"to ,e ra"(y arse0hole. 3 Fu%2 e, oth 3 ahar 3 &u%2 3 &u%2 3 "o' 3 "o'. 3 $ha* I', %o,!"# 3 spe"( 3 spu"2 3 &u%2 %u"t 3 allo%2s. 3 $ha 3 arseholes 3 ahra 3 ,y spu"2s 3 ahaa 3 ahaa.4 She 'as s!le"t* her th!#hs 5u!et. She'( spe"t ere I ha( hal& &u%2e( her* &or her &!er%e au(!"ess a"( outra#eous o s%e"!ty at &!rst see,e( to stop ,y pleasure. It ,a(e ,e th!"2 &or the !"sta"t that she 'as ,a(. I 'e"t o" thrust!"#* ,y lust #ett!"# stro"#er as her le'e( 'or(s 'rou#ht %lou(s o& ,eretr!%!ous !,a#es !" ,y ra!"* 'he" a&ter a short s!le"%e* '!th a su((e" e&&ort she u"%u"te( ,e* a"( stru##l!"# up pushe( ,e a'ay say!"#. 3 4Sure a"( I just 'a"te( a &u%2 3 I hope I'll (!e a &u%2!"#.4 3 Is she ,a( or (ru"2 I thou#ht7 3 ;ut e+%ept!"# &or her e+%!ta !l!ty* l! !(!"os!ty* a"( lasphe,ous o s%e"!ty* she see,e( so er e"ou#h. She s,!le( as a"#r!ly I %r!e(* 4L!e (o'" a"( let ,e &!"!sh*4 shut her eyes '!thout a"s'er!"#* a"( see,e( to e &eel!"# her %l!tor!s* s!tt!"# at the e(#e o& the e( 'here I stoo( s'ear!"#* ,y pr!%2 sta"(!"# st!&& !" &ro"t o& ,e.
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    4Let ,e &!"!sh &u%2!"#* 'hat the -e/!l are you a out*4 a"( I 0%lut%he( her as she rose &ro, the e(* ut she es%ape( ,e. My pass!o" 'as rouse( 'ell y the pro !"# I'( ha( !" her %u"t. 3 4)a!t a !t ,e hoy* th!" a"( shure I'll e a&ter spe"(!"# a#!"* y the Holy Mother you're a lo/ely &u%2er* you'/e lear"e( a !t !" your t!,e* ,a"y's the %hu"ts you'/e %oole( e#orra. 3 8o 3 8o 3 'a!t a !t a"( I'll e spe"(!"# a#!" '!th yer.4 4Hu, u# you (!("'t spe"(* you l!e.4 4-!("'t I spe"(7 shure a"( I (!(* !t's 9o('s truth 3 loo2.4 O" the s!(e o& the e( she la!( (o'" a"( ope"e( her th!#hs '!(e. 3 4There ,e hoy 3I'( just ha/e (ro'"e( yer pr!%2 !" ,e %hu"t* !& ye'( 2ept !t !" a ,!"!t lo"#er.4 00Her %u"t 'as 'et e"ou#h* !t ha( 'ette( ,y p!er%er a"( ,y alls e&ore she'( eje%te( !t* a"( ple"ty o& pearly ,o!sture 'as just !"s!(e* to ru" out as she separate( her %u"t l!ps to sho' ,e. Su((e"ly (o'" 'e"t her le#s* she 'al2e( 5u!%2ly a out the roo,* #a/e her o+ a 2!%2* a"( '!th oth ha"(s slappe( her utto%2s se/eral t!,es lou(ly. 34-ar" !t* lay (o'" a"( let ,e &u%2 you* you !t%h*4 I %r!e( !" a ra#e. 3 She lau#he( a"( %o"t!"ue( slapp!"# her a%2s!(e. I" a ,!"ute or so* she la!( hol( o& ,y pr!%2 'h!%h ha( a l!ttle (roope(. 3 4It's a &!"e hot po2er* sure a"( !t !s 3%or" o" the"*4 a"( she la!( (o'" o" the e( s!(e a#a!". 3 I !"serte( ,y pe#o* 'h!%h st!&&e"e( up as !ts t!p tou%he( her lu r!%ate( %u"t 3I (ro/e !t up har(* a"( soo" her au(y 'or(s re%o,,e"%e(. 3 4$ha 3 that's !t 3 aha 3 ,y arse a"( %hu"t are all !" o"e shure 3 spl!t the, '!th your pe#o. 3 $ha. Sho/e your loo(y pr!%2 up !"to ,y 'o, 3 $ha 3 'hat a lo/ely pe# 3 $ha 3 your spu"2 a %o,!" 3 (o"'t 3 stop 3 'a!t &or ,e I'll spe"( 3 $ha 3 &u%2* &u%2 3 aha 3 9o( !& ye'( t'o pr!%2s ye'( ha/e o"e !" ,y %hu"t a"( o"e up ,y arse hole 'oul("'t ye7 3 $ha* ,y loo(y hot sphu"2s %o,!". 3 $har spu"2 3 spe"( !" ,y loo(y %hu"t. $h Dasus 3 &u%2 ,e 3 "o' 3 ahaa 3 ahaa 3 pr!%2 3 allo%2s 3 u##er 3 aha 3 aa.4 I %a""ot !,!tate her ,a""er or ro#ue* !t !s !,poss! le< "or #!/e a%%urately her e+traor(!"ary 5ua!"t* au(y* a"( lasphe,ous e+press!o"s 3 I "e/er hear( su%h !ssure &ro, the ,outh o& a harlot* ut ha/e et'ee" so,e (ru"2e" Ir!sh 'o,e" sla"#!"# ea%h other !" St. 9!les* a"( also !" the lo'est 5uarters o& L!/erpool. Tho I (!sl!2e( her le'e( !,pre%at!o"s they "o' st!rre( ,y lust e+traor(!"ar!ly. She 2ept ,e up to her as I lea"t o/er her* #e"tly 'or2!"# her 5u!, a"( utto%2s. 4B!ss ,e lo/e 3 (o"'t pull !t out 3 there shure a"( I'll st!&&e" !t a#a!" !" ,e %hu"t* !& your allo%2s are %lose up to ,e. 3 Ca"'t you &u%2 just 3ha/e"'t I spe"t7 the spu"2s s5uee1!"# out. 3 ;e#orra ye'/e spe"t th!%2* a"( lots* a"( hot* ye spalpee". 3 -o"'t pull !t out ,e (arl!" 3 2!ss ,e 3 you'/e "ot 2!sse( ,e* loo2 'hat &o!"e teeth I ha/e. 3 Sho/e your to"#ue !"to ,y ,outh. 3 Oh 2eep your pr!%2 up ,e hot %hu"t 3 put your &!"#er up ,y arsehole 'he" you &u%2 a#a!".4 48o.4 4)hoy* 'hoy 'o"'t you7 ?as I re&use(@ -o"'t the" ,e (arl!". 3 -o"'t you "e/er (o so 'he" yer &u%2!"#7 Oh ye spalpee" ye (o 3 I lo/e !t* lo/e oth ,e holes &ull 3 %hu"t a"( arse hole. 3 There "o' !t's out 3 'hoy (!("'t ye 2eep !t up ,e hot %hu"t.4 3 Thus she 'e"t o" as "early as 'r!tte" '!thout stopp!"#* all e!"# sa!(* a"( a%te( '!th
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    surpr!1!"# e"er#y 'h!lst st!ll she 'as hol(!"# ,e t!#htly to her* as I e"t o/er her sta"(!"# at the s!(e o& the e(* '!thout utter!"# ,ore tha" a 'or( or t'o !" reply to her* a"(* sta"(!"# 'o"(er!"#* a,use( a"( al,ost s!le"t. It sl!ppe( out* the %opulat!o" 'as ro2e". 4Ta2e" o&& your %lothes a"( %o,e o" to the e( a"( l!e (o'" '!( ,e* a"( 'e'll &u%2 a#!" ye spalpee" !" &o!/e ,!"utes 3 'e '!ll* e Dasus. Loo2 at ,e %hu"t 3 loo2 at your spu"2 3 !t's 'et 3 !t !s 3 a!"'t your spu"2 th!%2*4 sa!( she e+a,!"!"# her &!"#er a&ter a &eel. 3 I (!("'t l!2e that* yet she ha( ,a(e ,e le'e(. She ha( a%%o,pa"!e( 'or(s '!th (ee(s* a"( as 5u!%2ly as she ha( spo2e"* she ha( tur"e( hersel& !" all att!tu(es 3 o" to her elly* the" utto%2s* ha( ope"e( her th!#hs* thre' her le#s 5u!te h!#h up !" the a!r* a"( other a"t!%s just as e&ore* sho'e( ,e her ar,p!ts a"( teeth* a"( pulle( the %u"t '!(e ope" to sho'' the l! at!o" o/er0&lo'!"# &ro, !t 3 all u"as2e( y ,e< a"( !"terlar(!"# her a%ts* '!th e+press!o"s o& stro"# (es!re &or ,e. I "o' &ully e+%!te(* stoo( pu&&!"# o&& ,y %lothes rap!(ly* a"( (ropp!"# the, o" the &loor y the s!(e o& ,e* s!le"t* u"a le to res!st the &as%!"at!o" o& her %ar"al!t!es a"( ta2e ,y eyes o&& o& her. 3 4Oh loo2 at your spu"2 !" ,y %hu"t4 sa!( she a#a!". 3 4Shure a"( I', lo"#!"# &or ,ore o& !t 3 ,a"y a %hu"t you'/e &!lle( I'll s'ear 3 a!"'t ,y reasts eaut!&ul7 you shall spe"( et'ee" the, so,e (ay. 3 Ma2e haste ,e (arl!" 3 !& you (o"'t I'll &r!# ,e 3 I '!ll y Dasus* I', ,a( to ha/e !t up ,e a#!" 3%o,e.4 The" 'e #ot o" to the e(. I %o/ere( her* I ru e( ,y tool outs!(e !" the o/er0&lo'!"# sper,* a"( 'as !" a &e' ,!"utes spe"(!"# '!th her* '!th ,y to"#ue !" her ,outh a"( try!"# to per&orate her u, hole '!th ,y &!"#er. $&ter she ha( shoute( out* 4F!ll ,y %hu"t 3 &u%2 !t 3 allo%2s !t 'ell 3 u##er. 3 8o'. 3 Sho/e har(er. 3 I', spe"(!"# 3 ahrr 3 arsehole.4 3 4-a,s a"( loo(!es4 !" e"(less %o, !"at!o"s she %r!e(* a"( !t ha( su%h a" e&&e%t o" ,e* that I %r!e( out au(y 'or(s '!th her. 8e/er !" ,y l!&e ha/e I hear( su%h a 'o,a". The 'or(s &ro, her stru%2 ,e as a o,!"a ly &oul a"( o s%e"e* tho so,e o& the 'or(s ha/e "ot* 'he" s'eeter* lo/!"# 'o,e" ha/e ,ur,ure( the, '!th ,e !" our se"sual paro+ys,s a"( yet the Ir!sh !t%h e+%!te( ,e. Th!s &u%2 5u!ete( her 3 see,e( to su (ue her 3 I st!ll la!( o" her* she st!ll su%2!"# ,y to"#ue* or 'ett!"# her l!ps '!th her sp!ttle* ru !"# the, o" ,!"e* hol(!"# ,y hea( '!th o"e ha"(* press!"# !t to'ar(s hers* a"( ru !"# her other rap!(ly* 5u!te rap!(ly up a"( (o'" ,y a%2 a"( utto%2s* as &ar as her ha"( 'oul( rea%h< as !& she %oul("'t &eel e"ou#h o& ,e. 3 4;y ,e soul a"( you &u%2 eaut!&ul 3 eaut!&ul e Dasus*4 sa!( she at last. 4Sure a" 'e'll (o !t a#!"* 3 a rale ,a" a"( yoh are shure. -o you lo!2e ,e7 3 your ha!r's st!%2!"# to ,e %hu"t.4 3 S,a%2 s5uash 3 a"( ,o/!"# her %u"t a l!ttle a%2* our ,ottes u"jo!"e(* a"( the #lut!"ous e+u(at!o"s 'h!%h a(here( to our &leshy pro,!"e"%es 'here they ha( ,et so %losely ,a(e that e+press!/e "o!se as our #e"!tals partly separate(* as she ,o/e( her elly 'he" ,y pr!%2 'as ('!"(l!"# out o& her spl!t.
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    Her 5u!%2 ,o/e,e"ts* a"( the &a"%!&ul ut &oul th!"#s she sa!(* ha( so heate( ,e* so l! !(!"ously e+%!te( ,e* that I s%ar%ely 2"e' 'hat I 'as a out. 4Yes*4 I re0pl!e(* 4let's loo2 at your %u"t.4 3 I ha( s%ar%ely see" !t !" ,y e,ot!o". 3 4Loo2 ,y hoy4 3 I rose o" ,y 2"ees* she rel!"5u!sh!"# ,y ru,p* a"( I loo2e(. 4Your ha!r's the sa,e %olor as o" your hea(.4 4Yes* a"( are ,y ar,p!ts.4 3 She thre' up her ar,s. 3 4-o"'t you l!2e the %olour74 3 I sa!( 3 4yes4 3 ut I (!("'t. 3 It 'as a pe%ul!ar* sa"(y re( %olor. 3 I "e/er e&ore sa' a" Ir!sh 'o,a" '!th that %oloure( ha!r* a"( tol( her that ,ost Ir!sh ha( (ar2 ha!r. 4Shure I', true e,eral(.4 She 'as* as sa!(* /ery eaut!&ully &or,e(* a"( ha( ,ar/ellously 'h!te &lesh. 3 I thre' up her le#s* a"( sa' &ro, her heels to her utto%2s. 3 4I', eaut!&ul ,a(e shure a"( I a,* ar"t I74 sa!( she* putt!"# her ha"(s rou"( her th!#hs to 2eep her le#s up. I loo2e( a"( #loate(. There 'as her %u"t al,ost &oa,!"# '!th pearly ,u%!la#e. 3 4L!e (o'" ,e (arl!"*4 3 a"( I (!(. 3 She la!( hol( o& ,y pr!%2 a"( &r!##e( !t. 3 4Oh put !t !" ,e 3 (o the".4 3 I'll just ta2e a (ale o& !t to"!#ht 3 I', '!l( just. 3 $ hoy l!2e you '!ll just ,a2e her happy 3 'hoy 3 I'/e "ot slept &or t'o "!#hts* I'/e le&t o"e o& ,y o+es at ;!r,!"#ha, 3I ra" a'ay 3I'( "o ,o"ey 3 I 'oul( "ot stay to e !ll thra!te( 3 ut the &!rst ,o"ey I #et I'll e a&ter !t 3 I pa'"e( ,e 'at%h to pay ,y 'ee2's lo(#!"#s here th!s /ery (ay* sure a"( I ha("'t e"ou#h ,o"ey to pay ,e %a ,a". >ay (o'" the &!rst 'ee2 says the la"(la(y* or !t's "o #oo( yer la/!"# your o+ here. 3 )a!t a ,!"ute* ,a'a,* 'here's a pa'"0 ro2er's7 a"( ,e a"( ,e o+ a"( the %ar,a" 'e"t to pa'" ,e 'at%h.4 4You'/e ee" (r!"2!"#*4 I sa!(* th!"2!"# at last !t ,ust e so. 3 8ot she. 4;y the Holy Mother. 3 -!/!l a (rap 3 you're a 5ueer %hap* (o"'t you lo!2e ,e7 3 "o' you (o"'t lo!2e ,e 3 I'll 'ash ,y %hu"t a"( you'll l!2e !t etter.4 She 'as t'!((l!"# ,y %o%2 the"* ut le&t o&&* ju,pe( o&& the e( l!2e l!#ht"!"#* a"( e#a" 'ash!"# 3 I 'ashe( ,y appe"(a#es also* a"( 'as #o!"# to (ress. 4Shure a"( yer "ot #o!"# to la/e ,e yet* shure a"( you sha"'t t!ll ye'/e (o" !t a#!".4 4I %a"'t a#a!"*4 sa!( I 3 She #a/e ,e a rap!( push* 'h!%h se"t ,e o" to a %ha!r '!th su%h &or%e 'as !t #!/e"* a"( 2"eel!"# (o'" e#a" to su%2 ,y pr!%2. 3 4Sure a"( I'll ,a2e !t st!&& !" a j!&&ey. )hat a lo/ely pr!%2* a"( ,y &!rst !" Lo"(o" 3 Oh Desus ,ay !t r!"# ,e lu%2 3 a"( I ha/e"'t ha( a &u%2 &or a 'ee2. ;y the Holy V!r#!" I'll ha/e a"other &u%2.4 Su%2!"# har(* a"( jer2!"# out these se"te"%es at short !"ter/als '!th ,u%h !"0 te"s!ty* a"( '!th that a"( her au(y tal2* she !" t!,e ,a(e ,e st!&&* put !t !"to her %u"t hersel& !,pat!e"tly* a"( I #a/e her a"other l! at!o". She rattle( out the sa,e las%!/!ous %r!es ut less e"er#et!%ally* a"( I "ot!%e( that tho she tal2e( le'e(ly 'he" 'e 'ere "ot !" a%t!o"* that her ,ost outra#eous* u"restra!"e( e+%la,at!o"s* 'ere o"ly uttere( 'he" she 'as &u%2!"#. She e#a" a#a!" tell!"# her h!story o& ru""!"# a'ay &ro, -u l!". 3 4I'( ee" ,ur(ere( shure ha( I sta!(* !t's 9o('s truth I tell ye* a"( I pa'"e( ,e 'at%h to pay the lo(#!"#s here a"( ,e %a .4 3 The" she 'a"te( to treat ,e to 'h!s2ey a"( 'ater. 3 )hat 'oul( I ha/e. 3 The" she ,ou"te( ,e as I lay t!re( o" ,y a%2* 2!ss!"# ,e* a"( ru !"# her %u"t o" to ,y &la y %o%2* I
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    %oul( "ot stop her. 3 She tal2e( the &oulest au(!"ess* a"( sa!( her poorl!"ess 'as just %o,!"# o". 3 )as"'t !t u"lu%2y* just as she'( %o,e so poor a"( 'a"te( to #et so,e &r!e"(s. 3She lo/e( a ,a" a out her. 4Sure 9o(*4 she (!(* ut ha("'t ha( o"e &or a 'ee2* she'( ha( e"ou#h to (o to (o(#e the, a"( #et a'ay. 4H!(e a"( see2 a"( &u%2!"# (o"'t #o to#ether.4 ;ut she 'as sa&e "o' she 'as !" Lo"(o" 3 I #ot "o' %ur!ous a"( tr!e( to lear" so,eth!"# ,ore* ut she shut up at o"%e. 3 I" her le'e( e+%!te,e"t !t 'as pleasure to #a le o" a"( let out a !t o& her story* ut the &ear o& e!"# (ete%te(* o& tell!"# too ,u%h* shut her ,outh. 3 I thou#ht* a"( ha( "o (ou t* she'( ru" a'ay &ro, Irela"( to #et %lear o& so,e s%rape. I %oul("'t #et a'ay &ro, the 'o,a"* she se"t &or 'h!s2ey a"( I (ra"2 '!th her. She &r!##e( a"( su%2e( ,e st!&& a#a!"* a"( I &u%2e( her sp!te o& ,ysel& 3 l!ste"!"# 3 (!sl!2!"# 3 yet e+%!te(. 3 )he" &u%2e( out I le&t. 3 4$"other 2!ss*4 sa!( she &ollo'!"# ,e to the (oor o& her roo,* a"( push!"# her to"#ue !" ,y ,outh. 4Feel ,y %u"t a#a!" &or lu%2.4 3 I (!(* pro,!s!"# at her ear"est e"treaty to see her a#a!". 48e/er ,!"( the %ash ,e (arl!" 3 I lo!2e your &u%2!"# 3 sure a"( yell r!"# ,e lu%2*4 sa!( she as 'e parte(. I set ,ysel& a&ter'ar(s to repeat 'hat the 'o,a" shr!e2e( out !" her se+ual e%stasy* &or she 'as thorou#hly e"joy!"# ,e* a"( the say!"#s a"( au(y uttera"%es ra"# !" ,y ears 3 I (!( "ot l!2e the,* ut 2ept repeat!"# the, to ,ysel&* lau#h!"# at the, e/e" 3 I 'e"t '!th a"other 'o,a" a (ay or t'o a&ter* a"( as ,y pleasure !"%rease( 'he" ,y o(y 'as jo!"e( to hers* I shoute( out so,e o& the sala%!t!es 3 !t st!,ulate( ,e. 3 4Oh a!"'t you a #o!"# o"*4 sa!( she. 3 4Say &u%2* allo%2s.4 3 4I sha"'t4 3 the" 34oh (o"'t ,a2e su%h a "o!se* or they '!ll hear you up sta!rs.4 3 ;ut I 'oul(. 3 That #!/!"# 'ay to las%!/!ous uttera"%es helpe( ,y &at!#ue( allo%2s /ery ,u%h. 3 I'( ee" '!th so,e 'o,a" 'ho 'as out a"( out au(y* I tol( th!s to th!s 'o,a". I ha( "o reaso" &or h!(!"# !t* a"( tol( her all. 3 4$ (!rty east*4 sa!( she. 3 So,e 'o,e" are "aturally au(y a"( le'e( !" tal2* others are "ot. 3 $s a,o"# harlots so a,o"# la(!es. I ha/e 2"o'" so,e 'ho, I "e/er %oul( !"(u%e to use 'or(s &ra"2ly 3 others soo" re/elle( !" the,. I sa' the Ir!sh 'o,a" o"%e or t'!%e !" Co/e"try Street a&ter'ar(s* ut #ot out o& her 'ay. 3 She al'ays pulle( her pett!%oats up as h!#h as she (are( to sho' her lo/ely l!, s a"( 'al2e( /ery rap!(ly. Tho I (!( "ot l!2e her* &or all that I 'e"t ho,e '!th her o"%e a#a!". She 2!sse( ,e !" the street 'he" I spo2e to her* a"( tal2e( so lou(ly* that passers0 y stare( at us 3 so %all!"# her a &ool* I tur"e( a'ay a"( 'e"t up a s!(e street. 3 She %a,e to ,e a"( the" I &ollo'e( her ho,e. 3 There she a#a!" au(!e( a"( shr!e2e( out 'he" &u%2!"#* the ,ost or!#!"al sala%!t!es a"( o s%e"!t!es* a"( spe"t '!th ,e* a"( the" &r!##e( ,e up a"( su%2e( ,e to her heart's %o"te"t< tell!"# ,e ho' ha( #ot o"* a"( 'hat a ,a" (!( to her* a"( 'hat he ha( #!/e" her* ho' she ,ea"t st!ll to #et her tru"2 &ro, ;!r,!"#ha,. She ha("'t yet. 3 $lto#ether she 'e"t o" al,ost l!2e a" erot!% ,a"!a% a"( I 'as #la( 'he" I #ot a'ay.
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    I sa' her o"%e or t'!%e !" the streets a&ter'ar(s* ut she (!( "ot see ,e< the" I lost s!#ht o& her. I (o"'t th!"2 that alto#ether she 'as a out the )est E"( a ,o"th 3 I ,ust ha/e see" her ha( she ee" a out lo"#er. I ha/e "e/er ,et su%h a &oul to"#ue( 'o,a" !" ,y l!&e e&ore* she ,ust ha/e ee" re( a"( or" a,o"#st the lo'est. 3 I ha/e"'t tol( a te"th part o& her or!#!"al erot!% say!"#s* a"( %o, !"at!o"s o& au(!"ess a"( lasphe,y. It see,e( to ,e that 'he" her se"sual pleasure %a,e o"* that she s%ar%ely 2"e' 'hat she sa!(< that e/ery au(y a"( lasphe,ous 'or( she'( e/er hear(* %a,e tru##l!"# up to#ether to (es%r! e a"( e,phas!1e the pleasure she &elt !" her %u"t. 00 I tol( her o& !t. 3 She sa!( !t 'as ,y &ault* a"( that she (!("'t %ry out so '!th other ,e"* !t 'as the !"te"se pleasure I #a/e. 4I'll s'allo' your spu"2 a"( (r!"2 your p!ss !& you l!2e*4 sa!( she. I (!("'t el!e/e a 'or( she sa!(. JO"%e s!"%e* at a Fre"%h rothel* I &ou"( a" Ir!sh 'o,a"* 'ho %erta!"ly 'as ,ore h!#hly o s%e"e tha" her s!sters there. O"e Fre"%h 'o,a" sa!( she 'as the #reatest 4Co%ho""e4 !" the house* a"( all the 'o,e" 'ere a&ra!( o& her. JThe (!sappeara"%e o& Sarah 'as a #reat loss to ,e as I re%olle%t 'ell. She 'as a 5u!et 'o,a" a"( ha"(0so,e* her &or, #oo(* her %u"t #a/e ,e the &ullest a"( ,ost %o,plete pleasure* she !"(ul#e( ,y le'e("ess* a"( 'he" !"t!,a%y 'as esta l!she( too2 hersel& the #reatest pleasure !" las%!/!et!es '!th ,e. 3 She pro0%ure( ,e /!r#!"s 'ho, she (el!#hte( !" &!"#er!"#* a"( '!th t'o o& the, !" &lat&u%2!"#* a"( a ,a" 'ho jo!"tly a,use( us. I" o%%as!o"al or#!es at rothels* she se/eral t!,es #ot ,e other &ree a"( easy harlots* ut a out 'h!%h or#!es I ha/e (estroye( the ,a"us%r!pt* as I (!( '!th the 'o,e" o"ly 'hat I ha/e (o"e '!th others. 3 Her lo(#!"#s I %oul( ,ostly #o to* a"( el!e/e I 'as the o"ly ,a" 'ho (!(* a"( I ,!sse( the ,ea"s o& !"(ul#!"# ,y tastes !" those 5u!et roo,s '!th a '!ll!"# ,!"!stress to the,. 3 Moreo/er she 'as "ot al'ays pla#u!"# ,e &or ,o"ey 3 as2!"# ,e to pay th!s* or to le"( her to pay that 3 'h!%h !s the %o,,o" ha !t a"( tr!%2s o& harlots &ro, h!#h to lo' 3 I &elt at sea 'he" Sarah 'as #o"e* a"( re%olle%t that &or a ,o"th or so I 'as %haste.K The" I sou#ht Ca,!lle 3 I ha( see" her thr!%e o"ly I &!"( 'h!lst I ha( 2"o'" Sarah F..1.r* a"( ha( so,e (!&&!%ulty !" &!"(!"# her out. 3 She 'as "ot so you"#* ut 'as sple"(!(ly preser/e(. Tho &atter* her so&t s2!"* so&t /o!%e a"( 5u!et lau#h* !" r!e& all her #oo( 5ual!t!es 'ere u"%ha"#e(* a"( I rushe( ,y ea#er pe#o !"to her st!ll (el!%!ous %u"t* a"( %laspe( her e+5u!s!tely so&t a%2s!(e '!th the (el!#ht o& &or,er (ays. She ha( ee" a'ay &ro, E"#la"( t'o years or so* ha/!"# sa/e( ,o"ey* '!th 'h!%h !" her "at!/e %ou"try she ha( e!ther ou#ht or set up a l!%e"se( house &or 'hor!"#. It ha( "ot su%%ee(e(* she ha( lost all* a"( ha( %o,e a%2 here to harlotry. 3 She %r!e( as she tol( ,e a out her losses* the" e#a" to s,o2e a %!#arette ?&or,erly she (!( "ot s,o2e@. She s,!le( a"( sa!( !t 'as &ate* that there 'as al'ays 'ater or %har%oal to e ha( 'he" she 'as ol( or t!re( o& l!&e. She 'as see,!"#ly "ot so 'ell o&& as &or,erly* ut sa!( she ha( a #oo( %l!e"telle ,ostly o& ,arr!e( ,e" 'ho pa!( 'ell* a"( (!("'t stop lo"#. She (!( "ot #o !"to the street ,u%h*
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    or her &r!e"(s e+pe%te( al'ays to &!"( her at ho,e. I spe"t t'o or three hours (el!#ht&ully '!th her tal2!"# o/er ol( t!,es. 3 It 'as "o use (!s#u!s!"# her a#e &ro, ,e* a"( o"e other Mo"s!eur 'ho also 2"e' her 'he" she &!rst %a,e to Lo"(o"* the o"ly t'o* she sa!(< ut she too2 o&& a &e' years to "e' &r!e"(s 'he" they as2e( her a#e. She "o' spo2e e+%elle"t E"#l!sh. JF!&tee" years later she 'as al!/e* a"( as "!%e as e/er !" ,a""er 3 ut she 'as ol( a"( poor* a"( /ery o&te" I ass!ste( her.K Mu%h as I l!2e(* I (!("'t 2eep to Ca,!lle. I 'e"t there 'he" I 'a"te( a 5u!et %hat a"( !"&or,at!o" a out se+ual!t!es ?"ot that I 'a"te( ,u%h o& that@. I &!"( a ,e,ora"(u, o& a tal2 '!th her* a out the e&&e%t that %o"t!"ue( u##er!"# ha( upo" the arseholes o& the u##erees. She thou#ht !t (etr!,e"tal to the, ult!,ately* a"( ha( hear( so* ut the ,e" 'ere ret!%e"t o" the su je%t. 3 $ out tastes &or that a "or,al a,use,e"t 3 that there 'ere (e%!(e(ly those ,e" 'ho e"joye( e!"# operate( o" 3 %ata,!tes y taste* y "ature perhaps< she thou#ht o'!"# to so,e a"ato,!%al (!&&ere"%e* or se+ual !"&!r,!ty. O"e e/e"!"# e!"# u"usually %o,,u"!%at!/e* she tol( that she ha( a &r!e"( 'ho %a,e to her roo,s at t!,es a"( she pro%ure( a ,a" to u##er h!,. )he" he ha( that operat!o" per&or,e(* h!s pr!%2 'oul( sta"(* a"( he %oul( &u%2 her a"( spe"(. 3 8oth!"# else that %oul( e (o"e ha( that e&&e%t< ,astur at!o"* su%t!o"* &la#ellat!o" all 'ere useless. 3 $ltho so,et!,es he sha##e( Ca,!lle a&ter the !rr!tat!o" o& h!s &u"(a,e"t ha( pro(u%e( a" ere%t!o"* he pre&erre( e!"# &r!##e( 'h!lst the other ,a" 'as %ouple( '!th h!,. 3 It 'as /!la!"e* %o%ho""er!e la plus sale*4 she sa!(. 3 Ma!s 5ue /oule1 /ous.4 3 4He pay ,e so,et!,e &!/e 3 te" pou"(s so,et!,e. 3 )he" I %a,e a%2 to E"#la"(* he uy ,e hal& ,y &ur"!ture. 3 He se"( ;or(eau+* I %a"0"ot su%h uy3you shall taste. He !s #oo( &or ,e a"( I (o 'hat he l!2es.4 3 The" she &et%he( a ottle o& sple"(!( Chateau Mar#au+ 'h!%h he ha( #!/e" her. She ha( a %ase o& !t. 3 Ca,!lle "e/er (ra"2 sp!r!ts* a"( (!("'t %are so ,u%h a out %ha,pa#"e. I use( to ta2e her Claret at t!,es* !t 'as 'hat she ha !tually (ra"2 at her ,eals. The" I tol( her 'hat I ha( (o"e '!th the ,a". She 'oul( "ot at &!rst el!e/e !t. 3 4F! (o"% 3 pas /ra! 3 u" eau #ar%o" %o,,e /ous.4 3 ;ut she a((e(* 4It 'as %ur!os!ty* !t !s "ot your taste 3 !e" sur 3 yet 'hy "ot !& you l!2e 3 !t !s &or you a"( h!, to (e%!(e* !t %o"%er" "o o"e else.4 The" I as2e( her to #et ,e a you"#!sh /!r#!". 38o !t 'as "ot poss! le* ut a /ery "!%e you"# 'o,a" she 'oul( try to &!"(. S!+tee" a"( "ot ,ore tha" se/e"tee" 'as "a,e( y ,e as the l!,!t o& a#e. 3 $ha: I 'as l!2e the rest she o ser/e(* she (are say she %oul( &!"( su%h. 3 4M!"( Ca,!lle 3 I %a" tell "early her a#e y the 5ua"t!ty o& ha!r o" her %u"t* y !ts loo2* a"( y the loo2 a"( &eel o& her reasts. 3 8o (e%e!t*4 a"( I le&t her lau#h!"#. 3 4$h pol!sso"* I shall try.4 Soo" a&ter'ar(s she tol( ,e she shoul( soo" ha/e the #!rl I l!2e(* a you"# ;el#!a" e+pe%te( to arr!/e (a!ly. She ha( ee" se(u%e(* 'as a #o/er"ess* a"( %oul( "o lo"#er stop !" her to'". She ha( "e/er ee" #ay* ut
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    'as %o,!"# to Lo"(o" to try her &ortu"e at &u%2!"#. She 'as !" &a%t rou#ht here y a pro%uress as Ca,!lle a(,!tte(. $"t!%!pat!o" ,a(e ,e restless. I %alle( e/ery (ay to e"5u!re* a"( at le"#th ha( the "eophyte !" 'hor!"#. 3 She 'as (resse( !" la%2 s!l2* ha"(so,e ut 5u!et* a"( rose l!2e a la(y 'he" Ca,!lle !"tro(u%e( her 3 I ha("'t el!e/e( a out her e!"# a #o/er"ess "or the other a%0%ou"ts o& her* th!"2!"# !t 'as o"ly sa!( to e"ha"%e the pr!%e* &or I ha( a#ree( to pay ,ore tha" the usual &ee &or the &resh"ess o& the art!%le< ut &ou"( that she %losely a"s'ere( the (es%r!pt!o" #!/e" o& her. 3 Ca,!lle helpe( her to u"(ress* a"( Lolotte ?the "a,e she 'e"t y@ ha( la%2 s!l2 sto%2!"#s o"* a"( r!#ht #ol( #arters* three 5uarters o& a" !"%h roa(< she ha( (resse( or ha( ee" (resse( tho 5u!te 5u!etly* yet o" the roa( to her %u"t (resse( so as to st!,ulate ,ale sala%!ty. I th!"2 "o' '!th (el!#ht st!ll* o& ,y /oluptuous &eel!"#s as I #ot ,y ha"( et'ee" her part!ally %lose( th!#hs* &elt the sl!#ht th!%2et o& her ha!ry ,otte* a"( #e"tly ru""!"# ,y &!"#ers o/er her %l!tor!s sl!ppe( the, (o'" to the ,outh o& the te,ple o& lo/e* 'h!lst she sat pass!/ely tho see,!"#ly upset a l!ttle* !"/olu"tar!ly %los!"# her th!#hs a"( try!"# to stop ,y ha"(* 'h!lst Ca,!lle loo2e( o" s,!l!"#. 4Lay hol( o& ,y pr!%2*4 sa!( I !" E"#l!sh &or#ett!"# that she %oul( "ot spea2 a 'or( o& ,y la"#ua#e. Ca,!lle lau#he( a"( repeate( !t !" Fre"%h. 9e"tly she put her ha"( (o'" a"( #raspe( !t. 3 B!ss!"# her* hol(!"# her rou"( the 'a!st* her ha"( o" ,y pr!%2* ,y ha"( o" %u"t I pulle( her a%2 a"#le'!se o" the so&a o" 'h!%h 'e 'ere s!tt!"#* a"( #lu!"# ,y l!ps to hers I urro'e( ,y &!"#ers up her t!#ht l!ttle %u"t. Thus 'e re%l!"e( !" /oluptuous s!le"%e* she hol(!"# ,y tool* I #e"tly &r!##!"# her. 3 Releas!"# her* 4Let ,e see you 5u!te "a2e(.4 She re&use(. 3 ;ut at o"%e I pulle( her %he,!se o&& rou#hly* a"( there she stoo( !" her "u(!ty* a"( a s'eet "a2e("ess !t 'as. She 'as 'ell #ro'"* eaut!&ully &or,e(* ut th!""!sh* sylph0l!2e< a"( ha( sol!( pretty reasts tho ea%h 'as ut a ha"(&ul. Fro, the s,all 5ua"t!ty o& %r!sp %urly ha!r o" her %u"t* the l!ttle l!ps* a"( !ts #e"eral loo2* I #uess 'as the a#e she sa!(* "ot 5u!te se/e"tee"* a"( she'( ee" &u%2e( &or the &!rst t!,e* "ot 5u!te a year. 3 Her ha!r 'as /ery (ar2 ro'"* "early ut "ot 5u!te la%2* her eyes (ar2 ha1el. Her &a%e 'as ho'e/er (e%!(e(ly pla!" tho pleas!"#. The s!#ht* a"( the rapturous &eel o& her "a2e( %har,s* !" a ,!"ute ,a(e ,e ra,p0a"t '!th (es!re* I thre' o&& ,y sh!rt a"( jersey* a"( presse( ,y "a2e( o(y to hers* ,y st!&&e"e( pr!%2 'as s5uee1e( et'ee" our ell!es as I %laspe( her to ,e* a"( Ca,!lle lau#he( alou( as I (re' the #!rl !"to the e(roo,. She ,ou"te( the e( at ,y re5uest '!th hes!tat!o" a"( '!thout spea2!"#. I #ot o" to her* t!t!llate( her %u"t &or a ,!"ute* the" ,y pr!%2 thro !"# a"( "o((!"#* !,pat!e"t &or !ts e"joy,e"t* ur#e( ,e to put !t !"to her pretty* pout!"#* se+ual treasure. $t the &!rst thrust her 'hole o(y thr!lle( (el!%!ously '!th pleasure. 3 )hat a %har, !t !s to &eel that a 'o,a" e"joys the pr!%2. Soo" our s!#hs a"( ,ur,urs ,!"#le(* a"( her %u"t 'as &!lle( &or the &!rst t!,e '!th a"
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    E"#l!sh,a"'s sper,. Ca,!lle e"tere( the e(roo, as 'e 'ere ly!"# tra"5u!lly !" ea%h other's ar,s* s5uee1!"# our #e"!tals to#ether* e"joy!"# the ,u%!la#!"ous ath o& sper, !" her %u"t* 'h!lst our l!ps a"( to"#ues playe( to#ether* a"( ,!"#le( our sal!/as. 4Elle est %har,a"te* !s she "ot74 sa!( she. 3 4Lea/e us alo"e* Ca,!lle.4 She see,e( !" ,y 'ay the". $'ay she 'e"t lau#h!"#. 3 4$h pol!sso" 3 %'est u" eau #ar%o"* "'est %e pas* Lolotte74 The" 'as the (el!#ht o& !"spe%t!"#* !"/est!#at!"# '!th eye a"( &!"#er* that pretty* re( &a%e( #ap* "o' al,ost h!((e" y ,y l! at!o"* ut I l!2e( !ts lu r!%!ous &eel. 3 The" she 'ashe( !t* a"( the" I ha( ,y &!rst #oo( loo2 at the o(or!&erous part!"#. Its aro,a 'as (el!%!ous a"( pr!%2 st!,ulat!"# 3 !t 'as 'hat I ha/e tol(* the s,ell a"( loo2 rouse( ,y pr!%2 at o"%e* a#a!" 'e e, ra%e(* a"( oth spe"t e%stat!%ally. Her %u"t see,e( to &!t ,y pr!%2 to per&e%t!o"* her e"joy,e"t see,e( 5u!etly !"0te"se. She'( o"ly arr!/e( that ,or"!"# &ro, Oste"(* the jour"ey* %ha"#e* a"( e+%!te,e"t ha( perhaps st!rre( her lust* jour"eys (o< ut there 'as a"other %ause< she ha( "ot ee" &u%2e( &or three ,o"ths* her lo/er ha/!"# ee" se"t a roa( she sa!(. I sa' "o reaso" to (ou t th!s* tho !t ,ay "ot ha/e ee" true* ut %erta!"ly she 'as (y!"# &or a &u%2< a"( a&ter our a lut!o"s* a"( 'e la!( %os!ly s!(e y s!(e o" the e( a#a!"* the &eel o& ,y %u"t stret%her 'as I', sure as #reat a treat to her* as the &eel o& her t!#ht l!ttle %o%2 easer 'as to ,e. I &u%2e( her &our t!,es* a"( al'ays she poure( out her salt pearly ju!%es* to ,!+ '!th ,y #lut!"ous l! at!o" !" her pretty %u"t. She 'as (el!%!ous. I" our tal2 (ur!"# the !"ter/als o& a%t!o" o" a su se5ue"t (ay* a"( 'he" 'e ha( a l!ttle %ha,pa#"e to0 #ether* she tol( ,e that e+%ept!"# o" the "!#ht 'he" she lost her /!r#!"!ty* she'( "e/er ee" &u%2e( ,ore tha" o"%e !" a"y (ay. She a"( her lo/er ha( "o %ha"%e* they %oul( o"ly %opulate !" the house or #rou"(s. She 'as "early al'ays '!th the %h!l(re"* a"( all the!r po2!"# 'as (o"e 5u!%2ly a"( o" the sly. 3 Ho' l!2e !t 'as to the &rol!%s !" ,y e+tre,e youth* 'he" I ha( (!&&!%ulty !" #ett!"# a %lear &!/e ,!"utes* a"( use( to sha# our ser/a"ts e/ery'here< #ar(e"* su,,er house* 'ater0%loset* !" the hall* a"( o" the sta!r%ase* !" e/ery !,a#!"a le out o& the 'ay pla%e a"( t!,e. 3 Ho' hurr!e(ly 'e &u%2e( too* the pleasure haste"e( a"( (!,!"!she( y &ear o& !ts e!"# stoppe(. 3 Her lo/e ,a2!"# 'as (o"e u"(er s!,!lar (!&&!%ult!es* !"(ee( #reater. Lolotte I &ou"( ha( "!%e la(yl!2e ,a""ers* a"( to ha/e ha( that ?'h!%h out o& a thousa"( Cypr!a"s 'ho, I ha/e stro2e( I ha/e rarely &ou"(@ a #oo( e(u%at!o". 3Her ha"( 'r!t!"# 'as eaut!&ul. I 5u!te el!e/e she 'as a #o/er"ess. The so" o& her e,ployer* a you"# ,a" a out t'e"ty years ol( &!rst stro2e( her* !t's too lo"# here to tell ho'. She #ot e"%e!"te* (elaye( !t too lo"#* the" !" try!"# to r!"# o" her %ourses ,a(e her0sel& /ery !ll* 'h!%h le( to the (!s%o/ery. 3 Her tale see,e( %ohere"t a"( pro a le e"ou#h* &or su%h th!"#s o%%ur (a!ly. 3 Certa!"ly she 'as "o #ay 'o,a" o" the "!#ht I &!rst ha( her. $

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    (o1e" !"(!%at!o"s pro/e( that to a" ol( e+per!e"%e( rouF l!2e ,e. Ca,!lle sa!( so* tho she 2"e' o"ly I suppose 'hat the pro%uress tol( her. I too2 a hu#e &a"%y to Lolotte. There 'as so,e 5ual!ty !" her %u"t 'h!%h ,a(e ,y a"!,al e"joy,e"t !" her e+%ess!/e. 3 Those 'ho say that all 'o,e" are the sa,e !" the (ar2* are utterly !#"ora"t or (e&!%!e"t !" se"s! !l!ty. 3 So,e 'o,e"'s %u"ts are e+5u!s!te to ,e* a"( so,e are "ot. 3 O"%e a %u"t has #!/e" ,e that e+5u!s!tely /oluptuous* %o,plete (el!#ht* !t al'ays (oes so< just as a %u"t 'h!%h #!/es ,e ut ,e(!o%re pleasure* 'h!%h see,s at ,y &!rst &u%2 (e&!%!e"t so,eho' or so,e'here* a"( !s 'a"t!"# u"(e&!"a ly !" &!t"ess to ,y pe"!s* !t al'ays re,a!"s the sa,e* 'hether I &u%2 !t ur"!"# '!th pass!o"* a"( '!th allo%2s o!l!"# o/er '!th sper,* or 'hether '!th the #reater (el! erat!o"* 'h!%h ut sl!#ht se+ual (es!re at the ,o,e"t e"a les ,e to e+er%!se. 3 >o2e* pro e* push* 'r!##le* rest !t* or !"s!"uate ,y pr!%2 !"to Lolotte's %u"t a"y0'here* or a"yho'* !t al'ays see,e( to &!t ,y se"s!t!/e pe#o* a"( so I luste( &or her ,u%h* ut alas 'as u"a le &or reaso"s the" e+!st!"# to see her /ery o&te". 3 Her pleasures 'ere so %o,plete a"( a&&e%te( ,e so* that 'he" &u%2!"# others* I #e"erally thou#ht o& Lolotte's %u"t* e/e" &or a lo"# per!o( a&ter I lost her. Ca,!lle 'oul( "ot tell ,e 'here to &!"( Lolotte. 4I'll al'ays #et her &or you.4 8e!ther 'oul( Lolotte tell ,e 'here I %oul( &!"( her. I "e/er sa' her !" >aph!a" hau"ts* "or a,o"# the &ore!#" %olo"y o& >aph!a"s* Jo& 'ho, there are "o' th!rty &or e/ery o"e 'ho 'as !" Lo"(o" 'he" I ha( ,y &!rst Fre"%h 'o,a". ?Ca,!lle@K. $t !"ter/als there&ore I ha( her at Ca,!lle's roo,s* &or a out three ,o"ths. She soo" lear"t the l! !(!"ous ,a""ers o& her %all!"#. 3 I "ot!%e( the #ra(ual %ha"#e &ro, her ,o(est 'ays* &ro, her &ra"2 lust !" ,eet!"# ,y ar(ors* to >aph!a" pro&ess!o"al ,o(es o& e+%!t!"# ,e. 3 She "o (ou t 'as 'ell !"stru%te(* ut "ature 'as also her !"stru%tress* &or she 'as a 'ar,* hot %u"te(* /!#orous* ju!%y o"e. 3 She l!2e( the ,ale pe"(a"t* a"( %erta!"ly she al'ays a"( to the last* spe"t '!th ,e. $s ,y #lo'!"# pr!%2 ur!e( !tsel& !" the !""er,ost re%esses o& her ,o!st* aro,at!% #ap* a"( 'he" !t s5u!rte( the hot sper, !"to her* the 'ay she %laspe( ,e to her* a"( ,ur,ure( so&tly her pleasure* a"( her %u"t &lushe( out !ts salt ju!%es* a"( 'he" the /!ole"t paro+ys,s 'ere passe( a"( the pleasure su s!(!"#* the 'ay she %laspe( ,e st!ll* a"( "estle( her pretty %u"t up to ,y elly* e"joy!"# the %ra, a"( #or#e o& ,y st!ll th!%2 pr!%2* a"( the sper, as !t lay al,y '!th!" her t!ll the latest ,o,e"t* 'as ,ost e+5u!s!tely /oluptuous* a"( sho'e( her se+ual lust* a"(* I really th!"2* her l!2!"# &or ,y e, ra%es. The" o%%urre( a ,ost l! !(!"ous !"%!(e"t '!th a re( ha!re( Fre"%h 'o,a"* "o' to e "arrate(. It ha( e&&e%t o& ,a2!"# ,e '!sh Lolotte to (o the sa,e to ,e. I ha( h!therto s!,ply &u%2e( her !" o"e or t'o att!tu(es. I %alle( o" Ca,!lle '!th the let%h o" ,e. 3 She tol( ,e she thou#ht that the #!rl ha( le&t the %ou"try* ho'e/er she #ot her &or ,e that /ery e/e"!"#. My let%h 'as stro"# o" ,e. 3 4Fa!tes la ,!"ette* #a,ahu%he ,e* su%2 ,y pr!%2*4 sa!( I*
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    us!"# all three ter,s to e"sure ,y e!"# u"(erstoo(. 4$h ,y 9o( "o.4 3 4Yes*4 she ha( ee" as2e(* ut 3 4ja,a!s* ja,a!s4 3 !t e"(e( y so&t (e/!%es* y Ca,!lle's e+hortat!o"s Jas s!,!lar re&usals s!"%e ha/e '!th othersK* !" her 2"eel!"# o/er ,e* '!th her #e"teel l!ttle a%2s!(e* a"( pretty p!"2 l!ppe(* %urly ha!re( spl!t* '!th!" s!+ !"%hes o& ,y eyes* 'h!lst her ,outh #e"tly too2 &!rst the t!p* a"( the" all ,y pr!%2 !"to !t. $"( the" the aro,a o& her %u"t a"( !ts surrou"(!"#s e+%!te( ,e. 3 I s,elt* I 2!sse( !t* !"serte( ,y &!"#er* a"( the" '!th ,y to"#ue playe( o/er the sur&a%e o& the l!ps. The" ,y to"#ue plu"#e( throu#h the (el!%ate re( spl!t* a"( the" up the a/e"ue. 3 $t that last /oluptuous ,o,e"t* 'he" the (es!re to ha/e &!"#ers* to"#ue* pr!%2* all o& ,y o(y !" the 'o,a"* to jo!" ,y o(y !" !ts e"t!rety to hers* to !"%orporate ,y o(y a"( soul '!th hers y her %u"t* !t 'as !"/!"%! le. The" she %ease( her l!"#ual e+er%!se* 'h!lst ,y to"#ue rea%h!"# &urther &or'ar( sou#ht her %l!tor!s* play!"# rap!(ly o" !t* t!ll a #e"tle os%!llat!o"* a"( 5u!/er!"# o& her a%2s!(e tol( o& her (!s%har#e. The "e+t !"sta"t ,y l! at!o" e"tere( her pretty ,outh* a"( oth 'ere sat!s&!e(. The "e+t t!,e I as2e( Ca,!lle to #et Lolotte &or ,e* she %oul( "ot. 3 $ r!%h ;el#!a" ha( ta2e" her a'ay a"( 'oul( ,arry her. Ca,!lle ha( thou#ht she 'oul( "e/er e #ay lo"#* a"( I 'as &ortu"ate to ha/e ha( her. 3 Ho' true th!s 'as I (o"'t 2"o'* ut Ca,!lle all ,y l!&e I &ou"( to e rel!a le* 'h!%h !s rare !" a %ourte1a". I "e/er sa' or hear( o& the ;el#!a" Lolotte a&ter'ar(s. J$ para#raph o& ,y or!#!"al ,a"us%r!pt* '!thout a re/!at!o" or %orre%t!o"* a"( just as !t 'as the" 'r!tte" !s reta!"e( here. 3 It !s a %lue to ,y ,e"tal %o"(!t!o" at that (ate* a"( a #oo( !"tro(u%t!o" to the ep!so(e 'h!%h &ollo's. 3 $" e+pla"at!o" o& ,y tastes.K My tastes see, &or so,e t!,e past to ha/e ee" ,u%h %ha"#e(* to e #ra(ually !"%l!"!"# to a "or,al pleasures. 3 Ha/e I see" a"( (o"e e"ou#h '!th 3 a, I #ett!"# t!re( o& %o,,o" pla%e se"sual!t!es 3 a, I o" the roa( to a se"sual a yss7 3 Lust&ul su##est!o"s %o,e to ,e ,ore &re5ue"tly &ro, stru,pets* or so !t see,s to ,e. 3-o they* or (o I 3 ta2e ,ore hee( o& the, tha" &or,erly7 >leasures 'h!%h !" ,y youth I (ou te( as poss! le* the 'h!sper o& 'h!%h passe( y ,e l!2e the !(le '!"(* others 'h!%h I (!( "ot l!2e e/e" to hear o&* I "o' th!"2 a out. The to"#ue a"( the ,outh ,ore &re5ue"tly ,!"!ster to ,y se"suous joys. 3 -o I really l!2e that or "ot7 My !,a#!"at!o" 'ell e+er%!se( !" se+ual pleasures* "o' su##ests stra"#e &or,s o& &or"!%at!o". 3 I &!"( 'o,e" '!ll!"# to #rat!&y the,* "ay ,ore 3 ha/e e/!(e"t (el!#ht '!th ,ysel& !" (o!"# so* 'he" I ha/e su##este( the,. )hether those &a"%!es are !"(ul#e( !" '!th other ,e"* or others o& the!r o'" se+* a"( th!s !s "ot &or lu%re o"ly* !t e/!(e"tly !s to #rat!&y the,sel/es as 'ell as ,e that they (o the,. My las%!/!ous"ess has !"%rease( y pra%t!%e a"( 'o,e" are s!,!larly !"&lue"%e(. 3 Is !t (ur!"# the last &e' years* years 'h!%h I /o'e( to %o"se%rate to &!(el!ty* that I ha/e thus %ha"#e(* or ha/e these tastes ee"
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    #ro'!"# o" ,e s!"%e pu erty7 $ /oluptuous o&&er &ro, a &a!r 'o,a"* I &eel "o' that I %a" s%ar%ely res!st. 3 )here '!ll th!s e"(* !" #oo( or e/!l7 My 2"o'le(#e o& ,ale a"( &e,ale !" se+ual ,atters* !" the!r pro%reat!/e !"st!"%ts a"( se+ual /a#ar!es* ho' lar#e !s see,s. 3 Yet there st!ll see,s a &!el( o& pleasure* o& e"5u!ry yet u"e+plore( e&ore ,e. Shall I y!el( a"( #rat!&y !t7 My &or,er hes!tat!o"s see, "early #o"e* ol(ly a"( '!thout hes!tat!o"* I "o' as2 'o,e" &or the sat!s&a%t!o" o& let%hes* let%hes relat!/ely a "or,al. 3 >erhaps all eyo"( pla!" elly to elly %opulat!o" ,ay e %alle( a "or,al se+ual pleasures. Mu%h that !s (o"e e/ery hour* e/ery ,!"ute y ,ale '!th &e,ale !s a "or,al. ;ut to 'hat (oes th!s lea(7 3 )hat '!ll e the out%o,e to th!s '!(er ra"#e o& erot!% (es!res. 3 9oo( or e/!l7 3 Shall I stru##le a#a!"st !t or y!el(7 3Ha/e I "ot stru##le( e&ore* stru##le( a#a!"st ,y ph!losophy* a"( '!th 'hat result7 3 ,y "arrat!/e a"s'ers ,e. 9o!"# alo"# R.#..t St. o"e "!#ht a Fre"%h 'o,a" a%%oste( ,e. 3 She 'oul( #!/e ,e su%h pleasure she pro,!se(* patter!"# o"* a"( 'al2!"# y ,y s!(e 'he" she &ou"( I (!( "ot re&use her a(/a"%es. She a"s'ere( ,y le'e( 5uest!o"s rea(!ly* as I put the, out o& sheer &u" a"( %ur!os!ty* &or I ha( "o !"te"t!o" at the ,o,e"t o& a%%o,pa"y!"# her. 3 Yes* #!/e ,e pleasure su%h as I ha( "e/er taste(* 3 a"y I l!2e(. 3She ha( "!%e roo,s* 3 'ar,* au(y p!%tures a"( oo2s. 3 4$h ou!* /ous pou/e1 ,'e"%uler*4 !& !t 'ere ,y taste a"( 'oul( pay* or she 'oul( #et ,e a youth* a oy 3 4U" eau #ar%o" 3 %har,a"t 3 s!+tee" years ol( "o ,ore.4 3 He 'oul( u##er ,e !& I l!2e(* &or h!s pr!%2 'as "!%e a"( s,all 3 yes* she ha( see" !t* &or he ha( u##ere( a &r!e"( o& hers !" her lo(#!"#s* she ha( see" h!, (o !t* so she 2"e' all a out h!,. $,use( '!th her* please( '!th her s,all so&t /o!%e 'h!%h re,!"(e( ,e o& Ca,!lle's* a /o!%e so (!&&ere"t &ro, the harsh ra' /o!%es o& ,ost Fre"%h >aph!a"s* that ha/!"# a" hour or t'o to spare* I 'e"t out o& %ur!os!ty o"ly to the apart,e"ts o& the 'o,a". She ha( "!%e roo,s* a"( a sele%t!o" o& thorou#hly #oo(* %oloure(* %o%2 rous!"# l!tho#raphs o& &or"!%at!o". Soo" I ha( loo2e( thro the, a"( sat loo2!"# at her u"0(ress!"#* &or she 'as the etter 'orth loo2!"# at. 3 She u"(resse( '!th #reat (el! erat!o"* tal2!"# a out ,astur at!o"* #a,ahu%h!"#* &u%2!"# a"( so(o,y* !" as 5u!et a 'ay as !& tal2!"# a out her (ress. I" these part!%ulars she re,!"(e( ,e o& Ca,!lle. She sa!( she 'as t'e"ty0e!#ht. I a, sure she 'as at least th!rty0&!/e* 'as a 'ell 2"o'" 'o,a"* &leshy* sol!(* s,ooth* ut s5uare u!lt* a"( "ot #ra%e&ul. I" &lesh 'h!te as s"o'* '!th t'o hu#e &!r, he,!spheres o" her %hest. Her ha!r 'as (ar2 re( ?a %olour I (!sl!2e@ her a%2s!(e !#* ,ar ly* a"( 'h!te< her ,otte a"( %u"t* %o/ere( '!th a th!%2 ,ass o& ha!r o& a (ar2er re(. Stra"#e to say !t 'as th!s /ery %olour* 'h!%h "o' I th!"2 o& !t* so,eho' a((e( to the reaso"s o& ,y #o!"# ho,e '!th her. It 'as %ur!os!ty 3 a %ha"#e. She ha( s!l2 sto%2!"#s a"( oots &!tt!"# her to per&e%t!o" o& %ourse. Fre"%h #ay la(!es ha/e the,* e/e" !& they are al,ost star/!"#. They

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    2"o' the e&&e%t o& a "!%e appeara"%e !" those e+tre,!t!es 'h!%h lea( up to the %u"t. I tur"e( her a out "a2e(* ope"e( her %u"t* pla%e( her !# 'h!te utto%2s to'ar(s ,e* sa' th!%2 ha!r rou"( her arsehole* a"( !ts true ro'" t!"t o" the &ur0ro'. The" I tol( her I 2"e' she 'as ol(er tha" she sa!(. She lau#he( heart!ly 'he" I ,e"t!o"e( the /ar!ous !"(!%at!o"s o& her a#e. )hat 'as I #o!"# to (o7 3 )as she !" a hurry7 4$h "o.4 49a,ahu%he ,e 3 su%2 ,y pr!%2* a"( let ,e spe"( !" your ,outh.4 4Oh %erta!"ly.4 3 She ha( str!ppe( to her s2!" I ,ay a(( '!thout ha/!"# ee" as2e(. She 2"e' she 'as 'orth loo2!"# at. I partly too2 ,y %lothes o&&. 3 4$h "o* ta2e the, all o&& l!2e ,e* pleasure shoul( al'ays e ta2e" properly.4 3 So I str!ppe( to ,y sh!rt. 3 48o" 3 "o" 3 "a2e( l!2e ,e.4 3 So I str!ppe( e"t!rely. It 'as a hot "!#ht. 3 The" she spo"#e( rou"( ,y %o%2* !ts t!p* a"( ,y alls* a"( a"us* ,ost %are&ully. 4-o you l!2e your trou (e %ul l!%2e(74 3 4Yes*4 I repl!e(* tho I (!("'t re%olle%t the se"sat!o"* "or e/e" !& !t has ee" e/er (o"e to ,e* tho I th!"2 !t has. 3 4I '!ll (o !t so "!%ely you shall &eel*4 sa!( she. 3 The" she 'ashe( her %u"t. 3 4-o you l!2e 'ash!"# a 'o,a"'s %u"t74 4So,e0t!,es.4 4)ash ,!"e*4 sa!( she as !& she l!2e( the !(ea o& that. 3 So I soape( a"( ru e( !t. 3)he" (ry* she l!#hte( so,e ,ore %a"(les* arra"#e( a lar#e %he/al #lass at the proper a"#le ?she 2"e' e+a%tly 'here to put !t@. The" #ett!"# o" to the e(. 3 4Vo!la*4 sa!( she. 3 $ll 'as (o"e '!thout hurry s%urry* !t 'as a tra"5u!l* re&!"e( preparat!o" &or las%!/!t!es. Tho (el!#hte( '!th the ,o/e,e"ts o& the 'h!te &leshe( 'o,a"* ,y %o%2 'as "ot st!&&. I 'as a,use(* a /oluptuous &eel!"# stole o/er ,e* the sort o& &eel!"# I so,et!,es e+per!e"%e a" hour or t'o a&ter o"e or t'o &u%2s 3 a &eel!"# as !& I "ee(e( rest* tho st!ll le'e(ly !"%l!"e( 3 the la"#u!(* %reep!"#* hal& sat!s&!e( ra"(!"ess o"e has* 'he" lay!"# y the s!(e o& a s'eet 'o,a" 'ho, I ha/e &u%2e( a" hour e&ore* a"( !" 'hose %u"t the spu"2 !s st!ll ly!"#. 3 She too2 ,y pr!%2 a"( alls '!th a" easy #rasp !" a" u"usually !# ha"(* ut !t 'as plu,p* /ery s,ooth* a"( 'h!te. My %o%2 e#a" #e"tly to s'ell as her ha"( sl!ppe( (o'" u"(er ,y alls* a"( I &elt her &!"#er press!"# ,y u, hole '!th a so&t* t'!((l!"#* !"s!"uat!"# pressure. 3 The" she %lose( ,y le#s* a"( 2"eel!"# o/er ,e a"( s!tt!"# a%2'ar(s o" her heels* she too2 ,y pr!%2 a"( ru e( !t #e"tly a#a!"st her %l!tor!s* 'h!%h stoo( 'ell out &ro, her %u"t l!ps "o' ope"e( y her att!tu(e. 3 The" she la!( e"t!rely o/er ,e* ta2!"# o&& her 'e!#ht '!th her ha"(s* a"( #e"tly ru e( her 'hole o(y o/er ,!"e< her reast ru e( ,y "!pples* her elly l!#htly #l!(e( o/er ,!"e* the ha!r o& her ,otte t!%2le( ,y pr!%2. 3 It 'as a" !"&!"!tely (el!%ate* a,orous play* 5u!etly e+%!t!"#. 3 4$h*4 sa!( she* 4Your p!llo' !s "ot r!#ht* put your hea( there*4 a"( she ,o/e( !t. 3 4There "o' you %a" see e/eryth!"# !" the #lass 3 there.4 I let her (o e+a%tly 'hat she l!2e(* '!thout tell!"# her a"yth!"#. 3 The" she stoo( y the e(s!(e* a"( 2!sse( ,e all o/er &ro, hea( to &eet. $t le"#th she
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    ur!e( her ,outh !" the th!%2et o& ,y ,otte* a"( l!&t!"# ,y pr!%2 a"( ope"!"# ,y th!#hs* 2!sse(* l!%2e( ,y alls a"( #ra(ually alo"# ,y pr!%2* ut a/o!(!"# the t!p. The t!t!llat!o" o& her to"#ue rouse( ,y (or,a"t lust* a"( up s'elle( ,y pe#o to a "o le &u%2!"# s!1e. She s,!le(* a"( "o' ta2!"# !t !" her ,outh* (el!%ately l!%2e( the t!p* a"( the" e"#ul&e( !t to the /ery roots. I &elt !t (o'" her throat* a"( !t totally (!sappeare(. 3 It 'as (el!%!ous. 3 Out !t soo" %a,e &la,!"#* ur"!"# a"( %r!,so" t!ppe(* her sal!/a ru""!"# (o'" !t a"( tr!%2l!"# o" to ,y alls. 3 The" she (es!ste( a"( let !t #o* a&ter #!/!"# !t a #e"tle s5uee1e. 4Su%2 ,e* #o o"* let ,e spe"(* #et o" ,e so that I %a" see your %u"t.4 4-o"'t e !" su%h a hurry &or the pleasure*4 sa!( she lay!"# (o'" y ,e* lett!"# ,e &eel her all o/er ut lea/!"# ,y pr!%2 alo"e. 3 8o* I shoul( "ot spe"( yet. 3 4C'est trop /!te* soye1 tra"5u!lle.4 She tal2e( the" a out other th!"#s so as to (!stra%t ,y atte"t!o" &ro, ,y pe"!s* a"( !ts lust so,e'hat su s!(e(. 3 The" #ett!"# o&&* a"( r!"#!"# ,e to the s!(e o& the e(* '!th le#s ha"#!"# o" to the &loor* she tol( ,e to hol( ,y le#s up h!#h. I o eye( her !" e/ery0th!"#. 3 I ha( su##este( a"( as2e( her &or "oth!"# h!therto* e+%ept!"# to su%2 ,e* to #a,ahu%he ,e. )he" ,y th!#hs 'ere up !" the a!r* she #e"tly pulle( as!(e ,y u, %hee2s* a"( e#a" l!%2!"# ,y a"us. E/ery "o' a"( the" she le&t o&&* #a/e just the t!p o& ,y pr!%2 a l!ttle (el!%ate su%2* a"( the" 'e"t a%2 to ,y a"us. Her to"#ue see,e( to e"ter !t* a t!%2l!"# se"sat!o" a"( a /oluptuous pleasure sprea( r!#ht up ,y &u"(a,e"t* a"( there 'as a au(y se"sat!o" up !t 'h!%h #ot ,!+e( '!th the le'e("ess 'h!%h %a,e &ro, ,y pr!%2 a"( ,y alls. 3 $#a!" she e#a" #a,ahu%h!"# 'h!lst I lay spee%hless* tra"5u!lly e"joy!"# the /oluptuous treat. 3 4$ha 3 'hat are you (o!"#7 $ha.4 $ "e' se"sat!o" %a,e o/er ,e* I &elt ,y a"us ope"!"# a"( stret%h!"# u"(er a #e"tle t'!((l!"# pressure* her ,!((le &!"#er 'as up ,y &u"(a,e"t* a"( she 'as #e"tly u##er!"# '!th !t 'h!lst #a,ahu%h!"# ,e. I tre, le( "o' '!th le'e( se"sat!o"s* I %oul( o"ly see her hea( at the otto, o& ,y elly* #e"tly ,o/!"# up a"( (o'"* her a%2s!(e a"( a,ple "a2e( o(y 'as re&le%te( !" the #lass* a"( so o" &or a ,!"ute. ;ut I 'a"te( to &eel her &lesh* that (es!re to &eel the &lesh o& the other se+* 'h!%h e/ery ,ale a"( &e,ale has 'he" a out to spe"(* %a,e o" ,e stro"#ly 3 I %r!e(. 34$ha let ,e ,o/e 3 let ,e &eel you 3 let ,e see your %u"t.4 She rose &ro, her 2"ees* a"( sta"(!"# e"t &or'ar( st!ll su%2!"# ,e* ut "o' '!th her th!#hs stra((l!"# ope"* a"( I %oul( see her re( ha!re(* &ull l!ppe( %u"t* re&le%te( !" the #lass. It loo2e( as !# as a %o''s ut !t please( ,e. The" st!ll u"sat!s&!e( I ,a(e her %ease* I #ot le"#th'!se o" the e(* a"( she %ha"#!"# her pos!t!o" so as to sta"( s!(e'ays* su%2e( ,e 'h!lst I &elt her utto%2s* ru !"# ,y ha"( o/er the,* a"( rap!(ly thrust ,y &!"#ers et'ee" the,* o" to her %u"t* that %u"t 'h!%h &!lle( ,y &!"#ers '!th so&t &lesh a"( %r!sp re( ha!r. 34$haaa. 3 I', spe"(!"#* &u%2* %u"t* spu"2.4 Dust as ,y sper, e#a" to r!se* she le&t o&& sp!te o& ,y e"treat!es* a"( la!( hol( o& ,y ha"(s to stop ,e &ro, &!"!sh!"# ,y e"joy,e"t y a &r!#* 'h!%h !"/olu"tar!ly I atte,pte(. 3 48o* "o*
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    "ot yet 3 prolo"# your pleasure* (o"'t e !" su%h a hurry.4 3 She 'as a" art!ste* a" a%%o,pl!she( art!ste !" #a,ahu%h!"#. $&ter a pause she re%o,,e"%e(. Th!s t!,e 2"eel!"# o/er ,e* her a,ple 'h!te ru,p a"( th!%2 l!ppe(* ha!ry #ap* '!th!" a &e' !"%hes o& ,y &a%e. She put t'o p!llo's u"(er ,y u,* to thro' !t up &ro, the e( a"( let her su%2 ,e ,ore %o"/e"!e"tly. 34$h ,a %here* you hurt ,e*4 I %r!e( 3 ut ,y pa!" #a/e 'ay to a" a#reea le se"sat!o". She ha( !"tro(u%e( her ,!((le &!"#er 'h!%h 'as u"usually th!%2 a"( lo"#* ,u%h &urther up ,y u, tha" e&ore* a"( 'as po2!"# a out #e"tly !" ,y &u"(a,e"t. I &elt as !& ,y arse 'as stret%h!"# ut '!thout pa!" 3 the" as !& a hot &art 'as stru##l!"# to %o,e out* a"( ,!+e( '!th these se"sat!o"s* a stra"#e thr!ll!"# pleasure !" the part. $ (es!re to treat her the sa,e rushe( thro ,y ra!". I pulle( ope" her utto%2s a"( thrust ,y &!"#ers up her %u"t. 3 For a" !"sta"t she %ease( #a,ahu%h!"#. 4>ut your &!"#er up ,y %u* %her*4 sa!( she a"( resu,e( her 'or2. 9o( 2"o's 'hether I (!( or "ot* I %a"'t say* I %a"'t re%olle%t &or I 'as "early '!l(* 3 I &elt %erta!"ly all a out her* !" e/ery pla%e ,y ha"( %oul( rea%h. I 'as ,a( to (!s%har#e ,y sper, 'h!%h she 2ept ,e art&ully &ro, spe"(!"#* t!ll "ature 'oul( reta!" !t "o lo"#er* a"( '!th a s%rea, o& pleasure* out thro e( ,y hot se,!"al ,u%!la#e* #ush!"# spas,o(!%ally !"to her ,outh* a"( I lay se"seless. The to'el at ha"( #ot r!( o& the l! at!o"* a"( 'he" I ha( re%o/ere( &ro, the !"0 te"s!ty o& the spas,s o& pleasure* she 'as st!ll #e"tly su%2!"# ,y tool* #!/!"# ,e a prolo"#e( l!"#er!"# /oluptuous"ess &or so,e ,!"utes. The" she #ot up* r!"se( her ,outh '!th eau0(e0Colo#"e a"( 'ater* a"( sa!(* 4Ha/e I "ot #!/e" you pleasure* %her74 3 I"(ee( she ha( 3 "e/er (!( I #et e&ore su%h prolo"#e(* su%h /ar!e( pleasure* as th!s Fre"%h art!ste !" se+ual!t!es #a/e ,e '!th &!"#er a"( ,outh* y a s!"#le eja%ulat!o" o& ,y se,e". The prolo"#at!o" o& ,y e+%!te,e"t* &at!#ue( ,e I th!"2 as ,u%h as a %ouple o& &u%2s* I 'as te,porar!ly a""!h!late(. She %are&ully 'ashe( ,y pr!%2 a"( u, hole a#a!"* a"( spr!"2le( eau0(e0Colo#"e o" ,e. She hel( ,y pr!%2 'he" I p!sse(* the" 'ashe( the t!p a"( #a/e !t a #e"tle ,outh!"# a&ter'ar(s* a"( a(/!s!"# ,e to rest* she la!( (o'" y ,y s!(e* tal2!"# all a out the pleasures. The" she re/erse( hersel&* a&ter #ett!"# o&& to sh!&t the pos!t!o" o& the l!#hts o" the ta le* a"( as2e( ,e to loo2 at her pr!/ate eaut!es* as !& I ha( "ot see" the, e"ou#h 3 'as"'t her %u"t t!#ht &or a !# 'o,a"* ha("'t she a pretty %l!tor!s7 4Feel !t (ear 3 oh you ,a2e ,e 'a"t !t 'he" you tou%h !t 3 &r!# ,e %her*4 a"( 'h!lst %o,ply!"# a"( &eel!"# her all a out* e/ery "o' a"( the" she a#a!" too2 ,y &la y (oo(le !"to her ,outh* a"( #a/e !t a #e"tly su%2* a"( a#a!" p!er%e( ,y u, hole '!th her &!"#er a&ter 'ett!"# !t* a"( I let her (o !t. The" lay!"# y ,y s!(e* a#a!" she too2 hol( o& ,y &!"#ers to &r!# hersel& '!th the,. 3 9ra(ually so 'ere ,y se"ses e+%!te( y her a%ts a"( 'or(s* that a (es!re to ha/e her #a,ahu%h!"# ,e a#a!" %rept o/er ,e* as 'ell as to ha/e ,y u, hole plu##e(. 3 It 'as o"ly %ur!os!ty* ut I ha( a stra"#e &eel!"# there 'h!%h her &!"#er ha( le&t* a le'e( !rr!tat!o" there* a"( I put ,y &!"#er (o'" to &eel !& !t 'as ope". 3 4-o you l!2e to e u##ere(74 sa!( she 3
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    I sa!( I "e/er ha(* a"( "e/er ,ea"t* ut* 4Yes I l!2e( your &!"#er there.4 3 I %oul("'t help say!"# that. 3 4You ,ust pay &or a pa!r o& 'h!te 2!( #lo/es* a"( I '!ll put !t o/er ,y &!"#er* a"( %o/er !t '!th %ol( %rea,* a"( you shall e so please(.4 3 48ot to"!#ht*4 sa!( I asto"!she(. 3 4$h yes* pour5uo! pas* you ha/e ,u%h spu"2 !" you yet 3 loo2 at your pree2e* !t !s !##er 3 'hy you "ot ou##are ,e '!th your &!"#er 'he" I &eel you 3 shall ,e #et #lo/es74 She spo2e thus !" ro2e" E"#l!sh #e"erally* ut so,et!,es !" Fre"%h. I" /oluptuous lass!tu(e* al,ost a#a!"st ,y '!ll I %o"se"te(. She #ot &ro, a (ra'er a "e' pa!r o& 'h!te 2!( #lo/es a"( a pot o& %ol( %rea,< those th!"#s rea(y* she 'e"t thro the prel!,!"ar!es as e&ore. My pr!%2* alls* a"( u, hole 'ere l!%2e( a"( to"#ue t!%2le( all o/er '!th ,u%h (el! erat!o"* a"( '!th %ur!ous (el!%a%y o& to"#ue* t!ll I #re' restless '!th lust a"( y a%2s!(e 'r!##le(. The" putt!"# a lu,p o& #rease o" ,y a"us* she put o" a #lo/e* %o/ere( the ,!((le &!"#er '!th #rease* pushe( !t slo'ly up ,e a"( too2 ,y pr!%2 !" her ,outh. She ,o/e( her &!"#er a out ,y &u"(a,e"t* ,a2!"# ,e &eel as e&ore as !& I 'as &art!"# a hot '!"(. O"e o& her &eet 'as "o' o" the &loor* her other upo" to the e( y the s!(e o& ,e* a"( I %oul( as I lay see !" the #lass the a%2 o& her "a2e( o(y a"( her ,o/e,e"ts. 8ear ,y %hest 'as her elly* utto%2s a"( her th!%2 l!ppe(* re( ha!re( %u"t et'ee" the,. )!th outstret%he( ha"( I &elt her %u"t &ro, u, hole to %l!tor!s. Slo'ly she ,o/e( her hea( up a"( (o'"* %o"/ey!"# a &u%2!"# ,ot!o" a"( &eel!"# to ,y pe#o* pro0lo"#!"# a"( !"te"s!&y!"# ,y e"joy,e"t e+a%tly as e0 &ore* ut e/e" ,ore (el! erately* t!ll "o' al,ost '!th a s%rea, o& le'e( 'or(s I spe"t a#a!" !" her ,outh. I ha( !,,e"se e"joy,e"t !" her ,outh* a"( pay!"# her ?5u!te sat!s&!e(@ a (ou le &ee* I le&t her. I 'e"t to see her a#a!" soo" a&ter* solely* as 'ell as I %a" a"aly1e ,y reaso"s a"( !"te"t!o"s* to &!"( out 'hether I really l!2e( ,y u, hole plu##e( '!th her &!"#er or "otI &or ,y se"sat!o"s ha( ee" so ,!+e(* so %o,pl!%ate(* that I %oul("'t ,a2e up ,y ,!"( o" the po!"t. I #a/e her that "!#ht %ha,pa#"e* a"( so she #ot st!ll 'ar,er to the 'or2. It see,e(* a"( I really el!e/e* that she (el!#hte( !" the e+er%!se. $&ter ,y &!rst eja%ulat!o"* she #ot ,y pe#o to r!se a#a!"* a"( the" as2e( ,e !& I 'oul( &u%2 her. 4$ "!%e t!#ht %u"t*4 she sa!(. 3 ;ut I (!( "ot sat!s&y her* tho I ha( /er!&!e( y ,y &!"#er that her %u"t ha( the 5ual!ty she %la!,e( &or !t. The" %a,e su##est!o"s. Ha( I e/er (o"e th!s or that7 I ha( (o"e ,a"y th!"#s that she su##este(. The" she #ot to a%ts a l!ttle out o& the %o,,o"0re%her%hF lusts. 3 Ha( I u##ere( or ee" u##ere(7 I ,!#ht u##er her !& I l!2e(* &or she l!2e( ,e* a"( l!2e( the se"sat!o" o& a ,a"'s pr!%2 up her 4%u*4 l!2e( her %u"t l!%2e( or &r!##e(* 'he" her &u"(a,e"t ha( the pe#o up !t. There 'as a %har,!"# #!rl 'ho (!( !t to her. 3 4)he" you're e!"# u##ere(74 sa!( I* 4!,poss! le.4 3 48o !t !s "ot !,poss! le* loo2*4 3 a"( she sho'e( 'hat appeare( to e a pr!e0(!eu %ha!r* ut lo' a%2e(* lar#e* '!(e seate(* !,,e"sely hea/y* !ts a%2 !"%l!"!"# sl!#htly* a"( ,ost e+traor(!"ary !" !ts
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    u!l(. $ %ha!r o& rou#h ,a2e* a"( I el!e/e ,a(e &or the purpose. 4It !s just the he!#ht*4 sa!( she 2"eel!"# to pro/e !t. I stoo( up at her a%2 a"( appl!e( ,y pr!%2 to her u, /alley to test that. 3 The %ha!r 'as ope" !" the a%2* a"( the" to /er!&y her state,e"t* I 2"elt !" &ro"t o& her* as she 'as 2"eel!"# o" the %ha!r '!th th!#hs apart !" u##eree posture* a"( &ou"( that I %oul( '!th a l!ttle push!"# &or'ar( o& ,y hea(* tou%h her %u"t '!th ,y l!ps* I %oul( ha/e l!%2e( her %l!tor!s. She (e%alre( that 'he" u##ere(* her you"# &e,ale &r!e"( l!%2e( her 5u!, !" that 'ay. )oul( I %o,e a#a!" a"( she 'oul( &et%h her &r!e"(* a"( the" 'h!lst I &u%2e( her &r!e"(* she 'oul( &!"#er u##er ,e. 3 Or her &r!e"( shoul( #a,ahu%he her thro the a%2 o& the %ha!r* 'h!lst I u##ere( her* or &u%2e( her* 'h!%h e/er I please( ut she pre&erre( e!"# u##ere( a"( l!%2e(. 3 Or a "!%e #ar%o" '!th a lo/ely pr!%2 shoul( %o,e to ,e a"( I %oul( u##er h!, 3 or e u##ere( y h!,* or I %oul( su%2 h!,. So 'e tal2e( o"* a"( she ra!se( a "u, er o& %ur!ous (es!res !" ,e y these su##est!o"s o& /ar!ety. I (!( "ot ta!l her as she as2e(* ut ha( a"other pa!r o& 'h!te #lo/es a"( !ts #rease( &!"#er up ,y u, a#a!"* re&us!"# a (!l(o 'h!%h she "o' o&&ere( &or the &!rst t!,e* a"( a#a!" spe"t !" her ,outh a"( 5u!tte( her 'ell sat!s&!e(. $ 'ee2 elapse(. )hat a, I %o,!"# to7 Her ,a"!&ol(* 5ua!"tly las%!/!ous su##est!o"s urthe"e( ,y ,!"( 'he"e/er a le'e( se"sat!o" passe( throu#h ,y ra!"* 'he"e/er a le'e( se"sat!o" %ourse( throu#h ,y pe#o* a"( a#a!" I sou#ht her. It 'as ,a!"ly to e &r!##e( y a ha"( %o/ere( '!th 'h!te 2!( #lo/es* that 'as "o' ,y let%h. She 2ept I &ou"( "o' 'h!te #lo/es !" her (ra'ers* "o (ou t us!"# the, thus 'h!%h 'as 5u!te her spe%!al!ty. She at &!rst &r!##e( ,e '!th her #lo/e( ha"( &or a t!,e* the" #rease( the e"t!re #lo/e* to let ,e &eel the (!&&ere"%e !" the &r!%t!o" et'ee" the (ry a"( the #rease(. Really 'hether #rease( or "ot #rease(* a 2!( #lo/e ha"( ,a2es a (ele%ta le ,astur ator. I 'oul( "ot spe"( that 'ay. )he" rea(y to eja%ulate eth!"2!"# ,e o& her su##est!o"s* a"( all sorts o& au(y (es!res &loat!"# throu#h ,y ra!"* 49et the 'o,a" 'ho l!%2s you*4 I %r!e(* a"( I thou#ht o& &u%2!"# ,y ,astur atress &ro, eh!"( 'h!lst her %l!tor!s 'as l!%2e( &ro, e&ore y the satell!te. She &eare( the 'o,a" 'as "ot '!th!" or ,!#ht e e"#a#e(* ut 'oul( se"(. I" a 5uarter o& a" hour (ur!"# 'h!%h I /ar!e( our l! !(!"ous tr!%2s* she %a,e !". She 'as a Fre"%h* (ar2 eye(* (ar2 ha!re( 'o,a"* see,!"#ly "ot ,ore tha" e!#htee" or "!"etee". 3 Cha,pa#"e 'as to st!r our e"er#!es* a"( the" 'e set to 'or2. I sa' the you"# 'o,a"'s %u"t* a"( 'he" I 'as 5u!te st!&&* a"( a&ter oth 'o,e" ha( ha( ,y pr!%2 !" the!r ,ouths* a"( o"e ha( l!%2e( ,y alls 'h!lst the other 'as l!%2!"# the t!p< to the %ha!r 'e 'e"t. 3 )!th th!#hs '!(e apart the re( ha!re( o"e 2"elt o" !t* a"( the l!ttle (ar2 o"e 2"eel!"# o" a p!llo' !" &ro"t prepare( &or ,!"ett!"#. 3 Her to"#ue rea%he( the other's %l!tor!s* a"( I ,a(e her &or a se%o"( l!%2 !t to let ,e see that !t %oul( e (o"e. 3 4Co,e u##er ,e*4 sa!( the re( ha!re( o"e* a"( putt!"# her ha"( a%2* she
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    4You 'o"'t: ah yes* you ,ust* I shall spe"( 'he" you spe"( !" ,y %u.4 3 It see,e( &ro, her pert!"a%!ty !" (e,a"(!"# !t* as !& she really (es!re( !t* a"( 'as (!sappo!"te( at ,y stea(y re&usal. I tr!e( to &u%2 her &ro, eh!"(* ut %oul( "ot #et ,y pr!%2 'ell !"to her* her u, 'as so !#< a"( 'he" she l!&te( her a%2s!(e a"( jutte( !t out* her &r!e"( %oul( "ot 'ell l!%2 her %l!tor!s* so 'e %ease( try!"# &or the ,!"ute. The" sa!( I ?!t ha( ee" her o'" su##est!o" o" a pre/!ous "!#ht@* 4I'll (!l(o your arsehole 'h!lst she l!%2s your %u"t.4 4Tres !e"* ut you ,ust the" #!/e ,e a"other so/ere!#".4 3 I a#ree(. Fro, a"other (ra'er %a,e t'o or three (!l(oes. Sele%t!"# a l!ttle o"e 'h!%h she #rease( %are&ully* a"( !"stru%t!"# ,e ho' to use !t* I presse( !t throu#h the %orru#ate( aperture* a"( slo'ly soo" !t (!sappeare( up her &u"(a,e"t. I pushe( !t #e"tly up a"( (o'"* the l!ttle o"e l!%2e( her %u"t* the l!%2s sou"(e( a"( "oth!"# else !" our e+%!te( s!le"%e* t!ll the re( ha!re( o"e 'r!##le( her u, a"( elly* %r!e( out she 'as spe"(!"#* a"( ur#e( ,e to ,o/e the (!l(o 'h!%h !" 'at%h!"# the t'o I ha( &or the ,o,e"t %ease( (o!"#* ut ha( le&t st!%2!"# !" her ru,p. I re%o,,e"%e(* she ur#e( the you"# o"e e 5u!%2er. 4L!%2 lo'er4 she %r!e(* a"( '!th a real or 'ell a%te( spas, o& pleasure* all 'as o/er. I re,o/e( the (!l(o &ro, !ts sheath* she &or a ,!"ute or t'o lea"e( o/er the %ha!r '!th eyes %lose(* a"( the other 'e"t o" s!le"tly l!%2!"# the %l!tor!s. I ha( "ot yet spe"t* ha( restra!"e( ,ysel&* ,o/!"# a out '!th ,y pe#o l!2e a rass ro(* ut 'as "o' al0,ost spe"(!"# '!thout ha"( or %u"t to help ,e* so e+%!te( 'as I y the spe%ta%le. Spea2!"# !" Fre"%h* 49et up* I'll 2!ss you*4 to the you"#er o"e. 3 O" to the e( she spra"# a"( ope"e( her re( #ap. )!th a loo2* a &eel* a"( a s"!&& at !t I ,ou"te( her* a"( !" a se%o"( ,y pe#o 'as up her la%2 ha!re( %u"t. The re( ha!re( o"e '!th0out (elay a"( u"as2e(* !"serte( her &!"#er !" ,y re%tu,* I &elt the sph!"%ter stret%h* a"( '!th l! !(!"ous !,a#es &lash!"# throu#h ,y ra!"* !" au(y e%stasy I eja%ulate( ,y se,e"* a"( (!e( a'ay< the la(y's %u"t %l!pp!"# a"( spe"(!"# '!th ,e. 4Mo" -!eu 'hat a lot o& spu"2*4 sa!( she as I #ot o&& o& her. 3 I loo2e( a"( there 'as. 3 The re( ha!re( o"e loo2e( a(,!r!"#ly. 4My 9o(: a r!/er*4 sa!( she. )!th!" hal& a" hour I 'as rea(y a#a!"* e!ther o"e or other o& the 'o,e" ha( ha"(le( ,y #e"!tals all the t!,e* a"( I ha( e+hauste( the poses I %oul( th!"2 o& pla%!"# the, !". The" I put the l!ttle o"e o" ,y pr!%2 as I sat o" a %ha!r* %lasp!"# o"e reast* a"( &eel!"# her ,otte at the sa,e t!,e. The re( ha!re( stru,pet see,!"#ly please(* 2"elt (o'" a"( l!%2e( the %l!tor!s o& ,y &u%2stress* 'h!lst '!th al,ost !,per%epta le jo##!"#s o& her %u"t* a"( hea/!"# o& ,y u,* 'e &u%2e(. The #e"tle &r!%t!o"* the (eep plu##!"# soo" tol(* a"( 'e spe"t. The" tra"5u!lly s!tt!"# o" ,e st!ll* ,y pr!%2 shr!"2!"# sat!s&!e( &ro, her %u"t* 'h!lst I &elt her %l!tor!s* a"( our sper,y ,!+tures ru""!"# out o" to ,y alls* 'e reste( a 'h!le. 3 Re( ha!r sat o" the &loor
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    "a2e( a"( s!le"tly %o"te,plat!"# us. 3 Out &loppe( ,y (oo(le* e"(!"# our %o"ju"%t!o"* a"( 'ash!"# #e"!tals all rou"( e#a". I'( ha( a %ouple o& pleasures ut 'as "ot sat!s&!e(* the 'o,e" ha( so e+%!te( ,e. 3 )e tal2e( &or a t!,e* the" I 2"elt o/er the hea( o& the re( ha!re( o"e at her re5uest* 'h!lst she la!( o" her a%2 a"( #a,ahu%he( ,e a"( she ,astur ate( hersel&. She ,a(e ,e st!&& a"( le'e(* tho I ha( "ot '!she( that* a"( (!( "ot ut!l!1e the ere%t!o"* ha/!"# reaso"s &or "ot &at!#u!"# ,ysel& the" too ,u%h se+ually. 3 )he" her pleasure 'as o/er I la!( (o'"* she %are&ully '!th spo"#e a"( to'el 'ashe( the #rease o&& ,y th!#hs a"( u,* a"( I le&t. That e+traor(!"ary %ha!r 2eeps re%urr!"# to ,y ,!"(. Its (es!#"* 'e!#ht* s!1e a"( #e"eral u#l!"ess* ,a2es !t %erta!" that !t ,ust ha/e ee" ,a(e &or the spe%!al o je%t* 'h!%h she tol( ,e !t 'as use( &or. -!( the 'o,a" I 'o"(er tra/el a out '!th !t 'he" she ,o/e(* or 'as !t part o& the &ur"!ture o& the house7 I "e/er 'e"t "ear the #lo/e 'o,a" a#a!"* "or (o I re%olle%t see!"# her. I ha( sat!s&!e( ,y %ur!os!ty* a"( (!( "ot '!sh ,y u, hole ope"e( a"y ,ore. 3 ;ut %o%2's su%t!o" e#!"s ,ore a"( ,ore to please ,e. 3 Se/eral t!,es I ha/e re&use( to let a pretty ,outh &!"!sh 'he" pro&&ere( that pleasure* "ot ha/!"# '!she( eyo"( putt!"# !t !"to the ,outh o& a 'o,a" I l!2e(. That truly !s a lo/ely e"(ear,e"t e&ore putt!"# !t up the s'eet o"e's %u"t. Is the taste "o' #ra(ually %o,!"# to ,e7 I e#!" to &!"( !t (el!#ht&ul* 'he" I (o "ot st!&&e" rea(!ly* to ,a2e 'o,e" put ,y tool !" the!r ,ouths e/e" !& "ot to %o"su,,ate there. 3 Su%t!o" y a pretty ,outh !s "ot su%h a a( a,use,e"t 'he" a ,a"'s &at!#ue(. J8elly L..l.e a year or t'o a&ter0'ar(s* o&te" #ot ,y se%o"( spe"( that 'ay 3 her %u"t (!( (uty &or the &!rst.K JThese e%%e"tr!% let%hes appear he"%e&orth to ha/e #!/e" ,e pleasure ,ore !" a (e#ree* a"( ,ore &re5ue"tly I #a/e 'ay to %r!es o& lust 'he" !" the he!#ht o& pleasure. For,erly I ha( ee" ,ostly 5u!et* or o"ly use( 'or(s o& e"(ear,e"t to ,y lo/ely part"er< o& late &ra"t!% l! !(!"os!ty has se!1e( ,e at t!,es* a"( ,ore rap!(ly tha" 'or(s %a" e+press the,* &lash thou#h ,y ra!" /!s!o"s o& 'hat I ha/e (o"e 3 o& 'hat I shoul( l!2e to (o 3 a"( the 'or(s o& lust as they es%ape ,e* a(( to ,y pleasure* a"( to those o& so,e o& ,y part"ers 'ho jo!" the!r %r!es to ,!"e. I !"%!te the, to use the,.K

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    Chapter PI Cha"#e !" style !" 'r!t!"# th!s "arrat!/e. Re%2less a,ours. 8elly L..l.e a"( Sophy S...h. 8eophyte harlots. $ &!rst "!#ht out. Ma(a,e S...2.".us. Cu"tal %o"trasts. $ las%!/!ous e/e"!"#. The!r a"te%e(e"ts a"( &uture. 8elly's &a%e* &or,* a"( 5u!,. Voluptuous %o,pla%e"%y. Her a&ter l!&e. My tastes &or e!"# #a,ahu%he(. E+ter"als o& so(o,!tes. Fa"tast!% ,ale las%!/!et!es. Cha,pa#"e a"( sper,. -!l(o a"( arse0hole. ;!r%h!"# tr!e( o" ,e. >ol!%e,e"'s &or eara"%e. O"e !" pla!" %lothes. 8elly's !ll"ess a"( ,y a!(. Sophy's &a%e* &!#ure* a"( %olour. Her sl!##ery pu(e"(a. Vul#ar!ty a"( /o!%e. Marr!e(* ,other* a"( '!(o'e(. Harlott!"# resu,e(. -ru"2e" a"( (e#ra(e(. Lo/e !" her ar,p!ts. JIt !s e/!(e"t "o'* altho !t (!( "ot o%%ur to ,e at the t!,e 'he" 'ee2 y 'ee2* or (ay y (ay* I 'rote these "arrat!/es* that o& late years I ha( a #ro'!"# ha !t o& #!/!"# op!"!o"s o"* a"( reaso"s &or ,y a,orous* erot!% e+plo!ts. 3 Th!s %erta!"ly 'as "ot the %ase !" the early part o& th!s h!story. 3 I suppose the %ha"#e 'as the result o& e+per!e"%e* a"( re&le+!o" o" that e+per!e"%e* 'h!%h ,a(e ,e 'r!te those op!"!o"s. They 'ere (ou tless !"/olu"tary* they %a,e !" the "atural %ourse o& the !"%!(e"ts* a"( 'r!t!"# the, at the t!,e please( ,e as ,u%h as (es%r! !"# the e/e"ts. These op!"!o"s a"( re&le+!o"s are a" !"(e+ to ,y ,e"tal state at that t!,e* a"( !t 'oul( e 'ell to reta!" the, all. The "ee( &or e+%!s!o" a"( a re/!at!o" !s ho'e/er !"e+ora le* a"( &e' %a" e 2ept. The (es!res 'h!%h spra"# up* the thou#hts or e+per!e"%es 'h!%h le( to the,* !& prelu(es to ,y a,orous (ee(s* '!ll ho'e/er e reta!"e(* 'here "ot o& too #reat le"#th. J8ot ha/!"# ee" &ou"( out !" ,y pro,!s%uous a,use,e"ts '!th 'o,e"* a"( the a!l,e"ts o& Ve"us "ot ha/!"# atta%2e( ,e* I e%a,e ol(* a"( (!( ope"ly ha1ar(ous th!"#s* 'h!%h a &e' years a#o I shoul( "e/er atte,pte(. I lo"#e( &or 'o,e" 'ho ha( "e/er sol( the!r %har,s* a"( ,a(e a(/a"%es to so,e 'ho see,e( ope" to the,* so,e 'ho 'ere as %r!t!%ally pla%e( as I 'as* a"( ,ore so* &or to the, !t ,!#ht ha/e ee" utter ru!". 3 )!th t'o or three* I ha( r!e& a,ours 'h!%h 'e oth e"joye( !"te"sely. The pleasure o& eat!"# stole" ho"ey !s #reat* a"( ha1ar(ous* !ll!%!t &u%2!"#* !s the &!"est o& ho"ey. -a"#er a"( r!s2s "o (ou t #!/e !ts %har,s to su%h l!a!so"s* ut &u%2!"# '!th eyes a"( ears ope" at ,y t!,e o& l!&e* 'as a&ter all "ot so pleasura le as &u%2!"# '!th a tra"5u!l ,!"(. J$ltho stro"# se+ually* I thou#ht that at ,y t!,e o& l!&e that the stre"#th %oul( "ot last lo"#* a"( see,e( to (es!re to lose "o opportu"!ty !" !"(ul#!"# '!th the se+* &ear!"# that !"(!&&ere"%e 'h!%h so,et!,es %o,es '!th the a ate,e"t o& /!r!le &or%e. So 'he" I #ot the %ha"%e I ha( ,a"y %har,!"# tra"s!e"t a,ours. C!r%u,sta"%es !"(ee( a l!ttle later o" &a/oure( ,e !" these* a"( #a/e ,e opportu"!t!es o& !"(ul#!"# '!th less r!s2 tha" e&ore* ut 'hat le( to those &a%!l!t!es ,ust "ot e (!s%lose(. Ma"y o& ,y &u#!t!/e a,ours (!( "ot e+%ee(
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    the a%5ua!"ta"%e o& a "!#ht or t'o 3 "or (!( I '!sh the, to last 3 "or perhaps (!( ,y &e,ale &r!e"(s. Mostly they 'ere %o,,o"pla%e* a"( I o"ly tell o& those !" 'h!%h 'as so,e u"usual !"%!(e"t* tho '!th ,y ha !t the"* as "o' !"/eterate* I (uly re%or(e( !" ,y ,a"us%r!pt ea%h a,orous a(/e"ture. The "e+t t'e"ty or th!rty pa#es relate to t'o you"# harlots "a,e( 8elly L..l.e a"( Sophy S..h 3. I o%%as!o"ally /!s!te( 8elly &or ,a"y years* the other rarely* tho &or as lo"# a t!,e or "early so. My l! !(!"ous a,use,e"t '!th the, 'ere all o& the or(!"ary 2!"(* 'h!%h I ha/e pra%t!se( '!th hu"(re(s o& the &ra!l s!sterhoo(* a"( '!th ,a"y 'ho 'ere "ot &ra!l !" a &!"a"%!al se"se. They 'ere as usual* (es%r! e( y ,e at le"#th !" ,y or!#!"al ,a"us%r!pt* ut the repet!t!o" o& sala%!ous tr!%2s see,s te(!ous "o'* so I ha/e %are&ully 'ee(e( out* arra"#e( !" so,e or(er* %o"(e"se(* a re/!ate( th!s part o& ,y "arrat!/e* to a out o"e &!&th o& !ts or!#!"al le"#th< lea/!"# o"ly %erta!" ep!so(es 'orth reta!"!"# &or the!r /ar!ety* 'h!%h I shall put !" the!r %hro"olo#!%al or(er "early.K 9o!"# alo"# L.%..tr S5uare o"e e/e"!"# I sa' a short!sh &e,ale !" &ro"t o& ,e. She ha( short pett!%oats ?'or" the"@* ;al,oral oots* a s,all &oot* a"( shapely %al&. 3 The ,o/e,e"t o& hau"%hes a"( le#s tol( ,e she ha( the %lass o& &or, I lo/e(< I %a" tell y the pose o& the &oot* a"( the s'!"# o& the u,* 'hat sort o& th!#hs a"( ru,p are ,o/!"# u"(er"eath pett!%oats 3 I passe( a"( loo2e( at her. She ha( a 5u!te you"#* ,o(est &a%e* 'h!te a"( p!"2 %o,ple+!o"* (ar2 eyes* a"( loo2e( healthy* &resh a"( e"t!%!"#. I stoppe(* tur"e(* a"( she passe( ,e. She !s ,o(est I thou#ht. 3 ;ah: 'hat (oes ,o(esty (o here y !tsel& at e!#ht o'%lo%2 p.,.7 3So I a%%oste( her* 'o"(er!"# at her stea(y u, s'!"# 'h!%h loo2e( t'e"ty0o"e at least* 'h!lst her &a%e loo2e( ut se/e"tee" or therea outs. 4May I #o ho,e '!th you74 4Yes !& you l!2e*4 a"( she loo2e( a%2. 4)here (o you l!/e74 3 4I l!/e at 3 oh I &or#et* ut !t's just o/er there.4 49o o" a"( I'll &ollo'.4 3 She hes!tate(* ut tur"e( a%2. 3 Up %a,e a"other &e,ale* taller* '!th &la+e" ha!r* a"( a "early 'h!te &a%e. 3 4The #e"tle,a" 'a"ts to 2"o' 'here 'e l!/e* 'hat's the "a,e o& the street74 4T! le* T!%2le* T!sh* or so,eth!"# l!2e !t I &or#et* ut I 2"o' the 'ay.4 3The" oth lau#he( heart!ly. 3 4)ell #o o"*4 I sa!( ?&or 'e ha( stoppe(@* 4I o"ly 'a"t th!s la(y a"( "ot you.4 3 I "e/er l!2e tal2!"# lo"# to #ay 'o,e" !" the streets. 4It's >!%2le Street*4 sa!( ,y sele%te( o"e* lau#h!"#. 4Cross o/er.4 3 ;oth %rosse(* I &ollo'!"#* 'he" a short* sallo'* De'!sh loo2!"# 'o,a" there stoppe( the,. 3 4)hat !s !t ,y (ear*4 sa!( she. 4The #e"tle,a" 'a"ts to 2"o' the "a,e o& the street.4 4Oh* !t's T...&...( Street* sa!r 3 I '!ll sho's the /ay*4 a"( o&& she 'al2e( rap!(ly '!th the #!rls* I &ollo'!"# at a l!ttle (!sta"%e eh!"( the,. It 'as the au( 'ho 'as #!/!"# the, the!r &!rst lesso" !" street 'al2!"#* a"( &ollo'!"# the, !" /!e'. She ope"e( the (oor '!th a lat%h 2ey 3 4I o"ly 'a"t th!s (ar2 ha!re( #!rl*4 sa!( I* 4a"( I', o"ly #o!"# to #!/e her a so/ere!#".4 4Vel* /el* #o !"* sa!r.4 3 I 'e"t !" a"( upsta!rs to t'o ha"(so,ely &ur"!she( roo,s 3 a la,p 'as
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    alrea(y l!#hte(* a"( she l!t t'o %a"(les* the #!rls stoo( st!ll* s!le"t* a"( star!"# at ,e* I stoo( th!"2!"# 3 I hate ,a2!"# these arra"#e,e"ts '!th se%o"( or th!r( part!es 3 a au(* a"( a %ouple o& 'hores are a ,at%h &or the -e/!l. 4I o"ly 'a"t th!s la(y*4 I repeate(* 4a"( %a" o"ly #!/e her a so/ere!#".4 4Oh you ,ust #!/e her t'o so/ere!#"s 3 !t's her &!rst "!#ht !" Lo"(o"* she's "e/er ee" out e&ore. Oh she ,ust ha/e t'o so/ere!#"s.4 48o.4 4Vel (are !s "o har, (o"e* sa!r* you see /at "!%e you"# la(!es they e* a"( these ha"(so,e roo,s ut !& you 'o"'t* you 'o"'t 3 /el #o out a#a!" ,y (ears.4 3 It 'as all /ery %!/!lly sa!(. 3 8o ully!"#. 3 She le' out the t'o %a"(les* "ot a 'or( ha( e!ther #!rl spo2e" a"( she ope"e( the (oor. Sa!( the 'o,a" as I ,o/e( to'ar(s the (oor* 4I %a"'t let her &or lu%2's sa2e start l!2e that* I rou#ht e, oth to Lo"(o" the (ay e&ore yester(ay* they'/e "e/er see" Lo"(o" streets t!ll a" hour a#o.4 I pause( 3 I ha( "ot!%e( !" the street the #!rl 8elly star!"# a out !" a stra"#e 'ay* !"stea( o& %o%2 hu"t!"# '!th the stea(y #la"%es o& a re#ular stru,pet 3 es!(es the #!rl loo2e( so /ery &resh a"( so ,o(est* that ,y pr!%2 'as sta"(!"#* a"( I &elt a /!ole"t lust &or her. 3 4)ell let her stay* I'll #!/e !t her* ut !& I ha/e her a"other "!#ht I %a" o"ly #!/e a so/ere!#".4 3 4$ll r!#ht* sa!r.4 4;ut I shall stop a lo"# t!,e.4 4You ,ay stop as lo"# as you l!2es* ,ay"'t he 8elly74 4I (o"'t %are*4 sa!( the #!rl. The ol( 'o,a" rel!#hte( the %a"(les. 3 4Ha/e Sophy too*4 sa!( she. I "e/er l!2e( &a!r ha!re( 'o,e". 3 48o.4 4-o 3 !t's her &!rst "!#ht as 'ell 3 (o"'t ,a2e the, jealous o& ea%h other* they're &r!e"(s "o'. 3 -o* a"( I "ee("'t #o out a#a!" to"!#ht.4 3 That stru%2 ,e as so &u""y that I lau#he(. 4)he" you see e, oth 5u!te "a2e( to#ether* you /!l say you "e/er see s!%h &!"e #als.4 4I 'o"'t e "a2e(*4 sa!( o"e* I (o"'t re%olle%t 'h!%h. 3 48o' ,y (earee* you ,ust please #e"tle0,e"s !& you /a"ts to ,a2e &r!e"(s 3 -!("'t I tell ye "o' 3 (!("'t I tell ye 3 I', "ot a #o!"# to 2eep yer 3 you'/e #ot to sleep yoursel&.4 The" tur"!"# to ,e* 4They '!ll e all r!#ht 'he" she 2"o's you* sa!r< ha/e Sophy* (o 3 she's as 'h!te as s"o'* her th!#hs a"( o(y !s* a"( she !s &or,e( eaut!&ul* a"( her ha!r's the sa,e %olor there* o"e's la%2 a"( the other yaller*4 a"( the ol( 'o,a" '!"2e( at ,e a#a!" '!th a leer. The %o"trast 'as e+tre,e 3 4 la%2 %u"t* &la+e" %u"t4 3 thou#ht I. 4)ell* let her stay too 3 ut I', "ot #o!"# to pay you.4 3 4Oh: all r!#hts* all r!#hts* sa!r* you %a" stop all "!#ht /!th (e,. I 2"o's a #e"tle,a"s /he" I spea2 /!( h!,* all r!#hts* sa!r* ,y "a,e !s S...2.".us* a"( I'/e ee" here &!/e years* I', a (ress0,a2er* sa!r.4 ?I ha( so,e !(ea that I 'as #o!"# to e !l2e(.@ 48o' ,y (earees ,!"( /ot I as tell you* a"( I', sure he'll e a &r!e"( to you oth*4 a"( "o((!"# her hea( at the #!rls she 'e"t out. I olte( the (oor. She 'as a 9er,a" 'o,a" I &ou"(* perhaps De'!sh* ut 'ho ha( ee" so,e t!,e !" E"#la"(* a%tually 'or2e( '!th a s!ster at (ress,a2!"#* a"( let her upper &loors to 5u!et #ay 'o,e"* a"( ha( "o' y so,e %ha"%e #ot these t'o you"# 'o,e"* to !"tro(u%e to the pa/F o& Lo"(o".

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    4Ta2e o&& your th!"#s* ,y (arl!"#s.4 3 The #!rls #!##l!"# a"( 'h!sper!"# to ea%h other e#a" slo'ly to (o so< !t 'as per&e%tly %lear that they'( "ot yet u"0 (resse( as >aph!a"s e&ore a ,a" &or pay. 9ra(ually t'o pa!rs o& sple"(!( %al/es a"( lo/ely 'h!te reasts appeare(. 4O& '!th your %he,!ses.4 4I sha"'t*4 sa!( o"e* a"( the other (!( "ot o ey. 3 I pulle( the, oth to ,e* putt!"# ,y ha"(s o" to the!r &at a%2s!(es* a"( 2!sse( the!r lar#e 'h!te reasts alter"ately. I h!t%he( up the %he,!ses o& oth at the sa,e t!,e 'h!lst they stru##le( a !t* a"( sa' &!"e rou"( th!#hs o" oth< "early la%2 ha!r o" o"e %u"t* al,ost !"/!s! le ha!r o" the other. 4My pr!%2's so st!&&*4 sa!( I* a"( #ett!"# up I str!ppe( to ,y sh!rt* pulle( !t up to ,y 'a!st* a"( sho'e( a re( hea(e( ,a#"!&!%e"t ere%t!o". ;oth urst !"to lau#hter* 'h!%h asto"!she( ,e. I pulle( (ar2 ha!re( 8elly o" to o"e th!#h as I sat (o'"* a"( e#a" &eel!"# her %u"t. Fla+e" ha!re( Sophy sat (o'" o" a lo' stool oppos!te us* hol(!"# her %hee2s a"( her %h!" '!th her ha"(s* 'h!lst her el o's reste( o" her th!#hs* l!2e a" ol( Ir!sh 'o,a" s!tt!"# o" a (oor step. $ /ul#ar* lo' loo2 the #!rl ha(* yet she 'as o& a ,ost u"%o,,o" pe%ul!ar style o& &a%e* %erta!"ly ha"(so,e* yet o& a %lass I (!("'t l!2e. The" I "ot!%e( that she ha( 'h!te eye lashes* a"( /ery l!#ht eye ro's* a"( &or the ,o,e"t she re,!"(e( ,e o& a" al !"o* 'ho to ,e !s /ery u#ly. 8o' I tal2e( au(y. 4Sho' ,e your %u"t*4 to 8elly* 'ho ha( ee" &eel!"# ,y pr!%2. 3 4Ho: a!"'t he ru(e*4 sa!( she #!##l!"# a"( loo2!"# at Sophy. 3 4-o.4 4Sha"'t.4 3 I l!&te( her %he,!se to her ar,p!ts su((e"ly. She stru##le( a"( %r!e( out* 48o* "o.4 3 I #ot /e+e( a"( s'ore* &or I hate a stru##le '!th a sha, ,o(est 'hore* a"( ha("'t 5u!te arr!/e( at the el!e& that !t 'as her &!rst "!#ht's harlotry. 3 4Is"'t she a &ool Sophy74 4She 2"o's est*4 'as the reply ,a(e !" a %oarse* ra'* "asty /o!%e. 3 I ha( "ot hear( her spea2 e&ore. I let 8ell #o. 3 4Let's &eel your %u"t*4 sa!( I (ra##!"# up Sophy &ro, the stool. 3 She o&&ere( "o res!sta"%e. Her %u"t 'as ree2!"# 'et as ,y &!"#ers 'e"t et'ee" the l!ps* a"( she ope"e( her th!#hs to let ,y &!"#ers up. I pulle( up her %he,!se* her %u"t see,e( "early ha!rless* there 'as ha!r* ut the %olor 'as so l!#ht* a"( !t 'as so s,all !" 5ua"t!ty* that !t s%ar%ely sho'e(. Her th!#hs a"( elly 'ere as 'h!te as ,!l2* her &or, e+5u!s!te. 3 8elly rearra"#e( her tu, le( ha!r* &or !" a s,all stru##le '!th her !t ha( &alle"* %a,e %lose up to us a"( sa!( to Sophy* 4You see, to l!2e !t.4 4I (o"'t ,!"( ,u%h* he's a "!%e %hap*4 %roa2e( Sophy. J8elly* I &ou"( !" a&ter years* 'as jealous o& a"y 'o,a" e!"# "ot!%e( e&ore her 3 e/e" 'he" she ha( rou#ht the 'o,a" hersel& to ,e &or &u%2!"#.K 8elly 'as jealous "o' o& Sophy's pleas!"# ,e y her '!ll!"#"ess. -ar2!sh ha!re( 5u!,s 'ere al'ays ,y (el!#ht* so I too2 hol( o& 8elly a#a!". Sophy (ropp!"# a#a!" o" the stool "ot ,u%h h!#her tha" a %ha, er pot* loo2!"# o" stup!(ly a"( pull!"# (o'" her short %he,!se o/er her 2"ees as !& to h!(e the,. I t!t!llate( 8elly's %l!tor!s* ,a(e her &eel ,y alls a"( pr!%2* a"( la/!she( o s%e"!ty a"( 2!sses* t!ll she 'r!##le( her ru,p /oluptuously. I ha(
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    st!rre( her lust. She 'a"te( &u%2!"#* !t 'as t!,e &or e,pty!"# ,y test!%les* so I thre' her o" the s!(e o& the e(. 3 48o* "o* let ,e #et o" to the e( properly.4 3 I 'oul("'t* ope"e( her th!#hs /!ole"tly* lea"t o/er her* a"( (ro/e ,y pr!%2 up her &at l!ttle %u"t* t!ll ,y alls a"#e( a#a!"st her arse. Feel!"# the pr!%2 up her* she la!( st!ll* &or pleasure tol( o" her at the &!rst thrust o& ,y pe#o. I e#a" to loo2 at her 5u!, as I pushe( ,y tool !" a"( out. The" she 2ept push!"# her %he,!se (o'". 3 4I'll sl!t your %he,!se up !& you (o that*4 sa!( I !rr!tate(. 3 Sophy %a,e up a"( loo2e( o"* &or 8elly the" %ease( h!(!"# her %har,s* a"(* I sa'* soo" ha( /oluptuous se"sat!o"s< a"( &ro, the !"/olu"tary ,ot!o" o& her elly* the ope"!"# o& her ,outh* the star!"# loo2 o& her eyes* sa' that they 'ere #ett!"# stro"#. Soo" she #a/e a /oluptuous s!#h a"( I &et%he( her ju!%es out* as I s5u!rte( a sho'er o& sper, up her. I 'as !" &ull loo(* ,y pr!%2 stoo( 'ell up her a&ter I ha( spe"t* a"( I e"t o/er her 5u!et &or a t!,e* the" rose* #ra(ually pull!"# ,y pr!%2 partly out o& !ts ,u%ous ath. 3 4)he" 'ere you last &u%2e(74 sa!( I. 3 For a se%o"( she lay 5u!et as !& !" her pleasure st!ll* at last* 4T'o ,o"ths a#o*4 sa!( she. Soph!e %hu%2le(* 4$/e yer (o"e !t 8ell '!th h!,* a/e yer74 sa!( she. 3 8o reply. 3 4Ha/e yer "o'7 3 "o' I 2"o's yer ha/e* a"( yer sa!(* yer 'oul("'t '!th the %haps.4 3 8ell "e/er repl!e(* see,!"# to e st!ll e"joy!"# the last se"sat!o"s o& the &u%2. 4She's spe"t a %up &ull*4 sa!( I (ra'!"# ,y pr!%2 5u!te out. 3 4Loo2 3 !t's "ot all ,!"e.4 ;r!s2ly 8ell %lose( her th!#hs a"( pulle( her %he,!se o/er her ree2!"# %u"t* &ro, 'h!%h a r!/ulet o& th!%2 pearly sper, e#a" to ru"* a"( she sat up. 4-o you l!2e see!"# your &r!e"( &u%2e(74 48e/er see( !t a&ore*4 sa!( Sophy* s!tt!"# (o'" a#a!" o" the stool a"( tu##!"# (o'" her short %he,!se. 4)ell* you'/e ee" &u%2e(.4 4)hy o& %oorse.4 4You'/e see" yoursel& &u%2e( !" a loo2!"# #lass.4 4That I a!"'t* there 'ar"'t "e/er a #lass !" the roo, at all 3I "e/er 'ar !" a pla%e a&ore '!th a ,a" a"( 'o,a" a (o!" !t. 3 8e/er '!th "o"e ut ,y o'" %hap.4 4)ash 8ell*4 sa!( I* 'h!lst I 'as (o!"# so. 4)he" you're #o"e.4 49o"e ,y (ear7 I', #o!"# to stop hours.4 3 8ell!e 'ashe(. 3I tur"e( to Sophy a"( #raspe( her sl!##ery %u"t. 3 4Shall 'e &u%274 4I& yer l!2e.4 Her %u"t 'as o" &!re a"( ree2!"#* as I la!( her o" the s!(e o& the e(. 3 )hat a treat the l!#ht &la+e" ha!re( ,otte 'as y %o"trast* I ha( "ot e+pe%te( su%h e"joy,e"t &ro, !t. I #ot ,y pr!%2 !" her* ut the &u%2!"# 'as ,u%h lo"#er* a"( I &et%he( her e0 &ore I %a,e ,ysel&. 8elly "o' loo2e( o" %ur!ously* !t 'as her tur". 3 4You'/e (o"e !t '!th h!, Sophy.4 4$"( so (!( you.4 The" oth lau#he(. 9ett!"# o&& the e(* (o'" 'e"t Sophy o" to the stool a#a!". 4You'll 'et your %he,!se Sophy.4 4-o"'t %are.4 3 ;ut up she #ot* '!pe( her %u"t outs!(e '!th a to'el* a"( thre' !t (o'" o" the &loor !" a lo' ,a""er. There 'as a &resh"ess !" ,a""er* a"( ,o(esty !" oth o& the,* a"( they ha( ,a"!&estly a" e"joy,e"t !" &u%2!"#* 'h!%h ,a(e ,e th!"2 "o' that the ol( 'o,a" ha( spo2e" the truth. I ha( thou#ht !t all sha,. 3 8e!ther ha( e/er
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    taste( %ha,pa#"e I &ou"(* so or(ere( so,e* tell!"# the 'o,a" to #et !t at . . . . . a 'ell 2"o'" pla%e &or &oo( a"( '!"e Jthe"K. Ma(a,e S...2."..s &et%he( !t a"( I #a/e her a #lass. 3 )as I please( '!th the you"# la(!es7 Yes a"( ha( &u%2e( oth. 3 4They 'o"'t 'ash the!r %u"ts properly*4 sa!( I jo2!"#. 4I ha/e*4 sa!( 8elly 3 4Sophy has '!pe( hers.4 4Oh M!ss Sophy* you 2"o's 'hat I ha/e tell you.4 3 )e ha( #o"e !"to the . s!tt!"# roo, 'h!%h ope"e( '!th &ol(!"# (oors to the e( roo,* a"( the &la+e" ,otte o"e "o' 'ashe( her %u"t properly. )e (ra"2 %ha,pa#"e* the ol( 'o,a" le&t* I or(ere( a"other ottle* a"( soo" oth #!rls 'ere 5u!te #ro##y. The" they let out the!r h!stor!es. Ma"y t!,es a&ter I hear( oth* a"( they "e/er /ar!e(. 3 Certa!"ly !t 'as the!r &!rst harlott!"# "!#ht* a"( ,ost l!2ely "e!ther ha( ee" &u%2e( &or 'ee2s as they sa!(. I 'ar,e( the, 'ell up '!th le'e( tal2* o"e hel( ,y pr!%2* the other the pot 'he" I p!sse(. It (el!#hts ,e to ,a2e &resh 'o,e" (o those l!ttle ser/!%es. I la!( the, s!(e y s!(e le"#th'!se o" the e(* a"( the" o"e o" the top o& the other. The l!5uor a"( tal2 ha( ,a(e the, ra"(y. )e all str!ppe( 5u!te* a"( putt!"# the %he/al #lass to see !" !t* I &u%2e( o"e 'h!lst I &!"#ere( the other. The" 'e ha( ,ore '!"e* a"( the #!rls e#a" to 5uarrel* 'h!%h I ha/e o&te" &ou"( to o%%ur 'he" I ha/e ha( t'o 'o,e" to#ether a"( they #ot lushy. It really 'as e%ause I ha( &u%2e( &la+e" ,otte t'!%e* a"( 8elly 'as jealous. I'( &u%2e( Sophy I %a"'t tell 'hy* &or I al'ays l!2e( a (ar2 ha!re( %u"t* a"( 8elly's 'as (ar2. 3 I &a"%y !t 'as that I &ou"( Sophy's the "!%est o& the t'o %u"ts* a"( ha/e s!"%e thou#ht so JI so,et!,es th!"2 "o' that her %u"t 'as the ,ost (el!%!ous ,y pr!%2 e/er 'e"t !"toK ut I "e/er %oul( ear the #!rl* tho s%ores o& t!,es I ha/e thou#ht o& "oth!"# ut her %u"t* 'he" I ha/e ee" stro2!"# 8elly a"( others. I re%olle%t all th!s %learly e%ause the e/e"!"# 'as a ,e,ora le o"e. They "o' oth la e( a"( tol( ,e all a out the,sel/es ut the "a,e o& the /!lla#e they %a,e &ro,. 3 8o* they 'oul("'t tell that. 4-o"'t you re%olle%t that so,e o"e &et%he( ,e that "!#ht* 8elly74 4Yes.4 4Father sa!( he'( thro' h!, loo(y soo" !"to the %a"al !& he %a,e ho,e a#a!" '!th ,e.4 4>oor ;et* he "e/er 2ept her %h!l(.4 4Yes a"( he ,a(e ,e sleep '!th h!, that "!#ht.4 3 So that sort o& tal2 ra" o"* tell!"# ,e !ts o& the!r h!story as I 5uest!o"e( the,* a"( !"terrupt!"# a"( %orre%t!"#* a"( help!"# ea%h other !" the!r tales* oth tal2!"# so,et!,es at o"%e. The" 'e all three tur"e( o" to the e( a#a!". I treate( the (ar2 ha!re( %u"t* a"( &u%2e( ea%h #!rl 5u!te t'!%e e&ore the e/e"!"# 'as out. )he" 'e parte( I pro,!se( to see the, the "e+t (ay. JTh!s 'as the!r h!story. 8elly ,a!"ly ,a(e ,e her %o"&!(a"t a&ter I helpe( to 2eep her (ur!"# a" !ll"ess at a &uture (ay. ;oth ha( ee" %au#ht &u%2!"# '!thout a l!%e"se. 3 Sophy y a ,a" o& her o'" %lass %au#ht !" a &!el( y her &ather* 'ho stu%2 a s%ythe !"to her s'a!"'s ru,p. 3 8elly 'as surpr!1e( !" e( '!th a #e"tle,a" 'ho ha( pro,!se( to ,arry her* a"( her &ather tur"e( her out o& (oors. 3 The s'a!"s "e#le%te( the #!rls 3 oth ha( &a,!ly 'ay
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    se"sat!o"s !" the!r ell!es* a"( 'ere helpe( out o& the (!&&!%ulty y a lo%al (ress,a2er. 3 Ma(a,e S...2.".us* a 9er,a" De'ess a"( (ress,a2er* 2"e' the /!lla#e o"e* 'ho a(/!se( the #!rls to #o to Lo"(o" '!th Ma(a,e S...2.".us. They 2"e' they 'ere #o!"# to e #ay* tho !t 'as "ot sa!( so. U"%o,&orta le at the!r /!lla#e* o&& they ra"* a"( that 'as the!r &!rst "!#ht !" the!r %areer o& harlotry 'he" I ha( the,. 3 ;oth a&ter'ar(s l!2e( #ay l!&e* ut "e!ther rose to e,!"e"%e. 3 8ell &or so,e years le( a %o,&orta le l!&e o& !"(ole"%e* as lo"# as she 2ept to S...2.".us. Sophy sa"2 to the lo'est (epths* 'as al'ays (ru"2* "early "a2e(* a"( 'oul( ta2e ,e" ho,e &or a #lass o& #!".K 8elly 'as short* eaut!&ully &or,e( a"( plu,p* ha( #oo( le#s* s,all &eet* th!%2 a"2les* a"( lar#e u,. 3 Her s2!" 'as a /ery (ar2 %rea, %olor* her ha!r "early la%2* her eyes a /ery (ar2 ha1el* '!th a hea/y e+press!o" !" the, ,u%h l!2e that o& a %o''s. It 'as a hal& sul2y loo2. She ha( th!%2 eye0 ro's a"( lar#e ,outh ut 'as really ha"(so,e. I" a&ter years she 'as o&te" ta2e" &or a Fre"%h 'o,a" y ,e". The ha!r o" her ,otte 'as a out the th!%2est I e/er sa' o" a" E"#l!sh 'o,a"'s* tho at &!rst there 'as "ot ,u%h o& !t. The &lesh o& the ,otte %oul( "ot e see" thro !t* a"( just o/er the %l!tor!s !t &or,e( a th!%2 l!ttle %lu,p al0,ost har(* !t %urle( so. Her ar,p!ts 'ere th!%2 '!th ha!r e/e" at that a#e. ?She 'as arely se/e"tee".@ She ha( ha!r o" her %u"t* she sa!(* at t'el/e. Te" years a&ter'ar(s 'he" I sa' her* !t 'as hal& up to her "a/el* ut !t "e/er #re' rou"( her utto%2s or arsehole. Her %u"t 'as lar#e at se/e"tee"* a"( so,e years a&ter0'ar(s 'as /ery lar#e. 3 I %oul( the" put a lar#e (!l(o a"( t'o &!"#ers up !t at the sa,e t!,e eas!ly* yet she ha( e/e" the" a 'o"(er&ully &!"e %u"tal #r!p o" the pr!%2* !t 'as su%h a &at %u"t !"s!(e. She ha( a eaut!&ully stea(y 'al2* l!2e a Spa"!sh 'o,a"'s* loo2e( 5u!et* a"( 'as prou( o& 'al2!"# out (resse( s!,ply !" #oo( la%2 s!l2* a"( e!"# ta2e" &or a ,o(est 'o,a". 3 She 'as relat!/ely ,o(est* 'he" &!rst I ha( her. I" a 'ee2 I'( tau#ht her ,u%h* a"( ,o(esty 'as lost. She sa!( she ha( ha( ,ore po2!"# !" the &!rst &ort"!#ht she ha( %o,e to to'" tha" she ha( ha( alto#ether &ro, her you"# ,a"* 'ho ha( "e/er ta!le( her ,ore tha" a out a (o1e" t!,es !" all. Her %u"t the" ha( all the s!#"s o& re%e"t rupture. 3 I" a&ter years she 'as the ,ost %o,pla%e"t %reature* a"( (!( '!th ,e e/eryth!"# e+%ept!"# u, &u%2!"#. O"%e 'he" I presse( her to let ,e (o that she "early y!el(e(* ut !t 'as out o& 2!"("ess. 3 I 'as o"ly jo2!"#* a"( ut as2e( as a test. She #ot ,e three you"# /!r#!"s* t'o o& 'ho, I po2e(* a (o1e" other 'o,e"* a"( t'o ,e" to &r!# or u##er !& I l!2e( 3 I (!( "ot l!2e the latter 'or2. She #ra(ually #ot poor a"( !ll* a"( (!sappeare(. Her last stay 'as !" o"e roo,. $" ol( #e"tle,a" up 'hose arse she use( to put a (!l(o 'h!lst she su%2e( h!s %o%2* she sa!(* the" "early 2ept her< he 'as se/e"ty0s!+ years ol(* yet %oul( spe"( u"(er that &u"(a,e"tal a"( la !al !rr!tat!o". She early ,a(e &r!e"(s a,o"# a #oo( %lass o& ,arr!e( ,e"* a"( 'as al'ays at ho,e !" the a&ter"oo"* (resse( usually !" a lue sat!" (ress!"# #o'"* a"( "!%e sto%2!"#s a"( oots. Her &oot 'as eaut!&ul. She &or years rarely 'e"t out at "!#ht or to pu l!% a,use,e"ts* ut passe( her t!,e !" !(l!"#* &ee(!"#*
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    (ress!"#* rea(!"# "e'spapers a"( "o/els. She sa!( she lost ,o"ey 'he" she 'e"t out at "!#ht e&ore te"* so !& she 'e"t out !t 'as usually /ery late. She 'as a /ery sa&e 'o,a". O"%e (ur!"# 'hat I th!"2 'as a a( %lap* tho she 'oul( "ot say so* a"( o"%e thro a lo"# !ll"ess* I pa!( her lo(#!"#s a"( so,e other &r!e"( pa!( &or her &oo(. She 'as o" oth o%%as!o"s !" the sa,e house ?Ma(a,e S...2.".us@. She "e/er let ,e po2e her !& she ha( the sl!#htest ta!"t o& her poorl!"ess. She 'as a 'o"(er&ul &r!##er. 3 Her ,astur at!o" 'as ,ost (el!%ate a"( &et%h!"# ?so,e 'o,e" "e/er %a" &r!#@* a"( a&ter'ar(s she #a,ahu%he( e5ual to a"y Fre"%h 'o,a" 3 I ha/e #o"e to her '!th ,y pr!%2 as l!,p as a ra#* yet "e/er 'e"t a'ay '!thout a spe"(!"#. She ha( a 'o"(er&ul 'ay o& push!"# ,y ,a%h!"e !& l!,p !"to her roo,y %u"t* a"( say!"# 4lay st!ll.4 3 )!thout ,o/e,e"t o" ,y part* a"( "o per%ept! le ,o/e,e"t to her utto%2s* she st!&&e"e( ,e y the %o,press!o" o& her %u"t 3 her #r!pp!"# %u"t see,e( to su%2 ,y pr!%2 up !"to !t. )he" a out th!rty years ol( she e#a" to pa!"t. $t rare !"ter/als the" I use( to tal2 to her o"ly* a"( to t!p her 'he" I ,et her* a"( &or years se"t her a so/ere!#" at Chr!st,as. ;e&ore I lost s!#ht o& her* she use( to say that 'he" &!rst out* s%ar%ely a"y ,a" 'a"te( ,ore tha" to po2e her* ut the" that hal& the ,e" 'a"te( to e #a,ahu%he(* a"( so,e 'a"te( to u##er. She (!( "ot al0lo' that* ut #ot the, la(!es 'ho (!(. She loo2e( o" at the operat!o" at t!,es* a"( hal/e( the &ee pa!( &or the!r %o,pla!sa"%e. She e+pla!"e( to ,e the ha !ts o& the ,ale so(o,!tes ?she ha( stu(!e( a"( hate( the,@* the 'ay to 2"o' the,* a"( ho' to treat the,. It 'as %ur!ous* ut I "e/er lear"e( to 2"o' the, y s!#ht* a"( "e/er 'a"te(. 3 To the last o& her %areer so &ar as I 2"o' !t* a"( 'he" she arely ha( a #o'" to %o/er her* she ,a"a#e( to #et s!l2 sto%2!"#s* a"( tho &la y !" her reasts* a"( '!th a s,aller a"( &la y u,* "e/er lost the shapely le#s. Her heart 'e"t 'ro"#* she #ot (!rty* a"( the" I sa' her "o ,ore. She rarely (ra"2* tho I ha/e ,a(e her t!#ht se/eral t!,es y s!pp!"# 'ar, ra"(y a"( 'ater '!th her. )!th a #oo( &!re !" the roo,* her %lothes up to her "a/el* le#s so pla%e( that I %oul( see her %u"t* 'e tal2e( a"( she tol( ,e stra"#e au(y &a(s she ha( 2"o'" ,e" to ha/e. O"e you"# ,a"* a&ter lay!"# her (o'" '!th th!#hs (!ste"(e( a"( ope" %u"t* use( to &r!# h!,sel& !"to a tu, ler o& %ha,pa#"e a"( the" (r!"2 !t* s'allo'!"# h!s o'" sper,. $"other ,a(e her ru" a p!" !"to h!s alls. O"e rou#ht s,all peas* a"( pushe( the, (o'" h!s urethra. 3 He %a,e '!th h!s la((er &ull 3 a"( the" p!sse( out the peas a#a!"st her %u"t* or her arsehole* or her reasts. She &lo##e( so,e ,e" t!ll they spe"t* a"( other erot!% 'h!,s!es. Ma"y ,e" she sa!( l!2e( a (!l(o up the!r arseholes 'h!lst they &u%2e(* or 'ere &r!##e(* or #a,ahu%he(. O"e ,a" o"ly &u%2e( a 'o,a" 'he" she ha( a (!l(o up her u,< a la(y &r!e"( she &et%he( &or that purpose. He #rease( the (!l(o a"( put !t up the la(y's arsehole. It 'as use( &or "o o"e else a"( she sho'e( !t ,e. 4That (!l(o's ,y ol( &r!e"('s*4 sa!( she sho'!"# a"other a"( lar#er.

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    4I (o"'t l!2e !t* ut (o e/eryth!"# e+%ept!"# u##er* !t pleases the, a"( a,uses ,e. I& I (!( "ot so,e other 'oul( 3 I shoul( lose &r!e"(s.4 Ca,!lle has sa!( the sa,e. 3 She o"ly o"%e let ,e see her o" the sly '!th a ,ale &r!e"(. I loo2e( thro a 2ey hole at the, %opulat!"#. O"%e she #ot a ,a" to &u%2 her 'h!lst I loo2e( o"* a"( I &r!##e( h!, a&ter'ar(s. He 'as a !# ,a"* a"( sa!( he 'as a %arpe"ter. O"%e she e#a" to !r%h ,e* the o"ly t!,e I e/er tr!e( !t* ut the pa!" 'as too #reat a"( I ,a(e her (es!st. T'!%e she playe( at &lat %o%2s '!th a &e,ale e&ore ,e* a"( o" o"e o%%as!o" a au(y t!psy "!#ht 'e ha(* '!th a se%o"( 'o,a". She use( to &u%2 a"( spe"( !" a 5u!et 'ay* "e/er s'ore* "or ra!se( her /o!%e* "or see,e( a"#ry* "or use( au(y la"#ua#e u"less as2e(* a"( %hu%2le( !t out the" !" a 5u!et /o!%e. She "e/er #ot !"to pol!%e ro's. Ho' she s5uare( the pol!%e I (o"'t 2"o'. I as2e( her !& she let the %o"sta les ta!l her 3 48o4 3 ut a" I"spe%tor use( to ha/e her. He 'as a ,arr!e( ,a" a"( %a,e !" pla!" %lothes. She "e/er 'as 4ru" !"4 that I hear( o&* 'he" they ra" !" &!&ty 'o,e" a "!#ht &ro, the Hay,ar2et a"( !ts /!%!"!ty. -ur!"# o"e !ll"ess I helpe( to 2eep her* a"( ,eet!"# the" Sophy y %ha"%e* 'e"t ho,e '!th her. She 'as at e",!ty '!th 8elly a"( sa!( 8elly ha( ha( a ,!s%arr!a#e* a"( the &ather o& the %h!l( 'as a la ourer. 3 8elly a&ter'ar(s a(,!tte( a ,!s%arr!a#e. )he" she ha( ee" lau"%he( a &e' ,o"ths she #ot %aut!ous as 'hores (o* a"( tol( ,e "oth!"#< the" %a,e her !ll"ess* a"( a&ter as sa!(* she e%a,e as %o,,u"!%at!/e as at &!rst. )he" I 'as !" lo/e '!th Dess!e C..t.s I (!( "ot see 8elly &or a year or ,ore. I sha"'t &or#et her joy 'he" she sa' ,e a#a!". Sophy* '!th the e+%ept!o" o& the you"# lass B!tty '!th the yello' ha!r a"( ,otte* 'ho, I ha( !" ,y early ,a"hoo(* 'as the o"ly l!#ht ha!re( >aph!a" I e/er ha( ,ore tha" a &e' t!,es* rarely ,ore tha" o"%e. She 'as &ull #ro'" tho o"ly se/e"tee"* her ha!r 'as l!2e l!#ht &la+* her eyelashes 'h!te. 3 She 'as e+5u!s!tely ,a(e* ha( the lo/el!est reasts* a"( &ro, the "ape o& her "e%2 to the sole o& her &eet 'as as 'h!te as s"o'. Her &eatures 'ere #oo(* her eyes lue a"( yet she loo2e( l!2e a &ool a"( 'he" she lau#he( 'as l!2e a" !(!ot. 3 Her lau#h 'as a /ul#ar* !(!ot!%* %oarse* o&&e"s!/e %hu%2le* she ope"e( her ,outh 5u!te '!(e ?!t 'as lar#e '!th sple"(!( teeth@* a"( she rolle( her hea( a out &ro, s!(e to s!(e. 3 Her ha"(s 'ere %oarse. She ha( sl!#ht hollo's !" her u, %hee2s at &!rst* !" a &e' ,o"ths they 'ere (!,ples* a"( she ,ust ha/e put o" a sto"e !" 'e!#ht !" the t!,e. 3 8e/er 'as there a 'o,a" 'ho ha"(le( etter all o/er tha" she* she 'as (el!%!ous to tou%h* a" e+5u!s!te p!e%e o& &lesh. She ha(* 'he" &!rst I ha( her* s%ar%ely a"y ha!r o" her %u"t< as I thre' up her %he,!se I thou#ht she ha( "o"e. 3 ;ut !t lay %lose* a"( ,a(e the l!ps o& the %u"t loo2 a l!ttle (ar2er tha" the surrou"(!"# &lesh* "oth!"# ,ore. The %l!tor!s a"( "y,phae 'ere a (el!%ate p!"2 l!2e a #!rl's o& t'el/e. The pr!%2 hole 'as s,all* a"( also ha( the loo2 o& re%e"t rea2a#e. I'/e ro2e" thro a #oo( lot o& hy,e"s* a"( 2"o' the loo2 pretty 'ell.
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    O& all the 'o,e" I e/er ha(* "o"e ha( so so&t* so /oluptuous a %u"t. 3 It 'as 5u!te t!#ht a"( s,all* ut "oth!"# e/er e5ualle( !ts s,ooth"ess. Sat!"* pol!she( steel* !/ory* o!le( ,ar le* "e/er e5ualle( !ts (el!%!ous so&t"ess to the &eel o& &!"#ers or pr!%2. It 'as al'ays ,o!st l!2e a"y other %u"t* tho "ot st!%2y or sloppy* ut ha( a" e+5u!s!te lu r!%!ous"ess* !"(es%r! a ly as !& !t 'as &ull o& spu"2 just &u%2e( !"to !t. I ha/e ,a(e her syr!"#e !t out e&ore ,e* a"( a ,!"ute a&ter'ar(s !t &elt just the sa,e. She 'as a sple"(!( &u%2ee. 8elly 'as "!%e ut o"e o& the 5u!etest* a"( al'ays 'he" &u%2!"# see,e( suppress!"# hersel&< Sophy sh!/ere(* 5u!/ere( ut "ot "o!sly* a"( hea/e( #e"tly* her %u"t 'e"t %l!p* %l!p* su%2* su%2* !" a 'o"(er&ul 'ay to'ar(s her %r!s!s* a"( the" '!th a #e"tle hea/e o& her elly a"( arse* she see,e( as !& she '!she( to #et ,y 'hole o(y up her* a"( '!th a 4$haa 3 ,y (ear ,a" 3 aha* aha*4 she su s!(e(. She 'as &ull o& ju!%e* 'oul( o&te" spe"( t'!%e to ,y o"%e* a"( 'e ,a(e a &!"e (!splay o" the to'el u"(er her u, 'he" ,y pr!%2 le&t her. ;e&ore the &!rst 'ee2 o& our a%5ua!"ta"%e 'as out* she #a/e 'ay to her pass!o"s '!th ,e. She l!2e( ,e* a"( use( to patter out !" her u#ly* hoarse* /ul#ar /o!%e* au(y 'or(s* a"( %oarse ut lo/!"# e+press!o"s. 3 8elly 'at%h!"# us use( the" to say* 4Sophy 3 'hat are you at74 3 ut !t (!( "ot stop her. 8e/er ha/e I ha( ,ore %o,pletely /oluptuous &u%2!"# as &ar as ,ere %u"t 'as %o"%er"e(* ut that 'as all< I 'as s!%2 o& the s!#ht o& her (!re%tly our o(!es u"jo!"e(. I sa' oth #!rls (a!ly &or "early a &ort"!#ht* a"( Sophy ha( ,y se,!"al l! at!o"s ,ore &re5ue"tly tha" 8elly 3 ut I %oul( "ot tal2 to her* her la"#ua#e 'as !"(es%r! a ly %o,,o" a"( %oarse* a"( 'hether eat!"#* (r!"2!"#* spea2!"#* 'ash!"# or e/e" p!ss!"#* her /ul#ar!ty a"( !(!o%y 'ere !"tolera le. 3 She 'as a %u"t o& superlat!/e /oluptuous"ess* a ,a#"!&!%e"t !t o& &u%2!"# &lesh* ut "oth!"# ,ore. Tho stra!#ht as a" arro'* her 'al2 'as et'ee" a totter a"( a roll. I %oul(* at a later (ay* see her &lashy* /ul#ar o""et o !"# a out !" the (!sta"%e 'here/er she 'as. She loo2e(* e/e" '!th #oo( %lothes o"* the lo'est Moll. So,et!,es &or all that I ha( a let%h &or her 'he" I %au#ht s!#ht o& her* a"( &or a 5uarter o& a" hour to ha"(le her &!"e &lesh* to &!"#er a"( plu"#e ,y pr!%2 up her !"(es%r! a ly s,ooth* lus%!ous %u"t* lay!"# o" her start "a2e( e&ore putt!"# !"to her e/e"* 'as e+5u!s!te. 3 ;ut ,y l!2!"# 'e"t the !"sta"t ,y sper, 'as !" her* a"( I #ot a'ay as rap!(ly as I %oul(* res!st!"# usually her se(u%t!o"s o& &!"#ers a"( ,outh to rea"!,ate ,y tool* &or she'( "e/er let ,e #o t!ll I ha( ta!le( her t'!%e !& she %oul( pre/e"t !t. She 'as /ery &o"( o& &u%2!"# y ,e. For a year or t'o ?a"( !" a&ter years she retur"e(@* she 'as !" the sa,e house '!th 8elly a"( Ma(a,e S...2.".us* 'ho (resse( a"( loo2e( a&ter her. There she (!( 'ell. The" she 'e"t to l!/e y hersel& ha/!"# 5uarrelle( '!th 8elly* a"( I sa' "oth!"# o& her &or a &e' years. 3 8elly the" tol( ,e o"e (ay that she ha( ,arr!e( a" art!sa"* 'ho 'as the" (y!"#* ha( t'o %h!l(re" y h!,* that they'( l!/e( respe%ta ly a"( she 5u!etly* ut that "o' ha/!"# pa'"e( e/eryth!"# to 2eep the,* she 'as #o!"# o" to the streets a#a!" to l!/e. They
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    l!terally ha( "oth!"# !" the!r roo, ut a e(* %ha!r* ta le a"( p!sspot* a"( 'oul( ha/e star/e(* !& 8elly ha( "ot se"t the, &oo( &or so,e t!,e. She %oul( a&&or( that "o lo"#er* ut she 'as 2eep!"# o"e %h!l( 'ho, she rou#ht upsta!rs to sho' ,e. 3 It 'as &la+e" ha!re(* l!2e Sophy. I se"t &or Sophy* 'ho %a,e. She ha( "oth!"# o" ut a %loa2 a"( a #o'"* I pulle( up her %lothes to see. It 'as %ol( 'eather* there 'as a &!re !" the roo,* she 'e"t out* a"( !" hal& a" hour %a,e !" 'ashe( '!th a %he,!se a"( sto%2!"#s o" le"t y 8elly. She'( st!ll her lo/ely &!r, a"( 'h!te &lesh* ut 'as th!""er. She tol( ,e her trou les* 'e ha( #!" 'h!%h soo" #ot 'ell !"to her hea(* the" I #ot o" to ,y 2"ee* &elt her all o/er a"( t!t!llate( her %u"t. )he" she ha( ha( a (r!"2 a"( her so !"# 'as o/er* a"( so soo" as she &elt pleasure* she rap!(ly u"(!( ,y tro'sers a"( #ra e( ,y alls. 3 4Oh: I a!"'t ee" &u%2e( &or these three ,o"ths* the last t!,e ,y ,a" (!( !t* !t "early 2!lle( h!, a"( he (o"'t 'a"t !t "o'.4 I 5uest!o"e( her. 3 4$ye* I (o &r!# ,ysel& 3 he l!2e( ,e to* a"( he (!( use to &r!# ,e h!,0sel& u"t!l he #ot too !ll* poor ,a" 3 let's (o !t.4 I tol( 8elly to #o out* e!"# u"a le o%%as!o"ally so,e0'here a out that t!,e ?a pe%ul!ar!ty I (o"'t th!"2 ha/e ,e"t!o"e(@* to po2e '!th a"other 'o,a" !" the roo,* a"( 'as ta2e" su((e"ly so "o'. 8elly al'ays l!2e( to e prese"t 'he" I sha##e( a 'o,a" she ha( rou#ht ,e* perhaps to see 'hat ,o"ey passe( 3 perhaps e%ause she l!2e( to see the &u%2!"# just as Sarah F..1.r (!(* a"( to &r!# hersel& 'h!lst loo2!"# o". )o,e" ha/e au(y &a"%!es a"( let%hes l!2e ,e". 3 8elly 'e"t out loo2!"# sul2y. 8e/er (!( a 'o,a" e"joy a po2!"# ,ore. 4Oh: I a!"'t ha( a &u%2 &or three ,o"ths 3 "ot o"e (a,"e( &u%2< &r!##!"# a!"'t &u%2!"# ,y (ear 3 !s !t7 3 sho/e har(er 3 I', %o,!"#.4 She'( lost o& %ourse all ,o(esty* !& she e/er ha( a"y* ut she ,ust ha/e ee" reare( l!2e a p!#. The &!rst &ort"!#ht a&ter she %a,e to to'"* 8ell use( to say* 4-o !t 3 put !t !"* 3 up ,y th!"#*4 3 a"( so o". Sophy 'oul( say 4&u%2 3 %u"t 3 pr!%2*4 to e+press hersel&* '!th!" a &e' (ays o& the!r %o,!"# to Lo"(o". )he" 'e 'ere all three to#ether* she 'oul( s!t loo2!"# at the &!re 5u!etly* a"( su((e"ly ,!+e( !t '!th sp!ttle. She put (o'" her &at 'h!te ar,* a"( I &u%2e( et'ee" !t a"( her reast &ro, the a%2. She e#a" to &r!# hersel& 'h!lst I (!( !t. 3 I" a #lass !" &ro"t o& us* I %oul( see ,y pr!%2 t!p appear!"# a"( (!sappear!"# as I thrust. 4Fu%2* &u%2*4 she %r!e( as her th!#hs e#a" to ,o/e* a"( she spe"t &r!##!"#* as out spoute( ,y sper,* a"( so,e o& !t* past her ar,p!t &ell o" o"e o& her th!#hs. I the" stoo( '!th pr!%2 !" the ar,0p!t lea"!"# o/er her* she '!th her hea( a%2 a#a!"st ,e !" s!le"t e%stasy* eyes shut* a"( &!"#ers o" her %l!tor!s. 4You ha/e"'t spe"t*4sa!( I. 4Ha/e"'t I7 &eel ,y %u"t* loo2 at !t*4 3 I (!(. 3 4-o !t a#a!".4 I tr!e(* 'or2e( a'ay '!ll!"#ly* sho/!"# 'h!lst she helpe( ,e y s5uee1!"# ,y pr!%2 to her* ut !t 'as "o #o 3 &or ,e. 3 She ho'e/er re%o,,e"(e( &r!##!"# hersel&* ,y spu"2 st!ll lay o" o"e th!#h* a"( !" the ,!((le o& her &r!#* she put her &!"#er a"( thu, to !t* too2 the sper, up* put
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    !t o" to her %l!tor!s a"( %o,plete( her &r!# '!th (el!#ht 'he" she ha( #ot ,y sper, there. 3 Oh* ho' !,a#!"at!o" helps se+ual pleasure. 4-o"'t tell 8elly.4 4)hy you &ool* you '!ll e the &!rst to tell her or a"y o"e else.4 )he" '!th 8elly* a"( she'( ha( a l!ttle l!5uor* she !"/ar!a ly e#a" to tell 'hat th!s ,a" (!(* ho' that ,a" &u%2e(* 3 ho' ,u%h she #ot 3 'ho, she ha( ha( 3 4I (!("'t ha/e a %o/e last "!#ht* so ha( a loo(y #oo( &r!# e&ore I 'e"t to sleep.4 3 8elly %oul( "ot stop her. Fla+e" hea( 'oul( tell o& the ,e" she ha( last* a"( 'hat they (!(* a"( 'hether she'( spe"t '!th the, or "ot* a"( so o". 3 4He &u%2e( "!%e he (!(* I (!("'t ,ea" to (o !t 3 ut I #a/e up.4 3That 'as her style o& tal2* those her /ery 'or(s o" o"e o%%as!o"* 'he" she "arrate( 'hat she'( (o"e the pre/!ous "!#ht.

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    Chapter PII Sophy's lu r!%!ous /a#!"a. My se"s!t!/e propa#ator. 8ee( &or ,u%!la#!"ous %u"ts. I" a"other ,a"'s se,e". Sophy's /o%a ulary. Her lo/e o& the s%rotu,. >!ss!"# outs '!th 8ell* a"( Sophy. ;oth '!th 2!(. 8elly later o". My pro%uress. M!s%ella"eous a"( ,a"y >aph!a" per!patet!% 'hores. Martha. $ &e,ale l!&e0#uar(. T'o l!ttle o"es o" a hot (ay. I" a %a . Carry a"( Sally. Feel!"# a"( &elt. Hal&0s!tt!"# &or"!%at!o". Carry !" a e(roo,. 4)ho &!rst &u%2e( you74 Sally's ho,e e+per!e"%es. ;rother Da%2's o"a"!s,. $ tr!o o& ,utual e+h! !t!o"s. Da%2 a"( the pa!l o& 'ater. Carry %u, Da%2 at NI6S a.,. Lu%2 o& a la( o& &!&tee". Da%2's &rater"al !"te"t!o"s. Sally's s!sterly a"t!%!pat!o"s o& Da%2. Th!s !(!ot!%* se,!0al !"o &a%e(* 'e"%h's %u"t* y the per&e%t!o" o& sur&a%e a"( &!t* alo"e attra%te( ,e to her. I use( to tell 8elly o& !t. I ,a(e 8elly at t!,es a"o!"t ,y tool '!th %ol( %rea, a"( u"#ue"ts* a"( o"%e poure( o!l !" her %u"t a"( the" &u%2e( her* e+toll!"# all the t!,e the (el!%!ous lu r!%!ty o& Sophy's l!#ht &r!"#e( sl!t* a"( ,u%h to 8elly's jealous a""oya"%e. O"e (ay 'he" she ha( ee" a out t'o years harlott!"#* a"( 2"e' ,ost th!"#s erot!%* I !,a#!"e* she sa!( to ,e 'he" eulo#!1!"# 'hat I %alle( Sophy's sl!##ery %u"t ?'here I #ot the ter, I 2"o' "ot@* 3 4You'( l!2e to po2e !" a"0 other ,a"'s spu"2*4 a"( she lau#he(. 4You (!rty l!ttle !t%h* (o you th!"2 I'( e su%h a east74 4I (o"'t see that !t !s eastly* so,e ,e" (o !t4 3 a"( a&ter a pause 3 4at least I'/e hear( so.4 Soo" a&ter a"( a out th!s t!,e* ,y pe"!s see,s a#a!" to ha/e #ot the !"te"se se"s!t!/e"ess o& ,y youth. I e#a" to th!"2 o& ha/!"# plu"#e( ,y pro%reator !"to the lea/!"#s o& Capta!" ;la"2 !" L!1 M...(."'s a"( 8elly ...'s %u"ts* a"( 'hat they sa!( a out !t* a"( o& s!,!lar ep!so(es* a"( to 'o"(er !& a"y ,a" ha( a taste &or 4 uttere( u"s4 3 I see,e( /a#uely to re%olle%t that the %u"ts o& the 'o,e" 'he" thus lu r!%ate( ha( see,e( /ery (el!%!ous to ,e* ut attr! ute( that to the &ull"ess o& ,y sper,at!% reser/o!rs* %ouple( '!th the lo/ely elast!%!ty* a"( "atural sl!pper!"ess o& the!r %u"ts* a"( "ot to a"yth!"# 'h!%h Capta!" ;la"2 ha( le&t there. I thou#ht &u%2!"# a&ter a ,a"* a (!rty tr!%2* yet ,y pr!%2 stoo( at t!,es* at the !(ea o& !ts ha/!"# ee" !" the sa,e sheath (!re%tly a&ter a"other. Th!s at t!,es e#a" "o' to o%%ur to ,e 'he" &u%2!"# 8elly L..l.e. )hat a "u, er o& pr!%2s ha/e ee" 'here ,y pr!%2 !s* a"( 'hat (oes that ,atter I thou#ht* the" e#a" e/e" to l!2e the !(ea* a"( the" to 'o"(er !& the e"joy,e"t 'as !"%rease( y 5u!%2ly e"ter!"# a %u"t a&ter a"other ,a"'s jour"ey there. 8early all ,y l!&e* as tol(* I ha( a ,ost se"s!t!/e #la"(. 3 $s ,y pr!%2 e"tere( the se+ual treasures o& the (ear %reatures* I %oul( tell !& they ha( ee" re%e"tly 'ashe( out* or ha( use( astr!"#e"ts. $t o"e per!o( I 'oul( "ot let a 'o,a" 'ash her spl!t e&ore I &u%2e( her* u"less I suspe%te( that she'( re%e"tly ha( a ,ale. The" a&ter I ha( ha( a %lap* I ,a(e the, al'ays 'ash s%rupulously* ut pa!( pe"a"%e !" the
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    (!,!"!she( e"joy,e"t I ha( !" p!sto"!"#* t!ll the "atural lu r!%!ous"ess o& the!r %u"ts retur"e( u"(er the so&t &r!%t!o" a"( !"%!te,e"t o& ,y pr!%2. $t t!,es a&ter the!r a lut!o"* I %o/ere( ,y pr!%2 '!th sal!/a* a"( ,a(e the, treat s!,!larly the!r lo/e te,ples* a"( so,et!,es ,a(e the, ,o!ste" ,y pr!%2 t!p !" the!r ,ouths* so as to s!,ulate the "atural ,u%!la#!"ous sur0&a%e o& the!r %u"ts* a %o"(!t!o" 'h!%h 2!"( "ature ,ostly lea/es a %u"t !"* to e rea(y at all t!,es a"( seaso"s to re%e!/e a"( #rat!&y 4Doh" Tho,as*4 the pro%reator* propa#ator* po2er* pe#o* pe"!s* o& the ,ale. So,e'here a out th!s t!,e* the a%ute se"s!t!/e"ess o& ,y #la"( retur"e(* a"( e/e" !"%rease(* a"( a %u"t !" %opulat!o" '!thout !ts "atural /!s%os!ty* at &!rst al0,ost #a/e ,e pa!". I use( ,y sal!/a &or lu r!%at!o" %op!ously* a"( !& I %oul( 'a!t* a"( the la(y 'oul( let ,e ?Cypr!a"s o&te" (o"'t l!2e to e &r!##e( or e+%!te( too ,u%h at &!rst* a"( o je%t to a prolo"#e( %l!tor!sat!o"@* I 'oul( ru a"( t!t!llate her utto" t!ll I &elt the !"ter"al e&&us!o" o& her %u"t 'as su&&!%!e"t. The" I e, ra%e( her '!th the e"er#y a"( e"joy,e"t 'h!%h !s the proper %o,pl!,e"t that the pr!%2 pays to the %u"t* a"( 'h!%h the ,a" o'es to the 'o,a" 'ho per,!ts h!,. Sophy ha( a %u"t '!th th!s per&e%t /!s%os!ty* that e+5u!s!te lu r!%!ty. Sophy ha( a /o%a ulary p!%2e( up !" the slu,s a"( &!el(s I #uess. 3 She 'as o"e o& the &e' 'o,e" I ha/e 2"o'" 'ho l!2e( play!"# '!th ,y alls etter tha" ,y pr!%2< hu"(re(s o& 'o,e" 'ho, I ha/e ha( "e/er tou%he( ,y test!%les* all l!2e( to play '!th the ste, a"( prepu%e. 3 Sophy 'oul( ha"(le ,y alls #e"tly at &!rst* the" s5uee1e o"e sto"e* the" the other* the" hol( the a# !" her &!st* a"( le&t the ro( alo"e. Her la"#ua#e also ha( a allo%2y to"e. 3 4Let's &eel your alls 3 ho''s your olly74 )he" I e#a" to appre%!ate ,ore &ully the pleasure 'h!%h a "!%e pa!r o& l!ps #a/e ,y pr!%2* Sophy too2 to #a,ahu%h!"# '!th (el!#ht* ut al'ays hel( ,y alls !" her ha"( 'he" ,y pr!%2 'as !" her ,outh. 3 She 'oul( l!%2 ,y alls* s,ell the,* 2!ss the, all o/er. She 'as !" &a%t &o"( o& the alls. 3 $ har(* 'ell 'r!"2le( s%rotu, ,a(e her eyes sh!"e '!th (el!#ht* 4Your ally's &ull to "!#ht I 2"o'*4 she'( say. O& %ourse I ha( a ,!%turat!"# out '!th these t'o #!rls. O"e "!#ht I too2 a lar#e ,a%2!"tosh a"( sprea( !t o" the &loor e&ore the &!re* the" 'e too2 o&& the sheets &ro, the e( to (ry oursel/es'!th* I la!( (o'" o" ,y a%2* 8elly ,ou"te( ,e* a"( putt!"# ,y pr!%2 up her e#a" slo'ly &u%2!"#< Sophy start "a2e( a"( stra((l!"# her le#s o/er 8elly's arse* 'he" 'e e#a" to #et l!/ely !" our ,o/e,e"ts* she hal& s5uatte( a"( p!sse( o" to 8elly's u, &urro' 'h!%h I pulle( ope" '!th oth ha"(s. The hot strea, %a,e rattl!"# (o'" the &urro' a"( the"%e o" to ,y alls* ,a2!"# a po"( u"(er ,y arse. 3 I" the ,!(st o& the splash!"# 8elly a"( I spe"t. So,e t!,e a&ter 3 !t 'as a lush!"# "!#ht a"( I ha( ta2e" the, '!"e. 3 )he" (r!"2 ha( &!lle( the #!rl's la((ers* I ,ou"te( 8elly's elly. Sophy at &!rst sa!( she 'oul( "ot p!ss* !t 'as her tur" to &u%2* ut at le"#th let &ly her strea,
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    to'ar(s ,y arsehole. $&ter'ar(s I !"(ul#e( Sophy '!th a !t o& %o%2. Ho' 'e lau#he( as 'e ru e( ea%h other (ry. 3 That "!#ht 8ell* tho she tr!e(* %oul( "ot p!ss o/er Sophy* as she toppe( ,e. Sophy 'as a 'o"(er&ul ha"( at the 'or2* she %oul( hol( her %u"t l!ps ope" a"( (!re%t her strea, l!2e a &!re0,a"* !" 'h!%h she rese, le( a"other #ay la(y alrea(y tol( o& 3 I ha/e see" so,e 'o,e" u"a le to (o th!s* a"( p!ss 5u!te '!l(ly. The "e+t "!#ht I ha( the,* 'e all str!ppe(. 8ell la!( o" the &loor o" her a%2* I pushe( u"(er her ru,p a &oot stool* the" stra((l!"# o/er her I pulle( up her le#s a"( hel( the, '!(e ope"* ,y arse 'as tur"e( to'ar(s her &a%e* ,y allo%2s ha"#!"# al,ost o/er !t* her %u"t a out a &oot o&& the #rou"(. 3 )!th her &!"#ers she (!ste"(e( her or!&!%e '!(ely* the" Sophy !" au(y (e0l!#ht %o,!"# %lose up a"( sl!#htly s5uatt!"#* th!#hs '!(e apart a"( hol(!"# her %u"t ope"* p!sse( a per&e%t %atara%t o" to 8elly's %u"t. She h!t !t as "eatly as !& she ha( se"t !t out o& a s5u!rt. The" 'e put Sophy o" her a%2* she hel( her le#s as h!#h up as she %oul(* a"( 8elly a"( I p!sse( at the sa,e t!,e o" her 5u!,. The" o" the e(* 'e &u%2e( all three to#ether. 3 Later* oth #!rls p!sse( to#ether o/er ,y pr!%2 as I lay o" the &loor* a"( I &u%2e( a#a!". )e ,a(e su%h a ,ess that Ma(a,e S.2.s 'as a"#ry* ut I pa!( &or 'ash!"# a"( t!ppe( es!(es* so all passe( o&& pleasa"tly. 3 Th!s 'as all (o"e !" the early (ays o& the!r harlotry. 3 It 'as the pleasure o& tea%h!"#* !& !"!t!at!"# the, !"to the a,use,e"ts o ta!"a le &ro, the!r %u"ts* 'h!%h #rat!&!e( ,e. The!r #rat!&!%at!o" 'as e+%ess!/e. )e ,a(e a" a'&ul "o!se 'he" a out !t* ut there 'ere "o other 'o,e" !" the house. Ma(a,e S...2.".us o%%up!e( the #rou"( &loor* the #!rls the t'o upper &loors* the o"ly ser/a"t 'as !" the &loor a o/e. $ ,o"th a&ter I &!rst ,et th!s %ouple* 8elly sa!(* 4You'/e #ot ,e !" the &a,!ly 'ay.4 4$"( ,e too*4 sa!( Sohpy. 4It's other ,e".4 3 ;oth 'ere sure !t 'as I* a"( that oth 'ere #ot so !" the &!rst 'ee2. They al'ays a&ter'ar(s (e%lare( that !t 'as so. Sophy thou#ht !t 'as the /ery &!rst t!,e I'( &u%2e( her. That poor 'o,a" a&ter'ar(s 'as al'ays #ett!"# !" the &a,!ly 'ay. 8elly* !" a&ter years* use( to say she "e/er ha( e"joye( &u%2!"# !" her l!&e !" the 'ay she (!( the &!rst 'ee2 '!th ,e* a"( that she 'as (ea( sure I'( #ot her '!th %h!l( '!th!" the &!rst (ay or so. 4Has"'t 8ell a (ar2 ha!re( %u"t74 sa!( I to Sophy o"e (ay 'he" I ha( the,. 4Yes* I l!2e la%2 etter tha" ,y %olour.4 3 She ha( "e/er see" 8ell's %u"t e+%ept!"# outs!(e. 3 )hy shoul( she7 3 It 'as l!2e her o'" 'ar"'t !t7 3 48or you* Sophy's74 3 48o*4 sa!( 8ell. 3 I ,a(e the, at o"%e loo2 at ea%h other's %u"ts* a"( put the!r &!"#ers o" ea%h other's a"( &r!# 3 I ha( jolly lar2s '!th the, !" the &!rst (ays* a"( (!("'t I asto"!sh the, '!th the tales I tol( a out so(s* a"( &lat0&u%2!"# 3 %o'0&u%2!"# 3 (o#0&r!##!"# 3 a"( %o%20su%2!"# or #a,ahu%h!"# 3 %u"t0l!%2!"#* a"( so &orth. 3 They 'ere oth 'o"(er&ully #ree" 'he" they %a,e to Lo"(o"< pla!" &u%2!"# a"( &r!##!"# 'as the e+te"t o& the!r 2"o'le(#e.

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    To #o a%2* &or I ha/e "arrate( ,u%h 'h!%h o%%urre( throu#h se/eral years a&ter'ar(s* I ha( "o' suppl!e( the loss o& Sarah F..1.r* a"( 2"e' 'here to #o al'ays &or a 5u!et au(y e/e"!"#* a"( %oul( #et e/ery 'a"t #rat!&!e(. 3 For t'o years I ha( a %o,plete retur" o& the /!r!l!ty o& ,y youth* I re"e'e( a%5ua!"ta"%e '!th ,y ol( &r!e"( Ca,!lle* ha( a#a!" a stro"# let%h &or lett!"# 'o,e" p!ss o" ,y ha"( 'h!lst I &elt the!r %u"ts !" the streets* a"( o"e "!#ht !" L..%..t.r Street* ,ust ha/e ha( t'e"ty (o so. 3 $ &e' t!,es I sa' a lo/ely ,a(e 'o,a" 'ho 'as a pose plast!5ue* ha( her '!th her t!#hts o"* a"( &u%2e( her thro a hole I %ut !" the,. I &u%2e( also a %heap 'o,a" !" the >ar2* a"( 'o"(er I (!( "ot #et %lappe(* ut 8elly's roo,s 'ere ,y rest!"# pla%e* 'he"e/er I &elt 'eary or 'orr!e(* or %are( "ot a out the trou le o& #ett!"# pleasures else'here< tho later o" I (!( "ot see her &or ,o"ths* a"( o"%e* a year or ,ore elapse( et'ee" ,y /!s!ts. I sa' 8elly ,ostly 'he" I 'a"te( a %hat a"( %o,&orta le roo,s to s!t a"( tal2 au(y !"* a"( s,o2e t!ll a po2e ter,!"ate( the e/e"!"#. I re/erte( to ,y ha !ts o& #ett!"# per!patet!% 'hores* 'hose #a!t* &a%e* or al0lures stru%2 ,y &a"%y. I 'e"t* tho ut o%%as!o"ally* to the $.#..e* to C..,...e* a"( other resorts o& so!le( (o/es* a"( ha( o"e or t'o ol( sta#ers 'ho, I ha( ta!le( te" years a"( ,ore pre/!ously. I %alle( o" Ca,!lle o%%as!o"ally a"( #a/e her a %u"t ast!"#* a"( o"e or t'o other ol( a%5ua!"ta"%es as 'ell. These &u#!t!/e a,ours 'ere all "arrate( at the t!,e* ut th!s ,ust su&&!%e &or a" a%%ou"t o& the 'hole #roup 3 I ,ust a re/!ate. T'o or three years a&ter* I ,a(e 8elly pro%ure ,e other 'o,e"* a"( /ery '!ll!"#ly she u"(ertoo2 the tas2. $ /!%!ous loo2!"#* (ar2 eye(* short!sh 'o,a" "a,e( Martha* sa!( to e ,arr!e(* 'as o"e< a"( I th!"2 she 'as a hot arse( o"e &or she too2 to ,y &u%2!"# %o" a,ore. 3 There 'as a !#* ster" loo2!"# 'o,a" 'ho, I "a,e( ,y 4L!&e0#uar( lue4 3 o" a%%ou"t o& a ,as%ul!"e* ster" loo2 she ha(. I soo" ha( (o"e '!th her* &or altho I ha( her three or &our t!,es* she "e/er 'oul( let ,e see her %u"t* "or e/e" &eel !t ,u%h or 'ell. )hat 'as the %ause* 'hat the ,atter '!th her* I %a"'t !,a#!"e. So,eth!"# %erta!"ly 'as 'ro"# !" that sp!%y "oo2. 8elly (e%lare( she (!( "ot 2"o'* ut ha( hear( that she "e/er 'oul( let ,e" see her pu(e"(a. I suppose she 'as asha,e( o& !t. The last t!,e at 8elly's I sa!( to th!s 4she l!&e #uar(*4 4I', "ot #o!"# to ha/e you u"less you let ,e see your %u"t properly.4 She 'oul("'t* she 'oul( soo"er lea/e. 3 4)ell #o the".4 She 'e"t* a"( I (!("'t pay her. 8elly ha( her ,o"thl!es o". So,e o& ,y (o!"#s '!th oth o& those Cypr!a"s '!ll e tol( !" the!r pla%e. $t ,!(0(ay o" a /ery hot (ay* tho to'ar(s the e"( o& the su,,er o& th!s year* I 'as 'al2!"# alo"# o"e o& the ,a!" h!#h'ays 'h!%h lea( to the su ur s o& Lo"0(o"* a"( 'as at a spot at so,e (!sta"%e &ro, the %e"tre* 'he" I passe( t'o you"# #!rls 'ho 'ere sau"ter!"# !(ly alo"#. The taller o& the t'o ha( her ar, rou"( the other's "e%2* a"( loo2e( "ot s!+tee"* the other perhaps a year you"#er. They 'ere (resse( poorly l!2e the %h!l(re" o& art!sa"s. The taller 'as
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    "! l!"# a p!e%e o& hay* 'h!%h I sa' her pull out o& a truss o" the pa/e,e"t y a %or" %ha"(ler's shop* a"( star!"# a out her !(ly a"( ru(ely. I 'as /oluptuously !"%l!"e( that ,or"!"#* 'as th!"2!"# o& the %har,s o& youth&ul %u"ts* a"( #a/e a lo/!"# #la"%e a"( '!"2e( at the taller as I passe( the,. She retur"e( the #la"%e sau%!ly yet hal& shyly* a"( !"st!"%t tol( ,e at o"%e that !& the #!rl ha( "ot ha( a pr!%2 up her %u"t* she 2"e' pretty 'ell 'hat a %o%2 a"( a %u"t (!( 'he" they ,et. The !(ea &!re( ,y lust. $&ter pass!"# the, I stoppe( a"( loo2e( a%2. They ha( stoppe(* a"( the tall o"e 'as loo2!"# a%2* ut see!"# ,e stopp!"# they !,,e(!ately resu,e( the!r sau"ter!"#. I shoul( l!2e to &u%2 her thou#ht I* &or she has su%h r!#ht eyes* a"( tur"!"# I &ollo'e( the, 5u!%2ly* a"( as I a#a!" passe( the, sa!( alou(* 4I'( #!/e a sh!ll!"# ea%h to 2!ss you t'o pretty #!rls.4 $#a!" I %au#ht the tall o"e's sau%y !"/!t!"# eye. )he" I ha( #o"e ahea( so,e (!sta"%e* I retur"e( a"( ,et the, &a%e to &a%e a#a!". They 'ere hal& loo2!"# !" at a shop '!"(o'* hal& !" ,y (!re%t!o". E"%oura#e(* I stoppe( at the shop* a"( loo2!"# at the '!"(o' a"( as2a"t o"ly at the,* so as to a/o!( attra%t!"# "ot!%e* sa!(* 4Co,e a"( ha/e a r!(e !" a %a '!th ,e.4 I,,e(!ately the tall o"e sa!(* 4I (o"'t ,!"(.4 The other o"ly stare( at ,e. The taller o"e the" 'h!spere( so,eth!"# to her. I stoo( '!thout &urther "ot!%!"# the,* 'a!t!"# &or a &our 'heel %a to pass* "or they "ot!%!"# ,e. $t le"#th o"e %a,e y* I ha!le( !t a"( !t stoppe(. I hal& a a"(o"e( ,y !"te"t!o" 'h!lst 'a!t!"#* &or there 'as a0%o"s!(era le &oot tra&&!%* ut !t 'as at a part 'here the roa( passe( throu#h a poor "e!#h ourhoo(* the tra&&!% 'as ,ostly o& hu, le people* poor #!rls 'ere ha"#!"# a out* hu%2sters 'ere !" the roa(* the pe(estr!a"s ?,ostly 'or2!"# people@ see,e( hurry!"# a"( pro a ly to the!r (!""ers* "o"e o& the 'ell to (o 'ere out* "or !"0(ee( 'ere there ,a"y I e+pe%t at a"y t!,e just there. Hu!%2ly I e"tere( the /eh!%le* the el(er #!rl "ee(e( "o &urther !"/!tat!o" to &ollo'* ut the you"#er hes!tate(. 4Co,e o" Sally* he says he'll #!e us a r!(e*4 a"( she pushe( the shorter o"e !"* &ollo'!"# hersel&. I shut the (oor a"( tol( the %a ,a" to (r!/e to . . . . .. It 'as a lo"# 'ay o&&* ut the roa( I 2"e' 'oul( e a 5u!et o"e. The #!rls ,a(e "o o je%t!o" e/e" !& they hear(* ut see,e( (el!#hte( at a r!(e. The %a ,a" I a, sure 2"e' ,y #a,e* &or he #r!""e(. E+%!te,e"t a"( the ro!l!"# su" ha( ,a(e ,e hot* a"( &or a ,!"ute I %oul( o"ly '!pe o&& ,y persp!rat!o"* ut lust soo" st!rre( up. I loo2e( at the el(er* 'ho sat oppos!te to ,e star!"# hal& sau%!ly* I 'o"(ere( 'hat &ro, her sau%y loo2 that she 'as #a,e. 4I', !" a s'eat.4 4$!"'t yer just*4 sa!( she. 4$re"'t you74 48ot ,u%h.4 4Your %u"t's !" a s'eat !s"'t !t "o'74 4He* he*4 she #!##le(. 4Here's a sh!ll!"#* let ,e &eel !t.4 3 I o&&ere( her the sh!ll!"# a"( "ot 'a!t!"# &or her to ta2e !t or reply* pulle( her rap!(ly o" to ,y 2"ee* 2!sse( her* a"( !" a se%o"( ,y &!"#ers 'ere o" her spl!t. 3 4-o"'t (o that "o' s!r*4 ut eyo"( sl!#htly %los!"# her th!#hs she ,a(e "o res!sta"%e. My &!"0#ers 'ere 'ell
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    et'ee" the l!ps* a"( her %u"t &elt 5u!te st!%2y. 3 You"# #!rls I "ot!%e (o"'t see, to 'ash the!r 5u!,s ,u%h* &or I ha/e usually &ou"( the, st!%2y 'he" I ha/e su((e"ly &elt the,. I ru e( !t '!th ,y &!"#ers* a"( she see,e( to l!2e !t* &or her stru##l!"# 'as a ,ere sha,* yet she 2ept e+%la!,!"#. 3 4Oh a!"'t he a #o!"# o" Sally. 3 -o"'t "o' s!r.4 3 Sally sat star!"# at ,y (o!"#s. I &elt her %u"t &or a ,!"ute* the" #a/e her the sh!ll!"#. She hel( !t !" her ope" ha"( &or Sally to see* e&ore she po%2ete( !t. 3The" I o&&ere( Sally a sh!ll!"# to &eel her %u"t* ut she re&use( a"( res!ste(. 4Ha/e you #ot a"y ha!r o" your %u"t Sally74 4Sha"'t tell you.4 3 4She a!"'t* she a!"'t &ourtee"* ut !t's a %o,!"*4 sa!( her &r!e"(. 4Feel ,y %o%2*4 a"( I pulle( !t out. ;oth lau#he( a"( re&use(* ut Carry soo" repe"te(* a"( &elt !t* '!th ,u%h #rat!&!%at!o". 4Is"'t !t !# a"( st!&&*4 sa!( I. 4I (o"'t 2"o'.4 4You (o.4 3 Se!1!"# her* I put ,y ,outh to her ear a"( 'h!spere(* 4You l!ttle (e/!l* you 2"o' you'/e ha( a pr!%2 !" your %u"t* let ,e &u%2 you.4 4I a!"'t*4 a"( she #!##le(. 3 I 'e"t o" 'h!sper!"# a out &u%2!"#. 4)hat's he a tell!"# yer74 sa!( Sally* 'ho see,e( %ur!ous at the 'h!sper!"#. 3 4I', tell!"# her I'll #!/e you a sh!ll!"# to &eel your %u"t.4 4Sha"'t*4 sa!( Sally. 4Feel ,y pr!%2 the".4 4Feel !t* !t 'o"'t !te yer*4 sa!( her &r!e"(. The #!rl re&use(. 3 4Ha/e you e/er &elt a ,a"'s %o%274 48o*4 sa!( she* ol(ly a"( post!/ely. 4Oh yer l!e 3 yer ha/e 3 you'/e t'!%e &elt Da%2's.4 3 Sally ,a(e "o reply* 'as shut up* a"( loo2e( stup!(. I" a l!ttle t!,e Sally* y ,y %o"t!"ue( re5uests* a"( at the a(/!%e o& Carry* #ot her sh!ll!"#* a"( "ot o"ly &elt ,y %o%2* ut let ,e &eel her u,. I ha( Carry o" o"e s!(e* a"( Sally o" the other* oth sta"(!"# up '!th the!r a%2s to the (oors o& the %a * oth &eel!"# ,y sta"(ar( 'h!lst I 'as &eel!"# the!r l!ttle a%2s!(es. It 'as (el!#ht&ul to ha"(le the!r utto%2s* ut I 'a"te( &urther sat!s&a%t!o". 4Sho' ,e your %u"t Carry a"( I'll #!/e you a"other sh!ll!"#.4 She 'oul("'t* she shoul( e see"* ut that at le"#th 'as arra"#e(. Sally stoo( loo2!"# out o& o"e %a '!"(o'* 'h!lst I '!th a l!ttle res!sta"%e thre' up the other's pett!%oats as she sat o" the seat oppos!te to ,e* a"( (!s%lose( so!le( u"(erl!"e"* a"( sto%2!"#s (!rty e"ou#h to ha/e sho%2e( ,y pr!%2 !& !t ha( ha( eyes. 3 ;ut !t ha("'t* a"( stoo( st!&&er tha" e/er* 'he" a /ery l!ttle tr!a"#ular !t o& &lossy ro'" she'e( at the otto, o& the #!rl's elly. To #et a etter /!e' I se!1e( hol( o& her le#s* a"( pull!"# the, up* t!lte( her a%2. She 2ept lau#h!"# ut as2!"# ,e to lea/e o&&. The" Sally tur"e( her hea( a"( see!"# ,y #a,e* uttere( a sole,"* 3 4Hoh: a!"'t he a#o!"# o".4 I ha( ,y loo2 a"( 'a"te( a"other &eel* so #ot Carry o" to ,y 2"ees a#a!" a"( ,y &!"#er o" her %u"t* 3 GA6 'h!sper!"# that I'( #!/e her hal& a %ro'" to &u%2 her. 3 4Oh "o*4 3 she %oul("'t. 3 4She'll tell perhaps* a"( the people '!ll see us 'he" pass!"#.4 3 ;ut she sat &eel!"# ,y %o%2* lo"#!"# &or !t to e up her* 'h!lst I ru e( at her %l!tor!s t!ll she 'r!##le( her u,. 4You ru th!s t!ll you #et pleasure (o"'t you74 4So,e0t!,es*4 sa!( the slut lau#h!"#. 4Oh (o"'t 3 lea/e o&&.4
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    $#a!" I tr!e( !t o" '!th Sally* a"( at le"#th su%%ee(e( !" &eel!"# her l!ttle %u"t 'h!lst she 2ept her le#s %lose(* ut "oth!"# !"(u%e( her to let ,e loo2* a"( as she #ot "o!sy 348o I sha"'t the"* I (o"'t %are !& she (o 3 I sha"'t* the" 3 lea/e o&&4 3 I (es!ste(. 4Ta2e us a%2*4 sa!( Carry su((e"ly. 4I& ,other #oes out a&ore I #et there* I sha"'t #et "oth!"# to eat 3 a"( she'll ro' ,e to"!#ht 'he" she %o,es !".4 3 She 'as /ery ,u%h !" ear"est. 3 4Let ,e &u%2 you the" a"( I'll #o a%2 at o"%e.4 3 )e 'ere just the" at a spot 'here there 'as /ery l!ttle tra&&!%. She re&use(. Sally ,!#ht tell 3 I re&use( to #o a%2 a"( !"%rease( ,y o&&er. $t le"#th* pro,!s!"# a"other sh!ll!"# to Sally to 2eep sta"(!"# a"( loo2!"# out o& the '!"(o'* I pushe( ,y le#s 'ell &or'ar( to the &ro"t seat* a"( et'ee" Carry's th!#hs* 'ho 'as sta"(!"# up !" &ro"t o& ,e. She 'as al,ost too short* her %u"t 'as a s,all ,ar2 to h!t* ut the l!ttle !t%h 'as !" heat* a"( ear"estly a"( s!le"tly a!(e( ,y e&&orts. My pr!%2 'as !" su%h a state that !t 'oul( ha/e p!er%e( a oar(* a"( (!re%tly !t #ot !ts t!p o" her spl!t* '!th a hea/e up o& ,y arse* !t 'as &!+e( as t!#htly up her %u"t as !& she'( ee" pe##e(. The" I %laspe( her l!ttle utto%2s a"( &a!rly l!&te( her o&& the &loor* she %a,e &or'ar(* her ar,s rou"( ,y "e%2* her &a%e "ear ,!"e* a"( I e#a" &u%2!"# '!th short thrusts< ,y pr!%2 "e/er ,o/e( ,ore tha" a" !"%h a%2'ar(s a"( &or'ar(s* the pos!t!o" 'oul( "ot e"a le lo"# stro2es* ut !t 'as e"ou#h. 3 4-o you l!2e !t Carry74 4Y0hes*4 she 'h!spere(. 4It's up your %u"t.4 4Y0hes 3 a0 har.4 4$re you %o,!"#74 4$ha 3 Y0hes 3 soo"*4 a"( the" '!th (el!%!ous short 'r!##l!"# ,o/e,e"ts 'e oth spe"t* a"( Carry's hea( &ell o/er ,y le&t shoul(er. I thou#ht ,y pe#o 'oul( "e/er '!th(ra'* a"( !" ,eretr!%!ous thou#hts 'as %o"te"t to lea/e !t !" !ts so&t lus%!ous %o,press* hol(!"# her st!ll rou"( her s,all a%2s!(e %lose to ,e. She lay '!th hea( o" ,y shoul(er* s!le"t* tra"5u!l* e"joy!"# the #e"tle (!lat!o" that ,y pr!%2 st!ll #a/e her %u"t* 'he" &loat!"#* ('!"(l!"# slo'ly !" a u"(a"t sper, 3 !" the so&t ,u%!la#!"ous ath 'e ha( ,a(e to#ether !" her te,ple o& lo/e 3 her &eet st!ll s%ar%ely tou%h!"# the %a &loor* her %u"t s5uee1!"# ,ore a"( ,ore (o'" o" to ,y allo%2s* as she &elt the ro( slo'ly re%e(!"# &ro, her. 3 Sally loo2e( rou"(. 3 4You'll lose your sh!ll!"# !& you (o"'t loo2 out*4 sa!( I just re%o/er!"# &ro, ,y pleasure as I "ot!%e( her. 3 The #!rl the" stare( stea(!ly out o& the '!"(o' ut Carry 'as rouse(* I let #o her a%2s!(e* a"( slo'ly she sat a%2 o" the seat oppos!te as 'e u"0%ouple(* loo2!"# at ,e '!th 5u!te a lus%!ous s,!le* a s,!le o& (el!#ht a"( #rat!tu(e &or the /oluptuous treat I ha( #!/e" her. The" her eyes settle( o" ,y ,o!st pe#o ha"#!"# !ts hea( o/er ,y alls* &or I ha( st!ll las%!/!ous (el!#ht !" lett!"# !t ha"# out &or her to see* ,y 2"ees st!ll et'ee" her le#s as she sat* her pett!%oats (ropp!"# o/er the, %oul( &all "o &urther. Thus &or a ,!"ute s,!l!"# at ea%h other* 'e sat. T!,e 'as press!"#* I %o/ere( up ,y allo%2s a"( sat up* she (roppe( her pett!%oats* Sally tur"e( rou"( a"( sat es!(e her* star!"# &!rst at ,e* the" at
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    her %o,pa"!o". The l!ttle slut 2"e'* I', sure* 'hat 'e ha( ee" up to* ut "e/er spo2e a 'or( as she too2 ,y sh!ll!"#. I tol( %a y to (r!/e a%2* a"( 'as #la( o& a!r* &or the su" 'as eat!"# (o'"* a"( the %a l!2e a" o/e"* as I ha( %lose( oth '!"(o's to (!,!"!sh the area thro 'h!%h people pass!"# %oul( see. I too2 Carry o" ,y lap* &elt that #luey l!ttle 5u!,* 2!sse( her* a"( 2ept up a %o"/ersat!o" !" 'h!spers* ,u%h to the a""oya"%e o& the other* 'ho e/ery "o' a"( the" 2ept jealously as2!"# 'hat !t 'as all a out. 3 I o&&ere( her a so/ere!#"* !& she 'oul( r!"# Sally out that "!#ht* a"( !"(u%e her to let ,e &u%2 her. 3 She'( try ut &eare( she %oul("'t. 4I 2"o's 'ho '!ll (o !t to her tho.4 3 Her o'" ,other o&te" stoppe( her ?Carry@ #o!"# out o& a "!#ht* ut !& she'( ha( a (rop she'( e sure to let her #o. 3 Sally's ,other 'oul("'t let Sally. They lo(#e( !" the sa,e house* ut she 'oul( try. 3 Soo" a&ter I #ot out* pa!( the %a ,a"* a"( tol( h!, 'here to set the #!rls (o'". The e/e"!"# %a,e* I so,eho' ha( ,a(e up ,y ,!"( that I shoul( &u%2 the /!r#!" Sally 3 !& she 'ere /!r#!" 3 &or I %oul("'t #et her to let ,e &eel her %losely e"ou#h to /er!&y that. I 'as (!sappo!"te(. $t a l!ttle past se/e" o'%lo%2 at the appo!"te( pla%e* Carry appeare( alo"e. Sally's ,other 'oul("'t let her (au#hter out. 4I th!"2 she'( a let yer (o !t to her !& she'( %o,e* she tol( ,e she 'oul(.4 3 Carry 'e"t '!th ,e '!ll!"#ly to a house* a"( I str!ppe( her. 3 She ha( put o" %lea" sto%2!"#s a"( %he,!se* I ha( tol( her to (o so 'he" !" the %a !" the ,or"!"#. 3 4Shall I &u%2 you*4 sa!( I. 4Yes (o*4 she repl!e( 5u!%2ly. I ,ou"te( the l!ttle lass* a"( #lor!e( !" the s'eet l!ttle pout!"#* hal& &le(#e( sheath I &u%2e( 'he" I &elt the l!ttle lass 'as ha/!"# as ,u%h pleasure as a #ro'" 'o,a". She 'as re/ell!"# '!th ,e !" %opulat!o"* s!#h!"# her /oluptuous s!#hs !" that s'eetly 5u!et 'ay 'h!%h #!rls (o* t!ll they lear" to rea2 out !"to the le'e( e+%la,at!o"s o& (el!#ht* 'h!%h ,a"y (o as they #ro' ol(er. 3 The" a&ter she'( '!pe( her %u"t outs!(e* a"( our pass!o"s 'ere su (ue( &or a t!,e* 'e tal2e(. $t &!rst she 'as reser/e(* the" ope"* a"( &or a" hour I 5uest!o"e( her ,u%h* a"( she ,e a l!ttle. )hat s'eet %o"&!(e"%es et'ee" a #!rl o& s!+tee" a"( a ,a" "ot &ar &ro, &!&ty. The (!&&ere"%e !" a#e #a/e our %o"/ersat!o" a" a((!t!o"al %har,. It 'as se,!0pater"al* yet all a out &u%2!"#. 3 O& the hour's tal2* all 'orth tell!"# ,ay e soo" tol(. She ha( "e/er ee" !" a au(y house e&ore* a"( ha( o"ly ee" &u%2e( t'o ,o"ths. Her &ather (!e( so,e ,o"ths a#o* her ,other 'as a %har'o,a" a"( (ra"2. Carry ha( ee" a short t!,e a "urse,a!(* a"( "o' (!( roo,s* loo2e( a&ter a"other s!ster* a"( 'or2e( '!th her "ee(le. 3 She a"( her ,other 5uarrelle(. 48o' 'ho &u%2e( you &!rst74 3 a you"# ,a" she 2"e' 3 45u!te a you"# ,a"4 3 that's all I %oul( the" lear". Sally a"( her ,other l!/e( !" the roo, elo'* her &ather 'as a %ha!r ,a2er* ut 'as a la%2#uar(* so,et!,es (!sappeare( &or a ,o"th or t'o* a"( her ,other #ot the!r l!/!"# pr!"%!pally* a"( she o&te" 'as (ru"2. There 'as a rother "early s!+tee" years ol( a"( a
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    you"#er s!ster* a"( all three slept !" the sa,e e(* a"( !" the sa,e roo, as the!r ,other a"( &ather. Sally 2"e' all a out &u%2!"# tho she (e"!e( all* a"( 'as so (e,ure !" the %a . She ha( see" her rother's %o%2 a"( &elt !t* a"( he ha( see" Sally's %u"t. 3 4H!s %o%2 !s a #oo( !# o"e too.4 4The" you'/e see" !t.4 3 Carry (!("'t (e"y that. The rother o"e "!#ht tr!e( to (o !t to h!s s!ster 4$"( she'll let h!, o"e (ay I 2"o's* tho she says she 'o"'t.4 L!ttle y l!ttle* I #ot out that these t'o you"#sters ha( o"e (ay &r!##e( the la(* a"( he'( see" oth the!r %u"ts. He 'as a shop oy at a #ro%er's. Su((e"ly a l!#ht (a'"e( upo" ,e &ro, so,e re,ar2 she ,a(e. 4It's her rother 'ho &u%2e( you &!rst.4 3 She ro2e out !"to lau#hter* a"( (e"!e( !t. 3 ;ut I !"s!ste(* a"( at last she a(,!tte( !t. Carry ha( to &et%h pa!ls o& 'ater upsta!rs* a"( the la( use( 2!"(ly to (o !t &or her 3 o"e ,or"!"# her ,other ha( #o"e out to 'or2 at s!+ o'%lo%2* 'he" the la( 2"o%2e( at the (oor as he 'as #o!"# to h!s 'or2* a"( as2e( !& he shoul( &et%h her a pa!l &ull. She a%%epte( a"( he &et%he( !t. She !"stea( o& #ett!"# up 'he" her ,other le&t 'e"t to e( a#a!"* a"( 'as !" her %he,!se. He 'a"te( to r!"# the 'ater !". 3 48o put !t (o'" outs!(e.4 He sa!( he'( thro' the 'ater a'ay. So she let h!, !"* he put (o'" the pa!l* the" e#a" 2!ss!"# her* she'( alrea(y see" h!s pr!%2* a"( h!s spu"2* he'( see" her %u"t* a"( a &e' ,!"utes a&ter0'ar(s* that lu%2y la('s pr!%2 'as !" her /!r#!" "!%he* her hy,e" 'as ut a lee(!"# spl!t* h!s sper, 'as st!%2!"# h!s alls o" to her utto%2s. 3 She 'as !" &or &u%2!"# a&ter that. 3 )he" o"%e a &e,ale's taste( the su#ar st!%2* !t's "ot lo"# e&ore she #ets a"other taste. S!"%e the" 'he"e/er Da%2 #ot the opportu"!ty he &u%2e( her* a"( she let h!, '!ll!"#ly. 3 4)hy shoul("'t I "o'.4 She'( "e/er ha( a"other ,a". 3 ;ut Da%2 'as a la%2#uar(* &or tho he'( pro,!se( to tell "o o"e 3 ha( 4too2 h!s ;! le oath4 he 'oul("'t !& I'( let h!,* he ha( tol( a shop,a" 'here he 'as 'or2!"#* a"( the shop,a" %a,e a&ter her a"( tol( her. ;ut she ha("'t a"( (!( "ot ,ea" to let the shop,a"* she %oul( "ot ear h!, 3 a"( I 'as the o"ly o"e e+%ept Da%2* 'ho ha( (o"e !t to her. She (!("'t th!"2 Da%2 ha( tol( h!s s!ster* ut he'( sa!( he ,ea"t to &u%2 h!s s!ster* a"( Carry &elt sure she'( let h!, so,e (ay 'he" h!s ,other 'as out. 4She 2"o's all a out (o!"# !t less yer. 3 )hy she's see" her &ather a"( ,other a(o!"# !t o&te"* a"( has see" her &ather's pr!%2.4 That 'as the h!story #ot !" a" hour's tal2!"#* 'h!lst &eel!"# a"( &!"#er st!"2!"#* a"( y that t!,e ,y pe#o e!"# !" a(,!ra le %o"(!t!o" a"( she (el!#hte( at !ts s!1e a"( loo2. 3 4Oh yes* !t's ,u%h !##er tha" Da%2's* 3 too2 !t up her "ot%h a#a!"* a"( a#a!" I 'ette( !ts l!ttle so&t !"ter!or '!th ,y sper,* a"( she spe"t %har,!"#ly !" ,y ar,s* 2!ss!"# ,e. I 'as !" lo/e '!th the l!ttle lass* a"( &u%2e( her o"%e ,ore ut she 'as !" a hurry to #et ho,e* her ,other 'oul( 2"o%2 her a out !& she &ou"( her out o&
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    "!#hts* a"( u"less (ru"2 her ,other usually 2ept at ho,e. She hope( her 4,other 'oul( e out o" the s%re'.4 3 Coul("'t I e 'here I &!rst ,et the, !" the (ay* the" perhaps Sally 'oul( #o to a house* a"( let ,e ha/e her. I %oul("'t 'ell (o that soo"* ut arra"#e( to e that (ay 'ee2 at the sa,e spot a"( hour !& Carry 'oul(. She a#ree( ut "e/er %a,e* a"( I "e/er sa' her ,ore.

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    Chapter PIII The 9reat Easter". Our &!rst ,eet!"#. Her &or,* s!1e* a"( h!story. ;ottle( ale. $ l!#ht'e!#ht o" the top. The la"(la(y's (au#hter ;etsy. V!r#!"!ty !"spe%te(. Mater"al %a"t. T'o a%20s!(es to the &ro"t. -a %apo. $ treat &or ;etsy. $ spe"( o" a u,. $ !( &or a /!r#!"!ty. The 9 E (!sappears* 8elly L..l.e's help. Fr!e"( Martha. Her s2!""y* are0%u"te( "!e%e. $ /!#orous e/e"!"#. V!r#!"!ty ta2e". $ trap es%ape(. The are0%u"te( o"e a#a!". $ sh!"(y at a rothel. I (!("'t o& %ourse 2eep to 8elly L..l.e* a"( so,e years a&ter I 2"e' her* o" o"e a&ter"oo" a out &!/e p.,. !" (ayl!#ht* sa' a" e"or,ously tall &at 'o,a" !" C./..t.y Street. She hal& stoppe( a"( s,!le(* as !& o" a su((e" she re%olle%te( ,e* I see,e( also to re%olle%t her. )hat a a%2s!(e* 'hat a %u"t she ,ust ha/e* thou#ht I. 3 Te" ,!"utes later I 'as !" her e( roo,. 3 I" te" ,!"utes ,ore ,y alls 'ere a"#!"# a#a!"st the lar#est arse they e/er tou%he(* a"( &e' alls ha/e tou%he( su%h a lar#e o"e u"less a#a!"st hers. It 'as the elly o& the 49reat Easter"*4 a"( I 'as ly!"# up a %u"t 'h!%h at the &!rst #la"%e loo2e( as !# as a horse %ollar* ut 'h!%h %l!ppe( ,e a"( &et%he( ,y sper, out o& ,y allo%2s /ery "!%ely. So,e years e&ore th!s* I 'as pass!"# thro D...s Street o" o"e %ol( "!#ht* 'he" et'ee" the H..,..2.t a"( O.e.(." Street 3 the" &!lle( '!th #ay lo(#!"#s O%. 3 I sa' a" e+%ee(!"#ly tall* &!"e 'o,a" sta"(!"# st!ll at the e(#e o& the 2er * a"( thou#ht her a 5u!et 'o,a" 'a!t!"# &or so,e o"e. So,eth!"# !"(u%e( ,e to retur". St!ll she stoo( there a"( loo2e( at ,e &ull* ut '!thout s,!le* s!#"* or #esture. 3 She !s 'a!t!"# to p!ss o" the 5u!et I the" thou#ht* 3 the 'o,e" o&te" (!( there* I ha/e see" s!+ at a t!,e 3 a"( (el!#hte( at the %ha"%e o& see!"# a 'o,a" p!((l!"#* 'h!%h al'ays #!/es ,e pleasure. I tur"e( a%2 a#a!"* a"( "o' she 'as sta"(!"# !" the #utter. She'll s5uat (o'" (!re%tly thou#ht I* sla%2e"e( ,y pa%e* a"( at O.e.(." Street %or"er loo2e( rou"(* a"( sa' that she 'as loo2!"# a&ter ,e. I retur"e( the" a"( spo2e to her. 4It's a &!"e "!#ht.4 4Yes s!r* ut /ery %ol( sta"(!"# here.4 4Let's #o ho,e to#ether*4 sa!( I* &eel!"# o" sure #rou"(. 4You %a"'t #o to ,y pla%e.4 4)here you l!2e.4 4$"y'here you l!2e* s!r* I'/e o"ly %o,e to Lo"(o" yester(ay.4 4Let's #o here*4 a"( 'e 'e"t to the %or"er house. 4I thou#ht !t 'as a 5ueer house*4 sa!( she* 4I'/e ee" 'at%h!"# !t &or hal& a" hour.4 3 She ha( ee" sta"(!"# there all that t!,e a"( "o ,a" ha( a%%oste( her* tho they ha( stare( at her* she tol( ,e. She sat (o'" a"( loo2e( all a out the roo,* a"( '!thout ta2!"# "ot!%e o& ,e. I thrust ,y ha"( up her %lothes* a"( &!"#ers et'ee" her %u"t l!ps. 3 She put her ha"(s (o'" to push the, a'ay 3 the" as !& re%olle%t!"#* she let ,e (o 'hat I l!2e( a"( sat loo2!"# at ,e. I &elt all a out her a%2s!(e a"( 5u!, '!th oth ha"(s* the" !,pat!e"tly #ot up a"( tol( her to u"(ress. She (!( so slo'ly a"( hes!tat!"#ly. 3 )e 'ere oth soo" !" our last l!"e"s* I thre' up her %he,!se* sa' o"e o& the ,ost ,a#"!&!%e"t s!#hts o& &ull s!1e( &e,ale &or,* our
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    ell!es ,et* ,y %o%2 e"tere( her %u"t* she &elt !ts pro !"# at o"%e a"( (el!%!ously* a"( 'e spe"t to#ether 5u!%2ly. 3 ;oth 'a"te( a &u%2* a"( she ,ore tha" I (!(. )he" she ha( 'ashe( her %u"t* I ,a(e her str!p %o,pletely a"( ha( a &ull loo2 at her eaut!es. She 'as 5u!te s!+ &eet h!#h* ha( %hest"ut %oloure( ha!r* lo/ely so&t (ar2 ha1el eyes* %hest"ut %oloure( %u"t that%h a"( ar,p!ts* 'as !#* &leshy* al,ost hea/y* &ro, "e%2 to a"2le. Yet she 'as a #ra"( 'o,a"* 'as eaut!&ully &or,e(* !"(ee( a lo/ely /oluptuous &!#ure. Her %u"t 'as hea/y l!ppe(* &at ,otte(* a"( loo2e( lar#e outs!(e* yet 'as as t!#ht as a #!rl's !"s!(e. She e+a,!"e( ,y pr!%2 %ur!ously* a"( 'he" I ha( &elt a"( see" her all o/er ?'e ha( s%ar%ely spo2e"@ '!th o"e %o"se"t 'e tur"e( o" to the e( a"( &u%2e( a#a!". The" she put o" her %he,!se* sat (o'" !" &ro"t o& the &!re a"( stare( at !t s!le"tly. I as2e( her 'hat she 'as th!"2!"# o&* t'!%e '!thout a reply. 3 The" she tur"e( her hea( to ,e a"( sa!(* 4I', a 'hore at last.4 3 She s,!le( &a!"tly ut 'as (ull a"( (epresse(* so I se"t &or a ottle o& sherry a"( !s%u!ts. She (ra"2 !t /ery 5u!%2ly as !& to #et up her sp!r!ts. 4Let's %hat*4 a"( 'e (!( so lo"#* s!tt!"# y the &!re. 3 $ 2"o%2 at the (oor %a,e. 3 4Shall you e lo"#*4 sa!( a /o!%e. )e ha( hear( a" !"%essa"t tra,p!"# 'h!lst 'e 'ere tal2!"#. 4;e (a,"e(*4 sa!( I* 4I'll pay &or the roo, t'!%e.4 )e %hatte( o"* I put her o" to ,y 2"ee &or a se%o"(* so that I ,!#ht t'!((le her 5u!, as 'e tal2e(. It a((s to the %har, o& a %hat to &eel a "!%e %u"t* a"( the 'o,e" all l!2e !t* ut I %oul( "ot ear her 'e!#ht. I hear( her h!story* 'h!%h I (!("'t el!e/e* ut hear( &ully a&ter0 'ar(s &ro, her* a"( !" a year or t'o &ro, a ,a" 'ho 2"e' her 'ell early !" l!&e* a"( !t 'as su sta"t!ally true as &ar as her ,arr!e( status* a"( lapse !"to !"&!(el!ty 'e"t. She 'as '!&e o& a ser#ea"t !" the .. re#!,e"t 'h!%h 'as or(ere( o&& so,e'here. )h!lst she re,a!"e( at )..%...t.r* a l!/ery sta le 2eeper 3 I 2"e' h!s "a,e 'ell 3 #ot !"to her. 3 Her hus a"( o" h!s retur" &ou"( !t out a"( tur"e( her o&&. 3 The sta le 2eeper 2ept her t'o or three years* the" they 5uarrelle( a"( she %a,e to Lo"(o" to tur" harlot. 3 She ha( ee" !" Lo"(o" t'o (ays 'he" I ,et her* a"( ha( the" "oth!"# o& the harlot e!ther !" ,a""er or (ress. 3 )e a(jo!"e( to the e( a&ter our tal2* a"( &!"#ere( ea%h other's pr!/ates t!ll 'e &u%2e( a#a!"* a"( ha/!"# #ot her a((ress* '!th the u"(ersta"(!"# that !t 'as o"ly to e"a le ,e to 'r!te to her* 'e parte(. I #ot her the "e+t (ay at a &a/or!te au(y house* &or her s!1e* &lesh!"ess* &resh"ess a"( &u%2!"#* rouse( ,y sala%!ty< a"( sa' her se/eral t!,es a&ter'ar(s* a"( the" ha/!"# &u%2e( her 'ell* 'as sat!s&!e(. She soo" (!sappeare( &ro, Lo"(o"* a"( "o' I sa' her a#a!" a&ter the !"ter/al o& a out te" years. 3 She "o' 'e!#he( t'e"ty sto"e I', sure. JI ha/e ha( a taller 'o,a" s!"%e* ut "e/er su%h a !# hea/y o"e.K 3 Her arse 'he" 2"eel!"# o" the e(* '!th !ts lo"# sl!t a"( ha!ry pouters 'as o/er'hel,!"#* I %oul( o"ly #et t'o0th!r(s o& ,y pr!%2 !" that 'ay* her utto%2s pre/e"te( ,ore e"try.

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    She 'as easy e"ou#h to &u%2 'he" o" the top o& her* 'as a &leshy e( to lay o"* a"( st!ll a t!#ht!sh %u"te( o"e tho !t loo2e( so !# outs!(e 3 a horse %ollar. )e tal2e( o/er our &!rst ,eet!"# a"( 'ell she re%ol0 le%te( !t* a"( that she'( "ot %hee2 to spea2 to ,e that "!#ht. She sa!( ,a"y ,e" ha( passe( loo2!"# at her* a"( she %oul( "ot a%%ost the,. 3 4-!("'t I l!2e you* I'( "ot the" ha( a &u%2 &or 'ee2s.4 3 She ha( ee" 2ept* a"( ha( ee" 'hor!"# alter"ately s!"%e I'( &!rst ha( her* a"( that 'as all I %oul( lear"* %erta!"ly she ha( "ot ee" !" Lo"(o" (ur!"# that t!,e. 3 4Let ,e &u%2 you*4 sa!( she a&ter I ha( /!s!te( her t'o or three t!,es. 3 4You'll %rush ,e.4 4You sha"'t &eel ,y 'e!#ht*4 3 a"( !t 'as true. She (!( !t so to ,e a&ter0'ar(s o"%e or t'!%e* ut I pre&erre( topp!"# her. She 'as a" e%o"o,!%al pu"2* &or I o"ly #a/e her ea%h /!s!t a so/ere!#"* a"( 'as st!ll /ery ha"(so,e !" &a%e tho so,e'hat loate(* 'h!%h she'e( up stro"#ly !" (ay l!#ht. She (!( "ot %are a out #o!"# out too ,u%h !" (ay t!,e* &or e/ery o"e tur"e( rou"( to loo2 a&ter her* a"( #oo( ,e" (!( "ot l!2e to e see" &ollo'!"# her ho,e* a"( as she ha( a #oo( "u, er o& 4/!s!t!"# &r!e"(s*4 she ,ostly 2ept at ho,e u"less har( up. 3 She 'as al'ays (r!"2!"# ottle( ale or stout* as !& she 'a"te( to ,a2e hersel& &atter* 'h!%h see,e( &u""y. 3 Fro, her s!1e she ha( #ot to e "!%20"a,e( 4The 9reat Easter".4 J$ !# stea, oat at that (ate.K I /!s!te( her at !"ter/als 'he"e/er her s!1e #a/e ,e a let%h. I 'as %ur!ous !" e+a,!"!"# her perso". The &!rst th!"#* 'he" seate( !" her roo,* 'as to as2 ,e &or ottle( ale. 3 The (au#hter o& the la"(la(y* a u+o, a"( /ery ha"(so,e lass a l!ttle o/er &!&tee" years ol(* rou#ht !t !". 3 I too2 a let%h &or her* !t 'as a year or t'o s!"%e I ha( see" a" u"&le(#e( %u"t* a"( a ur"!"# (es!re to see hers %a,e o/er ,e* a"( I o&&ere( the Easter" ,o"ey to help ,e. 3 It 'as !,poss! le she sa!(. 3 4;ut*4 sa!( I* 4I o"ly 'a"t to see her %u"t a"( /!r#!"!ty* a thorou#hly #oo( loo2 at !t ,!"(* I 'o"'t (o ,ore tha" ope" the l!ps.4 3 My let%h !"%rease( a"( I !( &ro, t'o up to &!/e so/ere!#"s to see !t 3 48ot a ,ere #l!,pse* ut a #oo( loo2 o& so,e ,!"utes* ,!"( that.4 U"(er o"e aspe%t* that o& a ,other's ,oral!ty* th!s !s o"e o& the al,ost !"%re(! le e/e"ts o& ,y %areer* ut !t !s as true as #ospel. The house 'as 2ept y a %arpe"ter a"( h!s '!&e* 'ho l!/e( !" the #rou"( &loor a"( 2!t%he"s. O" the &!rst &loor 'as the 9reat Easter" ?a #ay 'o,a"@* a"( a o/e 'ere 'or2!"# people 5u!te respe%ta le. The 'o,a" o& the house ha( three or &our Ch!l(re"* a"( at th!s t!,e 'as su%2l!"# o"e* 3 &ather I "e/er sa' that I 2"o' o&* he 'as "early al'ays out !" the (ay t!,e. )!th th!s t'e"ty0sto"e 'hore the ,other asso%!ate( &reely* a"( the %h!l(re" 'ere al'ays !" her roo,* the strapp!"# el(est #!rl !"%lu(e(. I ha/e see" the ,other "urs!"# the a y there. 3 The ,other see,e( 5u!te a har( 'or2!"#* respe%ta le 'o,a"* a"( all the %h!l(re" 'ere %lea" a"( "eatly (resse(. ;ut the ,other tal2e( a out &u%2!"# al,ost l!2e a #ay 'o,a" 0 the 9reat Easter" tol( ,e 3 a"( she al'ays tol( the 9reat Easter" 'he" her hus a"( ha( &u%2e( her* a"( ho' o&te" he (!( !t.

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    I (!("'t th!"2 there 'as a"y %ha"%e o& #ett!"# 'hat I 'a"te(* yet use( to say !" a jo2!"# ,a""er a&ter the re&usal* 3 4M!"(* there are &!/e pou"(s to ha/e a #oo( oo2 at ;etsy's %u"t.4 I use( to say !t re#ularly 'he" the #!rl ha( le&t the roo, a&ter r!"#!"# !" the ottle( ale. I o&te" #a/e her the %ha"#e* ut "e/er too2 the Sl!#htest l! erty. 3 O"e (ay the 9reat Easter" sa!(* 4I Spo2e to her ,other a out your see!"# ;etsy "a2e(* a"( tol( her you 'ere a sur#eo"* a"( you 'a"te( to see the #!rl's /!r#!"!ty out o& %ur!os!ty* e%ause she 'as so ha"(so,e a"( &!"e #ro'" 3 they are har( up to pay the re"t* a"( I th!"2 so,eho' !t %a" just e ,a"a#e(* !& you'll #!/e her &!/e pou"(s< ut the ,other ,ust e !" the roo,* a"( you ,ust"'t tal2 au(y or tou%h ;etsy.4 3 I repl!e(* 4I ,ust ope" the %u"t ,ysel&.4 4The" you ,ust (o !t l!2e a (o%tor.4 3 )e tal2e( out the ,atter* a"( a 'ee2 or t'o &urther o"* !t 'as arra"#e( that as a (o%tor I 'as to #o o"e (ay at a part!%ular t!,e* 'he" she hope( the ,other 'oul( %o"se"t to ,y see!"# the #!rl's pu(e"(a. O" the (ay* there 'as I !" the roo,* e+pe%ta"t. The ,other %a,e !"to us* a"( tal2e( so,e %o%2 a"( ull story a out '!sh!"# to 2"o' !& a"y har, ha( ee" (o"e to her (au#hter* !t 'as a ,as2 to h!(e her !"te"t!o" 3 to e+%use hersel&. 3 M!ss 9reat Easter" ha( sa!( I 'as a sur#eo"* so 'oul( I loo2 at the %h!l(. I !"(ul#e( !" the sha,* as !& I (!("'t* a"( as !& she (!("'t 2"o' !t 'as hu, u#. The" she &et%he( the #!rl* a"( /ery (el! ertely too2 o&& her %loth!"#* a"( I la!( her o" the e( tal2!"# !" a sooth!"# to"e* !,!tat!"# a (o%tor !" ,a""er as 'ell as I %oul(. 3 4-o"'t e alar,e( 3 I 'o"'t hurt you 3 there* 3 "e/er ,!"( ,e*4 a"( so o". I ha( as tol( passe( o&te" !" the %hara%ter e&ore* a"( ha/!"# stu(!e( &e,ale a"ato,y as &ar as the!r %u"ts #o* ha/e a #oo( (eal o& jar#o" a out !t rea(y to ,y to"#ue. 3 The 9reat Easter" (e%lare( a&ter'ar(s that I 'as e+a%tly l!2e a (o%tor. 3 9e"tly I l!&te( the #!rl's %he,!se a"( ope"e( her th!#hs* she %lose( the,* ut the" ,a(e "o &urther o je%t!o". I as2e( the ,other to hol( o"e le#* the 9reat Easter" the other* a"( there they stoo( hol(!"# the #!rl's le#s '!th o"e ha"(* ea%h '!th a %a"(le !" the other. 3 It 'as (ar2 at that t!,e at &!/e !" the a&ter"oo"* o& a &o##y* early '!"ter (ay. Tre, l!"# '!th e+%!te,e"t ut %o"troll!"# ,ysel&* I ope"e( the %lea"* plu,p* l!ttle sl!#htly &le(#e( %u"t l!ps* a"( loo2e( t!ll I thou#ht ,y pr!%2 'oul( urst '!th lust at the s!#ht o& the l!ttle per&orat!o" o& the hy,e". It 'as a lo/ely p!"2 %u"t* s,all a"( e"t!%!"#* '!th l!ttle %r!sp ha!r just %o,!"# o" her ,otte. She 'as a sple"(!(ly 'ell &e(* plu,p* &at arse( you"# !t%h* her th!#hs rou"( a"( %lose* the le#s '!th a,ple %al/es 3 I lo"#e( to put ,y &!"#er thro the l!ttle per&orate( ,e, ra"e* 'h!%h "early %lose( the pr!%2 hole. I "early l!%2e( !t* a"( s"!&&e( har( at the e"t!%!"# aro,a. 3 The ,other #ot !,pat!e"t a"( "u(#e( ,y ar,. 3 4Ca"'t you see* (o%tor74 4;ut say!"# I %oul("'t* I ,a(e the #!rl 2"eel '!th her a%2s!(e to'ar(s ,e* a"( loo2e( at her %u"t &ro, eh!"( 3 I stro2e( #e"tly the re( sur&a%e o& her /!r#!"!ty '!th ,y 'ette( &!"#er* a"( "early spe"t< a"( the" u"a le '!th (e%e"%y to 2eep up the &ar%e a"y lo"#er* a"( res!st the re5uest o& the ,other to e 5u!%2* I relu%ta"tly let the %he,!se (rop o/er her (ear l!ttle u,. She shoo2 (o'" her %lothes* s,!le( at ,e* a"(
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    le&t the roo, '!th her ,other 3 I rushe( ,y pr!%2 up the 9reat Easter"'s %u"t* al,ost e&ore the (oor 'as %lose(* spe"t* pulle( !t out* pushe( !t up a#a!"* la!( o" her &at elly* push!"# a"( tal2!"# a out ;etsy's %u"t t!ll I spe"t a#a!". The" I #a/e the 9reat Easter" &!/e so/ere!#"s. Ho' ,u%h the ,other ha( o& !t I (o"'t 2"o'* the 9reat Easter" sa!( all. The" I t!ppe( her so,e #ol( e+tra* th!"2!"# 'hat I ha( see" 'ell 'orth the ,o"ey* "ot ho'e/er el!e/!"# her state,e"t. The ,other %a,e a%2 shortly a&ter a"(* 4You'll "e/er ,e"t!o" th!s to a"y o"e '!ll you*4 sa!( she. 4Oh* "e/er ,y #oo( 'o,a".4 3 She sa!( a lot the" a out a( t!,es* ho' #la( she 'as her #!rl ha( "ot #o"e 'ro"# a"( so o"* I 'as #la( to #et r!( o& her* tho she 'oul( ha/e tal2e( e/er so lo"# a out ,y !"/est!#at!o" o& her (au#hter's %u"t* !& I ha( let her 3 4I (o"'t 2"o' 'hat I shall (o '!th her I', sure*4 sa!( she. 4>eople's 'ho's poor a"( has (au#hters* has #reat trou le '!th 'e,*4 she 'h!"e(* 4they ta2es su%h a lot o loo2!"# arter "o'0a0(ays* a"( ho' !s a poor 'or2!"# 'o,a" l!2e ,e to see arter her* ut I', #la( she !s all r!#ht.4 I" a 'ee2 or so I 'e"t to see the 9reat Easter" a#a!"* a"( so ,u%h (oes !,a#!"at!o" a&&e%t ,e !" se+ual ,atters* that I (!( so lar#ely thro th!"2!"# o& ;etsy's /!r#!"!ty< a"( 'h!lst up the 9reat Easter"* !" au(y !,a#!"at!o" I 'as up ;etsy* a"( &u%2e( %all!"# out 'hat a lo/ely l!ttle %u"t she ha(. 3 4I', &u%2!"# ;etsy* I', putt!"# ,y spu"2 !"to ;etsy*4 3 a"( the #reat Easter" e"%oura#e( ,e. The (es!re arose (!re%tly a&ter the %u"t !"spe%t!o" &or 'h!%h the ,other 'as pa!(. )he" I ha( &!"!she( ,y pleasure* I tol( the 9reat Easter" that I shoul( l!2e to see the!r u,s s!(e y s!(e* a"( o& %ourse pro,!se( 'hat 'as 5u!te 'orth her 'h!le to arra"#e &or !t* a"( 'e"t a (ay or t'o a&ter hop!"# &or the s!#ht. ;ut I &ou"( that the ,other 'oul( "ot let the #!rl !"to the lo(#er's roo, s!"%e the "!#ht I ha( see" her %u"t. 3 She 'as "ot allo'e( e/e" to r!"# the ottle( ale 'he" ,e" 'ere there 3 the ,other r!"#!"# !t !" hersel&. I e+pe%t she "e/er tol( her hus a"(. The 9reat Easter" at le"#th ,e"t!o"e( a t!,e a"( (ay 'he" the ,other 'oul( e l!2ely to e out* a"( I the" 'e"t. She #ot the #!rl up* a"( I pro,!se( her hal& a %ro'". The #!rl hes!tate(. 4You l!ttle &ool*4 sa!( 9reat Easter"* 4he's see" your %u"t 3 'ho'll 2"o' !& you (o"'t tell.4 I sho'e( the hal& %ro'" a"( she y!el(e(. 3 The 9reat Easter" put the #!rl o" the e( 2"eel!"#* a"( l!&te( her pett!%oats up o/er her 'a!st* the" she 2"elt hersel& '!th "a2e( a%2s!(e y her s!(e. It 'as a ,ost 'o"(er&ul s!#ht. The hu#e arse as !# as a horse's ut 'h!te* a"( the th!%2 l!ppe( ha!ry %u"t et'ee" the th!#hs* loo2e( as !# as a %o''s< the other (el!%ate l!ttle sl!t loo2e( "oth!"# y the s!(e o& !t. ;ut I ha( ut a /ery short s!#ht o& oth. The 9reat Easter" 'as so &r!#hte"e( o& the ,other %o,!"# ho,e* that lett!"# (rop the!r %lothes* she se"t the #!rl o&& 5u!%2ly. 3 I 'as a'&ully le'e( at the !"spe%t!o"* a"( she'e( the #!rl ,y st!&& pr!%2 as she le&t the roo,. 3 She stoo( loo2!"# at !t. 3 4Feel !t*4 sa!( I* ut the 9reat Easter" pushe( her out. 3 4I', &r!#hte"e( o& the ,other* I o'e so
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    ,u%h re"t*4 sa!( she* 34I (o"'t 'a"t her to 2"o' you'/e ee" here* I', sure the #!rl 'as #o!"# to &eel !t.4 3 Those t'o a%2s!(es s!(e y s!(e I "early 2!sse(. Th!s /oluptuous s!#ht hau"te( ,e so* that o"e "!#ht soo" a&ter I &r!##e( ,ysel& th!"2!"# o& the t'o a%20s!(es s!(e y s!(e. Mu%h as I hate sel&0 ,astur at!o" I %oul("'t res!st !t* so ,u%h (!( the %o"trast a&&e%t ,e se"suously. 3 I (o"'t th!"2 I ha/e ee" &r!##e( s!"%e l!ttle L!11!e (!( !t to ,e. The %o"trast et'ee" her a%2s!(e a"( %u"t* a"( Sarah F..1.r's 'as #reat* ut the hu#e s!1e o& the 9reat Easter"'s ru,p a"( spl!t* ,a(e th!s &ar #reater. 3 ;es!(es that* ;etsy ha( a l!ttle short (ar2 ha!r sho'!"# o" the l!ps* a"( so,e0ho' the s!#ht o& the t'o a&&e%te( ,e ,ore /oluptuously* tho I 'as "ot allo'e( to tou%h or ope" ;etsy's l!ttle 5u!, &or I #a/e a pro,!se to 9reat Easter" that I 'oul( "ot atte,pt that. $#a!" I 'e"t a"( !( so h!#h that the 9reat Easter" arra"#e( to repeat the spe%ta%le 3 the #!rl 'as "ot loath* ha( tal2e( a out ,y pr!%2* a"( I (are say a out e/ery th!"# else* ut oth &e,ales 'ere !" #reat (rea( o& the pare"ts* the 9reat Easter" espe%!ally. She ,a(e ,e pro,!se a#a!" "ot to tou%h the #!rl's &lesh !& she sho'e( ,e her ru,p. I& I (!(* the" she sa!( she 'oul( at o"%e pull (o'" the #!rl's %lothes* a"( put her out o& the roo,. 3 4Ho"or r!#ht* (o"'t #et ,e !"to a ro'* I %a"'t &!"( lo(#!"#s 'h!%h su!t ,e as 'ell.4 3 4)ell* let the #!rl &eel ,y pr!%2* a"( let her see ,e &u%2 you.4 3 I pro,!se( st!ll ,ore ,o"ey &or I 'as ,a( o" ,y let%h* she %o"se"te(* ut the #!rl 'as"'t to e &or%e( to (o !t* or &r!#hte"e( !" a"y 'ay. 4Tho she 2"o's a lot* a"( 'oul( l!2e to 2"o' ,ore* she's !" su%h (rea( o& her pare"ts.4 The ,other s%ar%ely e/er 'e"t out &or ,ore tha" te" ,!"utes e+%ept!"# o" Su"(ays* a"( o" that (ay too2 ;etsy '!th her. 3 $ ,o"th elapse( e&ore the 9reat Easter"* to 'ho, I spo2e !" the street* a"( ha( "a,e( a post o&&!%e 'here she ,!#ht 'r!te to ,e* ,e"t!o"e( a (ay that the ,other 'as #o!"# a lo"# 'ay* to /!s!t her s!%2 s!ster. I 'as at the lo(#!"#s e&ore the t!,e* a"( a&ter a short %hat ;etsy 'as %alle(* a"( &et%he( ottle( ale* the" the 2"o'!"# lass lo%2e( the you"#er %h!l(re" !" the!r roo,s elo' ?she 'as le&t !" %har#e@* a"( %a,e to us loo2!"# 5u!te ,o(est* yet '!th a hal& #r!" o" her &a%e* &or she 2"e' 'hat she 'as to (o a"( #et. 4Loo2 sharp*4 sa!( 9reat Easter" 'ho see,e( a"+!ous* 4&or your ,other ,ay %o,e a%2 soo"* tho !t's "ot l!2ely.4 Tur"!"# she 2"elt o" the e(* I thre' up her %lothes a"( e+pose( her hu#e utto%2s* 'h!%h ;etsy stare( at. 3 4Sho' ,e yours (arl!"#*4 sa!( I. 49et o" the e( 5u!%2*4 sa!( 9reat Easter". I" a"other ,!"ute ;etsy (!(. 3 9reat Easter" pulle( her %lothes up a"( her te"(er a%2s!(e 'as o" /!e'. 3 Ho' I #lor!e( !" the s!#ht o& her s'eet rou"( u, %hee2s* a"( the l!ttle spl!t et'ee" the,. It %erta!"ly 'as a ,ost u"!5ue* l! !(!"ous* lus%!ous spe%ta%le to see the t'o. My pr!%2 stoo(* I pulle( !t out a"( thou#ht o& &r!##!"# ut restra!"e( ,ysel&* a"( '!th (!&&!%ulty restra!"e( ,ysel& &ro, tou%h!"# ;etsy's perso" as I'( pro,!se(* tho "early ,a( to loo2 at her /!r#!"!ty a#a!"* 'h!%h I
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    %oul( "ot see '!th her le#s "early %lose( as they 'ere as she 2"elt* e/e" tho she '!(e"e( the, a l!ttle at ,y re5uest. I %oul( ear !t "o lo"#er. 4$!"'t you see" e"ou#h7 I %a"'t 2"eel a"y lo"#er* the loo('s #ett!"# !" ,y hea(*4 a"( so say!"# the 9reat Easter" #ot o&& the e(* the lass &ollo'!"# su!t. 3 4I'/e "ot loo2e( a ,!"ute.4 4You'/e ee" &!/e ,!"utes a"( ,ore.4 3 I #a/e the lass ,o"ey* she 2ept star!"# at ,y pr!%2. 3 4I'll #!/e you a"other hal& %ro'"* ;etsy< !& you'll &eel th!s*4 po!"t!"# to ,y ere%t!o". She loo2e( at the 9reat Easter" a"( urst out lau#h!"#. 4Shall I*4 sa!( she. 4Yes* I 'o"'t tell* a"( "o o"e '!ll 2"o'.4 3 She stoo( st!ll hes!tat!"# y the s!(e o& the 9reat Easter"* I 'al2e( up to her* 4Feel !t ,y lo/e4 a"(* ta2!"# hol( o& her ha"( I put !t rou"( !t. The" &e,ale %ur!os!ty a"( "ature asserte( !tsel&* a"( 'h!lst e"%oura#!"# her '!th #e"tle las%!/!ous 'or(s* she &elt !t to ,y heart's %o"te"t a"( to her e/!(e"t e"joy,e"t* lau#h!"# !" a lo' to"e all the t!,e* #ett!"# re( !" the &a%e a"( e+%!te(. 3 4$h ,y (arl!"#* you'll ha/e o"e l!2e that up your s'eet l!ttle %u"t o"e (ay* I'( #!/e t'e"ty pou"(s to (o !t to you* My 9o( I', urst!"#* let us &u%2*4 sa!( I to the 9reat Easter". 3 4$ll r!#ht*4 sa!( she 'al2!"# to the e(* she 'as !" her %he,!se. I %alle( her Mary* ut !t 'as "ot her "a,e. The #!rl let #o ,y pr!%2 a"( 'al2e( 5u!%2ly to the (oor* a"( 'as #o!"#. I stoppe( her. 3 4Loo2 at us &u%2!"# (ear a"( I'll #!/e you a"other hal& %ro'".4 3 She loo2e( at the 9reat Easter". 4You ,ay stop th!s t!,e* ut "e/er tell !t to a"y o"e* '!ll you74 I 'as "o' ,a( &or &u%2!"# a"( %oul( th!"2 o& "oth!"# else* the (el!#ht o& sho'!"# the operat!o" to the #!rl 'as !"0te"se. The !(ea o& her loo2!"# at ,y pr!%2 #o!"# up the !# o"e's %u"t* o& sho'!"# ,ysel& "a2e( to her* e+%!te( ,e ,a(ly* a"( I str!ppe( rap!(ly. 4Loo2 ,y (arl!"#*4 a"( l!&t!"# ,y sh!rt I sho'e( ,y tooley'a# !" !ts pr!(e. 4Co,e %lose* you %a"'t see there*4 a"( to the 9reat Easter"* 4Co,e to the s!(e o& the e(.4 4You %a"'t po2e there 'ell*4 she repl!e(. It 'as a !tterly %ol( '!"ter's a&ter"oo"* 'e ha( ut t'o %a"(les a"( the roo, loo2e( (ar2. I st!rre( the &!re to a la1e a"( put the %a"(les o" a ta le y the e(s!(e* to thro' l!#ht o" our &u%2!"#. The 9reat East0er" pla%e( hersel& o" the e(s!(e '!th th!#hs '!(!sh apart* the #!rl stoo( &ar o&& st!ll. 4Co,e here a"( loo2 (arl!"#.4 4Co,e !& you 'a"t to see*4 sa!( 9reat East0er". 3 Slo'ly she %a,e to the e(s!(e. 9reat Easter" the" ho!ste( up her hu#e th!#hs* I pulle( apart the th!%2* (ar2 he(#e( l!ps* a"( slo'ly as ,y !rr!tate( o/er&lo'!"# allo%2s 'oul( let ,e* put ,y pr!%2 up her %u"t* the #!rl loo2!"# ea#erly* her hea( e"t o/er us. So,eho' the &at"ess a"( 'e!#ht o& the th!#hs a"( u, pre/e"te( ,e &u%2!"#. I ha( "e/er tr!e( the e(s!(e '!th her !" that att!tu(e e&ore. 4I tol( you so* %o,e o" the e(* a"( ;etsy '!ll see etter.4 U"%u"t!"# ,e* she ,o/e( hersel& '!th 5u!%2"ess ?her a#!l!ty &or her s!1e 'as really #reat@ o" to the e(* a"( the" upo" her* ,y pr!%2 plu"#e( up her. 3)e tur"e( 'he" pr!%2 a"( %u"t 'ere 'ell jo!"e(* sl!#htly o" to o"e s!(e* a"( she l!&te( the th!#h h!#h up 'h!%h 'as "earest to ;etsy. 3 JVoluptuous"ess !s the
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    joy o& l!&e* as ,u%h to a 'hore !" her hey(ay as a"y o"e else* a"( I "o' &eel sure that the 9reat Easter" e"joye( the !(ea o& the lass loo2!"# o".K Clasp!"# her #!#a"t!% utto%2s I &u%2e(. 4Hol( the %a"(le a"( loo2 ;etsy*4 #aspe( the Easter". 3 Her you"# eyes 'ere #oo( e"ou#h '!thout that* "or (!( she hol( the %a"(le* ut her hea( %a,e "earer a"( "earer to the 9reat Easter"'s a%2s!(e. The" her (ear l!ttle /!r#!" "ot%h '!th the l!ttle &loo( ope"!"# &or her ,e"ses %a,e !"to ,y ,!"( a"( &et%he( ,e at o"%e. >lu"#!"# ,y pr!%2 (eep up the 9reat Easter"'s %u"t* 4I', spe"(!"#* ,y spu"2's %o,!"#*4 I s!#he(. 4Oh 3 &u%2 3 #o o"*4 %r!e( she sha2!"# her hu#e arse* a"( as the le'e( 'or(s so e( out o& our ,ouths* our so&t spe"(!"#s ,!"#le( !" her %u"t* a"( 'e 'r!##le( our #e"!tals slo'ly !" the o/er'hel,!"# (!e0a'ay pleasure o& the (!s%har#e. 4Beep ,y pr!%2 'ell !" you*4 I sa!(* 'he" ,y pleasure 'as o/er a"( 'e 2ept jo!"e(. There stoo( the #!rl* her &a%e '!th!" a &oot o& 9reat Easter"'s arse* "e/er ,o/!"# "or %utt!"# a 'or(* ut #ree(!ly loo2!"#* her eyes star!"# l!2e those o& a 'a+'or2 &!#ure* at the s!(e /!e' o& the 9reat Easter"'s a%2s!(e a"( 5u!,* a"( ,y pr!%2 ste, just sho'!"# '!th !ts alls ha"#!"# out0s!(e the %u"t< a"( so stoo( st!ll ,y pr!%2 &loppe( out. The" she (re' a%2. 3 4)hat (o you th!"2 o& !t* ;etsy74 sa!( 9reat Easter". 3 The #!rl su((e"ly tur"e( her hea( a"( l!ste"e(. 3 4Oh ,y ,other's %o,e ho,e*4 a"( ru""!"# to the (oor* she olte( 5u!%2ly (o'" sta!rs. 4There '!ll e a (a,"e( &!"e ro' !& !t !s*4 sa!( the 9reat Easter"* a"+!ously #o!"# o" to the la"(!"# !" her %he,!se a"( l!ste"!"#. It 'as a &alse alar,. 3 The #!rl %a,e a%2* I el!e/e hop!"# to see ,ore* I 'ashe( ,y pr!%2* ,a(e her &eel !t a#a!"* #a/e her ,o"ey* a"( 9reat Easter" se"t her a'ay. ;au(y 5uest!o"s put to her* she o"ly lau#he( at a"( ,a(e "o reply to. )e %oul("'t #et the #!rl to %o,e up a"( stop a#a!"* tho she &et%he( us ,ore ale. 3 I tal2e( &or a" hour or so* a"( the" as2e( the 9reat Easter" to #a,ahu%he ,e. She ha( "e/er (o"e so e&ore. 3 8o' ,y (es!re 'as &or her to 2"eel o/er ,e a"( su%2 'h!%h she (!(* ut e!"# so tall* her !# ru,p 'as too %lose to ,y &a%e to see !t 'ell. So she la!( alo"# the e( at !ts s!(e* her hea( o" the e(#e o& the p!llo'* o"e &oot rest!"# o" the u"(er th!#h* 'h!%h ope"e( her #ap 'ell to ,y &eel. The" sta"(!"#* I put ,y pr!%2 !" her ,outh* a"( '!th ,y r!#ht ha"( %lasp!"# the sur&a%e o& her &resh 'ashe( %u"t 3 a %o,plete ha"(&ul a"( ,ore !t 'as 3 I #a/e her ,y l! at!o"* a!(!"# the ,o/e,e"ts o& her ,outh* y ,ysel& &u%2!"# !"to !t. 3 It 'as a" e+pe"s!/e a&ter"oo"* tho ;etsy #ot so l!ttle* 3 ut '!th the you"# o"es* hal& %ro'"s #o as &ar as so/ere!#"s. I %oul( th!"2 o& "oth!"# else* a"( 'e"t there a (ay or t'o a&ter'ar(s. ;etsy #a/e ,e a sau%y lau#h* ut the 9reat Easter" 'oul( "ot per,!t ,e a"y l! ert!es< "o ,o"ey te,pte( her* she 'as &r!#hte"e(* &or the #!rl's ,other 'as at ho,e* a"( ;etsy %oul( "ot stay !" the roo, ,ore tha" a ,!"ute. I" that
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    ,!"ute I sho'e( her ,y pr!%2 at 'h!%h she loo2e( le'e(ly. 3 4I& e/er a #!rl 'a"te( &u%2!"#* she (oes*4 sa!( 9reat Easter"* 4she'll #et !t soo" &ro, so,e o"e.4 I 'oul("'t #o to the 9reat Easter" ut ,et her purposely !" the streets* a"( o&&ere( her ,ore to #et ,e the #!rl "a2e( a#a!". Stea(!ly she re&use( t!ll o"e "!#ht a out a &ort"!#ht a&ter* 'he" she tol( ,e that the pare"ts 'ere #o!"# to the s!ster's &u"eral. $t the t!,e arra"#e( I 'as there* a"( all the spe%ta%le 'as repeate(. Sta"(!"# '!th pr!%2 "early urst!"#* 'h!lst the t'o a%2s!(es 'ere e&ore ,e 3 4I ,ust 2!ss !t*4 sa!( I* a"( put ,y l!ps o" ;etsy's l!ttle utto%2s* sp!te o& 9reat Easter"'s o je%t!o". 4Tur" rou"( a#a!"* Mary.4 She (!(* a"( there a#a!" 'ere the t'o a%20s!(es to#ether "early tou%h!"#. Hu!%2 as l!#ht"!"# a let%h %a,e. Tal2!"# to the 9reat Easter" 'ho* '!th hea( o" p!llo'* %oul( "ot see* a"( (!( "ot a"t!%!pate ,y a%t!o"* I &r!##e( ,ysel& rap!(ly* put ,y pr!%2 %lose* a"( spe"t o/er ;etsy's u,* so,e o& ,y sper, h!tt!"# her s'eet l!ttle pout!"# %u"t. $s she &elt !t* the #!rl tur"e( 5u!%2ly rou"(* say!"#* 4Oh.4 3 So (!( 9reat Easter"* a"( see!"# 'hat I ha( (o"e* s'ore #reat oaths* a"( pull!"# ;etsy's %lothes up a#a!"* '!pe( o&& ,y spe"(!"#s to pre/e"t her (!rty l!ttle %he,!se e!"# sta!"e(. Soo" a&ter I u,0 aste( the !# 'o,a" to ;etsy's e(!&!%at!o"* a"( (eparte(. The" I e%a,e so '!l( to &u%2 ;etsy* e"%oura#e( !" the hope y 'hat 9reat Easter" ha( sa!( a out her ett!"# !t (o"e to her soo"* that I o&&ere( t'e"ty pou"(s to #et her. ;ut !t 'as o& "o use. I sa' the #!rl o"%e or t'!%e* ut the 9reat Easter" sa!( the ,other 'oul( "ot "o' let her %o,e !" 'he" I 'as there. 3 The people %oul( "ot pay the re"t* soo" a&ter 'ere tur"e( out* a"( I sa' "o ,ore o& the,. $ "e' la"(la(y %a,e* the 9reat Easter" st!ll lo(#e( there* ut I ha( ha( e"ou#h o& her a"( 0%ease( see!"# her &or a t!,e. I ha( a re%urre"%e o& (es!re to see the roly poly !# %u"t !" the hu#e arse* so %alle( a"( &ou"( she ha( le&t* "or %oul( I (!s%o/er her 'herea outs. 3 $s e/ery >alph!a" 2"e' her 'ell* I as2e( se/eral* ut "o"e 2"e' 'here she ha( #o"e. To o"e I o&&ere( ,o"ey to ta2e ,e to her lo(#!"#s* she too2 ,e to the ol( lo(#!"#s. So,e ,o"ths a&ter I 'as tol( she ha( (!e( o& &e/er !" hosp!tal* a"other sa!( !" pr!so". I 'o"(er 'ho ha( that sple"(!( l!ttle lass. 3 She 'as (oo,e( to e &u%2e( soo". 9reat Easter" sa!( that the #!rl ha( &r!##e( hersel&* ha( sa!( she'( l!2e to e &u%2e(* ut her &ather 'oul( hal& ,ur(er her !& he &ou"( !t out. 3 I (are say a la( o& her o'" %lass (!( her ?a"( su%h as they #et the!r o'" opportu"!t!es@. )hat 'aste o& eauty a"( /!r#!"!ty* 'h!%h ,!#ht ha/e (e0 l!#hte( ,e. Th!s treat '!th ;etsy 'hette( a lust&ul appet!te* a"( (!re%tly I 'e"t to 8elly L..l.e 'ho ha( le&t Ma(a,e S.l.2.s* a"( see,e( poorly o&&. I tol( her that I 'a"te( a you"# #!rl '!th a ha!rless %u"t* a"( 'hat I ha( see" a"( (o"e ?'!thout #!/!"# the sl!#htest !(ea '!th 'ho,@. 3 I (o"'t th!"2 8elly el!e/e( ,e. 3 She 'as "o' 'ell up !" her pro&ess!o" o& stru,pet* ut (!( "ot see her
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    'ay to #et ,e 'hat I 'a"te(* ut she 'as !" (e t a"( !" 'a"t o& ,o"ey* a"( a&ter t'o or three !"ter/!e's* she tol( ,e that Martha's hus a"( 'as a#a!" out o& 'or2* that she ha( a "!e%e '!th her as a ser/a"t* a"( that Martha 'oul( persua(e the #!rl to let ,e (o !t 3 at a pr!%e. I ha( '!th 8elly %o"t!"ue( ,y %usto, o& al'ays #!/!"# #ay la(!es the!r &ee* 'he" they tol( ,e they 'ere poorly* 'hether I po2e( the, or "ot. 3 O"e (ay she e!"# !" that state she ha( &et%he( th!s Martha 3 'ho 'as a r!#ht eye(* (ar2* short!sh* th!""!sh 'o,a"* o& t'e"ty0e!#ht or therea out* 'as the '!&e o& a 'or2!"# ,a"* a"( 'ho (resse( l!2e a ser/a"t. 3 She sa!( she ha( "ot ha( a"y other ,a" s!"%e she 'as ,arr!e(* 'h!%h I (!("'t el!e/e 3 ut she 'as ,o(est !" ,a""er a"( relu%ta"t to let ,e pull her a out 3 I #ot a"#ry* a"( 8elly tol( her "ot to e a &ool. 3 4)ell the"* I 'o"'t let h!, !& you sta"( star!"# at ,e alo"# s!(e o& h!,*4 she urst out. 3 I se"t 8elly out o& the roo, 3 Martha #ot ,ore &ree the"* a"( &elt ,y pr!%2* a"( the" loo2e( le'e(* a"( the" 'e &u%2e(* a"( a se%o"( t!,e. 4Ha/e you spe"t74 sa!( I (ou t!"#ly* tho I thou#ht she ha(. 4Yes* ut (o"'t tell 8ell!e '!ll you.4 $ se%o"# e/e"!"# I &u%2e( her* tho 8elly 'as "ot the" poorly 3 Martha ha( ha( other ,e" s!"%e she ha( ,e she the" a(,!tte(* she 'as"'t #o!"# to star/e* ut (!re%tly her hus a"( #ot 'or2* she'( (o "o ,ore o& the 4(!rty us!"ess.4 8elly sa!( soo" a&ter'ar(s to ,e that they a#a!" 'ere al,ost star/!"#* a"( so she'( sell her "!e%e 3 I thou#ht the #!rl ,ore tha" s!+tee" 'he" I set eyes o" her. 3 4I 'o"'t ha/e her !& she has a"y ha!r o" her %u"t*4 I re,ar2e(. 4She's "ot a !t*4 sa!( 8elly. 3 I sat!s&!e( ,ysel& '!th ,y &!"#er* the #!rl 'as the" str!ppe(* I sat her o" ,y "a2e( 2"ee* sho'e( her so,e au(y p!%tures* the" la!( her o" the e(. 3 She 'as /ery rest!/e a"( 'oul( "ot let ,e see her ha!rless 5u!,* ut persua(e( y the t'o 'o,e" at le"#th (!(. 3 She 'as a /!r#!"* ut s2!""y a"( o"y* /ery pla!"* a"( al,ost u#ly. My pr!%2 'as !" pr!,e or(er* so I tol( the 'o,e" to lea/e the roo,* a"( at o"%e %o/ere( the #!rl* ut she %r!e( out* ,a(e su%h a ro' a"( aul2e( ,e. 4$u"t* au"t* %o,e a%2.4 3 ;a%2 %a,e the t'o 'o,e" 'ho 'ere l!ste"!"#* there 'as a l!ttle a"( 5u!te "atural s%e"e the"* a"( she (e%lare( she 'oul( "ot let ,e* 'oul( rather "ot ha/e the %lothes a"( ,o"ey pro,!se(. 3 >artly persua(e(* partly ull!e( y the 'o,e"* she la!( (o'" a#a!"* a"( the us!"ess 'as o/er !" o"e or t'o %u"t spl!tt!"# thrusts* (ur!"# 'h!%h she ho'le(. 3 She lay 5u!et 'he" &ully ope"e( a"( ,y spu"2 'as &loo(!"# her /a#!"a. I 2ept a lo"# t!,e up her* hol(!"# t!#ht to her s2!""y arse* a"( the" ha( the sat!s&a%t!o" o& &!"(!"# ,y pr!%2 a"( &!"#ers 'ell loo( sta!"e(. 3 8elly a"( Martha oth loo2e( o" at the 'hole pro%ee(!"# at the e(s!(e* ea%h loo2e( at the lee(!"# %u"t a"( the" lau#he(. The #!rl 'ashe( 3 I loo2e( at her la%erate( spl!t* a"( the" al,ost (!re%tly &u%2e( her a#a!". 3 I'/e "o re%olle%t!o" o& her ha/!"# ha( pleasure* ut I 'as so e"#rosse( '!th ,y o'"* a"( a,use( '!th ha"(l!"# her s2!""y u,* 'h!%h
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    see,e( r!(!%ulous a&ter ;etsy's a"( the 9reat Easter"'s arses. J9reat u,s 'ere al'ays ,y (el!#ht* per!o(!%ally.K I se"t out &or sp!r!ts ?they ha( alrea(y (ru"2 ,y '!"e@ a"( 'e tal2e(. 8elly sho'e( her %u"t* $u"t Martha pulle( her pett!%oats up a"( sho'e( hers. 3 4I (o"'t ,!"(* "o' ;ess ?a"other ;ess@ 2"o's 'hat &u%2!"# !s*4 sa!( she. 4$"( she 'o"'t tell her u"%le* I 2"o's.4 She 'as s!tt!"# o" the e(s!(e* a"( ;ess 'as just es!(e her. 4Sho' your %u""y*4 sa!( I. Martha pushe( the #!rl a%2 o" the e( a"( pulle( up her %he,!se* a"( I loo2e(. The #!rl ha( ha( (r!"2 a"( 'as pee/!sh a"( ha( re&use(. 3 8early t'o hours ha( passe( s!"%e I ha( last put !"to the #!rl* a"( I 'as ra"(y a#a!"* her &resh"ess %ause( ,y e+%!te,e"t. 4I'll &u%2 her4 sa!( I. 48o* "o* "o* he sha"'t*4 she shr!e2e(. 48o*4 sa!( au"t* 4you'/e (o"e her t'!%e a"( 'e ,ust #o 3 !t's late a"( ,y ,a" '!ll e ho,e* there '!ll e a ro' !& I', "ot there.4 3 I sa!( I 'as "ot #o!"# to pay &or "oth!"#. 3 I ha( ha( her &!rsts a"( that 'as e"ou#h repl!e( Martha* a"( the #!rl 'as t!re(. 3 8ell sa!( that Martha ,ust #et ho,e* 3 I 'h!spere( !" 8elly's ear a" a((!t!o"al t!p* she 'h!spere( to Martha* 'ho the" tol( the #!rl "ot to e &ool!sh. The #!rl a"( I a#a!" loo2e( at the au(y p!%tures* I ru e( her %l!tor!s '!th ,y &!"#er* ta2!"# %are "ot to put !t lo'er (o'". I ,ust ha/e st!rre( her se"ses. 4Oh (o"'t s!r*4 a"( she put her ha"(s a"( hea( r!#ht o/er the au(y p!%tures o" the ta le* a"( 'r!##le( her l!ttle a%2s!(e o" ,y th!#h. 34Let's loo2 at your (ear l!ttle %u"t.4 4Let the #e"tle,a"*4 sa!( Martha. I put her o" the e(* ope"e( her le#s* her %u"t 'as st!ll sl!#htly lee(!"#* loo( 'as o" ,y th!#h. I la!( y her s!(e a"( &r!##e( her #e"tly* the" tur"e( o" to her* a"( '!th a rap!( lu"#e or t'o I 'as up her %u"t a#a!". 3 She ho'le( a"( 'r!##le( as she &elt the thrust* ut I hel( her t!#ht to ,e y her s2!""y u, a"( (!re%tly she 'as 5u!te plu##e(* she 'as tra"5u!l 3 !t !s al'ays so '!th the, I &!"(. The ha,,er o& the pr!%2 a#a!"st the 'o, "e%2 stu"s the %u"t &or the ,o,e"t* or else rouses the!r lust* a"( pleasure e#!"s to soothe the,. The" I &u%2e( 5u!etly* %o"troll!"# ,ysel& a"( she 'as tra"5u!l. 3 4-oes !t hurt "o' (ear74 4$ l!ttle* s!r.4 3 I 'r!##le( rather tha" stro2e(. 3 48o' (ear74 48o* s!r*4 3 she #aspe(. Slo'ly I &u%2e( o"* ,y pleasure !"%rease(* ,y pr!%2 #ot st!&&er a"( st!&&er* her %u"t t!#hter st!ll. 3 4Is that "!%e (ear74 She ,a(e "o a"s'er* her ,outh 'as '!(e ope"* her reath!"# har(* her eyes 'ere %lose(* her %u"t #r!ppe( ,y pr!%2. 3 She 'as spe"(!"#* a"( the "e+t ,!"ute I spu"2e( !" her. 8elly a"( Martha ha( loo2e( o". 3 4I ,ust #et ho,e '!th her or there '!ll e a (a,"e( ro'*4 sa!( Martha a#a!". 3 I 'oul("'t ,o/e out* &or I 'as a%tually st!&& up her %u"t st!ll* a"( the #!rl lay 5u!et. 3 4)as !t "!%e74 I 'h!spere(. She ,a(e "o reply. 3 My pr!%2 shru"2 out* I tur"e( o" ,y s!(e* a"( she lay 5u!te st!ll loo2!"# up at the %e!l!"#* '!th th!#hs '!(e apart. 3 49et up* "o' (o* 'e ,ust e o&&*4 sa!( Martha. 3 $s the #!rl rose I put ,y &!"#er to her %u"t* there 'as sl!#ht loo( o" ,y &!"#er. The #!rl p!sse(* I p!sse(* the" 8elly a"( Martha
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    p!sse(. 3 4)e'/e all p!sse(*4 sa!( I. The 'o,e" lau#he(* the #!rl 'ashe( her %u"t* a"( Martha hurr!e( a'ay '!th her. 3 8elly 'ho ha( sat "early "a2e( '!th &ol(e( ar,s u"t!l the"* %a,e a"( sat o" a stool at ,y &eet as I sat !" a" easy %ha!r* a"( e#a" play!"# '!th ,y %o%2. 3 She al'ays &elt !t u"0as2e( 'he" 'e 'ere to#ether. 3 She 'oul( t'!((le !t '!thout stopp!"# &or hours. 3 She sa!( she al'ays (!( so '!th her &r!e"(s* she l!2e( the &eel o& a %o%2. )e tal2e( a out &u%2!"#. 3 4-o !t to ,e*4 sa!( she* 4loo2!"# at you all e/e"!"# has ,a(e ,e so ra"(y. 3 It ,a(e Martha ra"(y* (!("'t you hear her say 'he" you 'ere (o!"# ;etsy* that she '!she( you 'ere (o!"# her74 3 I %erta!"ly ha( "ot. 4-o ,e.4 4I %a"'t !& I try.4 4You %a"* !t's st!&& "o'.4 4Su%2 ,e &!rst.4 8elly o eye(* she ha( 'ell lear"t that art 3 I re/elle( !" her su%t!o" a"( s'elle( out st!&&* ut &elt that I %oul("'t spe"(. 3 4I& you 'o"'t (o ,e I ,ust &r!# ,ysel&*4 sa!( she* a"( lea/!"# o&& su%2!"# she la!( her hea( o" ,y th!#h* '!th her ,outh a#a!"st ,y %o%2 a"( e#a" &r!##!"# hersel& har(. 3 4Lay o" the e( s!(e*4 sa!( I. 3 '!th ala%r!ty she 'e"t there* a"( la!( '!th '!(e (!ste"(e( th!#hs* a"( #ap!"# %u"t. She 'as eaut!&ul !" &or, the"* so plu,p* so rou"(* so %o,pa%t* her la%2 ,otte she'e( up et'ee" her 'h!te th!#hs a"( plu,p* s!l2 %la( le#s. 3 I (!("'t 'a"t !t ut 'as st!&&* so thrust !t up her. 3 I" a ,!"ute she 'as spe"(!"# e&ore I ha( a se"sat!o". 3 I &u%2e( o" t!ll I &et%he( her a#a!"* a"( the" spe"t ,ysel&. 3 4I tol( you you %oul(*4 sa!( she. It 'as the &!rst t!,e I e/er re%olle%t see!"# 8ell le'e(ly &r!# hersel&* a"( %ha&&e( her a out !t. She 'as 5u!te le'e( a"( e&ore I le&t &r!##e( hersel& r!#ht out* a&ter as2!"# ,e to &u%2 her a#a!" 3 'h!%h I %oul("'t* a"( 'oul("'t e/e" try to (o. Martha a"( 8elly ha( t!pple( '!th 'hat I ha( rou#ht the,* a"( 'hat I ha( se"t out &or* a"( "o' 8ell 'as 5u!etly oo1y. She "e/er 'as "o!sy* 'as the 5u!etest o& #!rls* ut 'as "o' %o,,u"!%at!/e. 3 She thou#ht the #!rl 'as Martha's "!e%e ut 'as"'t sure. She 'as a" !,pu(e"t you"# o"e 3 Martha %oul("'t 2eep her out o& the streets* a"( ha( %au#ht her '!th a !# oy* a lo(#er's so"* a"( 'as e!"# &elt y h!,. 3 Martha %oul( s'ear h!s ha"( 'as up her %lothes a"( she 'as "early sure that she 'as &eel!"# h!s %o%2. 3 She a"#e( her hea( &or !t a#a!"st the 'all. 3 Martha's hus a"( al'ays &u%2e( Martha o" Su"(ays a"( ha( sa!( that so,e ra##e( arse( you"# u##er 'oul( (o !t to the #!rl so,e "!#ht 'he" she &et%he( the eer* &or she 'as hot arse( l!2e her ,other a"( 'as sa&e to e #ay. I arra"#e( to ha/e the #!rl a#a!". 3 O" the (ay appo!"te( she "e/er %a,e* tho I 'e"t a#a!" th!"2!"# !t stra"#e* &or 8ell lost ,o"ey thro !t. 3 $ susp!%!o" the" 2ept ,e &ro, %all!"# there* a"( I 'a!te( &or 8ell at "!#ht !" the streets. 3 She tol( ,e !t 'as 'ell I ha( le&t that (ay* &or just a&ter* Martha a"( the #!rl's &ather 3 or so,e ,a" 'ho sa!( he 'as 3 ha( %o,e to #et ,o"ey out o& ,e* &or the #!rl ha( tol(. 3 8ell ha( 5uarrelle( '!th Martha a out !t. 3 I "e/er ha( or sa' Martha a&ter* "or the #!rl u"t!l a year ha( #o"e* 'he" a out ,!((ay* I sa' her !" C./..t.y Street '!th a"other you"# !t%h. I too2 her to a au(y house a"( &u%2e( her r!#ht o&&. She ha( st!ll a per&e%tly al( %u"t* "ot a
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    ha!r /!s! le* a"( 'as s2!""!er a"( u#l!er tha" e/er. She tol( ,e she 'as s!+tee"* a"( (!( "ot re%o#"!1e ,e at &!rst. She ha( "o' all the ,a""ers o& a ra1e" &a%e( l!ttle 'hore. $s she 'ashe( her %u"t* she all at o"%e stoppe(* loo2e( %ur!ous* a"( sa!(* 4You 2"o' 8elly L..l.e.4 48o.4 Loo2!"# at ,e stea(!ly* 4-o"'t yer 3 (a,"e( !& you a!"'t the ,a" 'ho &!rst &u%2e( ,e.4 48o.4 4You are* a"( you "e/er #a/e ,e a"y ,o"ey tho you pro,!se(* #!/e !t ,e "o'.4 4Ho' lo"# ha/e you ee" #ay74 48ot lo"#* a"( !t's your &ault.4 3 I ra"# the ell a"( the au( %a,e. 34Th!s #!rl's a us!/e*4 sa!( I ?she e%a,e so@* 4you'( etter stop her.4 3 She (!( "ot 2"o' her. 3 4I el!e/e you (o* a"( ha/e put her up to !t* a"( ha/e a #oo( ,!"( to ,a2e !t hot &or your house.4 4)hat &or*4 sa!( the #!rl. 4;e%ause you are threate"!"# a"( 'a"t to ro ,e.4 4You ly!"# u##er*4 sa!( the #!rl. 4You're a #e"tle,a" I suppose*4 sa!( the 'o,a". 3 I 'e"t a'ay '!thout say!"# a"other 'or(* o"ly thro'!"# (o'" the ,o"ey I'( pro,!se( the #!rl. 3 O" lea/!"#* the 'o,a" 'as allyra##!"# her* a"( tell!"# her she 'oul( "ot let her !"to her house a#a!"* !& she 'as "ot s5uare '!th #e"tle,e". I sa' the #!rl a out the streets a&ter'ar(s &or a year or t'o* 'hether she sa' ,e or "ot I %a""ot say.

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    Chapter PIV Fe,ales rea(y* a"( ,ale opportu"!t!es. $"other a(ultery. O" the h!#h'ay. Coster,o"#ers a"( hu%2sters. Mrs. . . . ,et. Su##est!/e tal2 !" a 5u!et street. The ser/a"t se"t out. Mysel& let !". O" the so&a. Up the la(y. O" the e(. $ &la%%!( (oo(le. $ #a,ahu%he. >e"!s re(!/!/us. $lar,e( $t a house soo" a&ter. Fears tears &eel!"# &u%2!"# &r!##!"# a"( #a,ahu%h!"#. The la(y's h!story. $ ,!((le0 a#e( hus a"(. Fa%e* &or,* a"( %u"t. My l!2!"# &or #a,ahu%h!"#. Se5uel. J$ year or t'o e&ore th!s t!,e as alrea(y sa!(* I e#a" a#a!" to a/a!l ,ysel& o& opportu"!t!es '!th 'o,e" 'ho 'ere "ot #ay* ut I ha( ,a"y h!"(era"%es !" these a,atory %hases. 3 The %ha"%es 'ere ,a"y as I sa' '!th %learer eyes tha" e/er* ut %!r%u,sta"%es* o&te" the r!s2* pre/e"te( ,y &ollo'!"# the, up. Most ,e" I e+pe%t #et su%h opportu"!t!es* &or there are ple"ty o& %u"ts hu"#ry a"( ath!rst &or a ,ale< yet ,e" &or 'a"t o& t!,e or ,o"ey let the, sl!p* or else ha/!"# o"e &e,ale rea(y at all t!,es to re%e!/e the!r sper, reser/o!rs* are %o"te"t '!th that.K O"e Satur(ay "!#ht a out se/e" o'%lo%2 !" early '!"ter o& th!s year* 'al2!"# throu#h a ,a!" thorou#h0&are lea(!"# to the outs2!rts o& Lo"(o"* I ha( a %ha"%e o& a 'o,a" "ot #ay* a"( a%te( upo" ,y !"te"t!o" o& "ot thro'!"# a'ay o"e 'h!lst ,y /!r!l!ty re,a!"e( !" &or%e. It 'as a '!(e roa( '!th a #oo( throu#h tra&&!%* yet "ear to a poor "e!#h ourhoo( o" e!ther s!(e o& !t* a"( 'here y a"%!e"t %usto, o" Satur(ay "!#hts* the %arr!a#e'ays "e+t to the 2er sto"es are &!lle( '!th %oster,o"#ers' arro's* hu%2sters' stalls* a"( pur/eyors o& #oo(s o& all sorts &or the poor. 3 The &oot'ays 'ere %ro'(e( '!th pur%hasers* a"( 'ere r!#ht '!th #as at the shops* a"( petroleu, la,ps o& the hu2sters. The shout!"# o& the sellers* the tra,p o& &eet* a"( the roll o& /eh!%les ,a(e al,ost a (ea&e"!"# "o!se. 3 $,use( I 'at%he( the %ro'(* a"( 'h!lst (o!"# so ,et a &a!rly 'ell (resse( 'o,a"* see,!"#ly a out t'e"ty0&!/e years ol(* tall!sh a"( stout* a"( loo2!"# !" her '!"ter's #ar 'ell o&&* 'ho slo'ly ,o/!"# alo"#* see,e( to e also 'at%h!"# the usy ,ult!tu(e o& poor people. $t a #la"%e I sa' she 'as ha"(so,e* ha( "!%e so&t eyes* (ar2 ro'" ha!r* a"( a s'eet* s,all* re(0l!ppe( ,outh. She %au#ht ,y eye a"( &ro, her loo2 I sa' that I please( her. She stoppe( to loo2 at a stall* so (!( I* a"( sta"(!"# y the s!(e o& her a /oluptuous thr!ll start!"# e!ther &ro, ,y ra!" or allo%2s* ra" throu#h ,e. )as she #ay* or ,o(est* or #a,e* a"( 'hat %ha"%e ha( I* &lashe( throu#h ,y ,!"(. I ,o/e( %lose to her t!ll ,y ar, tou%he( her* as o"e ,ay (o !" a %ro'(. $s she 'al2e( a'ay she loo2e( ,e &ull !" the &a%e* a"( stoppe( soo" at a"other stall 'here they sol( toy '!"(,!lls 3 I (!( the sa,e. 004They are /ery pretty*4 sa!( I. 4Yes*4 she repl!e(* loo2!"# at ,e. 4I'll uy o"e &or your %h!l(re".4 4I
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    ha/e"'t a"y*4 a"( she lau#he(. The" al,ost tre,0 l!"# as I sa!( !t* ut ,y pr!%2 'as rous!"# ,y se+ual !,pu(e"%e* 4-!( you e/er try to #et a"y74 4)hat's that to you*4 sa!( she* a"( #!/!"# ,e a" asto"!she( stare yet lau#h!"#* she 'al2e( o&&. Thou#ht I* that's the ,a""er o& a hot %u"te( o"e* a"( I ha/e set her th!"2!"# a out &u%2!"#. I &ollo'e( %lose to her* pol!tely &or%!"# ,y %o"/ersat!o" o" her ut "ot o" that top!%. She '!ll!"#ly e"tere( !"to !t* altho at &!rst 5u!te s!le"t* the" loo2!"# ,e &ull !" the &a%e. 3 ;ut e/er a"( a"o" she loo2e( rou"( restlessly* a"+!ously* a"( o" the oppos!te o& the 'ay as 'ell. I e#a" a#a!" tal2!"# a out %h!l(re". 3 It 'as 'ell to a/o!( ha/!"# the, I re,ar2e( 4I (are say you ha/e a lot*4 sa!( she 4I 2"o' ho' to #et* a"( ho' to pre/e"t #ett!"# the,.4 She lau#he(. 3 )e 'ere y that t!,e "early at the e"( o& the thro"#e( part o& the roa(* a"( 'here !t 'as (ar2er I tol( her ho' eaut!&ul she 'as* a"( as2e( !& I ,!#ht see her ho,e. 4See ,e ho,e7 Oh: "o tha"2 you* #oo( "!#ht*4 a"( she tur"e( (o'" a s!(e street a ruptly. There 'as so,eth!"# !" her ,a""er* 'h!%h ,a(e ,e &a"%y that at that ,o,e"t lust 'as st!"#!"# her %u"t* so I &ollo'e(. 4Meet ,e a"other "!#ht* tell ,e your "a,e a"( a((ress.4 3 She hes!tate(. 49!/e ,e a 2!ss e&ore 'e part.4 4)hat "e+t* s!r* you* a per&e%t stra"#er* I', surpr!1e( at your !,pu(e"%e.4 The" she sa!( she 'as ,arr!e(. 3 4$h 'hat a lu%2y ,a"* 'hat 'oul( I "ot #!/e to e ,arr!e( to you* try a"other hus a"( &or a l!ttle t!,e.4 3 8o' I ha( ,y rutt!"# !,pu(e"%e o" a"( a st!&&e"!"# pr!%2. She (a'(le( "o'* a"( I #uesse( y that* that ,y tal2 please( her. The streets 'ere here "arro'er* '!th s,all ut s!+0roo,e( houses !" the,* "ot 'ell l!#hte(* "o shops* s%ar%ely a"y tra&&!%. I #ot to le'e( h!"ts 'h!%h '!thout %oarse la"#ua#e 'ere yet u",!sta2a le. She lau#he( suppress!"# !t* a"( the"* 4)hat 'oul( your '!&e say !& she hear( you74 4)hat 'oul( your hus a"( say !& he 2"e' 'e 'ere tal2!"# a out &u%2 3 #ett!"# %h!l(re"*4 3 stopp!"# short at the 'or( &u%2 purposely* as !& !t ha( es%ape( ,e a%%!(e"tally. 3 4You're "ot a #e"tle,a"* #oo( "!#ht*4 a"( she 'al2e( o" rap!(ly. So (!( I* &eel!"# "o' re%2less* e##e( her par(o"* sa!( that her eauty ha( ,a(e ,e so lo"# &or her (!re%tly I ha( spo2e" to her* that I %oul( th!"2 o& "oth!"# else. 48o' (o"'t &ollo' ,e I', just ho,e* a"( ,ust"'t e see" tal2!"# to a ,a"* ,y "e!#h ours ,ay see ,e*4 a"( she stoppe( &ull u"(er a #as la,p* star!"# at ,e &ull eyes. 4My 9o( ho' ha"(so,e you are* (o ,eet ,e to,orro'* your hus a"( "ee("'t 2"o'.4 4He's a roa(*4 sa!( she* 4 ut I (are "ot 3 pray lea/e ,e.4 4I '!ll !& you'll 2!ss ,e.4 4I 'o"'t s!r.4 3 She 'al2e( o"* stoppe( et'ee" the la,ps 'here !t 'as (ar2er* a"( (!re%tly a pe(estr!a" ha( passe( us I #a/e her a 2!ss sp!te o& her sha, res!sta"%e. 3 4Oh let ,e ha/e you* or ,y pr!%2 '!ll urst.4 3 Th!"2!"# I shoul( "ot su%%ee(* I resol/e( that I ,!#ht as 'ell !"(ul#e !" le'e( uttera"%es as "ot. I %oul( ut lose a %ha"%e*
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    a"( there !s al'ays pleasure !" say!"# 'or(s o& lo/e or lust to a stra"#e 'o,a". 3 4Oh: you're (!s#ra%e&ul*4 sa!( she* !" a lo' to"e o& /o!%e. Ho' I '!sh I %oul( e+per!e"%e a &e,ale's %u"tal a"( ,e"tal se"sat!o"s* as (es!re &or a ,ale e"ters her ra!" a"( o(y. I 2"o' that o"e o& the results !s a ,o!ste"!"#* &or I ha/e &elt ,a"y a %u"t 'he" (es!re 'as %o,!"# o". 3 Mrs. ...'s %u"t I e+pe%t 'as !" that state "o'* &or she 'al2e( o" /ery slo'ly* a#a!" as2e( !& I 'as ,arr!e(* the" !& I l!/e( a out there* a"( at last a&ter a lo"# a"( see,!"#ly thou#ht&ul s!le"%e* 4I& you %o,e !" '!ll you pro,!se "e/er to %all a#a!"*4 sa!( she* !" a" a#!tate( ,a""er. 3 I pro,!se( e/eryth!"#. 34)e l!/e o/er there* 'a!t here* 'he" you see a ser/a"t %o,e out* 'at%h t!ll she's tur"e( the %or"er* the" %o,e* I'll lea/e the (oor ope"* ut I', o"ly #o!"# to %hat '!th you ,!"(. 3 8o "o"se"se ,!"(. I& the ser/a"t (oes"'t %o,e out* you ,ust #o.4 Her ,a""er 'as "er/ous* a#!tate(* hurr!e(< e&ore she ha( ee" 5u!te %o,pose(. I thou#ht she 'as #o!"# to !l2 ,e* ha/!"# ee" hu,0 u##e( thus e&ore y ,ore tha" o"e* a"( as2e( her "a,e 'h!%h she re&use(. Say!"# a#a!" that I 'as (y!"# &or her 3 she %rosse( the roa(* e"tere( the house a"( the (oor %lose(. F!/e ,!"utes passe( 'h!%h see,e( to ,e a 5uarter o& a" hour* &or I 'as !" a &e/er o& !,pat!e"%e* '!l( '!th lust* th!"2!"# o& ,y %ha"%e o& her h!((e" %har,s* the" that she "o' 'as &ool!"# ,e* a"( 'h!lst (el! erat!"# 'hether I shoul( r!s2 2"o%2!"# at her (oor* !t ope"e(* a ser/a"t appeare(* tur"e( the %or"er o& the street* a"( !" a ,!"ute I 'as !" the house '!th the la(y. She ha( her o""et a"( %loa2 o&&* a"( 'as a stout %o,ely 'o,a"* at a #uess t'e"ty0e!#ht years o& a#e. 4You ,ust"'t stop lo"#*4 sa!( she* 4,y ser/a"t's o"ly #o"e o" a" erra"(*4 3 a"( she sat (o'" o" a so&a. The roo, 'as %o,&orta le* o& the sort 'h!%h espo2e a" !"%o,e o& a &e' hu"(re(s a year* "ot a !t o& the &lash arra"#e,e"t o& a #ay 'o,a"'s roo,s. 4)hat (!( you 'a"t to %o,e !" here &or*4 sa!( she '!th that hu, u##!"# sha, 'h!%h a 'o,a" %a" put o"* as !& she (!("'t 2"o' 'hat I ha( %o,e &or* a"( 'hat she ha( let ,e !" &or. 3 She ,ust ha/e 2"o'". 8o t!,e 'as to e lost* so I plu##e( at o"%e. 4My lo/e* to &u%2 you*4 a"( !" a se%o"( ha( ,y ha"( et'ee" the l!ps o& her "!%2. 4Oh (o"'t*4 she %r!e( lou(ly* %los!"# a pa!r o& &at th!#hs o" ,y ha"(* ut "ot t!#htly* 4you sha"'t (o that.4 3 ;ut ,y &!"#ers "e+t ,o,e"t 'ere ru !"# her %l!tor!s* "o' &eel!"# the ,outh o& the a/e"ue* !" a"other she ha( hol( o& ,y pr!%2 !" her l!ttle ha"(* a"( st!ll say!"#* 4Oh (o"'t* you sha"'t*4 our l!ps jo!"e(* s!le"tly 'e 'ere ha"(l!"# ea%h other's &u%2!"# apparatus* t!ll her th!#hs ,o/e( restlessly* a"( ,y pr!%2 'as at &ur"a%e heat. The" #e"tly I pushe( her a%2 o" the so&a* a"( !" a "ot /ery %o,&orta le pos!t!o"* ,y pr!%2 'as she((!"# !ts pearly l! at!o" !"to her spe"(!"# %u"t. $h: 'hat Elys!u, to #rasp the u"2"o'" s,ooth utto%2s to plu"#e ,y ur"!"# pe#o up to !ts alls !" the %u"t o& a" u"taste( eauty* to hear her #e"tle s!#hs a"( ,ur,urs* as the hot spu"2 thro s out !"to her hot
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    th!rsty /a#!"a< a"( the" to settle (o'" tra"5u!lly '!th pr!%2 !" the /!s%os!ty o& our spe"(!"#s* th!"2!"# o& 'hat 'e ha( (o"e to#ether a"( 'hat 'e ha( (o"e !t '!th* t!ll the shr!"2!"# !,ple,e"t o& ,y pleasure %o,es out o& hers* that %u"t so t!#ht* ut "o' loose a"( surre"(er!"# so,e o& !ts l! at!o"* as the (el!%!ous %o"ju"%t!o" o& our o(!es !s ro2e". 3 Su%h 'as ,y pleasure '!th %har,!"# Mrs. . . . three "!#hts a#o. So&as !" s,all houses "o' are "ot l!2e those o& th!rty years a#o* o" 'h!%h I ha/e stro2e( ,a"y a 'o,a". 3 $s ,y pr!%2 le&t her %u"t I arose* a"( she rushe( rap!(ly upsta!rs. I" t'o ,!"utes she retur"e(. 4You'/e 'ashe( that lo/ely %u"t.4 3 She lau#he(. 4Let ,e see !t.4 4Oh "o.4 3 Ho' o&te" I ha/e hear( that sa!(* ut !t a/a!le( "ot the spea2er. She sat o" the so&a. 4I '!ll see !t*4 sa!( I. 3 She re&use(. The" 2"eel!"# su((e"ly* I pushe( up her pett!%oats* a"( ur!e( ,y ,outh et'ee" her %lose( th!#hs* 2!ss!"# the, up'ar(s t!ll ,y "ose ,et the %r!sp ha!r o& a &at so&t ,otte* 'h!lst ,y ha"(s ,ou"te( to her plu,p utto%2s. The" '!thout res!sta"%e I pulle( her to the so&a's e(#e. $ll &elt to l!ps a"( "ose so &resh* so (a!"ty* so ,o!st &ro, the 'ash!"#* a"( s,elt so s'eet 'h!lst ,y ,outh 'as there* so (!( the aro,a o& her healthy %u"t rouse ,e* that (!ste"(!"# her th!#hs* ,y l!ps ,et the %l!tor!s. Out the" 'e"t ,y to"#ue* #l!(!"# rap!(ly to a"( &ro o/er the sl!ppery #r!stly proje%t!o". 4Oh you (!rty ,a"*4 she %r!e(. $ll 'o,e" "ot stru,pets say that at the &!rst #a,ahu%he. ;ut she surre"(ere( hersel& to the lus%!ous e+er%!se* a"( her /oluptuous se"sat!o"s. I l!%2e(* t!ll &eel!"# a #e"tle 5u!/er!"# o& her th!#hs a"( a%2s!(e* I %ease(* "ot '!sh!"# to ,a2e her spe"(. )!th ,y pr!%2 st!ll ha"#!"# out I sat (o'" es!(e her* a"( #u!(e( her ha"( to !t* st!ll st!%2y as !t 'as '!th our spe"(!"#s. She ha"(le( !t loo2!"# at ,e '!th hu,!( lust&ul eyes. 3 4Let ,e 'ash !t*4 sa!( I* 'a"t!"# to #et her to her e(roo,. 4I', so &r!#hte"e( o& ,y ser/a"t %o,!"# a%2.4 4Se"( her out a#a!" !& she (oes.4 3 )e 'e"t to her e(roo,* o" the &loor 'as the as!" !" 'h!%h she'( r!"se( ,y l! at!o" out o& her %u"t. It 'as a %o,&ort0a le roo, '!th a lar#e e(* the #asl!#ht ur"!"#. I %leare( o&& the e/!(e"%es o& our pleasure &ro, pr!%2 a"( alls* a"( sa!( 'e'( (o !t o" the e(. 4Oh "o 3 !& ,y ser/a"t sees the e( ru,ple(.4 4-o"'t let her 3 I '!ll see your lo/ely th!#hs a"( %u"t*4 so say!"# I #ot ,y ha"( et'ee" her th!#hs* a#a!" sta"(!"# up as 'e oth 'ere* a"( she let ,y &!"#ers ta2e the!r &or,er pla%e '!thout h!"(ra"%e. M!stress M. .. 'as hot %u"te( a"( "o ,!sta2e* I sa' !t !" her #reat lu,!"ous ,o!st eyes* 'h!%h loo2e( at ,e !" lo/!"# ,a""er. I %a" tell that e+press!o" !" the, st!ll ,ore %learly* "o' that I 'r!te th!s. The /oluptuous e+press!o" stru%2 ,e stro"#ly. 3 >resse( y ,e she ,ou"te( the e(* say!"# that I really ,ust "ot stay lo"#* ut 'he" s!(e y s!(e &eel!"# ea%h other's #e"!tals* I &ou"( I 'as "ot rea(y &or the e"%ou"ter* ha/!"# o"ly (!s%har#e( ,y se,e" a &e' ,!"utes e&ore. Th!s u""er/e( ,e &or a ,!"ute* &or her %u"t 'as rea(y* a"( she ea#er &or &u%2!"# as !t see,e( to ,e.
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    Spe"(!"# t!,e !" pra!s!"# her eauty* 2!ss!"# a"( &eel!"# her %u"t* I thou#ht o& #a,ahu%h!"# her* tho ,y let%h &or that ha( su s!(e(. So 2"eel!"# et'ee" her th!#hs* 2!sse( her ,otte* a"( settl!"# ,y to"#ue o" her l!ttle %l!tor!s* e#a" the l!"#ual a,orous #a,e* #ett!"# ,y ha"(s u"(er her a%2s!(e* to l!&t !t up a"( &a%!l!tate !t. 3 4Oh 3 (o"'t you (!rty ,a"*4 she jer2e( out* ut her %u"t !" !ts (el!#ht s!le"%e( her. The la(y l!2e( the l!%2* her th!#hs '!(e"e( out* her %u"t rose up !"/olu"tar!ly* "ature 'as o" ,y s!(e* restless her th!#hs #ot* her elly a"( u, #a/e l!ttle jer2s* the" her %u"t presse( up to ,eet ,y ,outh. 3 4$har 3 rr 3 oho 3aharr 3 har 3*4 a t!#ht #rasp o& the ha!r o& ,y hea(* the" 5u!et"ess o& th!#hs a"( elly* a"( a salt &lush o/er ,y to"#ue* tol( ,e she ha( spe"t. Flushe( '!th th!s /!%tory* !"&la,e( y taste* s,ell* a"( &eel o& her &at &ull l!ppe( %u"t* prou(ly ,y pr!%2 rose up to (uty* a"( s%ar%ely 'as her o(y tra"5u!l a&ter her spe"(* tha" (ropp!"# o" to her elly* ,y pr!%2 'as ur!e( up to !ts root !" her* #lory!"# !" !ts po'er* e"joy!"# the ,o!st so&t pressure* ut "ot !,pat!e"t &or e+er%!se !t lay e"joy!"# the %ar"al t!"#le a'h!le* a"( !" 5u!et %o"%up!s%e"%e 'e tal2e(* !" the short se"te"%es 'h!%h alo"e I %a" the" utter. 4Your %u"t's lo/ely* (!( you l!2e ,y l!%2!"# !t7 -o you &eel ,y st!&& pr!%2 !" your %u"t7 3 ho' st!&& !t !s. 3 It '!ll spe"( !" !t soo".4 4Oh 3 oh 3 oh*4 she ,ur,ure( at ea%h le'e( phrase. ;ut 'h!lst st!ll (ally!"# '!th ,y pr!%2* !t 'as #ett!"# less !" her. 4Oh: !& ,y ser/a"t shoul( %o,e ho,e.4 3 $ se"se o& th!s poss! !l!ty ur#e( ,e* a"( thrust!"# har(* a"#!"# ,y pr!%2 t!p a#a!"st her 'o, * (ash!"# ,y alls a#a!"st her utto%2s* t!ll respo"s!/e her elly hea/e( up to ,!"e* her th!#hs %l!ppe( ,!"e* a"( hea/!"# a"( s!#h!"#* 4$ha 3 aha 3 ahar 3 ar 3ar*4 'h!lst I so e( out ,y &u%2!"# slo#a"* 4&u%2 3 spu"2 3 pr!%2 %u"t 3 % 3 hu"t*4 I &!lle( her spl!t a#a!" '!th sper,. She rose hurr!e(ly* e+%!te(ly* say!"# I ,ust #o* I really ,ust. 4For 9o('s sa2e (o"'t #et ,e !"to trou le. I', ,arr!e( 3 Really I a, 3 he's a roa(. 3 )ell ,y "a,e's ... 3 you'( &!"( !t out y as2!"#* ut &or 9o('s sa2e "e/er %o,e here a#a!". 3 I& you're a #e"tle,a" you 'o"'t* '!ll you7 I '!ll ,eet you o" Thurs(ay "e+t !& you'll o"ly #o "o' 3 #o at o"%e. 3 -o 3 pray "o'.4 3 $ll sa!( so a"+!ously that I hast!ly 'e"t. She al,ost pushe( ,e to the (oor* loo2e( out* sa' "o ser/a"t* a"( a'ay I 'e"t* th!"2!"# all the e/e"!"# I'( ee" !" lu%2* a"( that !t 'as o"e o& the 5u!%2est !ts o& &u%2!"# I'( e/er #ot '!th a ,o(est 'o,a" !" all ,y l!&e. 8e+t (ay I &elt prou(* yet /e+e( '!th a(ultery* e0 l!e/!"# her to e really ,arr!e(. It see,s ,y &ortu"e &or ,arr!e( 'o,e" to &all !"to ,y arse* tho I o je%t to !t a"( al'ays (!(. Yet I 'rote '!th &e!#"e( ha"( a"( &alse "a,e* t!,e a"( pla%e &or the ,eet!"# o" Thurs,u%h /!s!te( y ,e* y 'h!%h I ha( "ot e"tere( &or "ot %o,e. I ha( pa!( &or a roo, at a house &or,erly (ay* a"( 'e"t there th!"2!"# a"( hal& hop!"# she 'oul( so,e years.
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    She ,et ,e a"( soo" 'e 'ere !" s s"u# e(roo,. 3 There she l!&te( her /e!l a"( 'as %ry!"#. She ha( "ot spo2e" !" the street. 4I'/e %o,e* ut I 'o"'t let you (o a"yth!"#.4 48o"se"se* 'hy (!( you %o,e74 4To e# you "e/er to #o "ear ,y house a#a!"* I'/e ee" so &r!#hte"e( e/er s!"%e. Ho' I %a,e to let you !" I (o"'t 2"o'. 3 I', sure I shall e &ou"( out*4 3 a"( ,u%h ,ore 'as sa!( o& the sa,e sort* '!th ,u%h e+%!te,e"t a"( '!th tears. $t &!rst I 'as upset* ut re%o/er!"#* ar#ue( '!th her* sa!( that I'( "e/er #o "ear her house* that th!s shoul( e our last ,eet!"#* ut "o' 'e 'oul( (o !t* "o o"e %oul( poss! ly 2"o'. She re&use(* I tr!e( to #et ,y ha"( up her %lothes* ut she res!ste( stro"#ly. 3 4O"ly to &eel !t* let ,e* that's "ot &u%2!"#.4 ;ut she 'oul("'t. The" sta"(!"# up* I pulle( out ,y ru y t!ppe( pe#o* st!&& as a hor"* urst!"# '!th (es!re* a"( po2e( !t to'ar(s her &a%e as she sat. 4Let ,e* let ,e* (ear* o"ly o"%e* let ,e ru !t a"( o"ly spe"( et'ee" your th!#hs* I 'o"'t put !t !" your %u"t 3 &eel !t* a"( let ,e o"ly &eel that lo/ely %u"t I'/e &u%2e( 3 &r!# ,e the".4 3 Thus I 'e"t o"* ra!s!"# au(y !,a#ery !" her ,!"(* 2!ss!"# her* e"(ear!"# her* st!,uat!"# her se"ses* s!tt!"# y her s!(e* try!"# e/ery "o' a"( the" to &eel her 5u!,* ut '!thout su%%ess. I ha( rou#ht "o '!"e '!th ,e as I usually (o o" su%h o%%as!o"s* ut se"t &or sherry* the &!"est they %oul( #et a"( "ot to ,!"( the pr!%e. It %a,e* Mrs. M. . . too2 t'o #lasses o& !t* her tears ha( (r!e(* her &ears su s!(e( as 'e tal2e(. She tol( ,e that her hus a"( 'as ,a"a#!"# %ler2 to a ,er%ha"t* a"( ha( #o"e a roa( to the!r a#e"%y< she'( "e/er ee" le&t alo"e e&ore. He 'as &!&ty0 &!/e* she t'e"ty0s!+* her relat!/es thou#ht !t a #oo( ,at%h so she ,arr!e( h!,* tho he 'as so ol(. He 'as a #oo( ,a". 4He &u%2s you*4 sa!( I. 4He (oes 'hat hus a"(s (o*4 she repl!e(* 4ho' I %a,e to let you !" I (o"'t 2"o'* I'/e ee" !" &ear e/er s!"%e. 3 You'll "e/er %o,e "ear ,e a#a!" '!ll you74 I& she sa!( th!s o"%e she (!( a (o1e" t!,es t!ll I 'as s!%2 o& hear!"# !t* a"( at le"#th "ot #ett!"# a &eel o& her 5u!,* sa!(* 3 4)hy (!( you %o,e here !& you (!("'t ,ea" to let ,e (o !t74 $" hour ha( #o"e !" e##!"#* a"( atte,pt!"#* a"( at last I &elt her %u"t. The" she too2 her o""et o&&* the" too2 a"other #lass o& '!"e. 3 The" I &r!##e( her a !t* the" she ha"(le( ,y tool 'h!%h settle( her< her lust 'as rouse(* her %u"t %ra/!"#* se"sat!o"s o& /oluptuous (el!#ht 'ere %ours!"# thro her o(y a"( ra!"* a"( she ,ou"te( the e(. 3 Up I thre' her pett!%oats* a lo/ely pa!r o& 'h!te th!#hs parte(* ,y elly ,et her* pr!%2 a"( %u"t jo!"e(* a"( ,y l! at!o" ,!"#le( '!th her l!5u!(s !" tra"sports o& pleasure. 8e/er (!( 'o,a" e"joy a &u%2 ,ore* ut her a"+!ety a out #ett!"# '!th %h!l( 'as #reat. She u"%u"te( ,e soo". 4Oh #et o&& 3 pray (o*4 a"( rushe( to 'ash. 3 She'( "e/er ee" '!th %h!l(. 4;ut I ,!#ht 3 ,!#ht"'t I74 I %oul("'t say "o 'he" I thou#ht o& the ,a"y 'ho ha/e as%r! e( pater"!ty to ,e< !" so,e %ases truly e"ou#h. Hea/!ly I ha/e ha( to pay &or that %u"t splash!"# '!th ,y sper,* ut !t 'as 'orth pay!"# &or. The hea/e" o& l!&e !s &ou"( et'ee" a

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    'o,a"'s th!#hs* 'o,e" ha/e all the a&ter trou le* 'e "o"e* a"( 'e ou#ht to pay &or all the trou le 'e #!/e* all 'e e#et. She'( (o"e the (ee( o& (ar2"ess '!th ,e a#a!"* a"( l!2e all the others u"(er s!,!lar %!r%u,sta"%es* 'as rea(y to let ,e (o !t ,ore. For a ,!"ute o"ly ha( I see" her th!#hs a"( ,otte* a"( "o' !"s!ste( o" see!"# all !" e/ery 'ay. I r!s2e( the sheets* !"(u%e( her to %o,e to e(* a"(* !" %he,!se a"( sh!rt o"ly 'e la!( s!(e y s!(e* l!, s !"terla%!"#* ha"(s #rop!"# a"( &eel!"#* %o%2 a"( %u"t 'a!t!"# the!r "e+t !"tro(u%t!o" to ea%h other. )e tal2e( o& &u%2!"#* a"( "oth!"# ut &u%2!"# a"( se+ual pleasure. 8e/er she (e%lare( ha( she ee" #a,ahu%he( e&ore* 2"e' o& !t* her s!ster's hus a"( ha( (o"e !t to her s!ster* her o'" hus a"( "e/er to her. He 'as a '!(o'er 'he" she ,arr!e( h!,* a sta!( ,a"* /ery &o"( o& her* &u%2e( her o"%e a 'ee2* !& t'!%e !t 'as o" Su"(ays a&ter %hur%h. 3 I ha/e a" !"0te"se %ur!os!ty a out the 'ays o& ,e" '!th the!r '!/es* a"( "e/er &a!le( to as2 a out the, o& the &r!s2y ,atro"s 'ho, I ha/e &u%2e(. 3 Most o& the, a/o!( the su je%t* th!s eauty (!("'t. She 'as a &!"e* so&t ha1el eye( 'o,a"* &ull* &leshy* a"( !"%l!"!"# to stout"ess* '!th &ull reasts* ut short o"es 'h!%h (!("'t ha"#* '!th lar#e th!#hs a"( utto%2s* a"( th!%2 "ot /ery sy,,etr!%al %al/es. 3 Her elly 'as lar#e a"( a,ple* her %u"t ha( roly0poly l!ps* yet "ot the pouters o& a s2!""y 'o,a". The &urro' et'ee" the, 'as (eep* a"( '!th a 'ell (e&!"e( %r!,so" l!"e (o'" hal& 'ay &ro, a &ull!sh %l!tor!s* a"( there the re( 'as lost. The "y,phae 'ere s,all a"( pretty 3 !& there e su%h a th!"# as pretty "y,phae. 3 -ar2 ro'" ha!r* (ar2er tha" that o" her hea( %o/ere( a /ery &ull &at ,otte* !t 'as a ha"(&ul* a /er!ta le p!"0%ush!o". The ha!r #re' less a"( less a"( %ease( alto0 #ether o" the l!ps to'ar(s the lo'er or utto%2s e"( o& her %u"t* a"( "ot a /est!#e o& ha!r 'as o" her utto%2s "ear her u, hole* &or %ur!ous* I pulle( the %hee2s apart to see* 'h!%h el!%!te(* 4)hat are you (o!"#74 It 'as !" r!e& a &at* &ull* 'ell (e/elope( %u"t* lar#!sh !" appeara"%e. I pra!se( !t a"( sa!( I'( see" a thousa"(. 3 4Oh: 'hat a '!%2e( story*4 sa!( she. The"* &or I 'as "ot rea(y* a"( so,eho' #a,ahu%h!"# a "!%e 'o,a" 'ho !s "ot a stru,pet pleases ,e at t!,es ,u%h ,ore tha" &or,erly 3 I #a/e her a spe"( y the sole a!( o& ,y to"#ue. 3 The" I &u%2e( her a#a!". The" !" e( 'e oth slept a 'h!le* the" she ha( &ears a"( %r!e( a !t. The" a&ter repose* I &r!##e( her as st!ll she lay !" e( '!th ,e. There !s so,eth!"# so e+%!t!"# to ,y se"ses !" a "!%e 'o,a" 'ho !s a stra"#er to ,e* that I essaye( ,y po'ers a#a!". $ lo"# jo !t 'as* tho &or &!/e (ays I ha( 2ept ,ysel& %haste. My %o%2 ha( ha( e"ou#h at the th!r(* ,y alls 2ept a%2 the!r alsa,* a"( I "early at o"e per!o( o& the e+er%!se thou#ht o& a(,!tt!"# ,ysel& a &a!lure. Ho'e/er I su%%ee(e( a"( #a/e her a &ourth &u%2!"#* tho the la(y I th!"2 'ette( ,y %u"t ra,,er ,ore tha" the ra,,er 'ette( her %u"t. 3 ;ut the la(y 'as %o"te"te(. Tal2!"# '!th her a&ter I'( &r!##e( her* she sa!( her hus a"( ha( "e/er (o"e that to her. 3 4Lor 3 he's 5u!te a 5u!et ,a"* ut he's /ery #oo( to ,e.4 The" I
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    hear( that he'( settle( a l!ttle ,o"ey o" her 'he" they ,arr!e(* to pro/!(e &or her !" %ase o& h!s early (eath. 4Oh: I', !" su%h &ear o& !ts e!"# &ou"( out. 3 )hat ,a(e ,e tal2 to you a"( let you* I (o"'t 2"o'.4 4You'( "ot ee" &u%2e( &or a ,o"th a"( 'a"te( !t a(ly.4 4Oh "o* that !t 'as"'t.4 3 She 'a!te( '!th ,e t!ll 5u!te (ar2* &r!#hte"e( o& e!"# see" #o!"# out o& a" 4!,proper house4 as she %alle( !t. )he" she le&t 'e ha( ee" there so,e hours* ha( (ru"2 "early t'o ottles o& '!"e* a"( eate" "oth!"#. I 'as 5u!te &u%2e( out a"( t!re(* "ot e!"# 5u!te so you"# "o'* a"( she see,e( the sa,e. O& %ourse I "e/er %alle( at the house a#a!"* "or (!( I (es!re her* tho the te,porary %o""e%t!o" ha( ee" ,ost pleasa"t. ;ut I (ro/e past the house a %ouple o& years a&ter a"( out o& %ur!os!ty e"5u!re( at a a2er's %lose y* !& a"y o"e o& the "a,e l!/e( there. I &ou"( that they (!(. ;ut altho that set ,y %o%2 st!&&e"!"# a !t* I shoul( ha/e ee" a la%2#uar( ha( I sou#ht her* a"( ha( "o (es!re to &!#ure !" a (!/or%e %ase. Th!s 'as a "!%e l!ttle /ar!ety !" ,y a,ours. Ho' !t %a,e a out e/e" "o' asto"!shes ,e a l!ttle* ,u%h as I 2"o' o& the u"e+pe%te( %o"se5ue"%es o& ,utual lust o" a ,a" a"( 'o,a" thro'" to#ether y a%%!(e"t. It ,ust ha/e ee" that a ,o"th's a st!"e"%e ha( le&t her so &ull* that ,eet!"# ,e just 'he" a 'a/e o& lust heate( her %u"t* she #a/e 'ay to opportu"!ty a"( ,y !"%!te,e"ts. >erhaps %ur!os!ty playe( !ts part* a"( she lo"#e( to see 'hat a"other ,a"'s pr!%2 %oul( (o. I hope she has"'t tr!e( a th!r(* &or that ,!#ht r!"# her to #r!e&. ;ut a se%o"( pr!%2 they say ,a2es al'ays a 'o,a" lo"# &or a th!r(. $ 'ell 2"o'" au( o"%e sa!( that to ,e as her e+per!e"%e. E8- OF VOLUME EI9HTH.

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