SpRel 1992 ihMdI pik A m Ak Ait

DmvAfI
ipyo g BAvnIyo, vAA c vcnEKmo
gBIrM c k TM k AA, no cAne inyojye

jo k yAfim h, vh iAy, grvAlI, SAdrfIy,

suvEtA Sr vcnsihfu hotA h; gMBIr bAtA k o btAnevAlA
Sr bure k AmA m nh lgnevAlA hotA h

ivsuimg 3-61.

aese Te gurdev !
St Aif
goyk A, SASo tuh clnA isKAaM! gurdev k I
k rfABrIpr cAk AdenevAlI vAfI m k oqQ GuxnA cltA iu to
TA nh gurdev clnA EyA isKAyge BlA! pr scmuc clnA hI
isKAyA ivpyI yogI k se cle, yh isKAyA
m mhIne ke lMbe iivr m bXA TA ivpynA k I jo
ghrAqyAM ds-ds idnA ke iivrA m SnuBUt huqQ T, ve Sb
iCClI lgne lg scmuc DmQ ik tnA ghn gMBIr h! ijs BMg
An k I SvTA ATm ds idvsIy iivr m AAA ho gyI, vh
SAge jAk r shj bn gyI prtu ds idn k I lMbI SAnApAn ke
pcAt jb ivpynA SArMB k I to jo BMg SvTA SAyI, vh
SpUvQ TI rIr k A XospnA phle hI smAA ho cuk A TA, pr Sb
bAt ku C Sr hI TI DArA-AvAh k I SnuBUit jo ik phle bzI
sUm lgtI TI, Sb SiDk sUmtA AAA k r lene pr vh TUl
lgne lgI SAiKr TUl-sUm to sApe hI h ak k I SpeA
sUm to dUsre k I SpeA TUl pUy gurdev ne vAtivk tA deKI
Sr smyAnusAr clnA isKAyA bzA St SnuBv TA
clte hua rIr m k h-k h sMvednA k I SnuBUit k rte hua
Siny boD pux k rne k A k Am to phle BI hotA TA, prtu Sb
ijn ghrAqyA m sy-dQn k rte hua clnA isKAyA gyA, vh to
scmuc hI bzA St TA rIr k I mmy SvTA ik n ghrAqyA
se icmy ho gyI smgR rIr ke vl prmAfuSA k A puMj, ijsm
virt git se yy BMg hone ke SitirEt Sr ku C nh mn
dyvTu pr ixk A huSA hr k dm ke sAT smgR rIr-pz ke
ivGxn k A SnuBv k r rhA TA mAno ndI tx k A k oqQ retIlA k gAr
ndI ke tej bhAv se k x k r BrBrAk r igr pzA ho sBI retIle
k f Slg-Slg ho ga hA mAno tej SAMDI se reigtAnI bAlU k A
xIlA wz gyA ho ak -ak bAlU-k f ibKr gyA ho clte hua
smgR rIr k I ivpynA qtnI gMBIr ho sk tI h, qsk I phle
k pnA BI nh TI EyA KUb clnA isKAyA gurdev ne!
aese hI ak idn Bojn k rnA isKAyA ivpynA k I vsI
hI ak gMBIr BMg SvTA m k hA, clo SAj tuh KAnA
isKAaM!
qs bAr cAk A nh, pr ik sI gMBIr SnuBUit k I wsuk tA
ila wnke sAT BojnAlA phucA hmeA SAm m pUy gurdev
ke sAT hI bXk r Bojn ik yA k rtA TA SAj BI wnk I Bojn
k I ck I ke sAmne hI SiBmuK hok r bXA TAlI m Bojn pros
idyA gyA gurjI ne ak KAlI FyAlA mgvAyA Sr k hA ik

roixyA ke Coxe-Coxe xuk ze k rke qsm zAl do aesA ho cuk ne pr

Sb qs TAlI m sAg, sjI, dAl, dhI, BAt qyAid sUKA yA
gIlA, Xos yA trl, KA yA mIXA, nmk InyA k slAjo ku Ch
wse qs FyAle m zAlk r imlA lo sunA TA k qQ iBu qsI Ak Ar
imlAk r Bojn k rte h pr ivpyI Bojn k I bAt to Sr BI
inrAlI TI k xore m Bojn k o pUrI trh imlA lene ke pcAt
gurjI ne k hA, Sb SAMK bMd k rke yAn k ro gMBIr BMg
An k I sADnA se wXk r SAyA TA BMg An m se BojnAlA
tk clk r SAyA TA St: SAMK bMdk r yTABUt scAqQ k A
yAn k rte hI deKA ik sArA rIr nh-nh prmAfuSA k I
BMg-vBAvI tIvR BurBurAhx k I SnuBUit se Br wXA
ku C der bAd gurdev ne k hA, SAMK bMd rKo Sr sAmne
rKe FyAle m se ak k r Bojn wXASo! Bojn k o CUte hI lgA
jse Bojn ke prmAfuSA m ibjlI k Ak rMx ho, jo SguilyA ke
prmAfuSA ke k rMx se CU gyA tIvR JnJnAhx huqQ wnke
SAdeAnusAr Bojn k A gRAs muh k I Sor le gyA jse hI hoXA
k olgA, iP rtIvR JnJnAhx k ISnuBUit huqQ Sb cbAte smy
hoXA pr, msUzA pr, jIB pr, muh k I BItrI dIvArA pr
jhAM-jhAM Bojn k A pQ hotA, vh-vh tIvR JnJnAhx
Bojn k A vAd gf ho gyA yh JnJnAhx k A SinyboD
AmuK ho gyA inglne lgA to vse hI gle m, Sr gle se wtrte
hua SAhAr-nilk A m, vsI hI SnuBUit hotI rhI yA ak -ak
gRAs, ak -ak gRAs KAte hua Bojn pUrA huSA to gurjI ne
ivAm k rne ke ila k hA wsI BMg SvTA m clte hua Spne
invAs pr SAyA Sr ibtr pr lex gyA SAMK bMd T, mn
BItr TA Bojn ke prmAfu-puMj k ArIr ke prmAfu-puMj ke sAT
hote hua SAGAt-AitGAt k Aivic SnuBv TA pex k Iak -ak
hln-cln bhut sAP -sAP mhsUs ho rhI TI qske sAT Zer ke
Zer prmAfuSA k I budbudAhx k A BMg An aesI St ivpyI
Bojn k I SnuBUit se inhAl ho wXA
qske pUvQ Bojn ke Ait ghrI SAsVEt rhA k rtI TI
ivek r imcQ-msAlA vAle cxpxe Sr tle hua pdATo ke Ait
qs dIGQ iivr ke bAd vh SAsVEt SnAyAs hI xUx gyI Sb
sAde sAVvk Bojn k I Sor hI SiBric bZne lgI phle to
mAno KAne ke ila jItA TA Sr Sb jIne ke ila KAnA SA
gyA rIr k o sbl-vT rKk r SyAm ke e m wsk A
wpyog k rnA h qs inimA u sAVvk SAhAr k I
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SAvyk tA h, St: gRhf k rnA h, pr jIB ke vAd ke ila

nh
BlA isKAyA Bojn k rnA gurdev ne!
St prIf
ivpynA sADnA k I ghrAqQyA m wtrnevAlA iviBA
sMvednASA ke Ait sMvednIl hotA clA jAtA h phle to Spne
rIr k IsImASA ke BItr hI, prtu SAge cl k rBItr ke yAn
ke bAd bAhr ke ik sI sjIv-injIQv yVEt, vtu ke Ait; yhAM
tk ik vAtAvrf k ItrMgA ke Ait BI sMvednIl hone lgtA h
ik sI ak ds idvs ke iivr m hm donA sVmilt hua
dsv idn sAyM sAt bje ke SAs-pAs iivr smApn huSA Gr se
bce hm lene SAa k ttA ke BAvA se SiBBUt hok r pUy
gurdev ke crfA m pMcAMg nmnk r wnk I mMgl mI lek r jAne
lge to whAne bcA se pUCA EyA re, SAj ke Kel k I ixk x
iml?
bcA ne k hA, hAM
tuhAre mAtA-iptA ke ila BI ixk x l?
bcA ne iP r vIk itmy wAr idyA gurdev ne Ku hote
hua k hA, jdI jASo, Kel u hone k A smy ho rhA h
k Arm bXte hua hmne bcA se pUCA, k nse Kel k IbAt
ho rhI TI? whAne k hA, hAlIze SAn SAqs wn idnA rMgUn
m, Smeirk A se SAqQ ak ny AdQnI kM pnI ke Kel-tmAe cl
rhe Te Kule mdAn m bne ak mMc pr bPQ jmAk ryh ny mMzlI
ws pr ke xg k A Kel idKAtI TI ijn grm deA m k BI bPQ
nh igrtI, vhAM qs Ak Ar k I ke xg logA ke ila nvIntA k A
SAk Qf lek r SAyI TI bmAQ m yh Kel phlI bAr SAyA TA
St: dQk A k IBIz TI bcA ne SigRm pMVEt k Iixk x phle se
irjvQ k rvA lI T m jAntA TA ik vhAM k sA gMdA vAtAvrf
hogA St: pUC bXA ik hmArI ixk x EyA lAa? tuh deKnA TA
to deK SAte prtu yh sunk r ivmy-cik t rh gyA ik qsk A
SAde vyM gurjI ne idyA h ivvAs nh ho rhA TA, gurjI
aesA SAde EyA dete? scmuc SAm se ink lte-ink ltewhAne
bcA se pUCA BI to TA pr aesA EyA?
ds idvsIy gMBIr sADnA ArA tpoBUim ke inmQl
vAtAvrf m tpte hua SttQm k IAgAZ AAMit k ISnuBUit ila
sIDe Gr jAte to wsk ASsr Gr ke vAtAvrf pr CA jAtA sb
k A k yAf hotA gurdev k o yh EyA sUJI? aese prm pAvn
bRAI vAtAvrf se ws Gor pAtk I nArk Iy vAtAvrf k I Sor
EyA Zke lA BlA? ku C smJ m nh SA rhA TA pr k rte EyA!
Gr lxne k I bjAy ws bP IQle kR IzAMgn k I Sor cle sArI
ku isQyAM dQk A se KcAKc BrI T lgA brP pr ke xg deKne
to k m, prtu wn hem-ke Iy pVcmI nyAMgnASA k I SDQnn
deh-yVx deKne ke ila SiDk log SAa Te qsIila Kule mdAn
m BI vAtAvrf GuxnBrA TA hm ijn ku isQyA pr bXe Te, vh XMze
bP IQle mMc se sxI huqQ T, iP rBI gmIQ k Itpn se jI GbrA rhA
TA sArA vAtAvrf vAsnA k I gMD se burI trh boiJl TA
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yuvAvTA k A ak dr TA jbik rMgmMc ke Ait bzA

SAk Qf rhA k rtATA sAmAy SAk Qf hI nh, ghn SAsVEt
TI ivpynA ke iivr-pr-iivr lete hua ik sI iivr m ak
SnuBUit qtnI ghrI huqQ ik yh SAsVEt sAMp k I purAnI ke culI
k Itrh shjBAv se wtr gyI SAk Qf ivk Qf m bdl gyA
inveQd m bdl gyA gurdev qs bAt k oKUb jAnte h iP ryhAM
EyA BejA BlA? SAm se sIDe Gr jAte, SpnI tpyA k Apuy
sb k o ivtrf k rte! ik tnI AsAtA hotI!
aese ctn m mn zubik yAM lgA rhA TA, qtne m tAilyA
k IgzgzAhx ke bIc SDnMgI ntQik yA k Iak lbI k tArbPQ
jme mMc pr ke xg k rtI huqQ sAmne SAyI dQk A ke mn
SAAidt Te pr mne deKA ik qs GuxnBre vAtAvrf m
k AmvAsnA k I gMD Sr tIvR ho wXI SAMK jlne lg, jI
mtlAne lgA k h vh wxI n ho jAy bgl m bXI DmQpnI
k I Sor deKA to wsk A BI burA hAl k h beho hok r igr n
pze ijs ATm pMVEt m hm bXe Te, wsm smAj ke Snek
AitVXt log bXe Te, ijnm se ik tne hI pirict Te hmArI
vjh se k h k oqQ betuk A sIn n KzA ho jAy, logA k A
SAmod-Amod ik rik rAn ho jAy St: donA IGRtApUvQk bAhr
ink l SAa bce ku C n smJ pAa ve BI hmAre sAT-sAT
bAhr ink lSAa IGRtApUvQk k Arse Gr phuck rcn k IsAMs
lI donA ke donA hI SyMt SiAy SnuBUityA m se gujre,
ijsk I yAd BulAa nh BUltI der tk BItr hI BItr Siny
boD pux hotA rhA wn ntQik yA Sr dQk A ke Ait mIBAv
jAgtA rhA
dUsre idn sAyMk AlsdA k IBAMit SAm phuce gurdev k o
nmk Ark rbXte hI whAne pUCA, k lk ASnuBv k sArhA?
hmne SApbItI k hsunAqQ gurjI bhut AsA hua whAne
k hA,mne qsIila tum donA k oBejA TA muJe yh deKnA TA ik
tum donA bAhrI vAtAvrf ke Ait ik tne sMvednIl ho ga ho!
yhAM k I tIvR pAvn trMgA se ink lk rvhAM k I tIvR dUit trMgA
m jAte hI donA k A Str SiDk px mAlUm hotA h Sr tb
wn Sku l trMgA ke Ait jAgA inveQd SiDk blAlI hotA h
wsk A SAk Qf jzA se ink l jAtA h
AsA muA m whAne k hA, SCA huSA, donA sP l hua
sADu! sADu!! sADu!!!
hmne BI mn hI mn sADuvAd idyA Dy h aese St
gurdev!
aesI hI ak Sr GxnA
ik sI ak iivr m m Ske lA hI sVmilt huSA TA
pAirvAirk ijmedAiryA ke k Arf DmQpnI Gr pr hI rhI prtu
iivr smApn ke idn sAyMk Al muJe lene SAyI k ttApUfQ
vMdnA ke pcAt jAne lge to gurdev ne SAde idyA sIDe Gr
mt jAnA phle vezgon pgozA jAk r Smuk mUitQ k o nmk Ar
k rnA tb Gr jAnA
SjIb sA lgA aesA SAde phle k BI nh idyA TA

iP r BI yh smJk r cle ik ws idn vAle ny-kR IzAMgn deKne

jAne se to yh k h SCA hI h
vezgon pgozA ke cArA Sor P le ivAl AAMgf pr Snek
mVdr bne h, ijnm sk zo bumUitQyAM h ijs ik sI m
AsAmQy jAgA, wsI ne KAlI jgh deK k r k oqQ mUitQ TAipt
k rdI sidyA se aesA hotA rhA St: CoxI-bzI Snek mUitQyAM h
vhAM
gurdev ne bze ivtAr se smJAyA ik hm k n sI sIiZyA
se cZk rAAMgf ke ik sBAg m, ik smMzp m, ik sidAiBmuK,
k n sI mUitQ k o nmk Ar k r Gr lx
vezgon ke ivAl cy ke tle BgvAn bu k I ke -DAtu
AitVXt h St: sAre vAtAvrf k I trMg vBAvt: suKd h,
qsm k oqQ sMdeh nh pgozA ke cArA Sor VTt ivAl pirkR mA
AAMgf se lgBg ph Pu x WMcA ak KulI CtnumA cbUtrA h
ijs pr se pgozA k A inmAQf SArMB huSA h qs KulI Ct pr
jAne k IsIiZyA pr tAlA lgA rhtA h prtu xVxyA se GinxtA
hone ke k Arf ku C Sy sADk A k I BAMit mere ila BI yh tAlA
ydA-k dA Kol idyA jAtA TA bhut bAr sAyMk Al ws Ct ke
piv vAtAvrf m ak AMt sADnA k A rsAvAdn k r cuk A TA
St: gMBIr sADnA ke bAd vezgon jAk r nmn k rnA mAns k o
burA nh lgA
pirkR mA AAMgf pr phuck r jo TAn gurjI ne btAyA Sr
ijs mUitQ k A hvAlA idyA TA, wse ZUMZk r vh phuce bzI
ApUvQk nmk Ar ik yA prtu yh EyA? phle hI nmk Ar m
yA lgA jse rIZ k I hI m ik sI ne ipGlA huSA IA ZAl idyA
ho pIX Sr k mrqs k drSk z gyI ik Juk AhuSA isr wXAnA
muVk lho gyA jse-tse bhut blpUvQk tIn bAr nmn k rke Gr
lxA deKA DmQpnI k A BI burA hAl TA pr wsk A to subh
hote-hote XIk ho gyA, mere ila rAt ijs pIzA m bItI, idn BI
wsI Ak Ar Sk znBrI pIzA m hI bItA yip Siny boD ke
sAT smtA bnAa rKne m stt AynIl bnA rhA
ws idn sAyMk Al jb gurjI k I sevA m phuce to wh
Juk k rAfAm k rnA k iXn ho gyA, iP r BI mnobl se tIn bAr
nmn ik yA
gurjI merI Sor deKk r jor se hse Sr pUCA, EyA huSA re!
m cup rhA gurjI ne iP r pUCA! m iP r cup
bPQ pr nMge nAc k I ak Jlk mA deKk r jo burA hAl
huSA TA, wsk AyorA to bzI jdI k hsunAyA TA, prtu Sb to
bzA SsmMjs TA gurjI jmt: b Sr sBI bA k IBAMit
wnk I BI vezgon ke Ait SpAr A BVEt k se k hUM ik vhAM
ke vAyumMzl se pIizt huSA wh ik tnAburA lgegA qsila bol
n sk A St: mn rhne ke isvAy k oqQ cArA nh TA
cnk pz jAne se k mr ijs Ak Ar Sk z jAtI h, vsI
Sk znBrISvTA gurjI deK rhe Te whAne hsk rAosAhn dete
hua pUCA jo BI SnuBv huSA ho, vhI btA sMk ocn k r
mne k hA gurdev merI k mrSk z gyI ho sk tAh k oqQ

moc SA gyI hogI

nh re, k oqQ moc-voc nh yh vhAM Juk ne k A
pirfAm h sADu! sADu!! sADu!!! iivr smAA hote hI mne tuJe
vhAM qsIila BejA TA ik tU vAtAvrf k I trMgA ke Ait ik tnA
sMvednIl huSA h, yh jAMcUM hAlIze SAn SAqs ke Kel m ho
sk tA h ik terA mAns pUvAQgRh se ABAivt hok r yAku l huSA
ho prtu yhAM pUvAQgRh ho to BI sk ArAmk hI hogA St:
tuhArI sMvednIltA k I shI prIA ho gyI
prtu gurdev! vezgon k I KulI Ct pr m bhut bAr
yAn k rne bXA hUM bhut suKd Sr sUmtm SnuBUityAM huqQ h
mMidr ke Snek BAgA m BI Snek bAr gyA hUM, pr aesA SiAy
SnuBv to k BI nh huSA qs bAr aesA EyA huSA?
Mk A k A smADAn k rte hua whAne smJAyA SCe se
SCe vAtAvrf vAle e m BI k oqQ TAn aesA ho sk tAh, jhAM
bAr-bAr mlI trMgA k A Ajnn hote rhne ke k Arf AdUf bZ
jAy
EyA ws mUitQ ke sAmne ak pTr rKA huSA TA?
whAne pUCA muJe yAd SAyA hAM ndI ke bhAv m iGsA huSAsA
8-10 qMc ke yAs k A ak SngZ pTr vhAM pzA TA
hAM, BgvAn bu k I mUitQ k o nmn k rte hua mne qsI
pTr pr SpnA mATA xek A TA
gurjI ne hste hua btAyA, qs TAn pr log
SpnI-SpnI lok Iymnok AmnAaM pUrI k rne ke ila yAcnA k rne
jAte h SpnA mnorT pUrA k rne ke ila qs pTr k owXAte h
yid vh hk Alge to mnorT is hogA, BArI lge to nh aesI
lok mAytA h aese TAn k A sArA vAtAvrf rAgmyI trMg
Ajnn k rnevAlA h jo SAa, vh tfA hI jgAaegA rAg hI
jgAagA jm-jmAMtrA ke Bv-sMk ArA ke boJ k o wtArtA
huSA vItrAgtA k I ghrI ivpynA sADnA k rke qtnA hk Apn
mhsUs k rke gyA huSA yVEt ws vAtAvrf m se gujregA to
wse aesA BArIpn lgegA hI svQTA ivprIt vBAvvAlI trMge
k hAM vItrAgtA k I pAvn trMge Sr k hAM rAgmyI dUit trMg
tum pIizt hua prtu Siny boDke SADAr pr smtA bnAa
rKne k I k oi k rte rhe clo, tuhArA prIf sP l huSA
gurdev bhut AsA Te scmuc Dy h! aese St gurdev Sr
Dy h! wnke aese St Aif! prIf! Dy hua hm jo aese
st k I sMgt se k yAflABI hua
DmQpu
s. nA. go.