Sepi.

Sepanjang jalan di mobil hitam itu sunyi. Tidak ada yang cukup berhasrat untuk bersuara. Seseorang
dengan sabuk pengaman yang terikat baik, duduk diam di kursi depan. Seperti yang lainnya, dia pun
tidak bersuara. Hanya meta nya yang memandang kosong jalan melam yang berlalu cepat.
Tidak ada suara, seperti semuanya menahan nafas mereka. Mencekik diri mereka sendiri. Seakan
semuanya berusaha terbangun dari mimpi yang tidak mereka inginkan.
Tidak ada seorang pun yang bersedia mnegur, menyapa, ataupun mendekat ke pintu kayu yang terkunci
seketika sesampainya mereka di apartemen.
Mereka mungkin memang sudah tau, apa yang ada di balik pintu yang terkunci itu. Mereka tau, hanya
orang itu yang tidak sempat bersedih, saat mereka kembali ke backstage. Hanya orang itu yang cukup
tegar untuk berdiri sendiri dengan piala mereka. Hanya orang itu yang tidak sempat menangisi apa pun.
Mereka tau.
jadwal rehasal kita berikutnya, itu besok sore kan?.
Suara nya stabil dan tenang. Itu membuat semua penghuni apartemen yang tidak biasa sunyi,
ketakutan.
iya, itu besok sore -- Kau mau kemana?. Suara menejer malah terdengar panic. Ketika seorang itu
keluar dari kamar itu, nerjalan tenang kea rah pintu keluar.
jangan berbuat yang aneh-aneh!.
tenang!. Aku tau apa yang aku lakukan. Aku adalah seorang pemimpin!.
Dengan itu, dia menutup pintu berteknologi canggih. Meninggalkan orang-orang yang kebingungan dan
cemas dibelakang.
Quiet.
Along the way in the black car was silent. Nothing is quite eager to made any sound. Someone with a
safety belt attached neatly, sat quietly in the front seat. Like the others, he did not make a sound. Only his
eyes agonizing the night streets, which passed quickly .
No sound, like everyone hold their breath. Strangled themselves. As if all of them trying to wake up from
a dream they do not want.
No one is willing to speak nor steps closer to the wooden door, which was locked immediately once they
were in the apartment.
They probably already know, what is behind the locked door. They know, he is the one that are not given
the time to grieve, when they returned to the backstage. Only one, that are strong enough to stand alone
with their trophy. The only man who could not cry over anything.
They know.
" Our next schedule, it's tomorrow afternoon , right? . "
His voice was steady and calm. It made everyone in the unusually silence room, chilled in fear.

"Yes , that's tomorrow afternoon - are you going ? . " Manager 's voice sounded even panic . When the
said came out of the room and calmly walked towards the exit.
" Do not do weird thing! We already in tr-- "
" Quiet !. I know what I'm doing. I am a leader !. "
With that, he closed the technologically advanced door. Leave people confused and anxious behind the
automatically locked door.
The rain-bearing wind took charge of my body
My insecurity spread out to you
One stem of sunlight
In the dark flower blood comes
Inside my heart is my love for you
It is enough but,

Angin malam itu cukup dingin, sepertinya hujan baru saja membasahi tanah itu. Junmyeon membiarkan
jendela mobilnya terbuka. Membiarkan angina asing menemukan jalan nya untuk membelai rambut nya.
Supir taksi nya diam, dia bersyukur atas itu. Dj radio berbicara dengan khas, Junmyeon tidak mengerti.
Kepalanya pusing. Perjalanan empat jam membuatnya pusing. Tidak mendapatkan tidur untuk dua hari,
menambah kering sel-sel di tubuh nya.
Dia tidak peduli.
Komplek perumahan yang asing namun familiar. Junmyeon berjalan lunglai. Memaksakan tubuh nya,
pikiran nya. Dirinya. Untuk menyeret kaki-kaki nya terus melangkah.
oh? Suho? Juneumm Junmyeon?. A slender woman with her typical elegant, menyambut Junmyeon
yang belum sempat memijit bell di depan gerbang rumah bercat pastel.
JunmyeonSuho tersenyum. Senyum kebiasaan milik nya.
tapi, saya harus keluar-. Wanita itu bimbang, menatap rumah nya dan Junmyeon bergantian. bibi
sudah berjanji. Dia melihat Junmyeon.
ah, maafkan saya datang tiba-tiba, -- .
oh, tidak! Tidak! Tentu saja tante senang, kamu datang berkunjung. Kau akan keluar dengan dia? Kau
sudah terlihat tampan?. Wanita itu tersenyum sangat ramah.
huh?. Ah, ha ha. Junmyeon hanya bisa membalas dengan tawa kaku.
anak itu baru tiba, entah darimana?! Ck!. Wanita semampai itu mendelik ke rumah nya, sebelum
kembali tersenyum pada Suho kau masuk! Dia ada di kamar nya, mungkin. Kau masih ingat dimana,
kan?. Pagi nanti, tante akan pulang, kita sarapan bersama ya?.
hati-hati di jalan!. Suho membungkuk, mengantar kepergian wanita yang melambai meninggalkan dia.

Junmyeon bersyukur dalam hati.

kau berkata, akan menemani bibi Lee?! Saya I .
Junmyeon membuka pintu putih di samping tangga lantai atas. Dia hanya diam, ketika sepasang mata
terbelalak melihat sosok nya.
bagaimana -?.
ibu mu sudah mengijinkan aku masuk! Kami bertemu di bawah, tadi.
Beberapa menit yang terlalu hening. Junmyeon hamper bisa menghitung ritme jantun nya.
kelihatannya, kau tidak memberi tau ibu mu?!.
The night wind was pretty cold, it looks like rain just soaks the land. Junmyeon leave the car window
open. Let foreign winds find their way to stroke his hair. His taxi driver was silent, he was grateful for it.
Dj radio talk with distinctive, Junmyeon did not understand. His head was dizzy. The four-hour made him
dizzy. Did not get to sleep for two days, add dry cells in his body.
He does not care .
Housing that is foreign yet familiar. Junmyeon goes limp. Forcing his body, his mind. Himself. To drag
his legs to keep moving.
" Oh ? Suho ? Jun- eumm Junmyeon ? . " A slender woman with her typical elegant , welcoming
Junmyeon who have not push the bell at the front gate of the pastel painted house.
Junmyeon - Suho smile. Belonging to his habitual smile.
" But , I have to go out - . " The woman hesitated, looked at her house and turns to Junmyeon. " Aunt had
promised. " He saw Junmyeon.
"Ah , my apologize! I just came all of sudden in late night like this , - . "
" Oh , no ! Not ! Of course aunt happy , you came to visit . so, its you hes waiting for? " She smiled very
friendly .
" Huh ? . Ah , ha ha . " Junmyeon could only respond with laughter stiff .
" that kid just being an emo-or smth, locking himself in his room and do nothing! Said he is waiting for
someon! Ck ! . " The slender woman glared into his house , before returning to smile at Suho " you're in!
He's in his room. You remember where is it , right? . aunt will be home by tomorrow morning , shall we
have a hotpot foer breakfast? . " she smiled. Patted Suhos arm.
" Be careful aunt! . " Suho bending , dropping the departure of the woman who waved at him .
Junmyeon grateful.
" You said , you will accompany Aunt Lee ? ! I - I . " A deep lazy voice.
Junmyeon open the white door next to the stairs. He was silent, when a pair of eyes stared at his figure.
" How - ? . "
" Your mother had let me in ! We met at the gate. "
A few minutes swam in a hurtful silence. Junmyeon could almost count the rhythm of his heart.
" Apparently , you didnt tell your mother ? ! . "

itu bagus! Itu berarti, ini bukan tujuan kamu. Untuk meninggalkan kami.

why?.

But its hurt. When your heart doesnt go along your mind and keep beating violently against your
ribcage. His mind tried it best to composed and calm. To be honest, he wasnt ready for any answer for
all his own questions. What if the answer would give his heart more pain?.
are you sick?.
huh?. The figure in front of him frown.
Suho just gave a glance to a plastic bag full of prescription medicines on the side table.
no- I mean- just-. With a sigh, Suhos interlocutor reached the messy medicines with his long arms and
shoved them under his pillow I just found out that Im abit sick.
Suho glupped. He tried to calm little tremor in his hands, gripping his jacket tight.
so, why?. You-.
I dont know it would be like this! I didnt mean to-.
good, if you doesnt mean to leave or anything. So, could you stop being dramatic and all?.
..
He told me to be tough! Itll help me in the court. I wanna win this one!.
he, who?.
the lawyer.
Suho, closed his eyes, breath.
did you know, the kidsmembers phone got snatched?. Baekhyun get slapped?. Some break downs?.
Or gloomy atmosphere in the drom?. Did you know? Dont you even care?.
why are you here? How?.
Im the one who is asking!. Suhos voice raised.
oh! And who are you dotting me?!.
aku adalah seorang pemimpin!!. Suho berteriak.

oh! Hmmm~ yeah pemimpin yang agung!.

Suho hanya ingin menyerah setelah mendengar nada menyindir dari mulut parter nya. Dia menarik
nafas panjang.
apakah kamu mendengar? Baek ditampar di depan para staff, iya! Baek mu tersayang. Semua alat
komunikasi anak-anak disita. Mereka kaget. Pemimpin seperti apa yang meninggalkan membernya?!.
jangan bercanda! Sejak awal, kamu adalah satu-satunya pemimpin!- jangan menyanggah!.
kamu adalah pemimpin!.
aku harus memenangkan ini! aku juga mempunyai mimpi.
Ada seberkas cahaya berharap di mata lawan bicara Suho.
untuk fakta bahwa kamu sudah tau, bahwa ini adalah mimpi ku, Kris! Dan kamu masih melakukan inibukankah ini terlalu kejam?.
itulah kenapa aku harus memenangkan ini
jangan membodohi aku, tidak ada hal positif dari apa yang kamu lakukan ini, Kris!.
ada!
apa? Apa?! Katakana padaku!.
aku punya alasan!. Kris membelokkan pandangan nya.
lihat?bisakah kamu mempercayai aku? Tujuh tahun Kris! Dan kamu masih menganggap aku tidak cukup
pantas untuk diberitau sebuah alasan?! Wow!.
Kulit pucat nya memerah panas, tangan nya mengepal kuat, dia diam menunggu.
Beberapa menit, Suho dibiarkan mendengarkan angin.
baiklah! itu semua!. Aku tidak akan melakukan apa pun lagi, itu ragu-ragu bekerja denganmu tuan
Kris!.

you! Wu-yi-fan! The one who messed my job! The one who broke my love! You! You just crushed a
dream of Kim Junmyeon, right under your feet! You bastard!.
why wouldnt you tell me anything?!
peptic ulcer huh?when is the operate?.
whahow?.
this medicines, I ever used them, the operation too, I ever done it. `junmyeon lifted his shirt, revealing
a pinkish thin line right under his visible ribcage its not that painful tho- youll get anesthesia.
so, are we reach the end?.
fuck it! Im leaving!.
what?.
Ill walk you!.
tch, dont you dare?! Dont ever dare to walk me to anywhere if youll leave half through!. Its suck to
be left alone all of sudden!.
you dickhead!.