SHTUM
Jem Lester
But it hasnt.
She studies the letter again while I finish my coffee.
I watch her eyes tilt skyward and her fingers run
through her chestnut hair, the spotlights highlighting a
strand of grey. Her lips mouth words as she shakes her
head and then her voice rises to a whisper as she
repeats the phrase: loving family, loving family, loving
family.
Theyre perverse. This whole thing is upside down.
Were being punished because we love and care for
him and hes not as good at autism as he could be.
Hell never play autism for England.
Its like theyre persecuting us for not being
completely destroyed by the situation. Things arent
bad enough, yet. He doesnt need to wear a crash
helmet or headphones and we arent crack addicts.
Yet.
It is truly a system to behold, a cost/benefit analysis
without the human element.
I say, Maybe Ill have a nervous breakdown, you
could grope a client and get disbarred, then wed be
poor and insane that would boost our case? And if
the worse came to the worse we could always split up,
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