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A family photo session during the Idul Fitri day.

This Idul Fitri, I simply feel happy


Published Aug 18, 2012

It is always an interesting exercise for me to see whats going on within. How do I feel at this particular moment about Idul Fitri? I started asking this question yesterday and I went googling for the meaning of the word Fitra and google some more about the natural constitution of human being. But today, the search results do not seem relevant. They do not tell me anything much about how I feel. So I stopped and started to feel what I feel. And what I feel is simply: Happiness. I feel happy that ... I have gone through what I have gone through during Ramadhan. ... I have done all the rituals the way I did, the way I allowed myself to be, from the heart. ... I am becoming more honest about and to myself. ... I have spent most of the breaking the fast in Jakarta at

home with my family; and spent some other with my beloved friends. ... I have so many exciting things on my plate. ... My family are all well and in good condition. And that we are together. *hugs* ... I lived the days of Ramadhan the way I lived my days in the other months. Life goes on, as it should be. ... I have gone through a strong inner process and let go some stuff. Still on going, mind you. Wonderful journey. ... People are enthusiastic of meeting new and old friends during the breaking of the fast. ... I went to all those yoga, meditation and Quran study sessions in Ramadhan. What an oasis to quench the thirst. And not to mention the books I have read. ... I managed to write as an expression of what and how I truly am (as best as I can).

... People are giving more to those in need during this month. ... People are going back to their hometown or stay where they are to be with their loved ones. ... I still have you as my beloved friend(s). *hugs* ... I simply smile and feel the warmth in my heart. ... I need no reason to feel this way. ... I feel happy and grateful. I love my life and I love living it. ... somehow, I can feel lots of lots of space and relief within. This is not the ecstatic type of happiness. This is a subtler form of happiness that I realize has been with me for some time. I feel happy. I feel light. I feel at ease. I feel content. Such are the miracles of my life. Gratitude and Praise be to Him. Life, as it is, is perfect and wonderful. I am so blessed. As are you. Happy Idul Fitri, folks.

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Seandainya kita sambut bulan lain layaknya Ramadan


Published July 21, 2012

Terlalu awal menulis ini? Ramadan baru saja dimulai. Tak apa. Mumpung terlintas. Mumpung teringat. Entah kenapa, tahun ini saya cukup terkesiap dengan hingar-bingar sebelum dan selama Ramadan. Teman dan kerabat saling menyapa, saling meminta maaf, dan saling mendoakan; serta tak lupa membuat janji untuk buka puasa bersama kesempatan reuni dengan teman lama. Masyarakat menyambut gembira datangnya bulan yang karim dan bersemangat untuk memulai puasa. Saking semangatnya, kapan mulai puasa pun ramai diperbincangkan. Media massa semangat memberikan tips puasa dan menu khusus sahur dan berbuka. Dari kemarin, saya mencoba menyimak kehingar-bingaran ini. Ada sesuatu yang mengganjal di saya.Tentu menyenangkan, tak ada salahnya saling menyapa, saling meminta maaf, dan semua tradisi ini. Luar biasa sebuah bulan dalam satu tahun (dan nantinya sebuah hari, Hari Raya Idul Fitri) dapat menggerakkan masyarakat sedemikian hebatnya; mengubah rutinitas, dan bahkan mengingatkan kita untuk kembali menyapa teman, kerabat, dan sesama insan. Tapiya tentu ada tapi dalam tulisan initimbul pertanyaan: Lho kok tiba-tiba semangat begini? Saya pun bertanya ke diri saya: Apa istimewanya Ramadan untuk saya pribadi? Di luar fungsi sosial yang saya sebutkan tadi, apakah Ramadan itu demikian istimewa buat saya secara pribadi? Bila semua faktor kerabat dan keluarga saya hilangkan, apakah Ramadan tetap istimewa buat saya? Barangkali pertanyaan-pertanyaan saya ini merupakan bentuk kerinduan saya untuk lebih memahami hakikat Ramadan. Mengembalikan segala ibadah, juga tindakan, yang saya lakukan, di bulan ini ke niat dan adab sejatinya. Puasa, saya baca di Twitter, berasal dari bahasa Sansekerta, yaitu kata dasar upa yg berarti dekat dan wasa yg berarti Yang Kuasa. Mendekatkan diri kepada Sang Maha Kuasa. Keren. Kata Shaum, dalam Bahasa Arab, berarti menahan. Puasa mencakup pengendalian diri atas seluruh anggota badan, pikiran, imajinasi dan hati kita dari melakukan segala macam dosa. Semacam menimbulkan kesabaran. Saya sangat suka melihat beberapa teman saya memiliki niat untuk melaksanakan puasa di Ramadan ini dengan kesederhanaan, dalam arti, biasa saja, semua berjalan seperti biasa, kecuali

qih puasanya itu sendiri. Tetap berbuka makan biasa (atau bahkan lebih sederhana), demikian dengan sahur. Ah, tapi sebenarnya saya tidak bertanya tentang puasanya. Saya lebih bertanya tentang keistimewaan (berpuasa di) Bulan Ramadan-nya. Pemahaman saya masih terlalu dangkal tentang makna samawi di balik bulan Ramadan (Rab zitni ilm. Amin.). Saya belum bisa paham kenapa kita bisa sesemangat itu menyambut Ramadan. Kalau soal puasa, khan bisa dilakukan kapan pun; atau semua kembali ke fungsi sosial dan kebersamaan yang saya sebutkan tadi? Ada banyak hadits yang menjelaskan, tentang dibelenggunya iblis selama Ramadan, tentang pahala berlimpah, tapi jujur masih belum bisa benar-benar saya resapi. Apalagi saya meyakini pertentangan terbesar seperti halnya jihad terbesarada di dalam nafs saya sendiri. Hingga kini saya lebih senang memfokuskan diri kepada topik mendekatkan diri pada Tuhan ketimbang pahala/dosa/surga/nerakakhawatir kehilangan fokus. Satu-satunya yang bisa saya pahami saat ini adalah bila dilakukan secara kolektif, seperti halnya puasa di Bulan Ramadan, mungkin semangat, energi, atau dampaknya di diri saya atau diri kita semuaakan lebih besar. Bayangkan bila kita memiliki semangat yang sama di bulan lain, untuk beribadah dalam arti seluas-luasnya, untuk saling menyapa, saling meminta maaf, dan saling mendoakan dengan sesama. Bukan main. Selalu ada dalih, tujuannya memang itu, Ramadan adalah bulan latihan. Iya, tapi sampai kapan? Sudah berapa kali kitaatau saya melewati Ramadan (Alhamdulillah)? Saya jadi bertanya ke diri saya, kalau ada predan post-questionnaire, saya ingin tahu, apakah saya benar-benar membaik dalam jangka waktu sebulan itu? Meningkat, walau sedikit, dari iman menjadi takwa (QS 2:183)? Bagaimana dari tahun ke tahun? Mungkin saatnya sudah tiba buat saya terutama untuk memperluas keistimewaan bulan ini. Saatnya telah tiba bagi saya untuk menjadikan seperti pernyataan teman saya yang saya suka setiap hari sebagai Ramadan. Menjalani setiap hari, setiap detik dalam bulan Ramadan dan bulan-bulan lain sepanjang tahun dalam kesederhanaan dan keberadaan yang senantiasa menghadap secara tulus kepada Tuhan, semampu kita. Semoga.

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What does it mean to be Indonesian today?


Published August 17, 2012

The other day, JakartaGlobe asked me this question: What does it mean to be Indonesian today? My response was: To love who we are, embrace our unity in diversity, and strive to realize our potentials. Lets stop bickering and start doing something real, however we can. Optimism is the new black (or red and white). I meant, and still mean, every single word of it. Indonesia is a country with about 17,000 islands and 220 million people. Diversity is naturally unavoidable. We know this. Thats why the countrys slogan is Bhinneka Tunggal Ika Unity in Diversity the oneness in the many-ness. As you can see, we have very wise ancestors, whose wisdom should be revisited more and contemplated upon. The richness of the natural resources, the respect for traditional values, the closely-knitted societies, the food (yes, I have to mention the food), and the creativity and resilience of the people are to die for. Imagine a combined force that may come out of such diversity and potentials. I heart sinks whenever someone accuse the country as a failed state. Excuse me, I strongly beg to differ. Sure, the governmentand us too, mind you, as the people of Indonesiahave lots of homework still to be done. But its an unnished process. We are not failing. We are trying. We are surviving. We are thriving. One only needs to look at ones surroundings to know this. How people work hard in their life to make ends meet the best way they can. How so many school children who come from lower income families still are amazingly enthusiastically go to school despite their shortcomings, and how so many fortunate people are helping them to ensure that they continue to pursue the education. How micro, small and medium enterprises with utmost agility grow their business. How people still

smile and help one another out whatever their conditions may be. If you have Indonesian friends on Facebook or follow Indonesian people on Twitter, you would see how proud we are and how much we love our country. Hashtags and retweet of twitter #17an, #merdeka, #bhinneka_tunggal_ika, @id-optimis, #banggaIndonesia, #upacara, #indonesiabanget, @GNFI, @IndonesiaYouth, #indonesiamerdeka, #3katauntukindonesia, #HUTRI67 color my timeline. I am especially proud of my Indonesian (and some non-Indonesian!) friends who go well beyond their self interest and start thinking of a bigger picture, the interest of the larger communities. They initiate collaborative actions to move the society forward and take them higher. Social movements are nothing new in Indonesia and it ourishes even further during the last years. People are taking real actions to make things better. It works wonderfully. Beautiful people performs beautiful actions. How can I not be proud and optimistic of my beloved country? During the #OnOffID event last year, one of Indonesias education icons Anies Baswedan made a great speech about optimism for the country. He said: Tell the world that Indonesia has all the reasons to be optimistic. For me, you (The Indonesian youth) is the main reason why we are optimistic. Tell them there are many who share this same view. Choose to spread the optimism and positivism virus. It is contagious. Hes damn right. There are so many people who share this view. So lets stop bickering and start doing something real, however we can. It is a good time to stop and ask ourselves: what have we done for your country? For our people? For our surroundings? Is this all or Is there more we can do? I am open for any invitation or suggestions. Optimism is the new black (or red and white). Dirgahayu Indonesia!

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From independence to total dependence


Published August 17, 2012

my mind, I have His Name(s) imprinted somewhere. I remember Him when I utter His Name. I remember Him in my prayer. I remember Him whenever I fast, or during Quran study sessions. But that would not cut it anymore. When the Quran says Only in remembrance of God will your heart nd peace, I guess, it really means it. And it means at all time, literally, in every single thing that we do, in every split second of life. A total surrender to Him. A complete dependence on Him. Didnt we say lots of times these words, Laa hawla wa laa quwwata illa billaahthere is no power nor strength save through God.? So, whats this business about being strong if there is no power nor strength save through Then these words from Haz came Him? along There was a shift, in the mind, in JUST REST the heart, and in the way of being. Just sit there right now. From being independentdepending Dont do a thing. on no one but oneself, to (trying to live Just rest. in) complete dependence on Him. The For your separation from God, from idea of not clinging or depending on love anyone still rings true. Only now, the Is the hardest work in this world. anyone includes us, includes myself. Let me bring you trays of food Pak Nassarudin Umar said in his and something that you like to drink. recent Paramadina class that the way to You can use my soft words turn (a burden that weighs like) a as a cushion for your head. mountain into cotton is by going ~ Haz vertical, to direct your presence to Him From The Gift by Daniel Ladinsky and only Him. He is so right. It is about (Penguin, 1999) handing over all matters to Him. To Separation from God, from Love, is the direct ones gaze on HimHe who hardest work in this world. no wonder I possesses the Most Beautiful Names. had been constantly tired. It is hard This too is no small matter. In fact, it work to be strong all the time, especially is hard work. For letting go of such during the times when I really know I strong belief always is. The implications am not. There is something odd about are nothing short of a very long list. this whole idea of standing on our own Since this also implies on not depending two feet. Perhaps I have forgotten that (too much) on conjectures and analysis one key component in my life: God. of the mind. It is hard work, indeed, but It was not like I had forgotten Him it is the kind of hard work that I am altogether, God forbid. At the back of happily surrender myself to. Second blog post of the day. I must say, youre very inspiring, Indonesia. Isnt it amusing that we often have to go through long process to learn something only to unlearn it later? Cest la vie. I somehow has this belief planted in my mind: that we needed to be independent. We need to be able to stand on our own two feet. To depend only on ourselves and not on other people. The belief managed to get me going for a while. It sounded like a good idea to help me march through this life. Until I sort of ran out of steam and grew tired. A question popped up: What is this tiredness all about?

This hard work necessitates stillness, so many encounters with ones ego, lots of letting go, and constant (as much as humanly possible) listening. True listening, which only uses ones senses without adding trickles of subjective thoughts based on limited past experiences. To welcome anyone into your guest house, for each has been sent as a guide from beyond (A Rumis poem). Complete trust. Remembrance of Him. Remembrance of Love. To be in love, as in, to dip yourself fully in Love, to know that you are never out of It. From this complete dependence on Him, comes true independence. Where there is no pressure coming from within and without. Where we feel free to be our true nature, our own self. Where we know we have been alright, we still are and we will always be. Where we know we are completely accepted and unconditionally love. How freeing is that? The real freedom which leads to true independence. Just rest, as Haz puts it, is so appealing. Repose. How light and Light that would be. How can one not be in love with and long for this? Quran said the faithful does not have any fear or sorrow. It makes a lot of sense, for surely there would be no fear or sorrow when you truly believe with all your heart you are in the safety of The Compassionates trusted hands. May we be among those who respond to this beautiful call. May we be among those who are truly free. May we be among those who fully allow our beautiful, true nature to ourish. Happy independence day, Indonesia love.
intimate work of the mystic consists, therefore in trying to attain the Divine proximity, to respond to His innite clemence by his recognition, or through zikr (remembrance), whenever thoughts, visitors from heaven, manifest in his interior. Good or tempting, these visitors have for their mission the exercising of our discernment to the most subtle degree of Good and Evil, whereby we accord them our consent or we refuse them.

From the teaching of Osman Fazli


Man does not possess anything else but his sensibilities as his real organ of intelligence, and without Divine action man cannot even use his memory which is his sacred treasury of experience acquired long ago. The initiate, the saint, insn al-kmil, is he who possesses the faculty of being able to recognise

the true non-existence of his faculties of thought and his own impotence in putting them in motion. It is he who leaves all the space to God and who passes all his life in controlling his intimate faithfulness, in actions, thoughts or in the acts that materialise them. It is he who prays constantly to God, even if it be only by a breath or by a movement of the heart, when he perceives the natural and constant phenomena of thought. In fact everybody knows that this faculty is permanent, constant, irresistibly active. The

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the light dawns. When the pure Name enters the mouth, neither impurity nor sorrow remain. Your awe and love are Published: August 19, 2012 the rope to catch My gift: beneath every I read this: When we walk like (we are O Lord of yours is many a Here am running), we print anxiety and sorrow I from Me. (Rumis Mathnawi III, on the earth. We have to walk in a way 186-188; 197) that we only print peace and serenity on Then I have this visual in my heart: the earth Be aware of the contact That life is a gentle, constant, intimate between your feet and the earth. Walk dialogue with God, in every single step, as if you are kissing the earth with your in every single breath. feet.(Thich Nhat Hanh) So listen attentively. And walk as if Then I read this: To praise God is you are kissing the earth with your feet. to be puried: when purity arrives, Thank you. So very much. corruption quickly leaves. Opposites ee from each other: night ees when

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Listen and walk as if ...

Quotes From Thich Nhat Hanh


Published August 19, 2012

I was googling a particular quote from Thich Nhat Hanh because a friend reminded me of it. I stumbled upon the Inspiration Speak website, which provided nine of his quotes. I went through the list. I could not single out any of the quotes. I love them all. And here they are: In April we cannot see sunowers in France, so we say the sunowers do not exist. But the local farmers have already planted thousands of seeds and when they look at the bare hills they may be able to see the sunowers already. The sunowers are there. They lack only the conditions of sun, heat, rain, and July. Just because we cannot see them does not mean they do not exist. When another person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeply within himself, and his suffering is spilling over. He does not need punishment; he needs help. Thats the message he is sending. Life is lled with suffering, but it is also lled with many wonders, like the blue sky, the sunshine, the eyes of a baby. To suffer is not enough. We must also be in touch with the wonders of life. They are within us and all around us, everywhere, any time. My actions are my only true belongings. When we walk like (we are running), we print anxiety and sorrow on the earth. We have to walk in a way that we only print peace and serenity on the earth Be aware of the contact

"When we walk like (we are running), we print anxiety and sorrow on the earth. We have to walk in a way that we only print peace and serenity on the earth Be aware of the contact between your feet and the earth. Walk as if you are kissing the earth with your feet."
Thich Nhat Hanh

between your feet and the earth. Walk as if you are kissing the earth with your feet. Every one of us needs a home. The world needs a home. There are so many young people who are homeless. They may have a building to live in, but they are homeless in their hearts. That is why the most important practice of our time is to give each person a home. When you plant lettuce, if it does not grow well, you dont blame the lettuce. You look for reasons it is not doing well. It may need fertilizer, or more water, or less sun. You never blame the lettuce. Yet if we have problems with our friends or family, we blame the other person. But if we know how to take care of them, they will grow

well, like the lettuce. Blaming has no positive effect at all, nor does trying to persuade using reason and argument. That is my experience. No blame, no reasoning, no argument, just understanding. If you understand, and you show that you understand, you can love, and the situation will change. So please smile. Smile with your eyes, not just with your lips. Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy. . Perhaps it is time to pick up another book of his, Nat?

(and coffee), occasional tears (healthy ones only, please), knickknacks from trips, acceptance, embrace, letting be, Published July 28, 2012 companionship. I have just been in a week long silent A house where we are free to be meditation retreat with Bali Usada ourselves. Where we are free to come health meditation. It was remarkable. I and go (or stay) as we please, doing what shall write about this later. But I want to we love most. Where we every so often say this. get together and share stories. Where During the last moments of the we can relax and grow to be our own retreat, the last minutes before we left self. A chance for being and becoming. the house, I went up to the meditation A breathing space. room again. No one asked me to do so. I am keeping the list healthy. And No one was even there. I went up. I sat the dream alive. at what used to be my spot. I closed my Your turn now, eyes and went into silence. I said praise. Universe. I went there and sat to offer ps: I have found one gratitude. I went there and sat out of piece of furniture gratitude. There was no other intention, for the house. This nor there was any other cause. I just would be your spot wanted to say thanks. It was truly, a on the porch. moment of pure gratitude. It was a Denitely! beautiful feeling. Nothing but gratitude.

Friends who have been with me for years, perhaps more than 15 years, will testify how much I have changed (and how yet some parts of me remain the same). How I have become how I am today is beyond me. Again, I could not possibly have done it myself. The education that I have been put through, most explicit in the last seven years, are nothing but of His grace. In the retreat, I attributed the changes in me to my meditation practice. It has been an important part of the education, although obviously not the only one. I cannot remember for the life of me when and how I became interested in meditation. Perhaps that is not important. For the last years, however, I have only been focusing on two schools, Bali Usada and Self Awareness Meditation. I try as best as I can to do the practice regularly. My miracle is. It is amazing how, a 30-45 minute A different regular practice can affect your life. In Published August 14, 2012 taste of practice I shared this story during my recent meditation, you are invited to witness Published: July 28, 2012 meditation retreat with Bali Usada. you and your surrounding, to let go and Recently I decided that I would only I am not the best meditator I know let be, to simply witness and appreciate, write on this blog and not write two (whatever best in this sense might without wanting to change anything. (language) versions of every post. A mean). I am not the most diligent, nor The task, was simply to observe with seemingly simple decision with major am I the most focused. I dont really loving-kindness, to appreciate, and to implications. have any so-called miraculous spiritual know that everything that has condition It is no longer about a practice[1] in experiences during meditation that I changes. writing. It is about a practice[2] in can share with you. I dont have any And before you know it, you are expressing myself more and more miracle stories to tell about my beginning to apply it to your everyday honestly, more and more fully, and more meditation. life. You simply, kindly observe, and more naturally. My miracle, is my life. Or rather, my life appreciate, and know that everything Practice (noun) itself is a miracle to me. that has condition change. Then as if 1. repetition in order to improve My friends in the previous ofce gave suddenly, you become kinder to your 2. process of carrying out an idea me a mug as a farewell gift some years surrounding and most importantly to ago. The mug has this writing: My yourself. #wishlist: Our own little miracle is when I am thirsty, I drink; I suppose this is true with any kind of house on the praire When I am hungry, I eat. My friend practice you do: prayer, meditation, Published July 28, 2012 said I quoted the sentence once to her. I yoga, social activities, writing from the They say you have to express your wish wouldnt remember. heart, teaching, parenthood, taking up and let the universe works its magic. But it is so true. It is a miracle for me to hobbies, doing things that you love, etc. So we sat, chatted and chuckled over have that instinct even for the very And also with any kind of less-conscious thisa list of things of how we want a basic things in life, to eat when I am habits, which may be counterhouse to be. Yummy conversation. hungry, to drink when I am thirsty. It is productive. Please take good care. And heres the list so far: Three also a miracle that I can eat when I am But however I have been and whatever bedrooms or more (can we have wooden hungry; that I can drink when I am has happened in life, whether we call it elements, please?), Ubud (Bali), gardens thirsty. good times or tougher times, happiness of herbs and owers, front (and back) And if I step back a bit to look at the life or otherwise, it is what have shaped me porch, rice elds, high speed wi that I have walked through all these to be how I am today. They were all internet, books, more books, cooking years, I am in awe. I cannot possibly necessary and nothing is a waste. utensils, veggies, tofu, tempe, cleaning have done what I have done myself I have nothing but gratitude and awe utensils, tea (and coffee) sets. You. Me. using only my own strength. It is truly, for all the miracles in my life. And thats Guests (sometimes). No TV necessary. simply a miracle. every single second of my life. Lots of (as and when needed): It is a miracle for me to be able to be post script: A verse from Ar-Rahmaan (Quran Space, love, life, inspirations, ideas, what I am today. To shift from what I Surah 55) came to me earlier today: fabi-ayyi scribbles, jokes, laughter, chats, have been years ago, to become what I aalaa-i rabbikumaa tukadzdzibaa Then whispers, non-verbal gestures, silence, am today. Who knows what can and which of your Lord's blessings will you deny? warmth, fun, nice meals and nibbles, tea what will happen next?

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Kepada pecinta langit malam


Published July 21, 2012

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hanya akan membatasi Sungguh, kata seperti apa yang benar mampu mengungkap rasa yang demikian kaya? Langit malamku adalah perantaraku menjelangmu Di mana pun kamu Bila malam tengah menyelimutimu Aku tahu kau pun akan menengadah Menatap kelamnya langit malam berkelip bintang Tenggelam dalam hamparan rasa, tanpa kata Sama sepertiku Semoga kau mendengarku

So that youd know


Published: July 31, 2012

I know what I want to be written on my tombstone now. I love you. So that you would know. So that you would remember. That I do.

We would hear this throughout the eve of Eid Al Fitr, the last night of the fasting month of Ramadhan. Allaahu akbar, Allaahu akbar, Allaahu akbar Laa ilaah illallaahu wallaahu akbar Allaahu akbar walillaahil hamd God is The Greatest, God is The Greatest, God is The Greatest There is no god but God, God is The Greatest God is The Greatest and all praise be to Him All night. And night is the symbol of the stillness and silence within. Imagine if these are the only Words that resound in the depth of our still and silent heart. All night. From dusk until dawn. From when our heart grows still and silence, until Light.