TRAPPED IN THE WEB OF LIFE

BY: PRESTON PROPES

This book is dedicated to everybody in my life. You all know who you are. You are the reason that this book is even here today. I love you all. You are the greatest people in the world and you all are a part of this book in some way, whether one of these poems is about you or just there for the support of the book. This book is for you. May this be thanks enough for you putting up with me for all these years (months for some of you). May the memory of all of you be forever held in these words and let you know that you are not forgotten (R.I.P. Christopher Luke Mathis, you are still missed my friend).

Table of Contents
Absence of a Loved One All the Worlds a Whore Amphetamines to Suicide Aphrodite Send True Love to Me Betrayal Chaos Compromise The Crimson Vise of Love The Crows Flight A Cry for Help Dao, Duan, Me Darkness Darkness- A Sequel Declaration of Love Dream of Reality, Reality is a Dream Drowning Envy Us Eternal Silence Eternity Face in the Glass First Sight Forever in a Day Forever Rose Gods Game Halloween Fun or Fright Has-Been Boyfriend Hate Hating Hate Hatred Love Have Not, Want Not Heaven Identity I Would, I Could Journey Leader of the Pack Life Life- A Continuation of Death Living Life in Technicolor Loneliness Love Love, a Blessing-Love a Curse Love-Gods and Goddesses Love/Hate Loves Lost and Found Love without You

MasterBeast Memories Nightlite Angel No Need for Words One Pain Parting Song If Perfection Was a Person Piece of the Heart Poem 42 Purgatory Angel without Wings (Intro to Purgatory) Purgatory (Waiting in the Void) Darkness in the Void (Outro to Purgatory) Rain of Sorrow Reject Rewind Me Senseless Senses Silence Sleep Smile CILY Speak Succubus Sweet Angel Mine Tale of Life Fate Destiny Lot Portion Doom Three Phases of Time A Time for Love-A Time for Death Together Forever To My Love Tortured Soul The Truth Twisted Love Song Unanswered Question Unknown War of the Heart The What-Ifs of Life What You Want When Who Am I World of Words Wonder

Absence of a Loved One

The felling of loneliness when you are not around Makes me fell like Im six feet underground Alone but surrounded by people of beauty But yours is the face I want to see Missing you ever since the day we had to part Every time I said goodbye it would break my heart I see your pretty face when I am asleep Waking up and not seeing you makes my heart weep Not knowing how you feel I begin to think Were like Romeo and Juliet, without the poisoned drink Your happiness was my eternal goal Now I think Ive hurt you and that disrupts my soul I dont want to bring you hurt, pain or grief But knowing that you love me will bring me great relief Hoping we will meet again on Earth or in the sky Im glad to have known you and I thank the Lord on High

All the Worlds a Whore

All the worlds a whore Taking advantage of me Taking what I give Never giving for me to take All the worlds a whore Showing off the Promised Land But never letting anyone in Leaving broken hearts behind All the worlds a whore Pretty to the eyes Under all the glitz and glamour Hides the venomous vixen All the worlds a whore That I have come to love Never having what I want But always knowing its there for me

Amphetamines to Suicide
You take your daily does of pain You take the acidic pill Never questioning the way of life Never asserting your own will The good things came and went away The bad ones lingered on You never knew an ounce of love Now all hope is gone You started out this life so well Now its all turned around You took a hit of every bottle Until you hit the ground You took your anti-depressants You took some downers too You took a trip on acid You passed out and turned blue Youve taken too much from life But had nothing to give Finally you took your life Now may you truly live

Aphrodite Send True Love to Me

I pray to the goddess Aphrodite And the baby boy Cupid To send true love to me I wonder what the case may be For it seems Loves face from me was hid I pray to the goddess Aphrodite I implore the gods before me And to them I do bid To send true love to me I patiently wait for love to see And while I waited I pray to the goddess Aphrodite Then I call on God All-Mighty And wonder why he hated To send true love to me I wonder when the time will be ready Is it already fated I pray to the Goddess Aphrodite To send true love to me

Betrayal
I feel like my love Ive betrayed Never has my soul felt this unrest My love will never fade And I try my best To keep from hurting my love But in my heart thats how I feel I beg for answers from above To know this love is real All alone is what I am Mad is my love This world makes me say damn To all the things above For everything on Earth Just simply needs to die And Earth needs to give birth To a new girl and guy Start off the New Earth right No anger, no hate No more wrongs and not a fight No more God and no more Fate

Chaos
Things run rampant in a sew of chaos In this sea you feel a loss For someone you hold dear Cause judgment day is drawing near You cannot stop what has already begun Cause the Devils having too much fun Hatred comes to condemn your soul Eternal darkness is now the goal You hate all without cause Death has you in his claws No escape will come for you There is nothing you can do Everything is gone and youre alone The pain makes you moan Your loved one has betrayed your trust Your broken heart is blown away in a gust For wind that signals your demise Your beloved sees the pain in your eyes That they caused and they feel bad Knowing that they made you sad Its too late for apologies And they fall down to their knees Crying for God to bring you back But that power He does lack Wanting to with you once more They plunge a knife into their core Now you two are together at last Leaving the world of hate in the past Down on Earth the death count grows And everyone knows It is to be with the one they love If not on Earth then up above

Compromise
Why must we live to die What can break this chain Everything in lifes a lie Why suffer through such pain Death without life, a solution A way out of such strife Life without death brings no resolution No end from the knife Love transcends the boundaries Of Life and Death Which will bring you to your knees Love will break the chain When life and death come to an end

The Crimson Vise of Love

That lovely crimson vise Thy own personal maiden No freedom is as nice As this whose iron laden Clamping on the source of love originated Holding with a force Which cannot be penetrated Pseudo-happiness ensues Upon the vise seizing The lover will lose All that he finds so pleasing The love-vise begins to drain Away at their spirit Wanting just to gain Their faith beyond all limits True happiness is gone No way to know the verities Though eon upon eon Doth this lover sees Upon the couples parting The vise loses it power The truth is now starting To light thy darkest hour Now the truth is to be had Thy past was misery You should be happy not sad With thy soul returned to thee

The Crows Flight

The crow caws, the crow calls My soul falters, my soul falls The crow saves, the crow steals My souls saved, my soul feels The crow cries, the crow flies My soul home, my soul eyes The crows place, the crow leaves My soul here, my soul believes The crow savior, the crow deity My soul knows, the crow is me

A Cry for Help

Why cant I die Why must I suffer so Why must I live another day To suffer through life Pain and grief are my friends Love and loneliness my enemies Hate is my only love Now that me and my love are apart Death brings relief for me But pain for those I love I dont believe I can Take anymore of this life I live I want to be free from the hurt Death seems to be the only choice Life is getting too hard to handle Without my love to guide me

Dao, Duan, Me
I stand with Dao and Duan Watching, waiting, wondering When will someday come Will it come at all I turn to the lovely Duan standing on my right I ask her if she can see my love She shines her beam down to Earth And searches far and wide On my loves beautiful face her light shines I turn to the brilliant Dao and ask her one thing Thats to shoot oer my lovers head for her to make a wish I stand and watch Dao shoot by and circle Mother Earth She returns with the wish my love has just asked Alas, she wants us to be together She wants me by her side I nod to Dao who casts her dust round my love Now I stand with Dao, Duan, and my love

Darkness
My soul is black as the blackest night As black as when the bats take wing and flight Darkness is there and nothing more Ive been to and back of Hades door Of his plan I am a part of Yet I have a love It is a darkness love that is true Without her what would I do Ive loved her from the start She lights the darkness in my heart She has been to the door as well Shes been to the eight circles of Hell She is not one to mess with She is the lovely, deadly Lilith The Devils mistress that she is Just like me her soul is his We are apart no thanks to God But we should Be together till the end Hades should lend A hand to our quest To be the best Of evil reign We shall gain Darkness

Darkness- A Sequel
Black is the darkness Black is the pain Threatening reality Neer to be pure again The Raven, Crow and sable Diamonds magic death Dire evil nights Blocking out the breath The kuro market holds The worlds most precious jet Ugly, scowling guards A light the hole wont let A noir mail market For a belt of ebony To 1black7 For all the world to see The evil, sinister power The Panthers have wrought To black wash the reason The shirts have fought Black is the light Which we are blinded to To black-out the world, colly Theres nothing you can do

Declaration of Love
I bear my soul everyday I show my love in everyway I want my love to truly see That she and I were meant to be Whether times be good or bad Whether we are happy or sad Love will always be in my heart Even if we should part Love can transcend the boundaries Of time and space---true ecstasy Of love is an unbound bliss A joy found in the first kiss Made between two in love A love planned by those above But cursed by those on Earth Those who brought us in through birth Those who say that they care When truly they are unaware Of the love between two souls The try to take on the roles Of morality and parentry But at that they fail miserably For the love shall never end The passage of time will mend All the lost years to come Until me and my love are one

Dream of Reality, Realitys a Dream

The love that I had Seemed to be a dream That I have awoken to My world does now seem To have fallen apart And now what is real Now my dreams are my reality Where I truly feel That I am loved and cared for But every time I wake My love I do not see I wish to see my love again So I return to my sleep Where I and my love are together Where neither of us weeps Now Im not sure what is real Is my reality my love Or is it when Im up Are there answers from above Im not sure of anything But every time I sleep I see what reality and dream bring

Drowning
There was no turning back again No letting this slip away This could make me a better man Or I could throw my life away So I dive right in this sea of love From which I had once departed To swim with you a new love Please dont leave me broken hearted Ive gone too deep in the sea Yours is the only light Just you and I and all to be Im drowning without a fight Im drowning entirely in you And youre my only hope I want you and what to do But let go of the rope Farther down I go No way back to the top Im drowning and all I do Is wish itll neer stop

Envy Us
We know how you envy us Our freedom without clause For why else would you think So poorly of us We do our own thing everyday While you sit back and think And pray that times will change While we party late at night Have you lately partied While we take action and show Our passion all you think of is Your future is slow to come We have fun and you have none Cast off those oppressive chains And come to our weekly rave We live like theres no tomorrow While tomorrow you hate that you Didnt do yesterday what you Didnt do that you know That we did the day before Come take a walk on the wild side And be just like us Where every body else just Sits back and is envious

Eternal Silence
How lovely is the sound Of silence all around The peace that can be found With silence all around Nothing interferes with eternal thought The silence is no sought The silence is not brought But with your life it can be bought Without knowing the silence overtakes In the silence your soul breaks From the awful sound silence makes Into a nightmare your conscious wakes Can you hear the silence speaking Can you hear the silence shrieking Do you feel the fear its reeking Do you know what its seeking Refuge from the eternal silence Escape from the deathless violence Just listen for eternal silence

Eternity
The darkness of the night Is ended by the fire in the sky The fiery red orange light Tells the Earth its time to die Time for the piper to be paid For all that has been done Time for all to be laid At rest under the sun You must either rise or fall To your final destination The end wont be the same for all In this situation You may rise to the fiery death hanging over Earth And your ashes will fall back to the ground and rise once more Or you will fall for an eternity in a hole beneath the Earth Falling and falling through the hole forevermore There is an ongoing cycle of pain An ongoing cycle of solitude You will never see happiness again Hopefully this will change your attitude On the fact of eternal bliss Or eternal suffering Cause everything you had youll miss From what the world can bring

Face in the Glass

When I look into that tainted glass What misery I see I see my hollow, empty self With the perfection that is you But when I turn to look and see If you are truly there The room is empty as a tomb I turn back to the wicked glass In which I saw your face And lo there you are Smiling right at me Mocking my sad, pathetic self For being empty and alone Whilst you are happy And with love in your heart My love has corroded into misery I cant get you out of my head Why must your memory torture me so Every time I look into that glass I see the pain of long ago

First Sight
At first sight you see no wrong But that does not last too long Soon you see the one thing That love with them will truly bring That is pain and nothing more A pain that burns you to the core Of your heart that has you bound Until your six feet underground The first thing you may see Is their radiant beauty But later on what will show Is the truth what you must really know About them before its too late Before Destiny has sealed your fate Of being with someone you despise Until the day one of you dies Letting the other be free While for an eternity You wonder why You lived such a lie As to think you will be happy Even though life was so crappy Knowing you loved another soul That their happiness was you goal Letting a little difference getting in the way And the price you must pay Of being eternally lonely And your true love youll never see

Forever in a Day
You say what I say But do you feel how I feel What is love to you Is it forever in a day? Does what I say Truly tell you how I feel How long does love last Forever in a day? A lot is unknown About you about me How does this love last Is forever over in a day? Can we try to work it out Or does it have to end We said wed love forever Is forever in a day?

Forever Rose
The forever rose That love that will hold Not one that comes and goes A love that never gets cold To look upon such a thing Is to look upon a god Such happiness it can bring When nothing is a fraud My love is such One of everlasting beauty I love her so much But that does she see My forever rose Wilts in my face I hope she knows That my love I base Upon her is true That alone I need not be So when I say I love you I want you here with me My forever rose is my love My love is a forever rose One that lasts on Earth and above In her heart she truly knows That she is my forever rose

Gods Game
Life is the game God plays It determines our days Satan is said to be player two The one responsible for the evil you do But truthfully Satan is Gods alter ego God is very disturbed, this you should know He hurts you as Satan and helps you as God This I find very odd You may think He will help your life But He stabs you in the back with a knife He brings lovers together you see Then breaks them up with great glee Breaking hearts and hurting poor soul Is Gods demented goal He hurt people so He gets praise And sends people into a demented phase Everything in life comes with a price What you get at first may be nice But the God takes something away It may be what He takes as pay It may be to take away your love Or take a life to be with Him above God has no conscience to live by He doesnt care who must die For His enjoyment So dont trust anything Heaven sent Life will never be what you want it to be Never get too attached to anybody Or you will end up just like me Waiting for my love to see I love her with all my heart and soul And her happiness is my goal But this she may never know Because God will not allow me to do so He wants to see my pain Thinking He will gain My praise to Him but He is wrong I will never praise Him as long As me and my love are apart As long as hate is in my heart If my love and I reunite I might praise Him with all my might But that will never be Cause I hate God and He hates me

Halloween Fun or Fright

At the time when the moon will rise All people shall fear for their lives With darkness come the evil ones Armed with their knives and their guns An evil soul will lead the way And all the Earth will surely pay For wronging rights and righting wrongs Chanting words to unknown songs From the depth of Hades comes Two great men who look like bums Judgment shall be passed upon All of those who once did con And those who were nice and sweet Will enjoy a Hellish treat The darkness rules the light is gone Lift the dead from the lawn Onto the Earth they shall be One with the darkness and one with me So decide on a safe place to hide One where none have died For demons come to take their place To destroy the human race For Halloween brings fun and fright So fear the day of Devils night But come the dawn of the morn The fabric of time has now been torn But one year will pass until the day Until the human race will pay But with the morn the demons leave With the sword of darkness sheathed The humans were or were not clothed On the cloaks and devil robed So do not fear Tis only one day a year Cause the day of fun and fright Only comes on Halloween night

Has-Been Boyfriend
I dont wanna be the guy that You think He was alright I dont wanna be known as the one Who youd always fight I dont wanna be your has-been boyfriend I would rather be a could-have-been Or even a never-was, maybe, A maybe, kinda good friends ok with me I just dont wanna be your has-been boyfriend I dont wanna be the one you despise I just wanna look into your lovely eyes I dont wanna be the one that was okay I dont wanna be the might-be-cool-someday I dont wanna be your has-been boyfriend I dont wanna be the it was fun while it did last If I was Superman, your hearts a kryptonite cast I dont wanna be your has-been boyfriend I dont wanna be something that I was And will never be again, so baby Please just tell me here and now That Im not and never will be Your has-been boyfriend

Hate
Does killing let the soul be free Or does it stay here with me Will death of one free their soul Or will it restrict it till the goal Is complete for darkness reign And cause all humans to feel pain Will fate not let you be you Or will it make you do Things that it has preordained For what will be gained If your life is not your own Working your hands to the bone Trying to tempt Fate Knocking at Heavens Gate Trying to find out why All good people must die At the hand of Satans men With him watching from his den Proud of what he das done Destroying mankind one-by-one Be careful what you say and do For they may come for you With the mission to take your soul Eternal damnation is their goal So beware Take care Because the freaks come out at night

Hating Hate
Why hate the hating ones who hate without cause Why love the loving ones who are within their claws Hating hateful things weapons of destruction Killing mercilessly letting no one run Destroying the mind with hate and pain Destroying the heart neer to love again Hate the loving love the hating Kill the being that started creating Save the one who destroyed all life The being that created strife

Hatred Love
What is love Is love supposed to hurt this much Is love truly from above I miss you oh so much What is this hatred love Being without you makes my heart cry out I love you more than life itself I cry, scream and shout I sit alone in my room and thin to myself What is this hatred love I think of Fate and Destiny I sit and think of you I think our love was meant to be I just dont know what to do What is this hatred love I want to be with you right now But it is not to be But I will find a way how So dont worry about me Just curse this hatred love

Have Not, Want Not

I do not want you Nor you me I cannot have you And you cant have me Love does not love me Nor do I love to love Hate cannot hate me And I cannot hate Life does not want me And I dont want to live Death wont accept me Nor do I want to die I cannot have what I want And I do not want what I have Why cant I find the peace of mind That I have always sought Why must everything elude me When will I want no more For my wants will be my haves And my haves will be my wants

Heaven
I would show you Heaven But it would only make you cry To find out that all the pleasures there Were truly a lie I would be with you forever And I would surely try To show you how our life could be If youd only say hi I would do all in my power To never say goodbye

Identity
Myself, who am I Am I the person I want to be Who will I be when I die Will I be the me I think is me Or will it be that I am not who I am Am I who I most despise Am I a man who will try to cram A life full of truth or full of lies Am I just a person in a play Or am I doing what I want to Or is it that my whole day Is planned with things for me to do Am I running on a course That will plan out my life Is it by some unknown force That drives me through such strife My identity I do not know Will it come to me I really want to know My identity

I Would, I Could
I would live a thousands lifetimes to be with you once more I could wait an eternity to see your lovely face I would wait till the end of time for my heart to be less sore I would live a thousand lifetimes to be with you once more I could hope forever for the pain to cease inside my core I would wait until D-Day itself for the dream that I chase I would live a thousand lifetimes to be with you once more I could wait an eternity to see your lovely face I would love for us to be together I could love you with all my heart I would hate to lose you forever I would love for us to be together I could never wish my love for you was stronger I would just hate for us to part I would love for us to be together I could love you with all my heart I would never think of hurting you I could never bear that thought I would hope you know my love is true I would never think of hurting you I could always bring a smile when you were feeling blue I would never forsake the true love that I sought I would never think of hurting you I could never bear that thought

Journey
Ive been on a journey of love A love I could not find With no help from above I was going out of my mind Forever Ive been searching Nowhere was it found Cupid has been perching Waiting for the sound Two hearts make when they meet A sound only he hears A rhythmic kind of beat That casts away all fears Many worlds have I looked None she was in Why was I the one overlooked Why curse the beast within I begin to cease the journey But something pulled me back It was a radiant beauty That the others did lack I loved her with all my heart For what seemed to be a day I hate that we had to part That she is far away With Cupids arrow stuck Deep into my core I hope I will have the luck To see her face once more So now I pray to Aphrodite Of the one I lost I need my love to be with me At all and any cost The love I have will never fade Nor go away in time As my body is laid And they sing the death rhyme I leave this world behind I will watch until I find That she comes through the gates above

The Leader of the Pack

To leadto lead the pack of three To lead them where Where? Where else? To the fourth. The fourth? Yes, the fourth. So youll lead a pack of four To the fourth I lead But lead them I do not But you lead a pack of three to the fourth! To the fourth I lead, but none follow Follow they do not. But then you lead A pack of none. None of three Do I lead, but lead I must To the fourth? Where four will be the pack Will there be a pack of four? Of course. I lead to the fourth And four we will be To lead, but not to. To not follow but to lead

Life
Life will bring a feeling or two And when they come what can you do Love is the hardest to deal with The happiness that comes is a myth Pain is a better feeling than the hurt Both love and pain will put you in the dirt Love will make you do and say Things you will regret another day For you will find it hardly true When you say I love you Pain results from loving one It hurts worse when they feel none The pain brought on will soon die down With the passing you will frown Knowing that the pain you feel Will never pass and never heal Fear will come and make you scared You will do anything you are dared Loneliness is one of torture The waiting just to see her Life can bring pleasure and pain But dont let it drive you insane For life can be a bitch every now and then So let me tell you once again The feelings will come and goes as they please At times you will get down on your knees And ask God to take away the pain and suffering That this life I live can bring But nothing will change it will be the same Life is just one great game The end is death And with each breath Remember Life is life And life sucks

Life- A Continuation of Death

Everything has a purpose in life What is my purpose here Can salvations come from a knife Slicing from ear to ear Lifes lessons are hard learnt Your purpose becomes blurred Dont let yourself get burnt By saying an untrue word Living with no purpose Your soul begins to darken Your fate is blown in the dust You know not whom to harken Wandering around In tragic misery Happiness cannot be found No help will come to thee Love slips in then back out You know not its meaning The agony makes you cry out You find a clutch for leaning Enter here exit there How many lives have you destroyed For whom do you truly care Is your heart an empty void Why live when nothing is worth living For now all are lies When will you learn about giving Is it when your love dies

Living Life in Technicolor

In a world thats shades of gray Never truly black or white Lives a life of half-truths Never wrong or wholly right This life is shades of blue and red Green and purple hues Life and death flow in its veins A world of color he views Orchid trees and azure grass Ruby red rimmed skies Tangerine seas and tan clouds Beauty to the eyes Men as green as emerald glass Children indigo and women canary A world in total Technicolor A beauty it is to see

Loneliness
Loneliness comes when your love is not around It will not go away until love is found The pain that it brings is very hard to handle Like finding your way without the aid of a candle Their love is the light that shines The light that shows you the signs Of love that you follow But with love gone you heart is hollow Empty but still holding a place A place where youve stored their face So you can see your love anytime you please See it when youre waking or down on you knees But the missing is still there And you know that its not fair For you to have to suffer so And the loneliness will go It will be replaced by hate That will carry you to Hades gate Where it will be said to thee That your suffering will cease to be For the one that took your love away Will one day surely pay For His evil deed They will lead To the demise of you and I The end is near and it is time to die From the loneliness Will bring no bliss

Love
Can anyone not love a soul Like the one that I love so Her happiness is my eternal goal But her love I will never know Another day of loneliness A say without her here Her face I really do miss I hope and pray everyday Her lovely face Ill see But with her not around Love is not a good thing My passion has me bound No longer does the songbird sing Of happiness and fun Now the crows talk to me And say I am the one To end love for all I hold the key Love ends the life of men And girls will suffer too With love you cannot win For it will condemn you A love for hate is the best Way to know youre free Leave behind all the rest Of life that used to be For love has destroyed plenty lives Of those who thought they knew It will not stop until it drives Each and every one of you To stop your loving ways For love only brings heartbreak Even if you loved only a few days Someone in the relationship was a fake Love is a destructive force That no one can control Take it from a knowing source Love is not the goal Of people the goal is to love No matter what the case So love nothing from above For it will destroy this loving place

Love a Blessing-Love a Curse

Upon the day that I set my eyes On such a beauty where love doth lies I ventured to learn of the one behind the beauty That person that one doth not always see In the eyes of which she views I found it that I was the one she would choose Many a men had her set in their heart I just loathed the day that we should part I made the most of those few days Twas like basking in some radiant rays Of light that were filled with her love Like an angel that hath come to me Is it to destroy the man I be Or help me see the way The way my life will always stay Until the day I can see her face I will roam this ever-endless place Of love a blessing The joy it may bring Of love a curse Which makes life worse So make life good and keep love in your sight Cause you never know when the time is right For love a blessing love a curse

Love-gods & goddess

I thank the gods of yore Of whom I did implore For my prayer has come true Without them what would I do Aphrodite and Venus, Cupid and Amor Answered to what I have asked for Relief from pain And to love again I didnt try to find A love that would bind So another came to me Came and set me free Freed my heart and soul Gave me a new goal The one Im with now Has caused me to break a vow To which I was obligated To which I thought I was fated But now I know For whom to show That them I do love On earth and up above

Love/Hate
Love and hate are simple and plain They enter your body and cause great pain When love first comes it doesnt feel bad When hate arrives youre steaming mad Love soon consumes your heart And slowly tears you apart Then the love is there no more Then you feel empty to the core Letting hate then come in Ensuring you wont love again Loving another is not an option Because you wont have any fun Hate has replaced your kindness Keeping you from eternal bliss Loving to hate and hating to love Will bring you to the Lord above Your fate will be for your end And there is no one to lend You a hand anymore Cause youre knocking on Satans door

Love Lost & Found

I finally re-learned to love Just for it to be taken away With no good intervention from above My love for her will never sway Our love was not to be But we loved nonetheless Now my love I cannot see And my life is a mess Love mixed with hate The all-consuming pain Destruction is the fate Neer to love again Cold-hearted shell of man No hearted person Who thinks they can Understand the fun That Ill neer again feel For Fate deals me a tainted hand And with the pain I cannot deal A new pain I dont understand Kill everything in existence Let nothing escape the wrath Destroy without repentance Destroy everything in its path Till nothing is left For everyone must pay For the theft I feel this day

Love without You

Can love survive the pass of time Without you by my side How will I make it If I dont know your love Will I make it through this life If I cannot be with you How will I know if Im alive If I feel dead without you Should I try to move on And leave you in the past Can I truly be happy Without my true love near Can it be done How is it done How will I find love without you Is there love without you

The MasterBeast
In the darkest realms of humanity Lives the MasterBeast The evilness of your soul is cast Into the bitter void Feeding Him and His kind eternally Your soul is His to do as he pleases The good youve done was all for naught Cause your heart was too impure Let the demon within come forth And join His Great Rgime The MasterBeast will lead you towards The place of no return Your soul is lost and unredeemed Wondering a cold and lonely place From which theres no escape The light you see is the darkness The darkness is the light Evils grasp is all around Let your hate consume you For you are lost indeed The MasterBeast can save your soul If youd only let me be

Memories
How is it I cannot speak the words I long to say Why must I be alone When will the truth be allowed to surface Is someday soon My love I long to show To the one who has my heart In her gentle grasp But alas I cannot For separate we are But so close it hurts How I long to hear her voice once more Greeting me hello See the look in her eyes When we are together Why do I suffer so Why torture my soul Is it to test my heart To see if its pure If so why so long Why so much Man can only endure for solving Destruction is near How can I hold out When theres nothing to grasp But dead and fading memories Of a time not long ago

Nightlite Angel
The beaming nightlite angel That watches over me Sits over in the corner For all the world to see I may not see her watching But I know that she is there She may know that I watch her Yet I dont really care She is ever the silent one What is there to say I watch her angelic beauty Growing more so with each day The glowing face of my angel Keeps me awake at night Her heavenly force stays with me Even after the dawning of the light Her beauty is beyond compare To all earthly beings And to this loving beauty My lonely heart sings Dont let me be alone With your presence by my side Dont for one minute think My love Ill try to hide You are my nitelite angel I need to be with you I dont want a world That I am not with you

No Need for Words

There is no need to speak The words you feel you need to say I know just how you feel There is no need for words Why waste your breath Trying to explain to me What I already feel inside Why waste my time To tell me something today That I knew yesterday But felt three days before I know that on day one What would happen in a week I knew that you would say today What you planned out two days ago From the moment I saw you Three months gone by tomorrow There is no need for words When I can read you like a book What you think and how you feel What you want to say and wont So why is it that on tomorrow You will say what Ive said For two long years to the day But think it something new So do not speak the words That you long to say For five days ago when I said it You thought only five minutes past And feel it only now

One
One is lonely One is free One is without One is unique One is grand One is small One is for you one is for me One love is all I need

Pain
I cannot help how Im feeling Im feeling so much pain The pain has got me kneeling I cannot help how Im feeling My hand the Fates are dealing I never want to feel again I cannot help how Im feeling Im feeling so much pain The pain of loss and sorrow The never lifting depression The hate to see the morrow The pain of loss and sorrow Happiness you cannot borrow An aggravated aggression The pain of loss and sorrow The never lifting depression

Parting Song
Why do I keep falling in And out of love these days Why should I keep looking For the one to set me free When will I be able to Find my own way What if I should never Be happy in this life When can love truly mean Forever and never a day Will it ever be the way we want Will it be so grand How long will it last this time How bad will we feel When it is gone Now I can see that I Am not alone We are so far yet We are so near It hurts to see you now I never thought that Things would get so bad I never thought good-bye would come I never thought to leave you here But I must go and you wont come So now we must part

If Perfection Was a Person

If perfection had a name Id call her everyday and Wish I could call her mine If perfection had a smile Its what could break my heart Every time she smiles at me I feel the world fall away If perfection had a face Id see it in my sleep I would never let it frown Grace the beauty of it If perfection had a body Id want to hold it in my arms I would never want to let her go If perfection was a person I think I know who she is A person I found not too long ago But lost before she could know That she is everything to me

Piece of the Heart

A piece of my heart was taken away A piece of my heart is gone The piece that is gone today Is a piece nowhere to be found What is it that stole--No who is it, I ponder Why must they torture my soul By leaving a hole in my heart What can fill the void What will take the place Like a marionette I was toyed With-what is my fate The emptiness I feel inside Can it be covered, can it be healed My heart from the world I must hide To be saved from the pain The hole is great Yet I am greater I will not succumb to hate For it will kill us all

Poem 42
I sit and think, Where am I going? I wonder if Ill be better of not knowing What will come to be What will happen to me Where will this life lead Will my sorrow heart bleed From the pain of long ago Or will this heart cease to know Of the love lost before Before entering the light-filled door The crossroads of this life unfold The story of life is told Of the sorrowful heart filled one In the joyous world he knew In a world where nothing flew Sitting still and stilly sitting For the time of this worlds quitting

Purgatory
Purgatory is the tale of what happens to your soul when you die and refuse to enter the light or have unfinished business in this world. Purgatory is that half-way place between life and death that most souls go to because they are not evil enough to enter into the circles of Hell and not good enough to enter the gates of Heaven. They await their judgment to see where their soul will spend the rest of eternity. Some of the less fortunate souls end up staying in Purgatory forever.

Angel without Wings (Intro to Purgatory)

She came to me in the form Of an angel without wings She won her way into my heart And there is where she changed From a figure of heavenly beauty To the spawn of evils mind She sank her talons into my soul And wouldnt let it go With her fangs she tore my flesh She covered herself in my life-blood And left me alone to die I saw a light and knew to where it led I looked back and saw the fury Taking my flesh as food No body in which to return No way will I face the light Here I stay in Purgatory Till I pass away

Purgatory (Waiting in the Void)

Here I am in Purgatory Watching life go by Ive seen my family and So-called friends going to the light Ive watched the rise and fall Of leaders greater and fair Ive seen the corruption Of men who claimed To fight for Justice Ive watched as mens lives Were born and thrown away Ive seen young ladies Becoming whores and hags All of this I watch and wait For my soul to pass away Sent here by a fury who Sought some unknown goal Now I watch and look to see That beauty-beast reek More havoc on this world Lo there she is taking another soul Pass they go into the light Into Eternity?

Darkness in the Void (Outro of Purgatory)

Here I sit and watch the souls Of men and kids go by Watch the beggars become millionaires And those Richies become corrupt Watch the fury weave her spell And watch those she affects Ive been watching for a million years And Ill watch a million more My soul has not weakened Nor has it passed away The world below has committed Crime after crime The people have died and new ones come The cycle ceases to end I look away from the pain That this world has wrought I look again and another crime Another sin committed The worlds committed suicide Nothing left behind My wait has ceased Ill enter the light Through the gateway I go Darkness

Rain of Sorrow
Whats with the rain of sorrow Why is there a down pour Why ruin the face of Heaven With the pains of days gone by Dont let the clouds of misery Keep out the light of light Dont close the starlight eyes To the happiness of this life Stop the rain of sorrow Its drowning out the world Everyone is drenched in sadness Let joy pierce the misery-clouds And allow for love to shine Let happiness and hope in To dry the river sadness Let time guide you now From the edge of lonely bay And over the bridge of desperation And into the city of peace Where dwells the life you want Of guilt and bliss

Reject
Why am I looked down upon By everyone I dont know Why does it always seem That the whole worlds out to get me Why must I be a society reject Thought to be a good seed gone bad Why cant I be what Ive always been Me, my self and I and be accepted Im a reject cast out of a world Where rejects roam Im lost, dazed and confused By how society can reject a reject Ive taken in those who wont Take me in with them Ive turned down those who want me Im a reject among rejects Never knowing my place in this world Whatever happened to everyone accepting everyone But more importantly accepting me

Rewind Me
Why dont you take me back Back to the days when things still made sense Why wont you go back Back to before we lost ourselves Why dont you rewind me Remind me Of all the days we lost Rewind me, remind me Of all the days to come Why cant we return to Return to those happy days Those days we lost when we said When I said goodbye Why dont you rewind me Remind me Of all the days to come Where do I go from here Forward is the darkness And you were my light Back is the only way that still makes sense Take me back to before we lost ourselves and Take me back, back, back to the light

Senseless Senses
I see the world without eyes I hear the silence without ears I smell the aroma without a nose I feel the pain of life without touch I taste the world without tongue I talk without speech I feel without heart I hear without listening I smell without inhaling I taste without eating Senseless senses Is what I have I go through life not knowing If I am or am not feeling What I think I feel

Silence
The silence that I harbor Is a silence just for you Ive wasted too many words On you already How was I to know my words Would mean so little to you You took those words You twisted my words You wo-manipulated my words To please your warped mind You made me feel as if I had said something wrong Something inappropriate When reality shows it was That my words were unwanted You didnt deserve them My silence to you is eternal For now I know how wrong I was When I told you what I did I shall never speak again Since youre no-show of affection I hope that you may someday hear The truth behind my words But never from me will those Words issue again This is the final time That these words will Be only, and just, for you This is the last time I speak to thee All I have to say is Good-bye

Sleep
To sleep To sleep a sleep that is not sleep When there is no sleep to sleep No dreams in such sleep For its a sleep beyond all sleep Lying motionless and still In a dreamy sleep-like state The sleep you sleep is a sleepless sleep Of one you wont awake

Smile CILY
There is always someone, somewhere Thinking something at sometime That someone may think that something Of one who is divine I am such a someone and have something that I think I think this for you, I do This someone thinks that you should Smile cause I love you Smile when youre feeling down Cause Im thinking of you Smile when theres no one around Cause of what I think is love Keep this thought in your heart That there is someone, somewhere Thinking something at sometime And that someone is me And that something is love And that divine one is you And that time was then That time is now That time is still to come So I am here Thinking of love always That I may think this love Is for you so please Smile cause I love you

Speak
The more that you speak The less that they hear The only heed to the action Of your rage that youve contained But have released Unto their wretched souls One by one the angels fall One by one the demons crawl The aftermath is a travesty I release my hate on all of thee They used to laugh and joke And now they beg and plea But its my turn to have some fun I need not hear them speak For their words are only lies Now they will never speak another

Succubus
First you stole my heart Held it in your tender hands Then you broke my spirit Shattered with your lies But all of that does not compare To when you took my soul away You snuck in while I slept In you crept and quickly stole Stole my life while I lay unknowing I dreamt while you took the thing I kept from everyone You took what could never be replaced After you drained me you waited When I awoke to see you there You stole one thing that you knew You would never have You took my life-blood and Stood there crying at my side While I died in your arms You took everything from me My little succubae

Sweet Angel Mine

I look at her face and see my present I see my future in her eyes With one kiss she took my past away She speaks to me, no lies Shes an angel sent to me To guide me through this life In such a short time She showed me happiness in strife

The Tale of Life

The tale of life is consisted of five poems: Fate, Destiny, Lot, Portion and Doom Fate: the inevitable, adverse outcome Destiny: foreordained great or noble course or end Lot: blind chance Portion: apportioning of good and evil Doom: grim or calamitous fate

Fate
The Fates, those three twisted sisters, The ones who plan out life They work tirelessly day and night Night and day they toil Your thread is being spun Spun by the one called Clotho Being measured with golden rod Measured by Lachesis And cut, oh the cutting, Being cut by Atropos They see your future clearly As clear as the finest glass They will send you on On towards Destiny The sisters have finished with you They send you on your way Your life is running its course Along the way you meet a nice girl Whose name is Destiny Shes with you everyday helping you She seems to be made for you But her job is deliverance Just like the Keres, she delivers Deliverance will come soon She holds her hand out to you She waits

Destiny
Destiny is that nice, pretty nurse The one who gives you that bitter-pill The pill that they call Life And before you take that pill you think Is it Heartache Cyanide Or is it hope Hope is the backstabbing friend Who comes to see you She brings you nice things Then she leaves you with a note A note saying Goodbye, forever You hold the pill while three sisters watch Clotho spins the thread of life Lachesis tells her where to stop And Atropos cuts the thread They are the Moirai sisters The twisted sisters of Fate Destiny returns to see you havent had your pill She questions you but does not allow an answer She says you have a visitor A tall slender figure appears A cold chill is wrapped round him like a shroud His dark hooded shroud hides his face But you need not see a face to know him A bone white finger points at you He beckons

Lot
By what chance should he appear Appearing now while you hold the pill The pill could it make him leave The bitter pill of Life His bone white hand is outstretched Life flashes before your eyes You call that Life What ever happened to the nice girl you met Wasnt her name something like Like Angel or was it Faith Faith was what put you here You believed too much of what she said What she said was lies Faith is what broke you down Angel who was she A sister of someone But whos sister Faiths sister, yes thats it Twins if youre not mistaken Angel was the nice and beautiful Faith was the sneaky and strange one Or do you have that wrong Angel told the lies to Faith And Faith was the one that made them true Another has fallen to the sisters named Venus They trap

Portion
The shrouded figure comes closer The chill is overtaking you You cant resist the pill The pull of Death Why now, youre still young What have you done to bring To bring Death to your room He speaks but his words are lost Youre too alive to die Yet too dead to live Destiny is on his right Two other figures appear Who are they those two figures The hoods hide their faces One turns to the other A flash of something golden Golden hair long and fair Faith and Angel Are they dead Why are they with Death Charon appears to take you Take you to the other side To Deaths side He rows his ferry to and fro Now he waits to take you across He rows

Doom
The figures stand waiting Waiting for you to cross Why is Death so close So close his chill has chilled you Is this a cruel joke A joke played by the Fates To end your life so young Or is it this a crossroad A crossroad of Life and Death Which road to take The road of Life of course But how do you take that road By taking the pill will u live By not will you die It was given to you by Destiny Yet there she stands with Death Theres Death and Faith, Angel and Hope, Destiny and Charon Death he beckons Hope she beckons The Venus twins they beckon Destiny she waits Charon he waits to row you across As they call you ponder You think what choice is right Do you take the bitter pill of Life Or do you sit and watch them beckon You take the pill You fade

Three Phases of Time Past

The past holds all with an iron grip It holds with a grasp that will not slip It cannot be changed It wont be rearranged The past is set in stone To forever be left alone

Present
Now is always in motion Now is never done We steadily move to the then Now is past and starts again Present contains both future and past The present is something that will never last

Future
There is no future, for the future is now For the future we make a vow Ever so slowly the future becomes the past The future is the present, at last, Live for the future, not the time gone by For there lies memories that would surely make you cry

A Time for Love-A Time for Death

There is a time to live and die A very time your soul will cry Why is it that I am here Who is this I hold so dear Do I really love this girl Will my world cease to whirl If we depart our own ways Foe life has been a bitter haze I loved her so when we were one Together we had so much fun Never once thought I of death Never hating every breath That she breathes, I do despise She was once sweet to the eyes To see is to be attracted to This girl who I once thought I knew But all my mind has is hate Hate for her and the date On which I said I love you Cause now I know that it isnt true For love can only bring despair A pain I can no longer bear At first it was a love for her Now a love for all who were Once alive but now are dead A fury in me thats fiery red When love dies the soul dies too Theres nothing that you can do With love comes death and a dead heart follows No love, no soul, no life, no death is how it goes Nothing good comes from love So curse that entity from above Who made us for this need to be Loved by you and loved by me

Together Forever
To say forever means for life For life means until death This vow I will make to my wife And love her until my last breath Forever is easily said Its said when theyre with you Never meaning when Im dead Just when I find somebody new But forever is what I said And forever is what I mean I cant get you out of my head Youre the most beautiful girl Ive seen Youre like half of my soul The Yin to my Yang, so to say Your happiness is my goal I love you more each day But since we are apart My heart it does weep It is the crying of a broken heart I see you in my sleep I will wait for an eternity To be with you once more Youre beautiful face I want to see O be with you forevermore

To My Love
To my love, I want to be with thee To my love, thy face I want to see To the one who taught me how to love The one who said loves from above To my love, whos always on my mind My love for her has made me blind To the beauties this world can bring I begin to cry when singers sing Of lovers lost and lovers found Of those who live or are in the ground I miss my love more each day Longing to heat and say Those three famed words so loosely used Many a hearts those words have bruised When they are said but are not true To my love this vow I make to you I will love you with every bit of my heart Until death do us part Be we lovers or just friends Lets just see what Heaven sends

Tortured Soul
My soul is caught between two states One which loves and that which hates It is so close to insanity But just as close to reality Driving straight to the edge But swerving so to miss the ledge Wanting to die to feel no pain Wanting to live to love again Hating everything and everyone But still loving that special someone One answer will seal my fate Either that of love of that of hate Hoping so to live not die Hoping my life is not a lie Wishing and praying day and night That the choice I make is right My soul is bound and one holds the key In my heart I hope they set me free Hate for he who made me this way Hate that each and everyday I never see who can take away the hate Seeing only those who will not fulfill my fate To remain a tortured soul freedom is no longer a goal That I can hold onto Cause that will not do So I must remain caught Until my body has begun to rot Never being free once more After entering Hades door

The Truth
The truth, the truth There is no truth The truth is lies The lies are truth The lies you speak are truthful lies The truths you know are lies of truth There is no truth, only lies Lies have made themselves true The truth knows not what is true Truth lies, lying true The truth, the truth There is no truth

A Twisted Love Song

Im only happy when things are sad Im only laughing when the times are bad The only sunshine is when theres rain My only pleasure is you I wanna see you bleed I wanna see you plead I wanna hear ya right here and now I wanna love you but I dont know how Im only crying when the times are good Im only hurting when you think I should Im only wanting to see your pain My only wish is to love again I wanna hear you cry I wanna see you die I wanna hurt ya like I know I can All I want is to be your man I wanna hurt I wanna live I wanna cry I wanna give all my heart to you But I cant (Oh No) but I wont Youre the most twisted little thing Ive ever known I just love it when your pain is shown

Unanswered Question
I stand and think was the choice right To sell myself for freedoms gain Should I have stayed to fight And suffer from the pain Now I wish for happiness To give me such relief I stand here in the vastly open I stand under the sun I stand here with my heart broken Wondering why did I run I ran from love I ran from hate When I see the blackened dove I truly see my fate Im all alone Just me and my thoughts I hear my voice alone Bouncing off the rocks

Unknown
Without my beloved by my side Without my loved one here The suns face does run and hide Loneliness is creeping up I fear Alone is what I be Love is nowhere to be had Darkness is all I see And I am sorely sad I miss my love so I need to be with her Her love I need to know To be what we once were Friends and Lovers Forever

War of the Heart

I do not know how it came to start But there is a war in my heart Its not between to live or die Its to see who is my love Is it for the one above Or a new one that Ive found My old love has me bound To not follow in the new path Unless to answer to the wrath Of the one I betrayed My future has been laid Out before me when I choose But one love I will surely lose It will not effect but one It is the one I first begun To truly love Yes, the one from above But she is far away Hopefully one day We will reunite And be together lest we fight But I pray with all my might That together we will be That the pain will cease to be To my knees I will drop And kindly ask for the pain to stop When the war of the heart does cease I hope that I can Rest in Peace Because one will be hurt And their soul is in the dirt But the one that is true Will hear the words I Love You That is it and nothing more This is the end of the war And my heart will be sore Nevermore

The What-Ifs of Life

What if is a word we love to say We use it to guess what would be We imagine what would be today But my what if is to see The love that I lost long ago My what if could come true If I could just go And say I love you What if the words What If had power Like wishing on a star at night What if my life could be less sour I wish upon the dawning light That we will be together once more More and more I miss her face My heart is broken and so sore Hoping that my fear I face What if one day dawns What will this world send Will we cease to be pawns Hopefully it comes to an end So that I will be free To do what I need to do Free to be me And youre free to be you

When
When death walks with fairies When ogres ride unicorns When Zeus meets God When Hades meets Satan When Above falls When Below rises When lions sleep with the man When Bigfoot sees Medusa When Nessie speaks with a Minotaur When angels fly with vampires When zombies wake to death When witches and warlocks befriend When will Someday come

Who Am I
Who am I? Im a fleeting image Im a shadow you see out the corner of your eye Im a dream youve never dreamt Im a memory youve yet to have Im a deja vu you havent experienced Im the hushed whisper in a crowded room Im the nameless face you see Im the faceless name you speak Im the experience you block out Im the memory you repress Im the dream you fear of having Im the fear you cant explain Im the love youve never found Im a piece of you youve never experienced You now know who I am So, who are you?

World of Words
I Sigh I Need Somebody And No one Is There Y Reality Ends All Life In Societies The Hate I Suffer Leaves Only Violent Entities I Fear Entering Eternal Loneliness Im Suffering Painful Agony In Nothing Sometimes U Plead Pray Or Speak Entirely To Obliterate Hate Unjustly Rot Today To Hades I Say May U Cause Hurt Inquire Sanity Live In Fear Even When Our Reality Takes Hate Sincerely U Can Have

All Gods Narcissistic Yearning And Never Does God Realize I Entertain Fear In Telling Im Satans Mischievous Young But Even Life Isnt Entirely Fair Those Hung And Those Assassinated Lie Like

Tremendous Hunks Incinerated Nitrogen Gases Suffocate Heavens Eternal Angels Violence Everlasting Nears Cause All Niceness Steals Everything N Days Mainly U Suffer Tears Can Our Minds Endanger The Only Anger N Eternal Nothingness Den

What You Want

I dont care what you say I will never be What it is you want Me to be for you You always seem to try To change the way I am I cant believe that I Fell for you I see it in your eyes Its wearing on my mind That Ill never be what You want me to be for you I am the way I am You are the way you are What more is there to say I will never be You will never be We will never be What you want What I want What we want Me to be You to be Us to be For you and for me and for us We are one and the same

Wonder
I sit and I wonder Is it worth living Is it worth giving Your life to another What do you think Would it be worth it Just so that you get The love of another The life of another It is too painful For they are too vainful For their own life Not that of anothers