The One that Got Away Danielle Samantha Paguila

Life is not ours to draw and have what we want to happened to us. Life is the best thing God ever gave to us to fulfill something, to experience what lifes ahead of us, meet people to complete our journey, to love someone, to experience having problems to show how we handle it, how to take care of other people, to have fear but courage is stronger than fear. We live and learn; we commit mistakes and make it right. Theres one word that no one wants to ever experience; Death. We avoid this as much as we want too. We lost someone along our journey but like what people say; Life must go on, move on but like what The Script song says; How can I move on if Im still inlove with you. This is my story, my story that experience Happiness, Sadness, Problems, Pain, Sacrifice and Grieve. Im Louis William Tomlinson, 45 years old, CEO of Tomlinson Company, biggest, richest company in the world. I have fraternal twins; Harry Edward Tomlinson and Samantha Darcy Tomlinson both 22 and my second twins; Storm Chace Tomlinson and Thunder James Tomlinson both 15 years old my two twin angels, they are the one who Ive been holding too since shes gone 5 years ago because of Alzheimers Disease, my Wife; Eleanor Jane Calder-Tomlinson, my beautiful angel and Karley Louise Tomlinson, our 2 years old angel whos with her mother now, she died because of Dravet Syndrome that cause of our downfall. Eleanor and I met when we have our own mind; my Mom was her Moms bestfriend so since were in our Mothers womb we were destined together. She was my playmate, my best friend and everything that I ever wanted. Eleanor is a

kind of girl who everyone wants to be, beautiful, energetic, helpful, very gullible, intelligent and very optimistic while I was the one every parents dont want to have but my Mom was immune to my silliness. Eleanor always yelled at me and never talks to me for a month when Ive done something wrong when were in high school so Ive changed a lot for that. Her mother died when she was 7 years old because of Alzheimers disease. When we are two years old, her Mom dont recognized us anymore, When Eleanor woke up every morning he would go to her Mothers bedroom and introduce herself to her. Good morning, Mommy. Im Eleanor Jane Calder, your daughter, Mommy I promise to be successful doctor one day so that I can make you okay. I love you, Mommy. That was the word she always says to her Mom. Eleanor always told me that it was hard to watch her own Mother asked her Who is she? Eleanor has 2 eldest siblings; Chace Christopher Calder, 25 and Perrie Rose Calder, 20. Chace is the CEO of Calder Corporation and Perrie is a Lawyer, both successful. They work hard to earn money for their Moms medication and hospital fees. Their Mom recognized them but its still hard to know that she dont know Eleanor. She forgot everything. She doesnt know how to eat; she forgot everything that recently happen, she doesnt know how to use the bathroom. She became useless and she acts like a newborn child. Greg, Elles Dad never went to his office to work hard because of her. She took every single fiber he had in his body to be strong enough to look and take care of her wife that was suffering. He clean her up, he fed her, he clean her mess when she pee, teach her how to talk, help her how to do simple things like taking a bath, show her all of their picture and tell her who are they and the most painful part Ive ever seen is when he always tell; Im Gregory Calder, your husband. I love you Darling. I was proud of Elles Dad of hows strong he was. I always wish that would never happen to me. When were 7, we were playing when Elles decide to wake her up to show the drawing she made. I accompany her to go to her parents room and wake her mother. When I look at her mother, I become nervous and I was covered with fear in me. Her mother looks pale and not breathing. I held her hands and it was cold, Im 7 years old and have my own mind to think that shes dead; I was intelligent to know that her Mom is not breathing anymore and Elle was too innocent to know that and still wake her Mom. Mommy! Wake up. Look at my drawing. She woke her Mom but got no respond. I held her hands. Mommy! She called up again. Mommy!! Mommy!! Wake up!! She yelled, her Dad immediately sit up at her daughters voice that was crying, Chace and Perrie run to the room and they run to their Mothers bed. I was there holding Elles hand. They try to wake her up but no respond and they start to cry and cry and cry. Elle was worst; she was yelling her Moms name over and over again wishing she would wake up. It pains me when I look at her. I just hug her. My tears were threatening to fall but I held it back to show that Im strong for her. Elle was still crying in my chest. Greg carried her wife and run to their car and Chace drive while Perrie was in the drivers seat. Elle and I were in the back. Daddy. Shes gonna wake up, right? She promised me to play Dress up with me. Little Elle asked her Dad. Her Dad burst in fits of sobs when he heard his daughter asked him that when he dont know if his wife will wake up or not. Chace held back his tears because he was driving but you can see that he was in pain and Perrie was sobbing loudly. Greg didnt answer Elle and she look at me. Louis, she will wake up right? She promised me too that she will dress me up, do my make up for our wedding when we grow up, right? She looks at me with tears flowing from her face. I cant stop my tears anymo re and they free from falling, I just hug her tight and like her father, I cant find my word to tell her the answer. We arrived at the hospit al and they put her Mom in the bed and wheel her to the ER. We waited for hours and that was the longest hour I have. When the Doctor walks to us, he looks with sympathy in Elles Dad.

Im sorry; youre wife died cause of Brain Clogged. The doctor said and they all burst into loud sobs. I look at Elle who was crying out so loud. That day forward, I promised to be the best Doctor when I grow up so I can heal every person whos sick. After her mother died, we cant talk to her, she was holding her doll that her Mom gave to her. I was always at her side that day. When we were 10 years old, our love with Music started. Eleanor has an amazing voice. We started to compose lyrics and make a tune for it. I love to sing and plays guitar. Its started into hobbit when few of our family witness our l ittle performance. They capture a video of us and send it to a talent show and we got in. Our first song together was Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie. We won that night, people want us to join bigger contest but we refused them because we want to study hard for our future. I decided to be a Brain Doctor while Elle decide she want to be a nurse. She like to take care of people because she didnt have the strength to take care of her mother. When we graduate in Grade School, I was the Valedictorian and Elle was the Salutatorian. We both dont care who rank the top. We share each other knowledge because we want to pursue our dream. When were in High School, I became more troublemaker than I was in Grade School. I always prank the teachers, skip class because I was influence by my new friends. Elle and I start to fight because of my doings. She never look at me and never notice me. She always study. I realized that I promised her that together we will reach our dream. I apologized to her and one thing I love about Elle is that she forgives too easily. One sorry is enough. I became more behave when we were sophomores. I study in advance about Alzheimers disease because that was the thing I want to know more. I found out that it has no cure. Everyone was devastated when Elles Mom died. Shes the role of a perfect Mother. She treat me like her own son. I never knew that I developed a crush on Elle when were in Third Year. She looks so beautiful like her Mom. She got all the features of her Mom. Elle has brown eyes like a chocolate and brown curly hair; I have green eyes and brown hair, hard jaw and thin lips. I asked her to prom and she said yes. Elle and I were inseparable. We always together in everything we do. We always got an A+ in our subjects. We both tutored each other in our weakness. When Prom came, Elle looks stunning in her floor length baby pink spaghetti strap gown that flows elegantly to her feet with a diamond in the chest area. She up do her hair that tiny strand of her hangs in each side of her face. A light make up and she looks so beautiful. She was the highlight of the night because of her dress. She looks really stunning and every guy wouldnt miss to look at her. She was a quiet person who never wants to gain friend because she said I was enough for her. She was the sweetest person ever. She won the Prom Queen and I was the Prom King. That day she was notice by student and she freak out because she was not into people looking at her. I become more protective of her because guys start to talk to her and I scare them away from her. We always stay in library to study and take lunch together. When were senior, things went wrong when Elles almost drown during our Class Fieldtrip. We were by the lake when she was in the shore and suddenly her feet slip and she accidentally slip into the deep side of water and she doesnt know how to swim. I was in our room when one of my classmate run to me and said that Elle almost drown. I run into the shore when an unconscious Elle was in the sand. My heart shut down when I saw her. I run into her because I know CPR. I try to pump his chest and give her air through the mouth, after two attempts, still nothing, I was crying so hard because I dont know what to do, I didnt give up on her and try again. My third attempt when she cough water, I hug her so tight that day and promised myself not to take my eyes off her, shes a certified klutz and a danger magnet. That was the scariest thing I ever had in my life. She asked me not to tell her father about it and being a sucker for her puppy look I agreed. I never let go of Elle that day, I decide to go home but she dont want too because she want to ride the London Eye and sight see in London.

Life is short, make everything out of it. I saw that in one of a stand in the London Eye. Since that day, I always make sure that Elle and I have the most memorable things in our life. When she almost died during our Fieldtrip, I realized that I love her so much. I promised to myself that when we graduate in High School, Ill confess to her. I asked her Dad about this and hes fine with it because he saw how I care about her daughter. He loves Elle because he reminds her of her lost wife. Her Dad was seeing another girl, he asked first her children if its okay with them and they are okay with them. One time in our senior year when I met Harry, Niall, Zayn and Liam, they are my classmate in my Music Class. Eleanor takes Dance Class and met her bestfriend Danielle. We were assigned to write our original composition of our song and we will perform it on our Fair night. I compose lyrics with Elle as my inspiration to the lyrics I wrote. It was the night of our Fair night. Four hours till our performance. Elle and I decide to roam around the Fair ground. We decide to ride in the rollercoaster, Cyclopes and a lot more thrilling rides. We came in one booth where there is a sloth bear in there. Elle love Ice Age and love Sid. It was a shoot 3 running monkey to get it. I try for it and my first 3 attempt failed, I never give it up and try and try, Elle was at my side cheering for me. After 9 attempts I finally got it, I gave to Elle who looks like she wins lottery, it was worth it all. We passed by the Carousel and Elle being a child at heart decides to ride the Carousel, we were laughing so hard and capture photos. We were laughing, goofing, and eating lots of corn. We decide to go the photo booth and slid into it and pose. We were just laughing and click of camera was heard. It was 5 photo in 1 strip, we took our own copy when Liam texted me that we need to prepare. I held Elles hand and went to the stage where we will be performing. I went backstage to rehearse our song; Elle was with Danielle and Darcy in front row. It was our time to sing and went to the stage and I just look at Elle who was smiling at me, I will ask her to be my girlfriend today, after our performance I will ask Elle to ride the Ferris wheel. Liam will sing the first verse, we were standing in line, we decide to make it acoustic. We were standing when we tell who we dedicate this song. Harry came first and that he dedicate this song to Darcy, her girlfriend. Liam said Danielle, Niall said to his food and his family that we laughed about the food thing, Zayn said to himself which make himself vain and when its me, I just look straight into Elles eyes. To Eleanor Jane Calder. I said and point at her and smile. The first tune came and Liam starts.

"One Thing" [Liam] I've tried playing it cool But when I'm looking at you I cant ever be brave 'Cause you make my heart race Liam went to Danielle and gives her 3 red roses and a bear. And sit on the edge of the stage singing to her while holding her hand. [Harry] Shot me out of the sky You're my kryptonite You keep making me weak Yeah, frozen and can't breathe Harry jumps to the stage and knelt down in front of Darcy and gives her 3 white roses and sing to her and kiss her cheeks when she was done.

[Zayn] Somethings gotta give now 'Cause Im dying just to make you see That I need you here with me now 'Cause you've got that one thing Zayn went and get a mirror and 3 roses and while he was singing he give the roses to himself which the crowd and us bust into laughters. Only Zayn will do that. [Chorus] So get out, get out, get out of my head And fall into my arms instead I don't, I don't, don't know what it is But I need that one thing And you've got that one thing [Niall] Now I'm climbing the walls But you don't notice at all That I'm going out of my mind All day and all night Niall knelt down to the tray of McDonalds and singing, we burst into fits looking at him when Sandy, our lead guitar take it away and run and eat it which Niall run after him while singing. The crowd went nuts. [Louis] Somethings gotta give now 'Cause I'm dying just to know your name And I need you here with me now 'Cause you've got that one thing I recover from my laughing fits and went to Eleanor, take her hand and walk to the stage while singing at her and the boys and me went infront of her and give her a blue rose. [Chorus] So get out, get out, get out of my head And fall into my arms instead I don't, I don't, don't know what it is But I need that one thing So get out, get out, get out of my mind And come on, come into my life I don't, I don't, don't know what it is But I need that one thing And you've got that one thing Woah-oh-oh-oh Woah-oh-oh-oh Woah-oh-oh-oh [Harry] You've got that one thing

[Louis] Get out, get out, get out of my head And fall into my arms instead [Chorus] So get out, get out, get out of my head And fall into my arms instead I don't, I don't, don't know what it is But I need that one thing So get out, get out, get out of my mind (out of my mind) And come on, come into my life I don't, I don't, don't know what it is But I need that one thing Yeah, you've got that one thing The crowd was jumping up and down and dancing. The applause and standing ovation from the crowd was overwhelming. After we perform, I went down and get Elles hand and lead her to the Ferris Wheel, it was 11:57 in the evening and the fireworks will display exactly at 12. We went to the ticket booth and when it start we were just laughing with our last performance and when we reach the top, the ride stop at the top. Elle, weve been friends since God knows when and since Ive met you, no other girls caught my eyes. I felt this pull with you when were in high school when you always at my side, always bring me lunch, when Im sad you do silly things just to make me laugh. I was afraid to court you because I promise your Dad to court you when we graduate in College. Your Dad seems to love me a lot because he scares all the guys who want to court you. I chuckles and she look at me in disbelief. All this time, I thought no one likes me! She exclaimed. I burst in laughters and she glared at him, I kissed her cheeks. Sorry, Shorty. That was your Dads fault. May I continue my oh-so-great-confession? she nod and laughed at me. Well, now that were finishing High School, I promised myself to court you and this is the time. I said and bring o ut the ring I bought last week. She looked at it and she was thinking I was proposing at her. Im not proposing, Shorty! Its just a promise ring. I laugh at her flush face. So, can you do the honor and be my Officially Best Friend, Girlfriend and soon to be wife? I asked and she bursts in sobbing fits and I wiped her tears that fall from her face. Of course! Idiot, Ive been waiting for you to confess to me! She said and hugs me. When all of the suddenly a fireworks came to the view and we stared in awe when it was shaped as a heart. I look at her and smile. That memory was one of my best memories ever. I still remember how she looks so flushed when she saw the promise ring. We graduated in High School and she was the Valedictorian and I was the Salutatorian. We have a big celebration because of that. We are all proud of her. That start the time when she always tell me that her head is aching, I look at her and asked her what shes feeling and she told me shes okay but the fear in me stays. I wish she didnt inherits her Mother sickness because if it is, I dont know what to do if that happens to Elle.

College days, I decide to take first my Psychology course because I want to study peoples behavior while Elle take first his Caregiving course. We study hard for this but we still have time for each other. College is more serious than High School, it was hard and Im trying to have my grade in As. Relationships are not perfec t. There are times when we both fight because we dont have any time to each other, we avoid each other for a week then we reconcile and decide to buy a studio type condominium for ourselves. Our parents are cool with it and they have trust in us. We survived First and Second Year in College with a good start and lots of As. Liam, Harry, Niall and Zayn were still my friends and after our performance in our High School years became famous. Someone upload it in YouTube and its went viral and people start to sign us up to be their new singer, producer align to take us and offer us a recording contract for the whole summer and we agreed to it, we became famous but when college start we decide to take care of our study first but still records and compose songs and lyrics. I can still focus on my study and my parents were okay with it as long as it will not distract our study. Danielle, Darcy and Eleanor were still best friends. Eleanor was okay with me still playing with my music. Sometimes, she composed song; shes a great composer and great with words. One time she wrote a song dedicated to her mother, I help her made a tune for it, it was her Mothers 47th birthday and we visit her grave and sing she wing it while I play it with Nialls guitar. We were crying at sight of Elle while shes singing. Third Year in College and its the time were we will take our On-Job Training, I was assigned to mental ward while Elle was assigned to an elderly care hospital which she encounter a 59 years old Carla who is suffering from and Alzheimers Disease. She was telling me about Carla when I was thinking if its a sign that Elles having one. I just push it away and th ink it was just a coincident but Elles a bit forgetful sometimes and I wish it was nothing serious. She was crying every time Carlas Family visit and Carla never realized every single of her family, she even want to play dolls with her own granddaughter, She was crying because it was like she was her mother, every time that Carla was having a massive headache and her eyes getting blurred, Elles always take care of her, there this time when she told me that Carla used to draw a face that looks like her husband when they were still 20 years old. She cared for Carla like shes her own grandma. She was crying when she told me that every time Carla was peeing, she doesnt feel it, Elle just clean it and changed her, I recommend to her to just let Carla wore a diaper, she agreed with me, Carla always looks happy whenever she saw toys, shes not talking all the time, she looks like a newborn child that doesnt have any idea around her, Elle fed her because she dont know how to fed herself, it was heartbreaking whenever she tell me a story of Carla, she stay there for a year, she cried when she told me it was her last day, she decide to say goodbye to Carla when she decide to wake her up, Carla was not moving and breathing, she was a crying mess because she felt it was her Mother all over again, I went to the hospital and support Elle, she love Carla like her own grandma. She never attends the burial because she doesnt have the courage to do it and after a month she recovers from it and moves on. It was our graduation when we all gather together, I was the magma Cumlaude and she was the cum laude of her Department. Elle and I was blessed with a Fraternal Twins, it was not plan but we still happy for it, we stop for a year for Elles pregnancy but I still pursue my Doctorate Degree; major in Neurology. I never missed taking care of Elle s condition, Danielle graduated as an Ob-gyn and she was our Doctor. I was studying about Human Brain because I want to specialize on it, I want to learn more things for it, I studied non-stop for me to learn more. Having a pregnant girlfriend is hard because of her, First was her mood-swing; we always fight in silly things, she get angry for no reason and heres one thing, shes been pinching my cheeks all day till its swollen, theres one time when I was cooking and she start to pinch my arms, legs, cheeks and pull my hair, shes a sadist, I was a battered boyfriend. Every time I remember it, I was laughing at that memory. Second was her Weird Eating Habit; I was studying for Midterms when she walk to me and demand a Jelly that is not a Jelly Ace, I called Harry, Liam, Zayn and Niall to help me look for it, Where in the world of London will I find a Jelly that is not a Jelly Ace?! We were looking for it at nine in the evening for four hours! We want to give up when Harry found a Jelly that was Konjac Jelly. I still remember that day. We were looking around London when Harry called me and we went where he is, we taste it and dip it in the sauce, we ordered 30 pieces of it because Niall ate 9 of it and we ate it and its delicious. We went home when theres a flying

shoes that comes to our way that smack on our faces, we drop to the ground to miss the flying shoes that my girlfriend was throwing. We were scared big time. Never make a pregnant woman angry and waiting. She was throwing us a shoes while saying. Ive waited for you for 5 hours and you make me worried because youre still not home! She scream at me while she was crying, I look at my clock and its true, we spend 5 hours to find that stupid Jelly! The boys gave me the Konjac Jell y than run away! Some friends I have. I dunk the shoes went flying to me. Babe, we were looking for your Jelly, here it is. I told her and show her the bag of Jellies and her eyes lights up and I breathe in relief when she went to me and kiss my cheeks. I bought everything a pregnant woman would ask, one time she asked me for a pickle and peanut butter with Jelly, and it doesnt taste good. That was one of the memory I always treasure. We both went to Danielle to check the Babys condition. Elles was 5 months and her belly was bigger than 5 months has to be. Danielle put some gel on Elles tummy and checks for the baby and the greatest news I ever heard was when she told me Im having a Fraternal Twins. I was planning on proposing to her after the babies were born. Four months of pregnancy and my 1st semester was done. It was hard for her because shes carrying two babies inside her. I search about what to do when you have a pregnant wife, I did it all, from exercise to diet. She always yell at me every morning when I cook and sing. Her face was priceless every time I remember it. I was cooking and singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star because based on my study, singing while the baby is in the womb made them smart when they grow up but Elles hate it. Twinkle, twinkle, little star How I wonder what you are. Up above the world so high Like a diamond in the sky Twinkle, twinkle, little star How I wonder what you are! I sing it repeatedly while cooking for breakfast. Elles was sitting at the chair slapping her hands on her ears. I take her hands off to her ears. Dont close your ears, our babies wont hear it. I told her and she looks at me with fire in her eyes. What did I do?! Why are you singing? Its annoying! She said. Its good for the babies, so that when they were born, theyll be smart. I reason out to her. Where did you read that? She asked. I picked my iPad where my research was. Here. I researched it. I told her and resume on singing and cooking and a spoon went flying and hit my head. I look at my girlfriend wide eyes. Did she just hit me with a spoon? Did you just? I ask her who was grinning ear to ear. Yes. She giggled. I smile when I remember that day. After a year our twins was born, my experience during that was terrifying, she was gripping my hands so tight it might break but I try to show that I was strong and she was crying because of the pain, I kiss her forehead repeatedly just to ease the pain, I want her to have a CS Delivery but she insist on having a normal delivery so we just agree with her. After 30 minutes, our baby boy was born first than our baby girl.

After they clean them, they transfer Elle to a private room; we name our babies; Harry Edward Tomlinson and Samantha Darcy Tomlinson. Harry was 2 minutes before Darcy. My angels were complete and Im happy. Life with Elle and my angel was the best gift God ever gave me. Every single day with them was my happiness. After 5 months I proposed to Elle and it was my happiest moment. I dont know but this year has been great for us. They had their First Birthday and it was a blast. Everyone was there and we all enjoy it. There this time when my On Job Training came and I really want to go to New York because thats the best to train for my specialization and its a year but having your own family, Im having second thought but Elles persuading me to just go with it because she can take care of the boys and our parents will help her and its my dream. So against my will, I just went with it. I pursue and work hard for thi s because this is for my family. One year is hard because I miss them, we Skype every day and Im visiting during my off and every 5 times a month. It was during my 5 months stay there when they suddenly appear, I was at hospital when my operation was done, I walk down the stairs and my two twins came running to me, I stand there shock and I move when they yelled Dada. I didnt miss their first walk because Elle and I were doing a Skype when they walk and I witness it and as a father, it was a prize for me, I was smiling ear to ear in my entire duty. They are here in London until my training is done, it was so great, I miss them so much and I changed my duty to 8 8 so that I get too see my angels. We take the kid out and enjoy their selves around New York. A Year came to end and Ive learn a lot on my training. I graduated as Suma Cumlaude in Neurology Department and the twins are two years old. We were 23 when we get married and after a month, Elles got pregnant, we didnt expect the kid but we still take care of her. It was 8 months when she was born, yes, we had a girl. When Karley was born she was not breathing for 10 minutes the doctors revived her and she finally cried, Elles have a CS Delivery because the child was early to come, I was so nervous and crying because they try to survive Karley, she have a weak heart and they incubate her. We name her Karley Louise Tomlinson. We were happy with her; shes perfect, sweet and a smiley baby. Everyone loves her but every good things end and bad things occur.

At 3 months old, Karley had her first seizure. We were playing with her when her hand jerks and Karley shaking, like she was cold. She wouldnt stop and it seemed to last forever, Elle was crying because we didnt know what to do, we called our parents to look for Harry and Darcy who was still three and didnt know what happening to Karl ey, I immediately carry Karley and put her to the car, she was shaking, I dont know what to do, I was crying because my daughters pain, her mouth was open because she cant breathe, shes having her seizure for 45 minutes and her fever was 103. The docto r injects Karley a medicine and she stop shaking after that and went to sleep. The doctor told us that we need to performed a lumbar puncture, CT scan, blood tests, EEG, etc. All of the tests came back normal, so we left frustrated without a definitive diagnosis. This was the first of many trips to the ER for Karley. To date, shes been transported to the ER at least 15 times since her first seizure and has required intubation on three occasions. Weve had to call 911 for most of her episodes because the rescue medication we have to administer to stop her seizures slows her respiration and requires skilled medical professionals to resuscitate her if she stops breathing. Her episodes started getting progressively worse over the next several months; the episodes started occurring weekly, lasting 20-30 minutes, and the convulsions would originate on her left side, shift to the right side, and then generalize across both sides her body. I passed my Licensure Examination and decide to take care of my daughters condition; we went to New York and ask for help to my professor to help my daughter. Following another long, 20 min. plus episode, she was admitted to the EMU and hooked up to the video EEG. The next morning she had a two minute episode and it was confirmed that she was having seizures all along, so we were devastated and relieved at the same time. We were told that they appear to be focal seizures since all of the convulsions started on the same side and she could grow out of them or in the worst case, brain surgery was an option if they failed to control the seizures with Antiepileptic Drugs (AEDs). At this point, we had gone from its not epilepsy, to it is epilepsy, a nd now well just have to wait and see if shell grow out of it. The thought of her having to take medication for the rest of her life and/or having a portion of her brain removed before the age of five was tough for us to accept initially, but we did because there was still a glimmer of hope that she would be able to live a normal life. After she started her first AED, Phenobarbital, she had a few episodes and then was seizure free for over a month. We were excited because she seemed

healthy and happy and it appeared that the worst of this was behind us. We refer to this point in Karleys life as the calm before the storm. It wasnt behind us, it was just the beginning. When Karley was 9 months old, she had a long status episode that rendered her unable to use her right arm for 4 hours (Todds Paralysis). We were really confused at this point and were told that it is not uncommon for kids with epilepsy to have loss of motor function following a long seizure. Like clockwork, Karley started having long status episodes every two weeks. She was given two additional AEDs in an attempt to slow down the frequency and severity of the seizures, but adding medication seemed to make things worse. Given her tendency to have status episodes, we were on strict orders to give her the rescue medication when the seizure started, wait five minutes, give her the second dose, and then call 911. This vicious cycle continued for a couple of months and a defining moment in her journey propelled us to take a stand and not take we dont know or well have to wait and see for an answer. That moment was on a Saturday afternoon in March. We heard Karley choking on the monitor while taking a nap and rushed upstairs. She was having a full blown, tonic clonic seizure in her crib. She was salivating so much during the seizure that it was choking her, so we had to remove the saliva from her airway until the paramedics arrived. She had drooled during previous seizures, but not as profusely as this one. She didnt respond to the rescue medication initially and turned blue due to the lack of oxygen. During the panic, Harry and Darcy sat in the corner of the room crying as they watched strange people come into her house and take her sister away in the ambulance again. The paramedics had to manually intubate her in the ambulance to get her oxygen saturation back to normal. The look of helplessness and fear in my wifes eyes and the tear that dropped from his face as he hugged me before leaving with Karley in the ambulance unleashed a series of emotions in me that I wouldnt wish upon my worst enemy. Not knowing if your child wi ll be alive when you get to the hospital is the second worst feeling one can experience outside of it actually happening. I was crying non-stop because of what Karleys experiencing as a father it was hard for me to see your daughter facing and feel this k ind of pain, Elle was worse she was crying and crying and just hug Karleys tight. Karleys case was assigned to an epileptologist following the episode in March. I demanded genetic testing for Karley and much to my surprise, the request was granted. She was started on another AED with Phenobarbital after this visit and continued to have seizures. Up to this point on her journey, she had only had partial complex and tonic clonic seizures. After she started the new AED, the seizures started to come in different forms; tonic, absence, myoclonic, etc. Around her 1st birthday, she started having frequent eyelid myoclonus, so we took her in for a 48 hour video EEG. Much to her doctors surprise, she had developed an epileptic encephalopathy and was quickly put on steroids to counteract the epileptiform activity depicted on her EEG. The steroid treatment halted her clinical seizure activity and brought her sharp wave activity back to acceptable levels. It was almost too good to be true and as it is with most things in life, it was. On May 31st after three months of torture waiting on the genetic testing results, we were informed that Karley has Dravet Syndrome. As one can imagine, we felt heartbroken, angry, confused, and in denial all in one wave of emotion. Karley was only 1 year old; we have many plans and dreams for her. When you look at Karley, you cant see sadness in her, shes laughing, playing, smiling and still the very sweet child she is. I took care of her, every time she have her seizure, she salivating and shaking I just hug her and wiping the saliva that coming from her mouth, we were crying, I inject her medicines to stop her from having seizure, Im plasting a fake strong faade while everyone was crying. It was hard to breathe when your 3 years old twins asked you. Daddy. What happening to Karley? They asked that when I cant answer because I cant accept her sickness. We always confine Karley to the hospital when shes having a seizure. Life is hard because of this, Ive never been like this, I was crying every night, searching for something to cure my child, my Neurologist team studied her sickness and looking for a cure for her. We discover this medicine that can stop her seizure for 5 months. We decide to test it to my daughter, it was successful, and Karley didnt have her seizure for 5 months. We were happy because she lives normally for it. Harry and

Darcy always ask us why we are locking time with them. I just told them that we need to take care of Karley because shes fragile. The most painful and horrifying moment in my life came when were having fun. Were at a beach for the twins 5th birthday and Karley was 2 years old. We were having time. The twins are in the pool swimming, they both know Karleys Sickness and they both take care of her. Im at the edge of the pool sitting at one of the stairs while Karleys thumping her feet and hands in the water and Elle was recording us. Who do you love most, baby? I asked Karley while Elle was recording us. Daddy, Mommy, Harry and Darcy she said smiling at the camera. It was a precious moment. What do you want to say to Daddy? I love you Daddy. I miss you. She exclaimed and hugs me and kisses my cheeks repeatedly. I hug her. It was perfect.. Except around 12:20 in the midnight when she have her seizures, Harry and Darcy wipe the saliva from her mouth while crying. When were in the hospital I was talking to the Doctors while carrying a shaking Karley. They went inside and inject Karleys to stop her from her seizures. I was hugging Harry, Darcy and Elle when Karley began crying. Daddy! Daddy! She called out for me. I ran to her and hug her. Sssh baby! Daddys here I cooed at her and the three was crying watching us. I suppress my tears from falling. Daddy. They scares me. Karley said. They wont hurt you, Ill be here. I said and tears fall freely from my eyes. Im praying to God to give us strength. Suddenly, Karleys arms and head fell. My heart beating fast and wishing it was not real. Karley! Karley, wake up! Elle shake Karley and shes not responding. She burst into another tears and Harry and Darcy called the doctor, they were hugging each other. The doctor check Karleys eyes and he signed to one of the nurse and the nurse came back with Deliberator. I was crying and whisper to God No, not my angel. Charge to one fifty. She said and put it to Karleys chest and it jerk up. After 5 tries, they stop and look at us and shake his head. Time of death 2:45 Am He said and Harry, Darcy and Elle break down, Elle run to Karley and hug her, it was heartbreaking when shes calling Karleys name. I punch the wall. Why would they take her away? Why my angel?! I was crying. I wish I was numb and cant hear anything that when I wake up, my Karleys still here and kiss me. Its funny how I was hugging her a while ago and now they announce that shes gone. It hurts; its too painful to bear. That was the painful memories I have in my life. My angel was gone. Elle and I never left Karleys coffin, we decide to have a 3 days burial because we cant take it if we made it longer. People cant talk to us. Im not speaking that time; I

was still in my own world, hearing my angels laughter, calling me daddy, hugging me. I cant move on. Its hurt. When it was time to bury her, we didnt move, we look like a statue but when the coffin was going down, I breakdown. KARLEY!! I yelled and run to her coffin and hug it, Liam and Zayn held me back. Daddys here, Karley. Come on. Im here. I cried and yelled. Everyone burst into tears, the sound of crying was the music. It was one week since I cant seem to move on but my children confront me that let go, move on. We still bless because Karleys didnt need to prolong her pain. It was hard without Karley but we need move on and live our life because theres still my twins but we never forgot our once angel but she will be forever my number one angel. One year since Karleys gone. The twins were 6 years old. We still miss her but us still moving on. We were in our backyard, me with the twins playing soccer and Elles just watching us and filming the scene, ever since Karleys dead, we decide to film every beautiful moment with each other. We play, goof just having fun. When were done, we took our shower, after I took my shower; Elle was walking around the room looking for something. She went to the bathroom and look for the unknown thing shes looking for while I changed into my PJs. Elle was running to me when I was about to lie down on our bed bringing a stick, to be exact it was a pregnancy test. Louis! Louis! Look, I forgot that I took my Pregnancy test yesterday but yes, Im pregnant. She told me. I just look at that stick that has 2 lines. Wow, well what are you looking for a while go then? I asked. Ooh. My phone, I dont know where it is. I stare at her. Shes lately being forgetful and having headache, I want to check on that but shes too stubborn to have her check-up. Babe, youre phone was in your study table, you gave it to me and tell me to charge it there a while ago. She curiously looks at me and went to check if its there. Oh yes. I did tell you that. Well, cmon lets sleep. She told me and went to lie down with, we were about to sleep when theres a knock on our door. Daddy! Open the door. Darcy scream at door, yes they are nine years old yet they always sleep in our room. I built a big house yet they always use our bedroom to sleep. Were sleeping. I scream back. Oh, cmon, Harry, theyre sleeping. I chuckle at Darcy who didnt thought that you cant talk when youre asleep. I heard a slap, I think Harry slap his twins back head. Dad, open the door, you cant talk if youre asleep. Harry screams at the door. Harry is a smart guy and very handsome like me, yes, I name her after my bestfriend, Harry. Open seseme! Darcy yelled then giggled. I stood up and went to open the door. I was about to open my mouth when Harry beats me to it. I know what you will gonna say, Dad. I built a big house for you, guys but you still end up sleeping in our bedroom. He said and imitates my voice. No, I was gonna say you will sleep in the floor! I say.

Pfft! No, I will sleep beside Mom. He stuck his tongue at me and walks to our bed and lay and hug his Mom. I went and lay beside my baby girl, Darcy. We drift into our own dream. Harry is really like Harry, my friend. One time, he asked me this. We were eating breakfast when he asked me. Dad, why am I so handsome? He asked me. I look at him skeptically. Seriously, how many air and electric fans do you have in your body? I asked him. I laughed at that memory; he really is full of himself. We always argue in the silliest thing. Elle and I fought because she dont want to have her general check-up and insisting that shes fine but I told her that she has a baby inside her. We didnt acknowledge each other for days, I didnt argue on her because shes pregnant, I wait for days for her to think a bout it. I was sitting in our couch when Elles went to sit beside me and held my hands. She said that she decide to have her general check-up today, I was so happy when I heard that. We got ready that time when I heard a thud in the bathroom, I run fast there to see Elle sitting on the floor clutching the top of her head. What are you doing? What happened? I asked her and stand her up. I was looking for my comb, have you seen it? She asked me and I look at her in disbelief. I get the comb in the back of her hair and give it to her; she always told me that sometimes her eyes get blurry but shes fine, she always say shes fine. When were both ready we went outside and slid into my car, the twins were at my parents house. Elle is 8 months pregnant now. We sign up the information about her. Like her age was 29 years old. One of my best professors when I was having my training here was Dr. Collins; I help him checking up on Elle. I put on my white coat and proceed to her test. Elle put on her hospital gown and lay down on the bed. Were doing a MRI and CT scan. After the test, Elle dress back up and I got some blood sample on her to Dr. Collins further check up on it. We were asking to go back next week for the result. Our life was turn upside down when we came back at the hospital and I wish Ill be deaf and numb for that result day. Dr. Collins tell us about the result, he gave me the result of her MRI and CT scan and as a Doctor I can easily read it and my hunch before were all true. Analyzing your MRI and CT scan, and the result shows that an abnormal protein has clogged up the veins in your brain affecting your brain cells. Im certain the cause is largely genetics. I may say this is a very rare case, this is the first time Ive encounter someone like you. You have an Alzheimers disease. Alzheimers is hereditary or effect of getting old but your 29 so that makes it very rare because youre still young. Hearing those words breaks my heart knowing that I cant do anything for it. Theres no cure for that sickness, theres only medication that prolongs someones life. Elle was crying because she cant seem to accept it. Louis. Its not true, right? She asked me as tears fall down to her eyes. My tongue tied and cant speak. Will I die? She asked us and the tears Ive been holding fell down. Its hard to accept that after Karleys death, heres another problem we were facing. We didnt answer her question because we didnt even know when. Dr. Collins, explain to me what was this sickness all about. My mom died because of this, how did I get it? She asked Dr. Collins. You inherit it to your mother and when the baby was born, never breastfeed her anymore. Will my baby inherit this too?

Theres a tiny chance with it. I will prescribe some medicines and vitamins for you. Consult your ob-gyn. Can you tell me more about my sickness? Elle, you dont need to. I told her, it will be hard on her to accept about it. Louis, I want too. She said. I held her hands and listen to Dr. Collins. I know this disease and its worse when you know that you have it. I asked you a question last week if you feel any stress or any breakdown that made you black out. Elle fainted after Karleys burial. That question I asked were to diagnosed dementia. You have a metal death before the physical one Medicine can it slow it down but that only will longer your life but not cure the disease. Dr. Collins said. What were the stages of my disease? Elle asked. This is the most painful part. The first stage was that you will easily forget things you recently did, cant find your things youre looking for, cant drive, forget simple things, forget conversations details, you can get lost and forgot sense of direction, you forgot recipes whenever you cook. Second stage is where you cant solve problems; you forgot your family and friends, Rambling speech, unusual reasoning, and confusion about current events, time, and place and more likely you become lost in familiar settings, experience sleep disturbances, and changes in mood and behavior, which can be aggravated by stress and change. You may also experience delusions, aggression, and uninhibited behavior. Mobility and coordination is affected by slowness, rigidity, and tremors. You need structure, reminders, and assistance with the activities of daily living. The third stage was confused about past and present. Loss of ability to remember, communicates, or process information, generally incapacitated with severe to total loss of verbal skills, unable to care for self like you forgot how to go to the bathroom to pee, shower, falls possible and immobility likely, problems with swallowing, incontinence, and illness, extreme problems with mood, behavior, hallucinations, and delirium. In this stage, the person will need round the clock intensive support and care. You will like a newborn child that cant do anything. You forgot everything. Alzheimers disease life span is half of the age span of a girl. Girl age span is up to 80 years old, Alzheimers disease has half of it that means you have half of 80 if you dont have any complication. Dr. Collins said. I l ook at Elle and pain all over her face. I was in tears looking at her. By that time, Elles was crying non-stop, trying to sink everything in. As her husband, it was hard to look at your wife. It was heartbreaking. I hug her and tell her that everything will be alright even though you cant even accept it too. We thanks Dr. Collins for everything and tell us to come back for her medications. I was trying to calm Elles down. That time, we were facing the biggest problem in our life. I thought Karleys death was the biggest downfall on us but I never thought that these will the biggest and hardest thing to do. I will try everything to make this through. Alzheimers dont have cure, as sooner as it is, I need to accept that one day Elles will be with my little angel soon but right now, I need to process everything. Elle was 5 months when Danielle told us were having twins, both boys. We were really careful with Elles health. The baby was normal and active. I didnt let Elle do anything besides sitting and sleeping. After a month, Storm Chace Tomlinson and Thunder James Tomlinson were born very healthy. Elles still undergoing her medication. We still cant accept about her disease. I take extremely care for her health. Every 2 weeks, Elles have her medication. Elle start to forget things like when she was cooking, she forgot what recipes and step in cooking sweet and sour pork. She forgot things. I assigned Niall, Liam, Zayn and Harry to take over our company, we decide to build our own company, and were now License Neurologist. We studied Elles health, they help me with everything. I filled an indefinite leave at the office and they took care on my work. Chace and James were my boys; Harry and Darcy love them so much. They took care of them. The kids were healthy.

After a year, Thunder and Storm were 1 year old and Harry and Darcy were 7 years old. Elles was now 30 and she forget simple thing, she cant even cook because she cant remember things. I took care of everything. I help her in cooking sometimes and help her remember the recipes, I wrote everything she need to remember in a sticky note in every corner of the house, like when the phone rings what she will do, the recipes of her favorite meal, her birthday, everything she need to remember. The twins 1st birthday, I organized everything that time. Elle forgot their birthday, she cried for hours because she forgot it but Harry and Darcy have their own mind and they know what going on, especial ly Harry, hes and excellent kid, shes 7 yet she advance in Grade School. He help me taking care of Elle, He study about Alzheimers too, its unbelievable how genius he is, he help Elle while Darcy takes care of the Thunder and Storm and I studied about the medication of Elle. Harry, Liam, Niall, Zayn and I were taking care every time Elle have her medication. Thunder and Storm Birthday came and it was a blast. Everything was great and people having fun. I filmed everything. Elle was smiling ear to ear, she kissed her 2 twins a lot and she always says how much she loves us. Everything was cool except for Elles attack. I promised myself to be prepared and ready for the second stage but I never thought that I really cant. Two years after; Harry and Darcy were 8 and Thunder and Storm were 2 years old, I was the one who wake Elle up, I was the one who take Elle to bath, I cook while she take care of the Thunder and Storm , she still look normal and can remember things. Dr. Collins and my team decide to take four medications that are approved by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration to treat Alzheimers. Donepezil (Aricept), rivastigmine (Exelon), and galantamine (Razadyne) are used to treat mild to moderate Alzheimers (donepezil can be used for severe Alzheimers as well). Memantine (Namenda) is used to treat moderate to severe Alzheimers. These drugs work by regulating neurotransmitters (the chemicals that transmit messages between neurons). They may help maintain thinking, memory, and speaking skills, and help with certain behavioral problems. However, these drugs dont change the underlying disease process, are effective for some but not all people, and may help only for a limited time. My team went to every Alzheimers expert and learns about this and the medication to prolong it. Albert, Elles Dad and Chace Christopher and his family and Perrie Rose and her family settled her in New York because of Elles condition. They breakdown when they knew about it. Harry and Darcy settle here too and they take care of Elle. Danielle and Liam have 2 children; Loki Payne, 7 and Hunter, 4, Harry Styles and Darcy Styles have one child; Kian who was 3. Zayn married to Danica have one child; Andrea who was 2. Niall and Samantha have 2 children; Jack Horan, 8 and Arizza, 7. It was the 4th birthday of Thunder and Storm when all of the kids were playing when Elles walk down and asked the very unbelievable question that made everyone froze in their spot and cried. She was walking downstairs when she saw the kid, he walk to me and kiss my cheeks. Babe, they look so cute, theres a lot of childrens here. Who are they? She asked me and us all gasp. She looks at us curiously and she looks at Niall and Samantha. Who are you? She asked them. My God, she met them lot of times ago! Her father was crying. I still take care of Elles condition; it was getting worse every year. We found out that it was coming fast and the medication cannot slow it down. Everyone asked me to tell them more about Elles disease and how to take care of her. I tell them everything. They help me take care of her, Elles act like a child sometimes. She always faint, she was crying every time she forgot her childrens and her eyes getting blurry, I was with her all the way, combing her hair, dressing her up, she doesnt know how to use a phone, text, write and read, sometimes when she talk she just rumble things you cant understand. Its frustrating and I asked God why he always gives me something like this! One time, I hate on God because he gave Elles this sickness and its like hes testing me if I could do this, there are time that I nearly gave up but Harry, my son punch me and said:

Dad, wake up. Dont give up on Mom; you are the one why we all holding up because youre not giving up and youre strong but seeing and hearing you say youre giving up? Dad, what do you want us to do? Give up too? Mom need us and youre there blaming it all to God? My son screams at me, we were both crying. Darcy, Thunder and Storm witness it all and they were sobbing. Its like they throw ice water on me that makes me realize everyone was holding to me. I hug them so tight. We were crying and hugging. Im kissing them on their cheeks when Elle walk on us and ask us. What are you guys doing? She stares at us curiously and suddenly theres water flows down on her legs and it double up our tears. I asked Harry and Darcy to get the twins and go to their room. I walk Elle to the bathroom and wash her legs and shower her. It was hard seeing her like this, I was crying while rubbing soap on her body. When I cant take it anymore, I hug her so tight and whisper the words I never want to hear her saying. Who are you? Why are you crying? She asked me. I dress her up and lay her down on our bed, I give her medicine and help her take it. It was seldom when she can remember and when she does she want me to help her hold a pen and write down the things she want to write for her childrens. We were both crying while doing it. I promise myself not to give up on her. God give me this to make me strong. We went to Disneyland. Darcy and Harry love it and Thunder and Storm were ecstatic. Elle was in the wheel chair because she cant walk, she can but its hard for her. She was laughing with her children. They look so happy. It was one of the things I remember. Harry and Darcy sometime take care of their Mom. Harry cooks her meal while Darcy dress her mom, braid her hair, putting make up on her, helping her go downstairs. Storm and Thunder always greet their Mom introducing their self to her every morning. Good morning, Mom! Im Thunder, 6 years old. Im your son and I love you, Mom. Thunder said and kisses her mom cheeks and walks to me and kisses me in the cheeks. Thunder was more the serious type and he easily understand things while Storm is the opposite, he always smile and very gullible. Morning, Mom. Im Storm, 6 years old, Im your son too, mom. Hope you can remember me one day. I love you to the moon and back, Mom! He said and kisses her cheeks. We all eat breakfast. She hardly speaks. Every night, same routine, there are times she remember us but she was confuse with past and future. She doesnt know her parents, relative and friends. It was devastating. It was our 18th anniversary. We didnt celebrate it because she doesnt remember anything. We were dancing in our room, her feet were on mind and I swayed through the sound.

"Crazier" I'd never gone with the wind Just let it flow Let it take me where it wants to go 'Til you open the door There's so much more I'd never seen it before I was trying to fly But I couldn't find wings But you came along and you changed everything We swayed through the beat. I remember the times when we kids when I look at her and I love every bit of her. She was my best friend, playmate, her shoulder to cry on, she was perfect, what we have been perfect. When we were a

kid when we always played when she always trip and she end up having a bruise she always wail and crying when I ask her to stop, she will stop and always tell me. Louis, its hurt! I trip again. She told me. I always tell her she needs to be strong, it was just a bruise. Youre wonder woman and Im Superman, right? Wonder woman never cry. I told her and she stop crying. I kissed her cheeks and she smiled wetly again. Thank you, Louis. [Chorus:] You lift my feet off the ground You spin me around You make me crazier, crazier Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes You make me crazier, crazier, crazier. I remember when we were 13 and I want to marry her because shes my princess and it all came true. I love her so much. Everyone whos been with us knows that and witness that. When we have Harry and Darcy, it was the happiest moment in our life, we love them to death. It was the greatest gift Elle gave me. Every moment with her was magical. When we went to the beach, I remember her laughters. I was standing goofing and making the twins laugh whiles my parents holding them when someone throw sand on me and hit my face. I look at my suspect and there she was giggling while looking at me and holding a sand in her hands. Did you just throw a sand on me? I asked her. Yes. She giggled and throw the sand on me again. She saw the devil smile on me and her eyes widen and she run away from me laughing and screaming. I chuckle and run after her. When I was near her I try to grab her waist but end up falling into the sand face first. Her laughters was heard and I stand up and run after her this time I grab her waist. Got ya! I whisper in her ears and put her in my shoulder and run. Louis!! Put me down! She giggled and slapping my butt. We were laughing. I put her down and hug her tight. I love you Eleanor Jane Calder-Tomlinson! I said. I love you more, Louis William Tomlinson! She said and with the sun setting, we passionately kissed. I've watched from a distance as you made life your own Every sky was your own kind of blue And I wanted to know how that would feel And you made it so real You showed me something that I couldn't see You opened my eyes And you made me believe

[Chorus] Baby you showed me what living is for I don't wanna hide anymore Oh oh

I remember how we said our vows and I dos. I, Eleanor Jane Calder loving this man in front of me with his green eyes I feel for. Even though her ego was big as the biggest and longest river in the world, I still love him. Weve been best friend since were in our mother womb which you dislike me saying because its gross but I still do it. I love you with all of your flaws because you love me so much even though Im at my worst. I love you till our hair turns white and when we only have one tooth left. I love you.

You lift my feet off the ground You spin me around You make me crazier, crazier Feels like I'm fallin' and I am lost in your eyes You make me crazier, crazier, crazier Crazier, crazier.

I was crying while we dance and reminiscing even though I can feel liquid flowing down on her legs. I love you, Louis! Elle said then she faint. I caught her before she fell. I clean her legs and the w et in the floor. I check her pulse and eyes. After three years since she fainted that time, she doesnt remember anything; she was just staring and never moves. It was hard for us. Harry and Darcy are now 16 years old and Thunder and Storm were 9 years old. Elle was like a newborn kid. Wake up, Elle. I wake up Elle, I help her sit up. Kiss her lips but still she just stared at me and asked: Who are you? The pain in my heart came and I closed my eyes to breathe. Your husband. I always tell her every time she asked me that. I stand her up and went to bathroom to take her to bath, I wash her, shampoo her hair, washing the shampoo bubbles in her hair, put conditioner in her hair, she still immobile, just staring blankly at me and smile every time theres a bubble in her hands. She acts like a kid. I clean her body with soap. I always cry everytime I did this. Its hard, very frustrating that I cant help her! After she take a bath, Darcy was already in our room with her mother dress, it was our daily routine since she woke up three years ago, she doesnt remember anymore, everyone was broken when she dont recognized them. I hand Darcy her towel and went down to take care of Thunder and Storm to school. Harry was cooking Elles breakfast. When Darcy and Elle went to the kitchen, I help Elle to sit down, she stares at her childrens. Storm walks to Elle. Good morning, Mom. Im Storm, your son, Im already 9, look mom I was the top 1 in my class and I have 10 stars. I love you mom! Storm said and kisses her cheeks. It was always like this.

Hello Mom, Im Thunder, your son and I was also the top 1 in our class, Storm and I were. Look I have medals because of soccer. I love you also, mom! Harry blender Elles meals because she doesnt know how to chew and he made Elle drink the vegetable juice. It was always like this but we never get tired in taking care of her. Harry and Darcy were in High School while Thunder and Storm are in Grade School. I stop in working because I want to take care of Elle. I never hired any maid because I want hands on to Elles condition. She continues her medicine. Whole day we just look through the album and I always tell her everything in the photo album. When the kid arrives from school they take care of her, they always tell her about their day and just hanging around Elle while I cook dinner. They watched movies and explain it to Elle. Elle eyesight got blurry so shes wearing glasses. Elle and I are 39 years old. Same routine, I blend Elles meal and Harry made her drink it. I shower her and Darcy dresses her up. We always together when we sleep Elle in the middle and we all cuddle up in the floor with a large comforter that occupies the 6 of us. -One year afterI woke up and look at Elle and its like her mother all over again except it was me who were his Dad and the one whos waking her up was my children. I check her up and shes not breathing. Dad! Mom is not waking up. Dad! They try to say to me but I was sitting up frozen, my body cant seem to process it. When they all slap me I was awaken from my nightmare. I carried her and Harry was driving when were in the hospital they put her into the hospital bed. Dr. Collins check her eyes and pulse, they brought the Deliberators. Charge to 150. They put it to her chest and her body jerks up. I was crying it was like Karleys all over again. Dr. Collins shakes his head and said the most dreadful time Ive ever heard. Time of death 10:15 AM My children run to their lifeless mother and hug her while they were screaming her name. Everyone was here and crying. I stood there frozen and not moving. I run outside and went to the chapel and scream at him. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US?! DID WE DO SOMETHING WRONG?! NOTHING! NOTHING! WHY DID YOU GET THE TWO PEOPLE IN MY LIFE?! ARE YOU STILL NOT SATISFIED?! STOP GETTING MY LIFE AWAY FROM ME!!! I screamed at him with so much pain in me. I always believe in him but I cant seem to have my trust on him now! I was too much swallowed by the pain. Its unbearable! I broke down in my knees and crying loudly, screaming WHY?! to God. I felt arms around me and my childrens, my gems are hugging me. We decide not to have a burial because we cant take it, we just cant and its time to bury her coffin beside Karleys tomb. I stood lifeless while my children were hugging her coffins and screaming their Moms name! It was hard to accept this. It was too much pain. I was left in there with the alone. They went home with the twins. I read the tomb. In memory of

Karley Louise Tomlinson and Eleanor Jane Calder-Tomlinson Youll always be remember and loved. I knelt on my knees and cry out loud. I dont know how to survived without her. The love of my life, my life. Life has been unfair to me. I dont know but something whisper in me, her voice, my promise to her. Louis when I die, please dont cry, be strong for Harry, Darcy, Storm and Thunder, promise me to continue living, my body may die but my soul is always with you, in your heart. I promise. I stand up and wipe my tears and say one last time. I pro-mise. I love you, my two angels. Winds nipped my cheeks and lips. It like they kissed me. I love you, Ill never let go.

That was the last time I visit them. Its been 5 years when she died. We all move on but they still remain in our heart. Its our Silver anniversary and her 45th birthday last week. We decide to celebrate it together. Dad!!! My 4 angels called out to me. They kissed my cheeks and they gave me a ring, actually the ring I gave to Elle, my promise ring. Dad, mom gave this to me and she told me to give this to you when its your 25 anniversary because its in this time to let her go and live peacefully. Darcy said. I hug them all. They get all the foods and cake and put it into the car and we drive until we reach the place I never visit since. We were here. Hi Mom, Karley. How are you guys? Were fine. Were still moving but with you in our heart were fine because youre still with us. They simultaneously said. I went to their grave and smile. I love you, my angels. I smile and joined my 4 angels and celebrate and tell our 2 angels the things that happen in 5 years. We still miss them but they never gone to our heart and life.

THE END!
To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure. J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone It is said that your life flashes before your eyes just before you die. That is true, it's called Life. Terry Pratchett, the Last Continent

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