AA-1025 - The Diary of an Anti-Apostle

By: Marie Carre

Introduction

This is the story of a man who dedicated his life to the Party. Nothing but the Party mattered for him; his dedication was complete, absolute, uncompromising, unrelenting. But a human being is more than a cog in a machine; a mechanical part has no soul, but man has - even though he may regard himself as no more than a thinking animal. n fact, the higher animals respond to love. !or man, love is essential. But love is not to be found in the Party "achine# $ f you get caught, we will disavow you$, his chief warned him. "any men find love in marriage, or, if not in marriage, at least in their children. % few, however, are celibate all their life# scientists, composers, men of &od. 'ven then, human warmth is not entirely lacking# Beethoven knew human admiration, and !r. (amien was loved by his lepers. n the last resort, a man completely bereft of human love can still turn to &od. But a man who has no human love at all and no belief in &od, and who chooses celibacy to better serve a Party that manufactures hatred will either break down, become insane and perhaps commit suicide, or seek oblivion in drink and gradually destroy himself. )nless, of course, this man gives himself the illusion of a human dialogue by keeping a diary or writing his memoirs. This is the story of a man who wrote his memoirs, about which he had had dreams for many nights until it had become an obsession. *e yielded to the urge to write them though not understanding why. $%nyway, it does not matter$, he ruminated, $for no one will ever read this; shall destroy it in due course.$ This man was a +ommunist agent who became a +atholic priest to better destroy the +hurch. *e was ordained in the early forties, died in the late si,ties, and his confessions survived him. *e had overlooked one very important fact, however, that no man is master of his own life. *e died in hospital as the result of a car accident. *is papers were found in his briefcase, and read by the +atholic nurse who looked after him. -e are not relating the story out of sympathy for this %nti-Priest. *is ruthlessness, his contempt of man, his demonic hatred of &od and *is +hurch, preclude such feelings of sympathy. -e sincerely hope, however, that the grace of repentance was given to him before consciousness left him. The reason we are relating this story is to reveal that, as early as ./01, there were over one thousand +ommunist agents ordained as +atholic priests or studying for the priesthood. They formed an efficient network of %nti-Priests whose main function was the infiltration, subversion and control of the +atholic press and Publishing *ouses with the aid of 2oviet money. New ideas were to be spread, a new religion was to be promoted. *ow well they have succeeded can be seen in a comparison of their avowed aims with the state of the +hurch since the +ouncil. The reader will be able to 3udge for himself.

The state of the +atholic +hurch today bears witness to the success of the +ommunist subversion. ncredible as the current crises may have seemed some l1 years ago, it is here now for everyone to see. 2urely; the Pontiffs who have followed Pius 4 must assume some responsibility for this, for such is the meaning of leadership# to accept responsibility. Their greatest error, no matter what their motives may have been, has been to throw the doors of the +hurch wide open 3ust when the enemy was trying to get in, and they should have been strengthening the locks.

The Confession of Mikola ! the Anti-"riest

This man has no name, but we shall call him Mikolaj because he came from Poland where he was born in 1917, perhaps from Russian parents fleeing the Revolution !e was found wandering along a road at the age of three, b" a Polish #octor and his wife, both devout $atholics The "ear of his birth must have been determined b" the #octor because the child, who was cr"ing, spoke onl" a little Polish and a little Russian and did not even know his own name The Polish couple had no child of their own% the" adopted him and loved him as their own son &n his confession, Mikolaj related that his foster parents were ver" good to him, ver" generous, full of affection, and that this recollection, even fift" "ears later, filled him with 'seething (nger' )or he had been trained, as an agent of the devil, to hate what normal people respect and love% memories of his childhood were like intruders tr"ing to move his heart and bring about his conversion !e could not bear them, he had to hate them, and hate also those who were responsible for these sweet memories The child grew into a bo" of *uiet disposition and studious habits !is intelligence and capacit" for learning appear to have been e+traordinar", and so was his ambition The latter seems to have pla"ed an important part in his downfall at the age of 1, or 1- when, one evening, shortl" before a planned visit to Rome and Paris, he overheard his parents e+press their concern about his passport and his legal status as an adopted child !e was shattered. !e had been brought up to believe that these two were reall" Mother and )ather to him, and to discover this was not the truth was a great shock to him !e could not get over it% the" died in his heart as effectivel" as if the" had died ph"sicall"% the" ceased to be 'Mum and #ad'% the" became 'Those People' #istracted almost out of his mind, he fled from the house immediatel" !e decided to leave Poland, and made for the Russian border ( schoolmate of his had an uncle in Russia, in /eningrad to be precise, where he was as a high0ranking public servant ( few da"s later, with a letter of introduction in his hand, he called at the uncle1s home in Russia The uncle noticed his alertness, intelligence and ambition, and was favorabl" impressed '&f "ou wish to succeed, m" lad', he told him, 'first of all "ou must stud" some foreign languages and absorb the doctrine of the Part" ' )or the ne+t si+ "ears, Mikolaj studied furiousl" and absorbed the Mar+ist doctrine in its entiret" The uncle, as he soon found out, was a high0ranking official in the 2ecret Police There is little doubt that his interest for the "oung man had been aroused b" considerations which had little to do with affection or s"mpath" The bo" was highl" intelligent, had no parents or relative to divide his allegiance or interfere with his Mar+ist studies, and he was ambitious &n fact, the perfect raw material with which to form a good agent 3ther factors, too, contributed to this4 Mikolaj had an enormous capacit" for work, a remarkable memor",

and he despised all women and the 'fools' who love them too much This would e+clude emotional involvements with the fair se+ The si+ "ears of stud" completed, Mikolaj, now 56, was called to the office of the 7ncle who told him point0blank4 '& am going to send "ou abroad to become a militant atheist on the world scene 8our main dut" will be to fight all religions, but the $atholic religion in particular because of its efficient structures &n order to achieve this "ou will enter a seminar" and become a $atholic priest 9ut "ou must return to Poland and seek reconciliation with "our foster parents who will be delighted to hear of "our 'vocation' and who will help "ou to become a priest Mikolaj had mi+ed feeling4 the idea of being a secret agent filled him with elation, but the command to see his 'parents' again and act the part of a loving son for the si+ long "ears which he would spend in the seminar", was abhorrent to him 2elf0control is one of the *ualities of a secret agent &n this case, however, Mikolaj could not *uite conceal his feelings even after : "ears of training in Mar+ist1 schools The 7ncle remarked on this, which had Mikolaj blush, and drew a further remark from the 7ncle4 '( secret agent does not blush, has no blood in his veins, has no heart, loves no one not even himself !e is the Thing of the Part", and the Part" can devour him alive and without warning ;herever "ou are, get it into "our head that "ou will be watched (t the first sign of weakness we shall get rid of "ou <1= (nd, of course, if "ou are in danger, do not rel" on us% "ou will be disavowed ' (nswered Mikolaj4 '& know all this ver" well, but & beg to ask wh" & should show love and affection to m" false parents when & feel nothing but hatred for them' 0 '!atred has no room in our service, e+cept the hatred of >od following /enin1s e+ample% we kill without hatred simpl" to serve the Part" 8ou must see "our parents again, but "ou will not enter a Polish seminar"% "ou will be sent overseas, perhaps to $anada, where discipline is not as strict as in ?urope, and there is less likelihood of discover" 9esides, with that madman now in >erman" we have ever" reason to fear a war in ?urope ' The 7ncle gave him further instructions and reminders4 'Persecution is useless% we don1t want an" mart"rs as long as we are not in complete control of the ;est Religion must be destro"ed b" dialectics @#ialectic4 The art or practice of e+amining statements logicall" as b" *uestion and answer A 8ou are to send me a report ever" week (fter a while "ou will be put in touch with the rest of the network and "ou will be responsible for ten other agents% but "ou will not know who the" are, and the" will not know "ou To reach them and to reach "ou ever"thing will go through this office ;e alread" have man" priests in those countries which are afflicted with $atholicism, one is a bishop ;e have observers ever"where 2ome, especiall" trained for the purpose, scan the newspapers of the whole world ever" da" and send us reports on the development of ideas in the ;est 3ur foreign polic" is based on these Thus we will be able to see how effective "our own work is 8ou will have to spread new ideas% ideas that ma" appeal to some stupid pen0pusher who will take them up and publiciBe them Co one is more vain than a writer% give him an idea, and he will sa" that it is his own, write about it, enlarge upon it, and thus further our aims ;e rel" a great deal on writers and journalists% there is no need for us to train them, the" work for us without realiBing it 8ou will receive letters from us 8ou will recogniBe ever" letter as genuine b" the code numbers 22 165-, which is "our own 22 means 2eminar" 2tudent 8es, there are 165, others This was an unforgettable evening for Mikolaj This interview with the 7ncle must have taken place circa 19D7 when the power of !itler was rising in >erman" 2oviet Russia was then the onl" $ommunist nation in the world Pius E& was our Pope Teilhard de $hardin was still

largel" unknown but he was alread" writing furiousl" and 'pushing' ideas favourable to Mar+ism 2ince the 2oviets did not control half of ?urope as the" do toda" @1975A, their facilities must have been limited 8et the" had 165- agents working in the $hurch ;hat is the e+tent of $ommunist penetration now, in 1975F &t is not unreasonable to suppose that it is much deeper than in 19D7, and it is almost certain that man" of these agents are now bishops and cardinals Moreover, to an" impartial observer of Gatican affairs, since 19:D, it is fairl" certain that some are now occup"ing high positions in the Gatican itself There have indeed been facts which simpl" cannot be accounted for e+cept b" ascribing them to $ommunist influence in the Gatican The ne+t few da"s Mikolaj spent most of his time stud"ing a few confidential files the 7ncle had given him 9efore he left Russia a number of further interviews with the 7ncle took place #uring one of these he told the 7ncle of his own ideas on how best to combat religion in the ;est (n open and bitter opposition had alread" been ruled out% persuasion through dialectics, lectures, debates, dialogues and collo*uies was the latest method favoured b" Moscow, and it was to develop considerabl" after ;orld ;ar && &n almost all such talks the $ommunist speakers, who were highl"0trained dialecticians, outsmarted their opponents and often silenced them completel", thus winning man" 'converts' in the audience Press reports of such talks further helped to spread Mar+ist ideas and lent respectabilit" to the $ommunists who, it was thought, had become 'reasonable' The method has indeed proved e+tremel" successful% the penetration of Mar+ist thinking in the ;est is now so thorough that echoes of it are *uite a common occurrence even in the $atholic press To complement this method, however, Mikolaj had devised a more sinister scheme primaril" designed to change $atholic doctrine 9riefl", instead of combating the religious feeling of the people, it consisted in e+alting it in a wrong direction and towards some unrealistic objective The 7ncle who, at first had seemed somewhat amused, now listened with great interest <decidedl", he thought, this "oung man is above average= Mikolaj went on4 ';e must put it into their heads, and especiall" priests, that the time has come to seek and work for the merging of all religions ;e must, in particular, promote among $atholics a feeling of guilt concerning the '3C? TR7T!' which the" claim the" alone possess ;e must convince them that this attitude is a monstrous sin of pride, and that the" must now seek reconciliation with other religions This thought must be made to grow and be uppermost in their minds ' (nswered the 7ncle4 'Ger" well. 9ut don1t "ou think that this scheme is somewhat unrealisticF' 0 'Cot at all.', said 'Mikolaj, '& m"self was a $atholic up to the age of 1-, and a ver" devout one at that% & think it should be comparativel" eas" to convince $atholics that there are hol" persons among Protestants, Mussulmans @MuslimsA and Hews (nd since the" are hol", the" also are the members of the '$ommunion of 2aints' in which $atholics believe 2tarting from this, we will sa" that to keep these people out of the $hurch is an insult to >od 3f course, we shall drop the term '$ommunion of 2aints'% we shall substitute for it some other e+pression such as '$ommunit" of 9elievers' or 'People of >od' This will shift the accent from the supernatural to the natural, from the heavenl" to the earthl", which is what we want <1a= The whole $atholic terminolog" can and must be changed To those who object we shall repl" that the meaning has not changed and that we must adapt our e+pressions to the modern wa" of thinking, which is what progress is about (nd since $atholic intellectuals, like most intellectuals, seek and value the praise of others, the" will be mortall" afraid of being 'behind the times'% the" will accept the new terms and promote them among the

ignorant people There is a whole area to be investigated here% & can do no more than outline the plan (nd how do "ou envision that 7niversal $hurch to which "ou would have ever"one rushingF That new $hurch must be simple The concept of >od must be vague, general and impersonal, not entailing an" definite obligations, not demanding sacrifices, and, of course, not providing an" inspiration to the people The universal brotherhood of men must be emphasiBed above all things &t should not be difficult to persuade $atholics that the $ommandment '/ove the" neighbour as th"self' re*uires no less than that &n order to make them forget >od we must get them to worship the human race This, however, is a long0term effort4 it ma" take 56, D6 or even -6 "ears% we must be prepared to wait, but & am confident that we shall succeed Ger" well, we shall e+amine "our idea $ome back ne+t week and we shall give "ou our repl" Meanwhile, get read" for "our departure for Poland' The following week Mikolaj called at the 7ncle1s office as arranged The 7ncle told him that his $hief was here and wanted to meet him Mikolaj was overjo"ed, for it was obvious that such a powerful 3fficial would not come merel" to signif" his refusal% he must have been favourabl" impressed $ompletel" self0possessed, Mikolaj met the great $hief !owever, he instantl" disliked his appearance which was one of gross brutalit" and vulgarit" !e reflected that this must be the sort of man who enjo"s watching the most cruel tortures in prisons% a true sadist Mikolaj was above all an intellectual% he disliked the idea of torture which he saw as a mark of weakness and stupidit" on the part of the torturer The $hief looked at him in a manner that bore right through him Mikolaj felt uneas" Point0blank, the $hief asked4 ';hat do "ou have most at heartF' 0 'The victor" of the Part"', said Mikolaj '>ood. )rom toda" onwards "ou will be on the roll of our active agents 8ou will have responsibilities, "ou will issue orders 9ut make no mistake about it4 we e+pect to see the fruits of "our work in newspapers, books and theological reviews &t is up to "ou ;e have a specialist team of readers whose function it is to anal"Be the religious writings of the whole world ;e will watch "our progress !owever, & am confident that "ou will be able to handle this ' Mikolaj reflected that this brute, after all, was no fool% he had correctl" assessed his e+ceptional abilit" and his outstanding intelligence of which he never doubted himself !e felt completel" sure that he would succeed, for he knew well the weak spot of $atholics, which is $harit" ;ith '$harit"' it is alwa"s possible to instill remorse in the hearts of people, and a remorseful person is inevitabl" in a state of lesser resistance and, therefore, of higher receptivit" to alien ideas and suggestions This is ps"chologicall" certain, just as certain as pure mathematics ;ith '$harit"' it will be possible to persuade $atholics it is a sin to criticiBe Protestants, Hews and Mussulmans @MuslimsA% and that to criticiBe their beliefs is, in fact, the same as criticiBing them Thus, $atholics will graduall" accept the beliefs of the other religions and their own faith will wane The honest" and scruples of $atholics, Mikolaj thought, is the opening through which we shall enter their fortress% it is the fault in the rock that can be plugged with e+plosives, the weakness which makes a dialogue with them e+tremel" rewarding ( few da"s later, Mikolaj was back in Poland !e somewhat dreaded his first meeting with his foster father, so he arranged to come 'home' when the #octor was likel" to be out !e

rang the door0bell, and it was his foster mother who came and opened the door !ere is the account of his return4 '2he had aged considerabl", she did not have an" make0up on 2he looked ill 2he began to shake with emotion, then she cried Reall", women are no good e+cept locked up in harems for the convenience of men in their necessities Caturall", & begged her to pardon me% that was part of the game 9ut & knew that this business would be promptl" settled, so overcome with jo" would she be Thus, & would not have to abase m"self before m" foster father when he came home To see me as a priest of >od must have been her most cherished dream% so, without an" more ado, & told her of m" 'irresistible' vocation The old goose was so happ" that she nearl" fainted )rom then on she would have believed an"thing & said (nd when was & for the first time aware of the 'call of >od'F ;ell, & said, it all came suddenl" through an apparition <& had not intended to tell her an"thing like that, but the idea came to me there and then% & knew this sort of thing would appeal to her, and it amused me an"wa"= 3f course, the #octor was rather suspicious of the supernatural, but that did not matter, on the contrar"4 an" disagreement between the two could onl" strengthen m" own position, and while the" were arguing how m" vocation came about, it would not occur to them that & ma" not have had an" vocation at all 2o & told her in great detail m" stor" of that wonderful heavenl" visitation & said 2t (nthon" of Padua had come to me, and, to make the picture even nicer, & added that he was carr"ing the &nfant Hesus in his arms The sill" old cow was near to ecstas" Hust then, however, the #octor arrived and & was relieved to be able to speak to a sensible person after all that nonsense, but & saw immediatel" that he would have nothing of m" stor" Cever mind. That will make the game even more e+citing ' 'The ne+t da" we went to see the bishop !e was kind, but reserved That was just what & had e+pected & knew ver" well that he would not send me to the seminar" the ne+t da". M" perseverance would prove that m" vocation was genuine Throughout the interview & assumed an air of perfect humilit" with m" e"es cast down e+cept when & was spoken to !e advised me to go and see a Religious Priest who was known for his abilit" to 'discern the spirits' This jargon means that the fellow was supposed to read people1s hearts. 2o & went to see him 3ur interview was a protracted one, and & did not like the character !e spoke slowl", deliberatel" and his speech was punctuated with long, heav" pauses that were rather unpleasant 3f course, & said nothing of m" 'apparitions'% m" mother would have most certainl" told him alread", and m" reserve in this respect would look ver" edif"ing indeed & pla"ed the part of a ver" humble "oung man, and & am sure that & pla"ed it most e+cellentl" !owever, & took some pride in confessing to him that & had never known an" girl or woman, and that & was not at all interested in the weaker se+ which, in m" opinion, has no other function than that of childbearing & felt sure that he would condone such an outburst of juvenile pride, and it would show him how earnest & was The 'hol"' man, however, set a few traps for me% he tried to pin me down on some contradictions !ow childish. & was full" trained for that sort of thing !e also asked me wh" & left m" foster parents si+ "ears earlier, and wh" & had never written to them & thought it would be best not to attempt to justif" m" past behavior 3n the contrar", an admission of human weakness was more likel" to move his heart 2o & told him in *uavering tones that this foll" of mine would be the remorse of m" whole life 9ut, & added, the immense sorrow which & caused to m" 'dear' mother would be more than repaid b" the lasting bliss of m" priestl" vocation, for nothing could make her more happ" than that !e agreed, and & now felt certain that he would not have the heart to deprive m" aging mother of such great happiness 3ur conversation grew more and more friendl" as the hours went b", and, when we parted, we were like two old friends '

'9ecause of this & was thunderstruck when, a few da"s later, the bishop told me *uietl" that, in this priest1s opinion, & did not have a vocation &t was as though the earth had split under m" ver" feet ' '& reported the setback to the 7ncle through a priest0agent who had been appointed to that function The repl" came promptl" and it was a terse one4 '#estro" the obstacle' (fter pondering a few da"s on the best wa" to 'destro" the obstacle', a task which & did not relish, & decided to put to good use the special training in bare0hand combat which & had received in Russia 9ut it would be better if this took place outside the priest1s monaster" & arranged through m" comrade the priest0agent that he should invite the Religious to his home ' '(nd so it was done & had felt humiliated and angr" at having been rejected b" the old coot, and when our second interview took place, & demanded to know his reasons !e calml" answered that he did not have an" reason himself, but that the /ord had given him the 'discerning of spirits' <1 $or 15416= & could see that the man was not pretending, he reall" believed what he said, but his wholl" unscientific reason did not satisf" me !ow can "ou argue with a man who believes in magicF ?ven his seraphic smile irritated me% that old man behaved like a child & told him that & would not hesitate to kill him if this could help me to enter the seminar" !e answered *uietl" that he knew this & was flabbergasted. )or a long moment we looked at each other without sa"ing a word Then he broke the heav" silence and said slowl"4 '8ou know not what "ou are doing ' & must confess that & felt then e+tremel" uncomfortable4 this man could read m" mind% he possessed powers which & did not understand M" comrade the priest, who was in the room, sensed that & was faltering !e signaled to me discreetl" &n a flash & realiBed that & was finished unless & carried out the 7ncle1s orders there and then & sprang to m" feet and with two neat karate blows & killed the old man &n 19DI, ver" few people in the ;est knew the possibilities afforded b" this Hapanese art, and & was grateful to m" Russian masters for teaching me how to kill 'cleanl"' Those two blows had caused his heart to stop, and his death would be normall" diagnosed as a heart failure The ne+t da", however, & had a rash all over m" bod", a s"mptom of emotional stress% how stupid of me. ' '& was full" confident now that & would eventuall" enter the seminar", and & was alread" making plans for the future especiall" as regard m" work for the Part" & was to inject into $atholic thinking a whole set of new values and a new train of thought & was to foster remorse in their hearts, a gnawing sense of guilt, *uoting the >ospel4 '9e 3C? as the )ather and & are 3C? ' That sense of guilt must grow into an obsession to the point of rehabilitating Martin /uther The" will be made to believe that schisms and heresies were caused b" their own intransigence, that the time had come for them to atone and make reparation b" throwing their arms open to their Protestant brethren and confessing their own sin of pride and stubbornness 3f course, we shall not tamper with the $reed e+cept for the word '$atholic' which must be changed to '7niversal' or '$hristian' as the Protestants use 9ut we shall not use the name of >od e+cept when necessar" ;e shall speak of man, stress his dignit" and nobilit" ;e must transform the language and thinking pattern of ever" $atholic ;e must foster the m"sti*ue of the human race (t first, we shall sa" that >od e+its, but we shall point out that >od remains forever outside the field of human e+perience, and e+perience is what counts for sensate beings ;e shall la" much stress on e+perience and sensor" perceptions The positive, the e+perimental and the sensorial must be the basis of the new thinking ;e shall sa" that, since >od is invisible, the best wa" to serve him is to set up a universal $hurch in which all men can meet as brothers in mutual good0will, love, and understanding This new m"sti*ue must finall" obfuscate the concept of >od of whom we shall speak less and less,

e+cept for sa"ing that we are >od because >od is in ever"one of us &n this manner, we shall re0direct the religious "earnings and superstitions of the people ;e shall deif" Man ' '3nce $atholics have accepted this new m"sti*ue, we shall tell them to strip their churches bare of statues and ornaments because these things are unessential and abhorrent to their dear Protestant and Hewish brethern Thus all s"mbols of $atholic worship and devotion will go b" the boards, and when the" are gone devotions will go too 8es, we shall promote an iconoclastic Beal especiall" among the "ounger generation The" themselves will destro" that jumble of statues, pictures, vestments, reli*uaries, organs, etc &t would be a good idea, too, to spread a 'prophec"' that sa"s4 '8ou shall see married priests, and "ou shall hear the Mass in the language of the people ' This should make our task easier ;e shall incite women to assert their right to the priesthood, and we shall make the Mass more popular b" allowing home Masses that can be said b" the father or the mother of the famil" 3nce this practice is established we shall campaign for the abolition of the parish s"stem as anti*uated and not in keeping with the needs of modern times $hurches can then be turned into museums, meeting halls, theaters, storerooms and other useful functions ' '(ll sorts of e+citing ideas came surging into m" head, and & coded m" whole program before sending it to Moscow /ooking back on these da"s, & now feel a legitimate pride at having been the first to suggest these ideas to the Part" &t is now plain that these were the right ideas, far superior to a mere dialectical attempt at destro"ing religious belief 2ome time later, an order came from Moscow4 'Cew assignment4 go to Rome ' (nd so & left Poland for what was going to be m" lifetime work ' '3nce in Rome & met a priest0professor who was in our network !e was a scholar and a scriptural e+pert !e was then bus" preparing a new ?nglish version of the 9ible, but his work was still secret &n that new version the old cliches about the Girginit" of Mar", the Real Presence and like fables were to be adroitl" amended and re0interpreted &nstead of 'Girgin' Mar" will be called 'maid' The 'brethren' of Hesus will become !is 'brothers' The 'Real Presence' will be e+plained as a feeling, or e+perience, when '$hristians are gathered together in !is name' The notion of 'gathering' is an important one to promote the communit" spirit Those who do not conform to the >roup will be reproved as trouble0makers and bad $hristians ;e must absolutel" stifle individual attitudes if we are to control the >roup as we please, and the control of the >roup is essential for the establishment of $ommunism The professor also taught me a sensible wa" to sa" Mass since, within si+ "ears, & shall be obliged will"0nill" to sa" it also !e never actuall" pronounced the words of the $onsecration% he simpl" muttered some words that sounded like it This was possible since the Rubrics re*uire that the words be said in a low voice /ater, of course, the Mass will be radicall" modified% we shall pla" down the sacrificial aspect, we shall e+alt it as a meal taken b" the $ommunit" &n case some reactionar" priests refuse to conform, and insist on sa"ing the old pra"ers, we shall direct that the $anon in its entiret" be said aloud This will also make it possible for the people to sa" the words with the priests, and once this is possible we shall rule that it is indispensable also Thus the Mass will cease to be the privilege of the priest alone ' 'The professor was alread" working on a draft for a Cew 3rder of the Mass, and he urged me to do likewise because, he said, it was greatl" desirable that we should give the people different kinds of Masses% this will help destro" unit", the mainsta" of $atholic power (ll this would be a great deal easier if we succeeded in having one of our agents elected as pope )ailing this, however, we would probabl" be able to swa" the $ardinals sufficientl" to obtain

the election of a progressive pope who will ratif" whatever our agents put on his desk in the name of progress ' '& was fascinated b" the things the professor told me, and & tried to elicit from him the names of some of the other priests and seminarists who were members of our network, but he said he knew little about it !e did sa", however, that we had a few professors teaching in the Roman seminaries, and he gave me the name of another professor, a )renchman, who was giving singing lessons in Rome !e was a member of the $ommunist Part", and & was told that & could trust him completel" & later met him and befriended him 3ne da", as we were strolling through the streets of Rome, he said4 '&magine this cit" without a cassock in sight% how wonderful it would be.' '8es', & nodded, 'the cassock must go (fter all, the" could sa" Mass in a jacket or jumper.' )rom m" $atholic upbringing & understood how vocations often assert themselves in "oung children4 in his cassock, the priest stands out as a man different from the rest The child likes him and wants to emulate him 9ut destro" the cassock, and "ou will destro" the priest &n this wa" man" vocations will die in the bud '
Interlude

Mikolaj1s confessions are far from being complete There are numerous gaps in his narrative, and when he relates some incidents and circumstances of his seminar" da"s and priesthood it is not alwa"s clear whether he is in Rome or in some other cit" 3bviousl", it was not his intention to write an autobiograph"% rather, he "ielded to the inner urge of unburdening his conscience even though he would have denied this himself & think there e+ist a few indications in his narrative that he had not completel" lost the )aith, but he was furiousl" attempting to fight it off <The sin against the !ol" >host= (fter all, the devil himself believes in >od but he hates >od nevertheless True, Mikolaj1s avowed aim was to eradicate religious sentiment among $atholics through the subversion of the press, newspapers and publishing houses, but if he had had no other motivation wh" should he have been careful not to sa" the true form of the $onsecration when celebrating MassF ;as he afraid that the $onsecration might effect something real. (gain, he was obviousl" impressed b" the e+traordinar" powers of the religious priest whom he killed in Poland Then, there was his morbid hatred of the miraculous medal that a "oung lad" of his ac*uaintance in Rome used to wear round her neck This has little to do with the religious feeling of the $atholic people at large (s the head of a $ommunist network he must have been far too bus" stud"ing reports, issuing orders and, generall", supervising the infiltration of the $atholic press to bother about the 'superstition' of a lone "oung lad" who insisted on wearing the miraculous medal ?ver" informed $atholic knows that this medal, which was given to $atherine /aboure in 1ID6, has indeed worked man" miracles Mikolaj was a well0informed anti0$atholic% he knew what the medal was about !ence his hatred of it !e would not admit, of course, that miracles do e+ist, but he had no scientific e+planation for 'those things' in spite of the ver" high degree of intelligence which he prided himself on possessing, and 'those things' kept cropping up throughout the histor" of the $hurch with disturbing insistence 9etween 19,6 and 19:6 he pursued his program with unrelenting Beal That he was successful is evidenced b" the fact that Moscow put at his disposal practicall" unlimited funds (s earl" as 19,6, he campaigned for the suppression of altars, /atin, statues, kneelers, crucifi+es, etc <5= ( bare table was to replace the altar% this was more 'communal' and more in keeping with the 'emerging consciousness of modern man as a social person' $oncelebrated Masses must be encouraged% all men are 3C?, "ou see <that1s in the >ospel=, and priests in particular must be as 3C? This was the avowed reason on which he fed to theological reviews The real

reason is that concelebrated Masses would contribute to the destruction of the Mass itself as the (ct of $hrist% the Mass would become a human affair, a communal memorial, and no one would know e+actl" at what precise moment the $onsecration would take place, nor b" whom e+actl" it was effected Then, again, the Mass must be 'desacraliBed'% its farrago of 'absurd' s"mbols and genuflections must go This wasthe re*uisite for the merging of all religions <D= 'The merging of all religions', continues Mikolaj in his confessions, 'and the brotherhood of man, must alwa"s be re0asserted as the basic motivation for all the changes '/ove th" neighbor as th"self' will be our scriptural justification The greatest change, and the most desirable one, is the suppression of the papac"% but this appeared ver" difficult to me in view of $hrist1s promise4 'Thou art the Rock, and upon this Rock & shall build m" $hurch' ;e shall therefore endeavour to undermine the authorit" of the pope in ever" possible wa", and we shall tr" to enlist his cooperation to introduce the changes that will make this possible ;e shall promote the concept of ?piscopal ?*ualit" and the priesthood of the lait" ;hen the bishops are elected b" the people, and the pope is no more than the president of the bishops, our victor" will be near at hand <,= ;hen, moreover, the parish s"stem has been destro"ed through the proliferation of home Masses celebrated b" la"folk in their capacit" as 'priests', the Mass itself will cease to be ;hen, finall", the bishops elected b" the people are admitted to vote in a conclave, then the papac" will be in our hands ' '(ll must be done in the name of love (lso in the name of love, we shall promote the idea that >od is far too loving to want !is onl" 2on to die a cruel death for us and to want to create an everlasting hell $hrist will be described as a good man and great revolutionar", and hell as a superstition of the #ark (ges ;e shall no longer mention sin, and (ngels will be relegated to the realm of m"tholog" and fair" tales 3nce the people cease to fear >od, the" will soon forget !im 3ur task is to promote these ideas among the $atholic elite via the theological journals which we control, and the" in turn will promote them in the $hurch as their own ideas ;e shall also encourage man" new translations of the 9ible% the greater the number of translations, the better% it will help to create confusion The number of $atholic scholars who are itching to produce their own versions 0 undoubtedl" the best ever produced in their own e"es 0 is not lacking% all the" need is a little prodding from us ;e are faced with a huge task% man" problems remain to be solved4 the Rosar", /ourdes, and the twent" odd feasts of Mar" are anno"ing things, but we shall be patient &n an" case, we will have to draw up a new calendar and dispose of man" Marian feasts as well as man" other 2aints The new calendar must look as bare as the table on which the" will sa" the new Mass ' '2uch is the substance of the orders which & issued to the network The following "ear & began to work on the draft of a new catechism which would be acceptable to all believers &t must be practical, human, non0committal, and ambiguous &t must stress the humanit" of $hrist who, in fact, was a brother of ours 9ut the word 'charit"' is to be banished absolutel"% we shall sa" 'love' instead /ove can be man" things, but charit" has an intolerable religious connotation ;e shall sa", of course, that it means the same and the change is more conformable to modern usage $oncerning the precepts of the $hurch, we shall sa" that $hristians are now full" mature and adult, that the precepts were necessar" when the people were ignorant and uneducated, but that it is more fitting to adult $hristians to let their own consciences decide >od, in an" case, is far too great and remote to worr" about our eating meat on )rida"s.' 'Private confession is a waste of time% we shall promote a communal penitential rite with emphasis on sins committed against our brothers The precept of 2unda" attendance will be modified too ;e shall sa" that, because of the working conditions in this modern age, people

need their 2unda" to rela+ in the countr"side awa" from the cit"1s fumes The" should be allowed to attend Mass on 2aturda", even on )rida" >od did not sa" what da" was to be reserved &n all cases we shall stress the primac" of the individual conscience over set rules and pett" precepts which are unworth" of an adult man and an insult to his dignit" <-= ;e shall retain the '3ur )ather' for the time being, but we shall replace 'Thee' b" '8ou' and we shall find suitable substitutes for such words as 'forgive, temptations, trespasses' and other similar nonsense The seven sacraments will receive our special attention The first & would like to abolish is baptism, <:= but it will have to sta" for a while% we shall sa" that 3riginal 2in is not the sin of (dam and ?ve who, in an" case, never e+isted% we shall re0interpret it <7= 9aptism, then, will merel" be a ceremon" marking the coming of a new member into the human brotherhood ;e shall do likewise with ever" sacrament $oncerning marriage, it shall not be refused to those priests who wish to receive it ' 1&n the Mass, the words 11Real Presence11 and 'Transubstantiation' must be deleted ;e shall speak of 'Meal' and '?ucharist' instead ;e shall destro" the 3ffertor" and pla" down the $onsecration and, at the same time, we shall stress the part pla"ed b" the people <I= &n the Mass, as it is toda", the priest turns his back to the people and fills a sacrificial function which is intolerable !e appears to offer his Mass to the great $rucifi+ hanging over the ornate altar ;e shall pull down the $rucifi+, substitute a table for the altar, and turn it around so that the priest ma" assume a presidential function The priest will speak to the people much more than before4 to achieve this, we shall shorten what is now called the Mass proper, and we shall add man" readings to what is called the )oremass <9= &n this manner the Mass will graduall" cease to be regarded as an act of adoration to >od, and will become a gathering and an act of human brotherhood (ll these points will have to be elaborated in great detail and the" ma" take an"thing up to D6 "ears before the" are implemented, but & think that all m" objectives will be fulfilled b" 197, <16= ' 'Thus & laboured for twent" long "ears Pius E&& died in 19-I ;hen Hohn EE&&& announced a new council, m" interest was greatl" stimulated & reported to m" chiefs that this was perhaps the last battle4 no effort should be spared The" were obviousl" of the same opinion because the" immediatel" appointed me to the highest position in the ;est ?uropean network, and the" gave me unlimited financial backing through our 9ank in 2witBerland !earing that Pope Hohn had appointed a commission to draw the schemas of the forthcoming $ouncil, & immediatel" started to work on counter0schemas with the help of avant0garde theologians who had been won over to our wa" of thinking Thanks to m" contacts & managed to obtain copies of the projected papal schemas% the" were terrible. & was in a cold sweat. &f these schemas are carried, m" work of 56 "ears will have been in vain <11= & hastil" put the finishing touch to m" counter0schemas, and & circulated them ?ventuall", the" were tabled in the $ouncil <15= Thanks to the cooperation of some bishops whose thinking had been conditioned previousl", the majorit" of bishops, reactionar" but ill0prepared, were completel" disconcerted b" the highl" efficient and coherent interventions of our friends% most of m" counter0schemas were carried ' '9ut & am not satisfied4 man" of m" schemas, although the" were accepted, have been watered down b" Pope Paul himself in contempt of the majorit" vote at the $ouncil )ortunatel", the revised versions contain man" ambiguities% in this manner, it will be possible to initiate further changes, alleging that the" are in the spirit of the $ouncil (t an" rate, Pope Paul is a progressive and a humanist% it should not be difficult to manipulate him and obtain

sweeping changes in the near future !owever, we must begin to work for Gatican &&& even now Gatican &&&, as & see it, will mean the destruction of the $hurch and the death of >od Then, & shall come forward, not to nail $hrist upon !is $ross, but >od !imself into !is coffin '
Conclusion

Mikolaj, the (nti0Priest, is dead !is immense pride, his presumption, his blasphemies, have ended on a hospital bed !e has now been judged b" >od (lmight" whom, in his delirious hatred, he wanted to 1nail into !is coffin1 ;ho was MikolajF Co one knows !e carried no identification papers 9ut we are not so much concerned with individual agents as with their work and their aims There are thousands of Mikolajs in the $hurch toda", and the" are at the controls ;ho was the priest0professor who, as earl" as 19DI, was working on the draft of a Cew MassF (gain, we do not know ;e onl" know that he had a high teaching post in Rome and that he was a $ommunist agent Co matter how secret their work ma" have been, there have been a few instances of leakage, especiall" on the part of those who had less to fear from their own indiscretions Thus, to a )rench diplomat who said that 'he could not visualiBe how a $ommunist regime could succeed in )rance', Mr M Miko"an, the then Gice0President of the 2upreme 2oviet, answered4 '8ou are underrating the influence of $ommunism and the support which it receives in "our $atholic milieu+, including the high spheres of the !ierarch" and the most influential of $atholic publications &t is through these that $ommunism will be established in )rance ' <1D= This was no idle boast on the part of Mr Miko"an The $ommunists have concentrated on )rance because )rench thought, for better or for worse, has alwa"s had a great influence on the rest of the world &t is no e+aggeration to sa" that the )rench $atholic press is sold out to Mar+ism, and this was so long before Gatican && The )rench !ierarch" has had modernistic tendencies, if not outright Modernist ideas, for man" decades past )or instance, )irst !ol" $ommunion was never given to little children as 2t Pius E instructed, and, in man" cases, not until children had reached the age of pubert" Hust after ;orld ;ar &&, the ver" name of !ol" $ommunion was replaced b" such terms as 'Profession of )aith', with the implication that the child became the doer <professing his faith=, and $hrist ceased to be the doer <giving !imself to the child= This was thought to be fitting because the child, being nearl" grown up, could decide for himself whether or not to 'profess his faith' whilst the notion, of 'graces' given to little children through the 2acrament was distasteful to those who did not believe in the Real Presence 2uch subtle heresies were *uite common in )rance (s earl" as 19,:, statues were taken out of some churches, altars pulled down, and tables set up The rest of the world knew nothing about it Pius E&& condemned the practice, but he was ignored The )rench hierarch", therefore, was a fruitful terrain for the $ommunists to work on, and so were the )rench $atholic Publishing !ouses whose newspapers, books, reviews, journals, were read b" the leading intellectuals of ?uropean $atholicism Gatican &&, therefore, was undoubtedl" the victor" of that brand of )rench $atholic theolog" which Pius E&& had condemned, and the victor" also of the $ommunist agents who controlled the press Man" of these had teaching posts in Rome, and man" toda" are at work in the Roman $ongregations 2ome of the decrees issuing from the $ongregations are worded in such a wa" that the" cannot possibl" have been prepared b" genuine $atholics (t an" rate, this opinion of mine is shared b" some Traditionalist bishops who know more than & do /et us now wait until 197, to see if Mikolaj1s prophec" will be fulfilled The 'death' of the $hurch, however, will not last more than D da"s <or D "ears in biblical language=, and she will rise again over the corpses of her enemies ;e need not fear for the $hurch, but we must feel great concern for the innumerable

priests and bishops who have accepted the changes and are promoting them in the name of obedience /et us pra" for them and for the Pope that the" ma" be enlightened T!? ?C#
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1= Cot an empt" threat% the week before his scheduled ordination, an agent who had been stud"ing in a )rench seminar" went to see his 2uperior and said4 '8ou have all been so nice to me that & feel compelled to tell "ou the truth4 & cannot take the !ol" 3rders% & was sent here b" the $ommunist Part" ' ?ight da"s later he was murdered la= &n this regard, it is interesting to read what Paul G& had to sa" during his audience of 3ctober 59th, 19:94 '$ommunion means more than $ommunit" <which is merel" an e+terior social fact it means more than (ssembl" it means the $hurch animated b" an interior principle which is not onl" sentimental, cultural or ideal, but m"stical and real ' The following week, referring again to the term 'communit"', the Pope said4 'The $hurch is the M"stical 9od" of $hrist the $hurch is a $ommunion ( superficial and considerabl" impudent phraseolog" has penetrated into the common language of the $hurch ' This superficial and imprudent phraseolog", however, was deliberatel" introduced b" the $ommunists to achieve a specific objective &n all modern catechetical te+tbooks, notwithstanding the Pope1s warning, the 'communit"' is emphasiBed 1us*ue ad nauseam.1, and the term 'M"stical 9od" of $hrist' has been dropped 5= ;e have here the photograph of a new0st"le Mass which was taken in )rance circa 19,-% the priest was facing the people, he was using a table, the table was placed right in the middle of the congregation, and it was bare The caption presented the Mass as a 'meal' Most $atholics, speciall" in (ustralia, were then blissfull" unaware of these new trends ;hen these new trends became discernible during the first session of the $ouncil, ';orld Trends' was founded &t was probabl" the first ?nglish0language bulletin to oppose the new ideas This is no idle boast, it is a fact4 as earl" as 19:5 we knew what was taking place Man" readers who thought we were e+aggerating have since written to us sa"ing that our earl" warnings were, in fact, ver" mild in consideration of what has happened since D= Twent"0five signs of the $ross, twelve genuflections and man" lesser acts of reverence have been eliminated in the Cew Mass The Cew Mass was rejected in 19:7 b" the 2"nod of 9ishops <it is now the 1thing1 to put all the blame on the bishops= 7ndeterred b" this opposition, 9ugnini, the /ateran 7niversit" Professor who was dismissed b" Hohn EE&&&, and who put the final touches to the Cew Mass with the help of non0$atholic ministers, obtained its ratification b" Paul G&% the bishops, then, felt the" had to accept it <9ugnini has since been made an archbishop b" Pope Paul= ,= Pius E&& ma" not have been aware of the $ommunist subversion, but he was ver" much aware that new ideas were being put forward in theological reviews, and he condemned them in two ?nc"clicals, '!umani >eneris' on modern errors in general, and 'Mediator #ei' on the liturg" in particular Reading these ?nc"clicals now would in all probabilit" shake man" $atholics out of the complacenc" which the" have shown towards the recent changes -= '$hristian moralit" is based on love, not on the observation of certain laws and rules Too much emphasis has been placed on keeping the $ommandments of >od and the $hurch

as the guide for $hristian living ' <;ord and ;orship 2eries, Ith >r Teacher1s Manual, p 55,, now in use in 72 $atholic schools with the approval of the bishops = (gain4 ';e consider man as a breakthrough of mind into the world &n man the process of evolution has become conscious of itself ' <p 1I, 'The M"ster" of $hrist', 16th >rade= )arther in the same book4 'Man is evolution become conscious of itself ' <p -5= <Cothing about our first parents= (gain4 '1>od1s /aws1 <their *uotations marks= are reasonable living arrangements that human beings, helped b" >od have been able to legislate for themselves The ancient description of >od as la"ing down laws from the outside should not be taken literall" &t is more true that >od inspires laws from within ' <p -6, -1= 0 <&n "our own conscience% and the consensus of all consciences form 'the reasonable living arrangements' Moralit" is a *uestion of majorit"% 9ut we, Traditionalist $atholics, believe that >od gave !is law to Moses, and that !e worked an awe0inspiring public miracle on this occasion% just as !e did in 1917 at )atima through 3ur /ad", which, again, was witnessed b" man" people% was recorded b" the press, and photographs of it preserved = The power of >od is greater than the imagination of the heretics who are now in charge of our children in $atholic schools, here in (ustralia as well as elsewhere, with at least the tacit consent of bishops and archbishops := To the best of m" knowledge, the sacrament of baptism was the first to have been tampered with b" the $onciliarist $hurch 7 = !ow well the subverters have succeeded can be gauged from the following4 ';e are all born with inbuilt obstacles, such as ignorance, laBiness, selfishness This state of being born with in0built obstacles to our development is what we $atholics call '3riginal 2in' <Page 5:, '(n 3verview', a book of the 'To /ive is $hrist' series, used in 72 $atholic schools with the blessing of the bishops I= Man" of the pra"ers in ?nglish sa" 'we' instead of '&'% the" thus give to the la"man a priestl" function which he does not possess 9= &n the Cew Mass, the 3ffertor" and $anon have been fused to form the '?ucharistic Pra"ers' of which there are four <the 5nd is *uite short=, and the )oremass is now called '/iturg" of the ;ord' with man" readings added The ph"sical presence of 3ur /ord in the !ost is nowhere affirmed clearl", and the word '$onsecration' has been replaced b" 'Carrative'% no longer a R?0?C($TM?CT, but onl" a 2T3R8 D- pra"ers have been eliminated, that is, 76J of the 3ld Mass ;e would do well to remember that Paul G& has not given absolute force of law to the Cew Mass despite the forged paragraph that has been included in ever" altar Missal 16= $oncerning this paragraph generall", consider the following e+cerpts from a modern catechetical book4 'The Mass is our $hristian0friendship meal The food we eat at Mass represents our sharing of ourselves with one another 9ut because we believe that $hrist is reall" alive in us <m" emphasis=, this sharing of ourselves is also a sharing of $hrist with one another ' <This is the new definition of the Real Presence = This passage is in 'The M"ster" of $hrist', page 51- (gain4 ';hen we $hristians gather to celebrate the /ord1s 2upper <a /utheran term, 0 m" remark=, we are celebrating our belief that we are histor"0makers The Mass is a dinner at which Revolutionaries gather in the presence of their /eader to celebrate what has been accomplished and to commit themselves to the completion of what has been begun ' <'The #eveloping !uman $ommunit"', page 7- This ver" title underlines three common modern errors4 1st 0 that the purpose of this life is to 'develop' along secular lines% 5nd 0 that 'human' pursuits are more important than spiritual efforts% Drd 0 that the

'$ommunit"' is more important than the person These are all Mar+ist tenets, and the" are now found in virtuall" ever" modern catechetical te+tbook = 11= Pope Hohn was aware of the penetration of the $hurch b" $ommunists The members of his commission were obviousl" hand0picked !is commission was as traditional as his ?nc"clical 'Geterum 2apientia' Pope Hohn, however, had an eas"0going disposition and, in man" instances, he was prevailed upon to make *uestionable decisions 15= &#30$ pla"ed an important part in this ;hether &#30$ had been infiltrated b" $ommunists, & will not sa"% but &#30$ had made its own the ver" ideas promoted b" $ommunist agents in priestl" garb 1D= $f '/a PensKe $atholi*ue', Ma"0Hune 1975, page 97 <9" courtes" of Marie $arrK=

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Pope Hohn knew of the e+istence of the $ommunist network within the $hurch The late RenK Malliavin, )rench writer, who had befriended $ardinal Roncalli during the latter1s sojourn in Paris, went to Rome in 19-9 to visit Roncalli who had since become Hohn EE&&& !e brought with him a dossier on the penetration of the $hurch b" $ommunists Pope Hohn immediatel" granted him an unscheduled private audience, to the disma" of the Monsignori who were responsible for the Pope1s strict time0table The date was (pril 5Ith RenK Malliavin gave Pope Hohn evidence of the $ommunist infiltration, and the !ol" )ather asked him to continue his investigations on his return to Paris, and to keep him informed <$f RenK Malliavin, in '?crits de Paris', Ma" 19:9, cited in 'PensKe $atholi*ue', Ma"0Hune 1975 = &n 19-6, C(T31s &ntelligence 2ervice had discovered the '(nti0$hurch' network and, ver" probabl", conve"ed the information to the Gatican (gents were trained in special $ommunist schools before being sent to $atholic seminaries and universities Caturall", C(T3 1s findings were hardl" mentioned, if at all, in the world press <$f '#7 )3C# de l1(bime', b" Paul 2cortesco, p 51= Pierre de Gillemarest, in his book '?spionnage 2oviKti*ue en )rance', gives further precisions4 these special $ommunist schools e+ist in $rimea for the training of /atin (merican seminarists% and in /atvia for the training of 2candinavian, Corth ?uropean, and ?nglish speaking seminarists 3n the same subject, )rank ( $apell has written several interesting articles, e g Gol E&&, Co 5, of Cov 5:th, 1971 <!erald of )reedom, 9o+ D, Larephath, C H 6II96, 72( 5-M each cop" = Readers will now understand wh" & recentl" wrote that 1man" of the decisions issuing from the Gatican are made b" the ?nem"1. (nd these are the decisions which we are e+pected to accept in the name of 39?#&?C$?4 The" are the decisions b" which the majorit" of our priests have been led to conform to the new trends, assuring us, however, that 'nothing fundamental has been changed'4 The decisions b" which, almost overnight, papers such as the $(T!3/&$ ;??N/8 and T!? (#G3$(T?, once staunchl" orthodo+, have been led to

'sell' the ver" ideas planted b" $ommunist agents &ndeed, when & first arrived in this countr" 5D "ears ago & was ver" favourabl" impressed b" the e+cellence of the $atholic press here% less intellectual than the )rench press, "es% but much more spiritual and authenticall" $atholic Times have changed% no one dares dissent <?ditor1s notes= <This report was prepared thanks to the information contained in a little book which was published in )rance in the 5nd *uarter of 1975, namel", '?2 165-', b" Marie $arrK% ?ditions 2egieb, 9 P :, 7I 0 )rKneuse, )rance <(ppro+imatel" O1 -6= This report, however, is not a verbatim translation of the book, and man" details gathered from other sources concerning $ommunist agents in general, have been added to it 9ut Mikolaj is not a fictitious character although his name is = Please email the page widel", especiall" among the clerg" ?ver" priest, brother and nun in the world should have a cop"