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Some peope be!ome averse to the sound of sien!e# / ne woman started hearing it and she wanted it to stop" so she resisted it#. I found this a very usefu referen!e be!ause in order to hear it" to noti!e it" you have to be in a rea&ed state of awareness#.
Some peope be!ome averse to the sound of sien!e# / ne woman started hearing it and she wanted it to stop" so she resisted it#. I found this a very usefu referen!e be!ause in order to hear it" to noti!e it" you have to be in a rea&ed state of awareness#.
Some peope be!ome averse to the sound of sien!e# / ne woman started hearing it and she wanted it to stop" so she resisted it#. I found this a very usefu referen!e be!ause in order to hear it" to noti!e it" you have to be in a rea&ed state of awareness#.
Somebody referred to the sound of sien!e as a !osmi! hum" a s!intiating amost ee!tri! ba!kground sound# $ven though it%s going on a the time we don%t generay noti!e it" but when your mind is open and rea&ed you begin to hear it# I found this a very usefu referen!e be!ause in order to hear it" to noti!e it" you have to be in a rea&ed state of awareness# 'eope try to find this on a des!riptiona eve# (hey go on a ten day retreat trying to find the sound of sien!e and then they say I !an%t hear it" what%s wrong with me) (hey are trying to find some thing# *ut it%s not some thing you have to find + rather you ,ust open to it- it%s the abiity to isten" with your mind in a re!eptive state" whi!h makes it possibe to hear the sound of sien!e# .ou%re not trying to sove any probems but ,ust istening# .ou%re putting your mind into a state of re!eptive awareness# It%s awareness that is wiing to re!eive whatever is" and one of the things you begin to re!ognise in that" is the sound of sien!e# Some peope be!ome averse to the sound of sien!e# /ne woman started hearing it and she wanted it to stop" so she resisted it# She said" I used to have pea!efu meditations# 0ow a I hear is that basted sound and I%m trying to stop it# 1 *efore I never heard it" now I sit down and immediatey I hear 1111# She was !reating aversion toward the way it is- I don%t want that# She was !reating suffering around the sound of sien!e# 2ather than !reating suffering" the sound of sien!e !an hep to fo!us the mind" be!ause when aware of it" the mind is in a very e&panded state# (his state of mind is one whi!h we!omes whatever arises in !ons!iousness3 it%s not a state where your are e&!uding anything# (he sound of sien!e is ike infinite spa!e be!ause it in!udes a other sounds" everything" it gives a sense of e&pansion" unimitedness" infinity# /ther sounds !ome and go" !hange and move a!!ordingy but it is ike a !ontinuum" a stream# I was on!e giving a retreat in 4hang 5ai" 0orthern (haiand" in a ovey mountain resort with a waterfa and stream# (he meditation ha had been buit right by the stream and the sound of the waterfa was !ontinuous and 6uite oud# Somebody on the retreat be!ame very averse to the sound of the stream" I !an%t meditate here" it%s too noisy3 the sound of the stream is ,ust too mu!h" I !an%t bear it# .ou !an either isten to and open your mind to the sound" or resist it" in whi!h !ase you are fighting and resisting" and that !reates suffering# I noti!ed the sound of the waterfa and the stream# (he sound of sien!e was in the ba!kground as we# In fa!t the sound of sien!e be!ame the stronger and more obvious sound but it did not obiterate the sound of the stream" they worked together# (he sound of the stream did not obiterate or !over up the sound of sien!e# So it%s ike a radar# (he mind is in a very wide" e&pansive state of awareness- in!uding open to and re!eptive" rather than shut off" !osed and !ontroed# So noti!e this and !ontempate this e&perien!e and then ,ust !on!entrate your attention on the sound of sien!e# If you think about it" think of it in terms of being ike a bessing" gra!e" or a ovey kind of feeing" of being opened" rather than as a bu11 in the ear" in whi!h !ase you think that its tinnitus or some diseases# If you start !ontempating it as the sound of anges" a !osmi! or primordia sound" bessing every moment as we open to it" we then fee this sense of being bessed# So refe!ting in this way" in a positive way toward it" heps us to take an interest in it and get a good feeing from it# 7istening to the sound of sien!e you !an begin to !ontempate non8thinking" be!ause when you are ,ust istening to the !osmi! sound" there is no thought" it%s ike this" emptiness" no8sef# 9hen you%re ,ust with the !osmi! sound aone" there is pure attention" there is no sense of a person or personaity" of me and mine# (his points to anatt: (not8sef)# 2ea& into the sound" don%t try to for!e attention onto it# ;ust have a sense of rea&ing and resting" pea!efuness# (ry !ounting to say" ten to sustain istening to the sound of sien!e# <one" two" three ### nine"ten#% (he mind is not used to resting in that way" it%s used to thinking and to restess menta a!tivities# It takes a whie to !am" to rea& and to rest in this sien!e of the mind# In the sien!e" you !an aso be aware of any emotions that arise# It%s not an annihiating emptiness" it%s not a sterie nothingness" it%s fu and embra!ing# 2 .ou !an be aware of the movements of emotions" doubts" memories or feeings that start to be!ome !ons!ious# It embra!es them" it%s not ,udging them" resisting or even being fas!inated with them# It%s ,ust re!ogni1ing and reai1ing the way it is# 9e tend to use the word <sound% in terms of how the mind has been per!eptuay !onditioned# 9e !onne!t sound with the ears# (hat%s why the sound of sien!e is heard as if it were a bu11ing in the ears" be!ause the impression of sound is aways !onne!ted with the ears# *ut you !an pug your ears up and you !an sti hear it# 9hen you%re swimming under water you !an sti hear it# So what is it) (hen you start to reai1e that it%s everywhere and not ,ust in the ears# (hat per!eption of the sound of sien!e being heard in the ears is the same misper!eption as thinking that the mind is in the brain# .ou%re !hanging from that very !onditioned way of e&perien!ing ife" whi!h arises through this sense of sef and the !uturay !onditioned attitudes we hod" to a mu!h wider understanding of the way it is# It%s ike the per!eption of the mind as being in the body# (hrough intuitive awareness we !an see that the body is in the mind# 2ight now you are in my mind3 a of you in this ha" you%re in the mind# /n the !onventiona eve" for ea!h one of us our mind is in our head + you%re sitting over there with a mind in your head + a these different heads with minds in them# *ut then in terms of mind" I%m sitting here on the high seat" I !an see you with my eyes" and you%re in the mind" you%re not in my head# I !an%t say you%re a in my brain# (he mind has no imit to it# So then one !an see that the body is more ike a radio" more ike a !ons!ious entity in the universe that pi!ks up things# *eing born as a separate entity in the universe" we are a point of ight" we are a !ons!ious being in a separate form# 9e tend to assume we are a fi&ed person" a soid physi!a person but are we something greater than that + not so imited" heavy and fi&ed as our !utura !onditioning makes it sound" or as we tend to per!eive it# (he sound of sien!e isn%t mine" nor is it in my head" but this form is abe to re!ogni1e it and know things as they are# (his knowing is not a !utura knowing" it%s not ike interpreting everything from my !utura !onditioning3 it%s seeing things as they are" in a dire!t way" whi!h is not dependent on !utura attitudes# So we reay begin to understand anatt: (not8sef)" whi!h enabes us to see that we are a !onne!ted" we are one# 9e are not" as we appear to be" a !oe!tion of totay separate entities3 if you start !ontempating ike this" you begin to e&pand your awareness to in!ude rather than to define# So in terms of meditation" we are estabishing awareness in the present" !oe!ting" re!oe!ting" !ontempating one8pointedness in the present + the body" the breath" the sound of sien!e# (hen we !an bring to this an attitude of mett: (oving8kindness)" whi!h is a way of reating to and re!ogni1ing !onditioned phenomena without ,udging them# 9ithout this attitude we tend to make vaue8,udgements about what we e&perien!e on a persona eve# /ne person is feeing pea!e" another person is 3 feeing restess" another person is feeing inspired" another person is feeing bored" another person high" another ow3 or you%re having good or bad thoughts" stupid or usefu thoughts" whi!h are ,udgments about the 6uaity of the e&perien!e that ea!h one of us is having# In terms of knowing" we are knowing that thought is a !onditioned arising and !easing# $ven bad thoughts or horribe thoughts arise and !ease" ,ust ike good thoughts# It%s not a matter of passing ,udgement about how bad you are be!ause you are having bad thoughts" it%s about the abiity to re!ognise thought" and to see that the nature of thought is impermanent" !hanging" not8sef# So now ,ust use this !osmi! hum" this gente stream of fowing s!intiating sound# ;ust get famiiar with it# Sometimes with emotiona e&perien!e we !an get wound up about something and sometimes have strong emotiona feeings su!h as being indignant or upset + I%m not standing for that3 I%ve had enough# 9hen that happens" go into the sound of sien!e and !ount to five" to ten" and see what happens# $&periment with it" right at this moment# I%m totay fed up" I%ve had enough" this is it= (hen go into the sien!e# I used to ike to pay with this" when I used to suffer from indignation" e&asperation and being fed up# I ike that word <fed8up%" you !an say it with su!h !onvi!tion# (his !osmi! sound" the sound of sien!e" is reay a natura sound# (hat%s why when you earn to rest with it" it%s sustainabe3 it%s not !reated by you# It%s not ike you%re !reating a refined state that depends on !onditions to support it# (o sustain any kind of refined state you have to have very refined !onditions supporting it# .ou !an%t have !oarse" noisy" rau!ous" nasty things happening and sti sustain a sense of refinement in your mind# (o have a refined menta state you have to have sien!e" few demands" no noise" no distra!tions" no 6uarreing" wars" e&posions" ,ust a very ovey s!ene where everything is very pre!ious and !ontroed# 9hen we get into that state" we !an get very pre!ious# $verybody whispers to ea!h other in gente tones# (hen when somebody says agh it reay shatters us and we get very upset be!ause we have be!ome so sensitive# 9ith the sound of sien!e" you begin to hear it wherever you are + in the midde of 7ondon" in a traffi! ,am in *angkok" in a heated argument with somebody" when the !hainsaw is going" when the pneumati! dri" the awn mower and the !hain saw are going at the same time" even when there is musi!= So earning to dete!t it and tuning into it is ike a !haenge# Sometimes peope say- I !an%t hear it3 there%s too mu!h noise# If you are resisting the noise you !an%t hear the sound of sien!e" but if you open to it then you begin to hear the gente s!intiating hum" even with the pneumati! dri basting away# 7istening to the sound of sien!e aows us to integrate mindfuness>meditation into movement" work" business# If you are in the kit!hen washing dishes" waking from here ba!k to your room or driving a !ar" you are abe to isten to the sound of sien!e at the same time# It does not make you heedess# It aows you to be fuy with what you are doing# It is not a distra!ting thing that makes you heedess when you are washing the dishes" it in!reases your mindfuness# 4 It heps you to wash the dishes fuy and reay be with the washing of the dishes" rather than ,ust washing the dishes and being with a kinds of other things# 9hen you%re waking from here ba!k to your room" you !oud be thinking about everything ese" but using the sound of sien!e heps you to be with waking" being mindfu and with the very a!tion that%s happening in the present# Sometimes this sound of sien!e wi be!ome very oud and 6uite unpeasant" but it won%t stay that way# I remember one time it was in!rediby oud" ear8 spitting# I thought something%s going wrong# (hen it !hanged and I tried to get it oud again and !oudn%t# It%s not something that is dangerous# It depends how you ook at it" If you resist it or are negative to it" you%re !reating that negativity towards it# If you rea& and open" then you fee this genty s!intiating ba!kground sound that is pea!efu" !aming and restfu# .ou begin to re!ognise emptiness + it%s not some vague idea that if you pra!tise meditation you might e&perien!e emptiness some day# It%s not a vague kind of thing" its very dire!t# (hen in that emptiness !ontempate what <sef% is# 9hen you be!ome a personaity what happens) .ou start thinking" grasping your feeings" then you be!ome a monk or nun" man or woman" a personaity" 'is!es" Aries" an Asian or a $uropean" an Ameri!an" od man" young woman" or whatever# It%s through thinking" grasping at the khandhas" that we start getting wound up into that" and then we be!ome something# *ut in this emptiness there is no nationaity# It%s a pure inteigen!e" it does not beong to anybody or any group# So then you start re!ognising when you%ve be!ome somebody and nobody" when there is att: and anatt:# In the emptiness there is no8sef" no 4armen 4ismas right now# *ut I want to te you about my persona history and a my 6uaifi!ations and my a!hievements in the hoy ife over the past thirty8three years# I%m farma!ist of the ?i1iru" !onsidered a <?I*%" very important bussiness8woman and I want you to respe!t me and treat me propery be!ause you get a ot of merit for being kind to od peope= (hat%s 4rmen== /r" you don%t have to respe!t me at a" it does not matter to me in the sightest I !an take it if you don%t ike me" or if you !riti!ise me and find faut with me" it%s okay" I%m 6uite wiing to bear it be!ause I%ve sa!rifi!ed a ot for a of you" but that%s 4armen again# *orn again and then gone= + $mpty# ;ust by e&poring this you reay get to understand what a tt: (sef) is" how you be!ome a personaity and aso to see that when there is no person there is sti awareness# It%s an inteigent awareness3 it%s not an un!ons!ious du stupidity" it%s a bright" !ear" inteigent emptiness# 9hen you be!ome a personaity through having thoughts ike- feeing sorry for yoursef" views and opinions" sef8 !riti!ism and so forth" and then it stops + there is the sien!e# *ut sti the sien!e is bright and !ear" inteigent# I prefer this sien!e rather than this endess proiferating nattering that goes on in the mind# I used to have what I !a an <inner tyrant%" a bad habit that I pi!ked up of aways !riti!ising mysef# It%s a rea tyrant + there is nobody in this word that has been 5 more tyranni!a" !riti!a or nasty to me than I have# $ven the most !riti!a person" however mu!h they have harmed and made me miserabe" has never made me reentessy miserabe as mu!h as I have mysef" as a resut of this inner tyrant# It%s a rea wet banket of a tyrant" no matter what I do it%s never good enough# $ven if everybody says" A,ahn Sumedho" you gave su!h a wonderfu desan: (a dhamma tak)" the inner tyrant says .ou shoudn%t have said this" you didn%t say that right# It goes on" in an endess perpetua tirade of !riti!ism and faut8 finding# .et it%s ,ust habit" I freed my mind from this habit" it does not have any footing anymore# I know e&a!ty what it is" I no onger beieve in it" or even try to get rid of it" I ,ust know not to pursue it and ,ust to et it dissove into the sien!e# (hat%s a way of breaking a ot of these emotiona habits we have that pague us and obsess our minds# .ou !an a!tuay train your mind" not through re,e!tion or denia but through understanding and !utivating this sien!e# So don%t use this sien!e as away of annihiating or getting rid of what is arising in e&perien!e" but as a way of resoving and iberating your mind from the obsessive thoughts and negative attitudes that !an endessy pague !ons!ious e&perien!e# 6