possible to measure my brain and see if I am calmer after critical incidents than
non-meditators, but we would need to get funding for the experiment.
I used to be a bouncer and I was assaulted and once even glassed in the face. I
believe that meditation helped me deal with these incidents and I believe that it
continues to help me and that there is a growing body of scientific evidence to that
effect.
Supervision and Professional Development
My learning goal re supervision is to return to the monastery in Reservoir where I
was receiving meditation instruction from the resident monk. This will be
observable if you show up there at 9:30 on a Saturday morning and find me sitting
in the meditation hall with the monk.
He talks a lot, and I find him a fairly orthodox teacher of Buddhism, I regret falling
out of the practice of visiting him regularly.
Feedback and Self Reflection
I used to program websites but then I found myself working bars and guarding doors
after I spiraled into drug and alcohol abuse when I had a breakdown during the
collapse of my first marriage. Roughly simultaneously I met my current partner and
began to recommit myself to meditation and Buddhist study, and as a consequence
decided to try to change careers, stop supporting the alcohol industry as a
bouncer/barman and try to help people for a living. I quit my job and became a
lifeline telephone counselor , got a job as an admin at a CaLD service and enrolled
in Welfare. In the three years since I have realized that Welfare is not for me. CMY,
the CaLD service I worked for set about firing me as soon as they learned I was
trying to upskill to be a service worker. Lifeline was great but when you become a
parent its hard to commit to overnight shifts etc without pay, and the Welfare
course turned out not to be as interesting to me as I had thought it would be. I
enrolled in a Religions Studies course via Open Universities Australia after I left CMY,
and I have discovered that I LOVE the academic study of the phenomena of Religion.
I want to pursue it and I will.
Hopefully I will get my Welfare Diploma. I have spent 4 years down a cul-de-sac and
I would love to have something to show for it beyond the memories, especially since
I have never managed to stick to a post-high-school educational institution for so
long. With Welfare, hopefully Chinese, and the Religion Studies degree I hope to be
able to travel, and find work. The evidence will be in seeing where I am in a few
years time I guess.
Joseph Zizys