My first experience in observing the prayers and rituals of another faith tradition and race struck
me as poignant and holy. Like most kids, I definitely could be silly and frivolousbut not about
religion. According to my mother, and many other adults in my neighborhood and at the Mount
Olive Baptist Church, I had the mark of divine anointment on me. In fact, my mother often told
me that Mr. Warren, our next-door neighbor in the Austin Homes Project, looked over in my crib
when she and my father brought me home from the old Colored General Hospital in Knoxville,
Tennessee, and yelled, Annie! Will! That little rascal will either be a preacher or go crazy! He
told them that he saw the light of Gods countenance shine upon my little face. Later, I indeed
felt that some strange sunshine was beaming excruciatingly hot rays upon my soul. A crass
materialist reading of my experience might conclude that it was the churning of hormones, or the
whirlwinds of the Civil Rights Movement. I was in a state of profound angst, but I did not have
the intellectual or social maturity to speculate about the source of my experience of Gods
presence. I only knew I felt the numinous clearly and powerfully.
The year was 1962, and I was 15 years old and in the tenth grade. The tumultuous public
anxiety surrounding the student sit-ins beckoned me to join the fray. I tried. But Willie, one of
my older brothers, threatened to beat me if he saw me embarrassing us by joining in with those
crazy students. I always took his threats seriouslyperhaps because he made good on them
with what I felt was rather malevolent precision. In order to keep me out of trouble, and
encourage me to help ease our poor familys enormous financial burdens, he secured a job for
me as his helper. He was the custodian of the Heska Amuna Synagogue, which belongs to the
Orthodox branch of American Judaism.
After sundown on Fridays, the men of this congregation, usually led by Rabbi Max
Zucker and the cantor, would have their prayer services. I found it enthralling and enchanting to
hear the descendants of Jesus sing praises and utter prayers to the God of Abraham and Sarah in
the Hebrew tongue. As I listened to their services, I thought about the lessons I was learning
from Mr. Lorenzo Grant, my black world history teacher, about the evils of Christendoms
pogroms against the Jews, and especially about what Hannah Arendt called the banality of evil
that was shamelessly fomented by the Nazi Holocaust. I heard and felt the pain and suffering of
the Jewish people remembered and surrendered to Yahweh.
I was not sure even then, however, that these affluent people understood and appreciated
the terrors and pains of my peoples history. I sensed that they were more sensitive than most
other white people. But I felt their sensitivity was based more on pity than on personal
knowledge or affection. Too many of them did not even see me. I was invisible until they needed
a light switch turned on, a meat dish rather than a dairy dish, and so on. I did not feel the need to
hold this against them. After all, they were white. I had been taught to expect to be treated like a
whatnot by white people. But these Jews were a different sort of white people. They seemed to
have real religion. I felt the presence of God as they prayed and sang. For me, no ones religion
is a laughing matter, most certainly not my own.