KARLY
LANE
First published 2013
First Australian paperback edition 2015
ISBN 978 174369241 7
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Screams, lights, blood and the smell of the entire world burning
were the last things Seb Taylor remembered as the darkness
swam before his eyes and he fell into an endless pit of despair.
He walked from the church, numb, never lifting his eyes
from the ground. He’d sat at the back on purpose, trying to
keep a low profile. His parents sat either side of him. His arm
throbbed and ached, but not as badly as his heart. The car trip
out to the cemetery was a blur of dry grass and an endless row
of people lining the streets. They stared at him accusingly and
he felt their hate burning his flesh like a blow torch.
At the graveside, he tried to listen to the minister’s voice,
hear the words that would comfort him, but all he heard was
the veiled message that these two young, vibrant lives had
been stolen away too soon – by him.
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the corner of the main street. Macksville had hit the big time.
Not every town this size on the Mid North Coast could boast
three sets of traffic lights in a row.
Rebecca glanced over at the car dealership that had once
been owned by her grandfather and his brothers. She could still
remember spending the day there when she’d been about five.
She’d been on one of her many visits and her nanna had had to
go to an appointment, so the receptionists and mechanics had
entertained her. It seemed mind-boggling that she was now a
grown woman with children of her own.
The front light came on as she pulled up outside her home,
and all feelings of unease vanished as she opened the front
door and crept inside. She bit back a sigh. She’d built up years
of distrust while living in the city, and still couldn’t get used
to the idea of her parents leaving the front door unlocked for
her at night. No matter how many times she reassured them
that she had a key, they still left the front door unlocked for
her when she did night shift.
Rebecca poked her head around the corner of the spare
room her children shared and smiled as she saw the two small
heads sound asleep against the brightly coloured floral pillow
cases that had been hers as a child. The girls looked so young
and precious. Lately they’d lost that sad-eyed look that had
stabbed at her heart and made her itch to gather them close
and beg for forgiveness. Turning away, Rebecca let out a long
sigh and made her way to the kitchen to put on the jug.
She tried to be as quiet as she could, although she knew she’d
never wake the girls – they’d always slept like a log through
the night. It was her parents she hated to disturb. Lately that’s
all she’d felt she was doing: disturbing, disrupting – imposing.
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She and the girls had been living back at her parents’ house
a while now and it was time to go. Although she was grateful
that her parents had opened their arms and home to her and
her children, there was a limit to the amount of time a grown
woman could live under the same roof with her parents. More
to the point, there was a limit to how long they could tolerate
two lively children and having their peaceful life upended.
She shook her head and smiled as she recalled the excitement
in her mother’s face when they’d pulled up three months ago,
the car loaded up with their possessions and ready to start a
new life. It was so good to be home and have her parents take
care of them all for a little while, as she licked her wounds and
found her feet again – and she could easily get used to it if it
weren’t for the kids. They needed a routine and a house of their
own. Rebecca could feel some of her control slowly beginning
to slip away. What started out as grandparents spoiling kids
on holidays didn’t transfer too well on a daily basis. The ‘no
boundaries’ life they’d fallen into recently wasn’t good for the
long term.
Taking her cup of herbal tea, which promised to give her a
good night’s sleep, Rebecca sat down at the kitchen bench and
reached for the newspaper to search the ‘to let’ section. As she
picked it up, her eyes went to the large photo on the front and
she gasped, dropping it onto the bench as she stared in shock.
With shaking hands, she picked the paper up again cautiously,
as though it were dangerous, and lifted it closer to get a better
look at the photo there. It was grainy, but the hard, cold eyes
staring back at her were the same ones she sometimes still saw
when she closed her own at night.
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Seb swore softly beneath his breath as a pain stabbed at his side
again. He’d spent too long cramped behind a steering wheel.
He’d just made it into town on the last of his tank of petrol
and would have preferred not to stop – he wasn’t in the mood
to make polite conversation with anyone who might recognise
him from his youth around here – but he’d misjudged his fuel
consumption and had no choice but to fill up at the first servo
in town. It was a bit flasher than he remembered, but was
basically the same as it had always been.
He didn’t recognise the bloke behind the counter and he
didn’t stop to ask questions. As he’d reached for the handle of
the door, he’d felt the tight pull of skin and muscle as they
protested the movement. The pain was a dull ache now, but he
welcomed it. If he felt pain he knew he was still alive. He should
be grateful that he was back on his feet. After three months
recuperating in a hospital, he was just happy to be out of bed.
Easing back into the driver’s seat, he took a minute to catch
his breath before turning the ignition key and pulling onto the
road. Not much had changed in town. It was a little eerie to
think time had stood still.
Once he was on the road leading out to Bowraville, he felt
light-headed. Things seemed to slow down and he could hear
his heartbeat, loud in his ears over the sound of his engine.
His hands gripped the steering wheel tighter and a cold sweat
broke out on his brow and back. He knew what it was, but
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escaped from the young kelpie pup at Seb’s feet as he lazily opened
one eye, then dropped his head to rest on his folded paws.
‘So it’s pretty bad over there, then?’ Angus asked.
Seb took a sip of his coffee before answering. ‘It’s not good.’
‘We making any progress, you think?’
Seb gave a small snort of contempt. ‘It’s like cutting the
head off a bloody hydra – it just grows another one to replace
it. We’re not going to win this thing and the politicians who
say otherwise are liars.’
‘You think they’ll bring back the troops soon?’
‘Yeah, eventually. The Yanks are supposed to be scaling
down over the next few years, but who knows.’
‘So what are you going to do? You going back over?’
It wasn’t a matter of not going back over – he was trained to
do a specialised job and was needed over there – but he’d lost
some good mates in the ambush and he’d only barely made it
out of there himself. This time it was harder to bounce back
and move on. He wasn’t afraid of going back – he was more
concerned that he wouldn’t be able to stop going back. The
adrenaline rush the job gave him was exactly the reason he’d
worked so hard to get into the SAS in the first place: it got into
your blood, like a drug. He wasn’t sure how he would be able to
live like a normal person after he got too old for active duty – he
couldn’t think about it. There wasn’t too much that scared him
in this world any more, but a future without the SAS absolutely
petrified him. The work defined him, made him who he was.
Without it, he was nothing but an empty, lonely man.
Seb stared into the dark coffee as though it were a crystal
ball. ‘Dunno yet. I just needed to take a break for a while. Once
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I get all this under control –’ he nodded down to his side and
chest, where the scars from the worst of his wounds were, ‘– I’ll
see what happens.’
‘Well, it’ll be good to have you back for a while … it’s been
too long,’ his father said, keeping his gaze fixed on the tree
line ahead.
Seb swallowed past a lump in his throat. It was the closest his
father had ever come to saying he’d missed him. He wondered
what other breakthroughs this visit would bring.