Time (Inspirational/christain) - by John Tatlow

TIME
In Search Of
My Soul
A book of poems about my life with Huntington’s Disease
Ded. To my mother Shawne Tatlow

TIME . . . TIME . . .
in search of my soul! in search of my soul!
by John Tatlow by John Tatlow
C 2004
2nd Edition
June 2004
____ of 100
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Printed at The Electric Paper Company

Vernon, BC
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Preface
Hello . . . I am John Tatlow. I would just like to thank
you for taking the time to read my book. Bless you and
I hope this book might help, inspire or awaken new
perspectives in your life.
I wrote this book because of my experiences. I had a

vision of my deceased mother and me in heaven that
changed the way I perceive life. I feel it is my duty and
responsibility as a Christian to share this with others.
Most people live their life not realizing what really is

around them. There eyes are so focused on this earthly
world they don’t see the spiritual side . . . I close my
eyes sometimes, put my hands out behind me like
wings . . . and slowly open my eyes to look at
people . . .in people, they’re souls . . . just like I saw my
mother in heaven. Her sparkling and shimmering
white soul.
Another reason I wrote these poems . . . if I should

ever have children and die while they are young. I
want them to know me for who I am. I am sure my
mother wanted to know me better on a personal basis
but she passed when I was young. The last reason is if
my body should leave and my soul shall rise to
heaven. I’ll have something left here to inspire people
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and tell my family and friends what kind of person I

am and to show them that there is a heaven!
Even though I been disabled with Huntington’s and
Epilepsy . . . it hasn’t keep me from accomplishing my
goals and dreams . . .It takes God, support, love and
persistence.
Before I begin I would like to share with you a couple
of my favorite verses that always seem to inspire me.
Mathew 5:16
“. . .let your light shine before men, that they may
see your good deeds and praise your Father in
heaven”
Galations 5:22,23
But the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace,
patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness
and self-control
Mathew 7:7
“Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will
find; knock and the door will be opened to you”
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Table of Contents
A Poets Testimony pg. 01
Shawnes Cry pg. 07
My First Twenty Years pg. 13
SHAWNE TATLOW
My Angel pg. 24
My Heart Is Free pg. 25
One Dream pg. 26
Sentimental Wooden Box pg. 28
HEAVEN
Dreamer’s Visions pg. 30

Addiction pg. 32
Heavenly Home pg. 33
Inside The Sun pg. 35
Gardens Of Creations pg. 36
KING OF KINGS
The Eternal Joy pg. 38

I Do Believe pg. 39
The Key pg. 40
My Song pg. 41
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My Hero pg. 43
My Inspiration pg. 44 SOUL
I Know pg. 45
I See Him pg. 46 Open Your Eyes pg. 78
God Is The One pg. 47 Unconcious Souls pg. 79
Closer pg. 49 Wouldn’t It Be Wonderful pg. 82
Table of Contents Cont:
Father pg. 50
The Source Of Love pg.51
How You Effect My Life pg. 52
I’m Learning pg. 53
Learning My Lessons pg. 54
My Stationmaster pg. 56
Gods Knight pg. 57
It Says pg. 58
HIGHS AND LOWS
Time pg.60
Harsh Reality pg. 61
Sometimes pg. 62
Highs And Lows pg. 63
His Plans pg. 66
On Thin Ice pg. 67
Flight Of The Superplane pg. 68
In My Little World pg. 70
Missing Out pg. 71
Vicious Circles pg.72
Hibernation pg.73
Yeah . . . I’m Lost pg. 74
Underneath My Smile pg. 75
Awaken pg. 76
TIME . . . TIME . . .
My mother Shawne Gayle Tatlow

In loving memory . .
“God rest her soul . . .”
Table of Contents Cont.

Want To Show Your Soul pg. 83
Glass Mirror pg.84
Flesh pg.85
The Ripple pg. 86
FAMILY
My Weeping Willow pg. 88

My Grandmother pg. 89
Three For One pg.90
The Barbarian pg.92
The Cowboy And The Bull pg.93
RELATIONSHIPS,CRUSHES AND LOVE
Heroine pg. 95
Dear Friend pg. 96
My Blacksmith pg. 97
Your Just So Special pg. 98
Miss Happyface pg.99
Sunflower pg.100
Miss Butterfly pg. 101
Charmed pg.102
Thievery In The Church pg. 106
Unsent Letters pg. 107
Inside And Out pg. 108
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My Special Friend pg. 109 All I Wish pg. 156

Where Are You pg. 110 Goals With Poetry pg. 157
Will Love pg. 111 Expression Of Art pg. 158
Melissa pg. 112 Ever So Thankful pg. 160
Eye Of The Hurricane pg. 113
Table of Contents Cont.
Denied Again pg.114
Miss Undeniable pg.115
You Are My Mystery pg. 116
Taken pg. 117
I Dream pg. 118
Poison pg. 120
An Angel Of Inspiration pg .122
Chasing My Tail pg. 123
Searching For My Soulmate pg. 125
VARIOUS
Do You Ever Dream pg.128

Sunset pg.130
Seasons pg. 132
Life pg. 133
The Wanderer pg. 136
My Shooting Star pg. 138
Love And Hate pg. 139
Isiaih’s Cry pg. 141
Adam And Eve pg. 145
Temptation pg. 146
Welcome To Insomnia pg. 148
Dancing Dreamer pg.150
Hammerheads pg. 152
My Alarming Poem pg.154
Shyness Is My Foe pg.155
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Left to right: Uncle Doug, Grandmother Marion, Each of you together made this all possible . . .
Grandfather Dean and Aunt Bev.— Thanks ever not me. I am ever so thankful for making my goal
so much! and dream come true. . . Thxs Everyone!!
Pg. 160
Ever So Thankful A Poet’s Testimony
This book is dedicated in loving memory to Hello! My name is John
Shawne Gayle Tatlow. My deceased mother who Born on the 24th of March, 1980
came to me in a vision. I know I’ll see her again To my dear mother Shawne
someday . . . and I am sure she is enjoying her bliss Who was such a kind lady
up in the heavens above.
I was very close to her
I would like to thank God for everything. Unclaimed by my father
Especially for giving me the chance, the awesome No sister nor brother
opportunity to share my life, my vision, my soul Just me and my mother
with so many people through poetry. Christ you
are such an inspiration and heavenly Father An unknown disease she had
thanks for the ultimate sacrifice of sending your Huntington’s is now the name
son to die for our sins. It made the family so sad
Decreasing mentally she was never the same
I want to thank my guardians and grandparents
Dean and Marion, my Uncle Doug and Aunt Nelda. I was eight when she passed away
For their constant care and endless love. I would Faithfulness in such a difficult path
like to thank my family and friends. For always Such an example, each and every day
being there. And for encouraging me. Helping me Even through such an aftermath
when things were bad. Passed few a difficult day
When I was in bed
I’d like to thank the reader. For taking time to get I lay and I pray
to know me and my life through each of my poems. Asking why she was dead
Whenever someone reads my poems I feel inspired
and joyful. Then my mother came to me
In the brightest beam
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Beautiful was she I lived with my proud grandfather

Shining in a dream Does things right in everything
Pg.01 Pg.02
Seeming like a telepath mime
I asked if I could stay
Shook her head, no not your time
Then wiped my teardrops away
I woke up soaked in tears

I then knew
That in a few years
I would be with her too
I had the clearest vision

Where the brightest beam glows
In a place called heaven
Where the love of God flows
Where I went and saw floating far above

God is perfect that much is true
If I tried describing his ominous love
I wouldn’t know where to start, not a clue
So by fact I know there is a gracious God

And by fact I know there is a unity so nice
So by fact I know there is both soul and bod
And by fact I know there is a heavenly paradise
I lived with my loving grandmother

Who spoiled me with many a thing
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Pg. 159 Pg. 158

Expression Of Art Twelve I was
I went and moved
Taking this world To Uncle Doug and Aunt Nelda’s
With me I was very confused
Taking you on
My journey They brought me to church
Introduced me to Jesus Christ
Writing my life Awakening my spiritual search
For all of you Realizing the time I had waste
Feelings of the heart
I write true Again I moved not very fun
Back to my grandparents
When there are clouds I fell into a depression
I just write them away A road of sin I choose to taste
Expressing my art
Brightening my day My separation from God affected me
My separation from many of friend
It’s spiritual Holed in my room full of worry
Anger and bliss Lost in the woods a prayer I send
Lots of love
Friends I miss Spiritually frozen for many a year
I knew He was giving
It’s my life I knew He was there
It’s my soul Like a fool, I wasn’t willing
It’s my happy place
It’s my whole I fell in the valley deep
Called maniacally depressed
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Thoughts of suicide making me weep To youth and things of that sort

That much I confess More and more people I met
Pg.0
3 Pg. 04
I thought I was a weight Goals With Poetry
An extra mouth to feed
Others my age, full of anger and hate My poetry and lyrics
I felt like an unwanted weed In the heart someone hits
Realizing they have a soul
A little voice inside That they are not alone
There’s more to be done
Don’t continue to hide They have a loving God
You’re here for a reason Something to live for
A merciful Christ
When I turned nineteen Quite the Savior
I started going to youth
My faith in God was redeemed I want to spread the Word
I saw again the truth Be a fisher of men
Through these poems
I accepted me for me Maybe . . . I can
Look deep inside my soul
To let others see
My awesome wonderful whole
A visit on last November’s eve

To Doug and the rest of them
They were certain, yes they believe
He could help release my tension
So I moved to the Fort’

Regularly to church I went
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Pg. 157 Pg. 156

I wish I could say all of this in a normal testimony
All I Wish But I am privileged, happy and very blessed
That I have a life of abnormally
All I wish For not all people tasted heaven like I did
Is to tell my story
Showing everybody That was my life past
And sharing my glory That was my many my lesson
Learning so very fast
I feel so free From each and every one
When I am heard
Overjoyed I am spreading I am always amazed
That Christian word By the faith of believers
Yes I am always astonished
My family and friends By the assurance of receivers
To realize and understand
The feelings I experienced Jesus made me more charitable, respecting,
Dreaming of heaven grand loving, among many other things and I thank
Him for that .Later in life I found out that I have a
Wanting to be known larger family then I thought. The family of God.
For shining like a inspirational ray Sometimes I close my eyes, remembering how
Before I return souls shine . . . then I look
To my earthly clay upon each of you . . .
with your own soul . . .sparkling
and shining! No one realize,
but I feel with new eyes
I see the world in a different light.
I thank God again for
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what He has done

for me in my life through Christ.
Pg.0
5 Pg.06
Now I be baptized Shyness Is My Foe
In all three names
My souls next step I saw you again
Never will I be the same The other day
Spreading sunshine
To my faith Your special way
A public display
That I have accepted Jesus I wanted to come
For He is the way And say hello
Shyness weighs me down
I write this message It is my foe
To whom who read Modest and nervous
To whom who heard Timid and tongue-tied
For us Jesus bled . . . Sometimes I wish
To have a bolder side
For you a question
Before I depart If I was more brave
Do you have Jesus Spirited and strong
In your heart? Maybe . . . just maybe
Things would get along
The Bible says
To be meek
A spiritual place
That I seek
I am who I am
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And it’s the way I’ll stay My alarm is wailing

Peaceful and loving Threw it in a flash
Living life by each day My alarm is drowning
P With my fish, SPLASH
g. 155 Pg. 154
My Alarming Poem Shawnes Cry
My alarm is singing I found out
As I relax and lay What pregnancies about
My alarm is announcing At twenty-one
It is a bright new day I prayed for a son
Sounds of alarms The little dear
It wakes me and screams Was born the next year
Sounds of alarms The blessing came
Spoiling all my dreams John is His name
My alarm is trying A year passed
Awakening me to reality around Cruel and fast
My alarm is annoying Husband started to hit
Headache starts to pound Then we went and split
My alarm is crying Homeward bound

Begging me like a hound Comfort I found
My alarm is screeching Here with mom and dad
What a terrible sound Terribly I was so sad
Sounds of alarms Next year crawled by

It wakes me and screams Memories make me cry
Sounds of alarms Slowly I started changing
Spoiling all my dreams It was terribly confusing
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Worried about results Quickly I race

And painful effects Moving I roam
Needing sleep and rest From home to home
I took a medical test
Pg. 07 Pg.08
I had an unknown disease If you hunger
Silence I did freeze For a good time
I could not talk This is the place
Barely could walk Enjoy its prime
Disease is unidentified Play a game

There is no guide Of aqua pool
Either it is unknown We have five tables
Or the doctors haven’t shown It’s totally cool
It deteriates you mentally Top of the line

As well as physically Kings of the kitchen
Till your body is weak Yes the cooks
And you can no longer speak Always are joking
Becoming a risk to yourself Food and service

Endangering your health Is compared to none
A deadly disorder Quick and delicious
Far slower then cancer It’s number one
Because of their fear If you are looking

They lock me here For a place to hang
All on my own Come by yourself
At an old folks home Or bring a friend
Place to place Hammerheads

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Bar and grill The mermaid waitress’

Sharks paradise All the while
It’s a thrill Swim all around
Pg. 153 With their sexy smile
Hammerheads Pg. 152
Filled with fear
Hammerheads I look in the mirror
Bar and grill No one realizes
Sharks paradise The pain in my eyes
It’s a thrill
With my guitar
If you are searching Playing a bar
Throughout the sea I try to string a song
The neon shark sign Wondering where it went wrong
Is the place to be
No one hears
Swim right in My crying tears
Have some fun Treated so very cold
Relax your fins At the home of the old
Meet someone
A crooked confinement
Serving bartenders An impractical imprisonment
Never cease to amaze Hopeless without a cure
Customers and friends Cruel tiring torture
In many ways
Savagely I am treat
To the best tunes Drugged and beat
Come and listen No one knows
Favorite artists Believes or shows
In all the ocean
Dazed and confused
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Embarrassed and scared Instead cripples and canes

I hide in corners Almost dead and depressed
Away from the nurses Dying and disillusioned
Pg .09 Pg.10
Let me be On the prowl
Why punish me Listening to the lyrics
Quit using force Nodding my head in time
You just make me worse Of a sweet mix
They don’t realize Dancing dreamer

They don’t sympathize I feel so high
They don’t see As I float
What’s happening to me And as I fly
I want out In the clouds

To move about Of ecstasy
To see my John Loving the groove
It’s been so long Feeling so free
I only have a picture I lose myself

To help me remember To the dance
My little boy I try to resist
And his favorite toy But I have no chance
Why am I bind Dancing dreamer

Why am I confined I feel so high
I committed no crime As I float
This place is a waste of time And as I fly
Prison without chains Dancing dreamer

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I feel so high
As I float The DJ jamming
And as I fly A brand new song
The latest hits
Pg. 151 Nothing to long
Dancing Dreamer Pg. 150
I hear is crying
When I’m listening As people are dying
To a slammin’ beat I eagerly await
I find it hard My turn at fate
To still my feet
Left here to die
When I’m hanging I wonder why
With my crew And how all this death
It gives me Will improve my health
Something to do
Why won’t you let me be
After a stiff drink And see John my baby
To set the mood I miss him dearly
I get out there Only visits me yearly
Like a playa’ should
I am losing hope
Dancing dreamer As I try to cope
I feel so high To live one more day
As I float The ordinary way
As I fly
How is this home
Checking out the gals This deathbed tomb
Bust their beats Supposed to be
Girls dancing together Helping me
The temperature heats
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I am a hostage I just had to say . . .

Trapped in a cage Good-bye, some way
Watered and fed To make it clear . . .
Clothed and bed That God is really here
Pg.11 Pg.12
Held against my will My past is jaded
Overdosed by pill Slowly it’s faded
One night passed on I am fighting my demons
Heartbeat was gone One by one
Now I lay I feel dead

Night and day Living in my bed
Dead I am doomed An earthly tomb
In a tomb A growing doom
Body to earth I ask myself constantly

My souls birth Questions continuously
To the heavenly skies What is haunting me
Eagerly it flies What could it be
I ask the Lord

For a final word
With my one
And only son
I appeared one night

In a beautiful light
In his deepest dream
With many blinding beam
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Might as well be hibernating
In the deepest haze

Lost in an endless maze
Will someone help me
Pg. Once again to see
149 Pg. 148
Welcome To Insomnia My First Twenty Years
It’s four A.M. My mother had me in 1980
And I’m up again She named me John
I arise All my life I was fairly weak
Scary morning eyes But my heart and soul was strong
I have a shower Then I started growing

Feeling nothing but sour Yeah . . . I really grew
Lately I might Then at eight dear mother
Get a hour in a night Because of illness I lost you . . .
Hypnotic is the way Sleeping deeply I had a dream

I act when it is day I then had a wonderful night
To myself I am a slave A holy figure of some ancient soul
Stuck here in a cave Oh God the heavenly sight
Everyday I felt like I was flying

Attacking some way In lovely bright clouds
All hopes are down She told me not to worry
I slowly drown Felt I was being loved by crowds
At night later on When I awoke

All energy is gone I wiped my eye
Cause in the evening Because there I knew
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I understood . . . I understood why BOOM . . . I heard the cries of the lost

BOOM . . . And I heard people praying
Lived with my grandparents
I had to get away BOOM . . . I tasted heaven
I felt I was getting depressed BOOM . . . I tasted His grace
There must be some other way BOOM . . . I tasted His love
Pg. 13 BOOM . . . Realized my life has just gone to waste
Praying at nights Pg.14
That I’ll get through I have many obsessions
To the other side And I have many addictions
And find something new I have many transgressions
And I have many temptations
That I’ll find His holiness
That I’ll find my God I once knew From TV , movies
That I’ll find His caring I missed And video games
That He will be in my heart true . . . To making fun
And calling names
. . . . . . . . . . BOOM . . . . . . . . . .
From sexual lusts
BOOM . . . I saw the clear And addictive gambling
BOOM . . . I saw the light To harmful drugs
BOOM . . . I saw the family And dangerous drinking
BOOM . . . The glorious sight
Through every step
BOOM . . . I felt the Father All of this
BOOM . . . I felt my soul Knowing He’s with me
BOOM . . . I felt His presence I can resist
BOOM . . . And it moved me whole
My temple, my house
BOOM . . . I heard the angels My body, my soul
BOOM . . . I heard them singing Let it purify
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So I can be whole It’s human to mistake

And it’s human to fall apart
Yet there is the best temptation
The hunger of God’s love It’s human to foul up
And wishing and thirsting And it’s human to weaken
To be in heaven above It’s human to slip
And it’s human to be human
Pg. 147 Pg. 146
Temptation BOOM . . . I smelt the roses
BOOM . . . I smelt the world new
It’s human to be tempted BOOM . . . I smelt knowing He’s with me
And it’s human to sin BOOM . . . It just all shone through
It’s human to error
And it’s human to give in BOOM . . . My senses heightened
BOOM . . . My souls on a high
It’s human to desire BOOM . . . My Lord, I can’t believe
And it’s human to long BOOM . . . You in me is so fly
It’s human to crave
And it’s human to wrong Oh Lord, I look back now
At what I’ve learned
It’s human to thirst I saw whom I was missing
And it’s human to hunger For God it was you I yearned
It’s human to lust
And it’s human to surrender Oh I thank you Jesus
It’s human to yearn For answering my prayers
And it’s human to want I thank you Jesus
It’s human to wish I know you’ll always care
And it’s human to lose track
I thank you Jesus
It’s human to fail For finally making me see
And it’s human to fault I thank you Jesus
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I know you’ll shine through me BOOM . . . For He is the key

BOOM . . . Yeah, accept Him and the Word
Been with the Lord very close now
For about one year BOOM . . . Lastly, have faith
He’s changed the way I think BOOM . . . Faith in God above
Through my soul and heart BOOM . . . Faith He can do anything
BOOM . . . Faith in His healing love
Pg.15
I always knew Pg.16
My mother had a hereditary disease Adam And Eve
Called Huntington’s Chorea
I prayed to God no please Adam and Eve
At the tree
I had to go in Seduced was she
To take a medical test Tempted was he
Oh please . . . be negative Then had to pay the fee
Prayed to Jesus for the best Death and thorns let there be
. . . . . . . . . . BOOM . . . . . . . . . . In God’s grand garden
BOOM . . . And there I was Where the wisdom tree grew
BOOM . . . God testing me Eve, she bit a holy apple
BOOM . . . Wasn’t sure of the cause Yeah, then Adam she found you
BOOM . . . I was learning how to be
Then there they stood
BOOM . . . When you have doubts God was their judge
BOOM . . . When you are burdened They prayed forgiveness
BOOM . . . When battling evil bouts But the Lord wouldn’t budge
BOOM . . . When in life you are not certain
Adam and Eve
BOOM . . . Do three things for me At the tree
BOOM . . . Trust in the Lord Seduced was she
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Tempted was he
Then had to pay the fee
Death and thorns let there be
Adam and Eve

Oh . . . what have you done
You cursed us all
Trying to have some fun
Pg. 145 Pg. 144
On my knee BOOM . . . He can part the heavens
Before I pray BOOM . . . He can part the sea
The holy Lord BOOM . . . He can part my heart
In my own way BOOM . . . He can shine through me
I thank the Father BOOM . . . Faith can create miracles

I thank the Son BOOM . . . Faith is the key
I thank the Spirit BOOM . . . Faith can clear mountains
The unity all in one BOOM . . . Have faith in things you can’t see
Holy . . . Holy . . . Holy BOOM . . . BOOM . . . BOOM

Is the Lord Almighty I am determined to survive
The whole earth is full BOOM . . . BOOM . . . BOOM
Of His wonderful glory Yes, keep the faith alive
HOLY . . . HOLY . . . HOLY Thanks for love something we all have

Love it’s something you can strongly feel
Love to be shared with everyone
Love it helps you heal
May 10-12 (1999)

Test Result Time
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I feel the energy tonight and holiness

My Prayer Plugged into me like an electrical cord
Lord, please cleanse my body God I feel my family praying

If I have any illness or disease I’m just writing here in my bed
Lord, please I need a miracle Flow through me Lord Jesus
I feel selfish, forgive me, please And all the holiness I’m being fed
Pg. 17 Pg.18
Forgive me Father for I have sinned The temple has even more
Help me to reach the lost souls A thick hazy dust
Forgive me Father for any impure thoughts Than after a tremor
Please let me accomplish some more goals Through the earthy crust
In the name of the Father “Woe to me”

In the name of the Holy Ghost Isiah cried
Bless and protect the church Lord Seen God did he
Bless the children who interest you most And thought he died
Please, let the doctor say negative Holy . . . Holy . . . Holy

Or if not, no is fine Is the Lord Almighty
I’ll also accept zip or I don’t think so The whole earth is full
I know you have plans so I won’t whine Of His wonderful glory
Blessed be the family of God “I am ruined”

Blessed by my friends and family “I am guilty within”
Blessed be my sisters and brothers “I seen Almighty Lord”
I trust in you if the path gets hilly “I . . . a man of sin”
Thank you, my friend Jesus A seraph flew to him

Thank you, my Father Lord Holding a live coal
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Touched his mouths rim With the message God sent

Sin was taken from his soul The thresholds shook all around
Holy . . . Holy . . . Holy Holy . . . Holy . . . Holy

Is the Lord Almighty Is the Lord Almighty
The whole earth is full The whole earth is full
Of His wonderful glory Of His wonderful glory
Pg. 143 Pg. 142

Each with six wings I pray Lord for less violence
With two . . . covered their face Let your holiness spread
From holy, King Of Kings Even in our little city
In this perfect place I pray by idols we don’t be led
With two covered their feet I pray that the truth

And with two they flew Is spread every person, every place
My heart wildly beat And that they’ll accept the Lord
What would you do? And let them come to church with a good pace
Holy . . . Holy . . . Holy Our souls shine through

Is the Lord Almighty So we can impact
The whole earth is full All the non-believers
Of His wonderful glory Lord, You know that’s a fact
Calling out in adoration Lord, I pray for my family

At each other To see the light
To the Lord in exaltation They are so loving and caring
To God the Father Like You they shine so bright
From God’s spokesman Lord, I pray for my Christian family

At their voices sound For those with doubt
TIME . . . TIME . . .
I pray that there needs be met What you might ask

And Lord don’t let their spark ever die out God’s love, erasing my depression
He lifted my mask
-In Jesus name . . . AMEN
That night I thanked God
I thanked and praised the Lord
Even though what I’ve been through
Pg. Through me His everlasting love poured
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Results Of Test Pg.20
Isaiah’s Cry
Then after three long days
I eagerly learned On my knee
I’m here for a reason Before I pray
So there’s no need for concern The holy Lord I see
In my own way
I walk to the doctors’ office
My stomach feeling inside out I thank the Father
He handed me the results I thank the Son
I read as it twisted further into a knot I thank the Spirit
And the unity all in one
Everything was quiet
Everything was still Holy . . . Holy . . . Holy
As I silently read Is the Lord Almighty
I felt almost ill The whole earth is full
Of His wonderful glory
The bad news filled me
And my family knew The Lord of holies
That the results were positive On a throne, He’s seated
The room went silent and blue Everything He sees
High and exalted
Then it came to me
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Seraphs above
On the left and on the right
Showing humility and love
At this heavenly sight
Holy . . . Holy . . . Holy
Is the Lord Almighty
The whole earth is full
Of His wonderful glory
Pg. 141 Pg. 140

I am the strongest feeling After Results
I am a flaw in humanity
Now I say do not feel sorry
People want much as possible of me Miracles happen have faith
People fear and do not like me My life is great, don’t worry
I have Jesus in whose presence I praise
I am a gift of God
I am the sin of Satan Lord you change my state of mind
Since you’re in me
I am something no one can buy I pray, I learn, I shine
I am something no one likes Thank you, Jesus my Savior and key
It’s hard to show myself 6 Months Passed
It’s easier to show me
To a Christian family
People were made to feel me I moved again
No one was made to feel me Back with my Uncle and Aunt
My faith continued to rain
Went to church
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Loving the psalms and worship Before I part

Lessons, full of advice Do you have Jesus
In divine discipleship In your heart?
I felt the need Twenty years

To grow and give Went by so fast
I can improve Lessons to learn
Each day I live From my unusual past . . .
Pg. 21 Pg.22
Being Baptized Love And Hate
Now I be baptized I am love
In all three names I am hate
My souls next step
Never will I be the same I make you cry
I make you mad
To my faith
A public display I bring people together
That I’ve accepted Jesus I tear people apart
For He is the way
Life has no meaning without me
After Baptismal Life would be better without me
I write this message I make people trust

To whom who read I make people betray
To whom who heard
For us Jesus bled . . . I give people hope
I give people fear
For you a question
TIME . . . TIME . . .
I am the Lord’s best virtue

I am Satan’s heart piercing sin
Nobody can get enough of me

Everybody has too much of me
I can romance two together

I can split a dedicated pair
Pg.
139 Pg. 138
My Shooting Star Shawne Tatlow
As I look at the clear midnight sky The following poems are dedicated to Shawne
I see a small radiant shining star Tatlow. My sweet and loving mother. Who died of
Quickly soaring . . . far up high Huntington’s Chorea when I was eight. Actually
I wanted to touch it, but it was to far nurses overdosed her where she was staying.
Shooting stars fall rarely ever The second night after her death. She came to me
I wish there were more of these magical beams in a deep vision…releasing me, from tears of
Everyone watches them, will they stop . . . never sorrow to tears of happiness…seeing her there in
A passion filled star on fire or so it seems heaven and in bliss!
Yet why do beautiful things such as these

Have to be hundreds of miles away
It’s like God wanted something to tease
Maybe this is just His way
TIME . . . TIME . . .
I woke up . . . soaked in tears
I then knew
That in a few years
I’d be with her too
Pg.2
3 Pg.24
My Angel When it’s near the end of this life
I’ll probably wander some more
My angel came to me Wander back where I first wondered
Wander back where I first wandered
In the brightest beam Wonder back to see
How those little ones have grown
Beautiful was she Wander to old friend or lover
To bring flowers to their burial
Shining in a dream
Wander till I can wander no more . . .
Seeming like a telepath mime
I asked if I could stay
Shook her head, no not your time
Then wiped my teardrops away

TIME . . . TIME . . .
Wander back to see

What those little ones grew up to be
To see their little girls and boys
Then wonder once more
Wander in . . . wander out

That’s what life’s been all about
Town to town
Place to place
Fast as sound
Just in a race
Pg. 137 Pg. 136

The Wanderer My Heart Is Free
Wander in . . . wander out About ten years ago

That’s what life’s been all about She ascended to the sky
Town to town A lot of people felt sorrow
Place to place For my mother did die
Fast as sound
Just in a race A day after . . . feeling low
Asked the Lord why
Leaving little girls and boys I surely didn’t know
Say goodbye to all the noise Wish I got to say goodbye
Leaving best friends and sweet lovers
Thinking about it just makes me suffer That eve when I fell asleep
Everything went all white
I wonder what will I do in time And I was sleeping deep
I’ll probably wander some more Then I saw this great light
Wander back where I first wondered
Wander back where I first wandered I saw her there
TIME . . . TIME . . .
And then we spoke Standing in the heavenly light

Floating on air Felt warmth, love for all from all
Later I awoke Could hardly believe such a glorious sight
Maybe it was just a dream Talking with a translucent spirit

At least now I never cry Telepathically we shared with one another
When I saw her in that bright beam I read all its answers so quickly
I finally got to say goodbye I had many questions about my mother
It informed me not to worry

I’d be with my mom someday
She’s with the Lord now
And through Him is the only way
Pg. 25
Pg.26
One Dream Life is but a shadow
From God’s holy love
I had a little taste of heaven Shining so very bright
The holy, bright shining city Through the heavens above
In a wonderful dream
With peace and tranquility Life is but a dream
A vivid vision
One day after my mother’s death Are souls sparkling
At the age of eight With more beauty then the sun
Some ancient soul came to me
In my depression and worried state
I could see with my soul

I could see many of a blinding beam
I could see many bright whites
In my beautiful dream
Coming from everywhere

TIME . . . TIME . . .
Our gracious God

Whom angels and souls sing
Life is but an example

Mans qualities brought out
A chance to trust in Jesus
And believe without doubt
Life is but a cocoon

Sometimes I wonder why
We are like the caterpillar
Changing into a beautiful butterfly
Pg. 135 Pg. 134

Life is but a scheme After our discussion
Gods’ own design I asked if I could stay
So thoughtful am I No . . . it’s not your time
For us in that outline I felt I was home and didn’t want to go away
Life is but a mirror As we were floating

You get what you put in In the bright radiant sky
Such a magical marvel She asked me to go on a walk
This breath of creation I agreed, boy did we fly
Life is but a reflection I felt I was moving

Realizing I feel awake Faster then the speed of light
My attitude ever spreading Standing being transported so fast
Like a ripple on the lake What a rush and so bright
Life is but a plan Then we stopped

Of the King Of Kings And it showed me a book
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Opened it up Looking through her stuff

Had a look I wish she wrote me a letter
Before she was sick and dying
After I returned So I could know her better
And I awoke tears in my eyes
Thank you to my friend
Thank you God . . . you are so wise
I know I belong there

I know I’ll return
It’s just a matter of time
Till then, from each experience I’m going to learn
Pg. 27 Pg. 28
Sentimental Wooden Box Life
As I look through Life is but a dream
My mothers old things For the soul to grow
Memories flash A constant adventure
Like emotional stings Every morn a new show
Life is but on odyssey
A wooden box A long journey
Four inch by eight Full of canyons and peaks
Of her special treasures Significant sights we see
The value not great
Life is but a battle
A handful of cheap jewelry Having God’s Word
A brooch, necklaces and earrings A handful of holiness
Bracelet of charms Humility tries to cope
And a few other small things
Life is but a test
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Increasing our hope

A separation from God The clasping waves
Humanity tries to cope Of the salty seas
The breeze whispers
Life is but an education Through the autumn leaves
Giving the spirit a way
Constant continual learning Yet another blessing
Each and every day The seasons we see
But it’s just a normal day
Life is but a song
In life . . . for you and me
Surround sound symphony
Playing together a melody
Unison in harmony
Pg. 133
Pg. 132
Seasons Heaven
The mystic magnificence
Such a spectacular show These next poems are a description
The luminous icicles of heaven. You know that perfect place
Sparkling with the snow Far out of sight . . . that only shines
God’s holy light.
The warm drops
Of a spring shower It’s a marvel I am obsessed
The thunderous clouds I just wish to be there once more
Full of great power
The beauty of the beach

Such a sweet summer shine
The perfect paradise
Tempting townsfolk all the time
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Tears of joy
Dreamer’s visions
That’s what I see
Brighter then the sun
Happened to me
Till you been

To this heaven of His
Till you seen
What peace really is
You can not perceive

Or understand
Sinful world we weave
Pg.
And peace of God’s hand
29
Pg. 30
Dreamer’s Visions One last song
The birds are singing
Dreamer’s visions To shapen the clouds
That’s what I see Mr. Wind is whispering
Happened to me I sit here
In wonder and awe
I cry aloud
At all I witnessed
For the miracles seen
And all I saw
On a heavenly cloud
Where I have been
As the shine
And as I keep Begins to die
My visions as a boy It darkens the vision
I fall down and weep Throughout the sky
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Such a magical marvel

The perfect mixture As the shadows climb
Of God’s creations Rays of light
Making a heavenly picture Kiss the mountain peaks
Sparkling so bright
Heaven on earth
And the reflecting rainbow
The setting of the sun
Over a small lake
Proves God put miracles
Like in a fantasy
Out for everyone
Where I never want to wake
A message of hope A magnificent radiance
Postcard of love The trees proudly stand
A gift of faith With a mysterious glow
From our Father above All throughout the land
Pg. 130
Pg. 131 Dreamer’s visions
Sunset That’s what I see
Such a lovely view Happened to me
The beautiful sky
Right on our quiet town To describe I try
Surrounds us up high My experience one night
The sun is sinking Spiritually flying high
Ever so bright Each new sense so bright
Slowly into the west
It’s a wonderful sight In just one evening
A blessing shone
So many colors To stop my grieving
Pink, purple and green Now it’s all gone
How majestic it is
Such a beautiful scene
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Breath takingly bright

Dreamer’s visions Pure intense loving
That’s what I see
Brighter then the sun My visit to heaven
Happened to me I have come to realize
My holy vision
It’s hard to explain Almost a curse in disguise
Hurt and worry I faced
And how all my pain After a taste
Has been erased Of what happened to me
It was only haste
Of God’s special ecstasy
H0w God’s love

Made me a druggie
Of heaven above
Pg. 31 A real junkie
Pg. 32
Addiction
Do you ever
Want to be an angel
No one understands
Telling people the truth
My undying creed
About heaven and hell
In God’s hands
Jesus did bleed Reminding lost souls
About the Lord
I try to describe Of God’s mercy
And I try to specify Throughout the world
I try to explain
And I try to portray Do you ever
Want to fly
Staring into the light Take off our flesh
So very blinding Let our souls rise high
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Do you ever
Soaring into the heavens Want to be a jockey
Full of ominous love Playing with the team
In all its beauty In a game of hockey
So very far above
Score a hat trick
Do you ever
Win the game
In your dreams
Goalies tremble
See them coming true
When they hear your name
Do you ever
In your dreams Do you ever
See them coming true In your dreams
. . . . . . I do . . . . . .
Do you ever
What is your dream? In your dreams
Pg. 129
Do You Ever Dream Pg. 128
Heavenly Home
Do you ever
Want to be a superstar Spreads his seed
Going on trips Each and every way
Near and far Increasing the harvest
Each and every day
Find a beat
To go along Every moment
Take things you believe Of everyday
And make another song Wanting to rid
His human clay
“THERE IS A CHRIST”
TIME . . . TIME . . .
He would boldly say So far away

“BEEN TO HIS PARADISE” From my heavenly home
“I RECALL LIKE YESTERDAY”
I have seen the Promised Land
I have been with angels’ grand
I have seen the city of peace
I have been where sin has cease
Lord’s endless love
During his stay
Kept his soul
From leading astray
Day and night
He would pray
He would wish
To see heavens ray
Pg. 33 Pg. 34
“THERE IS A CHRIST”
He would boldly say
Various
“BEEN TO HIS PARADISE”
“I RECALL LIKE YESTERDAY”
The next group of poems is on various subjects.
I have seen the Promised Land They are mostly based on my views of life.
I have been with angels’ grand
I have seen the city of peace
I have been where sin has cease
Here I lay
Wicked earth I roam
TIME . . . TIME . . .
For you my soulmate
Pg. 127 Pg. 126

Searching . . . searching Inside The Sun
Maybe I can find
Someone . . . somewhere Close your eyes
True hearted and kind Picture your soul
Floating peacefully
One day . . . we’ll collide Feeling so whole
Go for a few dates
You are lost
With God on our side
In an endless abyss
Tie each of our fates
Of new emotions
Experiencing bliss
Till that time
I watch and wait You’re translucent soul
Write and rhyme Sparkles and glows
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Stripped your spirit No words can I explain

Of flesh and clothes Of God’s possibilities
And all we have to gain
You feel so special
The very height The flowers are so beautiful
Of jubilation They shimmer and they shine
Freedom and delight Of God’s peaceful radiance
Unlike any other kind
You are in paradise
Free to roam
This peaceful place
Finally home
Inside the sun
Inside the sun
I try to describe
Heavens sensation
Pg. 35 Pg. 36
Gardens Of Creations Searching For My Soulmate
Searching . . . searching
In God’s garden
Maybe I can find
Many miracles bloom
Someone . . . somewhere
For God’s children
True hearted and kind
There will always be room
Stars are shining
In God’s love Their luminous light
The garden of creations A comet soaring
With God above Far out of sight
Up in the heavens
The moon . . . he shines
In God’s garden On this perfect night
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Beams of all kinds All on my own

Illuminates all so bright In sorrow and strife
Depressed and all alone
Searching . . . searching
Maybe I can find Hope is growing rare
Someone . . . somewhere My faith being tried
True hearted and kind I need someone to care
My spirits’ starting to slide
And I wonder
Where you’re hidden
Chasing my tail
What you’re under
Am I ever gonna learn
Places you’ve been
When I fail
I been all over Chasing my tail
Far and near Cause love is just
Searching for her Another fairytale
My darling dear
Pg. 125 Pg. 124

It’s hard to hide King Of Kings
A face of frowns
And on the inside The next group of poems is about God.
My hope drowns How he lives in my life. He has always
Been there as my holy God, a Father, a
Chasing my tail Teacher, and a good Friend. Who always
And I never learn There through thick and thin watching
When I fail out for me.
Chasing my tail
Cause love is just
Another fairytale
Living my life
TIME . . . TIME . . .
When I’m done with my life goals

Then I’ll be rejoicing with my mother
Rejoicing over new Christian souls
Pg. 37 Pg. 38
The Eternal Joy Chasing My Tail
At the age of thirteen Chasing my tail
I accepted the Lord And I never learn
As angels in heaven rejoice When I fail
My emotions just soared Chasing my tail
Cause love is just
For weeks I would smile Another fairytale
People swore I was high
It was easier to forgive I met many doves
The hate inside would die But I was just too shy
Yes I met many loves
In time I will be in heaven That brought me to a high
TIME . . . TIME . . .
You’re my inspiration
Constantly I yearned Sparkling so bright
To find my fate
I get to concerned You are
For my soul mate Always there
Like an angel
Chasing my tail Full of care
And I never learn
When I fail
Encouraging me to write
Chasing my tail
Cause love is just
A blast of dynamite
Another fairytale
Every time we meet
Now I been woken You blow me away
Rushed by rushes With your shimmering soul
Now I am broken It’s like a heavenly ray
Crushed by crushes Pg. 122
Pg. 123 I Do Believe
An Angel Of Inspiration
You’re my inspiration I never figured out
Day and night The way of living
You’re my inspiration What life is about
Lately been out of sight Precious time we our given
My medicine I just know

When I am blue I need advice from you
Healing me On which path to go
Through and though You help me get through
You’re my inspiration Lord I do receive

A shining light From you the mighty King
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Who I do believe The key . . . to an absolute bliss

The key . . . to the golden city
Lord I do receive
From you the mighty King Once you do you will see
Who I do believe The world in a new light
Getting in touch spiritually
He’s in my heart And will be accepted into heaven bright
Shining with my soul
Like a work of art Your journey in life also
Filling me with a new goal Will feel whole and with less pain
Taking on highs or lows
Our destiny we are granted Inspiration and love will rain
God will be right beside
Ask him in your heart
On each road ahead
If you believe
Every time we decide
That Jesus died on the cross
You will receive
Pg. 39
Pg. 40
The Key She sparkles
And doesn’t realize
Listen up . . . ladies and gentlemen That I’m lost
I found the key In her eyes
There’s a way to heaven
Trust in the Lord and you’ll see My veins of emotions
Spreads through like a virus
The key . . . to a paradise Knowing we can’t be
The key . . . to a true love It’s a total bust
The key . . . to salvation through Christ
The key . . . to a holiness above She’s already spoken for
Always will be
The key . . . to gratefulness Unfortunately her heart
The key . . . to an eternity Is unavailable to me
TIME . . . TIME . . .
My heart she stole

I ask myself
Is this my fate Dazed and confused
Addicted to poison She is my bliss
Am I too late Teasing me
With a single kiss
She gives me hope
She is a supernova
In a world of delusion
Mrs. Venom
Filled with hope and care
And I am drowning
My worldly inspiration
She is the bomb
I just wish Just another victim
There were more That can’t keep sane
Descent girls like her She is my queen
An angel to the core Unfortunately taken
Pg. 121 Pg. 120
Poison My Song
She weakens me
Looking my way In case I’m not here as long
Everything I know There’s a song of life
Just goes away And I . . . sing this song
The song of paradise
Chemical attraction
Just so toxicating It’s the song of the human race
At the sight of her A song of the Word
Everything else fading Of a love so rare
It’s a song of the ancients
She lightens up
My lonely soul And I’ll sing this song
Living inside And I’ll praise are God
TIME . . . TIME . . .
And I’ll dance that dance A song of yearning

And I won’t give in Of a paradise
Till I save them all
And I’ll give my every thing And I’ll sing that song
And I’ll praise are God
It’s a song of a Lord who gives And I’ll dance that dance
A song of the sin we face And I won’t give in
Of a book that lives Till I save them all
It’s a song of God’s sweet grace And I’ll give my every thing
Yea, it’s my song
It’s a song of the soul
A song of a perfect son And I’ll sing that song
Of his important goal And I’ll praise are God
It’s a song of creation And I’ll dance that dance
And I won’t give in
Till I save them all
Pg. 41 And I’ll give my every thing
And I’ll sing that song Pg. 42
And I’ll praise are God I dream . . . that it would all be real
And I’ll dance that dance I dream . . . you knew how I feel
And I won’t give in One day you’ll find your man
Till I save them all One day I’ll meet my mate
And I’ll give my every thing One day our angels
Will tie each of our fate
It’s a song of a king
A song of how we praise I dream . . . I fall in love
Of heavenly angels who sing I dream . . . I meet you in heaven above
It’s a song of his special ways Each time I see thee
I fall again for you
It’s a song of learning It would be a miracle
It’s a song of life If you felt something too
TIME . . . TIME . . .
But shyness weighs me down

I dream . . . of a wonderful girl I move way to slow
I dream . . . in this material world
Your youthful soul I dream . . . that you will shine
Your heart so strong I dream . . . you are lovable and kind
Your bright radiant smile Your spirit and personality
Shines like the sizzling sun It stuck in my heart and mind
I look around
I dream . . . I meet you in the garden Your face is all I find
I dream . . . I meet you in heaven
I dream . . . boy do I dream
I dream . . . I dream . . . I dream . . . so real, it does seem
Sometimes I try to confront you
But all I can do is write
My lips are sealed with a secret
Since my crush on you at first sight
Pg. 119 Pg. 118

I Dream My Hero
I dream . . . of a wonderful place God is my hero
I dream . . . and I see your face Who never fails
I haven’t woke Teaching His lessons
From this my fantasy Where His word sails
When I know you care
Life goes by so easily Our friend and our father
He is our incredible Lord
I dream . . . of your shining smile Teaches us to soul search
I dream . . . it’s you and me all the while With His great Holy Word
You touched my heart and soul
I’m just trying to get with the flow God is the sunlight
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Rising in the morn Its called inspiration

Spreading His holiness through the land
As more people are being reborn Inspiration is when the essence
Of the human soul
When someone is perfect Motivates your life
Like Jesus, the Son of the Lord To reach its goal
To look up to Him is easy
Especially after reading His Word When your spirit
Seems on a high
Influences can make you feel
In the sky
Its called inspiration
When Jesus
The Son of God
Lay on the cross
Thorns in His head
Pg. It’s called inspiration
43 Pg. 44
My Inspiration Taken
When your heart You are taken
Is true I know
Then something By a special guy
Over you I want you more
Its called inspiration
I am lost
When something In your eyes
In you awakes And you
For a moment Don’t even realize
The flesh breaks
TIME . . . TIME . . .
But some things A gift in your soul

Are better left unsaid That can make others
Like thoughts and feelings Feel complete and whole
Floating in my head
Your sunny smile
I seek you A sweet sensation
On a bad day It’s like a rain
For you inspire me Of inspiration
Like a sparkling ray
I feel envy
That much is true
A sister
For your happy home
A friend
While overjoyed for you
A blessing
A real godsend You are my mystery
From so very far
Your spirit sparkles
Like a shooting star
Pg. 116
Pg. 117 I Know
You Are My Mystery
Cecilia my mystery I know you listen
And I don’t understand I know you hear
How quick you turned I know understand
Into my best friend No need to fear
Like a godsend I know you shimmer

From far above I know you shine
An answered prayer I know you forgive . . . Lord
A sisterly love For each sin of mine
You have a touch I know you watch

TIME . . . TIME . . .
I know you see He lives evermore

I know you care I see him
Because you are living in me My everything
I know you laugh I see him

I know you love His mercy downpour
I know you’re my true Father I see him
Who lives in the heavens above With His love everlasting
I know you God, Almighty

I know you Holy Ghost
I know you Jesus Christ
Praising you I love most
Pg.
45 Pg. 46
I See Him Miss Undeniable
I see him Miss undeniable
He’s everywhere Orbiting my mind
I see him Miss undeniable
In every face So sweet and kind
I see him She’s unavoidable

His love so rare I see her everyday
I see him She’s unimaginable
In every place Beauty in every way
I see him She’s unbelievable

TIME . . . TIME . . .
One of a kind whole Inside out

She’s unforgettable And all about
One of a kind soul
Hiding my pain
Miss Undeniable All alone
Orbiting my mind Bent and broken
Miss Undeniable Every bone
Sweetly so kind
I crawl back
Into my shell
I try to hide
Feeling all alone
Low self-esteem
Cause life is long
Hiding in my mask
What is wrong
Pg. 115 Pg. 114
Denied Again God Is The One
I am twenty-two As the river flows
Wearing a frown As the sweet breeze blows
Licking my wounds God is the one
From being so down Who understands and knows
I feel hurt As the heavenly bells ring
Bleeding here As the morning birds sing
By myself God is the one
Living my fear Who takes us under His wing
For love is just a razor As the clouds fill the sky
Cutting out the heart As air rises them high
TIME . . . TIME . . .
God is the one Who shows your spirit the true finds
Who has such a watchful eye
As a shadow runs from light
As the dancer prances As holiness shines so bright
As the worshiper dances God is the one
God is the one Who we pray to each night
Who gives us lifes chances
As the children play
As the Christians pray
God is the one
Who molds us like clay
As the minds grow
As the souls show
God is the one
Who everything we owe
Pg. 47 Pg. 48
As the rain does pour Eye Of The Hurricane
As the eagle does soar
God is the one There’s a twister
Who I live for Heading this way
She’s one of a kind
As the tree sways What can I say
As the fire blaze
God is the one Whenever you’re around
Who in my heart stays You blow me off my feet
Walking on air
As the soul shines My heart begins to beat
As the sunrise climbs
God is the one You are the eye
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Of my hurricane My sparkling eyes

When I’m with you You are my sun
I feel no pain My cloudless skies
And if depression You are my supernova

Starts to rain My star bright
Knowing you’re there You are my prayer
Keeps me sane My lovely light
C’mon will you

Be my girl
Yeah baby
Give my a whirl
Pg.1
13 Pg.112
Melissa Closer
You are my drug Closer to God
My natural high Spiritually and peace
You are my wings My friends think I’m acting odd
My ability to fly But the hate and shame cease
You are my smile To destroy me and my spirit

My grinning face Now I live in joy and truth
You are my joy Trying eagerly to spread
My happy place Happiness to both elderly and youth
You are my shine I’m living my life to the most

TIME . . . TIME . . .
Being led by my soul A simple thank you

Spreading the Word For all you’ve done
Being spiritually full And everything you do
Father
You teach me
How to live
Yes, how to be
Pg. 49 Pg.50
Father Will Love
Father Will love
I write this poem Ever pierce thy heart
And I just can’t wait Where two our one
Till I come home And cannot part
Will love
Father Pour down
You are always here In ecstasy
In my soul Until I drown
I have nothing to fear
Will love
Father Suddenly stun
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Just as sparkling rays A single solitary tear

Of the summer sun Falls to the ground
Will love My heavy eyes close
Fly my way As hope starts to drown
Before I return And Lord only knows
To my earthly clay When you’ll be around
Will love One day . . . one way
Just overheat Dreams and goals will start
Sweeping me My life molded like clay
Off my lonely feet To our Fathers work of art
Will love Don’t know where you are
Just swallow me Effecting my heart
Like a whirlpool Near or far
In the sea Tearing me apart
Pg. 110
Pg. 111 The Source Of Love
Where Are You
Straight from the Word
Somewhere, out there Those who hope
You are tonight In the Lord
Besides . . . in my prayer Very much true
Far from my sight Their strength
Will renew
Only God of grace
Is aware of the place They will soar
The time I meet your face On wings
Feeling your soft embrace Like eagles
Where are you . . . my dear I won’t be dreary
Without a sound
TIME . . . TIME . . .
I will run And trust in you

And not grow weary That angels are on their way
Heart of a saint
I will walk You give me new trials
And not be faint You give me new goals
And you help me
And I will soar Help save the lost souls
On wings
Like eagles Oh my Lord Jesus
In Jesus You take my worries away
The Creator’s son You set a perfect example
I put my trust Now I live life day to day
Source of love
I give my faith
To God above
Pg. 51 Pg. 52
How You Effect My Life My Special Friend
Not realizing
Oh my heavenly Father How you assist
I believe . . . yes, I confess You heal me
In the life you lived My special sis’
And your healing holiness
At the time
Oh my God Almighty Of deep despair
One step after another You comfort me
I’m learning from my mistakes With your love and care
And from you Father
Humorous
If there’s ever a wall With your style
All I do is pray You are an angel
TIME . . . TIME . . .
All the while Soaring in space like the sun

Shining sublime is her soul
As beautiful
As smart Splendorous as the sunset
You are a total Shaping such a spiritual scene
Work of art Modestly musing meekful magnet
Saintly sweet and so serene
God’s gift
Of inspiration Man on the moon magnifies
You are a sweet Packing a punch of phosphorescent power
Super sensation Faith and fidelity I fantasize
Flourishing flamboyant as a flower
Oasis in tragedy
A great friend Heading headfirst to a human hurricane
You are an amazing Twisters’ eye true tranquility
Incredible God-send Showering storms of situations
My humble heroine of humility
Pg. 109 Pg. 108
Inside And Out I’m Learning
Inside and out Learning my lessons
Through and through From day to day
Yes, all about Following the Lord
A soul pure and true In every which way
So sensitively shy Yearning to be taught
Spectacular shooting star By the Holy Word
Heading heavenly high Our eternal Teacher
Stunning supernova you are Jesus our Lord
An emotion explosion
Wonderful woven whole Burning for a knowledge
Of spirit and love
TIME . . . TIME . . .
The peace of Christ Everyone could see

From heaven above
Burning for a knowledge
Creations of many kinds Of spirit and love
Special gifts were given The peace of God
God died for our sins From the heavens above
Now we can be forgiven
Yearning to be taught
By the Holy Word
Our eternal teacher
Jesus Christ . . . our Lord
For a gracious God
Blessed our we
I just wish
Everyone would see
Pg. 54
Pg. 53 Unsent Letters
Learning My Lessons
I have a little problem
Learning my lessons My feelings are being hid
From day to day Running from myself
Following the Lord Acting like a kid
In every way
I can’t sleep anymore
Creations of many kinds I need someone
And special gifts we are given Yeah . . . I can’t fall asleep
Jesus died for our sins Feeling all alone
Now we can be forgiven
It’s getting bigger
For a gracious God Every night
Blessed are we They’re piling up
I just wish Growing in height
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Heaven on earth was she

They’re unsent letters
From the heart Wednesday and Thursday
I’m so afraid Contemplating what to do
Of being torn apart Friday and Saturday
Thinking all about you
I try to get you
Out of my head
Now it’s Sunday
Tossing and turning
Innocence tearing me apart
In my bed
What should I say
A priceless treasure To the thief of my heart
I happened to find
An angel of inspiration I try to pass time
Always on my mind Till I see you once more
Cause whenever I do
Pg. 107 Time stands still like never before
Thievery In The Church Pg. 106
Learning my lessons
You are a friend so kind From day to day
A sister so sweet Following the Lord
A girl of God That is what I have to say
You swept me off my feet
God is the key
You took my act Keep Him in your lives
Took my affection Life is your personal journey
You took my show Giving the soul exercise
And my imitation
On a Sunday
My angel came to me
Monday and Tuesday
TIME . . . TIME . . .
I will follow you . . .

Jesus . . .
Wanting to go faster
From depression and disaster
To happily ever after
With my special Stationmaster
Aboard the Fathers imagination

Throughout His perfect creation
Admiring it all with adoration
Wrestling the tracks of temptation
Yeah and I can’t wait

Yeah . . . Perfectly You lead
I will follow you . . .
Jesus . . .
Pg. 55
Pg. 56
My Stationmaster Seraphs shine
Spiritual saint
In sin I was sworn Seducing siren
Since the day I was born Smiling so sweet
Tired and I was torn Teenage temptress
Weary and I was worn Tantalizing and teasing
Totally tremendous
Long ago I heard Thoughtful and thrilling
Bout His Holy Word
Accepted the Lord Utopian universe
Spiritually I soared Utterly uplifting
Utmost ultimate
Yeah and I can’t wait Uniquely upbeat
Yeah . . . I am your seed
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Vivacious vixen Optimistically outstanding

Vividly vibrant Oasis outburst
Virtuous veteran Originally outgoing
Very vehement
Priceless and phenomenal
Woman wonder Precious princess
Wild as a waterfall Pinnacle of potential
Warms the weather Peaceful paradise
Wacky and wonderful
Xenium X-ray Quavering quake
Youthfully young Quixotic quality
Xylose xenodochy Quite quick
Yeah, you’re my yen Quaintly quirky
Zingy zeal Rampant radiance
Zany zestfulness Really ravishing
Zenith zyzzle Radiating rays
Zippy and zealous Radically rippling
Pg.
105 Pg.104
Miss magnificence
Gods Knight
Moving melody
Marvelous and mysterious My pen
Motivating merrily Is my sword
And my shield
Naughty nurse Is God’s Word
Naturally nascent
Nurturing you nourish My loyalty
Nubile and nonchalant Is to the King
The Creator
Out of orbit Of everything
TIME . . . TIME . . .
I am And it says
Gods knight Life is like a journey
On earth Take one step at a time
I write The Lord is the key
A holy sword And it says
At temptation You just have to believe
I swing Ask Him in your heart
Defeating thoughts of sin Eternal life you’ll receive
To back me up And it says
In each corner There will be much sin
Are my angels Idolism and desire
At my shoulder In the world we are in
I was presented
Angelic guardians And it says
As I journey In time they’ll be much prancing
Fighting fiends Children all over the globe
Pg. 57 In streets they’ll be dancing
Pg. 58
It Says Great and glorious
And it says God’s gift glows
There is a Lord Girl so gorgeous
There is a God Gravity grows
And this the Holy Word
Heroine so heavenly
And it says Halo of humility
There is another world Hurricanes harmony
A glorious place Healing me heartily
A city of gold
Inspiring illumination
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Irresistible and instantaneous Celina charmer

Idealist impassioned Cunning and cheerful
Idyllic innocence Cajoling cashier
Cosmically celestial
Juicy and jovial
Joyous and jolly Deadly desirous
Jubilant joyful Darling dazzler
Jewel so jaunty Delightfully delirious
Daydream dear
Killer knockout E in extraordinary
Kittens the key Entranceful eyes
Kindle kaleidoscopic Electrifying eyes
Kismet keenly Enticing enchantress
Luminously luminescent Face to face
Likable lass Fantasy feline
Lusciously lambent Felicitous flamboyance
Lovable lightness Flirtatious fascination
Pg. 102
Pg. 103 Highs And Lows
Charmed
Always alluring On life’s path . . . things can happen
Angel of affirmation so fast, or crawl by so slow. Sometimes
Adorably amazing we feel free as a bird and can touch the sky,
Alacrity and affection other times the road is rough and long.
On our journey we our blessed with highs and
Brilliantly breathtaking lows.
Blooming as a blossom Places where we can learn valuable lessons from!
Bold and bemusing
Blissful bomb
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Things we must face

To understand our souls
There is no time to waste
Life is a journey
For the soul to grow
God’s creations are we
Strengthened by the time to go
And I sit and wonder

On this cold December eve
About how much time we have
Before we have to leave
Pg.
59 Pg.60
Time Miss Butterfly
Miss butterfly
I sit and wonder
I do pray
On this cold December day
We find ourselves
About how much time we have
In heaven one day
Before it’s time to go away
Past the clouds
Time quickly passes by Past the sky
As we are living To the heavens
Like a blink of an eye So very high
Precious life we were given All I want
Is to fly
We each have goals Far . . . far away
TIME . . . TIME . . .
With you my butterfly I heard the seed

Has been sown
Miss Butterfly Now anytime you are ready
Spiritually soaring You will be born
Like a spring
Your loves outpouring Hey Sunflower
For God I hope you grow up
You are yearning I pray that you are bright
Your souls That God comes down
Passionately burning Shines His holy light
All I want
Is to fly Yeah Sunflower
Far . . . far away If you’re anything like your mother
With you my butterfly Then you are a soul to see
The stars in your little eyes
Just like the image of she
Pg. 101 Pg. 100
Harsh Reality
Sunflower
Looking at the soaring stars
Ever heard the flower Up high and shining
Comes once a thousand years With their costly cars
That blooms out rays Going to their destinations
Seeing its beauty I get tears
I could always dream
Sunflower Of a perfect day
I hope you grow up Wake up and have to scream
I pray that you are bright Cause my life is so screwed
That the Lord comes down
Shines His blessedly holy light Haaarrrssshhh Reality . . . Reality
Haaarrrssshhh Reality . . . Reality
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Sometimes our sun

Wishing upon a star tonight Shines brightly each ray
I wish I may I wish I might
Be like a comet Sometimes our storms
And fly out of sight Are tears of rain
Sometimes our showers
Flying with the stars Are lessons with pain
And it would be all right
Hanging with the team Sometimes we are in valleys
And it would be all right Or a confusing canyon
Sometimes we are at peaks
Yeah . . . Living my dream Higher then a mountain
Pg. 61 Pg. 62
Sometimes Miss Happy face
Sometimes we blindly walk Here she comes

And we wonder why With her secret smile
Sometimes we sinlessly float And I’m filled with joy
Higher then the sky For her I’d swim the Nile
Wanted to talk
Sometimes our road But she was in a rush
Rough as time may be It’s too bad
Sometimes our path I think I have a little crush
Is paved so perfectly
Yeah, Miss Happy face
Sometimes our sun Why do you have to go
Silently sinks away You fill my life with pleasure
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Around you I feel so slow Yes, there’s a shining afar

You show your smile I know you’re just a friend
To everyone I know you’ll always be
Reminding them And if you ever feel lonely
Of the radiant sun Just remember you’ll always be special to me
Yeah, Miss Happy face
To me you’re just so special
Why do you have to go
Why can’t I simply see
You fill my life with pleasure
That you’re just an inspiration
Around you I feel so slow
Yet you’re just so special to me
To the troubled
You are to kind
Giving others hope
That there may be a true find Pg.98
Pg. 99 Highs And Lows
Your Just So Special
Sometimes we feel great
To me your just so special Living higher than the sky
Why can’t I simply see Controlling our disease and sin
That you’re just an inspiration Precious life flies by
Yet you’re just so special to me Your prayers being answered
Have God helping you
Yes, there’s this girl Giving you love
Yes, there’s this dove With all you have to do
Innocent as an angel
Yes, there’s this love I had it all
A spiritual high
Yes, there’s this soul Feeling complete
Yes, there’s this star I could almost cry
Illuminating the night
TIME . . . TIME . . .
And I told myself But I’m in a box

I’d never be like that I know I’ll escape this pain
Take advantage of happiness I’m sly as a fox
Yeah, that’s a fact
But it hurts
A heaven on Earth Standing still
I was so kind Not doing anything
Took it for granted Can’t wait or I’ll get ill
How could I be so blind
It’s all turning around Days, weeks and months crawl
Starting to go downhill Missing more of my goals
And I get worried My love with the Lord
Nights are silent and still And saving the lost souls
Pg. 63
Pg.64
I finally realized My Blacksmith
It finally came to me
I’m not happy with my life As my inspirational blacksmith
I think I better get a key You sharpen my sword
Help increase my knowledge
I want a change Of God’s Holy Word
Move to town
I need some freedom Blessed am I for someone so true
My life is falling down Blessed am I for such a thoughtful friend
Blessed am I for someone like you
How I wish to help Blessed am I for such a Godsend
How I wish to aid
Relationship with God A wonderful gift
Is about to fade Helpful as I confront sin
Weapon against evil
I want to save souls With the truth within
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Blessed am I for someone so true Many you do inspire

Blessed am I for such a thoughtful friend A soul so strong
Blessed am I for someone like you It’s alive like a fire
Blessed am I for such a Godsend For you I wrote this song
You engraved your name

And some lovely advice
Setting such an example
Being so giving and nice
Pg. 97 Pg. 96
Dear Friend Even though people look happy
Often they put on shows
I look at the world new Depressed in good faith
Forward to each beautiful sight Cause theirs both highs and lows
In everything that I do
You make my just so bright Someday in the future
I’m going to climb to the peak
Such a faithful friend Gonna be at that heaven
To your kind care The peaceful place, which I seek
There is no end
While you spread joy everywhere I’m going to grow with the Lord
Stronger then ever before
A sweet smile Going to find the right path
You shimmer and shine And love even more
Sparkle all the while
Dear friend of mine I’ll put it this way
TIME . . . TIME . . .
There are hills on life’s journey Sometimes I wonder why

But the fascinating thing
There’s so much to experience and see He has a plan
He has a way
Yet I’m so thankful
For being here today
Pg.
65 Pg. 66
His Plans Heroine
I was born Just an ordinary girl
Having many brothers She’s a sinner
An only child And quite the saint
Having many sisters And I say to her
“Your such a sister”
I have a disease “In each latest trend”
I have an illness “Your such an angel”
From which I can learn “And a great friend”
To live in faith and bliss
Her joy pours
Blessed is my family Through her smiles
Blessed am I Her flooding good will
My mother in heaven Keeps rippling on for miles
TIME . . . TIME . . .
“You’re a heroine”
“Inspiration of mine”
“You’re spreading your heart”
“Forever to mankind”
She’s just an ordinary girl
Living out her days
She’s just an ordinary girl
Living in God’s ways
“I try to smile”
“Like you do with me”
“I show my care to everyone”
“Sparkling my soul for others to see”
Pg. 95 Pg. 94
Relationships, Crushes And Love On Thin Ice
This chapter of my book is about dreaming, My spirit now

lost loves and young crushes. That I’m always Weak with Christ
on the look out for that one true love . . . I am walking
This part is also has my friends and On thin ice
Relationship with each of them and how
They affect my life! I go through life
Day by day
Trying to live
The best way
Pushing my limits
Hard on me
And my surroundings
TIME . . . TIME . . .
To feel free
Overflowing love
Continuing to test Joyfully dizzy
Myself and God In clouds above
Family and friends It’s ecstasy
And my epileptic bod’
Heavenly trippin’
Life is my drug
I am shining
Like a firebug
CODE RED . . . . . . CODE RED
Emergency stall
CODE RED . . . . . . CODE RED
Emergency stall
Pg. 67 Pg. 68
Flight Of The Superplane The Cowboy And The Bull
In the sky
Praying for one more good ride
Escaping the pain
Fearless . . . he gets on once more
I’m flying high
“Let’s go” he kicks it’s side
A superplane
Hoping for a ride better than before
Higher then
The moon, the sky A spur in the gut
Yes higher then And the gates open wide
Everyone Then another spur cut
Deep in it’s thick hide
Body and soul
Strong as one It starts to jump and kick
Spiritually whole The bull only thought
Brighter then the sun (C’mon you country hic)
TIME . . . TIME . . .
(Let see what you’ve got) Trapped in a marriage

Covering up with lies
It bucked high and it bucked hard
But it couldn’t lose the cowboy But I’m caught
Time running it drew its last card In a cage
It turned and threw Him like a toy A bruised bird
Filled with rage
But the cowboy endured and made the ride
He was thrown off but got his eight It seems now
Got the best score, couldn’t have been better There are always fights
Very proud but showing it he hesitated Mental and physical
During the nights
Wishing my dreams
Would come true
Pg. That me and the kids
93 Would find someone new
The Barbarian Pg. 92
It starts to rain
Married to a cowboy Cloudy it downpours
Who bullies everyone Tears of pain
I have a beautiful daughter As thunder roars
And an older son
What to do
He treats his horses Losing control I dive
So cruelly Just yesterday
Just like I felt so alive
His family
I try to pull
Everybody sees With quite a fight
The tears in my eyes My nose up full
TIME . . . TIME . . .
With all my might

Where life is finally fair
Controls shake
Wings are weary In my little world . . .
I have to make
A recovery In my little world
I’m fed up
With this universe
This world is so corrupt
I feel I’m cursed
I have to renew
With you Father above
Strengthen me true
And my love
Pg. 69 Pg. 70
In My Little World My Grandfather
Works so hard and honestly
In my little world His love and care
Spreads like an endless sea
Yeah . . . I go hide myself there
I look at
In my little world Goals my fathers done
All their accomplishments
No one to judge or care And how they have shone
In my little world I would rather live

My life now abnormally
Good friends are so very rare Then live with
TIME . . . TIME . . .
A normal family You are not whole

Father . . . father . . . father
I feel for those with none
So thankful I am
All three for one
My Lord
You are the only one true
Who knows exactly
What I’m going through
My Uncle
A shining Christian
Encouraging leader
My eagle of inspiration
Pg. 91 Pg. 90
Three For One Missing Out
For awhile
Upset I thought My worst fear
That I was missing My worst dread
I was without Is lying here
In my bed
But I have come Year by year
To realize My youth is bled
That our flesh There’s no doubt
Is a disguise That I’m missing out
Bleeding inside
Importance is not the blood I go and hide
But your soul
Without that Everyday
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Every eve Full of hate . . . full of sin

Inside I cry Not really caring
I want to believe The trouble they are in
But here I lie
I want to live Many young people
Full of pain
There’s no doubt Took it out on me
That I’m missing out Barely I kept sane
Bleeding inside
I go and hide Follow the follower
I go in my space Round and round
Of no rejection Vicious circles
Where I don’t face Starting to drown
Any expectation
And I don’t base
Anything on impression
Pg. 71 Pg. 72
Vicious Circles My Grandmother
At the schools She’s a grandmother
A riot everyday Of deep feelings
Breaking rules Amazing qualities
Seemed the only way Angel without wings
A desperate situation She’s a grandmother

They want you to follow Of much inspiration
Caring bout reputation Spreading her love
Being in with the flow To the next generation
She’s a grandmother
Full of anger . . . full of envy
Of worry
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Thinks too much Full of worry

In a hurry She’s feeling sorry
She’s a grandmother For all the things

Of regret She could have done
But strength and courage She didn’t do
Helps her yet Feeling like she’s the only one
She’s a grandmother Dwelling on what

Of emotion She could have seen
Hides her smile Dwelling on what
To herself alone She could have been
She’s a grandmother From the roots

Of mine I can see
Sorry everyone, she’s better then And I’m proud to say
Any other kind She is a part of me
Pg. 89 Pg. 88
My Weeping Willow Hibernation
Time has passed Flooding my misery
Too much she’s seen Drenched in isolation
Both good and bad Drowning my worry
The places she’s been Quenched . . . with this desolation
I hibernate
My weeping willow In my room
Always sharing I wake up late
Full of advice From my tomb
Continually caring
I am deserted
My weeping willow On an island
Full of hurt I am isolated
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Sinking in the sand Cause I can’t stand no more

Twister of emotions
Forcing me apart I procrastinate
Storms of situations Still stalling
Pouring through my heart Wasting my time
Dilly-dallying
I go into my hibernation . . .
Flooding my misery All my problems
Drenched in isolation I isolate
Drowning all my worry In my room
Quenched . . . with this desolation Dealing with hate
So as I run away
I go and dream Yeah . . . I’m lost
Waste another day In a deep abyss
Wake up and scream Of loneliness
WHY . . . . . .
Pg. 73 Pg. 74
Yeah . . . I’m Lost Family
Yeah . . . I’m lost Family to me are people who will always be there.
In a deep abyss People who will try to help and understand.
Of loneliness People who are loyal and true.
People who will look out for you.
From my heart
Through each vein While I have the chance
Emptiness I just want to thank my family
Begins to rain Being there always for me
For giving me full support
Some days it storms
In a real downpour My family . . . my guardians . . . my grandparents
Where I’m about to give in Dean and Marion
TIME . . . TIME . . .
My co-guardians . . . my Uncle and Aunt Of the next generation

Doug and Nelda If you treat youth of today
With a little consideration
I moved more then 25 times . . .
Sometimes I’d move with my Uncle and Aunt Yes, you are rippling
For a year or two, then back with my Till the end of time
grandparents . . .Back and forth . . . back and You’re more important then you think
forth . . .really got to me . . .Always seemed as soon To be unpleasant is such a crime
as I made friends
I was on the move again. When you go to heaven
And see the rippling you’ve done
But don’t get me wrong . . . You’ll be surprised of your accomplishments
I love seeing new cites, meeting new friends And how as a Christian you have shone
And staying with my Uncle and Aunt.
They were a big impact on my life . . .
I spent five great years with them!
Pg. 87 Pg. 86
The Ripple Underneath My Smile
A strong force Do you realize
Hits the sea This mess
The impact so strong Underneath my skin
And it came to me
Alone . . . I’m hibernating
You are laughing with me
Good will works in ripples
Even the slightest smile My life . . . I’m taking
Effects each person, then goes round You are laughing with me
Making people joyous all the while
Slowly . . . I’m sinking
You can affect people You are laughing with me
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Sleeping all day

Do you realize And hibernation
I’m living a nightmare
All the while And today I awaken
To dreams coming true
In the darkness . . . I’m hiding Prayers being answered
You are laughing with me Love shining through
Inside . . . I’m burning
To a lovely place
You are laughing with me
All around
I hate this feeling A wonderful life
You are laughing with me I have found
I need to fly away . . .

I have given up . . .
No reason to stay . . . Pg. 76
Pg. 75 Flesh
Awaken
I am not perfect
Living a nightmare I am not fat
Of isolation I am not skinny
Wasting my days Nor am I average
One by one
I am not tall
Lost in a world I am not short
Of harmful fate Nor am I average
Thinking life
Is a cruel fate I am not ugly
I am not great looking
Living a life Nor am I average
Of degradation
TIME . . . TIME . . .
I am not weak
I am not built Glass mirror
Nor am I average I have found a way
To swim in the peace
I am what I am While in tranquillity I lay
The flesh and the bone Glass mirror
But my spirit makes me whole I am one with everyone
Without it I would be lifeless like stone Love is now a strength
Comparison to this is none
Accepting are bodies
Is what we have to do Glass mirror
They let us communicate I don’t need you anymore
And transport us too Knowing you has been fun
It’s time I left you and just soar
Pg. 85 Pg. 84
Glass Mirror Soul
Glass mirror These poems are written about
I do whatever I can the one thing that makes me . . .me!
But I guess I don’t realize My soul that makes me whole.
It’s what inside that’s broken A lot of people do not believe in God and souls
Glass mirror and I feel for them those Unconscious Souls.
Whenever I go out I wish they would just Open Their Eyes
I come back to you and realize what there is at risk!
Before I go about
Glass mirror
I have come to be one
With my body, spirit and soul
Realized I can shine like the sun
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Further being inter-wound
God created us in His image

And soon you’ll realize
To supervise and take care
You will learn no one truly dies
It’s time you open your eyes

The risk is your soul
And without it
You will never be whole
Pg. 77 Pg. 78
Open Your Eyes Want To Show Your Soul
It’s time to get the picture How are we gonna do it
Yes to the boy or to the girl How are we gonna be
It’s time to hear the spirit Find some lost souls
Yes to be one with the world And make the blind see
One with everything A soul is often hidden

One with everyone But everything can be found
Love flowing everywhere Underneath the ego
Stronger then the sun Is where it’s being bound
Each and every creation Don’t try to impress

Fast they go around Want to show your soul
In there own life cycles Just act yourself
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Show your true whole And everyone lived in bliss
Live your life When my time has come

From day to day When my time has passed
Life will be better I hope to be remembered as a Christian
And for you I pray Because I know life will go fast
Thank you, my friend Jesus

Thank you, my friend Lord
Accepting You . . . in my heart
My soul can finally soar
Pg. 83 Pg.82
Wouldn’t It Be Wonderful Unconscious Souls
Wouldn’t it be wonderful Unconscious souls
Wouldn’t it be grand I see many a day
If Christians stood up everywhere Who haven’t been awaken
And took a stand Many . . . too many I say
Then we’d really see They don’t understand

Then we’d really know They don’t see
Hands high to the sky They don’t know of a heaven
Crusading to recruit a new soul The spiritual bliss and eternity
Unconscious souls
Sometimes when I dream
They are all around
Sometimes when I wish
I pray for them
That heaven and earth were one
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Lost . . . may they be found Now . . . I understand

Now . . . with new eyes I see
Why don’t you understand Now . . . I accepted God
Why don’t you see The Lord, He shines through me
Why don’t you realize
You need a key Unconscious souls
Oh, where have you been
Unconscious souls God’s with you . . . waiting
Yeah . . . I’m talking to you Wanting to cleanse your sin
Accepting the Lord
Is all you have to do I know He’s always there
I know He’ll always be
Then you’ll feel His comfort
I know He’s there right now
Then you’ll see what the fuss is about
Watching and listening to me
Then you’ll understand the undescribable
Brightly you’ll shine and smile without doubt
Pg. 80
Pg. 79
Unconscious souls
Unconscious souls
I hope you wake someday
Doesn’t help ignoring me
And heavens angels will rejoice
Won’t you listen to my story
For you my friend I’ll pray
Then I’ll just let you be
The reason I sung this song
Please heed my words as a warning
The reason I wrote this poem
Please read my words as a sign
The reason I told this truth
Please the offer doesn’t expire
I want to see you journey home
If you have to . . . take your time
Unconscious souls
Yeah . . . I used to be one
I have embraced the Lord
With help of another Christian
TIME . . . TIME . . .
Pg. 81

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Ded. To my mother Shawne Tatlow

by John Tatlow by John Tatlow

Printed at The Electric Paper Company

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I wrote this book because of my experiences. I had a

Most people live their life not realizing what really is

Another reason I wrote these poems . . . if I should

by John Tatlow by John Tatlow

and tell my family and friends what kind of person I

by John Tatlow by John Tatlow

Dreamer’s Visions pg. 30

The Eternal Joy pg. 38

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HIGHS AND LOWS

by John Tatlow by John Tatlow

My mother Shawne Gayle Tatlow

Table of Contents Cont.

My Weeping Willow pg. 88

RELATIONSHIPS,CRUSHES AND LOVE

by John Tatlow by John Tatlow

My Special Friend pg. 109 All I Wish pg. 156

Do You Ever Dream pg.128

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by John Tatlow by John Tatlow

Beautiful was she I lived with my proud grandfather

I woke up soaked in tears

I had the clearest vision

Where I went and saw floating far above

So by fact I know there is a gracious God

I lived with my loving grandmother

by John Tatlow by John Tatlow

Pg. 159 Pg. 158

by John Tatlow by John Tatlow

Thoughts of suicide making me weep To youth and things of that sort

A visit on last November’s eve

So I moved to the Fort’

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Pg. 157 Pg. 156

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what He has done

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And it’s the way I’ll stay My alarm is wailing

My alarm is crying Homeward bound

Sounds of alarms Next year crawled by

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Worried about results Quickly I race

Disease is unidentified Play a game

It deteriates you mentally Top of the line

Becoming a risk to yourself Food and service

Because of their fear If you are looking

Place to place Hammerheads

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Bar and grill The mermaid waitress’

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Embarrassed and scared Instead cripples and canes

They don’t realize Dancing dreamer

I want out In the clouds

I only have a picture I lose myself

Why am I bind Dancing dreamer

Prison without chains Dancing dreamer

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by John Tatlow by John Tatlow