Contents
Acknowledgments vii
List of contributors ix
About the companion web site xi
1. Introduction: Experience and Meaning in Music Performance 1
Martin Clayton, Byron Dueck and Laura Leante
2. Entrainment, Ethnography and Musical Interaction 17
Martin Clayton
3. Social Co-Regulation and Communication in North Indian Duo Performances 40
Nikki Moran
4. Groove: Temporality, Awareness and the Feeling of Entrainment in Jazz
Performance 62
Mark Doff man
5. Performing the Rosary: Meanings of Time in Afro-Brazilian Congado Music 86
Glaura Lucas
6. Self-consciousness in Music Performance 108
Andy McGuiness
7. Rhythm and Role Recruitment in Manitoban Aboriginal Music 135
Byron Dueck
8. Imagery, Movement and Listeners Construction of Meaning in North
Indian Classical Music 161
Laura Leante
9. Embodiment and Movement in Musical Performance 188
Martin Clayton and Laura Leante
References 209
Index 223
Andy McGuiness
Introduction
This chapter explores the subjectivity of music performers in the course of felicitous
and creative performance. The kind of music performance described in this chapter
is creative in the very moment of performance, and by presenting a newly created
subjectivity, without either predetermining or censoring it, risks shame. I argue that
this kind of performance ( creative performance or felicitous performance for short)
depends on a particular state of self-consciousness, which this essay aims to describe.
Although I refer to a field study of alternative rock bands, which exemplify this
approach, the kind of performance concernedand the subjectivity that, I argue,
is associated with itis not necessarily confined to that style. In fact, arguments by
Naomi Cumming (2000) in relation to performance of Western classical music help
to delineate some of its features. Western classical music and rock music (generally)
share the fact of a set text which is performed without changes to its basic elements
of rhythm and pitch, and so allow for the mechanism of control, which I postulate
here as giving rise to felicitous performance.
Th is essay combines analysis of ethnographic fieldwork with approaches from
formal aesthetics. Writings on the phenomenology of shame are used to bridge the
two. Th e tools of philosophy of mind and of developmental studies are employed
to dissect the structure of shame in order to construct a model that will account for
the fi ndings of the ethnographic study and that can be reconciled with Cummings
aesthetics.
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One more preparatory remark is in order. For simplicity, I have restricted the
topic to the subjectivity of a single performer in relation to the audience, ignoring
the relationship between co-performers. Th is is not meant to discount the sociality
of music making, nor the importance of relationships between performers.
However, consideration of between-performer relations seems likely to introduce
the issue of joint attention and recursive awareness (I am aware of your awareness
of meand so on), which would complicate and obscure the central issue
of my argument. Th e present discussion of self-consciousness of the individual
performer might serve as a starting point for an inquiry into the more complex
situation of co-performers.
Drawing on an ethnographic study of alternative rock bands, undertaken
in London and Bristol in 2007, I argue that the bands interviewed implement
rehearsal strategies that promote motor activity without cognitive involvement,
including overlearningthat is, practising songs so that their performance
becomes automatic. Th e musicians interviewed rely in performance on what is
sometimes called muscular memory 1 that is, the movements required to play
the correct notes at the correct time occur without awareness (in the moment of
performance, at least) of what the correct notes or timing actually are. Where a
musician has practised
a particular work through repetition and without focusing on knowing what the
notes are, they will oft en be unable to name the notes they are playingthis applies
also to Western classical musicians. Th e goal of the strategies employed by the alternative
rock musicians interviewed appears to be a sense of bliss in performance.
I argue that overlearned movements are a way of abandoning predetermined action
released self-recorded albums through small record labels and play gigs at small clubs
in London and other cities in England.
Th e two bands whose members are quoted most extensively here are Cove and
biRdbATh . Recordings of the bands can be found online (biRdbATh 2006; Cove
2006). Th e lineup for biRdbATh consists of drums, bass, guitar and vocals. Cove
is a trio (drums, bass, guitar) and has no dedicated vocalist, although the guitarist
sings at times. While the term alternative is used to refer to widely disparate musical
styles, these two bands share some features of style. Th e music of both bands is
riff -driven rather than utilising chord progressions. Th e bands both have drummers
who (at least to my perception) tend to lead the beatthis is in contrast to, for
example, pop bands or heavy metal bands, where the rhythm guitar usually leads the
beat and controls the tempo. Vocals are sometimes present, but lyric content is not
foregrounded (although biRdbATh utilises more vocals and their lyrics are more
intelligible in performance than is the case for Cove). A sense of song structure is
also more important for biRdbATh than for Cove, but for both bands there is a tendency
for sections within the song structures to be static. Th e songs tend to remain
almost exactly the same from performance to performancethe music is not improvised
and any changes tend to be incremental. Song structures typically consist of
two or three diff erent riff s, each iterated in a few seconds but repeated many times
in the song. A riff might be repeated many times before the change to a diff erent one
in the new section, or two riff s might alternate in a section (each being played several
times in succession).
Although some of the musicians of both bands were involved in other musical
projects as well, music was not the main source of income for any. Performance events
tend to take place in small clubs, where three (or more) bands will be scheduled to
play on one night. Audience numbers vary from about twenty upwards (including
members of bands not actually on stage at the time). Neither band banters a great
deal with the audience; the guitarist of Cove may address only one remark to the
audience before he and the bass player turn their backs (to face the drummer) for
the rest of the set. Although some people in the audience may socialise and chat, the
audience generally faces the stage, stands still and watches. At Cove gigs in particular,
there are oft en a small number of people standing very still, close to the stage, and
watching the musicians as if riveted to the fl oor; this is particularly striking when the
band plays a two-note riff , without change, for up to a minute.
It is clear that the emphasis of value is on the process of performance, even more
than the musical achievement brought out by that process; this is evident both in
the interviews and in the musicians observable behaviour. I make this point partly
to forestall any tendency to think of the approach to rehearsal and performance that
emerges from the interviews as resulting only from a lack of formal musical training
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and the kind of skills valued in music conservatoria. Th ese skills certainly have not
been developed to a high level amongst the musicians I interviewed (and it is evident
that the processes they use have been conditioned by the relative absence of
music theoretic knowledge). However, the musicians are defi nitely aware that their
creative compositional process (as opposed to their performance process) depends
in part on not knowing music theory. Th is quote is typical:
[Music theory is] with me all the time but I dont know every note, I only
sometimes know what Im playing, in fact to be honest with you I think if
I really learnt that and I was always really aware of it, I dont think Id write the
same music when were jamming. 3
Simon, guitarist/singer, biRdbATh
Th e value of not knowing music theory carries over to performancemusic theoretic
concepts and note names are not used to remember what to play. Instead, these
musicians (in common with many rock musicians) rely on so-called muscular memory
memory that is bodily rather than cognitively encoded:
I dont know I think a song that you know really well its just um (( shaking
head)) 4 the same as how you remember anything. You know, kind of like, how
do you remember where your front door is? Its probably the same as that, you
just know, dont you, cause youre always walking out it.
Simon, guitarist/singer, biRdbATh
[I] ts about physical memory as well, if youre just playing it you know, your
hand you just remember, it just becomes a sort of second nature of thats how
the song is, thats where the fi ngers go, you know. . .
Ben, bass guitarist, biRdbATh
. . . . its not very musical, I dont thinkits not played by ear, its not like hearing
a note and instinctively knowing where the next note is, itsits more
mechanical.
Tim, guitarist/singer, Th e Sailplanes
Riff s are drilled into memory through repetition:
How do you remember the actual riff ? [ . . . ] A lot of the time, thats with repetition
as well, (just) playing it again and again.
Ben, bass guitarist, biRdbATh
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[W] e wrote a new song today and we played it continually for a couple of
hours. And I think, through repetition, thatll be drilled in now.
Simon, guitarist/singer, biRdbATh
When a riff is to be played again, the mechanism by which it is recalled is typically
not explicitly conscious:
Errrm . . . I remember the area of the guitar . . . [ . . . ] . . . and . . . (( 3 second pause))
I dont know, yeah, I dont know actually.
Simon, guitarist/singer, biRdbATh
Just as there is an antipathy to music theory, there is a reluctance to count bars to
keep track of an arrangement:
NoI dont personally, I know theres some people that do. Er . . . its just a
natural reaction, I think, once youve played it a few times [ . . . ] once youve
played them through a few times it just becomes embedded.
Tim, guitarist, biRdbATh
[I] f theres [ . . . ] something thats sort of twelve bars or something like that we
kind of get a bit confused and even though we should be trying to simplify it
and sort it out, [ . . . ] we just leave Simon to sing his part and well remember
when hes got a certain vocal line that we can hear, Th ats the time to come in.
Yeah, yeah, thats it.
Ben, bass guitarist, biRdbATh
Generally, the musicians limit their cognitive awareness of where they are in the
arrangement to awareness of the next changethat is, what the riff in the next section
will consist of:
I try and think, just like . . . the next change (( chuckles)) [ . . . ] [I] n my mind it
all kind of links together, kind of like a little map. But if I kind of look at the
whole thing, its just like, itd be just like . . . a mess basically.
Dave, guitarist, Cove
I dont really think ahead as such [ . . . .] Th at kind of makes me think of people
playing chess, you know? And sort of thinking what theyre going to do next.
Tim, guitarist, biRdbATh
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. . . its almost like, when youre playing, if you think about it, thats when you
mess up . . . I fi nd, then you sort of get that blank, if you think too many . . . steps
ahead. . .
Dave, guitarist, Cove
However, the state of consciousness in performance is not merely an absent-minded
repetition of overlearned materialideally, there is an alertness that, however,
should not interfere with the processes of control via muscular memory:
Its weird its kind of concentrating but . . . a mixture of concentrating but kind
of at the same time relaxing and not thinking about what youre playing too
much, and sort of jinxing yourself, if you really think about it, soI dont
know, its weird, its some kind of stored (( Left hand rises as if fr etting guitar)) . . .
Dave, guitarist, Cove
In summary, these musicians approach to performance systematically eschews any
strategy that involves mental thought about how the music is to be played. As this
essay will discuss later, the mechanisms by which instruments are played are conscious
at a prerefl ective, physical, level, but not at a refl ective, mental, level. Th is is
not simply a rejection of music theory in favour of a vernacular system of mnemonics
such as fourth fret; rather, the musicians seem to wish to abdicate all mental control.
Th e fi nal quote above, with its reference to a mixture of concentrating and not
thinking, hints at the presence of a dual consciousness. It is this dual consciousness
that I aim to explicate via the structure of shame. First, however, the next section
discusses the relation of music performance to shame.
The Risk of Shame in Music Performance
I will argue that the approach of the musicians interviewed during fi eldwork gives
rise to an uncensored performance of subjectivitythat this is, in fact, the implicit
purpose of the strategyand that the performance of uncensored subjectivity carries
with it the risk of shame. I do not claim that uncensored subjectivity is the
unique province of these particular musicians, or of any genre of musicrather the
contrary. In discussing the examples that follow, I want to bring to mind the kind of
music performance where the subjectivity of the performer is an essential component
of the performance. Th e artistic outcome of such performance is uncertainin
at least three ways, as I shall explainand it therefore carries some risk for the performers
sense of Self.
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Th e fascination was not with any instrumental virtuosity, nor with melodic,
harmonic or rhythmic inventiveness (also absent at this point of the performance),
but found its source in some unspecifi ed nuance. It is the argument of this essay that
nuance must be unspecifi ed (in the sense that it is not codifi ed by the performer)
in order to achieve the simultaneous construction and projection of subjectivity in
felicitous performance.
While the shunning of mental thought during performance is (as noted above)
a characteristic of the approach to performance of the alternative rock musicians
I interviewed, it is much more common for classical musicians to be intensively
trained in expressive nuance through a process of verbalisation by the teacher. Th is
fact makes Cummings insistence on spontaneity the more remarkable.
In Cummings view, projection of the performers subjectivityhis or her Self
in the performance is not an optional extra but rather the one thing that will make
the performance live. Not just the distanced involvement of the performers subjectivity,
but commitment to the spontaneity of performance is required. Rather
than the detached projection of a predetermined subjectivity that the performer
calls forth and presents to the audiencelike a ringmaster at the circusCumming
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drift off (Dave, guitarist, Cove); and doing it without thinking [ . . . ] not making
any conscious decisions (Mark, drummer, Cove), Th e picture I have painted of performance,
then, is of the coincidence of newly realised Self with the revealing of it
in a social setting: it is here that the possibility of a performed subjectivity arises and
with it, the risk of shame.
The Structure of Shame
Part three of Sartres (1958) Being and Nothingness is titled Being-for-Others; the
fi rst chapter of it begins with a lengthy discussion of shame. As Sartre describes it,
the key to the structure of shame is an initial unrefl ective action, which is followed by
a sudden awareness of the action from the perspective of the Other. Sartres famous
example in Being and Nothingness is of being caught spying through a keyhole, and it
is archetypal precisely because in that situation one is expecting to see without being
seen. Th e focus is not on oneself, but on the practical negotiation of objects in space;
one is absorbed in acting.
Th e unrefl ective action is followed by discovery. Since the individual so discovered
has been wholly engaged in their actions without refl ection on their social meaning,
they are defenceless against the Others apprehension of them as the actorthey do
source of anxiety, an anxiety not so much that the body itself but its meaning
is out of our control.
(Frith 1996: 206)
What Frith says about bodies applies equally to music performance, and Cumming
also recognises that
I am unable directly to express some inner state through music, apart from
the manipulation of its micro-structural shaping [ . . . ] Signs can take on a life
of their own, becoming displaced from the meaning intended for them.
(Cumming 2000: 37)
What is key here is the separation between my inner state and the I who seeks to
express it. Th e I that chooses a meaning to express may regret a miscommunication
but this evasion is not available to the meanings of the whole selfthe self which
is not merely expressed, but actually formed in action. As cultural theorist Steven
Connor asserts, it is the essence of shame that the separation of actor from action is
precluded:
Th e meaning of shame is that suddenly I am to have no innerness any more,
that I am all in all the me that is exposed to anothers gaze.
(Connor 2001: 218)
Guilt, by contrast, can be acknowledged: I did something bad. Th e acknowledgment
of guilt places a saving distance in the self between what it is and what it has done
(Connor 2001: 218); but the subject of shame is always on the side of his shame,
there being no other side for him to take (Connor 2001: 219).
There is something paradoxical about the nature of shame, which the contrast
with guilt brings to light. One is caught in oneself, ones whole self is caught, and
at the same time one sees ones whole self this seems impossible. A closed-circuit
television system, no matter where the camera is pointed, will always be unable
to show some part of itself (the camera lens, for instance) on the monitor
surely the self is like this? How can shame be so structured as to involve the
whole self, and yet allow a detached I to exist as observer? According to Sartre,
I am ashamed of myself as I appear to the Other (1958: 222). The Other who
we find observing us can only provide the model; to experience shame, we must
somehow take on the same stance as the Other. How can this occur while preserving
the inescapable pervasiveness of the whole being that is so essential to
the nature of shame?
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I want to propose that the separation between the self observed and the (internal)
observing self is temporal. Shame arises in the moment of transition between prerefl
ective consciousness and refl ective consciousness, where the refl ective consciousness
is modelled on the gaze of the impassive Other. A sequence is required. First we make
some action prerefl ectivelyan action that, since refl ective consciousness is absent, is
for the moment meaningless from the refl ective stance: . . . I neither judge it nor blame
it. I simply live it (Sartre 1958: 222). Th is is followed by the sudden apprehension of
how we appear to the Other. Th e separation between the whole Self and the observing
self does not arise within the subject but is simply the subject in two diff erent
stances, prerefl ective and refl ective, temporally separated. Th e refl ective stance looks
backwards in time to the whole Self; the whole Self (including the part in refl ective
mode) is now caught in shame. In the experience of shame, the transition to refl ective
consciousness traps the individual in the action just made in the prerefl ective mode:
Because of the outwardly small occasion that has precipitated shame, the
intense emotion seems inappropriate, incongruous, disproportionate to the
incident that has aroused it. Hence a double shame is involved: we are ashamed
because of the original episode and ashamed because we feel so deeply about
anything so slight that a sensible person would not pay any attention to it.
(Lynd 1958; as quoted in Connor 2001: 21920)
Finally in this section, I want to say something about the positive potential in the
structure of shame. To say that the same structure can lead either to shame or pride
does not convey either the pervasiveness or the sense of possibility involved. Shame
gives you to yourself, in an agonising entirety you might never have had before
(Connor 2001: 218). In achieving shame, the Self escapes the confi nes of its own
idealised conception of itself, the unexamined whole being is brought onto the
stage and allowed to mean. Th e Iwhich normally controls how the Self is presented
to the worldis relegated to a passive role of observation, in imitation of
the Other: I . . . must take myself to be the me that is all that others can make of me
(Connor 2001: 218). With the loss of control, the I also loses its position of censor
or fi lter of the Self. Rather than the Self being diminished, it is given to the whole
being of the person to achieve subjectivity:
In shame, the I spreads and swells grandiosely to meet with its infi nite belittling
as the me , which is perhaps why Blake thought shame was the secret name
for pride.
(Connor 2001: 218)
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Stern identifi es what he calls the sense of a core self which coheres in infants over
the period between two and six months of age:
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Th e public outlook on the self is simulated for further evaluation of how one is
perceived and valued by others. Th e result of this evaluation, more oft en than
not is either a devaluation or a delusion, linked to so-called selfconscious
emotions or attitudes such as pride or shame.
(Rochat 2003: 722)
Th e internalisation of others evaluation of the Selfawareness of how the audience
is likely to respondis the other essential component of self-consciousness
in music performance. Like the involvement of the prerefl ective self, the involvement
of the observational self in this way seems unproblematic. It is the precise relationship
or interaction between the two which is key to the model of performance
developed here.
Interestingly, the fi rst appearance of the (still-developing) observational self,
between two to three years of age, appears to result in spontaneous feelings of
shame. Children at this age oft en begin to express embarrassment, especially when
confronted with a mirroras if the image made them suddenly aware of how they
present to the world. Th ey behave not unlike criminals hiding their face [from] the
cameras (Rochat 2003: 718). Th us, there appears to be a sound developmental basis,
in addition to the philosophical one, for the structure of shame as described above.
Furthermore, Rochat proposes that the diff erent levels of self-awareness that he
identifi es as developing sequentially through infancy are not stages that are abandoned
as each succeeds the last, but rather layers of the self which persist through
adulthood. Each layer or level of consciousness may be more or less activated at any
moment (and the simultaneous activation of, and relation between, the bottom layer
of sensori-motor integration and the refl ective self is fundamental to my account of
creative performance).
Legrand sees the prerefl ective self as underpinning observational forms of consciousness.
Rather than being one possible form of consciousness among others, it is
a foundational state, in the sense that it conditions the very possibility to recognise
oneself as such at the observational refl ective level (Legrand 2007a: 498).
Unity and Duality in Performance
I have argued that the structure of shame is temporal and that it occurs in a moment
of transition from prerefl ective action to refl ective awareness of that action from the
stance of the Other. In this section I want to link the structure of shame to accounts
of dance and music performance, as a preliminary to teasing out what is actually
occurring in performance.
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music then ends with an ordinary fl ourish people can cheer for. How did she
get back?
(Marcus 1993, cited in Frith 1996: 203; italics in original)
Cumming, however, translates the objective, monitoring level of awareness simply
as that involved in the control of each aspect of the musical performance, thus losing
the aspect of the detached and uninvolved observer. Th e omission of the impassive,
disinterested observer from the picture betrays an ambivalence that can be found in
the pages of Th e Sonic Self (2000). On the one hand, Cumming wants to preserve
the idea that the performer is engaged in expressing an inner statewhich seems to
imply a separation between the performers subjectivity and its expression. In line
with the notion of an inner state which it is the performers job to express, Cumming
argues that what is needed
is a specifi c awareness of how music is a pattern of signs, where inner states
fi nd their character through the molding of audibly material form.
(Cumming 2000: 41)
Awareness of how music is a pattern of signs is necessary, according to Cumming,
because fr om the point of view of the audience the performer does not have a musical
self apart from its sounding form (2000: 41).
On the other hand, she argues that (rather than apprehending and then expressing
an inner state) performers subjectivities are actually constituted in their acts;
that performers discover themselves in their actions; that they are per-forming
themselves through those acts (Cumming 2000: 42). Th is is consistent with my
argument here: I hold that the musical self of the performer (at least, in the kind
of performance with which this essay is concerned) is created (rather than merely
expressed) in the performance, not just for the audience but in reality. Th e audience
will read the whole performance, not just what the performer wants it to mean.
Th ere is always some part of myself that I cannot seeit will include, at least, the
part that does the seeing. Th e musician who seeks to present a predetermined meaning
(separate from his or her whole, unexamined Self ) to the audience will inescapably
present meanings that are extra to those objectively apprehended. Th e totality
of meaning of a performance always exceeds what the performer can apprehend
objectively. Th ese are the performances where the performers subjectivity is not at
riskbecause it is not created in the very process of performance.
Th e performance that risks the Self, by contrast, makes no separation between
the actions of performance and the Self that is formed in them. For this to occur,
the monitoring level of awareness cannot (contrary to Cummings view) be involved
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music, Japanese butoh dance and alternative rock musicians. In this fi nal section,
I want to say more about what the duality of consciousness provides in performance
and how it maps onto the structure of shame. I want also to make an argument
about how the two modes of consciousness are balanced and interact in creative
performance.
I have argued that the structure of shame is temporal, that it occurs in a moment
of transition from prerefl ective action to refl ective awareness of that action from the
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stance of the Other. Creative performance, I argue, preserves the fundamental structure
of shame while also exhibiting an important diff erence in its dynamics as I have
so far described them. Th e creative performance mode establishes a continuous balance
between two simultaneous modes of self, the refl ective and the prerefl ective.
Th e diff erence from the ordinary experience of shame is that, in performance, the
moment of transition between prerefl ective doing and observational awareness of
the act is extendedor rather, suspended on the fl ow of the music. In creative performance,
each moment brings a new action, a new event in the fl ow of performed
music, and that new action becomes the object of refl ective consciousness in its turn.
By contrast, in the ordinary experience of shame, the transition to refl ective
consciousness traps the individual in consciousness of the action just made in the
prerefl ective mode. In sport, the colloquial term choking refers to a breakdown
of prerefl ective motor action caused by refl ective consciousness obstructing the
temporal fl ow:
Interestingly, if one rises to the next levels of explicit self-awareness [i.e., those
above sensori-motor integration] while engaged in skilled actions such as playing
tennis or golf, this transition is associated with dramatic changes in performance,
typically a deterioration. Tennis and golf players will tell you that
if they step into explicit self-consciousness, erring into explicitly thinking and
refl ecting on what they are doing, their game tends to collapse.
(Rochat 2003: 729)
In music performance, the moment of transition must be dynamicrather than
being caught and immobilised by shame, the performer must continuously re-expose
themselves to the risk of shame via new prerefl ective doing. Th e performative state
is the ongoing maintenance of both prerefl ective doing and refl ective observation.
In felicitous performances, musicians sometimes report a feeling as if the music
were playing itself, or as if the music were coming through the performer, rather
than from them. Th e following quote conveys something of the experience, together
with the sense of value associated with it. Geeves and McIlwain (2009) report this
statement from an interview with JK:
If youre not nervous and [the] crowd is already into it . . . and if its a song
that you know backwards . . . you just go into a little bit of a zone . . . . In that
blissful moment its the same feeling you have when you really enjoy anything
I think . . . . Your body knows what to do, and you just go into this trance [ . . . ]
Its just bliss.
(JK, quoted in Geeves and McIlwain 2009: 417)
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What is most interesting about these two quotes is the dissociation between the
skilful body and the thinking self, a dissociation experienced as a state of bliss or
higher enlightenment. Th e statement that your body knows what to do can be
taken in this context to indicate that the observational self is not controlling the
performance, while the phrase youre not quite sure what youre doing indicates
a separation between refl ective consciousness and prerefl ective bodily doing. Th e
blissful sense of higher enlightenment represents, at least, a special state associated
with performance. Th is sense of bliss is an ideal stateachievable, although for most
performers not with certainty.
In order to map these accounts of felicitous performance onto the structure
although not the experienceof shame, it is necessary to make explicit the distinction
between agency and ownership of the body. A great deal has been written on
the topic: what is important here is to establish the possibility of a sense of ownership
of the body without a sense of agency. Th is is important because I want to argue
that the approach to performance of the alternative rock musicians interviewed,
involves a loss of agency.
Gallagher defi nes the sense of agency as Th e sense that I am the one who is causing
or generating an action [ . . . ], while the sense of ownership is Th e sense that I am
the one who is undergoing an experience for example, the sense that my body is
moving regardless of whether the movement is voluntary or involuntary (2000: 15).
From these defi nitions, it appears that a loss of the sense of agency may yet leave the
individual with their sense of body ownership intact.
In normal experiences of willed or goal-directed action, the sense of agency and
the sense of ownership coincideownership of body and action are indistinguishable
(Gallagher 2000: 16). It is perfectly possible, however, to experience involuntary
movements that are recognised as movements of ones own body but without
the sense of causing or controlling the movement:
Th e agent of the movement is the person who pushed me from behind,
for example, or the physician who is manipulating my arm in a medical
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posture in order to carry out motor actions (Paillard, 1991: 167). As such, the body schema underpins
prereflective consciousness, but is not identical with it, as Legrand (2005: 413) warns. Rather,
the body schema structures and is the precondition for bodily awareness (Carman, 1999: 219).