fected by the poisons from the tumour. However, I was able to go to a cancer clinic at
Tashkent, where, during 1954, I was cured (The Cancer Ward, Right Hand). During all the
years of exile, I taught mathematics and physics in a primary school and during my
hard and lonely existence I wrote prose in secret (in the camp I could only write down
poetry from memory). I managed, however, to keep what I had written, and to take it
with me to the European part of the country, where, in the same way, I continued, as far
as the outer world was concerned, to occupy myself with teaching and, in secret, to devote myself to writing, at first in the Vladimir district (Matryona's Farm) and afterwards
in Ryazan.
During all the years until 1961, not only was I convinced that I should never see a single
line of mine in print in my lifetime, but, also, I scarcely dared allow any of my close acquaintances to read anything I had written because I feared that this would become
known. Finally, at the age of 42, this secret authorship began to wear me down. The
most difficult thing of all to bear was that I could not get my works judged by people
with literary training. In 1961, after the 22nd Congress of the U.S.S.R. Communist Party
and Tvardovsky's speech at this, I decided to emerge and to offer One Day in the Life of
Ivan Denisovich.
Such an emergence seemed, then, to me, and not without reason, to be very risky because it might lead to the loss of my manuscripts, and to my own destruction. But, on
that occasion, things turned out successfully, and after protracted efforts, A.T. Tvardovsky was able to print my novel one year later. The printing of my work was, however, stopped almost immediately and the authorities stopped both my plays and (in 1964)
the novel, The First Circle, which, in 1965, was seized together with my papers from the
past years. During these months it seemed to me that I had committed an unpardonable
mistake by revealing my work prematurely and that because of this I should not be able
to carry it to a conclusion.
It is almost always impossible to evaluate at the time events which you have already experienced, and to understand their meaning with the guidance of their effects. All the
more unpredictable and surprising to us will be the course of future events.