I Must Fail, I Insist

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I must Fail. I insist
Life without Lies
By Pradeep Maheshwari
(on facebook: Pradeep PK Maheshwari)
First published as notes on Facebook.
Introduction.
The theme of this collection is mainly to
get a glimpse of the corners and shadows
that we may be missing. It is purely my
subjective view as I have seen and
experienced.
The courage to change; look within;
But the courage required..... where is it going
to come from..... from getting disgusted with life
as it is.......and this state very few arrive
at.....and if they do, it is only after a few
lifetimes when they cannot take it anymore;
never by intelligent analysis.
And then we pass it all to the next generation.
For intelligent analysis, a developed mind is
needed and this comes only after lifetimes of
study, search and experiences.........
disenchantment with the pleasures of physical
life, stuck in the "desire mode"
And anyway the human is a creature of habit
(not a good learner by any yardstick) and will
repeat the conditions anyway.
And then there are the virtuous ones who
project themselves as near-saints and refuse to
look at reality and see only good everywhere.
And effectively close all doors to further

seeing.
I must Fail. I insist.

PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARITHURSDAY, 24
MARCH 2016
How subjective can we get? That we tend to
take decisions and act on what is convenient
and understandable to us and within our
experience is not just a theory. Practical
experience has proven it again and again.
Positive thinking and curiosity go together.
Curiosity is the mother of learning. Learning
results in enhancement of our quality of life if we
put what has been learnt into practice.
In their need to prove their better judgement,
most people deny validity of inputs first and
think later. Once the mouth has said "NO" then it
becomes a matter of sustaining the stance. Then
all mental, physical energies are thrown in the
gamble to deny and fault-finding, studying the
myriad ways it is sure to fail. Thwarting ones
own possible betterment and growth in the
future. This is what I call being one's own best
enemy.
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I remember the HMT brand of watches. In our

younger days it was a highly respected brand
and then all of a sudden it started disappearing
from the buyers wish lists. What was the
reason? I dont really know for sure but what I
heard was that the top management was acting
as the designer of the final models being
launched in the market and of course their
tastes being the benchmark, their selections
were plagued by subjective choices. Their sales
were great to begin with but soon started falling.
I suppose it never occurred to the top bosses
that they were fine engineers, gradually
promoted to top management posts in a
manufacturing unit and that although very
superior when compared to the common man,
their market savvy was incomplete. And their
character had been shaped by working in a safe,
secure organisation funded and founded by The
Govt of India where losses did not pinch their
pockets. The aspirations of the buyers were
never considered and neither was the feedback.
No market survey ever conducted. It was a
monopoly and being a government run
organization, the focus was for the poor
whereas the money was with the richer class. So
evidently the actual buyers defected and today

the brand has shut shop.
This is a kind of reverse negative thinking;
when you do all the right things for the wrong
reasons. This is because all the decisions are
taken while remaining within the confines of
ones own subjective comfort zone. Is it so
difficult to see that the first principle of
marketing is to find out what they want and
give it to them?
A little peep into our lives will show umpteen
instances where we did the right thing by our
perspective, never taking into consideration any
other factor. This always happens when
subjective thinking is at work and our arrogance
blinds us to any other possibility as impractical
and impossible. Lately an advertisement is on
the TV which shows a young lady going to great
effort and paying a good price for a pair of jeans
with the used & torn look. She comes home
and places the brand new jeans on her bed. Her
mother passes by, sees it and promptly takes it
and stitches it up to make it more respectable,
with absolute conviction that when the young
lady finds it out, she would certainly be pleased.
It is surprising how many people plan to NOT

fail rather than Succeed.
Failures there will always be. They are part of
the learning process. And hopefully they can be
kept in the limits of what can be called
affordable. Negative thinking is the mother of
procrastination. Procrastination means that there
is no urgent need to reach a goal but rather
seem to be doing; appear busy and seriously
involved; a very self-defeating attitude.
Considering that we have only a limited number
of years on this planet, whatever work can be
avoided is a goal in itself. Again the whole
attitude is very personal and if that is convenient
to the procrastinator, who are we to criticize?
My question is can we really run away from
life?
For all else remember

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PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARITUESDAY, 3 MAY

2016
I thought I had a home. It disappeared.
I thought I had a family. It disappeared.
I thought I had strength. It gradually ebbed.
I thought I had "smartness". That world
changed.
I thought my time has come. But time says no.
Will I ever have a say in my life?
Karma is not a court of law where you can
juggle the results.
You are attached to your intentions and they
unroll of themselves.
Even at the moment when the words are
entering their minds, the garbling begins. What
gets recorded and what was told can be so
diametrically opposite that one often wonders at
the great capacity humans have to deceive their
selves.
Very early in life I clearly did see the confusion
in the thinking and acting and speaking persona
in the same person. What I landed up in was a
soup where I would speak the truth when lying
was the norm I would accept responsibility when
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running away, hiding or obfuscating was the

norm. I would take people at the words and
confuse the entire issue and create
embarrassment for all. I have been scolded by
my wife often for not knowing what to conceal
and reveal. I think it is called Nave. In short I
was a child in an adult world and never did really
grow up and became a disappointment to my
parents and a liability to others.
But sometimes the past keeps on coming back
like a weed and then the wise thing is to take it
by the horns and complete its journey.
Who or what is a Fakir? A fakir is a person, a
searcher who lives within the human community
but without expectations and manipulation. He
refuses to get involved in the machinations of
the human greed machine and pleasure seekers.
In any other way he is very human and trying to
make his way in a world that lives in a very
contrary environment. How does he do it? By
faith in the positive attributes of Providence and
belief that the Universe is a friendly entity that
recompenses sincerity, goodwill, kindness and
unity in thought/actions.
The stance of the WARRIOR knight. He fought

well today and survived. Tomorrow is another
day and perhaps he may not see another night so what! This is what it is and this is what it will
be.
Human relationships are based on "use &
throw" ususally understood as under expressions
like fair weather friends need based
sharings etc. Once we understand this, all the
enchantments vanish and peace descends
because we then learn to relate with our soul
and connect to the world through flowers,
butterflies, the wind and the sun. We also finally
understand that nobody really wants to
understand others. This expectations and pull to
understand are all rather self-centric. How can
relationships happen?
We all have strong likes and dislikes and
almost all are based on moral concepts or
traditional religious practices in families; rarely
based on understanding of psychology, history
and geographical necessities. We need to look at
life as it is without judgement. What we would
like and what we consider as the right way is
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another matter and should be pursued too but

too much vehemence translates as violence.
Austin Cole Astonishing, and beautiful. Fakir,

you say. It is a pleasure to meet another, Dear
Pradeep. Thank you for finding me, my friend.
Growing up scientifically.
PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARITUESDAY, 3 MAY
2016
From reading or observation, if you see
anything reflected in you, become aware and
change it. If you are wondering what to do about
it in others, don't worry. We can only work on
ourselves. The Universe will take care of its own.
I tend to think, that underlying laziness and
wishful thinking is more in evidence in our
decisions than the other way round.
We must dream with expectations and act but
live ready to be disappointed.
Most good parents, so called good and
virtuous by society tend to be rather arrogant
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and treat their young with some form of violence

in their attitudes. Not being there for the child
and not genuinely listening to them is the most
subtle form of abuse.
Finally I have matured enough to realise that
we are all perfect islands. Complete and
irrevocable. We are what we are. They are what
they are. Observe, note and make the best of it.
There is nothing to be taught and no one is
teachable anyway and does NOT NEED teaching.
Get this into your head pronto. This is the route
to joy and happiness. Do what you have to do
and let them do what they have to do and they
will anyway. It is all simple chemistry. The
Creation has its own chemistry, you have yours
and they have theirs. Then when the ingredients
mix - often, more often than not, there is BOOM.
I can understand how the word manipulation
may be understood or misunderstood. If you will
notice this confusion comes from analysing the
possible meaning. The word manipulation means
much more than the negative connotation
people know about. It also means the strategy
needed to achieve an end. You have heard of
reverse psychology and have definitely seen it in
use. This is friendly manipulation. Most humans
use direct strength - using their authority if they
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have or their position in the big wheel which can

be something like black-mail which is also
manipulation. So we use our understanding of
psychology and assist/influence the other person
to think on a given track of our choice. This is
also manipulation. AND everybody is doing it all
the time - it is the only way to live/interact that
humans know.
Technically humans are not ready for
technology. Humans dont use their minds to live
better. If they want to kill, why not let them have
cross bows? The time needed to load them will
give some time to reflect perhaps. Even a karate
chop can kill. So finally it is the mind that needs
to be controlled.
Life, it is said, is a process of learning wherein
we shed our sharp edges and mellow down. Yet,
if you ask me, it is not a willing effort. We find
ourselves in circumstances and situations that
force us to batten down the hatch and plain and
simple age melts down our ability to show off
our arrogance. What if we did this willingly and
with full knowledge and the cooperation of our
will? This would be yoga. We may even
encapsulate a few extra lives into one and come
at the other end far greater as a Being than we
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could have ever imagined in the natural course

of things.
Whole lives are spent in searching for
tenderness. Quite contrary to this earthly life
founded on thorns. The permanence of sweet
embraces dreamt of Is in the final Great
Experience of eternal Death... How does it
matter in which hospital we took birth. Or the
date or thru who? Are we alive today? Live for
today and the moment you are going through in
the present. Your past is concentrated here. Your
future is focussed in it.
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The Displeased Tyrant

PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARIMONDAY, 2 MAY
2016
Quite a lot of people are basically the
Discontented type. Being perennially sad is their
base. Their persona starts from that point. They
cannot be pleased. They don't want to be
pleased. Their idea of a good life is when
everyone remains on tenter-hooks and
continually strives to make certain that they are
not displeased.
It is not like normal people who are basically
happy but a few things might anger them but
when put right, they soon come back to being
their normal smiling self.
The Displeased Tyrants are so made that they
can see only the "wrong". They even use
exaggeration if it suits their immediate needs.
Accusations also come easily on their lips. Like if
they went in the garden, they would miss the
thousands of flowers but notice the one plant
that has not bloomed and then of course, they
have much to say on the upkeep of the garden.
And they love to point out all that is wrong. This
makes the near ones defend their position in the
hope that The Tyrant will understand. But the
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tyrant is not placated so easily. This is the

perfect scenario that suits them. They bask in
their superiority but are good actors enough to
put up a humble front indicating that even with
all going sour around them, they are able to
maintain a semblance of not being affected by it
all.
The great part is that most of these people are
attractive and quite smart and they know it.
They know exactly how to play their cards.
Most unassuming simpletons end up falling
into their well laid trap.
We all use this strategy, in milder doses, to
keep others grovelling or/and to manipulate in
the form called reverse psychology.
When these people trap others into marriages,
Shakespearean tragedies are written
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The DNA Dynamics

PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARIMONDAY, 2 MAY
2016
We often make others feel awful. We may not
realise it. But in the game of egos, this is
happening all the time. For example a simple
admonition like this to a child Leave it. You
wont be able to do it. I have seen it being said
even by bosses and often in homes from wives
to husband or vice versa. It is happening to all of
us and we are all involved in some way or
another. We are the source unknowingly due to
all the scheming, white lies and pretended
niceness we often adopt. Eventually
relationships arrive at a point that there is no
mutual respect left.
This is what I have fought about in our families
always.... we speak out only in anger and to
criticise/humiliate. There is a tendency to
avenge each perceived insult with powered
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injury if we can safely get away with it. Then we

feel free to even spread the gossip always a little
made more potent, amongst us. But never any
praise or encouragement or a nice word for
us.. For this reason I have always said we are
one of the most tamasic, negative people on
earth. You end up with tags like: He is not be
trusted. He does not respect anyones wishes.
He is a wastrel. He is very selfish. Then they
have this explanation for everything they do: We
are doing it for your own good.
I have seen that manipulation becomes
necessary in certain relationships like child and
overbearing parents, nagging wife, employee
and overbearing boss. Where conversation
based on mutual respect and understanding
does not exist and we have no options to run
away from it, then the art of manipulation comes
handy. It is a matter of whatever you can get out
of the situation for that particular instance.
It is an uncomfortable truth of this life on earth
that the more beautiful things you wish to
surround yourself with, the more lies you have to
live with. None of the pretty establishments are
possible without allying with insincerity at the
core because making money is strongly
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influenced by social niceties, norms, give and

take and the system available to us.
So we end up having coffee with people we do
not like, praising things we do not like, creating
publicity materials which are dishonest, pushing
products that we know are below par. We are
virtually living in a dishonest environment and
losing the love of our children and the pleasure
of association with them, the family becomes
foreign to us and we have never time to smell
the flowers in our garden in our estate and the
sunsets just aren't there for all practical
purposes. The control of the "dishonest" powers
is absolute
Improve your spiritual well-being via creative
pursuits, natural settings and sacred spaces. Let
yourself off the hook and relax, especially if life
has been stressful.
Not making oneself available to the stressful
factors around us is a trick that has to be learnt.
Then our DNAs play the fool in the drama of
the sexes. When you look at a woman and
something rumbles within, what are you reacting
to? I would ask every man to meditate on it.
What makes the pom pom go? Is it our DNA,
programmed since million of years to react and
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act? Is it the beauty that we are conditioned to

appreciate? Is it just our hormones activated by
some spirit energy that we see and feel in the
eyes?
Awfulysing Life
PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARIFRIDAY, 29 APRIL
2016
* Today the problem is cutting out the useless.
For one, people do not know what is not of use.
The temptations of variety has muddled our
cravings. There is just no end to it. And we dont
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know where to stop. There are very few

emancipated individuals who purposefully say
no to anything that drags them down into
complexities.
* We often make others feel awful . We may
not realise it. But in the game of egos, this is
happening all the time. For example a simple
admonition like this to a child Leave it. You
wont be able to do it. I have seen it being said
even by bosses and often in homes from wives
to husband or vice versa.
It is happening to all of us and we are all
involved in some way or another. We are the
source unknowingly due to all the scheming,
white lies and pretended niceness we often
adopt.
Eventually relationships arrive at a point that
there is no mutual respect left.
* It is an uncomfortable truth of this life on
earth that the more beautiful things you wish to
surround yourself with, the more lies you have to
live with. None of the pretty establishments are
possible without allying with insincerity at the
core because making money is strongly
influenced by social niceties, norms, give-andtake and the system available to us.
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So we end up having coffee with people we do

not like, praising things we do not like, creating
publicity materials which are dishonest, pushing
products that we know are below par. We are
virtually living in a dishonest environment and
losing the love of our children and the pleasure
of association with them, the family becomes
foreign to us and we have never time to smell
the flowers in our garden in our estate and the
sunsets just aren't there for all practical
purposes. The control of "dishonesty" is
absolute.
* In India we follow the adage: If your faults
begin to show, complicate things and make
them murkier. And find scapegoats.
* I saw the film Bajirao Mastan. All I gleamed
from it all was the cussedness and rigidity of the
mother who would rather lose her child than
shift her principles of absolute control and let life
go on. Prepared to even commit murder and let
love be sent to the guillotine. Her hate gave her
an identity and she let it spread into the next
generations.
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The worst thing that can happen to the

children are the parents - from the
Tantric(occult) point of view.
Fleeting Thoughts this

week
PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARISATURDAY, 23
APRIL 2016
* Most often it is the wife or husband who
does the needful to bring pressure of change in
our lives. How many of us do anything
spectacular enough to have enemies? For once I
do not agree whole heartedly with Dalai lama
although what he says is basically true.
* The average person is called average
because he is average and that to by taking into
account the achievements of others to get an
average figure. So normally the people we call
average are rather lowly in real terms
* Do what you think is enjoyable. Get into
trouble. get punished. Sit and ponder. Evolve.
Start again.
* Jojo Simons : I think some people are dead
long before they die.
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Pradeep Pk Maheshwari It happens around the

age of 24-30 to most. It is virtually impossible to
revive them. Therein they are doomed to roam
the earth as zombies.
* All wars are bloody finally so let us not get
embroiled in exceptions and deceptions. Focus
on the justification of wars and quarrels. People
kill others, bosses overwhelm their employees,
wives nag their husbands, elders hurt their
children - all because they feel justified. All have
very good reasons; at least they they say so and
when in authority and in a position to enforce it,
they go ahead - without exception! That is where
the problem is and until this is seen in proper
perspective, it is all a waste of time. All this
history is best treated like reading the
newspaper - read and forgotten by the next
morning when a new edition arrives. And dont
forget Ashok and Duryodhan. No argument/ It is
a matter of perception. The seed is the same. It
is like an oak and blade of grass existing and
birthing from the same source
* Do not let the negative thoughts,
judgemental side, manipulative plans etc to
under-cut the good that is happening in our lives
The Vedas and Upanishads and the epics
Mahabharat/Ramayan are I think what remains
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of the culture/stories that existed in the time at

least 15000 - 35000 years ago spread all over
the world. It got lost in other places but in India
survived and flourished. I think most of what we
associate with Hinduism happened in the Asia
Minor area. In other places it survived in a
deformed form in the name of other religions but
commonness can be seen even superficially in
the stories they recount. The core of these
stories have happened but got embellished in
the telling and names changed mainly due to
alterations from sounds transmitted orally and
stories modified to suit the times, conditions and
areas where they travelled to.
* Oh kindness is in plenty only the media in its
money making and manipulation focusses on the
malodorous part of life filling our heads and
hearts/lives with distaste and then
subconsciously making us do distasteful things
by instilling a revengeful attitude. Clever
bustards (referring to the bird & pun intended)
selling death and dreams to want to be alone in
total selfishness.
* If you dont create your niche and corner you
will be literally "nowhere". Especially at the end
of ones life when the platform group on which
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we grew starts disappearing Humans have very

short memories. Remember.
Life cannot be taken for

granted
PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARIFRIDAY, 15 APRIL
2016
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* Oh kindness is in plenty only the media in its

money making and manipulation focusses on the
malodorous part of life filling our heads and
hearts/lives with distaste and then
subconsciously making us do distasteful things
by instilling a revengeful attitude. Clever
bustards (referring to the bird of death but pun
intended) selling death and dreams to want to
be alone in total selfishness.
* For old age. If you dont create your niche
and corner you will be literally "nowhere" Dont
be fooled by the idea that your friends and
family of today will be there. Humans have very
short memories. Remember.
* You know every time a birth happens who
rejoices? Death! Every time a lamb is born, the
wolf rejoices more than the mother. I am
stationed in Uranus. And from here all I see is
every creature gobbling up others around it. The
animals do it for food. The Humans are doing for
food as well for entertainment and most are
wiping out everything around them to build
estates to luxuriate in. Even the healing groups
are creating more suffering than healing. It is a
grand joke if you ask us from other planets. The
only guy who is laughing and having his fill is
Death. And at every birth he rejoices because it
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means he has more lambs for his killing

pleasure. not that he has much to do with all
the unscrupulous thoughts and feelings humans
have.
* This fire of hate is all engulfing if we are not
careful. Bad for the earth's consciousness and it
is happening in nearly every corner of the world.
The intensity with which the hate is pouring out
(for whatever reason) is quite at the max level.
* On relationships in todays world of all
kinds. The impermanence nature of things.
Everything is to be without effort- it is either you
fit in or you dont. Too many choices have made
men greedy and even more self-centered than
ever. Humanity could do with less choices and
possibilities but determined by benevolent
rulers. History is my proof. This is the only
system that has worked till now (unfortunately a
ruler of this caliber comes once only in a 1000
years).
* Death comes always. And always with a very
good excuse. Interpret it to suit your moral way
of seeing life but that is just a mind game.
Neither Karma nor Death can be understood by
the human mind
* The way LOVE is being interpreted today, the
only way we can be loving and kind is to find a
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cave in the mountains and sit in the lotus pose

and fast unto death. Every other action is
pejorative to somebody else it seems.
It is all of us
PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARISATURDAY, 9 APRIL
2016
Anita Menon: Every storm passes.....Every
single one...... PK: ...until the next one. The
problem is not the storms. It is the interval at
which they come. Occult knowledge says that
people with "possibilities" and propensities
towards betterment of their personas are the
chosen ones, and the storms are sent to them to
keep them on their toes and assist their Soul's
aspirations. The truer the aspiration, the more
the troubles, peppered with many storms in
continuous waves. But these people are also
provided with intelligence and the means to
weather it all ( of course by the Universe).
Jojo Simons
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Anti Israel people seem to be filled with such

hatred they make Nazi's seem reasonable.
PK.
hahaha what is happening today and the way
it is being done, is far cleverer, sinister and
widespread. The entire Earth has been affected.
In 1940 we had one figurehead to blame. It is no
more one guy here and one guy there. Now the
chain is so big and being done with such finesse
that no one person can be blamed and the
perpetrators have hidden their agendas well and
have managed to undermine the very existence
of 99% of the world.
The Devilishness is not only in the obvious
violence we see but also in the products
unleashed over the last 50-70 years. Every
single one product has enriched the perpetrators
and the common guy has willingly been a
partner to it all. Excess in all things is the
"Word". The idiots in quest for personal glory (an
idiot basking in the pride of his colour TV, Smart
phone, Limo - sipping caffeinated drinks and
eating fake food are examples including services
like medical care, credit cards etc.) are the
pillars on which these Devils operate.
Look at the big picture and not on spots here
and there. There is deliberate provocation and
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then reactions become excuses to hit back. The

game being played is not what is obviously
being shown to us. All that is happening
between countries is carefully choreographed
towards war and control.
Ruminations on my
Birthday
PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARITHURSDAY, 7 APRIL
201625 reads
* The garden may not be Zen but Zen is in the
garden. Following hinduism/buddhism will not
make you vegetarians but meditation and
growth of the spirit into a more balanced Being
will. It is a natural happening.
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* But we humans end up judging too much.

Wait and see which way the wind is blowing....
What paths open up on the way.... When the
heart is sincere, the Universe puts in His
shoulder to ours
* I know what I can get done. This is more
important than knowing exactly the nitty gritty
of every action we take in life. (Do I need to be
an expert in medicine to go to a doctor? Do I
have to be an engineer to get a car repaired?)
We have experts in their fields that we rely on.
So focus should be on what we intend doing. The
method is secondary. The way will open up of
itself.
* Finally when all is said and done, the
Universe will have His Say and that is what will
happen. All our wisdom notwithstanding
* The way the things are, it seems the dark
ages with a digital overtone are already here
Come on grow up. When the heart is made up,
it is made up and nobody really cares.
100 years ago food,water and air were not
adding to the chemical stress the body is having
now. Alcohol was not such a problem, But today
the body is overloaded beyond its capacity by at
least 6 times and collapses very fast into cancer
due to the disruptions it undergoes.
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* Languages are likes seas. Terrifying when

one has not learnt navigation. You cannot expect
the common deckhand to understand the
working of the minds of the Captains. Too much
power to the deckhand without the education
has resulted in the mutinous situation of the
world order that we see today.
C Sadanandan Chelikkattil
Very well thoughtout and written article.
The Soul of the Party

PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARISUNDAY, 3 APRIL
2016
The 3 "INGs" that create this separatedness
between us and the Universe. The arrogance of
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Being The arrogance of Doing The arrogance of

Knowing. PK
All this information is mental gymnastics at
best. Let us live in the present and think of what
needs to be done in the future. It is best to
consider historical connections as play but past.
When you want to do the right thing in a world
going the wrong way, things can be hard on the
spirit. I was thinking while waiting for my madam
just now in the market, that the basic thinking
has really gone all wonker. Christian thought of
the medieval ages, then the Victorian thought
patterns that ruled a great part of recent history
and spread European culture on 3/4th of the
world, followed by WWs and the technological
age mixed up with Hippie thinking and American
adventurism now .. a total hotch potch with
Budhism and Yoga and what not. And to top it all
now the digital divide. The basic truth has been
lost in this pretend age of Niceness, Politically
correct behaviour and perceived Compassion.
And in the name of personal freedom we pride
in excessing our basest behavior.
God save this poor world. HE must be laughing
HIS head off.
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In any religion or teachings of a saintly

persona.... Yes even if all things said are literally
true, the meaning contained is of upliftment of
the spirit is the message. And focus is needed
there rather than the nuts and bolts of the
personal historical dates & story of his life. We
need to go beyond the importance of dates and
exact happenings. Focus should be on the
message and not the messenger.
The way I really follow:
Give the other person my focussed disdain
and let Karma do the rest.
Why should I waste my energy on revenge. It
is so petty.
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Pondering by the Pond

MARCH 2016
Intuition: All it needs is a little silencing of the
spirit, quietening of the din of desires and predecided goals so the voice from within can be
heard.
People can, if they wanted, delve deep into
their own selves and know and feel the aura of
others if they would simply permit themselves
the joy of living in the intuitive world.
Often relationships last because an emotional

dependency is also established. Some people
also do not protect themselves or do not know
how to and these poor souls are often
vampirised.
We all depend on words to communicate but
we rarely allow them to penetrate or register.
The spoken word is just a mosquito buzz around
the ears and the written word is just a blot on
the landscape.
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Very important to connect the nature in us

with the Nature out there. Walk in the grass, sing
in the rain and sleep on the sand. Mother Earth
will cradle you, sing you lullabies and hug you
back into whole.
The human rogue element only can be
coerced and frightened but not made to
understand or learn to control himself - he is too
much in awe of his own strength and intellectual
ability + totally controlled by his habits and
subconscious patterns.
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Wanna live like kings?

PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARITUESDAY, 22
MARCH 2016
First begin by thinking like kings. Most of us
think like beggars; continuously hankering for
alms and the bowl never quite ever fills. WE are
perpetually afraid of losing the bowl but feel
confident that we can manage wealth.
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Who dares to contradict

me?
PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARISUNDAY, 20
MARCH 2016
The Threatening Attitude
We Indians are perceived as simple, nice
people. From far, the simplicity of our lives and
therefore lack of need to upset the boat does
shows in our docile attitudes. Then where does
all this threatening comes from?
A story comes to mind. I wanted a part-time
typist. So A retired gentleman, lame and in need
because he still had two daughters to provide for
was employed. I thought I was being charitable.
Although he was a branded typist by virtue of his
earlier employment under the President of India,
it became clear that he had never done an
ounce of work and had forgotten all about
typewriters in his long life of shirking work which
was eminently possible & why people chose
employment with the government. So by the
third day I asked him to consider his
employment at an end. Immediately he asked
for his three days salary. I said yes certainly but
please come back on Monday morning as I would
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have to clear it with accounts. This man took this

as a denial and abused me saying that we rich
people make poor work and then pocket the
amounts due to them and things in this tone. He
finished by saying that if I tried to play funny
with him he would give me a slap that send me
flying 5 meters,; what did I take him for.( I
had to get him escorted out).
The other day, a year ago, I told my
neighbours that their water problems are due to
pipes being clogged and valves needing change.
I know because I live in the same building. I even
told the most prominent one of them that they
should stop quarrelling and see to the supply
from the technical angle. But no; they were busy
blaming each other for the troubles. So I took
the unheard of step to meet the prominent one
alone and asked him what is the point of this
quarrel? He came at me saying that how dare I
blame him for creating the trouble and I should
be wary of him and that he had enough power to
destroy me..
Things were getting difficult at home. I asked
my mother to forget what she had been and
reconcile to the life we had now and that at her
age she should consider withdrawing a bit from
everyday irritants that are only creating
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quarrels. She retorted by threatening me with

suicide!
Frankly all I see in the behaviour of most
Indians is brashness, arrogance and a show of
nuisance value to keep hiding from real issues
and reality as a whole; as long as a sense of
superiority and supremacy is maintained.
Anyone here who dares to contradict me?
It seems as if the strategy is when things are
not going to ones wishes, deliberately
misunderstand, accuse the other person in some
way however farfetched, and then use the
accusation to threaten under the flag of selfdefense as the injured party.
Jojo Simons Losing face, has to be defended
it seems!
What have we finally

achieved?
MARCH 2016
People from foreign lands see the people of
India, out on the footpaths taking baths, being
shaved, having lunch or sleeping and their
grandiose feelings surge with pity and they put it
into words such as oh how unhappy these
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people are or must be! They start wondering

how to improve their lots and give serious
thought to the problem by making suggestions
and often even going the extra mile. There is
only one question.... People who have no idea
what a bathroom is, who have never seen a
bathroom, can they visualise a bathroom and
thereby be unhappy? I dont think so. Similarly
there are a million of things that are not in our
consciousness and do not bother us. Longing
and unhappiness begins when we are exposed
to pictures and ideas from exterior sources. And
this is what movies, televisions, advertising and
the printed media has done in the last century.
Of course, I admit that it also opens our minds
to newer possibilities. But then that is another
story. Most people start wanting without
understanding the effort that goes into getting
these extras in life. They just end up being
miserable or if there is a tinge of
unscrupulousness in their character, it surfaces.
There are always short cuts to snatch whatever
we can lay hands on. And this is precisely what
is happening.
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The haves have not shown much

scruplousness either in acquiring much of heir
wealth. So in a way the have-nots feel justified in
taking short cuts.
Now the ones who have it are not feeling safe
and are forever in an unsatisfied frame of mind
as there are always better models and design to
crave for. And those who do not have it now
incline towards cheating and thievery. The peace
is gone. Both within and without the mind.
Finally I ask what have we achieved?
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The Battle-Game with Lord

Vishnu
PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARIMONDAY, 14
MARCH 2016
I am responding to your comment "You are
often still in the cycle of some or other
attack/retreat too."
When we take a body on earth, human or
otherwise, we are subject to Mother Nature's
norms.
I am definitely trapped as you say and I offer
my experiences and deductions on a platter so
others may reflect and perhaps shorten their
own saga.
But all this is akin to a soldier being trained for
battle. He may feel trapped but is allowing
himself to be formed and not averse to it.
Therefore not really troubled.
I normally make very general statements
outlining a philosophical or psychological point.
But you used "YOU.
Perhaps if you did not treat my words as only
transcribing "ME" you would understand that I
am really under no pressure, there is really no
pain. I have manipulated myself out of all the
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stratagems life has thrown at me. It is a game

for me like Lord Vishnu throwing curved balls
and I hitting for a sixer.
You would have also read my stories where I
credit The Creator of much all that comes to me
and happens to me and how Lord Vishnu took
care of things for me. But with intense effort on
my part to rise to the occasion.
The point some see it as complaints, other see
it as sharings - some see thru it all and know a
game is on.
But in all this the learning, forming and
preparation for the next episode is the main
agenda.
You have missed this and this is where we
disagree.
There are beautiful people and ugly too; there
are more ugly and selfish people than otherwise
and then there are wimps or/and creative
geniuses. When I talk of humans, it is of the
general tendencies. It is not me.
Just because one lion becomes friendly, it
does not mean that the very nature of the lion
breed has become friendly.
Every story is me and not me at the same
time as it has always been with story tellers.
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One of these when the learning cycle is

complete people will surely accept
humanity/humans/earth as it is and not as they
want it to be.
Human relationships are based on "use &
throw".
Once we understand this, all the
enchantments vanish and peace descends
because we then learn to relate with our soul
and connect to the world through flowers,
butterflies, the wind and the sun.
We shall also finally understand that nobody
really wants to understand others. This
expectation and pull to understand are all rather
self-centric. How can relationships happen?
The Adventures of the

Barrel
MARCH 2016
This barrel was being used to collect rain
water from the roof of the cottage in some place
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high in the hills; it had nothing to do but to sit

there and wait for the water to drop into it. It felt
so useless, sitting there day in and days out
doing nothing. A pity that it never occurred to it
that it had an important job to do because the
drinking water supply for the cottage came from
it. But then what do we really know about what
we are doing down on this earth and this life? In
the distance the barrel could see the stream
going for adventures to faraway places and
being part of the big wide world. The barrel
could see very far from its position high up in the
hills. So it decided one day to travel. One fine
day it rolled down the hills it seemed like good
fun but then it started catching speed and this
getting scary. A stone on the way down asked
him if he could join him and they started rolling
down. It wasnt exactly a nice journey. The
ground was terribly uneven and rocks and
shrubs were everywhere. Yet they had no way to
stop themselves they found and kept on going
down: dhump, bang, shoosh boing, jhoosh! And
then suddenly after a big dhump they both
found themselves hurtling into the air. For a
moment it was too new an experience and
scared them both. Then just as they were
enjoying the feeling the stone and the barrel
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parted ways and the barrel landed in the river

with a huge splash; totally shocked by the
newness of the whole thing and could feel a
burning sensation from the landing on the water.
And then it found itself stuck between two big
rocks below some trees. A mother crocodile and
her son were sunning not far away. The barrel
was wondering what now? But the fears were
unfounded. The baby croc decided to make the
barrel its playhouse and from that day would
spend a lot of its time in it. Oh well, thought the
barrel, this isnt all bad at all. But the baby croc
soon out-grew the barrel and one day when
trying to get into the barrel a flick of its tail
pushed it out of its resting place, and the barrel
started going down the stream again. Sometime
later it felt being grabbed and taken out of the
water. Another man had caught it and took it
home and put it to use to collect rain-water. The
barrel was exactly where it had started from. Ah
destiny! But this time the barrel was happy that
at least these unpredictable adventures would
stop and decided to make the most of life by
staying there, as part of the establishment all
that courage and bravado now replaced by
wisdom of its place in the scheme of things.
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The desperation of being

alive
FEBRUARY 2016
People talk of the poverty and desperate
conditions of the lower castes and the poor. Try
and also imagine the hardship of being born in
an affluent home, totally under the mercy of
your peers. Peers those are ready to garrote
their children if they come in the way of their
advancement in corporate/political/money
affairs).
Where marriages are made as
corporate/kingdom mergers and the soul of the
children is sold to the devil.
It is the same at every level. The stories are
not so simple or easy but the forces at work are
creating different sounding stories but really the
same at the roots.
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The feeling of helplessness, claustrophobia,

terror, and repugnance are the same. Time
passes. Changes nothing.
We have to make the changes on our own
Avoid emotional train wrecks. Whether it's low
blood sugar or not enough shuteye is to blame,
doesn't matter to the people you're yelling at.
Set a happier tone to avoid unnecessary drama.
Certain things will be because the components
are in place and the power switch is "ON". A big
BANG is as much possible as anything else.
But I say - let it be. Don't let your
apprehensions block you. Allow yourself to be
surprised one way or another.
Jk Karrman Yes!
My First First-Aid Box

PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARIWEDNESDAY, 24
FEBRUARY 2016
I must have been 11-12 and I simply had to
have a first-aid box of my own. The situation
though was not promising. I was a boarding
school student in The Sri Aurobindo Ashram,
Pondicherry. A good dispensary was available to
us from 7 am to 7pm and we were not allowed
any money. So what!
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This did in my logic gave me more the reason

to have one first-aid box of my own. What if I
scratched myself in the period 7 pm to 7 am? If I
were to ask my teachers, or the dispensary, I
was quite certain that I would be rebuffed; even
laughed at. No. This was going to be more
difficult than that. A stratagem was required. So
I planned a picnic into the Red Hills area outside
Pondicherry. This is a sandstone stony area in
which thousands of years of water flowing has
made canyon like structures. The picnic was
planned. A teacher was manipulated to
supervise and accompany. Permission was taken.
And with this grand excuse I went to the
dispensary to ask for some cotton,
mercurochrome, antiseptic fluid to clean wounds
and of course some plaster and gauge. Our
great doctor, who could see through us, gave me
one look, understood and yet agreed to let me
have some! My reputation as a creative genius
had done me some good after all!! There all
done!!! We had a great picnic. And the first-aid
kit worked its magic. Nobody ever got hurt then
or later. That could be called disappointing a
little as the kit never got to be used really but I
HAD ONE!
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Now as an adult I am realizing that we collect

so much simply because we have to have one!!
Yogeshwari Yogeshwari..I am sure this

relates to most of us.
Kathy Gloverof course, you returned the
supplies to the dispensary once the picnic was
over Pradeep Pk Maheshwari.. eh?
Kathy Gloverhaha PK
Opportunities vs. Burden

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FEBRUARY 2016
When we are honored with a senior post,
recognition and added responsibilities, is it a
burden or honor?
When I was younger, there were many
opportunities offered to me like Start my travel
company, Start a school, Start a Boutique place,
Start a company for some other investors, Big
investors were behind me to do their business.
But all I could see was a trap to tie me to a
post like goat/cow and be milked for all I am
worth. The very thought that I would then be
stuck to a seat of their making with nothing on
my mind other than the bottom line for the
company and being at the beck and call of the
investors gave me the shivers. It was so
claustrophobic that I would end up disturbed as
saying NO in the immediate family circle was
simply not an option Every time these offers
came my way, I was terrified of the burden they
were placing on me. It scared me to death. Not
that I am afraid of taking up a challenge; I rather
thrive on them. But I insist to be at the helm of
it. Being available to others to do their bidding
was never my idea of life.
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I wanted to be free to do my own thing, study,

travel, paint and what not.
I was obviously being foolish as I was told for I
would amount to nothing in my place in the
world. Without money there is no life I was told.
But said I - I need only a little to be what I am,
I am certain I can collect at least that much and stuck to my guns.
My belief in the fact that The Universe will
provide is/was absolute + that if any ability of
any worth, money would come of its own accord.
The effort should go in improving ourselves to a
point where we become essentials. Anyway I
was wowed by the statement I read in
Maugham's book that It is a quirk of fate that
those who do not settle for anything but the
best, normally get it.
And my idea of best was and still is to pursue
my calling whatever it is, to try and learn in the
process.
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The Irony of it All

PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARIFRIDAY, 12
FEBRUARY 2016
The irony of it all. Most women when deep into
their marriage complain that the men are selfcentered, arrogant Mommas darlings and never
really grow up. I agree. The irony is that when
these same women have sons they rear them to
feel that they are the star, the moon and the
sun; that the world exists due to them and for
them! And this is behind the sad story. The
stories of mothers in law not exactly being
mothers to their daughter in laws has some
basis in reality. It is a very convoluted
relationship. A daughter in law is needed but not
wanted!!
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Mothers, but first as wives, do not realise the

harm their ways to impose their wishes does on
the coming generations and this is being
perpetuated ad infinitum. Indians are that way.
Their little world. You are welcome into it only at
their whim/desire fulfillment. Everything else is
summarily ignored.
On feeling sad for yourself: The problem is the
disengagement required from feeling sorry for
oneself, to expecting others to feel sorry for you
and support you - to dramatise and make the
most out of the situation. Consider where going
after what you wanted has hurt you and
conversely where not asserting yourself has
brought pain. Look to where you may have
avoided conflict at a cost to yourself.
Wilful deprivation
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This is the first lesson of Zen. Sleep when
sleepy. Eat when hungry.
This is the reason why I have been able to
maintain a certain level of balance in the
biochemistry of my body's working. I attribute
this to the resilience and reserve the body was
able to create with good nutrition, timely support
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with natural medication and careful organisation

of the environment around it.
In addition our sleeping time was appointed at
latest 9 pm and wake up at 5-5.30 am.
Our school time in the Ashram was organised
to give us an hour of rest in the afternoon. Our
warden would make sure that we lay down. This
habit got so deeply embedded in my body that it
goes for a nap at the appointed hour wherever I
may be.
This I carried over into my life. It was the most
important consideration. I have compromised
with most things but this - NO. I organised my
life around it. No joke in this world of 9 to 5
living.
These timings are very natural cycles in
Nature. Our bodies follow these times mostly.
Known as the circadian rhythm. It is in our
interest of maintaining good health to follow it.
There others that follow a little different rhythm.
One should make a serious attempt to
understand this. For example I notice that my
time to sleep is very close to the time of my
birth. Now I am noticing the same thing in my
wife and daughter. I love to be up and about by
3.30 am in summer and 5ish in winter. I am at
my peak in the silence of the morning and by
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midday I need a nap. My wife likes to sleep by

11pm, get up by 8.30 and starts getting ready to
go out only by midday. This is the biggest chasm
between us.
Because the body is allowed to have its say
and I do not interfere with my mind, now it is so
ingrained that I cannot override the habits. I
unfailingly fall asleep in a yogic sleep at around
8.20 pm. Often a short one but when tired it
stretches up to 90-100 minutes. When in this
sleep you can play a musical band around me
and it wont wake me. This tendency makes it
very difficult for me to accept dinner outings.
The time is always around 8 pm, food is served
long later and then I am expected to drive back
home. I simply an not able to return home until I
have napped and this I do. But then people are
used to by now of my cranky ways.
You Telling Me?

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JANUARY 2016
Millions of words are being said but only some
click with us.
So called sayings of wisdom may even sound
silly out of context. All sayings encompass some
direct experience which is very personal in its
nature. Then every soul is not at the same level.
Therefore to many the experience recounted
may sound odd or even stupid. Then in reality,
the oppositeis also equally true it all depends
on the context.
And this problem is seen with all subjects.
What is beyond the knowledge or
experience/exposure of an individual will never
be understood by that individual.
Sages normally speak from a very impersonal
level and so what they say is universal in nature
but that too can be disliked by people when it
clashes with their personal agendas or
indoctrination.
It is always best to choose your audience more
carefully. When you pass on something, give it a
context like explaining it why you find it
interesting or how an experience of yours is
explained by the saying etc. This makes it easier
for others to grasp the message.
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There should never be an element of wanting

to influence others. Nobody learns from others.
We can only share our experiences and this
should be done among people who are
interested in it particularly.
Often teachings are resented because they
may prove another's attitudes wrong creating a
direct clash with their personas.
We all have strong likes and dislikes and
almost all are based on moral concepts or
traditional religious practices in families; rarely
based on understanding of psychology, history
and geographical necessities.
We need to look at life as it is without
judgment.
What we would like and what we consider as
the right way is another matter and should be
pursued too but too much vehemence translates
as violence.
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Minds and Men

JANUARY 2016
One of the characteristics of an unexposed
mind is that it thinks the rest of the world is full
of duffers and it is its job to fill in the vacuum. So
it will butt in every conversation; dub things
beyond its understanding absurd; leave you no
choices; and be very adamant that its decision is
to be taken as final and the best possible under
the circumstances. It follows the crowd and
thinks of itself as an individual: its motto
Everybody is doing it! This is also the reason
why the TV, Social digital platforms, free internet
are helping spread attitudes & behavior
patterns. There are just too many cooks around.
Most of them are spreading negative vibes which
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is quietly, unobtrusively spreading disastrous

thought patterns and behavior. Today from what
I see and know from the NEWS, every solution of
young ones is to kill the problem guy or commit
suicide. Even the slightest thwarting is reason
enough. Just ask yourself where these thoughts
are coming from?
It needed to be said
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There is a lot of kindness in accepting that
humans are an evolved species and all
individuals are created equal. But facts belie
this. Most humans are already paralyzed with
indoctrination by the time they are adults. Then
life doesnt really require them to do more than
take care of their little patch. Their brains are in
a virginal state and open to brainwashing. In the
democratic system this is now obvious. The right
amount of money and oratory gets you a good
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following. It is high time to focus on the

awareness levels of the voter and customer
base. Recent pronouncements, lecturing and
posturing by many leaders all over the world in
countries like India, England, France, USA have
shown it clearly and created a great awareness
globally thru & due to digital tech who & how
runs the countries with so called democratic
systems.
Big pharma and industrial giants in food
industry have used this factor in their growth.
And a few words here and a few words there
are not going to change anything.
Even history and clear happenings like the

French Revolution, Rule of Cromwell and better
examples of rule from Ashoka to Akbar have not
made any impact what so ever.
Everything they do is designed to sell and kill.
I have always felt that a certain amount of
ruthlessness is needed in management but
where do we find enlightened managers?
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Otherwise things quickly become unruly with

every idiot wanting to air his piece of aria. And
what is obvious to me is that the human race
and the individuals therein are not yet ready for
self-governance.
Yes - verbalising at great length is not a virtue.
It is my understanding that humans are at a
level of mental development where they need to
externalise themselves in every activity and in
thoughts they tend to then put into
words/sounds to "see" what they are thinking.
BUT there is another side to it which is that
often thoughts have to be "placed" in the
"heads" of others. Their wheels turn only when
jump started from an external source. (The
entire science of advertising/campaigning is
based on it)
It has to be short and sweet on TV or Billboard
- any crap will do and it is lapped up. It becomes
a documented fact, through TV; the
subconscious can be reached or penetrated
without passing through the analysing mind.
It seems the human animal uses about only
10% of its cerebral capacity.
And it all goes in our concern TO HAVE than
TO BE.
Dolphins use 20%
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If you look around you, we see great

achievements as a whole which is the result of
many trained individuals working somehow
together. But individually they are minuscule in
their abilities and understanding. For argument's
sake I ask you how many people/individuals do
you know who could be called experts in 20
different professions ( 20 different professions in
one person or even 8-10 profession). And I use
the word profession - not subjects.
And the other faculties that now even science
accepts like 6th sense, correct listening,
memory, observation etc
It is sad to see people taking great pride in
owning a mass produced product as if they had
created something exclusive. I think this is called
making a statement. The statement that I read
is that there is money available and you want
the world to know it so you get the most
expensive products, the prices of which are well
advertised and the monetary value cannot be
underestimated.
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What you are aspiring for as regard and

understanding in humans will come when the
consciousness levels of earthlings evolve. Taking
human history till now you need to just gauge
the development in the last 10000 years. So I
can safely say given another 10000 years or so
there should be definite improvement. It is also a
fact that humans earlier moved in a very small
world circle. Now travel and media has opened
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minds to a greater amount of triggers. The mind

h is now coming into its own.
In the meanwhile you should focus on
becoming so needed, admired and appreciated
so that no one would want to let go and should
feel like squandering ones life on you because
appreciation comes of its own accord when you
have raised your level of consciousness and you
ooze gratefulness, beautiful selfless attitudes. It
is well known when you are kind and
compassionate in your attitudes to life, LIFE
responds by filling your bag with joy.
Talking of respect, how many of us know how
to gain it? Demanding wont get us anywhere.
Especially as a right. Anyway what is so special
or what have you done so special as to expect it
at all?
All the women forced to wear hijab and burqua
must be wondering what is it all about.
I wanted to bring out the thought that with the
feminine physiognomy is not a secret, and
available to view openly in all Medias, what is
there making the men so secretive about?
Control is all it is always about. One thing I
have not understood: why this need to hide
them so menacingly. Most women live in families
with a lot of others around them all the time.
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Having a sexual escapade is difficult. Is sex is all

there is in relationships?
Why are men so afraid! What is so precious
about "their" particular woman? Is he afraid that
he is not good enough and that SHE might be
attracted to another?
Thee & Thine as a Bill

Board
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It is sad to see people taking great pride in
owning a mass produced product as if they had
created something exclusive. I think this is called
making a statement. The statement that I read
is that there is money available and you want
the world to know it so you get the most
expensive products, the prices of which are well
advertised and the monetary value cannot be
underestimated.
I remember when my cousin went abroad and
came back as the proud owner of an Omega
wrist watch which unfortunately did not attract
much attention. His was lamenting how it was
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the most useless thing he had bought as nobody

ever appreciated or looked at it.
Just imagine, permitting yourself to be a billboard and think that you are making an
impression.
The only impression I get is that you need
props such as these to show the world that you
have arrived.
If a label on your shoe and shirt makes you
feel this, I wonder what kind of arrival is this to
be considered. Most high priced cars are bought
for this main reason and the car industry is
surviving on it.
The Exception Lobby would immediately say
that it is not always so. I agree. Most of the
expensive products are also technically better
products with features that are way superior to
the middle class average products. But I raise
this question: Do we really need these awfully
superior features?
Once I was in New York with a cousin and a
Rolls passed us. His exclamation was: is this
guy crazy? Bringing a Rolls into New York?
Today I have the same reaction when I see
convertibles in the worlds most polluted city
Delhi. Just imagine a Mercedes Coupe in the
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unorganized, undisciplined traffic of Delhi that

barely crawls at 20 KMPH. Any way Indians love
flaunting. Making over-kill statements comes
easily to us.
I never buy anything where the brand name is
displayed so prominently that I become a
walking advert-billboard for them.
I would never agree to anyone putting a
sticker on my car for the same reason. Yes I
agree I am a snob. And this reminds me of a
story: A guy came into inheritance and he
immediately went to buy himself a better car
and he bought a second hand Jaguar. His close
friend, surprised, asked him why a used one? His
reply: so that people would think he always had
one!
The Hiding Syndrome

JANUARY 2016
Do we really need these elaborate props to
"BE" somebody?
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Are we somebody to begin with?

Do people have the talent needed to
recognise worth?
Is a kingly posture possible without these
props?
So finally can we say that we put up this pomp
& show because it is expected!
Well Lord I think now you will have to let me

go out into fresh air. I refuse to fight or demand
anymore. I refuse to do anything, So there! What
are you going to do now? Just feed me and let
me live in comfort while I post these inanities on
Facebook?
Often we start without knowing what the

future will bring. Our hopes are very
encouraging.
Where does this optimism suddenly disappear
to when the going gets a little difficult?
I tend to think, that underlying laziness and
wishful thinking is more in evidence in our
decisions than the other way round.
We must dream with expectations and act but
live ready to be disappointed.
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I wonder what friends and relatives are afraid

of in letting each other know or give a first
preference on events, happenings, stories or
when there is buying or selling. I think we open
up more and more easily to strangers.
When a child I used to sit and watch my
Mamaji (Brother of mother) who practiced
medicine in our town of Hapur. Boy! Was it
exasperating!?
Most of the patients were from out-lying
villages and would come to the town doctor - the
most famous one - only when their own "trials"
had failed and mostly too when the case would
have reached a critical stage.
The conversations that would ensue were
fairly comical.
I wondered if they had come for advice or
what. Quite the opposite. They would normally
try to push on the doctors their own diagnosis
and quite often they would hide many symptoms
pretending them to be unimportant because at
heartthey knew that their own self-medication
had worsened them.
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And now when I sit by some doctor friends, I

see nothing has changed. The "hiding" has
become more eloquent with education!
Self-entitlements &
Disappointments
JANUARY 2016
It is so obviously clear now that most of our
pains are self-inflicted based mainly on the
positions we take on the foundation of self-worth
and presumed entitlements. Our expectations
from others are fashioned accordingly.
Something that is totally in our mind, others
not being aware of it for the simple reason that
they have no way to learn how your secret
thoughts are forming.
We then obviously crib within and like sourpusses, make our life bitter and for others too
we create a stream of unpleasantness for which
there can never be any resolution. The
bitterness keeps on spreading and engulfing.
Life becomes hell and few know how to break
out of this trap. Normally once we fall in the well
of self-pity and often to sound virtuous we put
up a show of self recriminating drama, the
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vortex keeps on pulling one down into the murky

areas of the self from which only distress can
emanate. Emotional blackmail always backfires
and blows up our life irreparably.
People tell me that the argument started
because the other party could not see my point
of view in the first place.
Often what I have seen that arguments
happen when there is a deeper need to
"control". It is the Ego-Vampire nexus at work.
There was no intention of trying to understand to
begin with.
The words and reasons are couched in
reasonableness and very logical sounding. But in
the name of "helping", "being kind and
virtuous", "wanting the best for you and such,
people are insidiously trying to impose
themselves.
This is where the discordant notes arise. When
they are found out, they hide by behaving as the
injured party. The proof is in the fact that they
immediately break-off relations because where
there is reasonableness nobody ever breaks off
relations.
The stumble was destiny's way of telling you
that you are not paying attention.
The stones have done their assigned duty;
now it is up to you.
Well perhaps we may not see god but
certainly we see His hand everywhere. Where do
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you think came the intelligence in humans and

the raw materials on this earth to make all the
wonderful things that we now enjoy?
Let us not get engulfed by the feeling of
arrogance of being the doers with no support
from anywhere.
Think a little more kindly.
We need to re-evaluate our

bearings
JANUARY 2016
* On the disturbing trends of todays
personality clashes: Most good parents, so called
good and virtuous by society tend to be rather
arrogant and treat their young with some form of
violence in their attitudes.
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Not being there for the child and not genuinely

listening to them is the most subtle form of
abuse.
The children have to bear a lot of the brunt of
their parents mistakes because they are totally
unprotected and they can be blamed for a lot
without anyone getting the wiser.
There is also something like loving abuse in
the form of emotional black-mail.
It just doesn't happen in a day. Attitudes and
cover-ups in society create this messed up
personas we are seeing more and more. There is
disturbance right from the core of the being.
Another point that I would factor in, is the
complexity of doctrines now the young ones
have to face. It is confusing and contradictory.
The soul from within responds; the world
outside, the reality one is living in is
contradictory. Parents are simply not ready to
take on this new parenting load. Neither by
education or by training nor by willingness. They
started with sex on their minds and that is about
all!
The simplistic style of thinking and acting are
now gone. Society has not as yet grown up to
absorb this effect.
* We are so at loggerheads about everything
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Thatthe only point of contact is silence.

* All that effort - whatever for?
Not to please "them" certainly.
* Finally I have matured enough to realise that
we are all perfect islands. Complete and
irrevocable.
We are what we are. They are what they are.
Observe, note and make the best of it.
There is nothing to be taught and none is
teachable anyway and does NOT NEED teaching.
Get this into your head pronto.
This is the route to joy and happiness.
Do what you have to do and let them do what
they have to do and they will anyway.
It is all simple chemistry. The Creation has its
own chemistry, you have yours and they have
theirs.
Then when the ingredients mix - often, more
often than not, there is BOOM.
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Putting an end to it all

JANUARY 2016
To end our suffering. The goal is to arrive at a
clear point where the mind learns to be objective
to be able to see as an outsider its own
functioning, errors and faults. To arrive at this
point the mind has to break its close association
with the amour-propre aspect of our being. It
does help to start with understanding and
accepting the nature of the mind.
This is a time to reflect on how our mind
works. The sad truth is, we very rarely use our
intelligence to benefit our life. Usually we are
just reactive, like a programmed animal. We use
our intelligence in a cunning way, to get what we
want - to tell ourselves (our ego) what it wants
to hear.
Often we do not know we are doing this. But
now is a good time to check in about this habit,
and introspect.
On giving ultimatums to oneself and others:
On the down-to-earth level, try to learn to
manipulate instead of confronting with
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ultimatums. They tend to back-fire on the

earthly plane for the simple reason : one rigid
mind against another rigid mind is like clashing
of stones.
And if has to be done then it has to be done
and as such just do it. But not through
ultimatums that warns the other and the other
may manipulate the situation to his advantage.
We have to accept that technology has made
things too easy. Everything is too easily available
without much effort. Technology has brought in
lethal factors into our life which a person in 1700
could have only have dreamt of. It started with
the motorised carriage. Technology permits over
producing and over consumption. The new
digital technology has made the use of the mind
even less important and so we see more
mindlessness in action.
Humans dont use their minds to live better.
So finally it is the mind that needs to be
reprogrammed.
Humans come on this Earth for a short period.
Not long enough to make any deep change in
the evolutionary cycle of earth and humans.
Intelligent people who have a better
understanding of things see the problems and
suggest corrective measures with great goodwill
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and often vehemence. The point intelligentsia

misses is that the adaptation and evolution is a
natural process in which the mental faculties of
humans are not really at work.
Breaking our heads on it and stressing oneself
out on this subject or any other developments
going on in this creation is a waste of energy.
We can only watch and try to not permit what
we consider negative- influences in our
existence and whatever little influence we have
on life to overwhelm our lives.
Life, it is said, is a process of learning wherein
we shed our sharp edges and mellow down. Yet,
if you ask me, it is not a willing effort. We find
ourselves in circumstances and situations that
force us to batten down the hatch and plain and
simple age melts down our ability to show off
our arrogance. What if we did this willingly and
with full knowledge and the cooperation of our
will? This would be yoga. We may even
encapsulate a few extra lives into one and come
at the other end far greater as a Being than we
could have ever imagined in the natural course
of things.
PS:
I can understand how the word manipulation
may be understood or misunderstood. If you will
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notice this confusion comes from analysing the

possible meaning.
The word manipulation means much more
than the negative connotation people know
about. It also means the strategy needed to
achieve an end.
You have heard of reverse psychology and
have definitely seen in use. This is friendly
manipulation.
Most humans use direct strength - using their
authority if they have or their position in the big
wheel which can be something like black-mail
which is also manipulation.
So we use our understanding of psychology
and assist/influence the other person to think on
a given track of our choice. This is also
manipulation.
AND everybody is doing it all the time - it is
the only way to live/interact that humans know.
New Year Sadness.

JANUARY 2016
Today for some reason there is a something
that has taken me back to the massacres &
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pillaging this world has seen and continues to

see. It must be the messages of change that are
being so talked of in the beginning of a calendar
new year. But what change? Every time a person
who wants to be king or assert his authority,
only one aspect of humanity prevails and that is
of destroy whatever is in front of them so that
they can fly their flag WITHOUT OPPOSITION.
The people are first in line so that they will not
breed more and the intelligentsia and the
libraries are the first to be targeted on some
pretext of the other destroying them as
examples and show of strength is always the
first priority. Today we are seeing another form
of this violence so deeply embedded in human
affairs the destruction of natural habitat for
personal profit. Another worsening aspect in
society that I am seeing happening is the
elevation of selfishness in the name of
individualism what people are not seeing
because it is rather hidden from general view is
the spurt in personal violence and barbarity
behind doors. Something that has now become
possible due to the new way society has
organized itself where we can live without
showing ourselves to prying eyes. I dont think I
need to give examples or name names. Our
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news media comes up with new stories every

day. We have all read history.
Sadness envelops me. How many more
thousands of years before wisdom will become
the guiding light? Enlightened individuals are
born. They are heard- Appreciated as saints and
soon relegated to history. They die leaving a few
disciples and books which more often than not
become a source of quarrels among believers
and the virtuous who take it upon themselves to
propagate the words. Time upon time hordes
get together on the platform of some
principles go on massacring spree. And to all
this we proudly give the word CIVILISATION
Kathy Glover:.. I feel sad that you are feeling
so sad!
Chidambar Stef ..Excellently expressed.
I understand completely.
Sadness is a natural, human response to the
knowledge of tragedies of ignorance and un-love
the media bring to our attention.
One hopes Humanity will survive through this
corrupt, disturbed and disturbing period of Kali
Yuga.
One must remain an optimist and understand
the millions of un-reported acts of love and
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charity that occur every moment all over this

beautiful planet that will never be seen in the
media.
We need to understand our own societally
implanted prejudices and judgements.
Like a stubborn child, humanity is in its early
infancy learning that beyond the grabbing for
personal gain (I, me, mine) there lies a world of
social interaction, love, connectedness and
relationship.
Like a child who realises that destroying the
playground is going to affect one's own delight
and possibilities for play, humanity is slowly
understanding that destroying our environment
over here will ultimately touch us all. What I do
to another, I do to me and my loved ones.
When our own disturbed false egotism is seen
through then every small act of kindness
reminds us who we all are.
Tough times indeed! Keep the light burning!
Pradeep Pk Maheshwari.. yes
Britta Edwards ..Will we ever learn??
Hans Christian.. Sadly I believe that war is
just an excuse for people already having a desire
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to kill and hurt other people in starting or

participating in war they are finding a so called
legalised way of fullfilling their disturbed desires.
Pradeep Pk Maheshwari I think so too
Here, Hear, Hier

JANUARY 2016
Whole lives are spent in searching for
tenderness.
Quite contrary to this earthly life founded on
thorns.
The permanence of sweet embraces dreamt of
Is in the final Great Experience of eternal
Death...
How does it matter in which hospital we took
birth.
Or the date or thru who?
Are we alive today?
Live for today and the moment you are going
through in the present.
Your past is concentrated here.
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Your future is focussed in it.

I thought I had a home. It disappeared.
I thought I had a family. It disappeared.
I thought I had strength. It gradually ebbed.
I thought I had "smartness". That world
changed.
I thought my time has come. But time says no.
Will I ever have a say in my life?
Looking for health?

DECEMBER 2015
Looking for good health?
You have to allow the body to find its natural
chemistry balance again.
Embrace natural food and natural conditions.
Herbs and homeopathy start working and the
immunity that develops is easily treated by
normal medicines. Antibiotics sometimes then
prove to be too strong and disturb the body
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instead of helping and dont even need to be

thought of.
When the illness has been allowed to grow
beyond a point then preventive measures are
not enough. One must first live in a such a way
that illness does not get a step-hold. But once it
has been allowed to fester, some drastic
measure may be necessary followed by back to
nature methods.
When one is seriously sick, simply a change of
diet ( going vegan etc) is not enough. The
agitations, of the spirit also need to be
quietened. Replaced with silence and music and
laughter. And stress has to be minimised which
can be mental, emotional and physical.
A beautiful passage from Lua Astrology:
Nature has no judgments. It doesn't punish, it
doesn't chastise. Nature just is. Let your
thoughts just be. Go for a walk in the wild if you
can to clear away mental cobwebs. Notice the
trees and plants that grow in your environment,
even if you live in a city. Imagine their roots,
deep in the earth. You are supported too, by
your history and by your ancestors. You are part
of the Earth, a child of nature. Ground yourself in
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reality to access deep wisdom directing you to

the path ahead.
My experience with info sharing on cancer has
had the same negative, credulous results.
The trust in what the modern day doctors tell
is absolute.
Cancer patients should be informed that
nutrition is their first and best defense when
starting down the path of healing from cancer.
Information should be provided about how to
switch to an alkaline diet, composed of primarily
vegetables, with a small amount of fruit, grains
and protein. This diet is similar to the ketogenic
diet, which is much discussed in the oncology
press, but with further reduction in total protein
consumption as well as grains, processed fats
and sugar, to help control inflammation in the
body.
Instead, the dietary information provided to
cancer patients is an afterthought, and
amazingly, usually includes foods and meal
preparation techniques that are known
promoters of cancer progression.[iii] Clearly,
there is a disconnect between very well
documented information on diet and cancer
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progression and those who communicate most

often with cancer patients the oncology teams.
Suddenly the knowledge of last millions of
years has become garbage to all those exposed
to today's media and publicity campaigns.
Thousands of years of the same lessons but
no change.
Humanity is not going to change with a few
words.
Most even refuse to learn from their
experiences.
What chance words have?
And as for words,
Who is listening anyway?
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Philosophy for Christmas

Eve
DECEMBER 2015
* It is Christmas eve and all I can think of is
how much of our time we spend on picking on
flaws of others. Why? Perhaps we need to
counter balance the load of our own flaws that
we are deeply conscious of but not ready to
acknowledge. So we offset the balance by
weighing the other pan with flaws of others.
Then we can feel justifiably normal.
* We talk of starting all over again. In the night
we are convinced that we have learnt the lesson.
By morning we are certain we shall be changed
people. So here comes another day with all its
fresh promises.
But as soon as warmth hits us, we feel
relaxed, we slip back into our old sheath and
forget everything.
The Sun is not in the habit of asking questions.
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The moon is another matter and great friends

with Karma. I think Karma put the moon there as
his spy and everything is being noted.
* If you want to remain sane, dont take
anything seriously and have no expectations.
* Associate with the exquisite. Demand it.
Expect it.
The Universe, poor fellow will have no option
but grant it.
* Modern science has given us many products
that has definitely put more control of our lives
in our hands.
It is the excessive misuse that is the problem.
Food supplement vitamins/minerals in easy to
take capsule form is one and Aspirin is another.
Last three days I have been under the weather
with food poisoning and with more than just mild
fever. But I have been going to pick up my
daughter from school on the strength of an
aspirin. Once done, plop back into bed.
Since the last 30 years or so doctors in India
started taking the easy route by prescribing
terramycin for virtually everything including
colds and fevers. A wide spectrum antibiotic was
so convenient and it worked well enough.
The shrewd Indians picked this up super fast.
Now most of us are strongly resistant and when
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really required like in surgery, we do not

respond.
* I hear more and more this argument: - It is
not my language so mistakes are acceptable.
Sorry. You are in error sir.
Mistakes are not acceptable but tolerated.
When you use a language it becomes yours,
then it is your responsibility to complete your
communication in a style that is understood by
all.
You can't borrow a pen and then blame the
mistakes by saying it was not my pen! Can you?
Don't look for excuses to cover up your lack of
effort to not wanting to learn and improve
yourself.
* Karma is not a court of law where you can
juggle the results.
Your plans and manipulations are on record,
deep down in your subconscious history,
whatever the images you may have painted for
others to see.
You are attached to your intentions and they
unroll of themselves.
* 4 years ago we went rummaging for jackets
for the little one. The cloth markets are normally
out in the open, being handled by not so clean
people and dust is everywhere. The chances of
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picking up a few bugs are very high. Then we

had something to eat in a joint - an Indian chain
called Haldiram's. This was a Saturday. By
evening I was sick. Real sick.
SO I vowed I am not going to repeat this
mistake.
But then by force of circumstances I had to go
looking for fabric for some job for Lars in
Denmark. This is a different market area but the
character is the same. The shopkeeper a friend
offered me something to eat and the food came
again from Haldiram's. And it was a Saturday.
And I was sick again. Lung infection and
tummy upset.
I have got up today for a while after 3 days.
Shall we blame the stars? I am inclined to.
We are masters of our fate they say. What a
joke.
Think, think, think.......

DECEMBER 201520 reads
This is what I mean when I say We are so
busy being clever, that we have no time to be
intelligent
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What has gone wrong with us? The attitude is

now part of our national character. The salesman
in the shop, the cashier in the bank, the clerk in
any office, the cop at crossing..just about
everywhere and everyone is behaving as if they
are doing us a favor. Their salary is an acquired
right, guaranteed by the constitution. Even if
cash gratification is not always in order, there is
always a lot of pleading and flattering involved
in every exchange. If by any chance you allow
yourself the pleasure of demanding by right that
you be served, the other guy will go into a sulk
and find millions of excuses to not do your job
and you cant do a thing about it. It is sadistic
the way every little authority becomes a reason
for ego-gratification or worse; pocket-warming.
What have we done to ourselves? We are
ourselves to blame. Over the years through our
long and checkered history we have taught the
public servant that we are prepared to pay extra
for everything as along as our selfish interests
are served first. So much so that we have
stopped keeping our papers or ledgers in order
and we break most minor laws with impunity
knowing or at least hoping that we shall pay our
way through and avoid any official action. The
bigger industrial houses with vested interests
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made this a regular practice with payments

under the table on an acquired right basis. Then
the democratic style of government learnt the
trade, so much so that today everyone has
rights except us, ourselves. We have given
ourselves up for ransom and are now totally
under threat of the system. So much so, that it
has even permeated into our personal
relationships. We are so ever ready to get into
the groveling mode.
Can we reverse it? I wonder.
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A True Being
DECEMBER 2015
( from my book Connect with the
subconscious)
A true being who is in the process of
identifying his self with the Universe would
never feel comfortable in any of these
regimented and structured mental prisons.
Those who are not afraid to get out and be free
are easily recognisable. For one they do things
rather unassumingly. They wear clothes for
comfort and according to weather or the job at
hand. They eat anything and everything that
takes their fancy. They take their own words
seriously and always deliver on promises which
they make with great consideration and rarely. It
is a charmed life that they lead. They are
intelligent enough to known that they may piss
people off so they stay out of the mainstream
and enjoy the sunsets alone. But they are not
un-social. Simply, they do not run after
approbation and they may be good at what they
do so people come to them and they are always
happy to receive them. Are they afraid? Yes but
of what? They are deeply afraid of not being able
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to become better people. Their sincerity of

purpose opens doors to their inner thoughts that
they learn to see as witnesses. They have
learnt to separate their logical mind from their
mechanical, instinctive mind. They are able to
observe the process happening within them such
as how a word triggers anger or envy or joy.
They are able to stop their instinctive responses;
for instance in anger they dont hit back but go
silent instead. They dont blurt out the first
reaction that bubbles up in them. They are able
to exercise restraint and when needed they can
act whether they like it or not.
They become acutely aware of the discordant
notes that they sometimes play even when
knowing to the contrary in spite of themselves.
And this scares them to no end as they
remember the consequences that they can
associate with in their past and see the past
repeating itself. This is a great pain to them but
they realise that something stronger than them
is making things happen, and they are
responding rather automatically most of the
time.
At this juncture, they begin looking for
answers and often find them which they put into
practice in their life with will and determination.
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These are people who are evolving, growing and

bettering themselves all the time, till their last
breadth. One thing they dont do get into
worthless arguments. There is no time to waste
in this short life and with something new
occurring at every moment; who would want to
miss out on the fun?
The Making of the New Breed

of Bums
DECEMBER 2015
Lack of proper education and training is
creating howlers. Most are not even aware that
their communication abilities are way under par.
The focus on children is to get marks but not
excel.
There is no thoroughness in teaching or the
wanting to learn.
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In India this is happening because people are

using words they have heard but have not
learnt. They pick up the wrong sounds with
approximate understanding of the meanings but when it comes to using them, they do so
with supreme confidence. The SMS culture is not
helping either.
This has been a tendency in our character and
it is getting worse with higher & more
sophisticated methods/skills of working that are
now needed. Our lackadaisical attitude to life
and "maintenance" is resulting in accidents
more often and with more horrific results. If we
are not careful our children will become
unemployable semi-experts. Additionally we
need to realise that certain activities require
special skills and should not be indulged in
without proper training and supervision. It is not
just a matter of concern for getting employment.
The quality of life that we can lead with a mind
that has been properly trained and honed is
always higher. It is a simple fact that we need to
ask more often this question: If we dont
understand what we hear and read, if we do not
understand the technicalities of an
affair/product/process, how are we going to
succeed in this world?
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Life at its best:

But - although it is the life that is at its best,
these kids then become misfits in our age of
technology and cities where they eventually
migrate to.
The Terrifying State

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NOVEMBER 2015
Most spiritual paths have one thing in
common and that is the path requires the
quietening of the mind.
The mind is not a machine that can be
stopped by flicking a switch. It will be there and
it has a purpose to run the human machinery.
But we can quieten the din so that other
intuitive, vaster impulses tuned into the Great
Silence can use it as an instrument.
Right now in the normal course, the mind is an
instrument of the human instinctive play based
on two things: 1) The need to impress, 2) The
need to seek pleasure
1 makes us lie, falsify, exaggerate, hide, talk
and act continuously because we don't know
when to stop as if afraid if we stopped the
facade will collapse.
2 the the physical world offers many pleasures
and they cannot be reached without 1
So we come to the basic question where is
the need to quieten the mind in the first place?
Everything in life seems to point to the opposite.
The lack of control is terrifying.
The process that has clearly been most
effective is that of keeping the mind open but as
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far as possible to train it to receive impulses

from the Intuitive mind and not the
subconscious/physical world as happens
normally.
Smog and Sickness

NOVEMBER 201573 reads
Today's conditions will result in the illnesses of
tomorrow.
Take air pollution seriously.
The breeze is now disease laden. We are
breathing it in. Illnesses are taking longer to
treat and heal. The air is infected with open air
garbage and oily exhausts from internal
combustion engines and chimneys from industry.
The air is so foul that it is shutting down the
immune system. Older people and children with
not-so-strong constitutions are affected. The
growing incidences of sore throat, itching eyes,
sinusitis and fever prove it. It is reducing the
quality of life giving birth to serious disease and
reducing longevity.
You can help yourself by:
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Cleaning the air in your sleeping/working area

and give yourself respite from the continuous
onslaught of foul air.
Not talking too much when in traffic and
heavily choked arterial roads. Keep your
nose/mouth covered.
Avoid the chilly mornings or walks outside and
workouts in open air. Keep the wind-pipe warm
and dont let the chill get to the lungs.
We are filtering water due its polluted
properties.
The time has come for filtering air too.
A very huge number of poisons surround us
that we have allowed in our lives, not always
knowing how they are harming us which are
insidious. Marring our life drop by drop and
making our old age more painful eventually. To
mention a few: pesticides. additives, processing
food with trans fats, electromagnetic waves,
wireless, too much light, too many gadgets,
noise, continuously engaged mentally and
fatigue due to speech, crowding leading to
irritation.
In contrast our regenerative periods of sleep
and silence have virtually disappeared. Our
regenerative natural foods have disappeared
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and we look for happiness in others and outside

of ourselves; the search adds to the fatigue and
depresses.
Wish-lists & Whistling

NOVEMBER 2015
The world and our civilisations in every corner
of the earth are going through a metamorphosis
and there is change seeping in and resistance to
it too.
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It could be some thousands of years yet for

the instinctive nature of humans to grow into a
more thinking and kindly nature. But if we can
conceive it, it will be done one day. Want to be
at peace, well regarded and not taken for
granted? I think we should learn to behave so
that people see us as a threat. In this the body
language, the words, the delivery and throw of
voice and arrogant behaviour play a big major
part. It is all in the power of enforcement. People
who are perceived as "No Threat" normally get
the "pushed around" treatment.
How times have changed. Earlier when the
plumber or electrician came, he came as a
family friend with he intention of helping us out
to get things moving again. His vast experience
in this line of work was used to make life easy
for his clients who were also his life-line and
family-friends of sorts. By manipulating and
honestly using his technical jugglery he would
make things work by saving us money as well.
Getting it done cheaply was a great factor. It was
all done with great kindness and self-profit was
not the motive. A respectable income was all he
wanted. The same attitude was in the doctor,
the dentist, the grocer, the cobbler and baker
and everyone else in the neighborhood. It was
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all very personal. Now the personal is nearly

gone. We are now all fair game. They see money
and people do behave as if they have tons of it
at their disposal. They all use their knowledge to
make our life comfortable but with no
consideration of expense to us and with the
least effort on their part. Replace with new is
the latest trend. Their time is so expensive that
one does not want to experiment either and they
cannot be called every now and then. Quite
often the problem is not even studied with care.
The most obvious and first that comes to their
minds is acted upon. They did the best is what
they will say when we complain. More
experiments are then made at our cost. It is
quite a mess. But then I have noticed that the
clients are also getting dumber by the day or
just plain too complacent. Cash seems to be
available in plenty. What is not available is time.
The lack of understanding and curiosity in the
workings of the network in which we live is
astonishing. So the service industry is profiting.
And why should they not? They also dream of
making their million soonest. Then we have
collectively become kinder. And that has given
rise to a philosophy of life that is bonanza for the
bums.
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In the name of humanity they have inalienable

rights rightfully acquired or not. In the name of
humanity let them proliferate. In the name of
humanity provide them with everything. In the
name of humanity everyone should have cars,
freedom to move around, freedom to disturb and
destroy. In the name of humanity let all
Orangutans be killed. In the name of humanity
and sport all tigers, foxes, bears etc are allowed
targets. In the name humanity dump your
garbage in the sea. In the name of humanity
poison the food. In the name of humanity
meddle with it all so that industry may profit. In
the name of humanity give them all guns
because killing is so required to keep the
economy moving.
Yes because they have a sword in hand and it
has been the answer to everything and always
has been. When you have a sword in hand(now
guns) and nobody to stop you, you have the
rights and they have the lefts - not only women,
even men are not allowed to speak up.
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We could easily be kinder

NOVEMBER 2015
The first move we need to make is to get out
of the illusion that we are an enlightened
species. We are not even basically kind though
at the core somewhere we have this fount. We
have all the ingredients but we are not making
use of any. The human race at present is totally
seeped in selfishness. Even the most altruistic
are basically selfish. All our acts are based on
some selfish aspect of human nature or laced
with it. Pretence and egotism are the two most
prominent aspects. This is what separates us
from the Divine.
Have you met people who never are able to do
what they say they will.
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Oh eventually they will. They even mean it

rather seriously at the moment they say it. But
do not consider their words binding on
themselves.
Promises and excuses live side by side in their
mouths.
Yet they think they have managed the day
well and expect the future to glow for them and
they really expect to be liked and believed in!
They are so impressed by their own charm.
Have you noticed how some people can speak
out their hearts only in anger? When they feel
cheated, or being played with or being taken
advantage of or they feel they are surrounded
with idiots, lazy incompetent parasites or such?
This is a fact of life. (It may not be wholly true
but in their minds the view is made up)
This is the fount of intolerance. This is where
you feel justified to take action to smash the low
life in the face or better, crush it underfoot.
This is where it all begins.
And when religious coordinates enter the
equation, there is terror at the bottom of their
hearts and their wrath can take terrible forms.
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Don't let anxiety at work trickle into your

dreams. Tirelessly searching for that file in your
sleep will leave you exhausted. Equip your mind
with windshield wipers -- learn to wipe away
your workaday thoughts.
I was born with a magnanimous kind of
personality. Do the best, join others in their
endeavors, help them out in sickness and their
efforts etc.
But then I found that it was not creating any
friendliness or close bonds. A friend in need is a
friend indeed. That opened my eyes to this
world.
But I soon realised that Nobody was that really
interested. They wanted assistance but not help.
I was not supposed to be using my logic and
preference in helping or doing.
And soon wisdom came - wait for being asked
for help. Do not interfere. Let the destiny of
others play out as it best can.
And for goodness sake don't try to change
anything; specially not the person.
It is in all of us. We are all promoting war. The
chemist, the grocer, they are the first to horde,
raise prices and indulge in black marketing.
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Neighbors who report on their erstwhile friends.

Plunder was always the motive when armies
went to war. And today the corporate armies are
running the show and manipulating incidents
that will allow them to control their need to go to
war. The TV, internet smartphone have just
made it easy and that is why these are so freely
and easily available to all. In a way we are at
war in our general lives. Things like fighting for
control. Brothers and sisters not wanting to
share and playing manipulative games to cut
each other out. The games being played out
among st ourselves to show off and rise the
ladder in social/official circles. etc etc etc
Parris Ja Young.. this is NOT to say that

violence is the TRUE HUMAN NATURE ... quite
the opposite. It is precisely because of this
betrayal of human nature that we are so beset
with troubles.
Pradeep Pk Maheshwari The human
nature, the active part that is in prominence on
the earth just now is the violent type.
Philosophying it under the carpet won't serve
any purpose.
Kathryn Knopf. Speak for yourself, p
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Pradeep Pk Maheshwari.. I am speaking for

myself. Until humanity accepts this, change will
not come. We have to allow consciously to let
the godly part come to the fore.
Manjunath Sullolli.. because it is instinct,
very few evolve into mature, otherwise its
usually true that many wars keep happening in
human mind.
Some thoughts on worldly

things
NOVEMBER 2015
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* Our sense of doom is awfully relative.

All these cases of depression and suicides and
frightened violence is simply a lack of wide
enough consciousness to grasp it all in
* There is a world of humor in the world of
thoughts - how imagination plays the fool
* The Mind is but a tool. It all depends on what
entities we allow to use the instruments. We are
simply extensions of a greater whole and there
are many Forces at work around and in and
through us. The "separateness" was needed to
give some solid persona on the material plane,
so the ego is a useful Force that is also the Life
Force. It has the capacity to transform itself and
join the play with other benign (godly) forces if
we bring them into play. And children can help
us do that.
* It is irresponsible, actually criminal, to think
of bringing children into this world to satisfy our
animalistic hunger, for our pleasures and then
lead them into slavery, debt and life-long pain.
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Personality type and

bringing up children
accordingly.
NOVEMBER 2015
Our upbringing and education rarely takes into
account the personality types the children are
showing evidence of. Generally speaking there
are the selfish types, the more belligerent types,
the philosophical types, the introverts and the
extroverts. Whatever the reasons, it is absolutely
essential for parents to understand this and
create the right atmosphere of education and
insight that the child receives. Right from the
beginning the tendencies need to be understood
by the parents and the education of the child
programmed accordingly. For instance take the
selfish ones; they need to be curbed and taught
how to understand their selfishness and make
them see how self-destructive it is. Their
demands cannot be met and those parents that
do to avoid tantrums are laying the foundation
for a hurtful existence.
In a similar vein the belligerent type will also
invite retribution. The world is not there to just
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take what anyone dishes out. So they need to be

taught and explained the give and take of
violent behaviour.
The introverts need to be left alone and
allowed with patience to find their footing in the
world. Their fears need to be assuaged and
explained so that with understanding they can
move forward in this active and violent world.
Exercises of self-confidence building have to be
added into their upbringing.
These three types normally trap themselves
into situations and then do not know what to do
or to whom to turn. They end up being
depressed and often end up destroying
themselves. Suicide is one of the acts they
indulge in to attract attention, not realising in
this unforgiving world nobody really cares.
When my child was born, I realised she had
some unfinished fear troubling her. So I cuddled
her and made her feel secure and encouraged
her to explore her world. It took about eight
years but now she is totally at ease with herself
and the world and takes everything in her stride
confidently and fearlessly.
Depression; it all starts with acute selfcenteredness - it is a mental illness and not
curable.
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Behaviour in a group
NOVEMBER 2015
In a group you have to maintain the group's
decorum
Too much individualism and focus on what one
wants can be detrimental for the whole. Dont
expect the group to accept your individuality.
The group by its very nature is characteristic of
the common lowest denominator and shuns
individuality as a dangerous element to its
existence.
Of course individuals should live by their
standards and wishes. We all want to that.
But that is exactly what does not allow a
group to go forward together.
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I think our juniors look up to us and we should

live by a standard we want them to follow for the
greater good. We need to teach them selfregulation and self-control/discipline and help
them grow into their highest potential. By
harping on individuality we are only promoting
the self0centredness in our midst
This is as I see the greatness of India and also
its great weakness. We refuse to follow the
group's, society's needs and values and consider
other individuals and neighbours.
Too much individualism eventually becomes
self-centeredness, specially when you are in
power to enforce it. Look what it has done to our
government.
It also then becomes an excuse to maintain
one's low standards.
If we study and look with a cool mind you will
see all the discordant notes in our life in India
are due to the fact everyone thinks on an
individual capacity and from the personal point
of view alone to the extent that they do not even
consider their own promises and the accepted
duties one has under a job one has taken.
When we are in a team, the team becomes
more important.
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We need to distinguish between the personal

and the general. When we talk of our rights and
independence, we should not forget that it is this
group that is ensuring that we have it. But if you
insist in your individualism then dont expect
anything from the world at large.
A few words on the Human

Mind
The mind when immature cannot wait, reflect
nor quieten and it jumps to speedy conclusions.
Superficiality is the hallmark.
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Remaining silent has been so completely

trampled underfoot that even a few moments of
quiet are a surprise nowadays.
My observance is that we are basically lazy.
There is a lot of inertia in the basic nature (the
inconscient) and whatever psychologists may
say, this has overall control over our lives in
general.
People not only do not think for themselves,
they would rather not do anything else if they
can avoid it but they are very good at
rationalising as it requires little effort besides
wagging the tongue.
There are some over clever ones who are very
appreciative of their own wit and are showing off
all the time. Dont get involved with them or try
to upstage them.
We create a screen, a foundation of our
"Virtuousness" of not needing/wanting/allowing
others to approach us until implored and then
when we do relent, it is as a "virtuous" gesture.
Our Karmic Footprints

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The human mind can encompass only what it

has seen, read or heard. From this fount of great
learning it tries to understand the Universe
which has been at it for millions of years. The
universe has a plan I am told. Nothing is as
unconnected as it seems. We and the things that
happen to us are part of the process and
continuum that has been in the pipeline since
this Earth got active.
We have not been able to fathom as yet even
the past that has already happened but we feel
we can explain the now and the future which has
not even unfolded.
Do you care what happens to a grain of sand
when the huge wave washes over it?
Why and for what reason should the Universe
care when a child is hurt or man dies or a buck is
shot. It is part of the drama.
But yes coming to the immediate present, in
my immediate life, I have seen, when I keep my
attitude kindly compassionate, forgiving and
pliable, more pleasurable things happen.
Then I come from a large joint family and have
observed some uncles and aunts throwing their
weights around and lashing out in their powerful
strongholds. Everyone one them suffered
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acutely eventually in some form or other from

the decisions that they had taken.
My personal experience of life from these
observations is that even death does not come
until the bill has been paid.
It is so merciful and such a blessing to die
early without suffering the consequences. It is a
great grace for those who die peacefully,
suddenly and in one shot.
I hope I go out that way. I have been paying
heavily for my insincerities and desires but since
the last 15/16 years I have walked a different
path in which I try not to spoil my karmic
footprints. This activity includes not lashing
back, not desiring (wanting but not desiring),
working for the greater group of families and
friends and all others who permit it and first see
value in me and then open up to me. Never of
my own volition..
And I see a change in the trend of my life
taking a more joyful existence. Circumstances
seem to arrange themselves for my benefit. The
right thoughts seem to come to me and it is as if
somebody is taking care of me with a benign
smile. And even products simply land up on a
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plate - but I amy add only those things that I

really need.
Now you all can make out whatever you wish

from all this "telling"
Words need to become

Actions
Talking of Hinduism and the hardliners. The
ones who are going to take us to Vaikunth, Good
days and Higher thinking and living. Let me
relate about our visit to Varanasi. It was a
disastrous eye opener. Dirt and resignation all
around. No place to sit. The cheapest on-theroad eateries cooking besides garbage. No sense
of beauty or comfort in their way of living.
It is a crumbling town with very few places
clean, maintained. Nothing to show that it is a
place of a proud educated people living in a
town famous for its erudition and masters of
music, arts.
Millions visit this town but most of them are
from the villages and not so exposed to
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modernity. The old thought patterns, habits and

tastes rule the market place because no one
demands better. Finally not a place that I would
advise anyone to go to if health is matter of
concern.
People may feel that they have propitiated the
Gods, but I ask to what end?
One short dip in the Ganges and we had a
vomiting fit and fever later. Once out of this,
then we had something to eat on the train and
since 5 days we are all three fighting food
poisoning.
When will Indian thinkers focus on these
things? And what do the locals say about it all? Nobody cares. The Prime Minister wants to focus
and promises another Kyoto but the locals clean
up only the corners he visits.
Besides being great and all that we are also
terrific in all departments of opportunism,
cheating and back-biting. The democratic
method coupled with oppressive empire
legislation has been a boon to these vote-bank
politics.
The lowest of the low now have a say in
running the country.
Sri Aurobindo had predicted Goonda Raj.
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Let us influence our children otherwise as best

as we can, this is how change will come
eventually
The present obvious truth is that the reality
people can see and touch and feel and
experience in everyday life is connected only to
the last 1200 years or so. Take any department
of life in India - Architecture and architectural
remains all around us, our food habits and
cuisine, our dresses and designs and lastly our
language.
Our life and living is a mish-mash of what the
Muslim and British brought us. And we had a
beautiful, wonderful and exclusive mix that was
unique and still is even with Coca Cola added to
the mix.
The new generations of misguided unevolved
politicians started focussing on divisive policies.
We have only added confusion to the complex
brew.
This is what they see and react to because
their ability is limited to view anything only as
far as back as 3 immediate generations - and
coloured terribly by the media..
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This is our reality and we need to grapple with

this now
The Myth of Multitasking

OCTOBER 2015
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Multi tasking is a myth. Making the mind do

gymnastics on the bars and the horse and the
rings at the same time.
Better doing one at a time and getting the
most out of it - thoroughness is my goal or
should be. I find it very annoying, distracting and
error-some when I am disturbed and forced to
change my thought tracks when my full
attention is needed on a job. The chain of
thought breaks up and I normally end up missing
out something. Once a though chain-train is
broken, it takes 15-20 mts to get it back on
track. Multitasking salesmen, workshop
engineers, business associates all doing my
work but also at the same attending phones or
paying attention to some others etc is one of my
triggers to an explosion of my short temper. It
has invariably resulted in a waste of time with
instructions not followed, the opposite being
done, wrong deliveries made or some such
annoyance that needs to be redone and
corrected. Most often when the message has not
been properly registered, the other party ends
up doing what it thinks should be done. This is
a double shot of annoyance. Long explanations,
defensive arguments follow and the actual point
of my requirement never gets registered. Yet all
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these people think and consider that they are

super efficient and their ability to handle many
projects and subjects at a time is without
compare. I simply hate it when people come to
me to discuss plans/business and then keep on
allowing their phone to break the conversation,
while I sit there like an idiot in my own office
waiting for them to finish. Besides being
detrimental to the work on hand, it is such bad
manners. What if then I get up and go away and
leave them to their phones?
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Loving oneself to be loving

others
OCTOBER 2015
Why should we expect them to go about
loving others? I am fairly happy with myself, love
with gratitude the attributes granted to me by
Mother Nature and all the gifts by father
Universe. Yet I see no reason to go showering
love unreservedly and show it to all like a bee on
the task of pollinating. I do concede that being
comfortable with ones own self is of prime
importance and in this state we are
automatically kindly. This world will respond with
kindness to our vibes is a point but let us not
fool ourselves that there is ever going to be any
reduction in selfishness on the material plane
just yet. I am not trying to catch attention nor
really bothered if anyone is liking me or
whatever. Living pragmatically on this "material"
earth is my focus. Don't go where you are not
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wanted is my first policy. Don't speak where noone is listening is my second. Don't expend
energy in situations where it is not welcome is
my third.
The problem has been and will remain that all
the education and learning we acquire and wish
to pass on goes down with every death. The new
ones start all over again and the earth remains
where it is. It seems like the picture is changing
but the basic canvas, materials and colours
remain the same.
A lot of mental energies are dissipated,
unused or wasted by people who do not know
how to focus. Quietening and focussing your
energies is the first step to better health and
long life.
All this talk of "rights" is irrelevant. What to
wear and how to behave and the constitutional
rights etc are just smoke-screens to vulgar
selfishness and display.
In my thinking it shows a level of stupidity
worse than that of the excitement seekers who
are asked to behave as we would be considered
more educated, and with more discernment.
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The streets were never the place to show off.

In no culture; starting from Mohenjodaro.. When
you move in a crowd, the crowd matters unless
you want to be treated badly. You cannot neglect
the crowd's low IQ levels .
The Health Alternative

OCTOBER 2015
In my 40 years of studying and advising, I
have not been able to convince even one person
about the necessity of the balancing act that the
body has to do and the ingredients it needs.
There is enough information and warnings now
in different medias about everything but no one
is bothered. Convenience wins everytime. The
living style, the need to make a living and all
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that take precedence. For the first 10-15-20

years of working life it seems to be go very well.
Only after the damage/deficiencies becomes
serious does it show on the surface. Then alone
people pay attention to the problem. As if the
carelessness was not a problem enough. The
modern pharmaceuticals offer symptomatic
relief and assist the patients in their bad habits.
(example as in : diabetes-insulin, asthmainhalers, fever-paracetamol, cough-syrups,
skin/eczema-ointments, allergies-antihistamines)
Finally when the collapse take place, all their
earnings end up into the hands of the medical
industry and your health in the dustbin for ever
until death doth release you from your trials. I do
understand that the only way is to create proper
health through correct lifestyle is based on your
ability to earn by your saleable talents and earn
well to create your own little world. It requires
great wisdom, general knowledge, self mastery
and a lot of talent about the practicalities of this
world to be able to survive by Not Doing in this
world of doers who unfortunately pride
themselves in working for others these others
who use their minds to get rich on the labours.
So please study. Practice what you learn and
seems to apply to you. Don't follow any system
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blindly with researching it and that does not

show improvement within a few days AND very
importantly: makes you FEEL healthier.
We have to learn to live in the new age in
which we are born. Learning to balance it will
need intelligence and serious application =
education + self-discipline
We isolate ourselves from

existence
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OCTOBER 2015
like a "I-am-master-here"; the bull:
My friend you are starting your argument with
the basic mistake of defending a generalisation
with an exception. Is there really a need to
contradict me? I notice most of the discussions
that transpire are more in the nature of showingoff that I know better. This is sad.
It is an accepted fact that the human race in
general, at the present state of evolution is still
very self-centered, not using its mental faculties
and more interested in the world to "Grab" than
to give.
The entire feudal system which
psychologically still rules Indian thinking and
behaviour is behind the "Authoritarian" style of
thinking prevalent in India.
Older people do not listen do not even want
to listen. My wife does not listen. The teachers
do not listen. Bosses do not listen. Captains of
industry do not listen. Brothers do not listen. Not
listening is the norm. Exceptions exist so don't
bring them up. Nobody is listening. Minds are
closed. The only motive in every situation is:
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What can I get out of this? And we follow the

thought like a bull.
And this attitude of me and me alone shows
so well in everything we do. Take for instance
Traffic rules. They are more recognised in the
breach. Very few of the new comers even know
them. We cut in, zig-zag as if we are the only
clever ones on the road. I coined this phrase
many years ago: We are so busy being clever
that we have no time to be intelligent.
This non-listening closes doors for the young
and progress is denied - not halted.
But yes, Friends may listen. Children are ready
to listen. This momentum needs to be kept up.
What we need to see is where these denials is
happening and try to open doors by first
accepting the fact that change is required.
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The Relationship Tangle

SEPTEMBER 2015
No relationship is without fault, so forgive and
forget the small stuff. Perfection is overrated.
You'll never get anywhere if you don't have an
independent thought in your head. Start being
original, today, instead of just tagging along
after others, no matter how comfortable that has
become.
Humans in general have not learnt this lesson
as yet. It surprising that with all the saints, wise
men and Avatars who are helping us, nothing
has reduced the violence in humans as yet.
And by violence I mean the petty show of
strength that we are indulging in all the time in
petty things in our life besides the more violent
manifestations.
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Old people can be so frustratingly inflexible

exceptionally if they have been in a position of
authority.
There is arrogance of knowing. There is
arrogance of being the owner - of having run
things since last many years and being certain
that only they as head of the family know
anything about anything. They can be terrible,
rigid and intractable.
They have nothing to lose. They stop learning
and stop others from doing too.
Then there are those, who learn, who see
further than the young ones but decide it is not
their affair and go into retreat. There are those
who forsake their authority and do not speak up
when they should.
Why can old people learn to withdraw and let
the newer generations experience it for
themselves? Whatever happened to the theory
of Sanyas when your work is done and let the
younger ones take over?
Let others be. India is a mess because this is
one thing that does not happen in our crowded
living and brain-washing.......for instance: that
you have to obey parents, elders, be nice, help
others, husband is your god, guest is god etc.
Have people become kinder? No and selfishness
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abounds taking advantage of the kindness

around.
We impose so much on the psyche of the
young that they never learn to think or care. I
openly say that our people are four year olds
that have turned 40. And unfortunately it is
passed on from generation to generation.
It is fantastic how billions of people together in

India can live as if they are alone and there is
nobody around them.
It is a vicious circle of crowded living in which
very early in life one learns to NOT LISTEN. This
creates a need for more shouting and noise to
get heard accompanied with expletives and
irritation reaching boiling point most of the time.
This makes us even more selfish in our attitudes
so we protect ourselves and our things with
greater vigour making it necessary for others to
find creative means to enter into our
consciousness. This leads to cheating in words
and acts and makes us even more vary.
Everyone keeps on enclosing oneself in tighter
and more compact chambers. Keeping away
from too many people is required as vibrations
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from others, direct or indirect if allowed to

influence your life can only mess up your life.
It is like information overload. No value in it.
Too much sticking to humans or depending on
others or being lazy in pursuing one's own life is
damaging to one's persona. It is like living in a
cauldron always on the boil
Let us never forget that it is not an
ideal/perfect world we are living in. Vampirical
elements run wild in all of us. In some, a bit
more than others. In many they have managed
to exercise full control.
This sentence of mine has not gone down well

with many of the Indian crowd.
India is a mess because this is one thing that
does not happen in our crowded living and
brain-washing.......for instance: that you have to
obey parents, elders, be nice, help others,
husband is your god, guest is god etc. Have
people become kinder? No and selfishness
abounds taking advantage of the kindness
around.
I am as usual being blamed for being a true
Indian. That I am trying to sow dissent and spoil
the tradition of India and that I am against
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Indian culture; speaking against my own country.

Well, keep your eyes closed and bumble on. Let
us stay tied to the milling-stone, resist change
and hang on to our comfort zones. That is
exactly what our parents want. And if listening to
them is the first law, then there is nothing more
to be said. But then I ask why are you asking for
jobs, better roads, toilets, internet, better
connectivity and all? Let the parents take care of
it all. And when you will also be a parent and on
your own, you will realise, that you did not take
up cudgels when you should have and then in all
probability you will hide your indolence behind
tradition and keep on. But still, shall we not
consider what other possibilities we have? Being
aware is no crime. Helping others, ourselves and
the country by constructive change is what we
want but then we cannot do this without some
dissent, by taking in the new parameters in life
and make the change we are so volubly asking
for. Yet why do I feel I am asking for too much in
a country where original thinking is decried and
effort is put in staying back stuck than the other
way round.
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Clever enough to baby

along.
SEPTEMBER 2015
Why the young are careless and do not care
for the older generation?
This carelessness attitude is the direct result
of their upbringing. This happens only when the
young have NOT been allowed to live joyfully. We
are a very "helicoptering kind of people in India.
Our attitude to our children is of total imposition
in thought and action. We know what is best for
them and we are going to do it whatever comes!
It begins with Mummy knows best, later it is
Papa knows best and as papa controls the purse
strings he demands total obedience. Then
together it is What will they think? Kids are
clever enough to baby along. They understand
perfectly well which side the bread is buttered.
What parents never realise that they are being
taken for a ride. The child learns to behave and
act to please the parents and nothing more
matters. The rest he hides away and masters the
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art of lying. This is the beginning of the rift which

will show later and come out in the open. It is no
wonder that our young people are never fully
conscious of anything, specially the
responsibilities that go with living. They are
made to flow with the flow and they happily do it
later on all thru their lives because they are
wired that way. As to parents, it never occurs to
anyone that parents will need help. Anyway by
that time parents ripe old age the rift between
them and the children is where the children wish
to avoid them at all cost. We impose so much on
the psyche of the young that they never learn to
think or care. I openly say that our people are
four year olds that have turned 40. And
unfortunately it is passed on from generation to
generation. Education and exposure to the world
now through digital technology has raised the
age to about 12ish in a growing number but the
helicoptering remains a strong factor. Even
when the parents are old, they are unable to
retire mentally or withdraw and that makes the
position untenable; life is not easy anyway for
the younger ones who have to earn a living and
have children of their own to manage, having
been burdened with a family at an early age most often under the pressure of parents..
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MY SAFETY IS "YOUR" CONCERN The problem

of India has been its multiplicity and naivete.
Here we see a bike, mechanised 2 wheeler and a
lorry/truck merrily going about. No safety or
safeguards in mind. Wishful thinking is at work
for we know since the day of birth that others
will care for us. It never enters our thinking mind
that we are better off to be a little more
conscious of our actions and whereabouts.
Our safety is everybody's concern except ours.
There is a childish selfishness at work where we
feel we have priority and we shall manage to go
through where others are stuck like idiots and
squeezed into corners where accidents of the
rather hurtful kind then happen. It is unending. I
don't see anyone learning from experience. The
feeling I get is that there is a resistance to
learning, because learning means being careful
and vigilant.
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Who cares?!
SEPTEMBER 2015
When people talk of the world from moralistic
standpoints like in absolutes:
Love will win all
Parents always do for your best
Mothers love their children
Brothers and sisters are closest and life-long
friends to each other
Bosses are impartial
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Wives are loving

Medicine is practiced for the general good
People are honest and basically ethical
Kings think about the welfare of their people
.......and so on so forth,
I put my head in my hands and despair of the
human race.
Why are they afraid to look at the truth of
things?
Only Love & Sincerity & Gratitude & Affection
& Fairness is to be seen in this world, because it
suits our personal agendas? Or is it our inflated
sense of virtue pretending? Or are we fooling
ourselves?
Most of these traits are more obvious by their
absence. People have not been able to rise
above the basic Ten Commandments as yet and
yet we talk of Brahman, Nirvana and what else.
We try to explain away and butter-coat and
sugar-coat the truth that we all realise with
philosophy and deem the negative traits as an
aberration and logically try to prove that in their
own self-interest no one would be otherwise. The
plain truth is absolutely the opposite. Once we
accept the fact that we are liars, dishonest and
tend to hide our deepest feelings & thoughts,
the entire system of justice and such would
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cease to have value. We are good generally

speaking. Specially under duress of lifes
demands and our own needs. And our
selfishness has taught us that being good, kind
and sharing is needed in our self-interest. Had it
not been so, and where opportunities arise, our
wolfish nature always raises its head like a
serpent.
Attraction, Distraction, Temptation, Seducing,
Selfishness, Empathy, Sympathy, Psychopathy,
Brutishness, Bullying, Blackmail, Human
trafficking, Slavery, Chicanery, Charades,
Cheating, Lying, Greed just dont exist because it
is inconvenient to our plans and wishful
thinking?
Are they good for you?

SEPTEMBER 2015
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You can divide people in two broad categories.

One who revel in human contact and like
submissive ones around them to boss around.
Second are the submissive ones who prefer to
give charge of their lives to others.
Both are parasites and no good in the end
comes of it on the material worldly plane
although the evolutionary cycle is dependent on
this to create the catastrophes that create the
stresses that teach and change.
Too much sticking to humans or depending on
others or being lazy in pursuing one's own life is
damaging to one's persona. It is like living in a
cauldron always on the boil.
Keeping away from too many people is
required as vibrations from others, direct or
indirect if allowed to influence your life can only
mess up your life.
It is like information overload. No value in it.
But it can easily become an ingrained habit from
day one. One may have been impregnated with
this attitude and one may be so comfortable in it
that it would never occur otherwise.
The answer lies in surrounding oneself with a
very selected group of the most positive types if;
that is if first, one even recognises this as
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reality/truth/necessity or whatever you may call

it.
Say it & be done with it!

AUGUST 2015
The most difficult people to team up with are
the honest, totally conscious-of-their-acts kind of
liars. Whatever they say they say for the
moment. Their intentions have neither past nor
future. They say what they feel is the best thing
to say under the circumstances of the moment
with no real intent behind the words. The second
it is spoken, it is also forgotten. It is like a play of
making soap bubbles to them. Words to these
people mean nothing but a means to reach
wherever their bread is best buttered, eat it and
move on. Paying for the bread and butter was
never in their intentions. Worse, they are
buttering the slice on both sides. It is another
matter that these people usually did mean what
they said but it happened to be only in that
moment. Other priorities and possibilities, more
alluring soon take over. On mature thinking, they
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would have realized that their promises cannot

be fulfilled. Then if you get the opportunity to
confront them, you will receive another set of
beautiful lies. Until you stop and drop them from
your list of people and start giving them your
own set of lies in the future.
It seems such a waste of opportunity to do
something together and make the most of the
moment!
There is a young lady who occasionally comes

in for dusting. She is charming, so naturally
sincere and enthusiastic jovial that we dont
really want anyone else to come in her place.
She keeps on promising to come and then never
does always smiling and happy to us and even
come home once in a while to tell us that she
will come on the morrow but never really does.
Her diary of engagements is so full! I think she
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would like to come but she calculates her time

badly and never really finds the time to fulfill her
promise but then perhaps she is just being
clever to keep the doors open so that she if she
ever is in a position to need us.
How will it hurt to say the truth to each others
faces? It will hurt for a second nut life we all
know goes on. Just imagine what this would do
(and has done and is always doing) in a
marriage and business.
Personally I think what bugs me most is the
time that is wasted and the arguments that
ensue; the heartburn and anger that is given
birth to. The hopes raised and dashed. This
behavior is recipe to end relationships but why
do it with bitterness? Are niceties of the moment
so important? Nobody can be so stupid as to not
see that irritation, bad-blood is being given birth
for no bloody reason! And it is so simply
irrational to think that we shall never need
others in our lives...!!
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What is not right and what

OTHERS should be doing
AUGUST 2015
It is fantastic how billions of people together in
India can live as if they are alone and there is
nobody around them.
It is a vicious circle of crowded living in which
very early in life one learns to NOT LISTEN. This
creates a need for more shouting and noise to
get heard accompanied with expletives and
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irritation reaching boiling point most of the time.

This makes us even more selfish in our attitudes
so we protect ourselves and our things with
greater vigour making it necessary for others to
find creative means to enter into our
consciousness. This leads to cheating in words
and acts and makes us even more vary.
Everyone keeps on enclosing oneself in tighter
and more compact chambers. To the point where
they even dont see moving cars or even more
astoundingly wives forgetting they are married
and there is perhaps a husband in the house!
I fail to see how India will ever grow and how
to break this logjam.
The more I see of India and Indians the more I
am convinced that we are great debaters. We
know exactly what is not right and what OTHERS
should do. We on the other hand are perfect (our
mothers said so) and as we know exactly what
needs to be done we not only dont have to pay
to attention to dumb bums all around us, we are
the only one who can do anything.
It is another thing that all is the governments
duty and so we should not meddle in it in
anyway.
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Michael Omdevaji Perring. this is correct. You

aim for samadhi and leave out the Yamas and
Niyamas and how do I convince someone what a
rubbish bin is and how to use it when they have
never used a rubbish bin and would not know
what one was?
A Spoonful of Medicine
AUGUST 2015
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If you take a bird's eye of humanity, it is

sadder to see how much pain we inflict, losses
we incur.....and worse.... no amount of warning
or experiences seems to change or dent
anything in their inconscience levels. Like into a
deep black bottomless hole, everything goes
and gets lost. - Wont learn from experience. Wont study on their own. - Wont learn from
others. - Insist on proving oneself right - Expend
all their energies in NOT doing. - Look for
scapegoats & adopt violence to prove a point.
People want to be appreciated and not really
loved. Human Loving is a little overwhelming.
Loving does not need to be told or cannot be
dramatised with superficial activity. That would
be like following the book of etiquette and being
polite.
oh it does need to be told - at the earth level
we are still required to tell. But in its essence it
works out to be appreciation
Be Kind.
If being kind is not in your nature, at least
dont be bitchy to prove a point.
In this ephemeral point of time in this pinpoint of a place, it is accepted that you are in
control, indispensable and you can create much
damage if your amour-propre is hurt.
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But then all this exhortation is so worthless. It

will only aggravate and irritate the tendency
when proving a point is the thing to be done.
When one wants to deliberately hurt, where is
the place for kindness there?
We can trouble ourselves by reading too much
into everything and ignoring that is so clearly in
front of us.
My experience is that love has very little to do
with anything in this world as it is today
People are taking too much pride in their
stupidities and today's possibilities allow
everyone to be heard.
Too much of "rights" being exercised in being
sensational.
Societal niceties require that we pamper their
egos a bit; what else can we do?
When we need their services and they will
accept no other payment.
All the wise men tell us: Live by the truth of
your being (whatever that means). Speak the
truth. Forsake pretence. But then you move out
and meet people and you realise either in Rome
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you do as the Romans do or go and live

elsewhere.
I get answers because I have questions.
People don't have questions but they do have
a lot of wishes.
No wonder they don't get answers.
They say they pray for answers but their
prayers are also wishes.
I don't see much happening there either.
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Cutting edge living

AUGUST 2015
Why should anyone want to bring in change?
They went out in life to feather their nest. Not
ours.
People are so selfish, self-centred and myopic
that it belies our faith in human intelligence.
Why should they or anyone. Are we forgetting
that we are here for ourselves alone?!!!
It is a sad fact that those who care for society
are so scared of it that they normally stay away
from getting too involved because the chances
of getting bashed up are awfully high.
Wanting to be alone is the first wish of a
person on the path of "Individualisation".
Today technology gives us this possibility and
economic possibilities make it easy to create a
private reclusive corner even in bustling cities.
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But in the long run, is this good?

Humans as a rule need the stress of contact of
other humans under duress to thrive and grow
as a strong, resilient, self-controlled, superior (as
Confucius would say) individual.
Things have been going in the wrong
directions since the Asuric forces have been
trying hard for domination in the last 1oo years.
The human mind lends itself to manipulation
easily. It is a soft target and mayhem has been
brewing through it. The western mind through its
arrogance about its knowledge and partial
expertise in certain domains has been a
particularly easy fertile ground to sow disruptive
seeds. They are so continuously afraid of the
natural process.
Freud and Jung although great personalities
put the "understanding" levels of humans on the
wrong track. Understanding of medicine and
human psychology got totally superficialised.
All these concepts that today have given us a
disrupted, disturbed and distressed humanity
can be seen in the discoveries received by
mankind in the first part of the last century and
brought to perfection in the last 70 years.
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....and most of us try to change others - that is

recipe for disaster. In relationships the word
tolerate is more operative than love and
understanding
It cannot be a this or that. There is some
corresponding mutual response of some kind in
all relationships.
Humans as a general rule are still at an
evolutionary level where everything happens at
a mutual benefit level - there is give and take.
There is nothing wrong or right. Technically
everything is in the right place.
But love although it exists freely in the earth's
consciousness it is not operative in a big way in
the human. Compassionate forgiving behaviour
comes with difficulty to most of the general
populace. Our instinct to thrash others be it
verbally, physically or other means comes more
easily and naturally.
It is another matter that occult laws of tit for
tat are at work but for some reason humanity
has learnt nothing from the past and that is what
surprises me most in this life.
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Enhancing the Joy of Living

AUGUST 2015
I have this certainty on which I base my
thinking, activity and relationships: That the
human race now needs to take the next step...
which is learning to act and think from the
Intuitive plane. I see a lot of energy being
panned away in talking of great philosophical or
religious concepts and arguments being bandied
about with great gusto. The ills of the normal
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mentalised life and its existence are not going to

be corrected by using the minds logistics. It is
like making a truck/lorry fly (although it happens
so easily in comic cartoons that my child sees on
TV). If we look within we have some character
flaws and some character plus points. The flaws
need to be corrected using the plus points like
self-control, intelligence and all the education we
have had to see where we are lying to ourselves
and where we are usually contradicting
ourselves. Sincerity is the key. This is the next
step to be taken. The rest will unfold of itself by
The Grace.
We are all born great in some respects. But
dont get way-laid by many of the short positive
advice givers who say that you are already
perfect. We do have the potential of becoming
perfect Beings but not without effort and as the
time is rather short on this earth and our
subconscious extremely tenacious and refusing
to budge, the path to perfection becomes a little
complicated and arduous. In every lifetime,
there is a particular lesson to be learnt. This is
our destiny operative in this lifetime. And to
achieve this end we come, loaded with some
positive points and many negative traits that are
usual to the human race. But very particularly
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you will notice everyone has one great particular

attribute and one equally negative one. Between
these two our life gets played out. The positive
attribute is always the instrument getting us out
of trouble that the negative one is getting us
into. And certain patterns in life keep on getting
repeated until the lesson, whatever is loaded in
the program plan of Destiny has been learnt
properly. A guru if at all, is needed like the
teachers in school, to shorten the duration the
learning process.
There is a vast difference between theory and
application. The philosophical explanations may
sound grand, virtuous and full of wisdom but it
does not change the ground reality at the
individual level. We are all mixtures with the
same elements but operative at different ratios
and mixed with different agendas. Philosophy
does not help much in day to day interactions.
What is needed here is Applied Psychology.
For instance to make my point clear - Consider
the instance where you are being bullied. It is
nearing 5 at the office, time to go home and the
boss arrives from a meeting and asks you to
stay and finish his report. You may seethe inside
but you do it. What can you do? Philosophy may
make you and help you accept the situation but
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not help you to avoid the situation. For that you

need a pragmatic approach, understanding of
the factors involved, self-control to act
appropriate to the situation as would be done by
James Bond without reacting emotionally so that
it would hopefully "kill the snake and not break
the stick".
Now that we are on this subject, another thing
that has always taken me with giggling surprise
is the fact that everyone wants to explain to me
what I am saying.
Then given a chance they want to help. Totally
and completely selflessly of course.
Which translates itself into letting them
control my life.
I must say that without being aware I was also
in the same mode.
My stint in the Ashram atmosphere did not
remove it. It is later when I started working with
Europeans and made close friends there that I
learnt about this tendency.
It is from Danish friend that I learnt about the
constant complaining that we are into.
From My French friend I learnt to not try to
control others, manipulate others into doing my
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work and leaving the other to find his own way

of doing things or explore and experience life.
Lost in my fortress
AUGUST 2015
Intellectual development has not made a more
humane humanity. Why?
Whenever and wherever humans have been
given the power of knowledge and information
the first movement that arises in their beings is
of entitlements and selfish agrandissement. It is
but natural. Better education and training results
in sharpening of the mental tool and success
among ones class of society. Success is
normally interpreted as more wealth and power
to execute projects to ones wishes this
includes getting humans around us to do more
to suit ones whims and fancies. This is definitely
a potion that goes to ones head and makes one
arrogant, selfish and underlying natural bends
that were under warp come out without fear. A
kind person becomes kinder and a generous
person becomes even more so. Conversely
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selfishness becomes more acute and the motto

of What is in it for me takes over. The feeling
of MINE possessiveness gets coupled with
ones vanity and pride and the result is a very
explosive short sighted persona. When one is
riding the wave, it is easy to see one-self as the
only one progressing and going forward.
Arrogance makes us little. The others around
us seem to be stationary, locked in their small
mental rooms, incapable of learning new tricks
and moving with the times. It is easy to see all
the incompetent people surrounding us with
their flaws showing critically. We see ourselves
as giants among pygmies. What is usually
missed is that when with better education and
training one moves out of one social circle, one
enters a new circle that was earlier a little above
this existing station in life. In this new circle it is
easy to imagine ourselves fitting seamlessly. But
this is a fallacy. Nobody will point it out; this is
the tragedy. The art of fitting into this new circle
has to be learnt and normally one does with trial
and error. This eventually teaches a lot of things
making one go through the same process of
learning that one had undergone earlier to
change ones first station. Some people do it
gracefully. Others just manage to hang on. Many
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fall flat on their faces and depression becomes

their lot.
Today digital technology has given a power
and independence along with motor power of a
colossal nature. Is it surprising that we are
seeing the arrogance side of human nature more
in prominence? People are becoming
unapproachable except thru monetary
considerations. Mutual existence is no more a
dependency. When our item is in demand; who
needs the world?
But love although it exists freely in the earth's
consciousness it is not operative in a big way in
the human. Our instinct to thrash others be it
verbally, physically or other means comes more
easily and naturally. For some reason humanity
has learnt nothing from the past and that is what
surprises me most in this life.
Racism and Caste, Creed &

Colour
29 June 2015
It is a specific problem created by humans,
maintained by the humans and cannot be solved
unless the humans so will it. They will have to
raise their level of consciousness to incorporate
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gratitude and compassion which I do not see

happening anywhere in the world with the larger
percentage of humans. Until we learn to live in
the intuitive realms, our learning uses us thru
the subconscious and we are puppets.
I believe most of our mythological history,

stories and scientific discoveries started in Crete
or around and Egyptian /Middle Eastern lands.
Indian genius may have refined and upgraded it
all but it is not the cradle of civilisation as we are
apt to believe. The origins of the snake, bull,
many terms have imprints from there long
before our time.
Look at this photo. Similar to our Nandi.
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Opportunities make possibilities. Humanity

knows it.
The first fact to be recognised and accepted is
that we humans are designed to live like
automatons. Habits rule us. We are not this idea
of ourselves that we have of being thinking and
consciously driven exalted Beings. The Being
that we think that we are is mostly in our
imagination. Try living one day with your mind
focussed on every act, action, word spoken all
done with great deliberation. You will understand
what I am trying to say. Most people cant even
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cross the road consciously. Their mind is

somewhere else if not busy with their phone. It is
surprising when you consider that your life may
depend on it. Yet they are busy with concepts of
Krishna, God and what they have said, and the
condition of the Soul, stuff like Karma and
Destiny and they spout scriptures and know
what is exactly good for you.
Anyone can spout scriptures. Have you learnt
to live the daily grind?
We want answers to our daily enigmas.
Any odd object can be converted into a God.

Our Faith sees God easily.
Yet we fail to see God in everything (and
everyone). How is that?
The secret of joy is in gratitude. Light small
lamps in your heart while you thank the Provider
for the bounty. Kindness opens the door. The key
to the door is a smile and laughter is the sound
you hear when the doors open with a bang.
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Find me true learners

26 May 2015 at 06:00
Let us focus on the insincerity of the seekers.
It is the charade they put up. Actually why we do
not change or put in efforts to change our
circumstances ( forget about our nature)....
because we settle easily for OKAY.
Is it then surprising that everything now is a
superficial put-up job to "seem", a card board
facade.
Fakes. In today's world the focus is on
"certificates". They are valued and easily
duplicated. That is why fakes abound. In an
atmosphere where fakes are given currency,
even the Gurus and Acharyas are not entirely
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genuine. There are true ones around but how do

we recognize them as they blend into the
scenery? The public in general is an ignorant
group that follows the herd mentality that is
easily influenced by the most glitzy
presentation. We have Cinema,TV, printed
colorful journals, and now digital devices.
Find me true learners but I see only the
profiteering types who wish to profit from
association with teachers, bask in the glory of
studentship but learning nothing. The question is
can we reach them to look deeper and
otherwise?
Then again why should we? Shall we interfere
with their destinies? Is that good? Life will teach
them in its own way. They are asking for it. Why
should we protect them from their learning
process? The unraveling is happening. The spiral
is on the move. We may not see the results in
our short life-spans. Our work, if we are
absolutely certain that we "KNOW", is to answer
questions in the light of our experience without
quoting others and keep our doors open to
instruct without expecting any pecuniary gifts.
Say it and do it with honesty. Sincerity shows.
So does insincerity even more so as humans
are conditioned to be on their back-foot and
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wary of words. Fakes survive on play of lovely

word images with no intent in them. They
promise and not deliver. They always have
excuses. As if anyone ever pays attention to
excuses & explanations. Jumping to conclusions
is the norm anyway.
This is the thinking process of humans. It
rarely occurs to them that they are the centre
and the reason for most of the storms they find
themselves in. We are continuously laughing and
often jeering at the world for what we consider is
folly. It never occurs to us that we may be in
error and needing shift and change in our
perceptions of things/life.
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I remember the HMT brand of watches. In our

evidently the actual buyers defected and today

It is surprising how many people plan to NOT

For all else remember

PRADEEP PK MAHESHWARITUESDAY, 3 MAY

running away, hiding or obfuscating was the

The stance of the WARRIOR knight. He fought

another matter and should be pursued too but

Austin Cole Astonishing, and beautiful. Fakir,

and treat their young with some form of violence

have or their position in the big wheel which can

could have ever imagined in the natural course

The Displeased Tyrant

tyrant is not placated so easily. This is the

The DNA Dynamics

injury if we can safely get away with it. Then we

influenced by social niceties, norms, give and

act? Is it the beauty that we are conditioned to

know where to stop. There are very few

So we end up having coffee with people we do

The worst thing that can happen to the

Fleeting Thoughts this

Pradeep Pk Maheshwari It happens around the

of the culture/stories that existed in the time at

we grew starts disappearing Humans have very

Life cannot be taken for

* Oh kindness is in plenty only the media in its

means he has more lambs for his killing

cave in the mountains and sit in the lotus pose

Anti Israel people seem to be filled with such

then reactions become excuses to hit back. The

* But we humans end up judging too much.

* Languages are likes seas. Terrifying when

The Soul of the Party

Being The arrogance of Doing The arrogance of

In any religion or teachings of a saintly

Pondering by the Pond

Often relationships last because an emotional

Very important to connect the nature in us

Wanna live like kings?

Who dares to contradict

have to clear it with accounts. This man took this

quarrels. She retorted by threatening me with

What have we finally

people are or must be! They start wondering

The haves have not shown much

The Battle-Game with Lord

stratagems life has thrown at me. It is a game

One of these when the learning cycle is

The Adventures of the

high in the hills; it had nothing to do but to sit

parted ways and the barrel landed in the river

The desperation of being

The feeling of helplessness, claustrophobia,

My First First-Aid Box

This did in my logic gave me more the reason

Now as an adult I am realizing that we collect

Yogeshwari Yogeshwari..I am sure this