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Table of Contents
Legal Disclaimer......................................................................................................................... 2
Foreword ................................................................................................................................... 4
Section One: Growth and Development .................................................................................... 6
A Satisfying Life is Good Too ................................................................................................................................................... 6
Are You Really Good Enough? ............................................................................................................................................. 8
Perfectly Imperfect ................................................................................................................................................................. 8
10 Practical Ways to Develop Self-Mastery .......................................................................................................................... 13
Live Instead of Die................................................................................................................................................................. 17
The One-Word Solution to all your Problems....................................................................................................................... 22
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Foreword
A Walk through Happiness is a work of the heart. It is the product of a love affair with happiness, a commitment
to joy that has been two decades in the making. It is a history of my discovery of those traits and characteristics
that most lend themselves to happiness.
There are plenty of reasons not to be happy. There are wars and economic difficulties. There are personal
histories of past abuse and neglect and negativity. The news is filled with car crashes and rapes and murders.
We know more about celebrity mess-ups than we do about our own next door neighbors. We live in a culture of
complaint and critique. People have made lucrative careers criticizing others and their work.
Politics is contentious at best, violent where things have escalated precipitously or over centuries. Starvation
and desolation and world poverty, disease and the like all drain us and sap us of energy and happiness.
And who could blame a person for being unhappy today?
And yet
And yet there are still sunrises and sunsets and beauty that surrounds us. There are good people doing good
things all around the world. At the center of every war and every famine and every disaster is a retinue of
people volunteering their time and means to help lift those suffering most from their suffering. Love is on the
move. It reaches into every corner of the globe.
Compassion and kindness are not dead. They are alive and well. According to the U.S. Department of labor
just Americans (only 1/5 of the worlds population!) over 26 million Americans volunteered in 2010. And
that number has risen slightly each year over the last several.
And you likely know people in your own circle of family and friends, perhaps you, yourself, who are engaged
in doing good to others for no other reason than that it is the right thing to do or from a motivation of faith or
human decency or love.
There is immense good in the world even if all the bad sells the news. Look at your own life, for example.
Think about it seriously. While you may have experienced profound pain in your life, and while you may have
been deeply abused in a variety of ways, for most of you, I bet the majority of your life has been pleasant. The
horrible days may pull all your attention from the good, but there is likely more good than bad.
And yet the bad looms largest in our minds.
But heres the point, or one of many: They dont have to! Our pasts dont necessarily equal our futures or
even our present nows. That they often do is no indication that they must. It is only an indication that allowing
them to is easier than changing that fact. But it certainly doesnt feel better!
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This, my first e-book, is a compilation of articles meant to walk you through to a life you were meant to live,
one of heart-pounding love for others, for life, for yourself. One of deep resonating joy. One of profound
appreciation for life, for all that buzzes around us every day, usually taken for granted. A life of wonder and
accomplishment, of inner peace and confidence. One of joy and one of character and one of lasting, abiding,
consuming happiness.
I now invite you on this journey of discovery. If you follow Meant to be Happy, you may be familiar with some
of the articles. They have all been reworked, however, so they are not identical to the blog, even if very similar
to some. Still, you may wish to pick and choose which article to read. This is fine. You can read cover to cover
or randomly. A Walk lends itself to either approach.
Why the title?
A Walk Through Happiness is both literal and figurative. I have selected articles and grouped them by section
in such a way as to take you on a walk through my blog, getting a taste for a good sampling of my work.
It also is a metaphor for life. So many of us get into the early habit of sprinting impatiently through life. We
forget to bend and see life from another perspective or to stop and notice that the weeds of life also produce
some pretty exquisite flowers. Productivity can be an important pursuit. Rushing isnt.
A Happy Life is learned one step at a time, at your own pace, perhaps at a jog, perhaps running, or perhaps at a
more leisurely pace, walking, if you will.
The principles and habits, the traits and techniques laid out in the pages that follow are meant to guide you
forward, one step at a time, here a little and there a little, at the pace that works best for you, but always just one
principle, one day, putting one foot in front of the other, one at a time.
So come take the next step, and walk through happiness with me. And then let me know what you thought of
the scenery as we walk together, picking up a tip or two along the way.
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But arent we all different? Dont we have different interests? Arent we motivated and
inspired and excited by different things?
What if you like your life as is without bungee cord jumps, live coal walking, and rock star lives of
incredibleness?
What if you even prefer waking up to the heart-warming mundane sameness of kids slamming bathroom doors
and wrestling in hallways every day before school?
What if you believe you are doing something profoundly important by taking them to school, visiting friends and
neighbors, cleaning your home, and loving your spouse?
What if soccer practice and dance class and piano lessons and church activities are the things that fill your heart
with warmth and joy and satisfaction?
You see, not everyone wants to climb mountains and jump out of airplanes. Some like predictability. Some
cherish peace and quiet. Some deeply enjoy the routine of their lives.
And who are we to say they are wrong for loving their lives that way?
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Joy in life is developed in part by continued growth. Stagnant living, dormant existing, plateaued lives dont
produce much happiness. But growth can look very different from one person to the next. This is the case in
part because we are all different people with different needs and priorities. But also because we choose to work
on different issues because of those priority differences.
To one person, personal growth might be simply learning the art of couponing to save money for the family.
To another it might mean taking a family walk around the block each evening to get some exercise while
spending quality time together.
To some, personal growth might mean working on a vital relationship by folding laundry together as you talk
about the day and the kids and work and home and friends and each other.
And another will be working on patience or forgiveness or gratitude or humility or self-confidence or optimism.
Not everyone will need to challenge themselves by skiing the Alps or scuba diving with sharks or taking that
barefoot climb up Mt. Kilimanjaro.
In the end, you are the one, the only one, who will ever live your life. So live it slow and quiet in a richly
rewarding peace and ignore the calls to get up and do more and run faster and build higher and grow greater, if
thats the life you enjoy. Dont apologize for it ever!
Still
Ill keep encouraging readers to rise to the occasion and live with more passion and love life and living and
experience it with enthusiasm, doing more, laughing more, loving more, serving more, carving out a life of
amazingness with deeper purpose and meaning and joy and happiness.
But if you love your life already, well then, congratulations on an on-going project done pretty darn well so far!
The point to life is, after all, to put one foot in front of the other in our own personal development journey.
If that comes in the form of swimming in a cage surrounded by hungry Great Whites, so be it. Stay the course as
you live a marvelous adventure of challenge and growth on your personal journey through life.
But if, instead, it comes in the form of learning more patience with your little one as you teach him to throw a
ball in the backyard, well then, stay that course as well and keep learning and growing!
That, after all, is the bottom line of life.
So live it well no matter how that growth is experienced.
And accept no calls to feel ashamed for such a life well lived.
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Perfectly Imperfect!
No one is perfect. Thats just the tall and
short of it. But we dont need to be perfect.
If we are walking in the right direction most
of the time, we are living a pretty decent life.
There will always be improvements to be
made. Never stop growing. Once you stop
growing, you start emotionally and
spiritually and morally atrophying.
But the movement is important, not so
much the position you find yourself in today.
But measure your growth in 6 month or year
periods of time, not in weeks or days. We
will fall and stumble and get stuck from time
to time. If we look at our growth in too short
a time lapse, we will more likely see the
stumbles and the scraped knees rather than
the growth that comes as a result of those
challenges.
So take a more distant perspective as we
measure our new selves against the
backdrop of our old selves.
There is a human tendency we should be
aware of, however. We tend to compare the
worst in us against the best of that trait in
someone else. We rarely measure the total
us against the total somebody else. We pick
and choose what we perceive as the best in
a variety of people and measure our
individual traits against them.
In other words, we measure our nose
against the perfect nose on one person, our
personality against the perfect personality in
another person, our parenting skills against
who we perceive as the perfect parent and
so on, never measuring up to anyone
because we are forever comparing our worst
to a variety of others individual bests.
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There are cops who abuse suspects, suspects who abuse the law, politicians who abuse power, doctors who
abuse patients, CEOs who abuse the environment and child molesters who abuse children.
We simply cant call such people good enough. Theyre not. I want them to change, to transform, to stop
abusing and hurting and robbing and selling and befouling and otherwise being very indecent people. And I
want them to stop it now.
Of course, I have no direct control over any of that indecency. But I do have control over the words I use to
describe such behavior.
To tell such people theyre good enough is to condone, even culturally enable, such indecent behavior.
Instead, lets call a spade a spade, an apple an apple, and indecent people indecent.
I know what you may be thinking: Such people are not likely reading self-improvement blogs or e-books and
are therefore not the people being spoken of.
Well, I bet we would all be surprised at the private lives of some of the readers of self-development material.
But lets assume most are not. Theres still a problem with proclaiming everyones good-enough-ness.
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We can accept our not-good-enough-ness and still love ourselves, still accept ourselves, still cherish ourselves
and enjoy being ourselves and be proud of ourselves without pretending we are more than we are, completed,
finished, done.
I dont have to be a perfect concert pianist to enjoy playing the piano and loving the instrument and like what I
can play. I dont need to rise to the level of perfection as a writer to be proud of the words that I put to paper.
Im not compelled to be the perfect anything before I can feel good about the things I do ever so imperfectly.
My lack of good-enough-ness in no way hinders the joy I have in living.
However, what of those who beat their kids and mug people in back alleys? If they were equally fine with their
imperfection, wouldnt that be a problem? Dont we want the moral barometer of guilt to eat away at their sense
of decency until they act on those prompts to change? Wouldnt we be undermining goodness by sending the
message that all people everywhere are already good enough, excusing them of the gnawing pang of guilt that
keeps enticing better behavior?
I know that my conscience is alive and well and Im thankful for it. When I fall short, I dont tell myself its
okay, Im good enough. I tell myself I have to improve and do it better next time. Having a conscience doesnt
unalterably lead to self-flagellation either. It just pricks my heart and pushes me in the direction of decency and
kindness and love and compassion.
You may wonder how readers who are depressed might be taking this. And thats fair to wonder. Wont they be
irreparably harmed by reading my argument that they may not be good enough?
I sincerely and even desperately hope not. Gladly no one is forced to read any of this and can simply stop
reading once they sense this is going in a direction that will hurt more. I hope thats not whats felt though.
There is another way to deal with the claim of not-good-enough-ness. And this is the message I want people
who are depressed or otherwise beat themselves up for their mistakes to internalize: I want them to accept their
humanness.
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Ours is not to reshape reality to make people feel good about themselves. It is to encourage the reshaping of our
perceptions to more closely fit reality.
Its to help people accurately see reality and let go of self-imposed perceptions and definitions of inferiority or
shame or self-disgust because of old scripts written by misguided parents (or whoever) and accept the reality of
their condition: an incomplete work in progress, imperfect, flawed, not yet good enough, but improving and
growing and loving themselves nonetheless.
That, it seems to me, is a healthier reality to accept and promote.
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Master: One having authority over another; one that conquers or masters.
~ Merriam-Webster
All of us are either internally or externally driven. Or we are some combination of the two. But the point here is
that the locus of control comes either from within or from without. External control is slavery. It may be
voluntary servitude, of course, but it is being subservient to a dominating influence nonetheless. We relinquish
control to the environment or to something or someone in it, enslaved to external conditions.
There are untold millions enslaved to tobacco, alcohol, porn, fame, power, anger, anxiety and fear. Others are
enslaved to the rush of being needed and so they marry alcoholics or prisoners or withdrawn people who have
no business being in a loving relationship yet.
I know high school students who spend hours and hours feeding their game addiction or Facebook addiction the
night before their final exam. They know what they should be doing, but feel compelled to feed their addiction
instead. They even deeply regret it the next day, exam on desk, pencil in hand, and only other peoples trivia
from Facebook in mind. Not that it is morally comparable to the horror of human slavery of the past, but it is a
form of slavery, none the less. Their addiction is the whip and chain that binds them and prevents them from
pursuing those things that will help them live better lives in the long run.
The other option, of course, is that we master ourselves. We find the internal locus of control and harness the
will to steer the ship of our own lives to the shores of our own choosing. Self-mastery puts us at the helm. Not
only do we choose the destination and the route to it and the number of stops and detours along the way and our
cruising speed in the process, but most importantly for our happiness, as masters at the helm of our own lives,
we can choose how we will interact with, and interpret and respond to life on the open seas.
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Its true, however, that we dont control what is in the water as we plot the courses we travel. And storms can
develop very suddenly and very unpredictably. But masters decide how they will deal with those storms and
what the storm will ultimately mean to them and how they will be affected by them.
Slaves are stuck to a predetermined course of panic or collapse, avoidance or self-denial. They dont have the
wherewithal to take charge, to make course corrections, to work through the difficulties of the moment because
they have never developed that kind of discipline.
But what if you have spent years trying to master some aspect of your life but fall short every time? What if the
will just isnt there? What if you try, then give in, almost like clockwork, predictably?
The answer is, in part, to see your will, your self-mastery, as though it were a muscle: If you exercise it, it will
grow.
Following are ways you can exercise the muscle of self-mastery until it is strong enough to overcome any selfenslaving, self-defeating trait or habit that is currently a stumbling block to your joy and happiness.
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6. Exercise. Running, walking, cycling, hiking, playing a sport, martial arts, any kind of regular workout builds
inner strength. Our resolve to act in the face of the urge to sit, to rest, to watch TV, to take the path of least
resistance, can be a great source of inner mastery. There will be times your body aches or your mind resists.
Exercising anyway can help build strong reserves of self-control. Again as with anything you do, the committed
regularity with which you do it helps as well.
7. Stop eating before youre full. The self-control necessary to do this will benefit you elsewhere in your life
too. Its been said that if you cant control how much you eat, you will not likely be very successful at
controlling other areas of your life. The urge to eat past feeling filled, comfortable, is difficult to master. Just
look at our widening culture! So work at stopping long before most of us do and you will be strengthening your
resistance against the binding condition of self-slavery.
8. Give up something you like for some set amount of time. Faithful Catholics do this every year for Lent.
Try it. Dont eat refined sugar for a week or a month. Dont gossip for a set period of time. No pizza or potato
chips for a week or two. It will strengthen your will and inner conqueror. I know people who have given up
negativity or complaining for 30 days and claim it was the best thing they ever did. Of course, you could also do
it directly with the thing youre addicted to. This way, it may loosen the grip the addiction has on you, build
your confidence in being able to conquer the thing and develop more self-discipline in the process. Three
benefits for the price of one!
9. Perform feats of difficulty. Heres the principle: To attain self-mastery over selfishness and desire, Hindu
and Buddhist and even Christian ascetics have been known to subject themselves to extreme challenges and
deprivations like going a month or longer with one arm raised above their heads or hopping on one leg for a
year or taking vows of silence or isolation or meditating by an ice-cold river nearly naked, dipping blankets in
the icy water and throwing them over their own shoulders as they meditate. Apparently, it works. Good news is
that we dont need to go to such extremes to benefit from the principle embedded in those extremes.
Heres a (fairly) practical guide to applying the principle:
Climb a mountain
Ride your bike to work for a month (you just might keep doing it!)
Run a marathon
Train for a decathlon
Overcome a fear (heights, speaking in front of others, spiders)
Read the dictionary
Go back to school and get a degree
Learn yoga
Learn a martial art
Again, the point is to do something difficult, thereby strengthening the inner over the outer being, conquering
and subduing the physical and carnal to the spiritual and moral. My list should be considered only a starting
point to begin considering ways of mastering that part of our natures and harnessing the strength that rests
dormant or underdeveloped in many of us.
10. Start small and build on small successes. The momentum each small victory will generate, no matter what
kind of success or how tiny the success might be, will build more confidence to tackle even bigger issues. This
way, step by step, you will become the master of your vessel.
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Afterthoughts
But what if you fail at every one of these 10 suggestions for building self-mastery? It really doesnt matter. It
may hurt a bit, especially for the fragile-ego types, but the very effort extended to try to complete any number of
the items on this list will itself work for your good. You may feel defeated, but try not to. You dont need to.
Most people will never do any of these things for the purpose of developing self-control. Your effort puts you in
a class of very few people in the world. Thats to be applauded!
You are taking steps, after all. Think about the alternative: You dont try. Yes, you will be much more
successful at not trying. Its easy not to. But it will take you nowhere good. The effort expended, even if you
fall short every time, will be effort well spent. It will take you perhaps only by baby steps at first, but steps
nonetheless toward your ultimate goal of self-control.
As I would not be a slave, so I would not be a master. Lincoln stated well a moral principle that the U.S. was
slow to accept in law. Lets not be so slow to accept the idea that neither should we be slaves to outside forces,
circumstances and urges. Instead, lets learn to conquer ourselves, learn self-mastery. Happiness will be had in
greater abundance because of it.
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So stop your tanning and, instead, jump in the pool of life and start swimming and splashing about!
Its a much better way to live.
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presents. Have a Happy Monday Party with your family. Thank God youve been given another day to live. Be
proud of your little accomplishments along the way to your bigger ones.
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I want to be fit (lose weight, have bigger guns, a flat tummy, maybe even a six pack, lower my cholesterol count
or blood pressure, whatever). But theres just no way I can do it! Im just too this-that-or-the-other-thing. So
really, it would be a waste of time even trying.
It would be amazing to play the violin (or guitar or drums, or paint, or write poetry or a book, or throw a curve
ball, or fix a radiator, whatever). But who am I fooling? I dont have that kind of talent! Besides, I just dont have
the time to learn.
If only I could overcome that self-defeating habit! But truth be told, theres no way I can stop smoking
(drinking, cursing, flirting, Facebooking, gambling, viewing illicit material, gossiping, whatever). Ive been
wrestling with that problem forever! So whats the use?
I want to be a better person (happier, kinder, more courageous, humbler, smarter, more compassionate, loving,
forgiving, patient, gracious, whatever). But give me a break! Ill never be those things. Plain and simple truth is,
thats just the way I am, I guess. You just cant teach old dogs new tricks!
Time after self-condemning time you have committed and recommitted, set new resolutions, made a pact and
set out to conquer your demons once and for all. And time after self-defeating time, you have abandoned the
effort to save your sanity. So much guilt and self-esteem-sapping failure. So why on earth would you ever set
out to self-destruct yet again?
Caveat: Some of us work just wonderfully with a more traditional time-lined goal setting plan. This idea is for
those who have struggled for a long time and have just about given up trying anymore.
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Reinterpreting Change
You see, by reinterpreting how you view goals and growth and change, incorporating this powerful simple
concept into that interpretive framework under which you think and function, you stop condemning yourself for
slipping up and falling down. You no longer really pay that much attention to how many times youve fallen or
for how many years youve been falling. You are not even measuring success by how close you get to your
goal, or by some arbitrarily imposed timeline. You are only asking yourself one question: Am I taking steps?
If you are not. Start. Just one.
If you are, great! You are stepping toward your goal. That is one step closer than you were the moment before
the step!
Baseball games are not won by the game. They are won one hit and one run at a time.
Mansions are not built as a mansion. They are built one brick at a time.
Success is not had in one fell swoop. It is had one step, one practice, one habit, one decision at a time.
Happiness is not had for the wanting. It is developed one principle, one trait, one step at a time.
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So, take a step. Just one. Decide what it is out of life you want and step towards it.
And then take the next step after that.
And then the next.
Final Thoughts
The point here is to start moving. Build small pockets of momentum. Along the way, assess the steps you take.
In other words, ask yourself this follow-up question: Am I taking the right steps?
Over time, hits turn into wins. Bricks turn into mansions. Steps turn into miles. And life becomes filled with
more meaning and greater happiness than ever before again, just one step at a time.
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When Life Smacks you Upside the Head, Youre Left with One of
Two Very Stark Choices
1. Lie down, just accept it, be a victim, give up, curl into the fetal position and let circumstances run over you again
and again and again as you wait for the end. Or
2. Scramble to your feet best you can, stand as tall as youre able, look your trial in the eyes and persevere while
taking steps to overcome and transcend, to learn and grow from the experience.
I invite you to begin that process of standing and facing and transcending today, right now, with the reading of
these words, if you havent already started that journey. You will learn how to better overcome, endure, and
transcend your challenges and trials and begin living once more.
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This post is the nuts and bolts of what I shared with them that evening. I was told by many in attendance that it
was tremendously helpful. If you find yourself in such circumstances, I hope it will help you too. If you are not
yet in such circumstances, the Boy Scout motto will prove a blessing to you one inevitable day: Be Prepared!
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In this way, question by insightful question, meaning and purpose can be created for why we are called to so
struggle with life.
If while going through financial difficulty, for example, you frequently lose your patience with your kids or
mercilessly criticize your spouse, then there are lessons that can be learned about what ticks inside of you.
Trials dont only build character in us, they reveal our true character to us as well.
2. Discover Meaning
There are two ways to approach making sense of your trials and pain. One is to attach meaning to it (as
mentioned in #1). The other is to discover its inherent meaning by backing up a bit and viewing your trial with a
more eternal perspective.
With celestial sight, trials impossible to change become possible to endure. ~ Russell M. Nelson
C.S. Lewis explained that our trials and suffering are ways God reaches down to build something better than the
raw materials we were to start with. I think his explanation will have value for many of you. Heres what he
said:
Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps you can
understand what He is doing.
He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you know that those jobs
needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently he starts knocking the house about in a way
that hurts abominably and does not seem to make much sense.
What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one
you thought ofthrowing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers,
making courtyards.
You thought you were going to be made into a decent little cottage; but He is building a palace.
Such an understanding of our trials can lead to renewed perseverance as we contemplate the person God (or
life) is making out of us.
The purpose of life, then, is to learn and grow. The purpose of our trials is to get us to fulfill the purpose of life.
Rather than simply passing through trials, we must allow trials to pass through us in ways that sanctify
us. ~ Neil A. Maxwell
Life is meant to test us and help us grow. That cant happen on the cool green of a grassy knoll. It only happens
in the sweat and challenge of the uphill climb. It finds us and yanks us around a bit to see what were made of,
or, more accurately, so we can discover what were made of ourselves.
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That uphill climb provides us with opportunities to build moral and emotional muscle as well. No one ever built
muscle lifting air. There has to be resistance. When we lift weights we are actually damaging muscle. The body
overcompensates as it repairs the damage making the muscle bigger and stronger. We experience that process as
larger biceps and broader shoulders and more physical strength.
Life does that too as we climb our mountains of trial and difficulty: we build moral, spiritual and emotional
muscles in the processes. So you see, the trial you are going through, while maybe not of your choosing and
maybe not even necessarily the will of God (or life or the universe), it is nonetheless an opportunity for you to
lift heavy weight and build your muscles of character and compassion and forgiveness and perseverance.
Too often, our challenges are squandered. They are wasted when we simply go through them, not learning the
lessons, not growing because of them. When we complain and whine and kick and moan and groan under the
weight of lifes difficulties, we lose the chance to put them to use, to benefit from them.
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Nothing but the rock, was the quiet answer. I heard someone near the back release an audible, Ohhhh!
And that is what we do, my dear friend. If you incessantly think about your trial, complain about it, pray on it,
cry over it, tell others about it all the time it is no different than doing what the woman did with the
rock. And you will see what she saw: Nothing but rock. Nothing but pain. Nothing but trial and difficulty.
Notice that the shape and size and weight of the rock never changed. It was only her perspective of it, dictated
by how close she held it to her face.
If you go around wearing dark sunglasses, everything will look dark and dreary. If you focus only on the pain
and suffering in life, life itself will eventually take on those same characteristics.
So take off your shades and put your stone away in your pocket and begin to notice the rest of life still buzzing
around with activity and vitality and start living yours too!
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Afterthoughts
We will all have Mountains to Climb
Some have climbed them already. Some are climbing them now.
And some haven't even spotted mountains anywhere on their
horizons yet. But mountains are there and will have to be climbed
eventually.
If you feel like you are all alone, like there is no way out and no
way around and no way you could possibly go through your
difficulties, please just take it on faith that you are not, in fact,
alone. Others have successfully walked where you are walking
now. There can be a measure of strength in knowing that.
All of us will, at some point and to some degree, feel the stab of
pain and sorrow. We will have mountains to climb and burdens to
carry and roads to travel that are difficult, long and sometimes
lonely.
But as we find meaning to our trials, keep them in proper
perspective and keep living a life of purpose and significance, our
trials will shrink to a manageable size as we learn and grow and become in this life.
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2. Empathy
The pain we have to endure helps us recognize the pain in others lives more readily. We feel for them,
remembering the pain we suffered. It is a more accurate walk in another persons moccasins. We empathize
because we can relate.
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3. Tolerance
When we experience deep pain in life, the smaller stuff can become easier to tolerate. When you have lived in a
box as a prisoner of war for 3 years, a cranky attitude from a store clerk is no big deal. Whats a sprained ankle
to a woman who has undergone triple bypass heart surgery?
4. Humility
Lifes trials can have a humbling effect on us. We realize we are not almighty or self-sufficient; that we cant
do all things at all times relying on the strength of our own backs. We come to see the interdependency and
importance of support from family and friends and God. Trials tend to soften the rougher edges of the proud.
We are brought literally or proverbially to our knees and in that position, we see the world through different
eyes. They are open to the strength and compassion of others. We often look above for strength we thought we
already possessed.
5. Inner strength
As we persevere and endure, we discover an inner strength we didnt know we had. Sure, there are breaking
points for most of us, but so much more inner power resides deep in the grit and fiber of our deepest selves than
most of us are aware of at least until life calls on us to discover it! The human capacity for enduring pain is
impressive. Of course, some never learn it because they never buckle down and try to endure it well. But when
we do, we often discover something unexpectedly strong inside.
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offense and rivalry. We see that behind it all, we are related, tied by a chord that is often too strong to sever
easily.
11. Compassion
Our hearts can be made both larger and softer when squeezed by circumstance. We can very quickly learn to
appreciate the decency of others. We remember the pain we felt and the unexpected bright light others emitted
when they showed compassion to us in our darkest hour. We empathize and then reach out to help others past
what we have found we can, in fact, endure.
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17. Perseverance
Each moment of pain is preceded by a previous moment of pain. Each moment of pain precedes a following
moment of pain. That loop can begin to feel extremely heavy and like it will last an eternity. Thats when hope
begins to fail and other more permanent thoughts of escape begin to seem preferable. It is a noble act of
profound courage in perseverance to take the next step in life anyway. And that lesson of endurance in suffering
can prove invaluable to those who have gained it on the bumpy terrain of life.
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22. The importance of living every day with purpose, joy and meaning
When we lie at deaths doorstep -- or even sit on the curb in front of the house of lifes non-lethal challenges -all the wasted hours and days and weeks of our short lives start to add up to something much more significant
than it seemed at the time. We realize so much more could have been done with those fleeting moments, but
wasnt. We regret the love we didnt express, the forgiveness we didnt extend, the humanitarian project we
never took action to begin, the lives we could have touched but got too busy to make the effort. Time starts to
acquire a sacred quality once adversity squeezes us a bit.
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Whether you have fallen in the holes of life or not, the lessons pain teaches are still lessons to be learned with or
without the stinging delivery pain provides its students. I invite you to learn them and avoid needless holes we
may otherwise find ourselves lying flat on our bruised backs looking up from.
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Childhood Pain
Have you been holding onto childhood pain? Do you harbor deep-seated resentment for the way your parents
raised you? Do you blame them for the circumstances of your life today?
Obviously, not everyone has been blessed with a happy home with patient, loving, attentive parents.
If you are one of the oh-so-many who harbor pent-up feelings toward mom or dad and those pent-up feelings
affect you today, you are not alone. Nor are you condemned to a life plagued by the energy-sapping,
happiness-stunting emotions of deep-seated anger and resentment.
Its time to let go and move on! And not because your parents necessarily deserve it they may not! At all.
But YOU do! You deserve to be free of such emotional poison. Its time to let it go and take the next step in
your personal growth.
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football, volleyball, chess, checkers, tag, whatever), when the rules abruptly get changed on you. But as you
play and try to adjust, you realize the rules actually make the game more enjoyable.
At this point, you have a few options:
1. You can mire yourself in the past and refuse to let the rules change. Every time its your turn, you
simply play the game as though the rules were as they were before.
2. You adapt to the new rules but resent the other players for ever having made you play by the more
difficult rules.
3. You let the new game become the new reality and act relieved the old rules no longer apply. It was a
dreadful game that way. And now the game has improved.
Let the game improve and play it now for what it has become.
3. Forgive Them for Being the Only Thing They Knew how to Be
Impatient, unkind and punitive parents arent impatient, unkind and punitive simply because you were
unworthy of their patience, kindness or compassion. They were that way because they are impatient, unkind
and punitive people. In other words, how you were treated is all about them, not you.
So, heres the point Im trying to make: All our parenting is done out of the context of who we are and what
we know. Each one of us is limited in giving love by the limits to our capacity to love. Your parents were
likewise limited. That understanding can lead to compassion which can lead to forgiveness.
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4. Recognize they are likely Products of Their own Parents Mistakes and Flaws
We reap what we sow. And we also reap the traits that our parents sowed as they raised us. We are
products of both parental successes and mistakes.
And while we can always learn and grow, most people seem to live on automatic pilot. So, most of us are
something within a stones throw of our parents behaviors, attitudes and habits. Likewise, mom and dad are
products of their parents parenting too. Forgive them of that.
5. Write it Down
Sometimes we burry our feelings where they fester and decay, and then begin to infect other parts of the
psyche as well.
Sometimes, like the body expelling poisons, the soul also needs to vomit emotional toxins. Doing this on paper
helps sort out feelings and make sense of things. There can be a cleansing quality to putting pain to paper too.
Its there, on the paper, all out of me now, no longer bottled up inside festering, rotting, devouring.
Be as explicit and detailed as you can. Dump everything onto the page. It may take several days to get it all
out. Thats okay; take the time.
When youre done, read it as a solemn recognition of the past. Then light the thing on fire and burn it. Let its
ashes float away on the wind or up the vent. As the smoke lifts, feel the emotional baggage float away with it.
Feel it rise with the ashes and smoke and disappear and be gone.
Or bury it or cast it out to sea. Whatever seems most appropriate to your circumstances. The point is NOT to
mail it. You are not seeking revenge or to set things straight or to establish a sense of justice by outing the
obvious. Rather, you are using the letter to pour your guts into the open, to articulate what you feel and how
the past has affected you. To put a name to the pain, to write it down as a declaration of fact, no longer
something hidden in the shadows of your own darkened memory. Thats all.
By burning or burying it, you are giving the past its due nod and sending some part of it to its deathbed too.
What part of it? The hostility and anger and hatred and all the festering, malignant ache it has for too long
wrapped itself in.
And then be done with it. I would suggest this be a one-time expulsion of pent-up emotional poison. Doing
this repeatedly can have the unhappy effect of amplifying, rather than muting, the pasts continuing influence
as you keep swimming in that polluted pool.
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redeeming qualities as well. See that in them. And commit to learning from both their strengths and
weaknesses. And be grateful for the life-lessons learned.
One of the things this does is to humanize those who may have become dehumanized somewhere along the
way. Sometimes parents are pinned to a display board like a dead insect, labeled one particular thing, stiff and
frozen in a particular stance. They become caricatures of hate and ugliness. Granted, some people live very
closely to such caricatures, but most likely, your parents were some mix of good and bad. Allow them that. It
will be easier to forgive a flawed human than a dead monster from some sci-fi movie.
8. Let the Work You do in Your Own Home be the Salve that Heals the Wounds in
Your Heart
If you grew up without love, smother your children with it. If you grew up with family secrets, dont have any.
If you grew up with harsh criticism and ridicule and impatience, then be sure to compliment, love, and
exercise patience with your children.
Let the example of decency and compassion you share with them be the focus of your emotional healing. But
be sure not to commit the sin of overcompensation. Your role here is to love, not spoil.
In a sense, you will be parenting yourself with the love and compassion you wish your parents had shown you
as you shower it on your own kids, in some way, making amends for what your parents failed to provide.
In other words, parent yourself vicariously through parenting your own children. Extend to them what your
parents failed to extend to you and allow the love flowing from you to your children to heal the wounds from
the lack of love flowing to you as a child.
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You make the decision every day to hold on or let go. Thats your decision only. Accept that as fact. Own it
completely and release your parents from the responsibility youve pinned to their shoulders for too long.
Dont get me wrong, here. I am not suggesting your past is your fault. Im saying that your present is the result
of choices you have made, as you have allowed your past to influence them.
This step is admittedly difficult, but it is empowering and liberating once its fully accepted and internalized.
I am who I choose to be. I feel what I choose to feel by choosing what thoughts I choose to harbor and how I
choose to think about things. I choose to learn ways to change my thinking and interpretations of life or I
choose not to. These are all my choices. And they are yours too.
Final word on this point: Your parents may be responsible for creating the emotional context. You are
responsible for keeping that context alive. So stop feeding it and let it wither on the vine.
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Afterthoughts
Sometimes out of a sense that justice must be served, or anger at the unfairness of how we were raised, we
keep the pain and anger center court, at arms length, always in view. Its time to stop. Its time to grow. Its
time to forgive and let go and be free!
Perhaps some of the tips listed above dont apply to you. And maybe you have tried one and it hasnt had any
effect. But remember, simply eating more spinach wont make you healthy either. It is a combination of
activities: eating the right foods in the right amounts, avoiding the wrong foods and moving your body in
particular ways for particular amounts of time and frequency. So use as many of the tips as will help in your
effort at removing the thorn of the past and freeing yourself for more joy and happiness.
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thought or plan. It is instantaneous and is an adaptation of the human body to keep it living in case a tiger
should jump from the underbrush.
Peak performances are thereby often accompanied by such releases of hormones and sugars into the body. The
only problem is the relocation of the human family away from the jungles and underbrush into the cities where
more perceived dangers are experienced than real ones.
So stress sits inside, weighing down and building up, with no apparent or immediate release available.
Get enough sleep. Your body (and often stress level) will tell you when you are getting enough.
Take vacations. Have fun. Play.
Work out. Run. Briskly walk. Lift weights. Play a sport.
Plan in advance to avoid hectic scheduling or bottlenecking activities.
Do a little at a time (work, home, whatever your responsibilities are). Break down and chunk steps to make tasks
more manageable.
Get started early (dressing, driving to work, dropping off the kids, whatever)
Meditate. Take a yoga class. Stretch. Perform relaxation exercises. Pray.
Visit nature. There is a uniquely and contagiously calming and renewing quality to the great outdoors.
Write in a journal or diary. Organizing your thoughts into written expressions, venting anger or disappointment
or hurt can be very cathartic, releasing pent up hostilities and resentments and getting to the point where there
is acceptance and peace.
Change your thinking. Learn to look on the bright side. Be optimistic, assume things will work out. Our fears that
they wont work out will add stress to the moment. Look for the good in the bad.
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Bottom Line
Some stress is not only unavoidable, it may even be important to living life well. But there are also levels of
stress, and frequency of feeling stressed that is decidedly unhealthy. In such cases, happiness is compromised.
There are ways, however, of reducing stress in the short run. The methods are generally relatively easy to
master. Long term stress, however, is more difficult to reduce because it requires lifestyle changes or tweaks in
the way we habitually think about problems and challenges and potential conflicts. Still, such changes can
occur. They are accomplished by taking small but decisive steps toward the goal.
But in the end, it really is about finding balance. So go to work developing new habits of thought and behavior
that will help you manage the stress you experience to acceptable levels. In the meantime, a little stress seems to
be inevitable and even good for us. So dont stress over feeling a little stress in your daily pursuit of a happy
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Unhappiness in 13 Steps
1. Be quick to anger. Stay angry. Be easily offended. Rage. Hold a grudge.
2. Complain. Be negative. Be pessimistic. Whine. Frown. Put others down. Put yourself down.
3. Yell. Criticize. Be impatient. Be intolerant. Judge harshly
4. Be inflexible. Demand. Nit pick. Be controlling. Manipulate others.
5. Confront. Hate. Despise. Be spiteful. Seek revenge. Be greedy.
6. Assume. Suspect motives. Doubt others. Be distrustful. Expect the worse. Look for the worse. Worry. Worry
a lot. Fear. Fear change. Fear failure. Fear criticism. Fear the unknown. Fear the improbable. Fear whats out of
your control. Be cowardly. Hide. Be timid. Run away.
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7. Refuse responsibility. Shirk work. Procrastinate. Wait. Dont try. Leave it to others. Be lazy. Watch lots of
TV. Stay inside. Look for shortcuts. Just get by. Aim low. Dont aim. Be aimless. Stay up late doing nothing.
Wake up late and do nothing. Dont set goals. Take the path of least resistance.
8. Stay away from people. Isolate yourself. Dont get involved. Shun others. Lock yourself behind a closed door
and a closed heart.
9. Blame mom. Blame dad. Blame your brother. Blame the government. Blame the majority. Blame the
minority. Blame life. Blame the world. Blame the universe. Blame God. Blame luck. Believe in luck. Wait for
luck to change.
10. Excessively drink and smoke. Take pills. Medicate your life. Be addicted. Overeat. Undersleep. Dont
exercise. Ignore your health.
11. Lie. Cheat. Be duplicitous. Be selfish. Be prideful. Dont change. Dont learn. Dont grow.
12. Lack self-control. Be insatiable. Give in to lust. Give in to urges. Give up on life. Give in.
13. Doubt yourself. Judge yourself harshly. Call yourself names. Condemn yourself. Despise yourself.
Afterthoughts
These, then, are the warning signs. They are the hazard lights and warning lights flashing on the dashboard of
life, signaling the need to check under the hood, replace the tires, realign the system, replace the filters, tune and
lube and make some serious adjustments to your life.
Some of the list of traits and practices are more cause than effect of happiness (impatience and hate). Others are
more effect than cause (frown and sleep late). Some are both in roughly equal amounts (complain and
isolation).
But all detract from or prevent happiness. The more of such traits or practices plague your life, and the greater
the degree to which they do, the more they will dampen your happiness and negate your joy.
Needed adjustments can be very difficult to make. But start. Start with just one trait. Then two. The trick is to
begin and then take the next step and then the next and then the next after that building momentum
in self-improvement one day, one principle, one step at a time.
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3. Happiness requires living differently. Happiness is dependent upon sound character. It requires developing
moral traits that affect happiness. Patience and faith must be worked on. Kindness and selflessness and
compassion and decency are all moral qualities needed to live truly happy, peace-filled lives of moral
conscience. Happy people are giving and loving, determined and humble. And that, of course, requires lots of
inner-work if we are to acquire such moral traits and overcome some of our character flaws that stand in the
way of our happiness.
Summary
Creating a richly meaningful life, for example, requires new ways of doing things (acts of service, smiling more
often), new ways of thinking about what is done (interpreting life differently, focusing on whats good about life
over whats not) and new ways of living (developing love and overcoming bad habits that depress or
disappoint).
Final Thoughts
Life is an uphill climb. Sometimes its an outright battle. Happiness is why we climb at all. Happiness will be
the reward at the end of that climb if we take the path that leads to it. But it will also be sprinkled liberally with
moments and growing degrees of joy along the way as we do the work necessary to get at it.
But the cost of a happy life lies at the heart of the person seeking it. It hides in the hidden chambers of the soul.
It sneaks behind closed doors of the human mind. It is, in fact, the byproduct of the condition of the heart, mind
and soul.
And that is the reason why the cost of happiness is a difficult one to pay. It requires regular attention and regular
effort and a degree of patience that can be extremely difficult to sustain. But you can be happy.
You can increase the joy of living. You can experience the swelling motions of a happy life as the principles of
happiness are learned and applied. It is then that the effects of such principles applied correctly can be felt as
joy and peace and a sense of confident happiness. You can rise above the obstacles to happiness and begin
living a beautiful and rewarding life if youre willing.
It is my sincere desire that you come here willing to get to work, willing to take the necessary steps to inch your
way to a happier, more fulfilling and richly rewarding life one day, one step, one trait at a time.
The reward will be well worth the cost paid. So go ahead and roll up your sleeves. Its time to get to work!
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1. Progress
An idle, listless life is an unhappy one. Happiness requires growth and improvement. The very act of improving
and developing skills or talents or your character is perhaps even more important than where you are in your
ability or character at any given moment. There is happiness in the pursuit of noble goals, even more than in
their attainment.
When we grow, we see and feel the growth, the expansive powers at work within us. We feel good about where
were headed. We are proud of the steps being taken. We are accomplishing something important, worthy,
reshaping the person inside, creating a new gift to give the world.
2. Purpose
A life of purpose and meaning is a life that matters. Its a life that is worth living. Its a life to feel good about.
Its a happier life than one that is meaningless, without purpose, that doesnt really matter much. This is not to
suggest that only certain lives lived in certain ways have worth. Rather, Im suggesting that if we dont FEEL
we matter, no amount of philosophy about the worth of souls is going to make a difference to our happiness.
So go and live a life of meaning. Do things that matter, that build and lift and create and grow. Serve others.
Make a difference. Love charitably. Do what fills your life with richness and passion and creativity and joy.
And learn to do what you must with more purpose and meaning too. Look for whats positive in what you do. If
you hate doing dishes, for example, but do them anyway because, well, you want clean dishes, then focus all
your attention on the fact that you are serving your family or keeping them from getting sick or beautifying a
corner of your home or any number of things you can concentrate on instead of the mundane act of putting
sponge to dish.
3. Perspective
How you see and interpret the world largely determines the shape and form the world takes experientially. If
you look for misery, you will find it. If you seek beauty, youll find that too. The perspective by which you
view life will create or destroy the joy of living. Both exist in this world of ours. We have murderers and those
who dive in front of busses to save little kids. We have both weeds and flowers. Roses have both the rose and
the thorn. There are winters and springs. It is what we decide to focus on that determines which fills our minds
and hearts and souls.
So focus on the good and positive. See the flower despite the thorns. Be grateful for the springs despite the cold
winters. Think about all the good and decency, the opportunity and advantage, even though there is its opposite
too. Youll be happier for it, guaranteed.
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4. Passion
A life lived with passion is a happier life. A passionless life is a listless one. It is mundane and drone and
repetitive. Granted, we can feel invigorated and excited about repeated acts of passion, but those who feel
nothing in what they do, engage in the activity without engagement. The activity becomes monotonous and lifesapping.
People who can get excited about what they do about their families, a cause, about anything live a more
rewarding life. So fall in love with what you do or find something to fall in love with. Explore life. Get
passionate about it! You will find that a more abundant life of greater passion is also a happy life of greater joy.
5. Peace
Peace comes from many sources. Theres the peace of mind that comes from living in the present, enjoying the
moment, smelling the proverbial flowers alongside lifes highway. Theres the peace that comes from destressing life through exercise and sleep and relaxation and spending time in nature. Holding grudges, being
hateful and judgmental all work against peace. Overcoming those peace-robbing attitudes and conditions will
also help restore an internal equilibrium. But there is a confident peace of mind that is uniquely the result of a
clear conscience from living true principles. And from that peace comes yet again a greater portion of
happiness.
6. Probity
A forgiving heart, decency and kindness, patience and honesty and courage are all personal ideals important to
living a life of happiness. Personal probity, ones integrity and uprightness, then, is an essential component to
happiness. Think of someone of low morals, who is dishonest, deceitful, and unkind. Sound happy? Not to me
either.
7. Prioritize relationships
There is no enduring happiness if life at home is a wreck. If you always prioritize wife or husband and kids as
2nd or 3rd or 5th or 10th, home life will be bland, at best. It will be missing the spark and zest that a happy home
provides.
But to have a fulfilling and happy marriage, for example, you must spend the time necessary to send the
unmistakable message that speaks to the heart of your spouse: You are important to me! And then follow up
that message with love and patience and kindness and tenderness and forgiveness and interest and laughter and
intimacy.
8. Play
Rest and recreation are important parts of living in a stress-filled world. All work and no play doesnt only
make Jack a dull boy, it makes him downright miserable. We need time to rejuvenate, to relax and remove
ourselves from the rat race, to prepare to be happier as we jump back into the game. Play adds fun and joy to
life. It comes as accents in the day or week or year.
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Afterthoughts
Any one of these characteristics will add joy to your life. Master them all, and the happiness you will
experience will make a heaven of the life you are currently experiencing. It doesnt matter where you are
currently in life, what youre doing or how happy or unhappy you are today. What matters is that you take steps
to move in the direction of living with more happiness than before.
As you take those steps, developing those characteristics that are part of the happiness quotient, you will begin
to feel a sort of stirring in your soul as your life opens up to increasing degrees and durations of that universally
sought-after condition
the condition of a happy life.
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Epilogue
So, you have finished the book. Now its time to put it all into action!
Are you waiting for the perfect time to begin? For the weather to clear or the children to move out?
Are you waiting for a sign or a voice or a message to tell you the time is now?
Let these words, this day, right now be that sign, that voice, that message. You can feel it in the beat of your
heart, the swelling motions in your soul. Your mind knows. Your heart knows. Your soul knows its time to
take action today. You feel it, dont you? You feel the need to take that first step in the direction of a happy life.
The truth is, its ALWAYS been time. Now is the ONLY time you have ever had. So get up and take that step.
Just get up and do it.
Dont form a committee. Dont put it under a microscope. Dont get a third or fourth or fifth opinion. Just get up
and act. Decide what most stands in the way and start chipping away at its base. Decide what you most need to
develop and start stepping your way toward it. All finish lines begin with a first step.
So do it! Take it. Today. Now. Its time.
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Your Step
Is your marriage lackluster? Change it. Today. Take the next step toward improving matters.
Is your business faltering? Change it. Today. Take the next step toward improving matters.
Is your character built on sand? Change it. Today. Take the next step toward improving matters.
Is your spiritual life isolated, distant and cold? Change it. Today. Take the next step toward improving matters.
Is happiness still an elusive unattainable dream? Change it. Today. Take the next step toward improving matters.
You know what Im talking about. There is something you have always wanted to do. Something you have
always wanted to take care of or something youve always wanted to master.
What that next step is, is less important to your happiness than that you take it, any step, so long as it takes you
closer to your potential, closer to your dreams, closer to what courses through your veins with every beat of
your heart. Once momentum is built, you will have plenty of time to figure out which steps are best and in
which order they should be taken. But for now, just move.
Now is the time.
It doesnt matter what it is. It can be a book youve always wanted to write. A business you always wanted to
start. An instrument you wanted to play. A relationship you wanted to heal. A person you wanted to forgive. A
trait you wanted to develop. Whatever it is, if its a worthy destination of itself, its worthy of your bareknuckled action to get there.
The process of getting there is only one decision away. Just one.
Will you stand up or stay seated? Will you wake up or sleep another day? Will you take action or continue to
wait and wish and age and regret?
The time is now. Stand up. Decide. Commit. Take that step.
There will always be another missing piece of the puzzle, another bit of vital information you simply must
discover first before starting.
Stop!
You know exactly what youre doing. You know its just another way to keep yourself from taking the leap off
the pier into the murky waters of what if. So stop pretending the next book or post or article you read will
finally be the point after which you begin. You already know thats a lie you tell yourself to stay on the grassy
knoll of life, immobile, unchallenged, mediocre.
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Contact Ken
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