maybe it is just apparent, but it is still your experience. Your whole life moves around
the phenomenon of the ego. It may be a dream, but to you it is so true.
There is no need to be against it. Dive deep into it, go into it. Going into it means
bringing awareness into your house, bringing light into darkness. Be alert, watchful.
Watch the ways of the ego, how it functions, how it manages at all. And you will be
surprised: the deeper you go into it, the less it is found. And when you have penetrated
to the very core of your being, you will find something totally different which is not ego,
which is egolessness. It is self, supreme self it is godliness. You have disappeared as
a separate entity; you are no more an island. Now you are part of the whole.
Osho, The Fish in the Sea is Not Thirsty, Talk #12
I teach you to be authentic, integrated individuals with immense self-respect. The word
self-respect may create doubts in your mind because self-respect seems to again mean
the ego. It is not so. You have to understand both words, self and respect; both are
significant.
Self is that which you are born with. Ego is that which you accumulate; ego is your
achievement.
Self is a gift of existence to you. You have not done anything to earn it, you have not
achieved it; hence nobody can take it away from you. That is impossible because it is
your nature, your very being.
Ego is all that you go on accumulating through education, manners, civilization, culture,
schools, colleges, universities You go accumulating it. It is your effort, you have made
it, and you have made it so big that you have completely forgotten your real self
To know the real self is enough: the ego falls flat on the ground without any effort to
surrender it. Unless the ego falls on its own, without your effort, it is not going to leave
you. If you make effort to drop it, and that is what surrender is All the religions teach
surrender, hence I say they dont understand even the very basics of psychology. Ego
It will appear very paradoxical, but this is true before you can lose your ego, you must
attain it. Only a ripe fruit falls to the ground. Ripeness is all. An unripe ego cannot be
thrown, cannot be destroyed. And if you struggle with an unripe ego to destroy and
dissolve it, the whole effort is going to be a failure. Rather than destroying it, you will
find it more strengthened, in new and subtle ways.
This is something basic to be understood the ego must come to a peak, it must be
strong, it must have attained an integrity only then can you dissolve it. A weak ego
cannot be dissolved. And this becomes a problem.
In the East all the religions preach egolessness. So in the East everybody is against the
ego from the very beginning. Because of this anti attitude, ego never becomes strong,
never comes to a point of integration from where it can be thrown. It is never ripe. So in
the East it is very difficult to dissolve the ego, almost impossible.
In the West the whole Western tradition of religion and psychology propounds,
preaches, persuades people to have strong egos because unless you have a strong
ego, how can you survive? Life is a struggle; if you are egoless you will be destroyed.
Then who will resist? Who will fight? Who will compete? And life is a continuous
competition. Western psychology says: Attain to the ego, be strong in it.
But in the West it is very easy to dissolve the ego. So whenever a Western seeker
reaches an understanding that ego is the problem he can easily dissolve it, more easily
than any Eastern seeker. This is the paradox in the West ego is taught, in the East
egolessness is taught. But in the West it is easy to dissolve the ego, in the East it is very
difficult.
This is going to be a hard task for you, first to attain and then to lose because you can
lose only something which you possess. If you dont possess it, how can you lose it?
Osho, My Way: The Way of the White Clouds, Talk #8
Osho,
What can we do from our side to surrender the ego, when this wanting to surrender it is,
in itself, an intrinsic part?
The ego is a puzzle. It is something like darkness which you can see, which you can
feel, which can obstruct your way but which does not exist. It has no positivity. It is
simply an absence, an absence of light. The ego does not exist how can you
surrender it? The ego is only an absence of awareness.
The room is full of darkness; you want the darkness to leave the room. You can do
everything in your power push it out, beat it out but you are not going to succeed.
Strangely enough, you will be defeated by something which does not exist. Exhausted,
your mind will say the darkness is so powerful that it is not within your capacity to dispel
it, to expel it. But that conclusion is not right; it is German, but it is not right.
Just a small candle has to be brought in. You dont have to expel the darkness. You
dont have to fight with it that is sheer stupidity. Just bring in a small candle, and the
darkness is not found anymore. Not that it goes out it cannot go out, because in the
first place it does not exist. Neither was it in, nor does it go out.
The light comes in, the light goes out; it has positive existence. You can light a candle
and there is no darkness; you can blow out the candle and there is darkness. To do
anything with darkness, you will have to do something with light very strange, very
illogical, but what can you do? Such is the nature of things.
You cannot surrender ego, because it does not exist. You can bring a little awareness, a
little consciousness, a little light. Forget completely about the ego; concentrate totally on
bringing alertness into your being. And the moment your consciousness has become a
flame, concentrated, you will not be able to find the ego.
So you cannot surrender when you are unaware and you cannot surrender when you
are aware. The ignorant cannot surrender. And the wise man cannot even think of
surrendering it, because it does not exist.
Ego is a mirage it only appears to be. And when you are fast asleep spiritually, it is
tremendously strong; naturally it creates problems for you. Your whole misery is created
by it, your tensions, your anxieties. Your ego brings the whole hell into your life.
Naturally you want to surrender it. And there are religious priests, teachers all over the
world telling you how to surrender it.
Anybody who tells you how to surrender the ego is an idiot. He does not know anything
about the nature of the ego, but he will look rational to you; he will be convincing. He will
be appealing because he is speaking your own thinking aloud. He is your spokesman
this is what your mind says. He is more articulate than you are, and he brings all kinds
of supportive arguments and proofs and quotations from scriptures, and they all say,
Unless you drop the ego you cannot attain to self-realization. Naturally, nobody
objects to such people.
But I say unto you that the reality is just vice versa: it is not that you surrender the ego
and the self-realization happens, no. The self-realization happens first, and then you
cannot find the ego.
That is its surrender.
Osho, The Osho Upanishad, Talk #28