Friday, October 7th, 2016, 5:36 PM,

I'm not buying into the whole reverse psychology myth that would have America believe it's jealous
of Japan. We're not. We're paid 10 times more and working conditions are a thousand times better, even
when you're working out of you're parents' house. And a lot of the writing of the more satirical shows is
better. I can easily match the writing level of the best written anime of any time period of the last
century, including Gundam and Ghost in the Shell. Bottom line, Japan wants money for their work so
badly, they'll never make as high of a salary as Artists and Auteurs in America do.
Also,about Kristy. Kristy isn't better than me at anything, especially not now. She's not better than me
at comics or anything like that. But she WANTS TO be better than me. See, she's very envious off the
fact that I'm a renaissance artist and do many non comics things better than her, of which she has no
actual knowledge or ability. Apparently she just wanted to surpass my ability at something, you know
beat me at something so she could have something to brag and pride herself at beating me at
something, anything.
Also, I don't really have a desire to work in or with Japan. They have no real budget, so it's impossible
to work comfortably with them, and there's so much customs to deal with, it's really more of a pain in
the ass than anything. Not as bad as dealing with my in-laws and step brother and sister who never
pick up their child when he cries, but it's up there.
My reputation isn't really up there or anything. It's nothing to brag about, and it's not profitable. Is that
normal? A good reputation is something profitable. A good reputation is a brand. My reputation was
damaged by the media more than usual, and as a result, so was my brand. There's nothing you can do if
your brand has low status

The Sly Gang

Somewhere deep in desolate valleys of rural China, lies a small community of animals. And within this
community gathers together a group of rebellious youth. Freedom Fighters and Friends. Their leaders, a
wolf, and his best friend, a sly girl leopard cat .

It happens a surprisingly large amount of time. Little sexually confused adolescent manga-ka girls way
lower down on the status bar and food chain than me, who don't even seem to be aware they're less
powerful by over a thousand point try to get closer to me by drawing themselves hitting on me in a
sarcastic way so it seems like I'm hitting on them when I don't even know who they are, nor would I
waste my time talking to them or flirting with them the way they attempt to do with me. What a waste
of everbody's time. Little 13 year old girl games. It's disgraceful.
As for End Times, the series page total numbers in the mid 60s. The original Ninja Turtles series ranges
in the early 40s. Ninja Turtles and End Times are pretty evenly matched so far. Mine is slightly more
crisper of art, if not more clear of storytelling.
Current Influences: Osamu Tezuka, Andreas, Kevin Eastman, Peter Laird, Yoshihiro Tatsumi, Hiroaki
Samura, Jhonen Vasquez, Tim Burton, Katsuhiro Otomo, Dave Sim, Yoshitoshi Abe, Thomas Romain,

Frank Miller, Jean Giraud, Jeff Smith

Monday, October 10th, 2016, 12:48 PM,
There. Made a new submission to a comic book company around 12 minutes ago this morning. I
submitted 7 file attachments, to Drawn and Quarterly.
I find going on journeys and fieldtrips on the Florida roadways with Mom and dad is both a great
reducer of stress and it improves my cartooning abilities by serving as a form of recreation and
escapism from the house.
Friday, October 14th, 2016 7:37 PM
My parents house has exactly 1 working toilet, 3 hyperactive kids, 2 hyperactive adults, and 7
sociopaths.

Monday, October 17th, 2016, 11:54 PM,

Special interest writing is so pretentious and annoying. Same with writing aimed specfically at
minorities. As if such a form of literature structure was even possible or necessary. It's possible to make
words on a page. Not give it a skin color, ethnic and cultural background, and race. Any factual
information about my DNA and background is all lies and deception of my own creation and cunning,
to reveal the hidden racism in those who might attempt to categorize me on looks alone, henceforth
likely placing in me in the wrong category. Or is it. But what is a category? What is a niche or genre,
and where exactly do you draw the line, if at all. Remember last time I got myself mixed up in a
literary genre BEFORE racial and age categories? It went by the name manga, and it was pretentious,
biased, deceptive, and racist as all fuck. That's what I get for getting involved. A punch in the face fifty
times over till my eyes bleed.
Genre = Elitism, Isolationism, Exclusionism, Racism, Discrimination, Competition, Pretension,
Rhetoric.
Who am I? Don't ask me about names please. I hate those. I'm a person, not a name. I'm a bestselling
manga-ka, cartoonist, and nonfiction author.
Rivals: To the Ends of the Earth
There was once a duo of rivals, born on separate ends of the earth. Born to
fight one another. One born into privilege, the other struggle. This is their
Quest to Kill Each Other. Even if they must travel to the end of the earth
preparing over entire lifetimes to do it.

Recently, I'm having some life affirmations. I'm starting to realize I'm a real author and a real public
figure, and take myself more seriously as those social roles, even If my step mother, sister in law, and
step brother don't because they fear life change.
End Times on Comic Fury isn't going away anytime soon. Leaving possibilities open for deadlines and
hiatuses.

Ego strength kicking in. I crap on regular publishing, man. Regular publishing is for artists who are
horrible entrepreneurs and who don't know how be their own editors properly.
In October of 2016, I began experimenting in a Windsor McCay style fashion, with the lengths of
vertically and horizontally narrow panels, lengthening them, and jam packing more line textures and
compositions into them. This naturally takes quite a bit of work and concentration or focus to do
successfully.
Being a Rock Star Webcomics Artist is wild. Doing the impossible, achieving bestselling manga
cartoonist status online, feels really good and satisfying. But it comes with feelings of loss of my
previous life in obscurity and loneliness, feeling like there's nobody really like you. And there isn't.
Manga Monopoly Page Rates
Standing on the Shoulders of Giants
The two most prolific professional Japanese manga-ka in the world, Osamu Tezuka and and
Katsuhiro Otomo, both had a page rate and deadline they adhered to like mailmen. 20 pages a
week. Doesn't even seem like that much work if you use enough computers and energy drinks
and have enough music, quiet, and focus. I'm on the cusp of reaching the 20-pages-everyweek-or-day.

If you're going to draw a comic story, you have to draw it from the ground up: Background, Character
Design, Props, Lighting, Action, Dialogue, Camera Angles. These elements exist in and of themselves
and don't really just belong in one book. You kind of have to work from scratch and do some initial
story sketches that represent scenes in the story with characters or props or rooms in a house or
building, or a city street with cars and windows and backgrounds. It's a process of elimination. Most
art books teach bullshit. It's infinitely more useful to put pencil or pen tip to paper and keeping it in
motion.

When I want South Florida cultural social event, I call Phil.

When I want a Juggernaut Built for TV, I call Sav and Thomas.
When I want an amazing male voice, I call Steve.
When I want beautiful Franime and BD I call Rayart.

These are my professional friends.

I want to be the Osamu Tezuka of the American comics 21st Century.
That means at least 4,000 comics drawn in the next ten years, which shouldn't be too difficult if I'm
really focused.
Thomas Romain
The Rock
Jhonen Vasquez
Bruce Lee
Kurt Cobain
Stephen King
JK Rowling
George RR Martin

New Strategy, I can't wait for Tom Cruise family to leave in order to resume creative operations. I'm
going to have to figure out how to maintain my current level of vitality, strrength, and momentum with
the Dursleys and Tom Cruise family here.
I finished 15 pages of comics early. So far I'm 3 months ahead of schedule.
Tuesday, October 18th, 2016, 7:05 PM,
Media Times:

Video Time
Music Time
Reading Time
Online Reading and Research Time
Social Media Time
Anime Time

Times I Go on Social Media Internet Sabbatical

Writing Time
Watching TV
Fiction Writing Time
Drawing Time
Cartooning Time
Hygiene
Eating Food
Listening to Music
Anime Binging

Incomplete Templates
Note: Not all of the comic book pages I draw lately are going to be complete all at once, so
there is no reason to force myself to finish them on the spot/ I just draw an ex line
through the incomplete panel indicating not complete, and work on and develop later.
There's no shame in drawing partially unfinished comic book panel template pages.
I'm 4 months ahead of schedule on my comics schedule. This is getting ridiculous. If I
didn't know any better I'd almost think I
was Too far ahead, but I know that's not
possible.
Template fulfillment of comic book pages and panel compositions is becoming a habit with me,
as I knew it would. It took around 4 years to achieve, as I've wanted to make panel and
comics page composition a habit since at least 2013 to 2012.

Online Social Media Literary Portfolio, Gallery, and Community Sites:

ComicFury
Scribd
Goodreads

Amazon
Blogger
Twitter
DeviantART

I want to be an Anime President Suit Master in ten or twenty years. Less work. More Status.

Shinichiro Ishikawa
Shoji Kawamori
Leiji Matsumoto
Katsuhiro Otomo
Lance Heiskell
Stu Levy
Kim Manning
Nick Weidenfeld
Kris Prynosky
Thomas Romain
George Lucas
Todd McFarlane
Jhonen Vasquez
John Lasseter
Savin Yeatman Eiffel
Hayao Miyazaki
Bruce Timm

Thursday, October 20th, 2016, 1:17 PM,

The dollar to word ratio of my daily writing routine is low. It's cheap to produce, and my studio
produces it by the voluminous ton! Just like anime and manga, but with written words. Soon it will be
novels and comics too. My rates are a lot cheaper than LA, Japan, European, and New York animation.
I'm the ultimate indie writer.
Changes of the art form and industry are underway, and taking place: From:

Artistic Approach
Literary Approach
Individual Approach
Business Partnerships

These hands are magic. They're magical and granted magical abilities that channel lines from pen to
paper, and I have the ability to change the format and look and style of animation and comics. I draw
the direction I see manga and anime headed as well as animation and comics and internet webcomics
and online animations and co-productions.
People are hungry for more mature animation with better, more detailed artwork for a mature audience
in America. They're already doing it in that way in Japan. It's sad to see my own country fall so far
behind. Something that's neither aimed at toddlers nor looking drawn by them. Cartoon Network hasn't

learned this lesson because that's all they do is stuff that looks and feels like it was made by and for
Toddlers, yes Seth MacFarlane included.
Types of Panels:

Cover Black BG
2-Panel All White
2-Panel All Black
2-Panel Panel-Black (Top) (or) Panel-Black-&White Composition / Panel-White (Bottom) or
All Black Panel Composition, or black/white composition.
Manga Studio Template 4 Panel Minimal Black-&White Panel BG

I got Adsense to work and activated on ComicFury on my own for the first time. I'll see if I earn any
money from it.
JG Quintel is so frigging lazy. I can not for the life of me describe how lazy that guy is.
1 Decade isn't EVEN enough time to build a career. The first Decade is a time for free drawing and free
writing. A time to fill up sketchbooks and journals, not concerned about narrative, texture, or
storytelling. The second decade is for experimenting in publishing while also developing storytelling
techniques and pages or series templates. Third Decade (the one I'm just starting on) is for learning to
meet deadline and increase page rates, and improve templates and panel structures, as well as
developing a more elaborate drafting process, and finding new ways to write and distribute ebooks, like
I'm shifting from Kindle back to Lulu ebooks on Amazon and other stores perhaps.
I have roots where I am. Deep roots. I fought to stay here. I don't plan on seeing myself leaving
Casselberry or Orlando, Florida anytime soon. I'd love to travel, but unless I start making a lot more
money, that won't be happening anytime soon, either. I'm happy and comfortable here, and am finally
starting to relax and develop a groove again.
Currently I take medication. Most of them I am against taking, but the only one I really want to be
taking and ingesting into my system is Wellbutrin, for Attention Deficit Disorder and Depression.
And I must say the Wellbutrin has been helping with my A.D.D. I'm focusing a lot better and working a
lot harder. I've been meeting all my deadlines.
October 21st, 2016 December, 2022 in Orlando, Florida
It is the dawning of a New Era. Turns out I didn't have to go anywhere to be all over the map and in our
hearts. All I needed was the online community and a laptop computer.
Master Builder takes on a whole new meaning. I build comic book pages, and paragraph building for
fiction and nonfiction writing.
Friday, October 21st, 2016, 1:20 PM,
Weakest areas: BG, Compositing, Backgrounds of Panels, Props and Prop Design, 3-D
Perspective.

Sunday, October 23rd, 2016, 6:43 PM,

It takes more social intelligence to be polite, kind, and nice than it does to be negative, mean, and nasty.
It's called having manners and being regal.
Monday, October 24th, 2016, 5:26 AM,
I grew up to become a great success. I require neither money nor the approval of all other people to be
aware of this fact. The truth is, I wanted to grow up to be The Man, and I did, just not as I expected. I
hadn't anticipated such high levels of hyper-competitive, sociopathic, and envious people approaching
me. Yet here they are. In full force for as long as they can humanly hold it up. But we all run out of
steam sooner or later. Thank the lord.
Seriously. People in this country are being brainwashed by television and American and Japanese
brands in the limelight. It's sending subliminal messages, set on repeat play 12 times a day.
I'm not going to lie. Life has hardened me a bit. But my innocence is not dead, and never will be, no
matter the number of assassination attempts.
Thomas Merton's Soul and Spirit are my talisman. They often protect me from bad luck. Every time I
even bring up Merton's presence, I get surrounded by sweet, sweet silence. You can't argue with The
Lord, God.
I received the following email through LinkedIn from a Silicon Valley recruiter. I don't know how often
things like this happen. That proves there's hope for me once and for all.
12/19/2013, 5:52 PM

Full-Time Software Job Openings - Silicon Valley & Bay Area

Hi Joseph M., Are you in the job market? My name is Mark Dinan and I am a technical recruiter based in Silicon
Valley. I place engineers at full-time jobs with technology companies in the Bay Area. I work with established
companies like Symantec and Salesforce, and also recruit for several well funded and successful start-up clients.
Typical salaries are from $115k to $200k, and most packages include bonus and stock awards which take total
comp to $130k-$280k. Relocation is also provided if needed. I have been working as a recruiter in the Bay Area
since 1997, and this is about as hot a market as I have ever seen! My current openings include: 1) Full Stack Java
Software Engineer - Senior and Principal level 2) UI Engineering 3) Automation QA Engineer 4) Build/Release
Opening 5) iOS and Android Mobile Development 6) Build/Release Engineer 7) Program Manager 8) Product
Manager 9) Linux System Administrator 10) Architect - Java - $220k base, $300k+ total comp 11) Hadoop Big Data
Principal Engineer If you are looking around, please send a resume to me at mark@. If you have any questions, I
can always be reached at (650) 328-2790. If we are not already connected on LinkedIn, please send me an invite. I
can be found at: http://www.linkedin.com/in/markdinan Regards, Mark Dinan Dinan & Associates
www.dinanrecruiting.com

Hollywood never came calling. Silicon Valley did. That's how I know Silicon Valley is on my side, and
Hollywood sometimes isn't. It's a sea of sharks and haters out there. Obviously. I evolved into a
computer nerd. I didn't start off one. I belong on the internet. I belong in Silicon Valley, with my natural
gifts of computers and technology, not running the rat race in Hollywood or Tokyo.
There's a rivalry between Silicon Valley and Hollywood. Just ask Mark Zuckerberg.

Silicon Valley has the best technology in the world. The best New Technology in the world. It even
surpassed Japan as the new world leader of Technology. I'm so happy and proud about this. Not that
Japan is a slouch by any means. Japan is hard to surpass. So when Japan openly admits your the tech
industry you work in is surpassing theirs, that's no small feat. They still have the TV animation
monopoly, though. I still admit that. Japan's Prime Minister is adamant about learning from and
adapting to Silicon Valley technology.
This Manga Studio software is amazing. It's so...useful. I underuse it. For panels and silhouettes and
lettering and compositing panel images. That sort of thing. Not so much digital panel artwork.
Tuesday, October 25th, 2016, 8:07,
I want to get rich, become a millionaire or billionaire, and a lot of money. It's my goal in life, more than
art and writing. Money is my End Game. Profit. Dollar Bills. Sales and Customer Support.
I'm 17 comics pages, or 17 weeks and 5 months ahead of my publishing schedule.
I'm now running a literary print, media, publishing, and Internet webcomics and blogging empire.
Tutorial:
How to Make Pages: Now that I'm so far ahead of schedule, I can focus on honing the detail of future,
new, and recent comic pages in Manga Studio, namely cutting and pasting, black spotting with the
paint bucket feature, and making new panel templates.
One thing that separates amateur fro professional work in comics page layouts (inked and completed),
is page weight, or density. The more dense and heavy the landscape of the panel layout is, the more
professional it will look.
Types of Density and Page Weight:

Kaleidoscopic Patterns (Backgrounds and props)

Forms
Black Ink Silhouette Panels and Backgrounds (this can now easily be done with Imported art
and the black paint bucket tool in Manga Studio, as long as the contours are darkened with a
sharpie or black ink pen.)

I'm also going to be editing non-comics-page drawings and adding black backgrounds to them with
Manga Studio to get more acquainted with using digital ink and paint software on my artwork.
I've had burnout and lack of productivity because I haven't been sleeping or eating enough. Or resting
enough. I write compulsively, and my parents don't feed me anywhere near enough calories per day in
proportion to my size and weight, and I haven't been sleeping enough because I've been working on the
computer late into the night without rest or sleep. It's causing me burnout, stress, fatigue, and low
mental and physical energy.

I am to Gothic Fantasy Comics what H.P. Lovecraft is to Gothic Fantasy Literature. I like things like

Silhouettes, Japanese Noir-Notan, and Black Sky Compositions.

Friday, October 28th, 2016, 3:11 AM,

I want to manufacture and perfect Sword Slash Effects and Digital Speedlines done in Manga Studio.
Andrew's baby screams at the top of its lungs in the other room if I make so much as a finger twitch.
Really difficult to work in domestic conditions like this.
Current Daily Activities I Can Do (And Have Done) Successfully:
Tweeting
Drawing in a Sketchbook
Writing Journals
Drawing Comic Book Template Layouts
Reading Books
I honestly don't like or approve of comics, manga, indie, or anime artists who are spoiled, or egotistical
and arrogant.
I don't have any competition on YouTube, Twitter, and ComicFury. They're all following my lead. Life
is good. I have virtually no competitors to worry about or fret over on any of these sites. It's not like
DeviantART and Adult Swim Message Boards with cyberbullying.
What type of setting do all my novels take place in: What country, state, world, city, town, time period.
How do I make it seem real? Black City, Nevada, Maryland, D.C., Washington, France, Paris.
I need a system of procedure to work out on my work.
Developing Screenplays-TV Shows, Novels-Short-Stories, Comic books.
Former Goals

Get on TV (Spindack)
Work on a TV show
Publish a book
Write a book
Self-Publish a book
Publish a comic book
Draw a comic book
Win an Award
Start my own business
Start my own TV Channel
Get my name in the credits of a TV show
Become famous
Make industry friends
Write 1,000 pages

Write a TV Show Script on Spec

Create a bestselling book and comic book
Remaining Goals

Write a Novel
Write a Screenplay
Draw a 100-Page Comic
Earn a lot of money
I'm working on End Times and Edward Richards. I refuse to refer to those sagas as a comic or
novel because it would be labeling things, and labels lead to stereotyping genres and mediums. So
I'll just refer to them by their titles and characters.

In the United States, the system (gov and biz) doesn't want you to make money. They want all the
money. They're actively trying to stop you from making money and rig the sytem against you. The
American system is completely rigged to make sure the right people don't get ahead, like me. The
system is rigged to do it's best to make sure you're never able to get a job, or by food, drinks, or a
house, let alone books and DVDs and merchandise. They really don't give a fuck. They want you to go
broke and let you get killed on the streets or in the ghetto purposefully. That's what the government and
big business is doing. Purely because they refuse to give anything away and share and dodge paying
taxes and donating to charities. And they're cheating the systems themselves to make sure you die
penniless sucking car fumes underneath an overpass. Someone is being paid to make sure all this shit
continues and the conspiracy is never questioned.
Work ethic: Do the Grunt Work. Don't avoid grunt work.
Use story development notes to make outlines. Make outlines out of notes.
I hate Asian Art, even if I am an Asian. I hate how detailed, over engineered, under inked, and perfect it
is. Any art that makes me feel insecure I should probably toss in the garbage. Other than Asian artists
are incredibly racist, stuck up, xenophobic, and arrogant, their art is too perfect. There's nothing organic
or natural about it. Not the way you'd see in a Jamie Hewlett illustration, or a Jhonen Vasquez or Todd
McFarlane comic book, or a Jeff Smith comic book. Anime is impossible to do master studies of. Why
even try. Anime art is shit. I hate how impossible to draw it is. It's not natural or even human. It's not
approachable. I'm going to look for American illustrators and comic book artists and animation creators
and character designers. Just like it was in middle school, when I never gave a fuck about Asian art and
anime artists actually had humility and respect for others.
Thursday, November 3rd, 2016, 10:13 PM,
Truth is, there's no such thing as procrastinating at drawing and writing everyday, only choosing not to
do it at certain points. Any time is a good time to write and draw. You're just choosing not to. It's a
choice to not draw 24/7 everyday of every month of every year.
Which part of writing fiction intimidates me the most: Introductions. Cuz those have to be good to
attract readers.

Step 1: Create an archive of introduction paragraphs.

Every page a writer authors and commits to a page, no matter how insignificant, is a part of their larger
arsenal of a literary portfolio. Every Chapter. Every Page. Every Paragraph. Every Sentence, Every
Word, and Every Letter. There's no such thing as writing that doesn't count.
Greatest Lyricists:
Rock:
Bob Dylan
John Lennon
Morrissey
Bruce Springsteen
Mick Jagger
Leonard Cohen
Paul McCartney
Paul Simon
Joni Mitchell
Kurt Cobain
Jim Morrison
Pete Townshend
Michael Stipe
George Harrison
Randy Newman
Thom Yorke
Elton John
Freddie Mercury
Brian Wilson
Elvis Costello
Jimi Hendrix
Hip-Hop
Nas
Eminem
Jay-Z
Kanye West
Notorious BIG
Tupac
Rakim
Ice Cube
GZA
Andre 3000
Raekwon
KRS One
Kool G Rap
Ghostface Killah

Dr. Dre
Snoop Dog
Kendrick Lamar
Tech N9ne
Mos Definitely
NWA
Common
RZA
Big Pun
Outkast
Lauryn Hill
50 Cent
Chuck D
Method Man
LL Cool J
MF Doom
Black Thought
DMX
Redman
Big Boi
Busta Rhymes
Drake
Pharoahe Monch
Public Enemy
Canibus
Immortal Technique
DJ Premiere
Eazy-E
Getting your name or photo featured on Wikipedia, Google, or Amazon is just as difficult to do as
having those things featured on regular TV. I'm not alone by any means. The internet is not created
equal. Especially now.
A part of me HATES novels and comics. I'm tired of people stealing their shit from me and pretending
like I don't exist.
I'm the bestselling American Kindle Manga-ka cartoonist in the world, of all time. Which is weird,
because I wasn't even paid all that much. A lot less than you'd think. And yet, it is so. Nobody said the
bestselling author would be the most famous author.
In the last year or two, I noticed the artwork in my End Times comic book pages is taking a turn for the
better. The pages contain more ink density than a lot of my sketchbook pages. Their headed in a
direction that not only surprised me, but satisfied my craving for Heavy Black and Dense artwork,
utterly and completely. About 33 pages worth, and that's if I leave out a lot of less successful, more lazy
attempts. I think Tezuka and Otomo would approve. The Black Sky Backgrounds really help. A style of
my own is emerging finally. Next step: Writing and story, then backgrounds and fight scenes.

IN*P
Enneagram Type: 5 The Visionary, The Investigator
Famous 5s:
The Buddha
Albert Einstein
John Nash
Stephen Hawking
Vincent Van Gogh
Edvard Munch
Salvador Dali
Emily Dickinson
Nietzsche
Agatha Christie
James Joyce
Jean-Paul Sartre
Stephen King
Clive Barker
Bill Gates
Mark Zuckerberg
Kurt Cobain
Trent Reznor
Thom Yorke
Alfred Hitchcock
Stanley Kubrick
David Cronenberg
Werner Herzog
Tim Burton
David Lynch
David Fincher
Thomas Jefferson
JD Salinger
Franz Kafka
T.S. Eliot
Jules Verne
Ken Wilber
George Lucas
Howard Hughes
5s shut themselves away to secretly study a craft in isolation until they internalize the knowledge about
it to the point where they have enough self-confidence at it to be satisfied.
5s make exciting discoveries of niches no one else occupies.
I've looked far and wide online, desperately, hopelessly seeking for guidance, mentoring, teaching, and
advice. But since my comic book's style was invented entirely by me, I'm the only one who knows how
to harness it and tap into its imagination and power, the world I made up. Only I can completely control

it. Only I can figure it out, because I'm also the one who created the whole damn thing.
I think Adwords might be useful. But if I'm going to succeed, I can't use agents, offline bookstores, or
publishers to sell my book.
Thursday, November 10th, 2016, 4:46 PM,
Unfortunately,and I do emphasize unfortunately A LOT, Trump by some divine misfortune, won the
Presidency as the 45 President against Hillary Clinton. People are pissed about this loss. Just furious.
And so am I. I fucking hate Donald Trump. I'll never call him sir or President. He's a fat burgerinhaling evil fuck trying to convince congress to let him rule the world. Fuck Trump.
If we could see the face of every person online who never posts a portrait or photograph of their face
and upper body, would that explain a lot about what we don't know about people who use the internet.
The last few days, and especially on Election Day and the day after, I had to use all my inner willpower to keep myself from logging onto my Twitter and writing a whole bunch of incendiary and
violently hateful messages against Trump, but I stopped myself. Knowing the level of my influence on
the underdogs, I could have incited protest, violence, and assassination attempts by people who read
too much into that sort of thing. But yes, I was furious with those results. I was incredibly like Super
Saiyan level times 500,000. I'd rather watch Donald Trump dine on a bullet than run my country.
So, it's a divided time:
The very, very very bad horrible news is Trump is President Elect.
The very, very, very Good news is I can finally resume business as usual around my house.
Friday, November 11th, 2016, 6:27 PM,
Fuck the Apocalypse. While yes I still categorize my book as both a manga and an Apocalypse book,
I'm feel as though I'm beginning ot rebel against that work, my works association to it, and what that
whole genre has become: One big suckfest. One big schlockfest. So fuck that shit. End Times is still
called End Times, but it's a gimmick name. None of my current pages and their panels address the end
of the world or dying world aspect. Just a lot of talking and fighting and architecture. The panels live
moment to moment. There isn't much of a plan behind them because even if there was I'd fail to live up
to telling it. We don't need stories where we're headed. End Times as my title still sells and attracts web
ratings by the tens of thousands, so I'm keeping that part.
I require silence and peace and quiet to get work done. It's the only way. I can't work in a chaotic, noisy
environment
Procrastination is a choice
How do I fit into this world? What is my applied philosophy? What part of my theories and
philosophies are applied theories and philosophies? Ideas and concepts have consequences. Part of my
Journey is figuring out what those consequences and results are. How much influence does one idea
have on culture and society.
Saturday, November 12th, 2016, 7:13 AM,,

Sword comics are old news in China, Korea, and Japan. But not America. In America, the concept of a
wuxia-chanbara Asian-style sword comics is nothing less than innovating fastinating and new. It has no
guidebook. Especially not an English one. Same with trenchcoats, except trenchcoats are a bit more
circulated in English comics, especially in the 90s. But if you integrate the two, it's just as new. And to
put things even further to my advantage, the word and trenhcoat concept is tied virtually entirely to me.
It's my thing, even if someone copies it. No one will remember the copycaat. They'll only remember
the originator, not the imitator. Even more incentive. Innovation, ease, credit for what I've done. Even a
comic that is merely average would still be better than most of what is on ComicFury.
So far, in my comics drawing approach has by now long since internalized aspect angles, spotted black
ink, Notan, Light on Dark, Layering Density, and S-Angles.They all show up every so often.
Next aspect to master? Integrating foreground, middle ground, and background.
My artwork is widely praised by now, so that's good. I'm happy I'm getting the recognition I deserve.
Internet searches for obscure properties is overshadowed by all this gay assed bullshit hype of new
Image or Marvel comics or whatever. I hate that shit. Those comics suck. They're overpromoted and all
their praise is manufactured. FUCK THAT SHIT. Fuck you. You ain't bigger than me, bitch.
The longest running American Auteur Comic, or Alternative comic, other than Spawn, is Cerebus, at
300 20-page issues and I'm losing interest in Cerebus. I'm getting bored with it. The interior artwork
feels positively ancient. Like a relic. But it's history. I'm important comics history. I'm honestly more
interested in my own comic book artwork lately. It's getting that good that I prefer my own art to even
Dave Sim Voluminous works. So I'm off to a good 9 year start. Give or take.
My current medium is: Long-Form Black-&-White Comics:
Cerebus
Scud
Bone
Blankets
Sin City
Japanese Manga
Conan
Ninja Turtles

As diverse as Journals is, I think it can boil down to a few main elements.
Journals is a log that documents the process and daily struggles and victories of a young man pursuing
the 4 Main Quadrants of Mass Media:
4 Quadrants

Comics

Novels
TV
Movies

And the newly emerged 5 Quadrant that surfaced as I was writing the series:
Computers
Internet

As well as the creative quadrants:

Art
Words
Writing
Drawing

And Cultural Quadrants

American
European
Asian

Advertising Campaign Products vs. Self-Published, Shelf Manuscript

Whatever movies or TV that's being promoted by the corporations that funded and approved them is
wielding a double edged sword. They may be in the so-called limelight, but due to the transient
nature of the mainstream spotlight, they're just as likely to be forgotten in a few weeks or months when
no ones interested. The only reason they're there in commercials, ads, and commercials is because the
distribution venues are being paid off and bribed by the distributors in hopes you'll notice them for 2
fuckin seconds. And then you never see or hear from them again because it bombed or they ran out of
money or whatever. Fuck that shit. I want to earn my fame the long and hard way, over decades of hard
work, not petty bribery. These pay them all off campaigns are clearly funded by groups of people and
studios accustomed to making and trying to make large fortunes of money in an unacceptably short
amount of time.

Animation vs. Independent Comics

I chose to pursue comics because I was forced to, not because I chose to. You can't force your way into
animation. You're forced to have permission just to take a dump in the studio bathroom. Animation is
VERY political in terms of business negotiations and rank structure. A lot of money is at stake. Comics
is much simpler in terms of the nature and structure of its production process. All it takes is one piece
of paper and pencils or pen. Comics is anthologized art, but each of its pages are constructed and drawn
up the way art and illustration is. It's much easier.
I have a conflicted, estranged, and complex relationship with my parents and brother.

I think I'm on my way to becoming one of the Great Visionaries of the 21 st Century. One of the first
great Millennial Visionaries. J.M.Matthews, Joe, James, Joseph Alberts.
My strength is in my notebooks. My voluminous series of notes. I'm a Notes author and artist-writer,
like a Picasso or a Leonardo. On the plus side, I have Google Share for my name and comic, as well as
2 bibliographies on Good Reads and Amazon.
My skill has been established. I'm much more of an author, conceptualist, and cartoonist than I ever
was an animator or director. I don't even know if I'd make a good producer, co-producer, or executive
producer. I'm leaving animation and anime alone right now. I'm sticking to what I know and can do for
a living.
I'm not happy, though. I've done so much, achieved so much. I'm famous, but for all the wrong
reasons. I'm haunted by bullying, sociopathic family members, financial troubles like debt, poverty,
bankruptcy, unemployment, and mood disorders.
Sunday, November 13th, 2016, 7:10,
I'm not creative anymore, and neither is Hollywood and animation. Somehow through all the
psychiatric malpractice and narcotherapy, my creativity got obliterated. Family Guy is not creative.
And neither is the current state of Cartoon Network or Adult Swim.
I pretty much have my own built in audience and venue now.
My audience is on social media and creative social media. And my venue is on Lulu, and Amazon. It's
where I move product.
Being an author or bestselling author, is not something you choose. It's pre-ordained. It's like being a
King, the Monarchy of Europe. Or being a prestigious Lama in the Buddhist ranks. You can choose to
practice and refine your skills, and you can choose to write and read more, but you can't choose how
accepted or showcased your words will be, or if you will find an agent who will sell your books. You
don't choose. You're chosen. By Fate and Destiny. It's a New Age Mystical Supernatural thing. I like
drawing cartoons, but by now it's obvious God doesn't agree with my free will, as he wants me to write
books and short stories more than he wants me to draw cartoons. He wants me to be a novelist and
author or auteur 10 times more than he wants me to be a cartoonist, animator, or manga-ka. That's why
I do it the most.
I'm getting better at writing fiction than already am at drawing cartoons. The well for being a cartoonist
is frequently drying up while the doorway to writing novels is getting bigger and bigger.
In terms of how my work compares to competing creatives, I'm a better writer than I am an artist.
So my new goal is writing a New York Times Bestseller

I write a novel for 10 Years, 10,000 Hours of Practice

The Novel is Completed, Some time around 2026, when I'm 43
I submit my novel to agencies through emails
One or a few accepts my form letter

My book is published, and reaches it to the New York Times Bestseller list
I become a millionaire
I write more books, I publish more books
Books pay my bills

Saturday, November 19th, 2016, 1:41 PM,

If life can cheat on me, I can cheat on life. I hired private investigator to find contact information about
Nicole, hopefully a phone number or address. Just because the gods stole her from me doesn't mean I
can't steal her back.
I just got the report back. As it turns out, surprisingly enough, Nicole moved from Portland, Oregon, to
right next door to me, so to speak...I live in Casselberry, Florida. Nicole lives in Bradenton, Florida.

Bradenton

Casselberry

I never would have thought she'd return to me.

I feel a lot less insecure lately. I feel like I have a lot less to prove these day. Why am I having so much
trouble remembering my career work I've spewed out as of late?
Tuesday, November 22th, 2016, 1:12 PM
I probably have enough energy to do some panels, but not consistently

Wednesday, November 23rd, 2016, 7:54 PM,

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Tumblr: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/jm-matthews
Comic Fury: http://mono.thecomicseries.com/

Thing that keep people up at night:

Money
Food
Drinks
Pills
Alcohol
Transportation
Freedom
Relaxation
Rest
Energy
Sex
Travel
Stimulation (Hobbies)

Thursday, November 24th, 2016, 9:15 PM

Film Director
Drummer
Guitarist
Novelist
Songwriter
Poet
Monk
Character Designer

The Real Meaning of the Million Mark.

2-3 Million Words Written
9 Million Impressions on Adwords
What does it mean to reach a volume point of 1 10 Million pieces, whether it's sales, views, listens,
words, or impressions. These days, the main mistake is associating million mark figures with wealth,
influence, or fame. This is very much due to the influence of the internet, to create such a

disproportionate relativity of volume. The million mark can change minds, bu not always financial
statures.
Inappropriate millions.
I'm a Million Mark reacher, indeed! Ten to twelve times over. I wonder if there's any ways of profiting
from reaching the million mark I don't know about.