Desensitized

Desensitized

The Vicissitudes of Life

Jupiter Rueda de Leon

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Contents

1. Volcanoes

2. Leveling Up

3. Numb

4. The Enemy

5. Connecting the Dots

6. Prayer

7. The Escape

8. Zombies

9. The Flat Earth

10. Confirmation

Bibliography

About Author

Chapter 1

Volcanoes

Everything affects everything, nothing is by chance, and there is no such thing as a coincidence. At least, this is what I’ve come to start believing. The more I draw closer to the creator, the more aware I become of how connected everything is. Magma builds up and causes a volcano to erupt; the volcano causes an earthquake, the earthquake generates a tsunami, and so forth. I wake up, stub my toe, and hop on one foot to the bathroom just to slip and fall on my back. The rest of the day follows along in the same pattern. Cause and effect, but from what I have found, it’s deeper than that. We have a common enemy whose sole purpose is to lead us into eternal damnation.

The way things were designed here is that everything is based upon laws. There is a structure, which is a foundation that everything adheres to in one way or another. I don’t want to get into the science of how everything works, but I know that science solidifies the existence of a creator. As we come to the end of this period of grace the Lord has extended to us, we will slam into the Great Tribulation. This will be a time where humanity will endure some of the most severe hardships to have ever transpired in all time.

Most of society is so distracted by the world and its things that they fail to see that God is the void filler. Nothing here will ever satisfy or fulfill you the way God can and does. These are the last days and time as we know it is coming to an end. An explosion of dreams and visions has been flooding humanity in the past decade. 2020-2030 will be the most life-altering period that we will ever go through.

ACTS 2:17

And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams: (KJV Online, 2021)

Life as we know it will forever be changed. The Bible states that the Lord will pour out his Spirit on all flesh in the last days. Now is the time for us all to analyze ourselves and our lives. Now is the time to awaken to the reality that this temporal existence can end abruptly. We are not promised to live a full life. We don’t know when we will breathe our last breath or when our hearts will beat their last beat.

This will be the 3rd book that I have written in 2021. That is because of the severity of the world events that have recently transpired. Although the world is going through cumulative changes, people still seem to be in a daze. However, day by day, it is getting progressively worse. The last thing I want to do is preach a doom and gloom message. I have personally withdrawn from a lot of the content I consume daily just because of that. I understand that the media sources I extract my information from are focused on gaining souls for Christ. They do this by preaching the reality of the choices we make in the here and now.

At the point where I am in my walk with the Lord, I must be keenly aware of my thoughts, the choices I make, and the situations I get drawn into. I do not want to be used as a tool for Satan to manifest his will. It is not easy to evade every trap set before me; I often fail, and when I do, I run back to God and ask for forgiveness. There are unlimited ways the enemy sets out to destroy us, and I am not exempt as much as I wish I were. Every day I can expect traps to be set for me. Usually, I notice that they happen one after another. This is frustrating for me because I just want to be left alone. Sometimes I must take a nap to get away from it all.

MATTHEW 7:19–23

So then, you will know them by their fruits. Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the Kingdom of Heaven, but he who does the will of My Father who is in Heaven will enter. Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness.

(Drollinger, 2021)

I can honestly say that although I have found my life difficult at times, it has become increasingly more strenuous once I promised to obey God. Once I committed to remaining aware of how I move daily, I found that the attacks from the enemy have increased. There is something to becoming aware of what is transpiring in this world. It’s like an epiphany or ah-ha moment. Everything takes on a new meaning when you realize that God exists and does not only live but is omniscient. He created us for a purpose. He loves us unconditionally and is on our side. He wants us to succeed, and he wants a relationship with us. Salvation is simple, but it is also tricky at times. What I mean by that is even though we are saved by faith alone through Christ alone, we are required to do the Lord’s will. We are not to be lawless.

The enemy has many agents of evil at work today. They parade around as angels of light but are tares set upon our destruction. Even more interesting are the advances in technology, specifically nanotechnology, biotechnology, and artificial intelligence. We are already aware of cloning animals, so it isn’t that farfetched to believe humans are cloned. The truth of the matter is Satan’s infiltration of humanity isn’t as compelling as the fact that he is sending out wolves in sheep’s clothing. Everyone is talking about face masks, but not everyone is aware of the human prosthetic suits these slimy reptilian hybrid demons’ parade around in.

The reason I entitled this chapter Volcanoes wasn’t directly tied to the La Palma volcano eruptions in September and October of 2021. (Associated Press, 2021) However, I think it is interesting to note that this volcano is in the Canary Islands in Spain and the predominant religion is Catholicism. The meaning of this chapter was to be a metaphor for the difficulties we as, Christians, face in our daily walk with the Lord. Our enemy, the devil, and the evil principalities of darkness are constantly attacking us. They do not want us to be obedient to the Father (YHWH) and the teachings of Jesus (Yeshuah). I have come to notice these triggers occurring daily to offset my walk. I have also realized that a lot of these traps set by the enemy are unavoidable.

I can only focus on the things that I can change, which is how I respond to things that happen every day. Derek Prince stated that the characteristics of demons are to: entice, harass, torment, compel, enslave, defile, deceive, weaken, cause sickness, and make us tired. According to the book Occult Grand Master Now in Christ by Prof. Iyke Nathan Uzorma, sexual sin (such as fornication, masturbation, lust, etc.) gives the enemy 50% control. In contrast, anger, greed, covetousness, hate, and unforgiveness account for 10% control for each sin. The enemy sets these traps to get us to sin so that they can gain legalities to attack us (entice, harass, torment, compel, enslave, defile, deceive, weaken, cause sickness, and make us tired). We give the enemy permission to attack us by opening these doorways for them.

To break the cycle of temptation, we must understand that we often cannot change the triggers or the rewards. For instance, with the food, we know how good food can taste. We visualize and bring to memory how much joy that food has brought us in the past. We know we shouldn’t cheat on our diet or fast, but sometimes you are put in a situation where that temptation is right in front of you and seems irresistible. It is the same with relieving yourself sexually; the triggers can be unavoidable. I see beautiful women every day. I live and work near a college campus where the women dress provocatively. I try my hardest to avoid this area, but it is an area that my job constantly pulls me back into. In the line of work I am in, I can work alone and avoid situations where I could be tempted, but it still happens. I am trying to point out that some triggers are unavoidable, especially when the reward of such is known. I know engaging in the act will bring me pleasure and happiness, even if only temporarily. It is the same with smoking weed. I can be triggered by its smell, which I smell every day; I also know the reward and pleasure of indulging in smoking it. I can’t change the triggers much; it also seems unavoidable for me at this time. My neighbors smoke it; I smell it seeping into my apartment; I smell it when I leave my home. I smell it when I am working. So, you see triggers and rewards are a constant. I can change my routine when I am tempted. I can leave an area the weed is being smoked; I can leave a place where women are dressed sexually. I can exit an app or webpage when a sexual image or advertisement pops up. I can block ads and other content. I can exercise, take a cold shower, and redirect my attention elsewhere.

I know it is easier said than done because we know the rewards of falling into these temptations. It’s torturous at times, but ultimately, we do it to ourselves to some extent. We must remember scripture in times like this because God must provide a way for us to escape, and he does if we look for it. I know sometimes we freeze like a deer in the headlights, and instead of taking the escape route, we inevitably fulfill the temptation. There is a shallow hollow feeling that I get when I do sin. I feel horrible, and that is because I grieved the Holy Spirit. These tests continue to come until we learn to do the right thing. Thankfully, the Lord is patient and long-suffering towards us, to a certain point. At some point, he may indeed turn you over to a reprobate mind and let you have your fill of sin until you become sick of yourself. At least that was my experience. I don’t want to sin usually, but sometimes the tests become so unbearable that I give in and give up. It is not an easy walk.

EPHESIANS 4:30

And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.

1 CORINTHIANS 10:13

There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

(KJV Online, 2021)

Furthermore, I just want to add that the more I grow closer in my relationship with the Lord, I have come to believe that nothing is by chance. I have complete faith that every little detail in my life was tailored explicitly for my learning. I forget where I first discovered this following saying, but it resonates deeply within me. The phrase is that everything is a heart matter. Every day I am working on something that needs to be addressed in my life. Today, I am working on my eyes. Matthew 18:9 didn’t cut any corners regarding that. 1 John 2:16 is also very clear on the seriousness of things pertaining to the eyes. 1 Corinthians 6:18 tells us to flee immorality. Galatians 5:19 tells us that it isn’t just immorality that is a deed of the flesh, but impurity and sensuality as well.

As a single man, I thought it was okay for me to look and pursue a wife. I would always reason with myself by saying it is okay to keep my options open while finding the right one. Loneliness and depression didn’t help. Anger soon followed because of the strictness of the commands of the Lord. 1 Corinthians 7:2 states that a man is to have his own wife and a woman her own husband because of immoralities. So, I wrestled with that a lot. I was in a 12-year relationship, give or take. I was used to being with a companion, and not having one was hard to adjust to. We are to live a crucified life, one of sacrifice and devotion to our Lord and Savior. After all, he sacrificed his life for us to be able to enter paradise. It is the least we can do. Below I quoted text from healingofthespirit.org.

I encourage you to check it out when you can, especially if you or someone you know struggles in those areas.

How then do we re-wire our brain and move toward sanctification? How does a man change from being addicted to pornography to becoming addicted to holiness? How do we neurologically become enslaved to purity rather than porn? The answer is the same as for any other thing that leads us away from God rather than toward him: Confession and repentance. What remains hidden and secret is open to the adversary. It is not enough just to confess to God. We need to confess to God and our brethren. This does not suggest we should necessarily confess before the whole congregation. But it does mean that we need to confess to a pastor, or if we are a pastor, to a fellow pastor or bishop. Or someone of high spirituality to which we can become accountable and who will mentor and encourage us. And who will help us if we fall? But confession is difficult for many men because it is an admission of failure. It goes against our culture to admit weakness. But many of God’s teachings in the Bible go against current culture. Then, whom shall we follow, and who do we fear, our fellow man or God? If we want to be healed, we have little choice. There is no other way. For more information on this subject and what it does to your brain, see: www.yourbrainonporn.com" (Struthers, N.D.)

I think it is evident that we are not to follow man. Man is flawed, and he is not God. We cannot rely on the world, the leaders of the world, or even ourselves because men’s thoughts are continually evil, just as the Bible states. I watched one of the Shattered Paradise videos and saw something about a Pennsylvania Democratic candidate named Tom Horn. Tom Horn had an ad out entitled Jeeps where he had a retired Army lawyer/ Former Judicial candidate/ Actor by the name of Alan Benyak play the role of a Pennsylvania Attorney. What’s disturbing is that Alan Benyak was also an actor in a movie called Breeding Farm. In this movie, he played the role of Mr. Cannibal. Breeding Farm's plot, according to an online summary: A mysterious man kidnaps four friends. The friends wake up in a basement and realize they are part of something horrifying. A human breeding farm. They are to be milked, bred, and much, much worse!"

Mr. Cannibal with his wife are attorneys that fry and eat people, reads a description of Benyak's role. They purchase their 'stock's from Farmer.

The film features Benyak torturing a half-naked woman, buying a woman, force-feeding a woman, engaging in cannibalism, and inspecting a woman as if she is livestock. Other parts of the film include rape, miking a woman and making them act like farm animals, kidnapping, treating women as livestock, riding a woman, physical abuse, and torture." (Kaczynski, 2014)

I get that none of us are perfect, but we expect more out of those in positions of authority since they have a public platform and are often considered role models. With all the alleged swamp draining that was to occur during Trump’s presidency, one successful thing was shining the light on human trafficking. Wayfair and Pizzagate were mentioned a lot during that time, but ultimately it got curious minds researching. Adrenochrome was another term that was brought to light and even spoken about by Jim Caviezel. Jim Caviezel’s latest role as Tim Ballard in the film Sound of Freedom exposes the trafficking of children and the harvesting of adrenochrome. Ballard, a former special agent with the Department of Homeland Security, now heads Operation Underground Railroad, an anti-trafficking organization. Jim Caviezel goes on to say that Tim was supposed to be in the room with me here or down there in Tulsa, but he’s saving children right now in DUMBS (Deep Underground Military Bases) and all kinds of places. In the following video, with host Paula C. Blades, Caviezel explains the process of harvesting adrenochrome to the crowd, calling it the worst horror he’s ever seen. For the people who do it, there will be no mercy for them,

Again, we expect more out of our leadership, and even if Trump isn’t entirely what we expected him to be, he did do some good things with his time in office. So, think about that when you look at the Pope in this one. There are photos of Trump and his wife with reptilian-like eye shifting occurring, but even the watchers/ fallen angels in the book of Enoch asked Enoch to pray to the Lord