Senior year to me in my mind was my last chance. The last time l would get to enjoy being a kid without
the more pressing matters of life always lingering in my mind. The last chance l would get to be in the
same place with all my friends at the same time before we were all expected to grow up and move on to
bigger better things. l didnt get that. Instead one day l found myself feeling a lot less like a student in his
senior year and more like a victim. Suddenly my plans for the future were put on hold and those friends
said not so tender goodbyes a lot sooner than expected.
And at some point l realized that l wasnt doing this because it benefited me. The worst part about being
victim was Knowing that l wasnt the only one. Knowing that l was not fighting for myself. lf l didnt
speak up it could happen again, to someone who couldnt find their voice.
| did not spend my senior year berated, insulted, treated as an outcast, listening to my closest friends
call me a horrible person(knowingly or not), watching people, family included, avert their eyes out of
pity, disgust or shame, for me. | didnt do it for me. l did it for those people who went through what l
went through before. Yes, those same people | said myself "must be mistaken" and l did it for those
people that couldve come after. l knew that l could handle whatever came and l felt obligated to ensure
no student would have to be victimized as l had been.
,
Mr.Cortez. You lied repeatedly to the many community members who supported you. You led them to
trust you when there was no trust to be had only fabricated lies and malicious rumors. You threw every
obstacle You could conceive in my way, often at my expense and that of my family. You gathered a
group of followers under the name Cortezs Army. And through it all You mocked God saying that he is
on your side. God does not fight alongside the wicked. God will not be mocked.
And throughout this entire year or so l had to find within myself the capacity to forgive. l am in no way
excusing your actions. However you are human and as such you make mistakes.
Always remember. lt is not possible for you to sink lower than the infinite light of Christs atonement
shines. You are not your mistakes. You are not your flaws. Those things are merely what make each and
every one of us human. We are not defined by our countless errors or failures. We are defined by our
determination to get back up and try again. l have not been sent to earth to judge. l have been asked to
love. Heavenly father loves each and every one of us. Who am l to decide who is deserving of love or
not.
To those who are among my generation and those beyond.
l hope that somehow this reaches the ears of someone who needs to hear it. If you are a victim, speak
up. Tell someone. lf you have ever witnessed someone being victimized, say something. l can say from
personal experience that being a victim, yeah it sucks. However, there are amazing people that will help