You know you have a friend when you can sit on a see saw
with them for hours; then trudge back home through the cowpats
without having uttered a word. That’s what it’s like with Arabella.
The only downside is that Arabella is much heavier than me, so I
have to do all the work on the see-saw. Sometimes she disappears
from view, and all I can see are the tops of the trees and lazy smoke
trails left by the planes. Can they see me? Not just the families who
got a cheap deal with Virgin Airways, but the squirrels and the
chaffinches; the midgets and the bungee-jumpers; the forgotten
helium balloon? I ponder for a moment, just a moment, before
whooshing into the air and I swear my bottom leaves the seat for a
bit. I lift my hand and reach for something, anything. A snippet of
June air.
****
Arabella once told me that being stung by a wasp isn’t actually all
that bad. Because Arabella’s always right, I decided to get over my
fear once and for all. When Mum was on the phone ordering carpet
samples I tiptoed into her study, found a pen and the back of a
receipt for washing up powder, and wrote ‘Where is the best place
to find a wasp?” She leaned over, lodged the ear piece between her
cheek and shoulder and wrote “compost.” I drew a little dancing
stick-man and dashed out into the garden. But I didn’t get stung by
a wasp that day. I still haven’t been stung by a wasp. No matter how
far I scrambled into the heap of rotting food; no matter how much
egg shell got stuck in my hair and orange peel down my top, I
retreated to the house sullied, malodorous, and thoroughly un-
stung. I wish I could find Arabella and ask her why.
****
A cold night is often the best time to climb inside the airing
cupboard. I used to curl up on the top shelf, my head against the
boiler, with Arabella perched below me. She couldn’t sit up high with
me or the shelf would break.
“Have you ever wondered what it’s like inside the boiler?” I rapped
it with my knuckle. “It’s probably warmer inside.”
Arabella never really spoke.
“Imagine if there were things living in it! But even if there were, I
don’t suppose the things would like it much if we disturbed them.” I
kneeled up and peered over the top. As I puffed my cheeks out, the
dust made spiralling roller-coasters in the air. Woodlice scurried
from my outstretched hand; an ancient spider lay knotted in his
web.
“There’s another world in here, Arabella.”
My mum never knew where I was. I would listen to her calls for
hours; my grin ominous in the gloom of the cupboard.
“Celandine! Please come out from wherever you are – your dad and
I want to talk to you.” It is some time after the cowpat incident, the
boiler has been turned off, and I am resting my cheek against the
chill of the metal.
“Cel, please!”
Arabella shuffles below me. After hesitating for a second, I clamber
down from the shelf and press my mouth to the crack in the door.
“Ok, I’ll come out. But you have to go away otherwise you’ll know
where we’ve been hiding!” I hear a little sigh of floorboard; then
push the door open and peer out onto the landing. I listen to the
radiator hum for a bit, before hurrying Arabella out and calling, “OK
Mum, we’re ready!”
***
“Now then Class, we have a new face in our midst. Celandine, would
you like to stand up and introduce yourself?” No, I don’t. But I stand
up anyway. Mrs Busting beams at me over her fat spectacles.
Before beginning, I take a breath and hold it for ten seconds. Then
the words tumble out.
“My name’s Celandine, obviously. But I hate it because it
sounds like celery and celery is my least favourite food.”
Someone titters at the back but I sweep a wisp of hair from
my face and stride on.
“My favourite name is Arabella because I have a best friend
called Arabella and we do everything together. She’s quite fat but
that doesn’t matter because she’s a lovely person on the inside. Her
favourite food is cherries and once we sat in the field behind my
house and ate so many that we could spell our names on the plate
with our tongues.” The girl next to me with the silly plaits giggles.
“What’s so funny?”
“Hush, Polly, hush!” Mrs Busting warbles. “Oh, what a lovely story!
Does anyone have a question for her? No? You may sit down then,
Celandine.”
I sit down and she turns to the blackboard with a flourish. The
remainder of the lesson is a blur; secrets are whispered back and
forth amongst the girls with the flowery hair, and the boys sit
churlish and slumped in their seats. I think of the cows grazing in
the fields, and the seeds from the dandelion clocks getting caught in
the wind and flitting here and there like ball-dancers. I think of
Arabella, all cooped up in my room with only Mr Ted to talk to; he
not being the most absorbing character. Mrs Busting chirrups on
about similes and adjectives, her chalk getting smaller and smaller
until she has to rummage around in her desk for another. She
emerges with a red that matches her cheeks; then continues to
scribble away like she is the only person in the room.
“I thought what you said was very funny.”
The girl with the silly plaits is leaning towards me with round eyes.
“Well, it wasn’t supposed to be,” I whisper and then turn away,
haughty. She taps me on the shoulder though, and I look round at
her again.
“I didn’t mean to be nasty. I thought you sounded very clever,
actually.”
She has a freckle on the end of her nose.
“You did?”
“Yes, I did.”
I pause, then. Despite the fact that the pink ribbons on the end of
her plaits make her look like a Barbie doll, I decide to accept her
compliment. She flicks her hair and invites me to sit with her at
lunch. I oblige with a small smile, and sit for the rest of the lesson in
silence, brimming with a happiness I am afraid might burst out of
my skin at any moment.
***
My mother is waiting for me at the gate with a bag of shopping and
a buttercup in her hair. I cling to her, losing my smile in the folds of
her painting coat.
“You’ve come straight from work?”
“Of course I have,” she says, and ruffles the back of my neck.
“Come on, you silly girl, you can’t have missed me that much.” I
bury myself deeper in reply. She smells of hallways and roller
brushes, of banisters and cups of tea.
***
The days trundle by like a bicycle with square tyres. I learn about
sea anemones and crayfish; about Henry VIII and his hundreds of
wives. I pair up with Polly for every activity, and she teaches me
how to put plaits in my hair. She squeals at my adventures with
Arabella, and she brings in bags of Jelly Babies which we eat
surreptitiously under the desk. Mrs Busting never notices. But I soon
realise that the question I so desperately want to ask her becomes
harder and harder to put into words each day.
“Polly?”
“Yes?”
“Can I have another jelly baby?”
“Of course!”
“Polly?”
“Yes?”
“What’s 12 – 8?”
“4.”
“Polly?”
“Yes?”
I take another sweet and stuff it into my mouth.
“Would you like to come to my house for tea?”
Her eyes brighten and dimples appear on each cheek.
“I’d love to,” she grins and tips the whole bag of jelly babies into my
lap.
***
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***
It’s early July, and Polly and I have just finished our A Levels. My
mother calls me up to her study; I gurgle my apple juice and bound
up the stairs two at a time.
“Look what I just found, Cel.”
I look over her shoulder and then snatch the piece of paper from her
hands. My scrawled seven year old handwriting is unmistakeable.
MY BEST FREND
by Celandine Linfield