Kent
2nd Hour
Newspaper
Self Help
Life was either good, or life was bad. There was no in-between.
However, I have found after the lowest of lows comes the highest of highs.
It may sound cliche, but if I needed to tell myself anything when I was struggling, it would
Because the truth is this: in the moment, everything seems black and white, but in reality,
life is full of many shades and colors that can only be seen when people take a step back and
choose to open their eyes to the true colors hidden within situations.
When I was suffering from mental illness, I always thought things were never going to get
any better. Since everyone saying that life was going to get better didn't understand how I felt, I just
thought that was how life was going to be, miserable and intolerable forever.
“Of course,” I thought, “Mrs. Sunshine is telling me it’s going to be alright, but what does
she know?”
Here is that dark story. One day about two years ago, it was like a flip switched, and I
stopped talking to everyone, even my family, because I didn’t want them to be a part of my life; in
fact, I didn't want my life, and it was to the point where it was so extreme I spent about eight weeks
schooler struggling within. I have experienced many things that changed my entire character and
changed the way I look at the world completely that has set me apart from the other students who
During my freshman year, previous issues with my parents that I had bottled up were paired
with the new stress of high school, and that put me over the top.
While I was growing up, my parents were more distant than my friends’ parents, but I never
thought of it as a problem because I liked the simplicity of our relationship. I always listened to
them, and we were always on good terms and never talked about serious issues to keep the peace.
They divorced when I was young and never told me why, so I always believed deep down
that I was the problem that led to their demise. It was difficult growing up around parents who
couldn't talk to each other without yelling. Being surrounded by that in my primitive years made
me feel like life would be less complicated and my family would be more content without me
around.
Combined with the stress of new high school relationships, I couldn't hold in the pain, let
alone live with myself in this world that was suddenly not so perfect. The thing is, nothing is
perfect. I wish I understood then that perfection is an illusion, and just because things are far from
High school is new to everyone their freshman year, but for some reason, I felt like I was
completely different and experiencing everything more extreme than the other kids. The truth is, I
wasn’t crazy or overreacting; I was just making BIG mistakes and learning from them for the first
time in my life.
I remember getting severe feelings, like a storm surrounding me, when all I had seen
growing up were sunny skies, and I was never prepared to survive a storm. But is anyone, really
When I started seeing a therapist for my problems, it seemed like I wasn't making much
progress during the hour-long crying sessions. But what I didn't realize is that the beginning years
of therapy were a time for me to break through my shell that had formed over my heart after years
From middle school until now, I've had about five different therapists and tried a mountain
of pills to stable my mood. And I’ve learned that growth is not about my doctor or medications but
about my own willingness to grow myself and form a trusting relationship with my therapist so I
Everyone struggles at some point in her life, and trying to skip over the process of growing
Today, struggling is looked upon as weak; when in reality, a struggle is just someone’s
Once someone finally sees themselves bloom, they can learn to move forward, scars and
all, and finally be content. Because of course, struggling seems like someone’s falling apart; but
with time, the right coping skills, and an effort to feel better, they can realize that they’re not falling
apart but actually finding their self under the broken pieces.
Just remember, bad times are just times that are bad. Even though it seems things are falling
out underneath me sometimes, it will all be okay. The bad times will pass, and the good times will