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Rachel Genn
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Eugene hadn’t needed a drink, not for weeks. She was all
he’d needed, and he was thinking just this when the pain
pumped up through his foot. Looking down he saw a short
plank stuck to his boot and he sat on the dusty ground of the
site and pulled at it steadily. Two nails inched out of the sole,
angling from a common origin into a V: a rusty fuck-you.
Waiting for the blood to come out of his boot, Eugene made
up his mind.
A hangover held the heat around him. Ireland rarely got
this hot, and even when it did, a place like Galway could
usually keep its cool because of the sea. They were hardly out
of May but the heat and noise of the building site were fierce.
Glimpsing movement, Eugene looked up and shielded his
eyes from a crawling JCB; the noon sunlight was making too
much of the yellow. The blood didn’t appear on the ground.
Vincent, his brother, jumped down from the rig to crouch
beside him. Their faces were almost always threatened by a
blue beard. The younger, Vincent, was a quicker, more
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Eugene was still at work at four in the afternoon. The site felt
scorched, and at five the sun had only just given up bullying
the ground in front of the cabin. He sat in the shade and
waited for the site manager, who finally emerged and began
fitting a padlock to the door. Eugene didn’t get up. ‘I’ll be
working my notice, Al, from tomorrow.’
‘Is that right?’ Al didn’t turn.
‘I’m away to London.’
‘There’s work enough here.’ Al stared at him for a
moment. ‘If I’d quit every time . . .’
‘It’s still cheap at the Beacon.’
‘The pub your father was at?’
‘Aye, and Jack’s still there.’
Al pulled at the padlock. ‘Thought that’d be the last place
you’d go.’ He checked the padlock again. ‘You told your
mother yet?’
‘Not yet.’
Al put the keys in his pocket. ‘Good luck.’
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drive a crane in the Mile End Road for a man named Buck
O’Halloran. More money. The kids were older now; he
visited home rarely.
Eugene grew stealthy in Salthill and, with his father mostly
absent, he convinced himself that he could live with the
disgraces that Seamus had left behind, discovering that if he
kept mobile, the shame wouldn’t cling and he could whip out
of it, leaving it hanging in mid-air, confused as a pall of smoke
on a still day. Without his father, Eugene grew odd and dark
and strangely beautiful, and began to gain a very quiet
confidence. He started to see a future without a past so, more
than anything, he was angry to hear of the Big One: he had
sincerely hoped that his father might have learned to keep
his accidents to himself over in London.
A neighbour told of the injuries, standing at the door to
the kitchen. His mother stood at first with hands on hips,
daring the news to be terrible. Then she crouched with her
hands over her ears. This time, Seamus hadn’t injured
himself, she could have stood up to that, but had let the crane
block cripple a ground worker. His boss, Buck, had lost the
job and Seamus might be looking at a prison sentence. Again,
it came at Eugene like a smell; invisible but taking away the
space to breathe.
It was a year after it had happened that Seamus came
home for good, but on his return it seemed, to the rest of the
family at least, that the house had grown. Although he was
only in his late forties, Seamus was smaller and softer in ways
that made him upsetting to his family. He took his meals on
his own and drank in the house because the pub was
changed and uncomfortable, and the unpredictability of it
exhausted him. There was a jukebox now, up on one wall.
He didn’t know the regulars and no longer had the agility to
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Della was sweating already and it was just morning, just June.
From her bedroom window beside the Beacon, she watched
the greenish light frame the point of the spire of Christ
Church in Spitalfields. The morning carried sounds of
stragglers from last night, hooting up the alley from Grey
Eagle Street and down the way from Club Row. A raucous
caw, then a momentous silence. She didn’t like to deal with
noises like this before she started serving. A woman screamed
and Della held her breath until laughter erupted. Exhaling,
she felt her heart slow effortfully as the voices receded.
She put on a floor-length viscose wrap printed with large
purple and orange orchids, the belt trailing. She left the
bedroom and walked along the corridor that joined the house
to the pub. At the bottom of the stairs to the rooms she rented
out, a Miller Lite mirror showed her once again that the skin
of her face served her better now, in her fifties, than it had in
her twenties. More under it, she thought. It had been stolid
in her youth but had weathered well. Her hair was burgundy
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and when she realized, she pulled it sharply away. She had to
get up, move, do something. The key to the End was in the
toby jug with the leprechaun’s face beside the till. Scrabbling
for it, she got dirt under her nails.
The End was a tiny box room at the north end of an unlit
corridor that lay above the pub. It mirrored the one
downstairs that ran from the back of the bar to where Della
lived. There were six rooms for rent upstairs, inconsistently
decorated and maintained such that entering any of them
gave you a flavour not just of the period when Della had felt
forced into decorating but also her mood at the time. In room
six, Jack’s room, she had become so angry with the watery
paint she had bought from an Iranian over the bar that she
had moved on to fitting the light. In her easy fury, she had
yanked the pendant off the ceiling but had put a bulb in it
anyway. Undressed, the bulb was slung, slanting under the
fitting’s wiry guts.
The Iranian had given her a bunch of ragged peacock
feathers when she had collared him over the paint. There
weren’t enough to make a satisfactory arrangement on the
wall of room six but, with coloured drawing pins, she made
a sparse fan. The painting had never been finished but Jack
hadn’t complained and she wondered if he had even noticed.
It was difficult to complain when you didn’t pay rent and
Jack had not paid a penny since Seamus had left. Della tried
very hard not to think about this.
She hadn’t opened the End for years and mounted the
stairs to the rooms slowly. As she reached the top, she could
hear someone clanking around in the communal kitchen and
hoped to God it wasn’t Jack. She stood still to listen, thinking
that if she was quick at the top of the flight he might not see
her sidle down the corridor. Then came sounds of swifter
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Eugene hobbled on his sore foot to O’Malley’s Stroll Inn for
a leaving party to which he had only invited his brother. He
looked around him as he walked. With two days left before
his departure, he was paralysed by curiosity about whether
he’d see Theresa.
They had been at the lough when he had found her out.
He felt foolish when he thought of his mood on that day
because he had been suffused with contentment, stuffed with
it. Now it made him grimace. The memory would be for ever
a dirty film over his pure, deep feelings for her.
He remembered being able to smell the shade of the
cemetery a way off; the half-life of mulch under the yews.
The pungency of wild garlic and the tang of the pewter lake
crowded out the cloudiness and the slight chill of the day. He
remembered reflecting that he could almost smell the time
of year, and felt that he had learned at least something in his
small, circular life, and with the clarity of satisfaction he felt
wise, that he could trust his senses.
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There’s a clanking from the kitchen, like metal on glass. It
nearly pulls Jack out of the sticky net of his dream, but then
the noise stops and Jack sinks back into sleep.
In his dreams Jack is very good at walking. He is so good at
it that he rolls seamlessly into dancing mid-stroll. He wears tap-
dancing shoes, and as he turns corners he takes flight for a
couple of steps. He can steer with his guts somehow. On
touch-down he realizes he can leap balletically across roads
with a lift of his heel. He can be tall just by wanting to be, and
when he’s out of town, he finds himself scissoring and curving
through trees like a pair of compasses. When he’s asleep, Jack
can finish sentences and make decisions without panicking. He
goes into shops and orders whole lists of things from memory,
and when it comes to paying for them, he knows why he’s
standing there, and he can get the change out of his pocket and
place it on a counter or in a waiting hand without creating a fuss
of showering pennies. When he’s not awake, Jack can keep his
clothes clean and can answer any question you want to fire at
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him. Floating around the city, he sits in pubs all over town
where the drinks are on the landlord and he has a seat at every
bar, where the young are in thrall to his years of experience
as a labourer and the old pay homage to him with meaningful
pats to the back. His hair is still tough and fights back when
he pushes his hand through it; it’s not grey-yellow but a honey
colour. There’s still force in his arm, he can trust his grip and
has no reason to think that his legs will ever give way.
His dreams make sure that Seamus is still here in his old
room, where Jack can speak to him with easy confidence.
Jack grabs him and holds him and tries to squeeze him into
hearing his silent ‘Don’t go,’ but Seamus is always stiff in his
arms, playing dead with embarrassment, and when he is
released he punches the big knot of Jack’s shoulder. They
share jokes that don’t seem to have words and it’s almost the
same as it was when Seamus was here. But sometimes Jack
gets the old anxiety because Seamus is always just about to
leave him, and when he does, it’s still always three in the
morning. Seamus has left the big brown envelope many
times, stuffed with money and the letter, on Jack’s table. The
conversation plays again.
‘You’ll have to give it to her. I can’t do it.’
‘Who?’
‘Cilla fucking Black.’ A pause, then he whispers, ‘Della.
Now don’t forget, you gob-shite, and I’ll see you at home!’
‘Get to fuck.’
But Seamus isn’t joking any more, and even though he’s
supposed to be asleep, Jack can tell that the bluff courage that
supports Seamus’s voice is watery.
Seamus always leaves with the same face, with the smile of
someone who is already ashamed of their weakness even
though the cowardly act is not yet behind them.
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