Penelope stood in the center of the room. Her arms were extended to allow the
servant to attend her. The room was bare and white, and there was only one other to
She waited for a minute or two as the old crone (the words were affectionate ones,
thought in the same way that a man might call his beloved wife a pig) finished her work,
as she clipped and hemmed and sewed until her charge was presentable. There was no
copper mirror in the room, no way to ensure that the woman did her work well. There
was only Penelope’s faith in her, born of long years together. When she pronounced the
task finished Penelope had not a second’s hesitation in lowering her arms and smoothing
At the same moment the bell rang, and the clear silver tones found their way
inside her body and gave her an energy and a joy and a clarity of mind that she had not
“You’re as lovely as a goddess, miss,” she said. “As lovely as Chryses herself.
“Perhaps they will sing of you,” she said. “The woman who had power to make
The old woman turned red, both in gratitude and in humble recognition of her
own quiet skill. Penelope laughed again and kissed her brow.
“Go in peace, my dear,” she said. “May the gods smile at our next meeting.”
“And may they grant us peace until that day,” she servant finished. She stood for
a moment, admiring her mistress. Then she turned and walked out of the room.
Penelope stood still in breathless exultation. The moment was like standing at the
edge of the river, and knowing that the water would be cool delight to your skin, but
hesitating just a moment to enhance the sweetness. Tonight marked the first time she
would be publicly identified as his, a week and three days before the wedding itself. Just
She took a deep, shuddering breath. The guests would be waiting. Time for
celebration would come soon enough. Now it was time to meet the village outside. She
Marble colonnades and thatched roofs greeted her eyes. The great courtyard of
her parents’ estate was connected to the room. From it a thousand sights and smells and
sounds struck her senses. A group of minstrels were entertaining passers-by with songs
from the Roman lands. Tunics rustled in the same easy breeze that carried gossip from
the housewives. In the center of the courtyard a lamb was roasting on a spit. All of it
was traditional, all of it familiar, and all its familiarity was only a tribute to the utter
Penelope fought again the pinpricks of joy in her eyes, searched for some bit of
steady normalcy to keep her anchored. She found her parents at the places of honor at the
Her mother in her passionate devotion kissed Penelope on her cheeks. Her father
in his gentleness pulled her into a soft embrace. Neither of them said anything, but all
that they meant was in their eyes, in the joyous but almost disbelieving way they touched
She sat down at the table and watched as their goblets were filled with new wine.
She was not offered it; a bride to be could not drink of the fruit of the vine until she was
consecrated to her husband. Penelope did not mind. What she did mind, what was at
once anchor and silent tormentor, was the pretense of ritual, the act that she and all of her
guests put on to pretend to convince themselves that this was a normal festival of
engagement. As though any semblance of normalcy could be real, knowing the identity
of the groom. The illusion kept her sane, it also seemed close to driving her mad, to
spurring her heart to leaps and still greater leaps until it collapsed, to cutting off her
breath until he came, to stirring her emotions to a fevered pitch that could be stopped
only by –
A trumpet! Yes, he was coming! He was here! She stood immediately, and the
guests followed suit. For a moment the courtyard was silent but for the crackle of flames.
Then he came into view, and though no one spoke a word or twitched a limb the place
came alive with crackling energy and deafening noise. He walked straight through the
crowd, a head taller than every man, his smile brighter, his hair fuller, his eyes more
alive. He stepped through the sea of faces until he came to Penelope’s side.
She wished to cry out in delight, and also to be silent; to rush into his arms, and
also to be still. She wished, most of all, to speak, to say something to the man she knew
nearly nothing about but would soon be pledged to forever, but he placed a finger to her
hands for the attention of the people. He was a tall, thin man who had been in service to
Alexander for nineteen years. He spoke with both the rustic confidence of rote and also
“We have upon this spit a dead lamb,” he said, his deep, strong voice rolling
across the courtyard. “It has been slaughtered for our sustenance, and for that of our
children. But on this night of joy it is fitting that we should offer up a live one to the
The crowed bowed their heads as one, all of them but the man at Penelope’s side,
who surveyed the scene with a cool confidence that it is not fitting for a man to have.
After a brief silence a newborn lamb was led to the priest, who placed his hands over it
and offered up a silent prayer. Beside Penelope her husband-to-be smiled as if he could
The priest finished his prayer and withdrew the ceremonial dagger (a bronze
blade, set into a golden hilt laid with rubies) from his robes. He lifted it above the lamb,
Beside Penelope the god of love quietly slipped his hand into hers. “Thank you.”
* * * * * *
The first time Penelope heard the word destiny was the first time it was applied to
comprehended, in thoughts she would never hear spoken, since she was an infant. But no
man had ever spoken to her plainly until the purple-robed priest of Alexander looked
down at her and calmly told her who she was and what she was expected to do.
Her mother had woken her up that morning with the sun, and had personally
helped her to bathe and be clothed. Penelope had watched with pleased confusion. Her
mother and father were very rich and she seldom saw them until the sun had begun its
descent in the sky. But no complaint rose on her lips; Penelope loved her mother very
dearly.
But that morning she was acting peculiarly. She was quiet, and when Penelope
asked her mother to be excused to attend her lessons her mother said that her lessons had
been set aside for a special meeting with the priest of Alexander. She would not tell
Then the priest himself had come and had asked her mother to leave him alone
with Penelope. He was a quiet sort of man, with a booming voice that was only raised
when he performed his duties at the temple. Penelope liked him in his own manner, but
she could not help but feel strange in his presence. He had a holiness about him, a
separation from the simple and mundane and physical that came (she knew this, even at
her tender age) from long hours spent in the presence of the gods. She found that she
could not meet his eyes for more than an instant, and she answered all his questions in the
The priest straightened his back. “It is good that this is so. You sense that I have
fellowship with the gods, and that I am changed for it. But what is strange to you now
shall one day be familiar. You shall have a greater bond with the gods than I. You shall
know Alexander – even, perhaps, Alexander’s father” (here the priest bowed, for the
father of Alexander and all the gods was holy and just beyond the knowledge of mortals).
Penelope sat still. Then she asked the only question that came to her mind:
“Why?”
The priest’s smile became grave. “It is your destiny, child,” he said. “You were
chosen by Alexander through his Oracle, on the day you were born. You are one of the
Great Ones. You will be blessed by the gods, but especially by the Lord Alexander.”
The priest shrugged. “I do not know. I am young for a priest, but even those who
have been long in the gods’ service cannot predict their will. They are without chains,
child, free as we are not. Lord Alexander will do as he wishes with you. But it is only
fitting that you should know, that you should be aware of your calling.”
something. But she had nothing to say. She did not understand the things the priest had
said. She did not know what it meant; she knew only that it was of great and grand
nature and that it had to do, somehow, with her. So she was silent.
Minutes passed by in that discomfiting silence. Then the priest stood up, bowed
his head, and told Penelope that he had business to attend to, and that she would see him
“And may they grant us peace until that day,” she answered.
When the priest had departed, her mother came back into the room. They both
were silent. Part of Penelope longed to ask her mother what all of it meant, but another
part of her said that this was something even her mother knew nothing of.
But she did speak, later that day, with her dearest friend, Demas, as he returned
home from his father’s forges (in truth the forges belonged to Penelope’s own parents,
but Penelope in her mind always thought of them as belonging to Demas’ family).
Penelope told him the whole story, and Demas had listened in his quiet, attentive
way. He did not speak until she had finished, and then it was only to ask.
“What is destiny?”
Penelope had waved her hand airily, as she had seen her mother do when
speaking to the less educated. “What each of us was born to do,” she said. “Our purpose,
moment Penelope was puzzled that anyone could be ignorant of the poets. Then she
remembered that he was only a blacksmith’s son, and that the poets to him were as
* * * * * * *
It was Demas who was Penelope’s first friend. His parents were slaves to her
own; his mother helped clean the house and his father served as blacksmith for the estate
and for the village. They were good slaves, and Penelope’s parents treated them well.
The family lived only a short distance from Penelope’s own home, and her parents
Demas was as solid as the metal he and his father worked with. He stayed in the
forges from dawn until dusk, but he was given an hour in the morning and at midday with
which to amuse himself. Every day he would set out a few yards down the path and wait
for Penelope to come down the road and take him walking. He was just as taciturn with
his friends as he was in the forge. He spoke little, seldom embraced her, and never took
her hand. But he was always present when she wanted or needed him. If she was excited
or curious he would listen to her exclamations or her probing questions. If she had
discovered a new game he would patiently play it in spite of his weariness. And as they
grew older he would put a hand on Penelope’s shoulder if she began to cry, or pick her up
It was their difference of birth – the very thing that should have created a distance
between them too great to overcome – that made them close. Penelope, for all her
kindness and generosity of spirit, was full of the sophistication and mannerisms of
nobility. Demas had all the simplicity of a peasant, but with a heart that was fully
devoted to the things he loved. She was enlivened by his simple sincerity; he was awed
But as the seasons changed, as leaves died and rose and died and rose again, the
minds of the people towards Penelope changed, their talk fell more and more to the
mysterious calling of the Oracle. She grew more beautiful by the day. Her kindness was
unmatched by any in the village. She held herself with more grace and poise than the
highest of nobles, and she was more humble than the poorest of beggars. The blessings
of Alexander were clear. But what was the child’s destiny? What was she to do?
One day as she was walking through the streets a woman approached her with her
little daughter. The girl could not be older than nine, and she looked at Penelope as
though she were looking at a prophet. The woman eyed her with fear, and with hope, and
“Bless my daughter, Penelope,” she said. “Please, Great One, bless her.”
Penelope was taken aback. “If you need a blessing why do you not take her to the
The woman shook her head. “You were chosen by Lord Alexander himself.
Where you go, his spirit goes in greater measure than in any temple.”
The woman bowed her head. “We are poor, Penelope,” she said. “My daughter
must have some provision, but my husband and I will not have money to help her in the
future. Her only chance to be happy is if she has a husband. You know the god of love
more intimately than any other mortal. Pray to Alexander, and ask him to find a husband
for my daughter.”
Penelope listened to the woman intently, but all the while she felt ill. She had
only ever prayed in the closed walls of her own home and in the silence of the temple.
And this woman was asking her to pray for something she did not know would be
granted. She was making Penelope the master of her fate. What would come if Penelope
failed? If she prayed, but to no effect? If this little girl spent her life waiting for her
blessing from Alexander, waiting for some prince to carry her away, only to find herself a
grey-haired old woman with nothing to her name but broken dreams?
“I cannot, ma’am,” she said. “I don’t know if he would listen to me, and I would
“She is condemned already,” the woman said with tears. “Please, Penelope!”
Penelope took a deep breath. It was impossible. A foolish fancy. The gods
would not give this power to mortals. But Penelope knelt down beside the little girl and
“Lord Alexander,” she said in a quavering voice. “I beseech you, bless this child.
Watch over her, and if it pleases you, find her a husband that is fitting for her.”
For a moment nothing happened. Then, red mist rose from the ground and
covered her hand. When it disappeared there was a purple flame upon her palm – the
mark of Alexander.
The old woman fell to her knees and cried out an ancient blessing upon the gods.
Then she kissed Penelope on the brow, and led her child away, singing a hymn.
Penelope stared at her hands, then at the sky. She was not certain, but she thought
she could hear a voice in her mind say, It shall be as you ask, my dear.
She shook her head, filled with the wonder and the terror of the gods. Penelope
turned and saw the priest of Alexander standing in the distance, watching her and
smiling. He bowed his head, and she saw his lips form the words: “This shall not be the
last.”
Then she walked home, looking neither to the left or the right, straight to Demas’
forge. He was not inside. She fell down and covered her face with her hands, trembling.
She looked up, and Demas was standing over her. His brown eyes were tight with
Penelope took in a deep, shuddering breath and told her story. She told him of the
voice that she had heard, and of the priest’s words, and of her own horror at the thought
of what might happen to the child. She told him everything, and when she finished she
“What does it mean, Demas?” she said. “The mark of Alexander…my prayer
Demas heaved a great sigh. “I don’t know, Penelope,” he said. “I will not lie and
give you answers I do not have. But I do know this: you helped that girl. You did
something for her even though it frightened you and you did not know that it would
work. That means more than anything else. It shows…” he paused, his brows knitted, as
he struggled to find the words he wanted. “It shows just what sort of person you are. It
Penelope placed her hand over her heart. Demas’ words were like balm to soothe
her fear, and she embraced him again in gratitude. “You are too good to me,” she said.
When she pulled away Demas’ face had turned bright red. “I don’t know about
that,” he said. Then, in jest, he added, “Perhaps I am part of your blessing from
Alexander.”
Penelope laughed. “Perhaps,” she said. “But I have a feeling that Alexander’s
blessing will come in the form of a husband. Perhaps some prince, or lord, some man
with a great love to give…” her voice trailed off in longing. The thing she had given to
Beside her Demas smiled, though his smile seemed to her as though it were
wooden. “Alexander is a god of love, isn’t he?” he said. “Do you not always say that
friendship is the love most praised by the poets and the philosophers?”
Penelope laughed again. “Indeed,” she said. “But Alexander is first a god of
romantic love.”
“He is?” said Demas, and there was a light in his eyes. She knew that it meant
something to him, something tremendous, but she could not divine what it was, and when
In fact, Penelope herself did not know the significance of this simple fact. Neither
* * * * * *
A young girl’s twenty-first birthday was a grand occasion. It marked her passing
from childhood to full womanhood. It marked that she was now held accountable under
the ancient laws of the gods. It marked that she was ready for Alexander to give her a
husband.
The priest had summoned Penelope a few days before the celebration. He had sat
her down, looked her in the eyes, and told her that he believed that Alexander might soon
manifest himself.
“How?” she had asked, with bright eyes. The blankness, the unknowing
indifference that had been present at their first meeting, was now quite gone. She knew
Alexander. She had performed other signs in the years since she had prayed over the
young girl, had gone to the temple daily to worship. She had not heard his voice again,
but she felt certain at times that were she to turn around she would see the god of love,
The priest smiled. “Always ‘how’ and why’,” she said. “You know that I do not
know. He may mark you. He may present you with a suitor. He may do anything or
nothing at all. But the twenty-first birthday is when a woman is given into the care of
Penelope had thanked the priest, bowed, and excused herself. But the light in her
eyes and in her heart was not diminished. It remained with her as she stepped through the
streets, and it drew the people to her in even greater numbers than they usually flocked –
the people she loved, that she had spent all her days with. They had always loved her,
and she was stricken with gratitude in these moments when they showed it.
She went to the baker’s, to ensure that the promised loaves would come. She
went to her father as he rested from his long talks with ambassadors and traders from far-
off lands. She went to Demas’ forge and extracted a promise from him that he would
come to the celebration early and sit with her at the place of honor. Then she went to her
home, and rested, and let the days following melt into a stream of expectation and
All of her small village was gathered in the courtyard of her home. The elders,
and her parents, and Demas sat at the head table, while all the other guests were seated at
other tables. To the side of the courtyard was a small pile of gifts brought by those
Penelope was veiled, and she was glad of it, for the gifts and the love of the
people swelled her heart and brought sweet tears to her eyes. She was a woman, now.
She carried the sacred light, the warm strength of a woman, and it was all due to the
people before her. Beside her Demas smiled as though he could see the tears behind her
There was food, and drinks, and games. Joyous talk floated lightly in the air,
whisked away and back again by the wind. Friends came to embrace, old women to
impart wisdom. Demas presented her with a polished bronze mirror for her bedroom.
Her parents wiped tears from their own eyes and told her that they were proud.
When the sun began to sink, and the sky to be painted by deep hues of purple and
blue, all of the guests gathered in the center of the courtyard. Penelope and the priest of
Alexander stood in the midst of them. The priest gave her a blessing, and she smiled
through the veil. Then he led the village in a prayer to Alexander, and her swelling heart
was pierced with longing, by the desire for the great god to show himself, to
The priest finished his prayer, and the temple dancers performed a dance in honor
of the great Father of the gods, whose name was not spoken by mortals, for by his name
all things were spoken into existence. All of the people bowed their heads in reverence,
Darkness descended as the last note rang strong and clear. The priest inclined his
head to Penelope; it was time to remove the veil. It was a symbolic act, representing the
removal of the last barrier between her and the gods. Penelope hesitated a moment in
fear and anticipation. Then she lifted her shaking fingers and lifted the veil.
A great pale light blinded her. It was beautiful, and of such beauty that it nearly
broke her heart in two, but it was also of such fearsome strength that she felt she had been
stricken a powerful but painless blow. Around her – though she could not see – she knew
that all the people felt the same. And as one they gazed in fear at the light.
It began to dim, to dwindle until it illuminated only a small space. Then it formed
into the shape of a man, and the light continued to dim until only a man was left standing
He was the loveliest man Penelope had seen or dreamed of. His skin was smooth
and dark and fair like the pools of incense in the temples, his hair cascaded to his
shoulders in curls. His eyes were lit by fire; fire that spoke of great passion and devotion.
And around him and in him was such a presence of power and beauty that Penelope
wanted both to embrace him and to shrink away because of her unworthiness.
She had no doubt who it was she saw. No one did. They were gazing with their
A man in the crowd cried out and fell upon his knees, with his face to the ground.
The crowd followed his example until everyone bowed but Penelope, who was still too
full of awe to move. For a moment she and Alexander stood; twin points of light on a
still water of people. Then he stepped forward, and the crowd parted before him. He
walked without glancing to the left or to the right until he was near Penelope.
She gazed at him in wonder, in fear, in elation; all so heavy on her heart that she
could almost feel them in her veins. Alexander met her eyes with his own, and he smiled.
Then he said, in a voice like the sea, “Penelope, you are the most beautiful among
* * * * * *
Alexander spoke as though he could hardly restrain the tempest of his heart. His
smooth skin was stronger than iron and yet softer than silk. He was immensely powerful,
and dazzled the people of the village with his feats. He was quick to anger, and not a
little proud.
These were the things Penelope knew about her husband-to-be. They were
kernels of truth; fragments of a great mystery she would never truly know but would
In those first moments of their meeting, when Penelope was still rooted to the
ground, he had taken her into his arms. It was then that she first felt his power, his skill
to reach a human’s heart and touch it beyond measure. She seemed to hear soft music,
and to smell the ocean, and she felt his warm caress. All that she found lovely or worthy
filled her up, and she knew that it was by Alexander’s bidding that this was so, and her
heart leapt with joy when she thought that she was to be his wife.
Their engagement was a departure from tradition, even without the nature of the
groom. There was no sacrifice, no consulting of the Oracle. There was no formal
declaration of vows, and no dowry. All of these things, Alexander said, were ways that
men bonded themselves to each other. He needed none of them. His word, he said, the
appearance a feast had been ordered in his honor, and all the riches of the people flowed
into praise to the god and exultation at his coming. The priest told Penelope that she was
the greatest of the chosen, that no such thing had ever happened under the sun, that the
poets would remember her always as the woman lovely enough to be the bride of the god.
She was grateful for his kind words, but those things were not important to her. What
was important was that she had found her place, her love. And she knew that it was to be
The wedding was to be two weeks from the day of her birthday. Alexander had
taken over the preparations; he said that he had thousands of years experience in
This was the one tradition Alexander wished to honor. He said that she ought to be seen,
that all ought to know that he had claimed her as his bride before men and the gods.
The next day Alexander took her to an empty field and told her he wished to give
her an early wedding present. She had looked around in befuddlement, and Alexander
laughed. He turned his eyes to the ground and clapped his hands together.
Mist and clouds descended from the sky, moved as if by the unseen fingers of an
artist, and came to rest on the ground. Then all at once the mist shaped itself into a
magnificent palace far greater than anything else in the village. The fog was pink, and
from within it lights sparkled, and Penelope laughed in delight at the beauty of it. She
was preparing to touch it and let it disperse, to thank Alexander for his show, but the mist
fled of its own accord. In its place was a gleaming white palace.
Penelope gasped. The columns were purest marble. Gold traced the contours of
the building, and great white steps led to a massive oak doorway. Penelope began to
ascend them.
A cool, strong hand pulled her back. Alexander was smiling. “Not until after our
marriage, my dear,” he said. “I wish it to be a surprise. But I wanted you to see it now,
Penelope gasped again at the word, and fell in his arms with the shock and the joy
of it. “It’s – it’s…” she fumbled for the right word. “So much…to see something like
that…to see it appear in the twinkling of an eye, when it would have taken many men a
Alexander chuckled, and her face pressed to his chest felt it as a rumble. “My
dear,” he said, “Do not be so taken aback. You will see greater wonders than this, and it
will seem strange to your eyes. It is no fault of your own that you were born mortal.”
A sudden pang pulsed in her heart. Penelope had no visible reason to feel it,
nothing he had said was rude or crass or fearful. But something – something in what the
Then it passed, and Penelope pushed the memory away. It was nothing, only a
natural fear, the sort of thing that all young brides felt. She shook her head and smiled at
Alexander, looked at his perfect beauty and at the perfect house he had made. Joy filled
her again.
Two days after the incident she had finished her work, and as she gazed at the
moon she realized she wished to see Demas. It had been six days since their last meeting,
and Penelope knew that she had to see him, that she did not want him to feel lonely, that
she had to share her coming marriage with the man who was her best friend. She put on a
Alexander was waiting as she turned around the bend. He smiled when he saw
her.
Penelope smiled back at him. “I’m going to see Demas,” she said.
Alexander nodded, and his smile persisted. But Penelope looked into his eyes and
saw that there was a hint of shadow there. “I see,” he said. “I will await your return.”
He kissed her, and she felt as though she would swoon. Then they broke apart,
and Penelope began to walk away. But as she did a thought struck her. Alexander had
been in the house, in the chamber they had found for him, when she decided to leave.
“Alexander,” she called out, “How did you come to the bend before me? Did you
run?”
Alexander’s face filled with a reckless amusement. “No,” he said; and the hint of
shadows became full grown ones, and they danced in his eyes. “I willed it. You poor
mortals. I shall never understand how you can bear to move so slowly.”
The grief emptied her out again, the grief at she knew not what. And now it was
laced with terror. Terror, because Penelope had seen what was in his eyes, because she
knew – though she did not know whence the knowledge came or how she was sure of it –
that he had intended his remark to wound, that he knew in his heart how horrible a thing
he had said in the simple words, knew it full well even if she did not.
Her legs had ceased to carry her. Her breath was coming in gasps. The icy chill
in her heart had shackled her to the ground. No! she whispered to herself. It isn’t true, it
With all her will she seized the shackles, and broke them, and forced her heart to
be still and her breath to come easy again. Peace returned, slowly. Now only one fear
remained. Penelope turned around, but Alexander was gone. How long he had been
Penelope shook herself and pushed the thoughts away again. She would go to
She walked down the path that led from her house to the forge. The old road felt
different, and Penelope realized that she had not put on her sandals. She realized also
that it was right that she was barefoot, that it somehow captured the essence of the
comfort and ease and warmth that she sought from the familiar way and the familiar face
The forge rose up in her sight, and she entered it without a sound. Demas was at
his anvil, as he had been many times before during her visits. His father had died three
years before, and she often came to see Demas and watch him work. It was hard,
physical work, without any lofty phrases or rhymes to praise it, but there was something
in the sight of a man doing work he loved that was more beautiful to her than any of the
But tonight something was different in his manner. The swing of his hammer was
swifter, its clang on the metal louder, his brows knit closer together. Penelope saw that
Demas’ eyes were filled – not with malice and the will to hurt as Alexander’s had been –
Penelope almost turned away, as she would if she had seen a man undressing.
She had never seen Demas in such a mood before, and the sight seemed a private thing
that ought to be left as such. But as she turned to leave his eyes rose and saw her, and the
suffering seemed to depart. Demas put down his hammer and came to her. He smiled,
then took her in an embrace. When they parted Penelope looked at him, and she knew
that she could not ask him his tribulations, that he would keep them clutched to his chest
“Nothing of importance,” he said. “It’s good to see you. I know you have been
busy preparing, and I don’t complain. But it’s good to see you.”
“It’s good to see you, too,” she said, and as she said it she knew how fully she
meant it. “Things are not the same without you present.”
The smile on Demas’ face became waxen and stretched in a thin, grim line. “I
suppose you have been spending a great deal of time with your husband-to-be.”
“Yes,” said Penelope. Demas said nothing. Then, after a minute’s long silence,
The question was a simple one, but Penelope was long in answering. “It is
difficult to describe Alexander. His character is elusive, fluid. Like water. To try and
lines in his young face. He waited before continuing, then softly, hesitantly, he said, “Is
The question was the stroke that felled the dam holding back her uncertainty, and
the tears that flowed from her eyes were merely drops of the grief that had consumed her
these two times, the grief that had no name, no source, but poured onward even so.
Demas stood distantly for a moment, then pulled her closer to him. She cried and he held
her, until the tears ceased their cascade down her cheeks and her breathing lost its
serrated edge.
Demas whispered into her hair, and it was a whisper of suffering and fear and
Penelope sprang back. “Oh, no,” she said, horrified. “He has done nothing. It is
nothing of that sort. It is only…” and as she spoke the gap in her knowledge was filled,
the nameless grief found a name. “I am unworthy,” she said, and her voice trembled with
the truth and the power of the words. “Unworthy to be the wife of a god. I haven’t
earned it. I cannot earn it. There is nothing I can give him.”
A look of steel such as Penelope had never seen sprang in to Demas’ usually
gentle eyes. He placed firm hands on her shoulders, and his voice was of iron. “No. Do
not say that. Never say that. He is a god, and I am only a blacksmith, but I know that it
only Demas’ customary kindness. But as she looked into his eyes she knew that he
meant it with a whole heart. New tears – tears of gratitude – filled her eyes.
“Demas,” she whispered. “That is the kindest thing anyone has ever said to me.”
“And the most true,” he said. And now the steel in his eyes was lit by fire, by
some all-consuming passion that left him for a moment staring into the distance. Then he
turned to her and said, “Penelope, I have something I must do. Will you be all right?”
He held up a hand. “I will tell you, but not yet. I must finish my work first.”
Then he bowed his head, and Penelope walked outside. And it seemed to her that
the stars in the sky were like the lights in Demas’ eyes.
* * * * * *
Five days before her wedding Penelope was walking home from the market. She
had needed fresh herbs for supper and she enjoyed coming to talk to the people. As she
was walking she passed by an open courtyard and heard a woman’s voice speaking.
Penelope was filled with wonder. The voice was speaking Penelope’s own
language, but with a strange accent, and the voice seemed to sway with the words it was
saying. Penelope turned to the side and stepped into the courtyard.
An old Jewess sat on the stone, and around her were three children. She looked
once at Penelope, then motioned at the ground before her. Penelope sat.
The woman was telling a story from her own people. She had a husky voice, but
it was rich, and it seemed to Penelope as if it brought to life the things it spoke.
“Then Delilah said to him” (the Jewess said) “How can you say, ‘I love you’
when your heart is not with me? You have deceived me these three times and have not
that his soul was annoyed unto death. So he told her all that was in his heart and said to
her, ‘A razor has never come on my head, for I have been a Nazirite to God from my
mother’s womb. If I am shaved, then my strength will leave me and I shall become weak
The woman carried on, but Penelope stood, bowed her head, and walked. She
walked now with purpose. For the words of the old story were like keys in her mind, and
they had unlocked the secret that she had searched for and had not found. She knew now
a way to prove herself. She knew what she could give him.
Penelope walked with all the haste she could muster until she came to her home.
Then she set down the herbs and called out to the air:
“Alexander.”
He appeared instantly at her side. Penelope took a deep breath and stretched a
Penelope put forth all her strength to steady her voice, but inside her heart was
trembling as it never had before. This was the one thing she could offer him. Her word.
Her integrity. For Alexander to tell her such a thing would be for him to have such faith
in another as (she was sure) he had never had. And though the trust he gave her would be
his, it was her gift that would prove it true, it would be the iron of her commitment that
gave it value, it would be her vow of silence that was offered in exchange for his
confidence.
“A weakness?” said Alexander.
“Yes,” she said. It cost her all her effort to raise her voice above a whisper.
then he paused. And that pause was like the moment when gold enters the fires to be
purged or destroyed. “But even the wife of a god must tread carefully. What you ask is
And with those words all of the dreams Penelope had of their future, any thought
of mending the wound in her heart; all of it shattered like a drop of ice on a hard road.
The heady illusion of the last week vanished, and she saw that she was to be a beggar.
He would feed her all of her days, and give continuously, and she would remain huddled
in the rags of her mortality, crying in despair for her poverty and yet remaining by his
side.
All of this she felt, but her face and her voice gave signs only of innocent
disappointment. “Oh, very well,” she said. “It was merely a bit of human curiosity.”
He smiled at her, then looked at the herbs she had brought. “Didn’t you forget the
sage?”
“Oh yes!” she cried, and her voice was unnaturally high. “Let me go back to get
it.”
But Penelope did not go back to the market. As soon as Alexander vanished she
He was nearly to the door when she charged through it. “Hello, Penelope,” he
Penelope looked into his eyes and saw that they were whole again. Even the remnants of
“Here,” he said, holding out his hand. Penelope saw now that in it was a parcel
wrapped in leather. “I wanted to give you your wedding present a little early.”
She stood for a moment, her mind full of tortured questions and shrieks gone
unuttered. Then she took the parcel from his hands. They were cut and bruised and burnt
He looked at her, puzzled, then he seemed to realize she was speaking about his
hands. “I don’t need a physician, Penelope,” he said, smiling. “Open the parcel, please.”
Accepting a gift from Alexander had filled her with fear, but a gift from Demas
seemed somehow a different matter. She tore apart the strings binding the leather, then
gasped.
Inside was a necklace, something the likes of which Demas had not made before.
The chain was nearly as fine as silk, and the links were as small as smithcraft could make
them. The chain held a piece of polished metal, beaten into a circle, and in the center of
the circle was a clear stone. The materials were not beautiful to look at in the dark
(Demas’ poverty did not allow for gold or silver), but when the light fell on them they
danced and shimmered with all of the colors of the rainbow, and the energy that Demas
“Demas,” she said, nearly breathless. “It’s beautiful –” she paused. “Is this how
Penelope looked at the necklace, and then at his hands, and then her eyes
widened. Demas had told her he was in love with her. Here, in this necklace, in this
thing born of the only skill he truly understood and truly possessed, here was his
unspoken passion, and she knew that it was a passion born in silence for many years. He
had admired her and loved her and he had said nothing, because he did not know how to
say it, because she had told him her dreams of lords and nobles and had sewed his lips
Alexander had declared his love as well. He had raised up a splendorous house
for her, and to other eyes the necklace might seem small beside it. But Demas’ love had
seared and scarred his hands, and where the palace had been built there was only the
smooth strong stone hands of her god. And she knew that she could not accept the latter
Even as she thought the words, and as their meaning was etched on her face, the
forge was filled with light. Alexander stood beside them. His eyes flitted between
“Hello, my dear,” he said, and his voice was soft, and cold, and the shadows
“Hello, Alexander,” she said. She felt no fear. Demas stood beside her, and his
quiet defiance seemed in her eyes to be more than all of Alexander’s evident rage.
“So,” Alexander said. “So. You have come here tonight. You have taken his gift
with joy, while you have taken mine with trepidation. You have had thoughts of
Penelope saw Demas stiffen, and she knew that he controlled himself for her sake.
“So I have come to warn you,” Alexander continued. “It is only fair. Should you
ever think again of betraying me, I will leave you. If you should ever seek to become an
adulteress I will abandon you to your mortality and leave you forever tortured by the
dreams of what you could have had. Do you understand me, oath-breaker? I –”
“I have broken no oath,” said Penelope, and she wondered that her voice was
clear and cold also. “I made you no promise. You required none. You have no hold on
Demas stared at her. Alexander was stricken dumb. The forge was silent but for
“You will leave me?” he screamed. “You, who are less than nothing, you, who are
fashioned from the dust of the earth, you will leave me, the all-powerful, the beautiful,
the fearsome? Do not think of it, brazen whore! Do not let the words pass your lips you
And with his words and the shadows in his eyes Penelope understood, and the
grief and the terror he had filled her with was gone utterly. It was not she who had
nothing to give. For all her fears of having nothing, it was not she who was empty.
Alexander had chosen her, not despite, but because she was mortal. He had chosen her
because she would give him everything that was worthy, all that she was, and he would
never have to lift a finger. He had chosen her to make her a beggar. He had filled her
with gifts and given her power to perform signs and wonders so that she would be praised
on earth, lauded and loved, and then she would be brought to her knees, cringing before
him. He had chosen her so that he would see his own beauty and power held higher than
the most beautiful of the mortals he had gifted. He had chosen her to break her back and
Penelope stepped back in revulsion, and she realized that she was speaking. “You
Alexander ceased to speak. He looked at her, and his eyes were filled with
ancient hatred, and the ground beneath her feet started to shake, and the metal of the
forge made a great noise. And above it all she heard Alexander whisper, “Prepare to die,
mortal.”
Penelope looked to Demas, and he to her, and there was no fear between them, no
terror at the thought of the death that was swiftly coming. In his eyes there was only
surprise, and in hers only calm certainty. She knew that there was no other man she
Then a voice spoke, and it was both louder and softer than anything Penelope had
ever heard, and it was more powerful even than Alexander’s, and altogether more
beautiful and more terrible, and the voice shook her soul and mended her heart at once.
The earth ceased its shaking. Alexander stood still, and he bowed his head. This,
then, was how he could be bound. Alexander could do not harm to real love. The god
His hands were still a moment, then they grasped her and held her close. She took her
She pulled away, and she saw that Demas was stricken dumb. His simple heart
was filled to burst, but his simple mind did not yet know what had happened.
Penelope embraced him again, and her head found its place on his shoulder. “I