my integrity Sometimes, that's all i seem to have..

i wanted to entitle this essay the loneliness of integrity to emphasize the solitary aspect but.. i like simplicity and can emphasize the other fact in the body (like i did).. There is Strength in integrity but it sure can be a lonely ride.. Don't get me wrong, i'm not constantly in others' faces with a chip on my shoulder ready to confront and attack when they violate my values; it's none of my damn business what others' values are.. But when people attack me in comments, or dismiss me on forum,.. i must stand my ground which is part of integrity. i admire the intent of Buddhism (for attempting to minimize human suffering) but to declare everything's illusion when the opposite is so clearly True: we live in inescapable reality, is misleading and in the end counterproductive. (i love their emphasis: inner peace brings outer peace but.. at what price? A delusional philosophy?) i love my mother beyond words (as i love my son Arthur) but.. As she proclaimed today the central premise of Catholicism: Love our Lord Jesus Christ above all else and love your neighbor as yourself, i had to voice again my integrity: in general, religions are divisive influences on society, so i cannot endorse any one particular religion, and besides, most people don't love themselves (they don't even know themselves; how can they love themselves when they don't truly know themselves?). As an example, most young women are obsessed with superficial appearance. Appearance is nothing about what's inside your heart/mind. So there are large segments of our population obsessed with essentially meaningless things.. This is the sad state of modern human life.. The 'solution' is not atheism (no matter how much i agree with their position/points), the solution is obviously not Buddhism, the solution is not Christianity (when you become religious out of need or insecurity, it's Wrong), the solution is not any need-based religion,.. One side point here is: do i ever hear from an atheist: Sam, you have some great points about religions.; never. i never hear from any atheist: Good point Sam! You have some great ideas! even though we agree on many points.. And so again my integrity alienates me from almost everyone.. Believe me, i've tried to embrace like-thinkers in the Natural Philosophy Alliance.. But we end up bandying about with details such as how to define determinism, what are pet theories and what are not,.. All the while never agreeing on anything except that we disagree. And this is the crux of the matter: what if sam has some truth to his ideas? What if one of his ideas is correct? The 'problem' with that issue is: if one of my ideas is correct, they all are because they're part of a consistent whole of integrity. Look, it's really simple what i propose: 1. we live in a 'local real' deterministic universe 2. it's finite (both 'up' and 'down') and had a beginning 3. it's the simplest structure that allows the chemistry of life 4. it's as if our universe was actually engineered for life 5. who engineered it? God. (About point 2, some versions of determinism view microscopic demarcation and macroscopic demarcation as infinite in extent.)

So depending on your definition of determinism, you can allow a Prime Cause .. or dismiss the need for one.. My point to a fellow determinist who adheres to infinity: finiteness and simplicity, as associated with determinism, have some incidental benefits.. i will copy-paste some portion of one email to him: and this perspective has some clear bonuses: 1. we're all united thru the creator 2. we cannot justify war and conflict for ANY reasons 3. if this is truly how the universe operates, we have proof God exists So.. i cannot emphasize enough how important this is.. Another side point: i have appealed to some Christian universities for support (moral/financial) but none has responded.. You would think that my emphasis for a Creator the need for a Prime Cause in this framework would garner some support in theistic academia.. i've appealed to atheists (because of our common points), i've appealed to Christians (because of this framework's dependency on the Prime Cause / God),.. Heck, i've appealed to the Pope based on that concept. But what do i consistently get from people? Dead air (apathy/indifference/..) The thing is.. This framework has the potential to unify humanity without precedence. This framework is based on science/engineering.. This framework is the ultimate humanist position.. Do i get support from the American Humanist Association? No of course not. Their emphasis is 'against religious domination of politics' in America. This includes an incidental position against deism. So there is no one 'on my side'.. The thing is.. i'm on everybody's side; i'm the ultimate humanist! .. So why is it so difficult to find support or collaborators? Is it because i don't subscribe exactly to their set of values? Or is there something more inimical behind it all? Satan? You dastardly dude.. You will lose in the end.. On my life, you will lose evil dude.. In All Admiration (but you will lose), sam