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Possibly second path, possibly review. I had begun doubting whether I had actually achieved first path.

Had massive weird 'access concentration' type pressue in the crown area going al l evening. But unlike access concentration this felt 'draining' and was bothering me. Couldn't figure out whether I should meditate or try to focus on something very solid to make it go away. Tried playing games, watching TV etc but it kept bugging me. So decided to medit ate. Don't know how long I meditated for maybe 1 - 1.5 hours. Long after the timer st opped. Very intense meditiaton, started with my standard noting insight practise got to EQ with some difficulty in Dark Night due to the head pressure Coasted for a while in EQ couldn't get fruitions. After this my memory is unclear on the exact sequence of events. Switched back and forth between concentration and insight to get the right balan ce. Also switch postures ever little bit from sitting to reclining. Somewhere in here had the most clear and crisp experiences of the arupa jhanas 5 and 6 that I have ever had. This was followed by a sort of a twirling, around of preception in a cylindrical fashion with my head at the center. Not dizzying mind you, nor plesant or unplesant. Don't think this was the 7th Jh ana though but cool regardless. Got out of there a few frutions in different 'batches'. Got out of meditation the pressure is gone, I am feeling refreshed. --------------------------------In hindsight I am not sure if all of these ones were real. --------------------------------OK so do some meditation practise. And again go to bed. Just observing things, follwoing the advice I got from a poster [instert name] o n the stream entry claim thread. Just observing things in EQ, get a dip (no sure if its a cessasation or not), bu t comming out of it I go into a Jhana. Which is nice. Then step over to my chair, to write about this in a journal format. Start doing some more meditaiton while balancing dispassionate awareness with a inclination towards getting a Cessation. I was feeling slightly sleepy before but that is gone. This is the most intense cessation since the first one I had, in terms of the af ter-glow.

There is a lot of clarity and I am feeling great. Like a knot has been untied in my brain. And a very nice after-glow that I am ch illing in right now. I am trying to get into a concentration jhana, but am finding it difficult for s ome reason. - 6:09 am 6:10-6L12am Ok just got into jhana. Very intense pleasureable sensation pouring out onto my mind. I think this is only the 1st Jhana, but it is intenst. Going to do a formal sit and see what happens. 6:14 am 6:40 am: Just finished my sit, again just paying attention to awareness inclinin g the mind to a cessestion. Started out with the pleasureable sensation, dropped stuff till I got to spaciou sness. Then started to just pay attention, inclining my mind to cessation. A couple of times was a feeling like the sense of 'I' dissolved, and the mind went blank. Not sure what this was it didn't feel like a cessation, I was and am still very much in the afterglow of what happened earlier so it influences my preception. Switch to reclining position 15 minutes in. Nothing major, just a lot of very fo cused and intense vibrations in the third eye area. It was so intese I was actually concerned it might screw up my brain. Tried to diffuse it on purpose This reminds me of the first fruition, in terms of how great everything feels. Feeling a lot of gratitude, at a logical level I don't think I deserve to feel t his good. 6:51am still feeling a cool refreshing pleasure. Though it is winding down. 7:14am wound down, but plesant

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