i.
ii.
Sarawak
Sarawak Malay
Malay ESL
ESL Teacher
Teacher
Trainees
Trainees
Theoretical Framework of
The Study
Dilemmas
Dilemmas of
of Sarawak
Sarawak Malay
Malay
ESL
Teacher
Trainees
ESL Teacher Trainees
The
The Constructivist
Constructivist Theory
Theory
(Vygotsky,
1978)
(Vygotsky, 1978)
The
The Sociocultural
Sociocultural Theory
Theory
(Vygotsky,
1978;
Bryman
(Vygotsky, 1978; Bryman
2001)
2001)
The
The Attribution
Attribution Theory
Theory
(Weiner
1986,
(Weiner 1986, 2000)
2000)
The
The Self
Self Determination
Determination
Theory
(Deci,
Theory (Deci, Connell
Connell
&
Ryan,1989)
& Ryan,1989)
The
The Socio-educational
Socio-educational
Model
Model (Gardner,
(Gardner, 1985)
1985)
Sarawak
Sarawak Malay
Malay ESL
ESL Teacher
Teacher Trainees
Trainees
Overcoming
the
dilemmas
in
their
Overcoming the dilemmas in their endeavor
endeavor
as
ESL
Teacher
Trainees
as ESL Teacher Trainees
Model
Model of
of Second
Second Language
Language
Motivation
(Tremblay
Motivation (Tremblay and
and
Gardner,1995)
Gardner,1995)
*Field notes
Case
Semester
2012
2013
Wak
Jan - Apr
Jan - Apr
July - Sept
July - Sept
Observation
Time
0700 1245
1400 - 1800
Day
Mon - Thurs
Venue
Classroom
Cafeteria
Library
Step
1. Analysing the
interviews
Focus
Sarawak Malay
ESL teacher
trainees
dilemmas
Pre-analysis
Transcription of
data
Development of
sub-categories
within the
thematic
categories.
2. Analysing the
classroom
observation
Sarawak Malay
ESL teacher
trainees actual
classroom
behaviours.
Transcription of
data
Identification of
main dilemmas of
Malay teacher
trainees.
Steps in
analysis
Outcomes
1.Identify key
words, phrases
and code them.
2. List the above
under relevant
categories.
3.Group key
words/ phrases
into subcategories.
Descriptions of
each category of
MTT dilemmas.
Descriptions of
each MTT
classroom
behaviours.
Identification of
patterns across
MTT dilemmas.
Individual and
group patterns of
classroom
behaviours and its
relation to their
dilemma.
Step 2: Repeated
reading of interview
transcripts
Stage 8:
Collect
compone
nts
related
to each
theme
for each
participa
nt
Emerging
Emerging
themes
themes
Step 3: Identify
emerging themes
related to research
questions.
Data
Data from
from
Interview
Interview
transcripts
transcripts
Stage 7:
Use
clusters
to
confirm
theories
Step 5: Reduce
comments and record in
margin of text
Clusters
Clusters
formed
formed
Themes
Themes
Stage 9:
Constru
ct each
particip
ants
perspec
tive on
themes
Case
Case
studies
studies
1.
2.
3.
4.
The Dilemma
The situation that often involves
complex and conflicting principles
of ethical behavior because no
clear guideline is available on
how to act and respond to a
specific problem.
Cultural
misfit
Low dilemma
Difficulty in
working with Malay
friends
Painful experience
in taking parts in
class discussion
Asking questions is
asking for
problems
Dealing with traitor
in the group
Language as barrier
Irritating English
slang
Easier to speak
Malay with the
Malays
Speaks English with
the non-Malays not
Malays
Unwilling to take the
risk
Negative remarks
when speaking
English
Should I stay with
my Malay group
members?
Mild dilemma
Dealing with
uninterested
friends in teaching
Distractions from
social media
Dealing with
peoples behaviour
Not ambitious, as
long as the work is
completed
Nothing has change
and I am satisfied
with it
Does not take
competition
seriously
Does not want to
look like a fool
Should I sit in front
or at the back?
Aspects
Linguistic
confusion
Learning
to teach
Selftunneling
Learning too
many theories
It looks easy but
the result is
frustrating
Theories or
practice?
Many tasks with
limited time but
high expectations
Short-lived
motivation
I am just a survivor
Struggle to get
good pointers
A survivor rather
than competitor
school mentality
Slowly fading
energy and passion
Understanding
new and difficult
words
Learning more
than ESL subjects
Not really good in
writing
Did not read a lot
Finding relevant
materials and
information
Inconsistent mood
Maintaining the
right attitude as
future ESL teacher
Die hard
procrastination
Why should I
Restrictions and
Levels
Serious
Accept the
consequences
accepting the fate that I have to do that as a part of being a responsible, good
adult. Im here, carrying hope of my family, carrying my own dreams too, so, by
hook or by crook, I just have to adapt and do my best in working on the
assignments. MTT.int(3):(103-107)
Not interactive
but study hard
Interaction dalam kelas memang nya macam down la sik banyak interaction tapi
bila nak exam, dia akan belajar benar-benar. Independent learning. MTT.int(1):
(196-198)
Learn from
presentation
Tapi even kalau best buat presentation biasanya kita akan ingat balik dan
paham apa yang kita dah present. Bagi tajuk, ok next week present something.
Lepas ya bila dah present automatic kita akan ingat. Aku dah present aku akan
ingat la. Bila kita dah buat kita akan tau. Bila dah exam baru la buka
balik.MTT.int(1):(270-274)
Do not care
about what
people think
Ermmm, I dont really care about peoples perception. They can think what
they want to think. Malas la. Lantak la.MTT.int(1):(78-79)
Imagine that
everything will
be fine at the
end
I think that I can't wait to grow up and stop thinking about these unnecessary
stuffs and focus on my career. Why dont I justI do not, I dont have to think
about all these just focus on my career, focus to be a teacher and focus to get a
job, focus on my future, focus to get a decent job, have a family and stuff
thats why la sometimes just, I just can't wait la to be grow up and let the
hormone stop (laugh). MTT.int(2):(100-109)
Put on own
effort in
learning new
words
Sometimes, I was left, clueless about new words and terms. Nevertheless, I
never left myself without knowing meanings of those new words. Dictionary
application installed in my laptop is the solution on how I can overcome this
problem. MTT.int(3):(169-162).
Improve
vocabulary with
reading
Adapting to the
situation
I have to adapt on how they work and how they figure things out.
Nevertheless, I prefer to get things done quickly especially in working in
groups because working things done fast will give out more chances to me to
work out other stuff that are equally important. MTT.int(3):(197-194).
Learn English
from the social
media
Actually, practice of English bukan saja kita boleh buat dalam kelas atau dalam
IPG tapi boleh buat dalam social media. Kita akan follow tulis dalam bahasa
inggeris kita tweet dalam bahasa inggeris. Kadang-kadang chatting pun
chatting dalam bahasa inggeris. There is alternative way la other than class.
MTT.int(1):(295-300).
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